wicked gothyz place

Don't doubt my love for you because I'll never forget my time with you in the most velvety rich watermelon tasting apple cider consuming kaleidoscope of the mid drift of October

Immortal

You make me feel so fucking stupid Wanting you makes me feel like a total idiot And I see myself in every VHS video I watch myself walk up the apartment steps with the words in stereo And I come from a broken home And you say you want me but yet you leave me all alone Alone on Thanksgiving Even more alone on Christmas I'm your dress up Barbie doll who's good for an autumn fling You've moved on and loving me is no longer your intention

Why do I keep on trying I care about nothing any more not even the money I get from my body's selling and buying You see me late nights locked away on my couch screaming and crying Screaming and kicking at the moon You hate me you rat's ass baboon That's why you won't love me won't help me You threw me away so soon Now you're on to your next appetizing piece of fleshy ass I don't pity you I don't envy you I guess I just let these skeletons pass Because I'm crossing over to the next side Angels and fairys holding on to me from behind Taking me away, away from your tragedy of lies

And you used to say I need you in my bed But I'm just another hooker who's been jilted No happy ending like Julia Roberts got in pretty woman I get to be presented with the award for best acting But I think you deserve it more For all the dissipation you gave to me as soon as I walked out the door A nice little dolly to hang up in the window of your store You don't need me You don't need me Never again say you do

Chorus

I used to dream about being with you every single moment day and night Now I just want to slit my body up the middle nice smooth and tight I loved an imposter of a Rainbow Brite Now I have to find something to keep me living despite The fact nothing feels the same nothing feels interesting Spend that money on tolls because sex is what you're using it for and investing You have a new chick who's better and instead of me is besting Dead in the center of the brown carpeted floor is where you'll find me resting Because I no longer care what way any fucking one is dressing

Chorus

Bye bye my love I'll go to someone who love doesn't bestowe them enough Someone who wants to play police and I'll be the model on the bed handcuffed Play with me darling Since no one else will and calling everyone else I only get the answering machine I don't have what they need I don't have the goods or the ambition to any longer succeed So take her go ahead I'm giving up because I'll soon be dead Not that you care Not that you'll worry why isn't she there? It's because I hate mortals PiXy is what I am and with your first girlfriend I won't be nicely cordial

Miss Congeniality

You like to tell me I'm sexy I'm battling between bulimia and anorexia I never can make up my mind which to be Throw in a chunk or two of hysteria Stir it all up along with a dash of paranoia I live on the brink of fatigue and insomnia A slice of lemon in your nestea How about splashing me into your fairy fountain for a hot new Christmas item idea

I've gone down to the road and layed on the cold pavement at night Licking his picture at the very first sight You'd think I should live But I can't have the world at my fingertips So I don't feel like anything's worth the mind trip I'd much rather be fucking you out in the parkinglot Slut, tramp, whore, ugly, stupid, bitch I get those a lot You loved me at least that's what I thought You wanted me sooo bad at least thatz what I thought Wordz are priceless and you're all cheap talk I push my fingers into my throat and I no longer can stop

Now you want me to wear what tonight? My tiger pants and my black and silver shirt that flow over my 36c chest really tight? Sorry darling no can do because my ugly body might not agree and start to fight God how I used to want you Now you walk into this very room The very room we made love over and over And I see nothing in you but a wolf with eyes holding a silver spoon Red rover red rover Looking at your sorry ass I never again want to come over You have to cut me down to your domineering size just so you can tower me over

Chorus

Your arms were a fraud How could I ever have thought a monkey like you was hot It makes me crince to think of you touching her Admit it? NEVER! I won't ever admit that seeing you with her hurts me not EVER You were such a great lover But now I guess I'm going to have to go find another Cause I can't seem to forget How fragile it made me feel seeing your arms wrapped around her GOD I HATE MEN AND ON THAT WORD I SPIT

Chorus

You look at me as miss congeniality You think I'm miss sexuality What is this the hate'em and leave'em section? Go on and go back to your new girlfriend and quit looking at me in my bra with that erection You didn't pass the liars detection And it's not the rejection that stings See it's the thing That you picked a fat girl so much uglier than me To fuck you again and again permanently When you could have had my supple milky white breasts and young hot fresh pussy Oh wells I guess you're the sick bastard who chose stupidly No more of you mister frog On to kiss my devil of a man while you sit and drool over me wearing this Pink Panther thong So long YOU STUPID DONG!!!!!!!!!!

Lady of the Fliez

Somersaulting bak and forth You make me believe Im less than what Im worth Kissing and holding me looking for comfort Do you really want it Im never totally sure End it all I want to be buried beneath the earth You were the first To ever really look at me Now I feel so fucking ugly I have everyone calling me naughty

Secret dark society Im lady of the flies Too bad youre not able to spy what I do with your eyez Exaggerated story told with little white lies I have every reason to hide Peek about you wont find out no matter what you try If you knew youd only ask me why And for the things Ive done I have no good alibi If I should die Before I wake Over me don't let your heart break Lips cold as ice my brilliant quester I'll always b your Lady by the lake

I'm an untold myetery a simple hidden tomb of the Egyptians An unpronouncable word of hyrogliphics You ask too many questionz Bring up too many answerz that Im not willing to let escape my lipz in confession And my filthy hunger is building with progression Blood and tears line my mascara in repression Of ever telling You the truth that the press keepz on selling The guilt withheld never lessenz

Chorus

You try and kiss away the fear Licking up the strawberry tasting tears Make me invisible make me disappear Erase me away from every mind and forget the little voice you used to hear Why does punishment for a whore have to be so severe? Throw me off the deepest pier Let me fall through every hemisphere I know you're dying to get through my heavy veneer I can't let you I cant let you see because once you do you'll say I hate her

Chorus

Secret world of madness seething of wild fire I hold the kiss of death An ugly little bitch is the one you love and admire Ive nothing .left I cant let you find it within thsi shire Ring of power hidden behind the wall of my empire Dying flame of a godyss of the pyro Shine through my window I want you but Im too ashamed to let you know That for all I am I've knelt down so low And i've let it all go on for too incredibly long I want you but I cant have you No not any more not when Im this conditionally wrong I love you but I cant love you And I have to let you hear it I must, need and long to But I know once I do Im going to lose you And you'll growl and say our vintage love affair iz through

Interior

Why do you no longer care about me have I lost you Waz it something I said? Why am I losing you? I understand perfectly You're not letting me get through to you You're no longer letting me count too Do I no longer matter to you Am I nothing to you? Just because you lost it all to hell? Don't you think I lose it all too and I lose it to every male You were mine all mine My perfect lovely bride

Im nothing without you Fifty year old pushing you down hill I no longer know what to do Push me out until my voice startz to slip until You no longer hear me say sit still I don't wanna see you rummage for a soul I don't like seeing you without your soul But I honestly no longer have my soul Because I bargained for it when to you I sold Sold out my name Sold out my fame Soul coughing Whipped cream topping And you cant taste my tearz Because you don't want to admit what seeing me doez to your interior

Women of gold and silver My strenghtz beginning to filter Take me down by the river Tie me down to the muddy bottom Leave me because Im soiled and rotten And I want to touch you with my tongue noose around my neck iz too tight and im starting to hang Bread and water to my mouth iz all you brought And I waited but youre touch never came You never untied me from the trackz praying to some outer appearance of God It didn't get me a whole awful lot I've been saved and baptised But Im not your saint And because I can't help you You punish me by pushing the knife through

Chorus

Make me your property Sell me and profit from me Take my pride away Because itz all been pushed away Long ago But I lived on for you dont you know? You cant give up Cant ever give up Not when I need you my love Don't let go Because todayz not the end Don't let any enemy see you cry In the end Ill make you want me In the end Ill still love you Don't let me go Don't let the memory go You wanna have me checked at the door? Fine leave me nailed to the cross on the floor Leave me to b crucified For your faith Ive already died I still love you dare I? I do and I'll hold on to you until the end because you living in my eyez I know iz right

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dead

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Choco

I am Chocolate Flavoured.

I am sweet and a little bit naughty. I am one of the few clinically proven aphrodisiacs. Sometimes I can seem a little hard, but show warmth and I soon melt. What Flavour Are You?

personality

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amazing, practical, and always interesting.
someone who is constantly the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head.
They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding,
someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

EXTRA EXTRA!

*hums* every morning at 9am you deliver the paper to the grateful citizens of SimCity! Thank you! You cute little thing! :-)
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Dracula

You are Dracula. The original. The guy who started it all. Go you.
Find your inner vampire.

Uke

Are you seme or uke? Find out!

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Test Results
You think of yourself as being glamorous, shiny , metallic, and psychedelic.
Others think of you as being cute, fast, furry, and purrfect.
Your relationships can be described as salty, sea green, wavy, and resilient.
When stressed, you feel headache!.
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Love'z Left Me

Do you want to kiss me Or are you just playing Cat and mouse Welcome to the dollhouse Passed out Spent the night on the couch We're not going out I don't know what to count on Drunk and schmoked out Love obliterated with doubt Can't keep coming around When I don't think thiz iz going to work out

I think your sweet But I can't keep Myself coming bak And receiving nothing But a pocket full Of penz and paper With wordz that say your special When I'm not beautiful Can't stop feeling Can't keep living In the hand of a lie And if you're not willing to give me more than hi I'm going to have to walk down the fire escape And you won't die Without my presence to traipze All down the sidez You'll do just fine Without me Only the lonely Know how to survive

Can't keep it to myself Any longer It makez me jealous When you're talking to her And I want to do more than b tickled I want to b rougher I want to b dirtier I want to let my tongue trickle Down your throat And you know Thiz can't last Because I need more than friendship and a good laugh

Chorus

Should I drop it Should I let it Just all go I'd like to forget it But my mind sayz to it NAO NAO NAO So what do I do with it The matter of it iz That you made me feel more That I planned to I don't like it I don't want to I want to say screw it And leave with What I still have in thiz my worthless predicament I need to run from it I need to say I want it

Chorus

Wreckless senseless Little wildy Brought yourself into a mess I want to say politely You don't love me so letz end thiz But you use that little boiy approach The one that sayz please don't go With the sexy eyez with the tintz of just the right amount of sadness A kiss haz never been blown And a hand haz never slid across my thigh Iz it my fault because I'm the one fully grown Who knowz she wantz more than tuxedoz and bow tiez? And I just can't keep on toeing On to your style But I can't let it show So I keep my on having to hide And I can't keep being at your side Because I want to do sooo much more than just sit there So i'll leave maybe forever or maybe just a while Don't worry about where I've gone Just hope I've learned to smile Because love'z no longer sitting across from me at thiz table

Chemical Appearance

You ruin my good mood When your two Slitz of agony start looking at me like I'm a prostitute I wouldn't kiss you If you paid me to Don't want to Don't want you You think clothez mean atitude So doez that mean I should wear a shirt that sayz fawk you? Taking it all off You thought you could Stop right there Because of my dignity you won't strip me bare!!

Don't care Who the hell you are Can't stand to see me in flarez You're going to start treating me better than you are Go the fuck away I screamed it and I meant it Cut her up Fawk her up Sold out Butt kiss up Chill out Cover it up Bak yourself up You think you're done? Don't believe in it Time to switch it all up

Come on don't stop Not now Show me what you've got You don't have anything now Do you You can't stand to have me You can't deal with me Today or tomorrow You're going to get what'z coming For messing with me creating all thiz sorrow You're nostrilz are flaring Breathz fuming But there'z nothing You can do To get me To quit saying These wordz in my incisorz That get wiser and wiser

Chorus

Got fucked Had enough? It'z like a drug Like an electrical appliance you can't unplug Being the one whoz so fawking smug Az you look at me over your coffee mug I don't want your hugz Don't bestowe me with your kissez Do the dishez Iz all you can say While my mind twistz Into a makeshift Wrack of fabric constricted Around my hipz And you stare Did I give You the permission To let your eyez drift? NAO NOW QUIT!!!!!

Chorus

Am I a criminal? I must be You made me See through Every particle Dealing with the inevitable Believing in the evolution Sick of being caught in the middle Of heaven and hell Not being a demon not being an angel What am I to b labeled? Luke warm temperatal Try and kiss me because you think I'm tolerable My preliminary position strikez you az incredible Take me to the plaza Make a case of it federal And you want to call me cute and responsible But I'm nothing And I don't write thingz off az chanceable And not wanting you haz become a problem I'll find a way of solving The principal That I think of az chronical And I need a new chemical Chemical appearance To put between us

Clutching Time

Where are you my love? I'm sitting here thinking of you Wanting you More than you Shall ever know Telling you? I won't Proving it to you I don't Should I let it to you Be known I don't know

I want you to know But then I don't want you to know I'm afraid to hear you say no You can't love me bak Afraid to see you go Turning your bak On me Drenching yourself in somethin far more sweet Someone far more better And again I'll lose the eurythmic heartbeat My heart transformz to hold And again I'll become cold Again I'll become shallow And no one Will see in me the same parascape except the hollow

Can you really say you want me Don't look at me with those eyez My kneez can't stay solid, yet turn to jelly When they look at me with their texture of the sky And my lipz want to form the wordz good bye Because I know itz best for us both for me to leave solely Yet I can't fully and awarely Pick my feet up and walk on by I can't say to mind Don't please don't When I want to suck you blind And drown myself in pleasure beyong concept Lost in six feet and interchanging eyez of a boy grind And I'd give myself up to you except I feel az if I've dripped My insanity into you like a tragic play script

Those eyez haunt me And do you know how much I want to kiss your soul Release me Before I lose all control You want that of me Do you not We both know I need to go You ask why I ask why not I know because if I stay on I'll become lost in your undertow I'm forcing myself bak From everything I want To take and grab Into my foresight Into my hindsight Remember my dear They only want you for one night

But I can't And that Iz why I stand before you So parched Wanting to hold you Wanting to kiss you Aching for it Begging for it Quivering for it I adore it The fact that you want it But soon I'll let it slip The clutch of time All through my fingerz Because I couldn't believe it I wanted to feast on it So incredibly Immensely terribly Didn't think you really meant it That'z why I left it Do I regret it? If I do you'll never know it

Ministry

I miss him But I don't want him I used to give in To thinking I had to have him That I needed him But that waz when I waz weak and naive believing Whatever the practition Told me to listen And do exactly Az they told them

Do you know how long I've waited to scream These wordz in your ear conch That I wanted more than wet dreamz But you're the one who played me And I hate you for everything You ever counted for Don't need you To make me whole Don't love you Fuck you asshole Can't see you But I delight on the feeling of you eating crow Don't want to know you Don't want to hear you And I hear my mind screaming bak at me I told you so Because I knew all along You were a coward of ministry

And am I cannibal For being ravenous enough To want to suck your bonez dry of calcium supplementz Don't speak that fickle word of love Self centered resident Of my heart I'm going to cut you out Your lipz wore it out And now I hate it I don't want to make it But I'm making it And I'm living the life of liez you built Just for me To hell with it And you think itz funny When you get me angry Famous now you wish for my company Your presence only discomfortz me

Chorus

Watch me on MTV I'm going to tell you To blow your brainz out mister felony I hate you I loathe you And you Never took the time to know That I watched you from the window Az you fucked her And then tried to write her Off az your friend Don't give me that That'z all I ever hear from men I didn't mean it I forgot to tell you about it it The way I slept with it I crept into bed for it But I never wanted it I wanted you Bull shit

Chorus

Don't want it Any more Just want to play with the idea of having it Don't come to my door Because I'll shoot you for it For lying about it When you knew all about it That you'd never follow through with it With any of it Loving me included Screwing me excluded And I want to kill you For never mentioning it For never giving me it For never telling me the truth! That nao I won't be with you In a few years or ever Nao you just kept leading me on Let me dream on That you loved me When the whole time You knew You were only telling me linez I guess we all are but playerz On thiz cold empty stage Well mister aligator With the crocodile smile I won't stand here in rage

Furious fairy What are you going to do about it? Hellcat with new bonez in her teeth to bury Thiz all wouldn't b necessary If you could have just said you don't love me

Disappointed

So fawking nosy You have no life so you feed off the livez of otherz Mega totally fawking stupid you think you're so fawking sacred That you're the epiphany of it Get off of it You can't stop it You're so fawking weak Stop worrying Over when that pregnant ladyz going to pop Crimson and gold adorning Red fury inside iz storming

Let'z all conform To the id of stupidity Because no one hung on to their iq So sick of you So damned righteous But you don't do the thingz god would do You dont do the thingz god wantz you to You don't even know what you would do If you were faced with evil Would you survive A late night fight Against malice and spite And if you think you'd win You'd better look inside that empty head again Because you'd b lying on the floor With your head flinging Upside down And you'd let him take you down

Fuck you You stupid money hungry bitch Won't love you When you think it'z All and only about you I want to kill you I want to show you Completely and exactly What it feelz to b unholy When you sit on your fake crucifix But you don't know the simplest Thing about religion That'z why you've never been losing it You don't know anything but how to satisfy YOU!!!!!

Chorus

I'm going to bite you I'm going to despise you Just like you Hate me And don't give me your shit of loving me Because you love the king of bastardz more than me So shut the fuck up Go the fuck away I threw bak up my lunch That your blood money Paid for Restrictionz for the poor You're so fucking retarded I wish you'd let your soul become unguarded For one second So your aura could become a broken record Nao though you're too one sided Now aren't you Too vengenance guided I guess you belong to the seven sinz of greed So fucking ashamed to belong to your breed Why the hell did you ever breed In the first place you covetous hag You've never dealt with the real pain that a goth can't shrug off of their shoulderz Don't lie to the show ticket holderz We know you've got nothing on us And I'm so fucking disappointed to live because OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Twelve

You think you can just walk right bak in With your birthday suit and your painted grin Just what iz it you're wanting Don't give me that I know you didn't come here Just to swap Past timez and drinkz I know you so much better than you think And you don't know me at all I'm not going to agree Not thiz time You're going to have to go crawling Bak to the girl Who made you give me up Just so you could hear her purr

Meow Meow Cat fight You liked it Because it waz all over you right? Get over yourself Because it'z over You're immature and you act like you're twelve You just do it Because you know we're going to want you I can do that too You just never asked me to Pierced my eyebrow A fake mustache on your face iz the only thing that grew Did you ever know How I felt when I waz around you? Did you ever look around To see that she loved so many other men than you? You never think of anything more than you

Good time in the sack Iz that where you spent the nite last nite Jack? Contrary to the box car Where women and children sleep I want to watch your face b poked with hot coalz and sink into char You never earn your keep You just take it out of her And leave with bakstreetz Help of no finding her Because I've lost her Thanx to your retreat Of fucking her And letting her never Know what you're doing to her But I know. ..don't think I don't know Just goez to show

Chorus

You're soon going to b my transaction of a blood bank You're going to change Or you're going to die I'm sick of being the estranged And I fought because I let you make me cry I fought them because you're love for me died And I won because they were lower than even you So damned low that I wish they'd get you Take over you But you wouldn't win I know that because you're just a pawn playing And you don't think So you're no where in between You don't have a mind You're even more of a zombie Than me You won't kiss me Because my teeth are stained with coffee I won't kiss you Because you're mouth iz stained with impurity

Chorus

One chance One kiss One taste of you One glimpse Zip down my pantz But you can't I said you can't I would have gave it to you earlier But you left me For a sin much dirtier You left me for a little wanna be In belly shirtz and mini skirtz You thought she waz so pretty Pretty enough to forget me? I cursed you for eternity I hope you feel me Every time you place your mouth on anything Bubblez of mercury Filled me When you hurt me But never did I feel so deeply When I made the vow that nothing could scare me Because you proved to me That love was only an academy Of bull shit And that sex waz the only thing that cut it And I won't give it up For thirty minutez in the bathtub With you and your royal fantasy Of fucking me And then walking out the door by five thirty

Forsaken

YOU TRICKED ME!!! You only wanted the devil to consume me You never loved me Why doezn't he love me? You're all working against me Batz in the chimney I feel you coming All I can say iz maybe I don't want you coming Why do you keep coming Mouthz are all foaming And you're looking At me without knowing

I want to rip your heart out And shove it through the furnace Push me out All you can say is you don't know in earnest You're such a god forsaken liar I can't say his name in vain Not any more Pantz stuck in the dryer I never believed to have thiz in store And you proved to me again That I can't stand the sight of men Hurt dripping down my chin And all I want to do iz capsize your boat in I want you to feel it Just az I have Little mister no pain No pain no gain But you gain it all And Im left here with the guilt of it all

Did I become a ghost In two short monthz? Did you forget how close We came to making love? You threw me out Because you didn't want such a little bum And I can't quit focusing On what I did to have gone jinxing Every single thing That ever meaned Absolutely anything To me But you leave me no resort but crying

Chorus

You want my soul? Well izn't that tragic? I may have lost hope But I'm not going out alone I'm not going without a fight for it Get over it You slumlord Get over it Why don't you love me you barbarian Norse? Why can you let me know thiz? Thiz small tiny favor Of why the love in the spicket Ran stiller than forever?

Chorus

You've had enough say so sitting in my head I'm not going to look in any longer to let you have my thoughtz read You came here uninvited That'z right I waz never asking you to come So leave in the name of all that you ignited Angelz will soon come And they'll go at war to have my soul reposessed You won't win so return lonesome Because my ideas may have been repressed My soul may have been speaking louder Than responding clearer But I belong to go down with her Her soul that you tried to frighten her Out of her Witz with the fire of her Her brillance You tried to use against Everything you could turn in To bring her down But you won't have me Not now Not ever Go now I don't love you Not any longer We share history But itz over No more mystery I'm turning bak to good Bak to hell evil You would if you could Turn to her Gold wings of amber

overwhelmed
woah I feel a bit overwhelmed lmfao itz been a pretty long ass time since i've wrote an entry so here goz i'll fill ya in on whatz been happening since Friday to Wednesday. . .Friday woke up at like 11 i think i can't really remember my mom waz off but we did absolutely shit coz she waz in one of her bitching about money moodz and then like that afternoon my sister didnt come home so my mom left looking for my sister and to pick up my other sister i waz on here talking to ppl and Ron told me he like liked me or something ha bull shit guyz who like me need to go have their headz checked coz theyve split their wigz if they think they want a loser chick like me then my sister kept bugging me that my mom might b calling and so did my dad where she like an idiot went to my dadz house instead of just waiting for my mom to pick her up so they didnt come home til late since my other sister waz at a band meet which waz pretty damned kewl then like me and my mom went to wally world and got some shit eih i got my book finally HELL YAH!!!! lasy ass cheap skate walfart workerz who wont get off their fat assez and go look in the book department from the stationary dept which iz maybe like ten-fifteen feet apart it took me five minutez to locate the book when it said itd take them forty five minutez!! forty five minutez my ass!! eih then we went and got some food and on the way home i told my mom about the demon id had following me around for the past month or so and she said that it may b that and that she used to sense thingz all the time like spiritz and like that she didnt sense any evil in our house but i could feel it and i could feel it right then in the pit of my stomach like listening to me tell her about it and then later that night i couldnt get my bitch ass compuker to go off so i had to sue the phone and keep punching numberz and i waz sitting in the reclining chair in my living room where i sleep on the couch and like i had Cinnamon my toy poodle sitting on the right side of the chair and i waz sitting on the left and i swear i felt something climbing up on that side i waz on i bolted straight up and like ran over here to the compuker looking for some type of soul life lol and eih i kept screaming at it throwing stuff at it fighting it i didnt get to sleep til 7 am on saturday and didnt get up til like 4 something and then i came on here and talked to ppl watch tv it waz a surprisingly peaceful day and then sunday i slept most of the day i think can't really remember where i havent been feeling so very well which really sux eih and then my sister went into labor that night like around 11 and like my mom wouldnt let me go with her for the delivery my sisterz got to go of course they left in thiz lil circle of sunshine which really hurt becoz my mom before she left looked me up and down and gave me thiz look of you dont look good enough to b seen anywhere and i felt so fawking ugly and nasty and i just hated myself kept crying and didnt want to go course i didnt cry in front of her that day i just scrame at her to fawking leave me here and to get the hell out and then like eih that night i fell asleep around three and like i kept waking up in cyclez for two hourz wrestling and fighting the demon again and then whenever my mom and sisterz rolled in it felt like a frigging inferno to me Monday i kinda just slept all day and then got up read some of Pandora im on page thirty now and then like talked to ppl uhm letz see Tuesday my mom woke me up at nine thirty and i waz so fawking tired coz my sleepz so damned restless any more and uhm like took me to the doctor for a strep test which i dont have or least it didnt show up then we went to the hospital with my niece cameron whom i call monster and saw my sister Sherry and her husband Scott and the new baby whoz name iz Andrew Ryan Cahill hez an adorable baby I love him to death he haz these really cute facial expressionz and he wouldnt stop staring at my hair tonight lmfao i think he likez the color of it eih cant blame him ;p what iz it with guyz and red hair ;p uhm letz see then we came home and i got on here and talked to some ppl and then uhm we went and got monster becoz when we were leaving she threw the biggest fit and didnt want to leave my sister soooooooo bad so her dad offered to take her for a while and like uhm go to their house and stuff eih while we were at the hospital my sister told me that i should b glad i waznt there when she waz having the baby waz she trying to make me feel better or something? i mean it waz done and over and i could care less i waznt mad at Sherry or the baby when i wouldnt go monday i waz mad at my mom for being such a fawking bitch to me az alwayz!! today got up at 3:30 and like got on here for a lil bit then watched some tv and then we were like going to go bak down to sherryz today to see the baby and my mom bitched at me coz i havent felt so great and i didnt feel much like changing clothez and like she got all mad and gave me that look of you're not good enough for the world again and made me feel like utter shit so i cried a little bit and told her to go the fawk on coz i no longer wanted to go she dragged me with them and made me feel even worse gawd how she makez me mad i guess that about sumz it up eih ive had my stalker bugging me and emailing me lately and eih kind of had a fight last nite with Lizzie and Lattie you know who you are fakerz who got mad at me for telling that dude lee they wanted to have sex with them az a joke which he knew waz a joke and they got all pissed at me i felt like it would have been different with anyone else coz im not one of the popular loved little groupiez and i am alwayz being left out and i mentioned thiz and becoz i think that i dont get a simple acknowledgemnet of existence it makez me conceited and self absorbed thinking the world revolvez around me ohhhh yes the world seriously revolvez around me ohhh mahhhhn i hate myself i just want to have fun with everyone and try and make other ppl happy but i cant because i simply am never happy and im alwayz feeling awful which made me feel why i alawyz get left out but i NEVER once asked to feel the way i am or get treated the way i am to make me feel so awful!! and eih then i thought i waz falling in love with thiz guy but eih they showed me once again tonite there iz no such thing az love and i need to stop looking for it eih i guess thiz iz it so

laterZ

lemony fresh

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Girly

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my Diva ;p

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made it barely!!
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So which letter of the alphabet matches YOUR personality, huh?

devil duckstress

All ducks aren't sweet and innocent and you prove that. You have a nasty streak.
Find your inner rubber ducky.

Inside

Violation day number ten

Stupid chauvanistic macho pig men

I hate all of them

Wilting rose without her thorny stem

Vulnerability drowning me into your inconspicuousity

like a sin

Your touch makez me cringe

Your voice covered in whiskey and drenched

Makez me even more scared and nervous

My lips begin to achingly purse

All you do is sit there and stare

Stare at the poor little stupid girly and smell her

beautiful red hair

Make ups not a commodity of a mask i wear

Dont you touch me ever mister dont you dare

Im not your lesbian Im not going to b your whore

Dont come over here dont make me feel guilty no more

I dont want you to see me nude

I dont want you to look down my shirt

Dont tell me i have a fucking attitude

Just because I wont let you overdose my ugly feminine

body with hurt

You want it?

Come and claim it

Cause with the way your acting I damn well dont want it

What am I really worth?

Nothing Im totally sure

Dont tell me Im beautiful dont tell me Im insecure

Because you dont know me one fucking inch at all mister

You dont know what liez underneath you dont know my fearz

And Id rather keep it that way my dear

Because if the thought of me with another

Bringz you so much trouble

Then tell me now so I can get the hell outta here

Because Im so sick of someone judging me over some

fucked up picture

So excuse me mister

Excuse me if I refuse another open blister

On the inside of me

But Ive suffered too much hypocrisy

To ever let anyone bring me down again

So either shut me all the way out or let me all the way in

horror

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