Imperfect
Imperfect Plain out selfish All I care about iz my self Im Arwen queen of the elfz Dont mess with me or you'll b licking more than envelopez Tug of war with an old jump rope But how did I become the rope you skip over? Quit turning me into your push over You think Im a machine you can program with your plastic controller Im made out of flame not snow Feistier than your imagination can ever know Im such a stupid bitch You know I want it I feel guilty each time the material of my pantz startz to slip Im such an ugly little pig Eating ice cream constant guilt trip You don't understand my lipz They say the wordz but in your mind the message doeznt trainsmit Im tired of fooling with thiz Tired of trying to raise your eyebrowz interest Magentaz the one you neglect Kiss me to silence the defect Spank my ass az a reprimand to correct To fix my attitude that's imperfect I've let you walk all over this girl of a woman One too many timez Making you happy haz become my own prison I can't figure you out no matter how many timez No matter how many minutez I set my mind to thought I still can't press the piecez bak into place Lick my neck touch my face Stare into my psychotic eyez Let your lipz b the one to tell me liez No not wordz thiz time Rather your teasing me with your love bitez Chorus Do I know you? Can I touch you? Can I explore you? Can I rub you? Can I pet you? Can I blow you? Can I restore you? Can I ignore you? Disregard you the way you do me? Doez it sound to scary? And do you really love me I query Chorus I want to hold you Really I do But do you want me to? Grab me from behind Your glistening body grind Im still so damned selfish I'll never b able to share Ill never b selfless Ill never b sensible Ill never b guiltless Ill never b responsible Ill never make you satisfied Ill take what you want and hide Because I want it all with greed And over you I'll cut myself only to bleed I love you more than youll ever see

Shizzy Fest
eih itz been almost twenty four hourz for me without sleep LOL i couldnt sleep and then az of you know my mom took me out eih we had another great little outing today when we went to go pick up my medicine and went to the store to get food and shit like at the end like there waz no way for me to b able to get my bc pillz so guess what aunt flo iz still here not like anyone fucking carez itz my dumbass fatherz fault becoz hez such a fucking cheapskate he haz the most shittiest insurance that like wont credit and pay for refillz of prescriptionz i think mainly my bc and they want us to do it by mailorder!! my gawd what are these ppl from the fucking stoneage? definite neanderthalz and I dont like these ppl my mom couldnt get it w/her insurance coz they wouldnt take her code where itz new and we dont have a card for it so she didnt get her estrogen either thiz system blowz eih my dad sent me over a baked potato mmm yumm az if id want that shit!!! eih ohhh wellz Ive been bitched at all day where she haznt had her medicine itz been pretty hellish az alwayz she wanted her "perfect children" Im alwayz the fuck up no matter what Im just sick of everything she even bitched at me for my shoe lacez being untied for five secondz and dragging like i can help that when she walkin fifty minutez per hour eih I have a dick up me *tampon* lmfao and Im getting so god damned tired but I cant go to bed coz then Id miss talking to Tim more than likely and I really wanna talk to him az screwed up az it iz eih ive felt pretty bad today and i wanna go smoke my two cigarettez along w/some monoxide gawd im screwed eih i wrote another song today ill put it up on here in a few eih laterZ

Hate Myself
Gawd I hate myself Im a stupid, mean, low down, low life, stupid, ugly, fucked up, skank, retarded, fucking no good, evil, thoughtless, non caring, self involved BITCH!!!! I should die yes I really should but I won't thanx to certain people needing me but I feel so fucking shitty right now I feel really bad becoz I made my mom wellz I wouldnt say made her but she did spent like all her money for a christmas present for me, my sister, her husband and her sister and I just feel like itz my fault for making her walk into that mall into a store for a pair of pantz for me that werent even the right size and are only going to fir if i quit eating again ;/ im so fucking fat and ugly and I hate myself and Im sick of ppl telling me that Im sexy and they want me and i make them sooo fucking horny when I dont see how the hell I can when I feel so fucking ugly how can it b possible? can someone tell me a reasonable believable explanation that would make me feel better knowing that I truly am scary? are they just screwed in the head? I just wish I could b a lot more fucking selfless and not take soooo much I feel awful eih ohhh yah my mom made me feel really fucking shitty becoz i put one of her unfinished old cokez in a box and it spilled out from shit happening where she let me drive on the free way but of course me little miss failure couldnt do shit im so fucking helpless im so fucking fucked up im such a fucking wreck cant do any fucking thing right I think i may go smoke the two cigarettez i just stole and some monoxide im pretty fucking out of it now and I HATE MYSELF more and more and more and more every passing day please can I just die? pay ya to let me die? eih I think Im obsessed or something too I spent all day trying to figure the person Im in love w/all day and wanting them gawd can i b killed? please? im sick of it I cant decide whether I should b the slave and do everything they want and b the fucking push over to make them happy where Im supposed to b the fucking pleasure godyss and fulfill their every need or should I b the self independent woman Im meant to b the innocent yet devious scheming trampy little bitch who playz the innocent yet the seductress all in one? even tho shez soooo damned ugly? eih i really wish I knew what to do sighz Heather DIE DIE DIE wellz Im a go do something else who knowz what but itll b something so laterZ

horny
mahn I dunno just earlier thiz morning I had Tim give me a picture of hiz chest and stomach now really turned on ;/ eih I just felt kinda weird around him too tho I know he totally wantz to watch me naked and having anyone watch me in my scariest form iz not a good thing ;p LoL Eih I mean i love him to death I think hez like prolly the most sexist guy on earth I wish I could put that picture up itz a really sexy picture when I am FINALLY able to make changez and edit my page red crimson paradise I'll put that picture up ;p eih wellz I waz so overwhelmed I even went and shaved my legz and my meow meow eih just so freakin horny right now eih i stil have aunt flo visiting but i swear to gawd therez nice sticky substancez down in my meow meow from just thinking and feeling stuff eih mahn wish I could get some sex from anyone it would b like REALLY extremely RUFUS!!! if you want or feel like giving me sex please contact me? I may b scary but eih I can kiss? LoL laterZ

brar
bwahr why can I never do anything right? Why do i screw everything good up? I just feel like a total retard right now I probably pissed Tim off by fucking up again I kept going on how i waz going to get rid of that stupid song so I couldnt do that dance for him altho he should know he could get me to do anything becoz I love him to death but I probably annoy him to death poor guy I just dont know how to b sometimez and I feel so fucking stupid I wish I could get something right ya know what I mean? just seemz I alwayz am never satisfied and want more than I already have I feel like such a dong I wish I could just not exist and erase myself from everyonez memory but do ya think thatz actually possible ha ha ha I wish! gawd id b gone in two secondz if I could do it Id have everyone happy and better off if I could do it and just not exist really wish I could guess Im going out tomorrow maybe we'll go pick up my pantz hell who knowz Mister mahnz being evil to my Melissa me and Melissa gonna have to torture and poison her or something yo Im sitting here naked waz doing the revealing clothing or what I thought it waz a few minutez ago prolly gonna go watch that here in a few minutez im just bleh guess I already smoked my only two cigarettez or id do that again eih why not try some more monoxide nah ive done nuff bad stuff for me the last couple of dayz but if my mood keepz up why not wellz I guess Ill b around laterZ

I suck!
Eih I missed VH1 showing Rocky Horror picture show! wahhhh!!! I love that movie eih Im honestly obsessed w/that movie I got to watch the where are they now for the characterz of themovie Gawd Id love to star az Magenta in that movie I sorta think of myself az Magenta I adore her shrugz Im a dong but the reason I suck doeznt have to do w/the movie itz that I realized from wishing I could do the movie Im not doing one of the thingz I love nad havent fo two yearz now which iz act Ive either been too depressed to do it had a fucking bitch director who didnt like ugly skanky little suicidal bitchez namely me ;p eih but I think I really miss acting and I wish I could do it again now Im not doing what I love at all and I guess I suck becoz life just iznt anything like I ever thought it would b ;/ eih ya know I hate smoking broken cigarettez ;/ eih I had the full one of the two I stole in my mouth tryin to look too naughty to Melissa to b cute coz I dont think Im cute at all ;p uh oh think big buttz up hope not or Im gonna b in deep shit. . .eih oh wellz guess Ill write again some time laterZ

Transparent
heiyz tonite I feel quite invisible i got invited to the aim anime chat thingy walked in but I felt quite transparent no one even acknowledged that I waz there and breathing eih ohh wellz no one in there really carez about me lil miss screwed up whore eih least thatz how I feel right about now eih Im semi talking to Melissa shez doing who knowz what like alwayz I told her and thiz iz the only person whoz ever gonna see the naked sooner or later dance and Melissa only getz to see it coz shez seen me do some quite fucked up thingz before such az ive stripped naked for her actin all retarded and shit ;p eih uhm and shez just seen me at some of my worse/stupidest momentz so I dont really mind doing it for her eih tho im never doing it for Tim lmfao altho you watch if he waz to like sit there and look at me w/puppy dog eyez and like beg me Id give in in like five secondz I hate how ppl can do that like wellz the onez who can look at me w/the puppy dog eye look to give in and gawd Tim haz extremely sexy eyez lol eih I didnt get to talk to him he waz leavin when I got on eih ohhh wellz talk to him some other time I gotta go get my bc pillz tomorrow lol finally aunt flo will b going away sayonara bitch!!! eih I hate the way ppl have me wrapped around their little fingerz and yes you prolly know if Im talking about you or not if you can get me to do anything you want eih that sux needz to work on being harder and more able to say no whatever the word for that iz. eih i woke up at 7 somethin today pretty late start eih? I woke up w/ a really sore throat from my monoxide fit last nite eih dunno if it waz worth it or not shrugz who carez? eih i think thatz about it for now cant wait to watch the Daria and Garbage thingy tomorrow nite ;p eih I think Im gonna write a story I kinda had an idea that popped into my head thanxx to a banner ;p laterZ. . . There once upon a time waz a beautiful godyss named Melissa doo Melissa doo lived in Deleware in thiz huge gigantic toy shack where she lived w/thiz hideously huge ogre named Mister mahn who liked to eat lil upchuckz for din din. Melissa doo had a daughter named Joy, Joy lived right outside of Melissa dooz toy shack in her play pen. . .eih gundam lmfao where she played w/all the lil boiyz of the neighborhood. Melissa doo had a wife named Heatharoo but she didnt live w/Melissa at the present time altho she waz coming bak really really soon. Everything waz quiet peaceful and happy in the land until suddenly one day you hear thiz big KABOOM KABOOOM KABOOOOOM Suddenly there waz the sound of lotz and lotz of screaming Melissa looked out the window and there it waz going for the penis enlargement factory thiz huge gigantic piece of flabby rhinocerus skin w/cheez falling off of it wherever it walked. It walked in and said give me a penis enlargement so I can make my wife Melissa and my daughter Joy love me again. So the ooey gooey chewy cheezy rhinocerus mahn takez down hiz pantz and they circumsize thiz huge gigantic cheez log and stick it to hiz baby tater tot if youd call it that dick and send him on hiz way. Again you hear a big KABOOM KABOOOM KABOOOOOM and people are running and screaming at the huge gigantic ooey gooey chewy cheezy rhinocerus he finally makez it over to Melissaz house/toy shack and hez staring at Joyz gundam Melissaz screaming "Joy Joy get out of that gundam!!!" but Joy cant hear her he pix it up seez her thru the window he lix the window mmm yummy he putz Joyz gundam in hiz mouth until he knockz down all the wallz of Melissaz toy shack and iz inside of it he then setz Joyz gundam down on the floor and startz lickin hiz lipz and starin at Melissa he sayz "Honey I'm home I got a new dick for you try on for size baby" he takez out hiz like 8 inch cheez log dick and startz jackin off "Dont ya wanna put it in your mouth baby" Melissaz screaming help help help!!!!!! she callz Heather and Heather rushez straight over on her broomstick flyz down from the sky and harpoonz the rhinocerus in the stomach all of a sudden a rainbow of cheez, cheezburggggggerz, french friez, and chocolate shakez come splattering out covering the earth where the surgeon general and the FDA have to clean the streetz of the new world where Heather Joy and Melissa repair the toy shack and live happily ever after!

Dare Devilstress
heiy!! guess what I just did? I tried to get Melissa to bet me to do it but dude I think shez about asleep or dead or somethin if ya know what I mean Melissa come bak to the living we want you we need you now ;p anyayz I went outside naked in the snow ;p eih ohhh kayz what all did I do tonite wellz az you can previously tonite I got pretty fucking pissed so i went and smoked a bunch of monoxide again eih then I found out that my mom haz taken a bunch of my stuffed animalz prolly to give my brat monstrosity child niece eih im really sick of ppl taking thingz out of my room my mom said to me today ohhh were gonna start building your room itll still b in the basement cold az fuck and just smaller and everyone will still come in my room and take my shit so what the fuck iz there to bother eih? I came bak up and waz going to talk in anime chat but az usual no one really cared about my presence being there shrugz so I just left shrugz again eih and then i came over here and saw that I had been gettin emailz from my stalking father yes believe it or not I have two stalkerz sad iznt it? eih he waz stalking me about going to a community business college my aspirationz/inspirationz have absolutely fucking nothing to do w/business if im going to college i want to go to a real one ya know what i mean? i want to write/act/write/sing/play/write/photograph see the picture? nothing to do w/business eih? and it just irkz me that he keepz fucking w/me like he actually carez he could fucking care less about me he holdz my thingz and wont let me have them gawd my parentz are fucking dickweedz. eih ohh wellz fuck them i wanted to go do more monoxide but somehow i restrained ohhh yah i think i wrote the second song thatz on here need to update and get rid of the fucked onez of it and the one before it eih uhm cant think of what i called them right now? look for yourself? lol eih bak to what I waz saying ohhhh yah! I remember why else i restrained I found thiz kick ass Madonna music that came off the Dick Tracy soundtrack Im obsessed w/the song Sooner or Later eih I got up and did scary thingz while talking to Melissa i danced how i thought the song would b like naked lol i got up doing scary thingz i think ive had wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much sugar content today eih ohhh wellz Melissaz watchin anime lol Tim just told me he got a webcam im glad I dont have one otherwise ppl may have made me do all that stuff on camera and thatd have been just plain out fuckin scary LoL eih Id never do that dance thing for anyone I have to agree w/Taschaz motto about dancing I CANT DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lmfao so eih itd b scary az hell and I dont ever want anyone seeing that! lmfao eih I miss Tascha eih iz Monday a holiday? doeznt know? LoL eih ohhh wellz Ill find out soon nuff I wanna go out Monday if I can mmm yah ;p come and sex me if ya dare ;p lmfao eih I guess thiz iz the end so I'll talk to ya laterZ

Handful
Handful. . . . Do I speak to you? Should I just keep my mouth shut Do I love you Should I have my head checked because I think Ive gone nutz Like a fly glued to sweet syrupy fly paper Im stuck My kiss iz the object I want you to suck And I wear your consolation of being your sex slave For when the urge strikez the stage Until the vinyl tap symphony Just your typical female greasy monkey Just a misfit with an attitude a bit too tart and spunky Smack it Slap it Trap it Capture it Enrapture it Dispatcher it Know it Blow it Throw it GET IT AWAY GET IT AWAY Because you just can't handle it Wild new fire Im too much of a handful Snatch her away from the thought of attachment Send her straight to the liquor cabinet To mix your drink with her tongue You didnt plan it Now the funz begun Careful don't forget your latex condom Martiniz or coke with rum One just never can make up their mind when it comez to getting drunk I kissed you once Just once And you started pushing my buttonz you knew so well how to push them then you pushed me away Chorus Should I listen to you Should I let you Should I want you No matter what it iz I do I love you I hate you STOP MAKING ME WANT YOU Stop please just stop Im panting and your palmz are dropping Pulling my clothez off forcing the buttonz to pop Relieving me of my dress Pushing me against the bed Is thiz really what I want? Iz it really what I came for? No really but you know I can't make you stop Chorus Guilty pleasure My body alwayz winz Grrr baby grrrr I want to let you in My body'z driving to push you in But I can't have your skin against my skin Your mouth against my mouth Your armz around my waist My throat gasping for air into gravity into space Spinning me around twenty timez so maybe I'll turn into Hazel Let you have me in your armz to sweetly cradle I can't let you near me when you've let me slide down to second place I don't want to see your untouchable face I just want it to end I want thiz to end I want you to end I want me to end Because you love me with only a mutual dividend

Speak
Speak. . . . What'z thiz? I told rover to speak He told me plainly no thank you miss Pretty little raveress geek What'z thiz you're too damned busy To schdeule in the daily scratch and sniff chewing on the toyz that go squeek I let you bite me with your rabid teeth and now Im dizzy You didn't inform me I guess you forgot about me little miss bondage freak For a whorific bitch mutt can beg and speak So you really want it huh little doggy Eye me sadly Try to pretend you want it I know deep down you only pretend to want it I feel it I see it I touch it Thatz why I've alwayz had the trouble of believing in it I've reached the sumit Of nostalgia so you want a pair of my pantiez thick full of moisture Do you need a new bone for structure? You really want it You really want it Here mongrel GO FETCH! Therez just one catch You have all the qualitiez but you lack loyalty Chase that kitty up a tree Don't lick me Don't kiss me Don't try and touch me You make me sick You make even the fire hydrantz sad with your arsenic pee Dog new trickz Never bargained I'd get the litterz favorite pick The one theyre trying to get rid of You're still not speaking and I've had enough Chorus You fuck the same With your pawz trying to grab my hindlegz Trying to make me go insane When youre the one whoz held responsible to blame All your brain Enjoyz thinking about iz sex I got a regular little horndog Kiss me, Fuck me Love me Lose me Then whatz next? Chorus Is that all youre good for? Forty five minutez and I'm your whore? Forty five minutez to turn me into your bitch? Whatz thiz? I alwayz waz going to be your old lady? Whatz that? Eating kibblez and bitz with a side entree of gravy? Whatz thiz? You wanna try and love me? Whatz that? Youll say the wordz if it getz me into your bed so you can fuck me? Whatz thiz? You wanna make me roll over? Whatz that? You think for me you've found a new owner? Whatz thiz? Bubble bath while watching yourself on Bluez Cluez? Whatz that? You never had no intention of loving me I waz just another face to use? Whatz thiz? I dont want you? Whatz that? Saturnz returning and you don't have any next move? Whatz thiz? Mutt still cant speak? Whatz that? Rolled up newspaper hitting you on the cheek!!! Whatz thiz? You wish you had? Whatz that? TOO FUCKING BAD!

Speak
Speak What'z thiz? I told rover to speak He told me plainly no thank you miss Pretty little raveress geek What'z thiz you're too damned busy To schdeule in the daily scratch and sniff chewing on the toyz that go squeek I let you bite me with your rabid teeth and now Im dizzy You didn't inform me I guess you forgot about me little miss bondage freak For a whorific bitch mutt can beg and speak So you really want it huh little doggy Eye me sadly Try to pretend you want it I know deep down you only pretend to want it I feel it I see it I touch it Thatz why I've alwayz had the trouble of believing in it I've reached the sumit Of nostalgia so you want a pair of my pantiez thick full of moisture Do you need a new bone for structure? You really want it You really want it Here mongrel GO FETCH! Therez just one catch You have all the qualitiez but you lack loyalty Chase that kitty up a tree Don't lick me Don't kiss me Don't try and touch me You make me sick You make even the fire hydrantz sad with your arsenic pee Dog new trickz Never bargained I'd get the litterz favorite pick The one theyre trying to get rid of You're still not speaking and I've had enough Chorus You fuck the same With your pawz trying to grab my hindlegz Trying to make me go insane When youre the one whoz held responsible to blame All your brain Enjoyz thinking about iz sex I got a regular little horndog Kiss me, Fuck me Love me Lose me Then whatz next? Chorus Is that all youre good for? Forty five minutez and I'm your whore? Forty five minutez to turn me into your bitch? Whatz thiz? I alwayz waz going to be your old lady? Whatz that? Eating kibblez abd bitz with a side entree of gravy? Whatz thiz? You wanna try and love me? Whatz that? Youll say the wordz if it getz me into your bed so you can fuck me? Whatz thiz? You wanna make me roll over? Whatz that? You think for me you've found a new owner? Whatz thiz? Bubble bath while watching yourself on Bluez Cluez? Whatz that? You never had no intention of loving me I waz just another face to use? Whatz thiz? I dont want you? Whatz that? Saturnz returning and you don't have any next move? Whatz thiz? Mutt still cant speak? Whatz that? Rolled up newspaper hitting you in the cheek!!! Whatz thiz? You wish you had? Whatz that? TOO FUCKING BAD!

Pissed
eih heiyz I have another bit of shit on my mind Im a bit pissed off right now saw the guy I wanted to talk to come on and i tried talking to them and telling them what Melissa told me I had to say in my breastz are pretty even tho I dont really think so but Ill do anything I can to make her happy coz I love her lotz anyayz they totally ignored me and wouldnt talk to me I dont know what their deal iz but I feel pretty god damned pissed and rejected I think itz prolly coz they were talking to someone better than I am shrugz fuck men eih I got something out of it i guess i wrote a new song called speak im gonna post it too here in a few minutez itz some pretty scary shit but im just mad the least they could have done waz say two fucking wordz to me itz really uncalled for to just ignore me but eih i guess im not surprised i do suck extremely much and i just dont care fuck them!!!!

observationz
eih lately Ive noticed that WAYYYYYYYYY too many ppl try and act all bad ass and like theyre sooo much superior to ya coz of just order of thingz and it kinda getz on my nervez it makez me feel a bit left out Ive also noticed that ppl are ALWAYZ trying to horn in and steal my position of being the nymphomaniac itz alwayz im the one whoz first and foremost mentioning SHE WANTZ SEX and then you see these other ppl say I want raped/ i want sex too/ i miss thiz person yada yada yada. . .just gettin sick of it. . .sik of hearing ppl tell me Im sexy and shit too coz I dont think I am I also MUST kill my compuker like I had all these linkz put up and then my compuker thanx to aohell just totally fux up and i dont get them saved gawd that pissez me off now i gotta go redo the whole god damned thing!!! grrrr!!! eih Melissa I have icky breastz yes world I have icky breastz and lotz of other ppl have better onez!!!!!! na na na gettin jiggy w/it na na na okayz im bein freakish tonite ;p they all say lifez just a bowl of cherriez but think again sugar high. . .that sugar high ;p lmfao eih I miss Tascha the tyger shez off skiing thiz weekend still do miss her thingz of been kinda boring the last couple of dayz ;/ and I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY would love to have some great sex least some great kissing eih and if you see me naked you shall b scared and i also have an icky meow meow dont listen to Melissa coz I do!!! eih I guess thiz iz the end coz I don't know what else to say so laterZ

Scooby Snax

Take The Scooby-Doo Test!

you whore

Take The Mu$ic Biz Whore Test

AHHHHHHHHH!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST HAVE PHONE NUMBER CHANGED MUST MUST MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!! CREEPY STALKER MAHN FOUND ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eih that waz not fun creepy stalker mahn called me i waz like half way there just thinking when am i getting off thiz conversation why did you call me? freak!!!!!!!!!!!!! eih i didnt even really talk my major word waz "yah" and hearing blah blah blah about thingz i want to do w/you when ya know you dont want to do anything w/them becoz youre in love with anoyher guy whoz not all psycho and shit, eih that waz scary who wantz to come get me and hide me from the stalker DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE MAKE HIM DIE DIE DIE DIE AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

scary

Punk!

lmfao blah Go Find out what Crazay Object You Are dreamz eih I forgot to write about thiz dream I had last nite it waz prolly the most inteneest dream Ive had for the last few weekz I started dreaming and it had me, and Christina and we were sitting in the same row and in the row in front of us Melissa and some skinny chick that she waz friendz w/waz sitting there eih and we were watching some freaky movie and i remember it had like where these ppl were really bad like they sinned a lot and didnt follow god and from it they had theyre whole body of organz inside like totally disintegrate it waz like the nastiest picture and then I remember like az soon az the movie waz over my dad came running over and right in front of Melissa saying I thought you and Heather had never had sexual intercourse somethin like that and he takez out these notez he haz that haz my handwriting that have these lil like story like thingz that id wrote about Melissa they were really explicit like sexually they were like piecez of a romance novel and everyone waz like totally condemning me for it and like i remember after that like i waz gonna go w/melissa and that skinny chick to her house and then like im walking out and they dont wait for me and like on the sidewalk coz i had to go talk to my mom and she didnt really believe me that i hadnt done anything wrong and then like i hear melissa saying yah mahn ive seen her pretty depressed but never that bad off and like then i remember ending up bak at the hotel where Melissa and her mom waz staying at. it waz prolly one of the most worse dreamz ive ever had! brrrr!! heiya here am I once again guess what? Im freezing!!! where'z the warm hottyz to cuddle w/when ya need them ;p eih therez about five inchez of snow lying on the ground outside pretty amazing eih? Eih I heard some sad newz thiz morning when I waz watching my MTV and the newzbreak came on Raynaz leavin the band of Coal Chamber to b w/her daughter Kayla, eih they're losing their best member ;/ eih ohh wellz im sure she'll b bak w/tem all in good time. Eih I also saw something pretty damned kewl today on MTV while I waz watchin Daria, dude I thought they'd taken her off I love watching Daria, anyayz I saw Monday nite when they show the Daria movie theyre gonna have after it Garbagez new video for "Breaking Up the Girl" wooo I get to see Shirley Manson so kick ass ;p eih sorry Garbage iz my favorite band in the whole wide world ;p eih I had a pretty good day yesterday I got a few I love youz and stuff altho Aunt Flo came to visit me yesterday that meanz Monday we gotta go have my bc and diureticz filled yay another whole new month lol thizll make the third consecutive month ive been on both and my upcoming fourth eih i started bc last year in March tho so a total of 10 monthz. eih what else to talk about? eih ohhh yah I feel kinda bad for Melissa right now I know shez really depressed and stuff coz she doeznt have a guy in her life where evil public stripper boiyz so evil and wouldnt care about her hez just mean and stupid I told her she'll find someone better but she doezn't believe me altho i cant blame her when Id first gotten my heartbroked and waz still head over heelz for my ex Will I wouldnt have believed anyone who told me that either I know it hurtz to feel rejection and heartbreak trust me Ive been at bothz doorstep wayyyyy too many timez. eih tho they both pass and then you come to find someone better. ya know itz kinda weird every time Melissa haz some guy or a bunch of guyz which she usually doez lol I have no body and then when i have someone she usually never haz anyone weird eih? Eih my stalkerz still lookin for me and Im still avoidin hiz creepy ass hopefully one day he'll get the message that we're thru and move on but then who knowz ppl are pretty crazy these dayz but letz hope he doez he'll prolly b lookin for me laterz but he aint gonna find me ;p he keepz callin Melissa and buggin her about me I feel really bad for her havin to have that to put up w/eih ohhh wellz cant last forever shrugz I guess thatz it for the jorunal entry maybe Ill write a bit if i feel like it see ya laterZ. . .Im on a SUGAR HIGH! ;p. . . There once upon a time waz thiz little juvenile boiy who didnt have one soildary thought in hiz head, He waz born and raised in southern California, the little dude liked to portray himself innocent, tho deep down the onez who knew him quite well knew hiz truer darker side. All the people who really knew him knew that on late nitez he went downtown to strip off hiz clothez fot the public. They called him public stripper boiy. the stripper boiy didnt understand love nor itz beauty or grace so he closed all linez for love to come into hiz life and passed up on the greatest devotion of people just so he could go down town and strip off hiz clothing for all the ladiez and gentlemen of the world to see. One nite he waz in LA getting it a lil fresh revealing hiz meaty booty when all of a sudden you hear thiz roaring hoot from the crowd, saying "OH BABY OH BABY TAKE IT OFF PUBLIC STRIPPER TAKE IT OFF!!!" from the crowd thiz raging disgusting blond w/a draggin ass runz towardz the stage "heiy baby when do you get off? I wanna take you to dinner Ill b waiting bak stage ;p" so she grabz public stripper boiy and dragz him off to the nearest Dennyz coz she get in for free there with her draggin ass. "My namez Saggy and I like to give it to little juvenile delinquentz like you bad baby boy." "You aint givin nothing to me Im not that kind of guy" "oh yes I will and hell yes you are" so Saggy feedz him dinner. "Heiy baby how bout comin bak to my hotel w/me" "No" "Okayz I see Im going to have to take thiz one w/force" she pickz public stripper boiy up and takez him bak to the holiday inn where she tiez him down to her bed "Heiy baby you can strip it good but now youre gonna see me strip us both." so she startz taking off her clothez first she unbuttonz her blouse revealing a flat minus a chest then her pantz revealing a saggy ass pussy and a draggin ass "Now itz your turn" so she undressez him startz licking her lipz and advancing bak towardz the bed he startz screaming "NAO SAGGY NAO PLEASE NAO SAGGY DONT PUT YOUR SAGGIN PUSSY ON MY FACE!!!!" 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