WOW!!! Bin such a long time! I aint really got much 2 say cuz i wrote it all down. Ummm... I had a great time, got sun burnt, met loads of fineeeee lads, chatted 2 loads of fiiinnneeee lads, got pissed up loads n had a WICKIIIIDDD time! (^_^) I met one speacial lad... well one that i'll carry on talkin 2 n txtin n fonein!!! His names J n he lives down skeggy... well Ingoldmels how eva ya spell it! lol! N he's 15 n kinda ok lukin... lmao! luks like sum1 i'm totally mad about... (^_~) *coughtomcough* lol! ummm.. i dint do owt wiv him cuz ummm... just ask me yea! (^_^) thats a betta idea aint it! hehe! i'll tell SUM ppl the whole truth n nothin but the truth... but othas i'll just tell half of it 2... lol! i aint sayin who on ere incase ne1 reads this. :oP heheh!!! (^_^) +grinz+ YAYYYY! lmao! hehe! i happy!

I got a tooth gem +opens gob n points 2 tooth+ it wickid innit man! (^_^) i aint got no credit left +cries+ I brought loads of new WICKKKKKIIIIDDD clothes! I goin 2 a shitty weddin 2moz, n then ma grans funeral on Wednesday (>_<) she died on... i dunno wut day, thats sounds horrible, i memba it woz 10:30 at nite... but like ummm... i 4got the day cuz i woz bit pissed up n all! (>_<) oh well, she'll b peacful now and her n ma nan can luk down on me and help me out. They woz 2day, i woz walkin along the beach on ma own, it wo perfect (^_^) n they woz there walkin wiv me, helpin me sort ma head out, n ya kno wut? it did sort ma head out, it helpd a LOT (^_^) so thanxs gran n nan... (^_^) love ya both loads till the day i die and come join you in heaven. +sighs+

Oh well... +smiles+ i spose i'll go now, i dunno wut 2 do tho... haha i had an argument kinda thing wiv chris!! lol... first day i chat 2 him! oh well.... I kinda tanned... well i got burnt REALLY badly! LMAO! cuz i still had sum anit-bi-otics in ma system (>_<) n i not aloud in direct sun lite or on a sun bed or near a sun lamp! n i sat out on the beach 4 like 3hours! hahahaha! ma face peelin a lil bit, think it's alright now tho i THINK! cant wait 2 c J again +GRIIINNNZZZZ+ (^_^) alright then, that's enuff... if ne1 wants 2 read owt then they can read ma diary that i wrote wen i woz on holiday! lol. it bout 60 pages long... just 4 a week!!! wickid innit! i gunna read thru it l8a n write all bout wut happened on Thursday... lmao!!! Which like only 5 ppl will kno about on monday!!! (^_^) LMMMAAAOOO! no dawn already knos, she woz there wernt she! silly me! byeeeee xx +hugz n kisses every1+ speshy Laura cuz i missin her like MAD n J cuz im missin him n all n then Abi cuz i aint seen her 4 ova a week! n prennie, claire, sam, fanny n dawn can av 1 even tho she got one thursday nite!!! she nearlly got a kiss n all, n she saw ma thongs bout 100000,000 times! lmao! (^_^)

.::30th May 2002::. .:04:07pm::.


how can cin sum1 upset u? sum1 u love so much... I dunno... It just duz. Im obsessed big time... I saw him drivin his car... The back of his fukin head, only a lil bit n just the way he woz drivin the car n holdin the wheel i KNEW it woz him... +wipes eyes+ He came bak up the road the otha way n yea it woz him... But how the fuk did i kno. I think it freaked me out more knoin that i can tell it's him from the way he drove his car?... yea, thats really really freaky. +sighs+ I dont wanna go on holiday now... +shrugs+ I dunno y. Y THE FUUUUKKKKKKKK did i have 2 c him, it hurts so much n makes me member everythin that happened. N i cant remember it. +cries+ I gotta stop cryin, i'm just workin ma self up n gettin upset. Just read the email chris sent me... Kinda dint cheer me up sorry 2 say. Oh well... I'll email him bak now n then go b morbid watchin tv... +lafs+ y the fuk cant i b happy? I'm gunna have a wicked time, but ONLY if i make it wicked... Prerna said i sounded like sum1 from Manchester lmao... ok prennie! (^_^) I woz chattin 2 ma art teacher bout chris again... lmao! he's safe. he woz askin me if he woz ma bf n shit... SCARY! not scary if he woz, scary that he woz askin me loads of shit! Ok this sounds dodgy that i woz chattin 2 ma art teacher bout a lad?! how did the subject cum up... well... uummmmm.. lmao! We woz doin a portraiture project n i printed chris' pic off 2 show every1 then every1 said i shud draw him... so.... i did! Now i'm puttin it on the computer n doin all this speacial effects 2 it, then i mite blow it up really big n paint it n do loads of shitty stuff 2 it cuz it's the best pic i've draw of a person. (^_^) ok... i'll tell chris 2 read this so then i dont afta put much in the email 4 him! Byeeee xxx

.::28th May 2002::. .:08:21pm::.


ok... i woz gunna blog but i cant b arsed now! I gunna get fat, ate 2 much chocolate 2day.. HAY! i eat sum caramal bar shitty thing n i reaslised i h8ed em. Actually i dint eat a whole one just a peice of Kyle... aint he luvly?! lmao.. no not wen he says he wants 2 fuk me.. lmao or "rape" me... hahah bye... xxx

.::26th May 2002::. .:07:11pm::.


Aup! lol... Im kinda happy! I got sum stuff from town! (^_^) I got a white reebok (think it's spelt like that) jacket, wiv a gold zip n a gold reebok sign on it, it's dead nice material n really kool! That woz ummm... £35 (>_<) lol! Then i got sum shoes, yay! their kool n all, they woz £32 from Barrets, then i got a pair of trainers, there nike wiv a silver tick on then n then it's outlined in turquois, then on the toe of them they got a lil nike tick! in turquois again. They woz £55 hehe! so thats £122! wicked! lol! Abz came cuz she wanted 2 talk 2 me bout wut had been happenein while i woz away, so that woz kool. I guess straight away bout wut she had 2 tell me n it dint suprise me 1 bit...! lol. (^_^) I excited bout ma holiday now big time! Oh shit, i gotta write ma Physco analysis yet. I dun ma 'Blair Witch Project' one. That took me 1hour n 45mins round about, did 6 pages n most of is complete crrraaaapppp! haha! nm. Im takin ma 'To kill a Mocking Bird' on holiday wiv me 2 bloody read a 2nd time. Well... actually... i aint read it once hahaha! i woz sposed 2, but me naughty, i dint! lmao! shame. N i gotta re-read 'An Inspector Calls' which takes the piss cuz it's in scrip and i cant read scrips they dodgy. Im takin ma sketch pad wiv me 2 draw n all... dodgy man! lol... Well i'm sure u'll have sum spare time wen im bored 2 do sum more corse work for art. hmmmm... im goin now bye x

.::26th May 2002::. .:11:36am::.


urggghh +cries+ i got belly ache (>_<) ahh well, betta than on holiday innit. I goin shoppin l8a on 2day. Gotta meet ma mom in town bout 3pm. Im gettin sum trainers, sum shoes n a white jacket. Hoping to get a Hooch jacket like ma one i shudda got b4 (>_<) Right, i'm gunna sit in ma bedroom in a min n do ma hwk, gotta write 2 assignments/essays. ARGGHHH fukin stress man. nm. gotta b dun innit. So cyaz xxx

.::25th May 2002::. .:08:02am::.


god i aint talked 2 sum1 on msn this much 4 AGES, cuz chris dont really chat 2 me no more....?! Oh right... just gunna ask him why he dont chat 2 me no more, wut's up wiv him but he's away. haha... ok.. that's sorted i think, 4 now ne wayz. If not then i'll afta say summit 2 him again not i! (^_^) hmmmm.... I eart 20 quid 2day, wicked innit! Goin town 2moz, i livin in bloody tracky bottoms n shit tho at the moment cuz i gotta save all ma clothes 4 thursday, they all washed n ironed redi so i cant! arghhhhh! I cant go town in tracky bottoms, well i did 2day. I watched Big Brother last nite! It woz kinda kool. I made ma mind up which lads i like, which i don't n wot gurls i like n wut gurls i dont. Jade kinda reminds me of maself! She really really loud n crazy tho... she worse than me i think. I kinda like ummmm... ummmm.... lmao i 4got his name! he's not really gud lukin but he made me laf on his video n down 2 earth n seems really kool! (^_^) I'm learnin a!?! haha!

.::25th May 2002::. .:11:17am::.


shit abi... I just read ur blog and... and... and... u fukin brought tears 2 ma eyes babe. I would 'go to the moon and back 4 love' but i'd never die for love... NEVA EVA... I'd neva die 4 ne1 or ne thin, only cuz i deeply fear death. I dunno how i feel at the moment, i've got millions of mixed feelings. I dunt really wanna say 2 much on ere cuz ppl can read this, well obviously... but... i mean that ppl that i dont want to can read this. I'm hurtin inside, badly hurtin... cuz... cuz i want so much and i just cant have. I'm lafin inside bcuz... u shud. I'm just numb inside, cuz i havent a clue wutta do... N i'm lots of otha things... At the moment i'm in one of those months which i have bin all this May, where i'm mixed up, i dont kno who i love, who to trust, who are my mates, who to be wiv, wot to do, how 2 talk 2 ppl, how to treat ppl, how to say nice things, how 2 b happy, how 2 b sad, how 2 laf, how to cry... Or rather, what to talk 2 ppl about, what nice things to say, what 2 b happy about, what 2 b sad about, what to laf at and what to cry at. But that's life, and you've gotta discover all these HOW's and WHY's on ur own. There isn't a book to go along, and if there woz then every1 would be the same boring old person, choosin what their next decision should be based on a book, and then who would write the book.... bcuz no1 has lived everythin, made a mistake and gone bak on it n tried something else, n if that worked write that down in their 'book'... cuz u cant do the same thing twice... u cant go back on mistakes and also if this person wrote down the right choice 4 them in their 'book', then it wouldn't b an appropriate choice 4 sum1 else... Ok i KNO I'M GOIN ON BUT... SSSSOOO FUKINNNN WOTTTTT THIS IS MYYYYY BLOG, N IF YOU PPL DONT LIKE WUT UR READ THEN IT'S YOUR FUKIN PROBLEM DONT FUKIN READ IT THEN... well i'm goin now, cuz like ALWAYZ then net pisses me off, getts me stressed, wants 2 make me punch sum1 or something... Cant fukin wait 4 ma holiday, NO COMPUTER 4 1 WHOLLLLLEEEEE WEEK! FUK YEEEESSSSS bye. p.s... from now on, i'll cum on msn 2 chat, if ne1 pisses me off then i'll go. But the main reason i'm cummin on the net from now on if 2 BLOG ONLY. not 2 chat 2 fuked up ppl who piss me off u kno who u r... well no u dont cuz u not b readin this cuz i aint gunna let sum twat who bugs me read this am i. bye again

.::24th May 2002::. .:06:48pm::.


urgggghhhh +shuts eyes+ i feel kinda ill... i just bin walkin about tho, so thats probally y. It's decided now (^_^) YAY!!! we're goin away on Thursday evening!!! +grinz+ Gud innit! (^_^) I foned up 2 c if we cud take the cat 2 the catery on Thursday n they said yes! hehe! No stress 4 a WHOLE WEEK! I just cum on msn 4 like 10mins 2 c if every1 woz alright... n already PPL r stressin ma head... I kinda got used 2 not bein on MSN... so i prob not even go on as much ne more. I got used 2 lazin around, watchin tv doin fuk all! (^_^) N it bin really kool. At least i dont get STRESSED OUT layin in bed watchin tv all day n nite. I aint got no1 2 argue wiv, or do ma head in cuz U KNO HOW SUMMMMMMMMM PPL DO... haha... ok... im gettin even more stressed out, n i'm sure it'll make me even worse, so im goin now. I shunt of cum on MSN at all...

.::24th May 2002::. .:02:26pm::.


ummmm... +sighs n rubs head+ I feelin a bit betta 2day thank god. I think we're goin down chappel on Thursday nite now instead of friday dinna... just depends if we can get redi in time cuz me n bro got skool, dad got work n mom got college on thursday n no1 apart from me will b home till bout 6pm. n i cant do all the packin n gettin everythin redi (^_^) I cant wait now. Im really excited, speshy cuz im feelin betta. Well prob all the tablets im takin help! I only take bout 5 a day... well... thats kinda a lot. I got ma antibiotics which will help everythin n sposed 2 help spots n all so YAY! n then i take 3 pain killers n ma Neoclarityn tablets! I'll have finished ma Doxycycline (antibiotics) by wednesday tho and THANK FUK. cuz i think they're kinda dodgy... i think they made me late... i think once ya stop takin em u'll cum on (>_<) but then i'll b on on holiday +cries+ but o/w. i'll just b drugged up on even more tablets not i... lol. I just feel a bit sick now, n ma baks hurtin a bit. But apart from that i'm gettin betta, but aint gone into skool 2day. Just came on the net 4 5mins cuz i like to blog. n cuz im feelin betta at this min, then i'll b alright cuz im just sittin here. it just like watchin tv, but usin ma hands n all... ummm.... that sounds dodgy but n/m a?! I bin exercisin ma ankle, n actually it duz feel stronger n betta... Ne wayz, i'll go now cuz ma baks startin 2 hurt from sittin in this shitty chair... I aint goin out 2moz, just takin it easy n shit innit. Cant wait 2 go out again tho, aint bin out since wednesday n now im gettin sick of the house. so blog wen eva.... byeee xx

.::23rd May 2002::. .:02:33pm::.


urrghhhh +cries+ I'm just gunna blog in here cuz i not b on the net 4 a few dayz cuz i aint very well. I got the flu like rrrrrreally bad... +cries+ Ma heads killin, ma whole body just aches, i can hardley move around cuz i aint got no energy, aint eatin owt 4 2 days cuz i cant eat ne thin cuz i'll just b sick (>_<) i keep goin REALLY REALLY REALLY hot, then the next min i'm shiverin n shakin cuz im freezin cold.... ummm... wut else, oh yea ma stomach is killin n i'm bored shitless cuz all i can do is lay in bed allday n TRY get betta... so i'm goin bak 2 bed now b4 i'm sick all ova the comp... hope i get well soon, speshy b4 ma holidays.... (>_<) Lauz xxx

He's my obession. He's in my dreams. He's wherever i go.
Thats wut ma new blog is gunna b called!!! (^_^) I made it up this time... It wernt from no song! I'm gunna go it red n white, or red n REALLY REALLY light pink. N gunna get a kool graphic 2 go on it... Aint got a clue how i gunna do the layout but i'm gunna do it wen i get bak from ma holiday! So u'll all afta wait n c the finished shitty thing! hahaha!!! xxx Ashantai's Album is nearlly DUNNN!!!!! YAYYY! well ummmm...?! kinda! xxxx

.::22nd May 2002::. .:06:52pm::.


+yawns+ i'm tired. Just foned Laura up, she's goin away same time as me!!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!! I woz dead happy she woz, n she's dead excited just like me n all... I got belly ache... betta now than on holiday tho. (^_^) i cant waitttttt! I'm dead excited. Laura aint goin out wiv David no more! SO we're both single n lukin! Hopefully we'll find a bunch of lads 2 chat 2 while we're there 4 the week. Just ma luk they'll b a fit lad wen i go on friday, n he'll b goin home on the saturday! (^_^) +grinz+ I downloadin Ashanti's Album!!! It's wicked! ne wayz... i iz goin cuz i cant b arsed 2type no more!! xxx

.::22nd May 2002::. .:04:09pm::.


wicked!! Sam's lent me 2 of her cd's 2 burn 'M@w D2' n 'Best of United Dance' that 1's the best. It's realllllyyy wicked!!! OMG i woz gettin REALLY freaked out 2day... Matt's got this THING about ma eyes... n he even said he did. He said that he loves ma eyes, there really nice n urghhhhh thats dodgy! Im kinda bored... I think i'll write ma assignment... well just search round on the net 4 sum shit 2 put in it! hahaha.... oh yea, i went doctors 2day n he gave me sum antibiotics which r HUGE! n i aint aloud 2 stay in the sun 4 2 long while i take them bcuz they make ur skin thingy... this BIG posh word! haha! n then i got sum hayfever tablets sum urrmmm... clariton, how eva u spell it. Got a moths supply of them. (^_^) i kinda feel betta already. i dont feel as tired n stressed out, or mayb thats just the mood i'm in! lol! byeeee xx

.::20th May 2002::. .:09:07pm::.


omg... sum ppl r twats... i just punched the wall again n hurt ma hand.

I've found my dream girl!! says:
U!!!!!!! (i'm his dream gurl SCARY!)
Blondie says:
ummmmm.... thanxs
Blondie says:
but ya dont even kno me
I've found my dream girl!! says:
i know!! but from your looks you are my fave girl!!!
I've found my dream girl!! says:
u just are
I've found my dream girl!! says:
i'm sure ur the one for me!
Blondie says:
thanxs
I've found my dream girl!! says:
u do believe me though dont u
I've found my dream girl!! says:
i know that you wouldnt feel the sameway about me...i'd understand

Fukin twat... Fuk am i his DREAM GURL.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... sum ppl r twats aint they.... daft ppl. Sum ppl do piss me off.... n not just him. I can name u a numba of ppl that have. n r at this min. +sighs+ fukin dodgy....

.::20th May 2002::. .:04:04pm::.


h bloody hell. I'm in a bad mood n gonna screw at sum1 in a min. EVERY1'S doin ma head in n i'm gettin really pissed off. i gunna punch ma bro cuz he's FOREVERRRRR moanin n cryin. he's a fukin gurl. TTTWAAAATTTTT.....

.::19th May 2002::. .:7:36pm::.


+sighs+ This albums wicked! It's old but wicked n i love all the songs on it. It's TLC - Fanmail. I just gotta download one more song then can burn the cd! kool huh?! I already dun 1 cd 2day. Thats just loads of different songs on it. I'm really really cold... and really bored. I dont chat 2 hardly ne1 on msn no more... well i block most ppl or tell em 2 piss off n go on away, so thats y no1 dont chat 2 me... haha! funi! cant wait till i get ma laptop!!! Then i can sit in bed n chat 2 every1 n surf the web n shit innit! (^_^) ne wayz.... i'm goin now cuz i got 2 much stuff 2 do... although i bin workin ALLLLLL day (>_<) +cries+ I wanna curl up in bed n go sleep... As if, i got tons of hwk 2 do yet n all... so byeee xx

.::18th May 2002::. .:9:00pm::.


wicked! I downloaded KaZaA n it's wicked! can download songs in like 10mins! So i'm gunna burn a cd 2nite wiv all the songs i downloaded. Kool innit! Abz told me 2 get it cuz it's gud, n it is, well betta than morpheus, thats SHHHIIIITTT now. I just bin town 2 day. We dint buy much, well abi got loads of crap from claires. thats bout it. Saw Amanda n Katie, oh n kelly! bless her! She 15 now like the rest of us! yay! kool! +lafs+ I brought sum new shampoo n conditioner... then got home n found ma mom had brought me sum n all! lmao! so now i got loads. N/m. it's wicked n makes ma hair luk dead sleak n sexy! hehe.... not sexy... but just sleak n nice! Frizz free! (^_^) I sown ma red trousers up 2day YAY! at last! I buyin this top from H&M, it's a halter neck one, REALLY low... so if i c ne fit lads of holiday then i'll drop ma purse n bend down in front of them... lol. It's white wiv sum blue round the neck on it. Very nice, so i gunna buy it next week! YES i goin on holiday in 12days!! OMGGGG YAYYYY!!!! +lafs+ ok i goin now... im bored.... chris bein weird.... he aint chattin 2 me, he prob dont want 2. So i aint gunna chat 2 him. byeeeee xx

.::16th May 2002::. .:10:45pm::.


Sometimes...When I close my eyes I wonder what it would be like to be in love... With you

I am transformed to a world beyond my dreams so far from reality

In this land of Perfection Our souls become one... One heart, one mind One complete person

No longer searching Drifting Lonely and incomplete

For in this Utopia you and your love completes me. Your presence makes me whole.

All that was once laid void and meaningless is now filled with your completeness

Your strength carries me through the night without speaking you assure my innermost desires are safe in your care.

Your breath on my skin takes me to another level beyond comprehension

I am lost in you but yet I feel that I am where I belong I have found my place in this world

Your eyes catch mine and our souls unite

Around us storms rage the wing violently tosses the trees

But we are not afraid because in this newfound completeness we are stronger than the storm

How I long to stay in this world of wonder at one with you and safe in your arms

But I must open my eyes and face the harsh reality of the real world

I am forced back to everyday life... insecure and incomplete searching, longing Wondering What it would be like to be in love... with you.

Copyright © 2001-2002 Angela

Awwwwww, i love that!

You say that you'll love me forever.
You tell me your love will last.
You hug me tightly to your heart
And mine begins to beat fast.

You press a kiss into my hair.
You softly whisper in my ear.
I close my eyes and just enjoy
The feel of having you near.

You gaze deeply into my eyes
And then I feel your arms' caress.
From out my lips there slips a sigh
That I can't seem to suppress.

I feel your lips moving to mine,
Closer and closer it seems.
Then I open my eyes only to realize
That this love is only in my dreams.

.::16th May 2002::. .:9:56pm::.


i've gone into the OMG EVERY1 FEEL SORRY FOR POOR LITTLE LAURA MOOD..... WELL FUK MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE........

Blondie's Messenger

Tillerman says:
Is it your birthday?
Blondie - Happy Birthday Nan... R.I.P says:
omg
Blondie - Happy Birthday Nan... R.I.P says:
how thich can sum1 get
Blondie - Happy Birthday Nan... R.I.P says:
OPEN UP UR FUKIN EYES N READ
Blondie - Happy Birthday Nan... R.I.P says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAN... REST IN PEACE
Tillerman says:
I am sorry, did not see that in my browser, I apologize Tillerman says:
Verry Sorry!!

TWAT ALERTTTTTTTTT OMMMGGGG N AGAIN

Tillerman says:
so who is nan?
Blondie - Happy Birthday Nan... R.I.P says:
OMG..........
Tillerman says:
what?
Blondie - Happy Birthday Nan... R.I.P says:
FUK OFF U FUKIN TWATTTTTTTTTTTTT

Block..... Shame.......

.::16th May 2002::. .:8:56pm::.


gud... every1 else is bored as well... haha. It's not just the ditzy blonde sittin here typin this! +giggles+ i feel kinda sick... (>_<) +sighs+ I wish i woz walkin along the beach at the moment, hand in hand, arm in arm, with some really nice lad... Watchin the sun set, hearin the waves n waiting for the stars to come out... Ahhh well... We all av dreams dont we. +yawns+ i cant bloody stop... +smiles n bites finga... sighs again+

.::16th May 2002::. .:7:33pm::.


AAAAAAARGGGGHHHHH STRESSSSS... I cant even go out cuz i gotta b in 4 bout 8:30 cuz i fukin babysittin!!! argghhhh +cries EVEN more+ Ok i gotta stay in THIS HOUSE alllllll nite... FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK.... all im askin is 4 sum1 2 cum online CHRIS U FUKIN TWAT!!!!!!!!! y u afta go... i'll beg on ma knees if u cum bak on?!....?!?!?! plzzzzz!!! +hugz+ ok... beggin dont work... +cries+ shame....

.::16th May 2002::. .:7:21pm::.


I am FUKIN BOREDDDDDDD! theres FUK ALL 2 do... +cries+ no1s online... no1 gud ne wayz..... +cries more+ i wanna go out +cries n cries n cries+

.::16th May 2002::. .:5:59pm::.


+yawns+ I bak at home now! yay! It cost £160 2day 2 take us all out, n there woz 18 of us!! I do ma website YAY! i JUST finished the bloody things... Shout outs! Took me ages 2 do them. Ma brain went numb n i dint kno wutta put! Im gonna start on hobbies now! N then the message board one n other sites wont take long so then i'll do them! kool huh?! hehe! then i'm gunna put the addy on face-pic.com and faceparty.com +lafs+ then every1 can find out allllll about mmmmmeeee!!! hahahaha! scary huh?! oh well. Chris sad he cummin on bout 6, so hopefully i'll av sum1 2 chat 2 cuz every1 out in the hot weather avin fun accept 4 meeeee +cries+ i aint got the energy 2 b walkin round outside. Hardly ne1's online eitha, there ppl on... but no1 gud +snivels+ hehe! (^_^) ok me go n do more of ma website now.... bye xx