>>lies&truth-25 -- Friday, April 18, 2003 | 02:06 p.m.

heee.. i haven't wrote anything in here for such a long time ^^;; but yeah it's the easter holidays and it's time to make some updates. well a lot have been happening... for starters, i've just recieved my award last wednesday and it was good even though it wasn't such a big deal it's nice to get something that you can put in your portfolio

but on another note i've had another encounter with some weird guy... i've always had encounters with weird perverts and i don't know why but i seem to be attracting the wrong kind of people. The scary thing is i'm not even good looking so what's the point of being ugly if you still have perverts comming on to you?!?!

the recent fella that i met was just totally.... stoopid -.- he came on to strong i think he was hitting at every girl that he met and i was unlucky enough to get noticed.... he offered me a rose and was touching my shoulders suggestively as i tried very politely to give him the notion that I"M NOT INTERESTED BUT DISGUSTED OF YOU!!! but he was thick and did not get the message instead he tried to put his arms around me and pull me closer to him.... i ofcoursed moved the other way and tahnkgod after a while he finnaly left *phew*

i just hate those kinds of people i hope i will never see him again >_< anyways my friend seem to think that there is a girl that looks just like me in my japanese class... well i beg to differ ofcourse but yeah they said she does look like me.... well i think she looks better than me. speaking of japanese it's all going well i can read katakana and hiragana very slowly now YAY joyness although my passion for anime and manga is slowly diminishing

one week holiday is not enough i tell you but yeah i will change my layout again soon ^^ i wanna make major changes.. should be all good but we'll see ^^;;

>>lies&truth-25<< -- Friday, April 4, 2003 | 09:49 p.m.

KILL ME!!! JUS FRIGGIN KILL ME!!!! AAAARGH

ahem.... sorry how long has it been..... since i wrote an entry..*sigh* too much work and my braces are killing me! seriously... it hurts so much ;_; and worst of all i can't eat any solids... well i can't eat anything that needs to be chewed >_< all i can do is swallow.. ay

well at least no more presentations ^^ fuuh and btw i presentation went so well this week i was so happii!! *tears of joy* other than that my week has been terrible and mundane.... i need to design something new and quick and i'm thinking of buying my own domain name i need to build up my portfolio ^^

it's near the end of the week and i need to go to my cousins b-day this sunday... i don't know what to give her... maybe an artbook but yeah...that will cost me quite a lot oh well need ot figure out something..

>>lies&truth-24<< -- Friday, March 28, 2003 | 10:28 p.m.

i don't mean to boast.... well alright who am i kidding i do mean to boast. Woooo i got into the "Dean's Honour List" which basically means i've been keeping a distinction average at uni. I'm quite proud with my achievement.. although i'm sure i could do better if i actually make some effort to study and not procrastinate soooo much.

I'm beginning to feel that the world is getting smaller and smaller especially with all that's been going on overseas, it seems that the safest place to be is actually.... right where i am. I'm so scred of that flu thingy that's been going around in asia.... but hey if Michael Jackson went to Hong Kong then he wouldn't look so different these days with the face mask and all HAHAHAHAHA.... what a corny joke... ^^;; gomen ne

ay this looks like another looong weekend... *sigh* assignments assignments.... where can i get the time to get a life

>>lies&truth-23<< -- Friday, March 28, 2003 | 09:57 a.m.

I hate asians who think they're not asian and ends up insulting their own heritage. I could remember this girl from highschool who hates asian even though she herself was filo despite being born in australia. I just think it's very stupid of them to just dissmiss their selves like that.

on a different note... is it just me or is will and grace getting boring and just not funny anymore? hmm.. maybe it's a sign i should stop watching so much TV. But i do love laughing. it's good to be able to laugh and i do think that laughing is good for your health. so laugh people let others hear that painfully scary side of yours. nani? i don't know what i'm talking about do i hnn..

oh i'm so jelous of my lecturer, what a cool young genious he is some people are just so amazing..... i'm trying to persuade myself that i do not have a crush on this guy ^^;; well... i don't! i think it's more of an admiration mixed with a touch of jelousy. The world is just unfair.... but i am happy with what i've got even though at the moment it's currently a pile of assignment waiting to be touched HAHAHAHA.... such irony ;_;

DAMN YOU!! DON'T PITY ME!!!

>>lies&truth22<< -- Wednesday, March 26, 2003 | 11:00 p.m.

Kitty got the chobits artbook...... damn her! hahaha.. the truth is i don't really care as much about CLAMP these days.... i've just lost interest in their works at the moment. X haven't lived up to my great expectations and Chobits is just... dissapointing. The only CLAMP work that seems to still have inspire me till this moment is Clover. I love Clover, it is trully a masterpiece. But yeah i think next time i should show some more enthusiasm towards kitty....i think it was pretty cruel of me to give her the impression that i don't care about her getting the book.

Oh yes a BIG BIG congratulations to Miyazaki sensei even though he will never hear this but getting an Oscar for Spirited Away is truly gratifying (take that Disney, Lilo and Stitch! ^^) I've always admire Hayao Miyazaki's works they're all so beautifully crafted it's really amazing to be able to watch something so breathtaking.

yes yes enough with the promotions hehehe.... back to my very boring personal life... i really have NO PEOPLE SKILLS! i can't make a decent conversation.... i don't know why... making friends is still an issue for me and that's just SAD really. oh well jap class was ok.... i got seperated from my friends due to timetable mix ups... *sigh* and INFO was just..... intimidating.... i really don't want to be in a class i have no interest in and furthermore be around people who are trully interested in that course. But i don't have a choice do i ...it's a stoopid prerequisite for my degree

But everyday it's getting clearer to me that friendhips are very important and i have distance myself from some people because i think i'm not worthy of them so to those people that i've hurt because of some terrible confusions.... i'm sorry.... most of them will probably never read this but believe me you are not the jerk i am so yeah...... this is the jerk signing off for the day ^_~ har har!!

>>lies&truth-21<< -- Tuesday, March 25, 2003 | 02:13 p.m.

It's only been my 21st blog and i'm already to lazii to blog.... *sigh* i have no motivation to blog and besides i think the blogging world is already dying. well we'll see how it goes.. hopefully i will continue on, i've quit so many things i think it's about time i stick to one thing. anyways there are still so many cool blogs out there like this one verry cool indeed me likes... and oh so so jelous XD

i love it when people praise me for my work, well it's not a crime to be proud of yourself sometimes is it? and most of the times i do put my self down anyway. i'm still happy with the result of yesterday's presentation. my lecturer again likes my presentation layout, which is such a big deal for me because it gives me some confirmation that i can be a good designer and also it makes all the effort that i put into it worthwhile ;_;

somethings are not that simple tho.... i still have to change my timetable around for japanese -.- gahhh i hate it when i have to spend like 5hrs break between classes hmp! oh well hopefully things will come around. and one more thing i'm trying to be a good girl *cringes* i have to be more polite and ...girly. Why do i want to do this? hell i don't know but i'm still tyring to be a BETTER person what ever that means....

>>lies&truth-20<< -- Wednesday, March 19, 2003 | 11:29 p.m.

it's been a "so far things are not as bad" day ^^ which is a very nice change. yeah..... i was reading my colloquial japanese for beginners book when this guys came up to me and started we started talking a bit about languages and stuff.... oh well that never happened to me b4 but i do wish it was cute guy but yeah that i know WILL never happen!!!

oh well he was pretty old and not physically attractive but he was kinda friendly and talkative... he wanted to learn japanese and stuff and ended up asking my email address so he can ask me some stuff on the Indonesian language ^^;;; i can't tell if he just wanted a friend or if he was hitting on me..... which i hope he wasn't and i also hope he never emails me ^^'

then in the co-op bookshop as i was wasting time this girl and guy came up and asked me if they could borrow my co-op card so they sould get a discount, so i did lent them my card.... i thought the guy was kinda cute well at least he was tall and i just love tall guys even though i'm short and he already has a girlfriend ^^;;

then in INFO tute i made a new friend, well she kinda approached me first but yeah she's nice and well we decided to be friends since there was only 3 girls in a room of 20 people ^^;; but i can't help thinking how i'm so approachable today! i don't know why but of all days... i've been talked to and approached by all these people

do i somehow look different? do i look nice and approachable?? well i don't really mind it's actually nice to think that people see me as a nice person... as long as they're not perverts that came up to me again X_x oh well it's been a good day so far... only a few more problems need to be resolved and i need to get started on my assignment ^^;;; hehehe... oh buoy this should be a looong sleepless night

>>lies&truth-19<< -- Tuesday, March 18, 2003 | 03:45 p.m.

I HATE THIS LAYOUT!!!! >_< hhmmm.. finally my server ish working again but.... yeah i hate this layout.. it just doesn't work... well nevermind i'm working on the next layout which should be better... well hopefully it is

trouble with my subjects today *sigh* damn INFO teacher why don't you let me stay in the tute!!! shoot... and yeah i feel bad because i felt i've betrayed Will's friendship... why did he have to chuck a fit and leave the class?? and why won't he try to get into my original tutorial class??? damn things are getting complicated... i don't know what i'm going to do if he really ends up getting pissed at me.. well i'll be pissed as well!!!

on another note... i felt weird sitting in the lecture with Kitty and Alicia and Jae Ok... i just think Kitty's very different to them... and i feel weird that kitty's suddenly dressing up VERY girly >_< she's growing up... but yeah totally.... weird

oh yeah i was so happy when my lecturer, alpha said he likes my presentation layout ^^ joyness, it just made me feel better cos i thought the layout kinda sucks, i need to improve my design skills.... i want to improve, the stuffs i make these days just don't impress me anymore and i need to impress me to keep going oh dear....

emotions are running high.....

>>liesandtruth-18<< -- Sunday, March 16, 2003 | 10:35 p.m.

what to write... what to write.. oh sooo tired -.- i need to get my priorities straithened... hmm.. boo i bought a new pair of shoes last friday, it's pretty cute and cheap. yesh i'm a cheapskate that's what you get when you don't want to work part time.

it's hard to find a good part time job especially if you have no work experience, and social skills ^^;;; heee heee... i need to work on my people skills but i seriously don't know how. i admire these people who can talk to anybody about anything i think that's just friggin fantastic. If it was me i'd have to think of a topic and then launch it but b4 then i also have to think if my topic is relevant to the person i'm talking to

yesh i'm such a geek. oh that reminds me i have to return my friends Kingdom Hearts game and lend her my Vampire Hunter-D DVD. aaahhh need some sleep i need to go into my weird dream/fantasy land ^^ nite nite

>>lies&truth-17<< -- Sunday, March 16, 2003 | 01:21 a.m.

nobody likes a whining drama queen so i've decided... i'm going to become a drama king!!! HAHAHAAHA.. that's gotta be one of the lamest jokes i've ever made XD oh well it's nice being stoopid sometimes, think about it no hassles, no great expectations from people..

You can be ignorant because you're stoopid, you can answer difficult questions with the simple "huh? i dunno.. *shrug*" and your parents will not bother you with small problems and silly questions instead you will bother other people with your own silly questions and doesn't that feel great.

so c'mon people embrace your own stupidity!! why pretend to be smart when you're not and if you are smart it's good to sometimes just be silly and not bore the pants of other people. then again i dont even know what i'm rambling about this time ^^ heee heee...

dammit end of first week of uni and assignments are already pilling up, what a great life i have! PRAISE THE LORD!!! aniiways i'm seriously loving Gackt's "12-Gatsu no love song" it's a lovely song ^^ and yeah if you haven't check out Gackt and Hyde's new movie moonchild check it out ^o^ oh well enough stupidity for today