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>>lies&truth-16<< -- Wednesday, March 12, 2003 | 10:05 p.m. i thought i looked kinda funky when i went to uni today i wore this sleeveless leather jumper with a checkered skirt and leather boots but when will cam he just goes "what's with the leather crap?" -.- wow he sure knows how to make a person feel good. yeah yeah.. oh well jap was fun we got to learn how to pronounce japanese words properly like tookyoo instead of tokyo. aah the mori system, oh well it's all good i love learning japanese. but 3D MULTI is another thing.. why does it have to be so hard?? i want to just be able to relax and laugh all the time, that's my new goal..... happiness.... as long as i can laugh it'll be enough, you gotta keep things nice and simple or else everything else gets tangeled up in a stupid messy web of confusion. i want to fly away....
>>lies&truth-15<< -- Tuesday, March 11, 2003 | 04:01 p.m. aaah university..... how i hate that place.... and love it too sometimes. well learning Japanese was fun fun ^^ i liked it. there ish another jap class for tomorrow which should be... intimidating but i can't help but get excited. I've been wanting to learn Jap for a long time and yeah this is probably the only chance i get to study jap in uni. so far i think i'm managing my stress well i'm beginning to get organised as well... wow me ... organised.. mmmmm i've learn the art of TV multitasking now i can study and exercise both my body and mind while watching the TV, aaaah it's beautiful thing ^^ but stress is always around the corner trying to bite my head off and rip my heart from it's ugly cage. crap realtime 3D multimedia is a hard course and i think i'm gonna struggle a bit here and there well hopefully i won't have to push my self over the limit and not to mentioned i got stuck in a group that i don't really like and i can't really tell the people in my group that i don't want to be with them or else i'll break their hearts. ay i don't want to be evil but being nice can bring you lots of inconvinience also. well it's a fact, life is hard but being happy about not doing something with your life is harder
>>lies&truth-14<< -- Sunday, March 9, 2003 | 10:58 p.m. the new layout ish comming and i'm thinking of changing the ways i write my blogs too. i don't like all this too much of my feelings crap (wooh can you tell i'm not feeling very good today) yesh i hope to not include so much of my "whining" and to include more of the other... errr... stuffs oh well on with the ramblings... my ever so nosy cousin came over again today and it surprises me how she could never pick up the fact that "we don't like her being here" -.- i thought the fact that i don't really talk to her much and paid more attention to the TV would give her some clue. oy some people... i lied to her too about my fruits basket CDs claiming that they weren't mine.... cause i don't want her to borrow it well not yet anyway. i know i'm evil and selfish and mean so what? aren't wwe all, at least i'm being honest with myself (that's a first) tomorrow is uni day again boooooooo....... lets hope the first day back won't be too painful well we'll see..... or rather i'll see....
>>lies&truth-13<< -- Saturday, March 8, 2003 | 10:36 p.m. today's kareoke was..... ok ^^;; it got kinda boring at some point. well i was the first one to arrive there and yeah since i was waiting i though i'll take a look at this scientology thing that they're having nearby. Well when i got there it looked like i've just entered into some religious cult thing >_< d'oh i should've realised this b4 but yeah... i got the hell out of there and finally my friends arrived. none of the aussies actually came to the K, i guess K ish still very much an asian thing... not many came there was only like 15 people tops and boy was the room big. we rented the room for 15-20 people and it was friggin huge, well i thought it was big ^^;; i didn't sing much... well yeah i always sound weird in the K room.. err.. well that's just my excuse. some people have change quite a bit well atleast in appearance. Jonno looks buff and Will got a weiiiird haircut O_o it was shocking and yeah the others were pretty much similar. Jenny looks very nice ^^ alicia did too, ah all these pretty gals ^^ in the end i think it was an ok experience tho i hate the thought of going to uni on monday boooo..... i dun wanna study. Oh yeah i watch the Vampire Hunter-D movie today and i wuuuuuv it ^^ i love the great art and the tragic love story in it, it's just my kind of movie, great art, great story, great action sequences, yup definitely a must see. Amana sensei ish so good tee hee. boi o boi i think i'm getting back pains hmmm... better sleep
>>lies&truth-12<< -- Friday, March 7, 2003 | 11:28 p.m. yaaaaaaay my new blog layout is nearly done i just need to make a few adjustment of so and it's uploading time again. besides that today is pretty much a bore... well Will called to ask about my timetable, we're gonna try to get into the same Japanese class, i'll be glad in some ways if we get in the same class because then i will already know someone in that class but then again i'm quite contientious too about the fact that i'm gonna be spending quite a lot of time with him. paranoid me ish thinking "what if he thinks i'm boring and such a pain in the ass?" *sigh* why must i be so complicated. It's not that i 'like' him in that way but i do think that he is a very funny guy and yeah well i want him to consider me as a friend that's also fun to be around with! i only have one lecture with my bestfriend and the rest are with the normal des comp people. tomorow ish Kareoke day!! yaay i'm kinda excited because i do love kareoke but what to wear.. what to wear.... ah that's always a chore to think about. hope there will be no major disaster tomorrow *fingers cross* i do wish to get to know the other people in my course better that's why i need to make more of an effort to get to know them. well... i don't like some of them but i guess that's just tough luck. I'll just have to put on my fake smile and go "HAHHAHA" oh my me.... i'm just so baaaaad ^_~
>>liesandtruth-11<< -- Thursday, March 6, 2003 | 11:08 p.m. today is a nice day.... so peaceful and quiet no drama no mess.... i think yesterdays breakdown was just my hormones acting up again. everytime it's near that time of the month i get very edgy and crazy... ^^ well it's tough being a girl but if i'm a guy i think i would be gay. Well if i'm a guy i would LOVE to be gay ^^;; hahaha... been reading too much shounen ai and yaoi stuff i think (yesh me a pervert) been thinking about starting to create winampskins again today.... but yeah learning how to make winamp3 skins ish a hassle and lazii me ish just not active anough. well i'm working on a new layout for this blog as well hopefully it won't be too large. oh well... there goes my sense of creativity. wants slee,p needs sleep, going to sleep. ZZZZZzzzzzz
>>liesandtruth-10<< -- Wednesday, March 5, 2003 | 05:35 p.m. "HORRIBLE" that's how i felt as i came home today..... WAAAAAAAH why does everything goes wrong when you least want them to? earlier today i went to uni to get my identification card laminated and to join the anime club... the card was horrible, i had to walk back to my house from the bus stop cos i forgot to bring the card, then as i put some money into the instant photo machine i did something stoopid and it won't give back the extra $1.50 change i had -.- plus the photo came out all white and out of ink. To think i actually had to stand there and wait while it delivers a very crappy result. then i took another photo at the photo shop which ends up looking quite nice if you stand 1 meter away from it -.- Then i got to meet my friends which was good. i did felt happy for a moment there. but yeah i just can't help but obsessing with the way i look. particularly with how UGLY i look ;_; i wonder if i should go see a psychiatrist... maybe that's not such a bad idea. I wonder if anyone else feels this way When i was a kid i used to be so carefree i had no worries about how people see me and i was happy... but thesedays i just can't help thinking about appearances especially when i'm walking trough china town. Why? cos there's so many pretty asian girls in china town with this great hair and this terrific bodies and i think "why can't i be like that?" why am i so unlucky to be born in such a horrible form... I HATE ME or atleast i hate this part of me -.- this shallow part of me. ya know what as i write this i think i'm feeling better already, i hate this sissy me and i don't want to be like this forever obsessing about how bad i look instead of doing something to improve it... but doing something takes money and that is not something that i have a lot right now. *sigh* but no matter what... i don't think i will give up on this quest. the quest to look good and be popular. The quest of a geek really ^^ hahahaha.... (geez how pathetic) well i think i'm ready to move on now... writing these things really made me better. no matter what, i am me and i have my own qualities no matter bad they are there must be some good in it somewhere.... just.... somewhere. can u believe it's actually a sappy ending? well believe it ^^ and i hope everyone who are feeling down will feel better too
>>lies&truth-09<< -- Tuesday, March 4, 2003 | 10:15 a.m. i didn't get a cool haircut... i just got a normal one... and i didn't dye it or straithened it either ... *sigh* oh well i feel.. i don't know what i feel, i think i should just be myself and well for starters don't go into a breakdown. hmm... so lazii to type.. i'll continue later if i have anything to say that is. i just need to play around with my mind for a while.. lalalala
>>lies&truth-08<< -- Monday, March 3, 2003 | 08:39 a.m. big bro visited on the weekend and whoa what a surprise... he actually looks.... nice ^^ hahaha... no more long messy hair instead it's now short, gelled and combed well i suppose he's grown up now. Well it's about time! he's 21 fer gods sake, hmm... but yeah i guess people do change with time i wonder if i'll change too...or will i be as immature as ever? i don't like growing up but i also don't like being left behind *sigh* optioning for the middle is always a hard thing to do. my plan is to cut my hair today... i'm still not sure weather to dye it or straithened it and furthermore what color. i never thought i have to make such an effort to appear presentable but i want to do this since... forever. it's a new beginning ^^ (and this is just about a hair cut) hahaha... well it's not just a haircut for me this symbolises something more... like the release of my inner self, the real me O_o or like my bestfriend like to call it the "dark me" , the evil and crazy me.... how i love that me. okay geez enough with the me talk i sound so..... nerdy -.- hohoho.... my big bro brought us some games too... umm mostly ones that i'm not interested in but Gio Gio's crazy adventure thing looks pretty interesting... mainly because there's some gay elements in it ^^ and 'Rez' is another interesting game. i mean WOW what a concept, trully inspirational well from my point of view that is, what creativity they have to create such a game as that. Fuuh anyways i also tought that my big bro was gonna watch a porn movie with his bestfriend in the living room XD well..... he didn't i have to start giving him more credit, i'm the no good sister hahaha... hmm.. oh well on with today arrrrgh only one more week and my holiday ish over boooo....
>>lies&truth-07<< -- Thursday, February 27, 2003 | 03:58 p.m. YAHH! i got my contact lenses today ^^... finally wooh i've been wanting to get these for such a long time, they feel kinda funny.. not mentioning the fact that i keep poking my eyes with my long nails as i try to get them off. lucky the optometrist was weilly nice ^^ finally i'm one step closer again to my big makeover, no more geeky, nerdy, looking me. Tommorow i'm gonna get my hair cut, still not sure if i should get it straithened or coloured. hmm.... still thinking but yeah. i've decided to become the me i'm proud of. The me that's decent looking enough to be accepted into this cruel world. That's right... because no matter how you see it this world is shallow and even though before i don't like to admit i'm shallow but it seems my mom's genes proved otherwise aah yesh this is my mom's word of advice... "when a person is born they are judge and their personality only counts for 10%, the other 90% comes from the clothes they wear, their hair and make up. You don't have to be good looking but if you are stylish then you are popular" i nearly exploded when she said this... what a total insult, well that's just something that my mom would say. It's easy for her she's pretty and popular always the center of attention. *sigh* it's so hard to be me, her ugly and boring daugther -.- maybe she doesn't realise that she's actually making me feel like a total loser, but i know that what she said was valid. people judge others by first impressions thus how they look like, personality comes later on. So anyway i've decided if she wanted me to look nice then i'm gonna spend some of her money on it ^^ hahahha.... poor her she's got an evil leech as her daughter. Well i've always wanted to look nice as well so yeah now i've got an excuse to do it *sigh* i'm so complicated oh well another shallow day in tis shallow world passes by
>>lies&truth-06<< -- Wednesday, February 26, 2003 | 10:47 p.m. started to draw my manga again *sigh* but that page turns out to be rubbish i don't even know if i'm able to get the first chapther going. hang in there hanga in there >_< holy crap i'm talking to my self again. anyways... yeah got a Kareoke invitation next week from uni friends.. hmm... should be fun i guess well i hope so at least ^^ woo hooo i'm going to embarrass my self infront of 30 people hahahha... lets hope i don't chicken out. gotta get things moving now so i better go g'night to myself and sleep tight *yawn*
>>lies&truth-05<< -- Tuesday, February 25, 2003 | 11:56 p.m. another late night entry.. hmmm.... so glad i finally finish the layout even tho i took me a while to get everything going that includes the tag board, and counter and the x-tra wallpaper as well, which reminds me my wallpaper site ish not ready yet ^^;; damn the holidays are comming to an end and so far i felt like i've achieved absolutely nothing. There's another one of those Michael Jackson interview thing on television today which is just sad. Don't people have something else to do than prying into other people's lives? geez who cares if the guy sleeps with kids, monkeys or whatever. then again why am i writing this blog? da da da dum!! oh the hypocrasy (sorry my spelling is getting rusty) i hate hypocrites why? because i'm one too .... err.. just joking O.o but i don't think MJ is a bad guy i just think he needs to grow up a little because no matter what if he doesn't he's gonna be faced with all this unecessary issues. Damn people and their prejudice. on a lighter note i just wanna say i finally finished Kingdom Hearts and beat all of the optional bosses including Sephiroth!! woo hoo, i feel satisfied cos i was getting frustrated when i couldn't beat him. some of the seiyuu's were pretty surpising i didn't expect names such as lance bass as sephiroth >_< hmm.. but they did a pretty good job even tho i think that Japanese seiyuus are much better. oh yes and i did a bad thing today.... i pretended to have a bad phone line and actually hanged up on one of my friends while she was talking... then i put the phone off the hook... yes i'm evil. Well i'm not proud of this but i was in no mood to listen to her talk 2hrs about her boyfriend and how nice he is. I'm just jelous maybe but yeah... damn conscience stop feeling guilty! ay the lies the lies....
>>lies&truth-04<< -- Tuesday, February 25, 2003 | 07:48 p.m. Yeah lookie lookie!! i finish the layout *phew* finally all i have to do now is add in the counter. hmm... i think i'll ramble some more later on right now i really got to eat. myuuu ^^ loves sore anyways better go
>>lies&truth-03<< -- Friday, February 21, 2003 | 11:01 p.m. Boooooo.... what a dismal day today was.... :( was that even proper english. It's been raining from morning *sigh* me no likey gloomy days. i've had no succes in my attempts to clean the house, my room, my mind ;_; it's all one big mess.Not to mention the big news arrived... i'm gonna have to help the family business once i finish university *sob* there goes my dreams but yeah i still got 2 more yrs >_< oh well now there's the possiblity of moving to a new place and living with my older bro again ewwww.... i hate to think about that. anyways gotta fix my sites.... and create a layout for this thing ^^;;
>> lies&truth-02<< -- Wednesday, February 19, 2003 | 05:21 p.m. awww... today was quite fun. Went to the city to shop with my best buddy and yeh we bought a couple of mangas (shobits and Fruits Basket), art pens and a very cute "THE DOG" rubbish bin ^^;; i know how kiddie. Well i was planning to buy some clothes but yeah.... i'll do that on another day. Today as i was looking around i just start to tink that everyone is beautiful in their own way ^^ i don't know why, i just think everybody looks really nice....... well there was this one older woman who was a bit whacked i think, she was walking around with her shirt off the shoulder like she was showing off her boobies (weee i said boobies :P)ahem.. yeah where was i, arrgh there's so much things i need to do and buy and it all cost a lot of money :( damn why does money seem to be a problem thesedays *sigh* oh well i'll make do with what i can.Oh i nearly beat Sephiroth in Kingdom Hearts yesterday but..... he still bit me by a little ;_; damn i'll squash sephy today ^^ oh well i'm happy i'm happy..... i think i had too much sugar today oh buooy
>>lies&truth-01<< -- Tuesday, February 18, 2003 | 05:55 p.m. weeeeeeee....... just got me self a pita page. ohhh joyness -.- i have nothing better to do anyway. booo.. the truth ish since these things are getting so popular these days i can't help but getting one. isn't peer pressure just sheety ^^;; oh well i guess i'll work on the layout now i guess... i hope i can make a nice one but thesedays i have no source of inspirations *grumble* oh well be back as soon as i finish besides i'm too lazii to type
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yay my first blog with my first blog layout. Since i just finished the game, i decided to use Sora from Kingdom Hearts as my cover boy so to speak. I love him ^^ so pretty. Well Square makes nice characther designs don't they hmm... jelous :P anyways i decided to make this banner simple and clean which by the way is also my current favourite song ^^ ahh.. it all falls into place.
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