[Name:] Laura [Age:] 15 [Location:] Nottingham, UK
[Sex:] Gurly [A.k.a:] Lauz, Lou, Blondie, Blonde Bitch, Laurie [Birthday:] 4th Feb [Sign:] Aquarius [Hair:] Blonde [Eyes:] Blue/Grey/minty/olive [Height:] 5ft 6"
Now...
[eatin:] nowt [drinkin:] vimto [hearing:] Nellie Furtado I'm Like a Bird [seeing:] computer screen? [craving:] a time machien [feelin:] happy-ish, memberin gud stuff [thoughts:] i want a time machien! [quote:] If only you could turn back time [mood:] [clothes:] black trousers and baby blue top
Goals 4 March...
Eat healthier
Still gotta Find a man
Get more clothes
Have fun!
B kinda n not bitchy, sorry dawn, luv ya
Stop gettin stressed out as much
Learn to like ma self Cum on the net LESS
Find a job
Go on Holiday
Bcum REALLLLYYYYY pretty HAHAHAHA thats a wish... not a goal...
hehe! +giggles+ 2days been funi! actually i cant b arsed 2 type it now cuz im SOOOO tired n gonna fall asleep in a min! so i think ill tell ya 2moz! I think we're gettin a new car WAAHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! at last! im avin a blonde day, so mayb i shunt blog, then u'll all think im really really really blonde! +lafs n lafs n lafs n lafs+ BYYEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! +hugz+
wahho! im bak! Wow that took me a long time 2 eat ma tea. Nar i tidyed ma room n otha stuff n all. I'm bored now tho n theres no1 really gud online 2 chat 2... ok prennie, tom, will n chris all log on at the same time, so they is now +grinz+ Im in a kinda hapi mood, n i dunno y. Tom's just goin crazy! ok im not gettin very far wiv typin this! Im 2 busy chattin! (^_^)
pmsl, omg, tom is fukin crazy! no.. he aint, it's just me! well im pissin me self at ne thing he's sayin cuz im weird! Ok im in a hyper i wanna sing at the top of ma voice laf n dance mood!!!!! N i think i mite go now (^_^) byeeezzzzzz
+smiles at abi+ bless her... 4 n a half hours on the fone 2 sum1 she dint even thought she liked, and absolutly hated. I dunno wotta say 2 her actually apart from 'awwww!' (^_^) ok.. im goin 4 ma tea now upstairs cuz downstairs is buggin me now... blog l8a, bye
im really bored. I aint gone skool 2day, think i said b4. I'm goin up 2 ma brothers skool this afternoon 2 help do sum baking. Great. Ma mom is draggin me up, she says i g2g now cuz i cant let down ma brother cuz i promised him. All the lil kids r weird, they walk round holdin ma hand n they all stare at ya wen ya go in the class room. Bit like wen i got Whitemoor on a wednesday afternoon. +lafs+ i just membad wot nicki said 2 me yesterday, she goes "ma brother says ur really pretty" i woz pissin me self, he's only bout 11 awww! bless him. ne wayz im goin now 2 watch tv.... Bye
bloody hell does this song make me think. It's Nellie Furtado I'm Like a Bird.. i'm sad i no +sighs n sings+ It reminds me of last summer. The park, ice skating every saturday, sneakin out on friday nite, at dinners sittin on the fire station wall +smiles+ the pub, the fence on ladbrooke that in the end we found out u cud c thru it.... (>_<) +lafs+ the college that nite, the college that day, on that bench +lip quivers+ cream jeans!! LOADS of nice arses! me takin the piss outa Hidi n them lot bein round the corner! Now i felt daft then! contact lenses! +grinz+ ooooh HIM smellin soooo nice, dom n fanny at the door pmsl! smiles, all the lads from sk8in practically knew all the lads there! YMCA!!! OMG PMSL!!!! just last summer altogether!!! (^_^) I wanna re-live it a MILLION times. +sighs+ but i cant. If only i cud tho, there was bad points, but most of it was gud n wen i woke up in the mornin i was like 'YAY another day' n i used 2 b excited about bloody goin out the house. Just even gettin up outa bed excited me. If they invented a time machien then thats wen i'd want to go bak 2 n i'd make sure it woz ALL totally different. but now, id probally be a totally different person. I wouldn't b like i woz cuz the past wud have changed wot i was like now... Im weird, i get ma self! Ok i got this song on repeat now HOW SAD? oh well..... +sighs+
+shoves a whole cookie into gob+ yummy, +licks lips+ i just ate a WHOLE packet of cookies, normal people would eat like 5 cookies n take like 4 bites outa all of them, but im extra, one cookie is a bite 2 me +lafs+ so then i afta eat more cookies cuz it seems like i aint ate as many...? umm.. i understand ma self so dont worry, put it this way i'm just a greedy pig! (^_^)
hmmmm... 2 days been ok i spose, i came home at dinner even tho i had 2 gud lessons this afternoon, geo n art, i missed ARTTTTTTTTTTTT (>_<) n i must not feel well 2 miss art cuz i love it. I'm not going tomorrow eitha, it's only a half day, well half day n an extra lesson! No1 else is goin +cough+ yea great, well thats wot i told ma mom, but she aint really bothered who else is going.
Went to bed late last nite (^_~) I fell asleep in the end, thinkin about it all +raises eye brows+ n it woz VERY gud... no1 knows wot i on bout, apart from me n the person i woz txtin (^_^) so nerrrr! +lafs+ all i'm sayin is me liked a lot! n me wanted a lot... +cough cough+ yea.... so ne wayz, im bored now n i want sum more nice food, but we aint got ne, thinkin bout it tho we got 2 moer packets of cookies, but dont think ma mom will b 2 plzed if all the cookies r gone! So i spose i'll go... and do something else, try get some people to come to ma cliqu/website i spose. byeeee
i'm knackered, full up, got stomach ache n want my bed (>_<)
I've been really weird l8ly, not wiv every1, mayb them ppl no who they r that i bin bein weird wiv, mayb not +sighs+ I just dunno no more... i'm confused, no i'm not, i'm umm... confused wiv wot i want?!?! is there such thing? well now they is...
i aint goin on friday, stuff that... told ma mom i wernt n she wernt bothered. (^_^) goin 2 skool that is?... yea... Then i got 2 weeks off +jumps up n down screaming+ so thats all gud, i can catch up on lost of sleep innit (^_^) +grinz+ n then i go bak 4 a week and then got 2 weeks study leave off even bigger wahoooo! +lafs+ mayb not tho cuz i gotta keep goin bak up 2 skool 4 bloody exams, but i think they all bout afta 9:30am so i spose i not afta get up 2 early 4 that.... I spose i mite do sum revisin n stuff 4 em tho, cuz thats wot the 2 weeks off r 4.
I dunno wotta do, i'm like REALLY bored, but kinda got a lot 2 do. i'll go av a shower now then n let ma brother on 4 a bit and then when i get down i'll cum bak on +rolls eyes+ how excitin.... +thinks+ yea i bin doin that a lot 2day.... +sighs+ about sum stuff that well i aint sayin. I gotta help ma brother do his spellings n all (>_<) so i spose i'll say bye n blog in ma other blog in a min +grinz+ byeee
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I've got a new pitas page +grinz+ but guess wot? KNOW1 IS GONNA READ IT! I aint gonna give the addy out 2 ne1, n if sum1 finds it n reads it then they find it n read it. Well... I mite give it out 2 like 1 or 2 ppl, but thats it really. +sighs+ It's just gonna put all my REAL thoughts n feelings in it... Well i just gave it 2 Abz, n i'll probally give it 2 Claire. dunno who else YET....
2days been kinda crap, it chucked it down n i got soakin wet (>_<) I'm kinda bored n this weird freaky lads chattin 2 me aarrgghhh! I've been workin on ma clique/website, well i made it into a website n clique now (^_^) all from PURE HTML!!! yay!! I wanna new layout 4 this pitas page n all, i love the one 4 ma new blog, it's kinda really just basic n easy! Ok i'm goin now cuz i got sum shit 2 write in ma other one.. Laurie xxx
Well im REALLY bored, hungry n fed-up. I shunt b bored cuz i got tons 2 do so i spose i best go n do it innit. I been doin ma clique this mornin, so i spose it luks betta now. still only 2 membas +lafs+ oh well, ive been joinin loads of webrings so hopefully ill get some more members soon. I LOVE HTML!!!! +cough+ yea so ne wayz im goin 2 make ma self a Smoked Turkey Sandwhich wiv salad on... YUMMMYYY! i'll blog l8a... byeeeeee
Ok... I did summit really stupid last nite n i dunno y i started it n how i did actually start it but i started goin on 2 chris about i dont believe a word u say and i neva will, n all this shit +sighs+ Stupid bitch +smacks herself round her head+ I bin thinkin bout it all day... +stares into space+ In the end i blocked him, well... he txted me n then i unblocked him n started goin crazy. It's like i get friggin posest or sum shit. I decided not 2 block him tho n 4get him 4 gud, i decided 2 take abz advice -love ya babe alwayz, wot the fuk wud i do wiv out ya? i wud go bloody mad... ur just like my big sister, alwayz there helpin me out and givin me advice +sighs+ ur so much stronger than me and seem 2 alwayz no wot 2 do do u?- ne wayz... i aint cried like i cried last nite 4 umm... A LONG TIME n thats sayin summit cuz i cry a lot. I even woke up n membad wot happened n bursed into tears, then this song came on the tv n i burst into tears AGAIN... I tried ma best 2 luk "happy" at skool 2 day, although it dint work n EVERY1 said 2 me
"Oh my god Laura, u ok? U luk REALLY ill"
Well thanxs every1, made me feel a HELL of a lot betta +grinz+ (sarcasm intended)
Im stayin in ALL day 2moz... GREAT, absolutly great. One thing i shud neva so, stay in wen im in a upset 'ill' morbid i wanna sit in a corner and die mood. Just not gud. I shud b out surrounded by happy ppl, smiling and lafin and havin fun +sighs+
I got £16 2 day - Money isn't everything... love and friendship are everything... well actually just love, cuz love cums wiv friendship. ok ok ok... im goin now (>_<) Hopefully chris will cum online PLLLZZZZ CHRIS - IM SOOOOOO SORRRYYYYYYYYY +bites lip+ oh god, if only u cud turn bak time.... no no no no no no no no.... +screams+
Im off skool 2 day... dint feel 2 gud last nite wen i got bak from that bloody Univercity shitty thing. (>_<) It woz crap n they wernt no nice lads there eitha.
Wunda if every1s avin a gud day at skool. Mite do sum art work l8a on. Cant b arsed now, im kinda knackered n been on here all mornin downloadin shit n messin about. I downloaded Win amp, cuz it's gud, Enhanced HTML 2002 which is kinda really kool n all n then sum shitty lil things like win amp skins n desktop themes... I woz bored ok?! +lafs+
Oh i wore ma hair down last nite +LLAAAFFFSSSS+ It woz well funi. Every1 said it luked well kool tho?! wtf... it kinda did luk kool tho! I think i mite wear it down more often now, speshy afta i get it cut. There woz this lad on the bus wen we woz walkin 2 the uni n he woz proper starin at me, kinda funi really, so i woz lukin bak at him, then he cracked up n started smilin at me, oooo er, sum weird ppl bout these day int they. Then they woz this man wen i woz standin at the bus stop n he freaked me out. He wunt stop lukin at me, n he woz nasty (>_<) +pulls a face+ Oh well, i'll live!
Im hungry... like alwayz! N i cant b arsed 2 sit down no more even tho ma ankuls n knees r still killin me. Think i best go doctor bout em. Ok im goin now n gonna stop babblin on. I wanna new layout! byeeee xxx
+wipes tears away n sighs+ im in a PROPER weird mood.... I dunno wot im goin on about, im just totally babblin on 2 chris about a load crap... im on bout that bloody personality thing again, about how the fuk can ppl like ppl 4 there luks, thats impossible tho. But y i cant take ma own advice i have no idea. If sum1s ugly, ill tell em straight away 2 piss off... I not think twice bout wot if that woz me goin up 2 sum1, n they told me 2 piss off cuz i woz ugly, how the fuk wud i feel?! I totally h8 ma self everything about me n it wud really hurt ma self asteem wunt it... But not yet have i really truley liked sum1 just 4 there personality.
Oh fuk im just upsetin ma self now... so bye... xxx
I should b happy 4 wot ive got shunt i?... Even tho i mite not think ive got much, wen i luk around and think, i c i have lots of things that a lot of people, even my friends dont have. Y do we judge people tho? i cant answer that, it's just summit we do. I dont like people judgin me... If they getta no me THEN and then only can they decide they dont like me. But i still look at people n think Urghh, i dont like him, or i dont like her, just because the clothes there wearin. But if there the same person inside n they woz wearin nice stuff, then y wud i choose 2 like them and welcome them 2 b my friend... I really dont know. +sighs n thinks+
Im in a thinkin mood now, i just change moods really quickly. The only reason im in a thinkin mood now is bcuz summit ive just read...
"many roads to take
some to joy; some to heartache
anyone can lose their way..
if i said that we could turn it back
right back to the start -
would you take the chance and make the change?
if we could only turn back time,
but i guess we'd never know.."
I love that part... it's so kool.
Wahoooo.... Groovyyyy! +lafs+ He's WELL FIT! (^_^)
You live in a House.
You're married to will.
You drive a 206.
Your car is the color blue.
You live in the state America.
Your honeymoon is Spain.
Your occupation is a Doctor.
You have this many kids: 5 (4 male; 1 female).
+lafs+ hmmm... i dont like that! this is muh perfect one:
You live in a House.
You're married to sum1 nice (not sayin will aint tho!)
You drive a 206 soft top.
Your car is the color yellow.
You live in the state Italy.
Your honeymoon is Baharmas.
Your occupation is a Vet.
You have this many kids: 3 (1 male; 2 female).
(^_^) Got this from Here!
im bored... n every1s doin ma head in. No1 gud 2 talk 2 from the 27 ppl online +sighs+ Will's alright bless im. He neva eva shuts talkin. Suprised e aint started talkin 2 me yet! I mite get them free american adventure tickets off im tho, n take sum m8s along innit (^_^) im tired n fed up... I wanna holiday STILL... ok, im not gonna start moanin. 2days been kinda shit really. N im not gonna babble on n b all morbid, so bye...
2day i dint wanna go skool, but i went n nearlly got into trouble! well i kinda did n thought sir woz gonna take it a step further by givin me a lecture n shit, but he dint (^_^) I went on the comps in graphics n woz on faceparty cuz i found out that it dont filter out .co.uk but it duz .com so i woz showin every1 all the fit lads i chat 2 on it n shit then by accident i click on print (>_<) n i tried 2 cancelle it but it wunt, n the printers in another room which is BAD, so sir walks in holdin this peice of printed paper goin whoz laura? n i woz like umm.. not me! n he put it on miss' desk. Abz tried 2 get it bless her lil heart but dint manage, so then we sent Matt 2 do it, n he kinda got caught, but miss dint say owt n he aint bothered if he gets caught innit! he's safe.
I aint got much more 2 say, so i spose ill go n do sum ironin n hwk mayb... byeeeeez luv ya'll LOADS xxx
Lets face it... My comps fuked. Well not so much ma comp, but mayb ma connection. I cant get into hotmail, n wen i can i afta get in it thru Netscape which is the shittiest browser EVA n it keeps crashin on me n say 'page: done' wen it aint even loaded n the screens just blank... so IM TRYYYIIINNN 2 re-download it, n c if it works then. Also ma bloody Morpheus is fuked. They brought out a file from Music City that u had 2 download, n now they've brought out Morpheus Preview addition, n i cant download eitha cuz it keeps say 'Connection Timed Out' but no1 else can get 2 the sites eitha, well i dunno if that mite b NTL mayb.. MY COMPS SHITTTT N IT'S DOIN MA HEAD IN +screams+
Im starvin, as usual, or so chris says 'wots new?' +lafs+ okkkkkkkk.... n now it's just d/c/ed me.. rrrr... +bangs head on keyboard+ We went on the laptops in Geo 2day, n i went on hotmail n kinda um... got told off n had ma laptop taken off me, fuk it tho, there shit ne wayz, im goin now sort ma comp out byeeee
Right, i aint blog 4 a few days, but i aint gonna go on n on like last time. I'll just blog short n sweet. I'm gonna change Feb's goals ova 2 March's.. but here r Feb's n u can c which ones i dun:
Goals 4 February...
Get a new pitas site up n running
Find a man - Will i eva? Buy sum new clothes Have fun! Complete MOST hwk
Write more of ma story - Cant b arsed
Learn to like ma self - fuk have i!
Not 2 use mobile so much - Cunt eva do that!
Find a job - haha!
Go on Holiday - as if ill get a holiday Forget a certain sum1 - still aint dun, but i'll cross it out 2 make ma self luk betta +grinz+
N thats all i gotta say really... 2day been alright, n all of this week has so far.. Got a GCSE science exam 2moz - Wish me gud luk plz! Luv ya'll, Lauz xxxx
its mornin n im knackered still! I cant get into Hotmail...
dunno y. Bloody thing. Downloaded Internet Explorer 6 last nite, dont seem ne different really apart from it's got a Media icon on the bar! N the icon is a lil different colour on ma desktop.
Im hungry! as usual, i just ate an orange which woz yummy, apart from i got all lip gloss ova it n it dint taste 2 nice (>_<) right, im goin now 2 get sum breakfast, i gotta tidy ma room it luks really messy n then i gotta do sum hwk. Excitin day. Byez xxx
i aint blogged 4 a few days... umm.. i spose i got quite a lot 2 say, n it'll all b crap so ill warn u now, dont bother readin all this shit.
Yesterday i went 2 London. It woz kinda shit. The coach left skool at bout 9:20, cuz it woz l8 turnin up. It woz boring on the way there n i just wanted 2 get there and get of the coach. Then we went 2 Covent Garden n i woz dyin 4 sum food, so i eventually found a potatoe man +sighs+ n add one of them. Then we woz walkin n walkin n walkin! We went ova That bridge that has just been re-built, n that woz friggin freaky! +grits teeth and blinks fast+ we went 2 this bloody place where umm... dunno, we add this talk thingy, then we cud luk around this museum place 4 bout 45mins, prob longa. i woz just sittin down on these benchs there cuz i woz knackered.
We lost Abz Nicki n Stace which woz funi! Cuz the teachers were kinda stressin so they made me fone em up n then Mr Cooper stands there talkin 2 Nicki 4 time n wastin ma cred. We then went 2 this BLOODY FUKIN ART GALLERY... god, i aint been 2 such a stuuuppppiddddddddd place b4. there woz a fukin sofa wiv this kinda woman unda it havin a fukin orgasm... +lafs+ it wernt a real woman of corse... there woz sum fukin daft things there like a piano all broken hangin from the celin?! i meen wot the fuk is the point in that, how can ya call *THAT* a peice of art... i aint neva steppin in one of them places again, no offence 2 all the ppl that like art gallerys of corse.. +raises eye brows n lafs+
Afta all that shit we eventually decided 2 go 4 food, wen we woz outside the art gallery tho i put ma diskman on, well actually i hadn't stoped listenin 2 it all day... i put gabrielles - Dreams can cum true on... n me n fanny were singin 2 it, as long as prennie n abz n nicki that decided 2 join in even tho they cunt hear it which woz funi. fanny got cold tho afta a while n walked off wiv Ashley (awww! haha!) we saw the hole city lit up n it luked really nice... n uummmm.... i woz still singin on me one tho at this point, i woz actually walkin on me one n all, so ppl probally thought i woz right weird! n then i kinda just burst out cryin (>_<) which wernt really gud... im 4gettin ppl r gonna read this so i aint gonna say much else... about that ne wayz
we got 2 McDonalds like a million hours l8a! i dint feel hungry by then tho. n had a drink n a McFlurry which i dint eat. i want my bsb album... n this song is soooo true.... +stares into space+ y the fuk am i alwayz sad n cryin wen im on me own. i love ppl tho, and being surrounded by ppl, only if there wiv me tho, cuz then i just get all sad, kinda like on the bus 2nite... enuff about that n all... So we walked MORE BLOODY WALKIN 2 the theatre and watched An Inspector Calls, which woz kinda shit n all. But i understand the play more now and the charactors behaviour 2 the suicide of Eva Smith and all that shit, but i lost interest afta bout 15mins of watchin it n woz dyin 4 ma bed. Afta we got out there tho every1 had nuff energy n woz singin n goin a bit mad, but i just wanted 2 go sleep... i dint tho! I just joined in bein 'happy' and 'hyper' i tried ma best ne wayz. Mr copper had a Pick on Laura Day tho yesterday.... so i TRIED 2 keep away from him.
I txted chris on the way back, then fanny woz on the fone 4 quite a while, then ma mom foned, then sam txted me n i txted her bak, then i decided 2 fone her up n get every1 who woz sittin at the bak of the coach 2 scream hello down the fone! haha! She said we defened her n woke up her whole street! Then fanny woz on the fone 4 a bit longa, prennie foned home! i pranked a few more ppl.... foned claire up n said hello n asked her if she had a gud time at skool n shit, n then i thort i best give ma fone a rest cuz i dont think it's eva been used as much as that b4! +lafs+ I woz still singin untill ma batteries ran out of liquid (>_<) but....... I HAD SUM MORE!!!!!! haha! sorry! im goin a lil mad now.
We got home about 12:30, which woz gud n i got a lift home off Prennies bro. OOOOHHHHH yea i 4got, we saw sum fiiiiiiiinnnnnnnneeeeeee lad wen we woz on the bus... omg, fuk he woz nice. Every1 woz like dribblin at him!
Woke up this mornin bout 11:15am 2 complete silence. no1 woz in, wahoooo peice. But i woz starvin tho so i grabbed an orange, a yoghert, 3 peices of smoked turkey n a huge bowl of cereal n came on the net 2 check ma mail. Abz n Claire woz on, n abz told me she woz cummin cinema wiv us?!?! i woz like wot? i dint no i woz goin cinema i cancelled it last nite, so i ended up goin cinema 2 watch Don't say a word. It woz alright really, it woz kinda sad at the end n sum ppl were cryin wen it ended (not me wahoooo!!!!) n Abz bursted out lafin, every1 woz lukin at her well weird! inc. me! We decided 2 go Pizza Hut cuz i gone off McDonalds, it yucky (>_<) I had no choice yesterday tho, but i still dint eat owt. Pizza Hut woz yummy, we had this deal 4 £17.99 n shared out the price. It woz worth it tho n dint work out 2 much. The 70 dint cum till 9:30, n i cunt stay in town till that time so i caught the 69 n it dropped me off on percy street (>_<) i had 2 bloodyyyyyyyyy walk, n i dun enuff walkin yesterday 2 last me a life time! I saw Matt n Sam, well no, rather they saw me n kinda made me jump wen they came up behind me! Matt came up n put his arm around me... +pulls a face+ oh n grabbed ma bloody arse +lafs+ he asked me wot id been up 2 n shit, n then went. These 2 lads were walkin on the otha side of the road behind me but i dunno who they were but they woz starin at me, freaky ppl. Sum1 started whistlin dunno who it woz n dont give a fuk really as long as they wernt nice... n now im off 2 bed... so night, well 2 watch tv 4 a bit ne wayz, byeee
u dont no how tired i am... im REALLLLYYYYY knackered... But i cant sleep. N wen i do try n sleep i just get stressed out cuz i cant. +sighs+ it's buggin me now tho cuz i NEEDDD 2 sleep... but i cant, n it's stressin ma head n im gonna bloody cry.. cuz im weird... im just sittin ere, tryin ma best 2 talk 2 chris, well makin conversation, n munchin on mini eggs... Now i kinda feel sick cuz i ate a whole packet, one of those really big ones (>_<) ma moms being really protective kinda thing, she keeps goin 2 me 'wots wrong babe' n strokin ma head n brushin her finga thru ma bloody hair... she fukin freakin me out now. Ma dad gave me £20, n i dint even afta ask! Wahoo! Lucky me. Dunno if i can b assed 2 go cinemas on sat... ok i cant type no more... +cries+ bye xxx
I think ive worked out wot im wearin 2 London 2moz... I think... Ill probally wake up 2moz n end up wearin summit completely different. So far this is wot im wearin - red trousers, white red n blue morgan newspaper print top white jacket n trainers. I txted ma mom 2 tell her 2 get ma a nike bag like ma bright orange one (^_^) She fone me bak cuz she dunt no how 2 send a txt haha! +lafs+ n she said if the shops open wen she finishs college then she'll gemmi one.
Fanny gave me a letter... Which i aint sayin owt about... hehe! YAYYYY! i got a lift home, so i aint stranded up at skool no more. Just cuz ma parents 2 lazy 2 cum pick me up at about 1 in the mornin! Ma mom will b in bed n ma dad wud have been at the pub all nite n kinda pissed up! so that aint gud. Ma moms got work early next mornin ne wayz, so i woz just askin every1 2day 'can i av a lift home 2moz nite plz!' i dont mind askin, im cheeky ne wayz. ok im hungry so im goin now. 2day aint been 2 bad.... (^_^) gud gud. Bye xxx
yayyyyy.... I got £10 from ma gran 2day! Lucky me +nods head n grinz+ I also got a disk-man 4 Friday 2 take 2 London. Ma moms brought me that n all. They gave her the wrong one HAHAHAHA! n this is like a well betta one. I think it's bout £30 more than the one i shudda got! So im happppyyyyyy!
I completly lost ma voice 2day.. well kinda. Every1 woz takin the piss out of me badly! Cuz i cunt talk! It woz kinda funi. It's betta now.. a lil bit ne wayz. Its ok wen im in a hot room, but wen it's cold i cant talk again! +lafs+ I just need sum MORE songs 2 download 4 Friday. I got 2 more songs 2 go now n the ma Save the Last Dance Soundtrack will b dun. I love the songs they right kool.
Ma dads gettin me sum batteries 2moz from work, so then i'll b alright. Great Claire's gone now (>_<) I like chattin 2 her shes safe innit Claire +lafs+ Prerna woz online... but i dunno where she's gone... owcchhhhhhhhhhhhh..... this song hurts ma ears, the beat is like REALLY loud. Ummmm... it's Pay As You Go - Champagne Dance. It's kool.
Yay! We avin sum Pancakes wiv orange juice shit on! from real oranges which make me hyper. At least i aint really tired 2nite. Mite go tho in a min n watch tv or sum shit... So byeeee Luv ya'll xxxx
I feel terrible, i look terrible.... but hay, theres ppl who r worse off than me. At least i aint got sum deadly uncurable shit. My life still goes on. Take it for granted tho. that they'll alwayz be another day. One day tho they wont b another day, and that'll b the end. Will i b able 2 luk bak on my life wen its the end and be pleased? not just want to turn bak time and wish i'd changed summit around, or i had of said summit wen i had the chance, had chance 2 do summit wen i had then chance? I wanna luk bak on my life n b happy n b able 2 say yea i had a good life and i enjoyed it. by the way i'm just like cryin ma eyes out at this min. I just wanna tell every1 how much i love em. n how much i appriciate them being there for me. Cuz i mite not get 2 say that 2 every1 i love... cuz u neva no wot will happen. u shud enjoy life while u shud, cuz u neva no how long you've got left. I have no idea y i'm typin this, i just had a sudden urge 2 type, n now im off 2 bed again. Ive been there since bout 6:30pm 2nite... Love every1 loads n loads, even if i dont show it sometimes, i do, and you all know who u r.. I think...
You're a complete girlie-girl, and you have major self-confidence. You love to flirt, and your "I'm a total diva!" attitude has guys calling you 24/7. Because you're so bold, you can pull off these supersexy looks. but try to remember: it's not a complete trauma to go (gasp!) makeup-free once in a while. You may even find that you actually like the low-key, crunchy-chick look -as well as all the extra time you'll have left over.
Morpheus™ wont connect 2 the servers because 'You will need to download the Morpheus™ application to connect to the MusicCity Network' Bloody fukin thing. N now it's takin AGES 2 load up download.com rrrr +bangs fists down on the computer+ BLOODY HURRY UP. I wanna fatser modem, this ones gettin proper shit now. This lad says ya can get a 1mg modems, shit thats way fast! I want one! +lafs+ bet they expensive tho.
I'm ill... i cant talk (>_<) n me not being able 2 talk.. arrrggghhh sum1 help me! I can talk but it hurts, n i cant cough or laf, cuz that fukin kills... +pulls a sad face+ so i wont b lafin much 2day. +screws up face - 2 the computer+ fukin HURRY UP.... I got a head ache n all, n im knackered n ma tounges kinda burnin cuz i ate 2 many sour sweets. I NEEEDDDDDDD 2 run Morpheus™ up n do ma songs 4 Friday. Im downloadin Save the last Dance Soundtrack. It's wicked.
2days been alright again. Miss Bitch woz here, not gud. 'Connection time out' rrrrrrrrrrrr, stupid fukin msgs. Ok im goin 2 get sum food. Im hungry and ma wrists r achin hehe! so bye!
Claire wrote (in an email) on Monday 25th Feb 2002:
I kno this email mite luk a bit borin, well actually 2 b honest it is lol, i only dun it coz i was bored shitless. Wel neway if there eva cums a time wen u r bored shitless then mayb u cud copy and paste it or just even read it through and think out the answers ud giv.
Name? Laura Louise Chapman
Wot name would you love to have?(inc middle and last) umm.. I dont mind Laura really
Age? 15
Rite now how old do u wish u was? 17
Where r u now? at home
Where do u wish u cud b? wiv chris
Wot r u doin now?(b4 u was doin this survey that is) talkin 2 claire
Wot wud u absolutly luv 2 b doin now? just being wiv chris (^_^)
Does ur life feel rite now the best it cud EVA b? fuk no!
If not then wot wud make it completely perfect? 2 b wiv chris, 2 b REALLY clever n get all A*'s in ma GCSE's, 2 have loads of money and 2 b really pretty
Wot mood r u in? a kinda sad i wanna cry one...
Who do u fancie? I like a few ppl, well think there alright... but i like chris the most +lafs+ can i mention chris ne more?!
Do they kno? chris duz yea! haha! yea i can
Claire also writes:
If they dont then y dont U go and tell them????? TRUST ME i kno from experience that if U dont tell them, then
chances are they'll b no chance nething will eva happen bcoz they're r thinking exactly wot U r (y the fuck wud they like me? I cant tell them i feel like such a fool) If U dont say nething then who is? Only U can change UR life only U can achieve the things that seem most impossible in UR life.....and guess wot its all left up 2 U!!! Thats the bad thing U hav got 2 get up off of UR fat arse and get wot U want out of life bcoz 99% of the time no fucker else is gonna do it 4 U. YES ppl do care about U, sum ppl care about U alot and U mite not realise it, but at the end of the day.....only U can achieve ur dreams. Attempt them b4 its too l8.
REMEMBER: That once U do tell them dont mess around, dont fuck around by not sayin owt coz thatll get U no where, and may even make U feel worse bcoz Uv been closer 2 wot Uv wanted 4 so long than wot U cud or proberly will eva b.....just dont let it slip away......go on b a real dare devil......remember U only live once. Even though we'd luv it 2 b life ISNT a dress rehersal.
I'd like u 2 take note that in this email the word U was written 24 times, this ultimately means that Ur world is untimately on Ur shoulders.
Before u close this email can u plz take note that if u tell sum1 u like them and it all ends up goin tits up, then dont take it out on them, they cant help it if they dont feel the same way. They're proberly a gr8 m8 and u shudnt let ur feelings get in ur way.
Lifes gr8 dont u think? u shud feel privaliged (lol howeva u spell it, not in a spelling mood) 2 b sitting in front of ur flash pc, (even if it is as slow as a donkey) u shud thank god that u weren't born on2 the street and had 2 grow up as sum1 unknown (hense the article in the newspaper a woman offering 2 sell her young child and also her unborn 1 for £20,000 each bcoz she cudnt luk afta them and her self as they were livin on the streets) and thats just sad how ppl can go so low just 2 survive. So nxt time u moan bcoz its raining b gr8ful that uv got a coat,nxt time u moan bcoz uv cut ur finger at least uv got the facilities of anticeptics 2 make it beta where as many ppl hav 2 suffer in dieing pain,nxt time u hav 2 walk 2 or from skool b grateful that u dont hav 2 walk miles and miles on end just 4 a drink of water, nxt time its freezing cold just think at least ur not on freezing cold slabs of concrete....OUTSIDE ur INSIDE warm up against the fire. I kno ur prob thinkin wtf is she on about??? the person who written this email(claire) does nothin BUT moan lmao and i kno i do, and ill try hard not to nemore. I swear.
Do u now agree life is gr8??????????
im bored. im cold. im fed up. im hungry. im sad. im lonely... +sighs+ hmm... +thinks+ wot am i thinkin about... ma gran, skool, i h8 this song, im cold, wish it woz summer, i want a holiday and chris... life aint fukin fair is it. n ne1 who says it is then umm... they need there head checked out! +smiles+
Chris txted me least night (^_^) +lafs+ that cheered up. I like gettin txts of ppl, i dunno y, im just a lil weird. No actually... im gonna stop sayin that - Im just a lil weird. Cuz i aint really weird, im just different and every1 likes different things and different things make different ppl happy. Imagine if the whole world loved the same thing... that wud b totally freaky. so no i aint weird, im just different +sighs+
Poor claire... (>_<) i feel sorry 4 ya babe. I dunno y but i really want ya 2 av adam... that sounds kinda weird! +lafs+ I dont normally really say shit like that. That i really want u n adam 2 get 2getha.... well now i have! Im normally just like, oh i hope i find sum1 but dont think about otha ppl n that they'll probally wish 2 b wiv sum1 as well. yea cant ya tell im in a proper weird mood! ok i think i'll shut up now b4 ya think ive totally lost it.
Skool woz alright again 2day. I actually did sum work in graphics, miss had a BIG grin on her face wen i showed her wot id done n goes 2 me "see Laura! U can actually produce gud work!" i woz like "ummm... good?! +confused look+ yea i spose miss" i think i woz the only one that did any work today in graphics, i actually did more than dawn!
In french the fire alarm went off n we add 2 stand outside in the rain 4 about 5 mins or mayb even more (>_<)
ohhh destinys child, they bringin this out then?! wots it called umm.. nasty i think. haha! the videos funi this gal luks like a proper slag 'evey1 knows shes easy' +lafs+ 'ur nasty ur trashy u priceless gurl' if only u cud c the video! ok enuff about that...
ummm...... im goin London on Friday wahooo +jumps up n down+ hopefully it'll b all gud innit. I'm goin cinema on Saturday n all 2 c umm... i cant memba wot it's called haha! wtfs this shit thats on.... neva mind.
ma cuzinz goin 2 c Blue in a club this week i think BITCHHHH i h8 her! thats so sad! i wanna go innit. ow. great i got d/c n i think i mite go now... cyaz xxx
im bloody knackered. I been out nearlly all day. Went pub n ma aunty uncle n cuzinz were there, oh yea n ma granny n grandad. ma heads killin (>_<) o.w. We went bak 2 ma grans afta the dinna n i fell asleep on her sofa, like alwayz! Ma grans house is just really cosy tho n stuff. So it makes me sleepy +rubs head+ ive already had a shower tho n shit so i can just go bed l8a on 2nite. Mite av a sleep on the sofa in a min.
Ive put apear offline on msn, cuz i cant b arsed 2 talk 2 ne1. +sighs+ i wanna talk 2 chris (>_<) but he aint online n if he cums on he not do till bout 8 probally. I mite watch tv 4 a bit. But it'll hurt ma head even more innit. mite take a tablet. I think i'll go now... bye xx
ma mom n dad says im in a 'grumpy n irritable mood' haha +lafs+ great am i?! Oh well. Just got bak from town! wahoo, abz kinda went off on her one +confused luk+ i dunno +shrugs shoulders+ so me n claire sat in McDonalds 4 like 2 hours +lafs+ we woz just sittin there talkin, well... i woz! I woz basically tellin her ma life story. Cant believe she dint no about him yea... weird or wot. Well i told her all bout wot happened (>_<) n then she said it sounded like her n adam, n it did a lot. So she made the same mistake as i did which aint gud. rrrrr, made me mad that she had made the same mistake as moi here. +raises eyes brows n sighs+ oh well i spose...
Wot did i buy... ummm..... a new shirt, exactly the same as ma lilac one, white wiv pin stripes down n lil hook n eyes all the way down +lafs+ its luvly! n then i got 5 cookies oh n 2 new bras (^_^) hehe. they groovy n all. Ones silky lilac n the otha white wiv a leaf design on i think. Oh i got a new necklace n all... yea another one! +lafs+ i got um... lemmi count.. 5 now. They kool. I like ma new 1 the best tho. I want another necklace wiv a cross on it as well.
Aint got much 2 say. I'm goin 4 a meal 2moz, wahoo lucky me.. Ma dad says he'll buy me a pint +licks lips+ I had malibu (how eva ya spell it) n pinapple juice last nite. It woz kinda weird! i think i'll stick 2 ma alco pops n fosters, oh n carlin! thats nice. Ma cuzinz takin her camera so she told me 2 dress up smart. I'll av a shower 2moz mornin. ok im bored... I fell asleep at 10pm last nite, as soon as ma head touched the pillow.
Ma mom woz avin a go at me last nite, so i said 2 chris im goin bye' n he started goin oh ur goin cuz them girls foned me up innit. N i woz like wot the fuk? im goin cuz ma mom woz avin a go at me n i cunt b doin wiv it all, or explainin it cuz i just got told off even more 4 sittin on the net explainin y i woz goin. But i still did. so chris rrrrrrrrrr! U got me told off even more. haha, neva mind a. I burnt a cd this mornin. It wicked. im listenin 2 it now even tho i got all the songs on ma comp! oooohhhhhh, i love this song. It's called Murder she wrote off Save the Last Dance soundtrack. Im goin now! byeeeeee xx
+yawns+ im sooooo tired +shuts eyes n puts head on comp desk+ I fell alseep on ma bed, then on the sofa n kinda woke up cuz chris pranked me n ma mom brought me ma mobile cuz she said it wunt shut up n woz doin her head in upstairs +lafs+
I want yogherts +cries+ it aint bloody fair... im goin, bye
cant b arsed 2 blog. All i wanna do is sleep. I ate 2 much chocolate n sweets 2day, n now i kinda feel not sick, but just kinda bloated, n me dont want no more chocolate ('_') +sniffs+ It's bloody freezzzzzzziiiinnnn outside, n now ma nose is runnin.
Wahhoo, i passes ma test so i can go 2 London! s'ok innit!
Mr Webb Took us 4 maths +dribbles+ he woz bendin ova a table, so me n fanny got a GREAT view +grinz+ He a p.e teacher at our skool by the way! N he way fit! He got a wicked bmw soft top n all, mmm! nice. Ok enuff bout him cuz im goin now, probally 2 bed 4 a bit...
Went sleep last nite bout umm... 2am n i had 2 get up at 7am, 5 hours sleep not gud really. I woz half alseep tho from like 12-2, cuz i woz txtin chris all nite +grinz+ woz gud it woz, wannit chris (^_~) +giggles n thinks of the txt mgs+ hehe! groovy!... Ok luv ya n leave ya byeeee xxxx
It's dull n miserable outside. I woz standin by the fire earlier and wishin it woz bloody summer. The suns shining, ya wearin ya t-shirts n skirts n messin about outside afta skool. ya go 2 the park at dinna n watch the lads play footy n play on the park (well i do ne wayz) ya stay out l8, go on holiday, stay up l8, can get up in the morinings, feel more livlier and fukin fun... +sighs+ I think i best shut the curtains, it's gettin dark, then i mite go have a shower innit.
I just wanna curl up in bed... wiv sum1... +shivers+ Im bored... Sum1 gud needs 2 cum online. Prennies on, oh n so is Claire, but they kinda aint chattin 2 me! Charming. n then like um... 12 otha ppl r on, but i dunt really like them. Theres fuk all on tv n all. wot an excting nite. Im goin now...
Been alright again at skool 2day. Bloody hell, so far this weeks been kinda gud! Miss Bitch wernt at skool 2 day AGAIN! haha! Got a £10 mobile vouncher at dinna cuz i only add like £3 left, n 4 me £3 is like nowt! I alwayz gotta av credit! Im just a txt adict n a prankin adict. Oh talkin bout prankin i woz WELL HYPER AT DINNA I wunt shut up talkin n then i decided 2 prank chris, n cuz i wunt shut up wen i pranked him i wunt shut up eitha! +lafs+ I woz worse than yesterday. I felt daft yesterday, but 2day i woz alright n wudda said summit 2 him if i knew wotta say innit! +sighs+ He prob thinks im REALLY REALLY FREAKY now, well who wunt if u heard me shoutin summit down the fone at ya n dint no wot the fuk i woz on bout! +yawns+ Im fukin knackered.
yay, club reps is on 2nite. (^_^) It wicked. i watch the uncut one on friday on ITV 2 n all! Its virtually the same, but o.w. At home with the Braithwaits is starting again WAHOOO n so's Bad Girls +jumpa up n down+ They 2 of ma fav programs! They wicked. Footballers wifes is kool n all, well it wud b cuz it's made by the ppl who made Bad Girls! +nods head+ I needa talk 2 chris on the fone proper n not just keep prankin him n then 4getin 2 stop talkin wen he picks up. I'm just fukin weird. like ma art teacher says! I woz standin talkin 2 him while he woz sittin in MY chair n helpin me n he goes 'Ive never known a girl like u b4' n i luked at him proper weird n i goes 'Nar, not many ppl have' n he sat there PISSIN him self! he wunt shut up lafin... weird or wot. It wernt even funi tho. +lafs+ Ow. Im hungrey so i might go get sum food. i'll blog l8a mayb... Bye xxx
Just downloadin loads of Rave and Happy Hardcore. Shooting star is wicked innit Sam! Wanting to get high, thats kool n all! I'll burn em all onto a CD wen they dun n then i might buy a diskman on Saturday, or just put em all on a tape. Depends wot else i want. Gonna get sum spot lights n i wanna new ring. 4 ma right hand ma finga between ma thumb n middle finga yea! +lafs+ ya no wot i meen... I think!
I pranked chris like umm... a million times! litrally! naughty me, im suprised he dont get pissed off wid me. He duz it bak tho half the time. At dinna i pranked him, n then sam woz talkin 2 me n he said 'hello' n i goes 'umm.. i dunno' cuz i 4got 2 put it down! haha! Fukin daft +giggles+
Im goin London on 1st March! WAHHOO! +jumps up n down+ *hopefully* it will b gud. Im sure it will tho! (^_^) every1 will probally b like WTF is that ur listenin 2! Cuz none of ma mates really like rave! It's just me n sam. I think it's right kool tho. Prennie's just kinda weird wiv music ne wayz, she like sum pop but not othas, sum garage but not otha stuff, sum r&b etc yea...! +sighs+
Wots skool been like 2day... um.... me n sam got lost 4 p.s.e! n it chucked it down, alwayz duz on a wednesday. Went ma grans again n got another £5 lucky me!
2days been alright i spose really.. Wunda if Chris is gonna cum online 2nite, aint spoke 2 him 4 a couple of days. I wanna new mobile. Mines SHIT. +pulls a sad face+ Ok, i mite go, i aint got no more 2 say. I got art 2 moz YAY!!!! I love art!!! +grinz n nodds head+ Bye xxx
ive just been told im goin out on suday +sarcastic+ wahhoo. umm.. excitin a. It's ma grans birthday ta day, n she's takin her WHOLE family out 4 lunch, well most of em n we're goin 4 sum kinda walk... +pulls a face+ Ma cuzinz goin whoz 16 now. haha +LAFS+ Then ma big cuzinz r goin +grinz+ I love em! Every1 says me n all ma cuzins luk like each otha... +grits teeth+ coughinsultcough +lafs+
WTF ma connections like d/c every 10mins now... +sighs+ one gud thing 2nite, i dun ma main art peice. WAHOO! well it aint finished, but i've drawn it which is gud. +scratches head+ Miss Bitch wernt at skool day, omg its a mirrical. Oh talkin bout mirricals, it's ment 2 b mirrical day 2moz! I HOPE IT IS!!! b wicked if loads of kool stuff happened, like umm... a mirrical 4 me at this moment wud b that hmmm... Chris wud turn up at skool! +giggles+ Now yea that wud b a mirrical, or sum fit lad wud appear at ma skool! B wicked that wud...
HMMM.... im goin 2 get a cuppa tea n sum biccys (^_^) byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xxxxx
omg, i swear, im gonna punch sum1 in a min! This lads stressin ma head BIG TIME. He said
Lad: hiya have i seen you b4
Me: No, www.faceparty.com/missblondie
Lad: Have u got a white t-shirt n jeans?
Me: No im just fukin wearin em in the pic
Lad: Oh right kool
5 mins l8a
Lad: Sorry got d/c
Actually... I cant memba ne more, it woz that interesting i 4got it. Fukin stupid cunt. Im in a really sarcastic mood.
Ma brother goes
Brother: Oh this is easy 2 do, u just take the screws out
Me: Oh my god?! REALLY!? UR A BLOODY GENIUS STEVEN!
No shit.... u have 2 take the screw out... +raises eye brows n give her bro a dirty look+
URRGGHHH, n another person on msn ive just started swearin at n tellin him 2 fuk off n not start... bloody hell, wot am i like a!
OMG no it aint me i aint fukin blamin ma self!!! +lafs+ ITS EVERY1 ELSE!!!! NOT ME!!!
+sighs+ i wanna punch sum1.. steven... cum ere pleze... nar he aint dun owt YET! He aint talkin thank fuk he's just layin on the floor watchin tv. +rolls eyes+
i think i mite go now, im bored n wanna argue wiv sum1 else! +evil laf+ bye
Yay! I helped Briana wiv her blog. So hiya Briana! She also put a big link on her page 4 my blog, so i linked her bak, cuz im really kinda!
I've had sum visitors 2day wahoo +jumps up n down+ I want ma own domain +sighs+ Not that i really got the muny, but if ma dad gets his business thingy up n runnin i'll b a rich bitch! haha, he says i can work 4 him n he'll pay me like £100 a week. So then i wanna save up n get ma self a laptop. +nods head+ I just love computers n html! I've gone crazy!
Me n Claire r tryin 2 think of summit kool 2 do at easter hollys +lafs+ FUN?! as if theres owt fun around my area 2 do. AAAWWW i just gave ma cat a bitg hug! +giggles+ and a kiss! it just luked at me as if 2 say umm.. ur crazy laura!
Skools been alright 2day! First 2 lessons i did fuk all, then 3rd lesson i woz on the comps. dinna i dint stop eatin cuz i woz starving! N i pranked chris like umm... i lost count how many times, so sorry chris ('_') +lafs+ i just wanted 2 hear his voice. I went 4 a piss at prennies house n fanny woz lukin 4 ma fone cuz she wanted 2 fone chris up n tell him 2 talk 2 me! +lafs+ but i had it wiv me thank god!! I aint eva lettin her get his numba, she'll fone him up n alsorts, she'd probally arrange 4 him 2 cum down 2 Nottingham n then take me 2 meet him wiout tellin me... cuz thats wot she's like.
Im goin 2 get sum food now, do sum art work and have a shower mayb. xxxx
Im at skool at the moment! Oh lucky me! Im sposed 2 b typin up sum shitty experiment 4 science, but sum how ma works been deleted +lafs+ haha, i just cheated. Abz sent me her work thru hotmail and now im just changeing it all around and shit! +giggles+ me naughty! NAr fuk it, im just gonna do it all at home! I got it wrote up in ma book there so all i afta do is type it up on the computer. Dunno how ma spellin is cuz i cant like c wot im typin! +lafs+ i spose i best go now, b4 i get caught! Cyaz xxxx
+sighs+ Prennies goin off the net now an a leavin me +cries+ n theres fuk all on tv, im starving, bored, pissed off, fed up.
Wish chris woz online... +sighs+ Cuz mayb he'd b able 2 cheer me up innit. i just got a sudden urge 2 fone him n all, but i dunno wotta say, +shrugs shoulders+ n he probally wunt want ME fonin him... Who wud...
i got bout 4 offers now, that they will kidnap me!! wahooo +sarcastic (wahooo)+ ill live... i spose... Bye
where ma fukin bags, ive had a bloody offer! N im goin bye!! Nar not really! I dont wanna go wiv this lad... he's kinda weird, n fukin nasty! +lafs+ Hope he neva reads this! ow if he duz, sod it. I FUKIN H8 MY LIFE AT THE MOMENT +cough+ yea... so +cries+ i cant get away tho, cuz 1. i aint got no where 2 go and 2. as if ma mom n dad wud lemmi go! +wipes eyes+ yea so im fukin stuck..
+sighs+ Muh roads been taken ova by grebs. It's GREB LAND umm... no offence 2 grebs, cuz there ait nowt wrong wiv em... +lafs+ So send me abuse if ur a greb!
Claire's moanin bout her parents bless her. She asked me if my parents were sad! She said her moms really sad n shit... hmm.. ma parents r quite kool actually wen i think about it, but i dont think they;d b so kool if i ran away 4 2 weeks, n made out i'd been kidnaped.
+sighs+ I wanna run away 4 2 weeks, n go on holiday, ma mom will think im right weird tho if i tell her i need sum time out 4 a bit, 2 clear ma head cuz im stressed. She'd probally just laf in ma face. I dunt care where it is, i needa go sumwhere 4 2 weeks. I just thought bout ma grans. But that'd piss me off even more than this place. Cuz they'd b fuk all ta do. +scratches head+ Who wud have me 4 2 weeks +lafs+ umm.. +thinks+ I DONT FUKIN NO! I swear i'm SSOOO sick n tired of everything. I dunno exactly wot im tired of, i just wanna clear ma head of EVERYTHING 4 2 weeks, and no afta worry bout skool, ma parent, if im in at the right time etc.
I'm goin now, i'm gettin 2 stressed n mite start cryin in a min... (>_<) Laurie xxx
feel siccccckkkkkk. I just ate WAY 2 much! +lafs+ I'm burnin it all off now on DSE. So now i feel alright. Wen i get belly ache i just tend 2 go on DSE and then it all goes away! wahhoo! But now i'm boling hot!
Ma dad n mom made me help them move the shed down2 the bottom of the garden, lazy buggas makin me help them tho +giggles+ I woz knackered by the time id finished! +licks lips+ Thats another pint of vimto i've just drank! i'll b needin another piss soon hehe! (^_^)
I think i'll cum off her quite soon. Wait n c if chris cums on cuz there aint no1 else 2 chat 2, well no theres like 26 ppl online, but i dunt like non of em. Prennie went wen i add ma din dins n then she neva came bak! Charming! She says ma blog luks kool +frowns+ nar i dont. +sighs+ I love sighing haha! I'm alwayz sighing! o/w a peepz.
Me mite go now! byezzzz Lug ya'll! Speshy the peepz on ma 'Loves' List! +giggles+
~Beauty of a Woman~
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman Is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
+eats muller vanilla crunch corner+ yummy! I've gotta start doin ma french hwk. Great. I aint exactly gotta do it tho, its all aready dun. I just gotta wirte it up in a booklet n then print it out. +sighs+ yum yum. That was VERY nice +licks lips+
Skool again 2moz. lucky me a. Cum 2 think about it tho, i get more stressed n shit wen i'm at home. So skools kinda the best place 2 b, cuz at least i dont get 2 stressed. I'm not exactly gonna sit there cryin in lesson! Well, sum times i do! +lafs+
I'm signin up wiv this blog thing. I dunno wot it is really. But i'll tell ya wen i do! +hugz+
I decided 2 put ma lil piccy up in here, cuz um... i dunno!
I wernt 2 gud last nite, i eventually got 2 sleep at around 3am, i dint feel 2 gud at all (>_<) bloody thing a.
I'm feelin hungry now tho... but i dunno wotta eat. I quite fancy a yoghert (^_^) +lafs+ I want the didgi cam, so then i can take sum *NEW* piccys of me +grinz+ n then u can all c wot i look like now, this year! +lafs+ not that i've changed from the piccy up there +points+ But i still want sum new piccys! I'll probally take em in ma lilac shirt wiv lil hook n eyes goin down, n like have it all open at the top +giggles+ ('_~) n then ma pin strip trousers, cuz they wicked, n they nice n tight n all. Chris wants one of ma legs! +lafs+ so i spose u mite b able 2 c ma legs in then, but ma red ones wud prob b betta 4 showin ma urghhh nasty legs off! hehe.
+lafs+ Ma moms on about gay ppl! I told her i think her boss is gay and she said 'yea us lot at work thought that as well, but i dont think he is!' I dont care wot ne1 says, i think he is.
'That time of the month should also die a horrible, gruesome death.' HAHA! Soooooo tru! Dontcha think gals?! click here 2 read more about wot she thinks (^_^) Very kool indeed!
+sighs+ It's now 8:33pm, and i'm totally bored. I aint got the slightest idea about wot 2 do. Mayb cummin off her wud help. I'll just sittin in the back room inhaling ma moms fags n dribblin ova her nasty larga she got, even tho it's nasty i still *GOT* 2 hav sum +giggles+ (^_^)
I want my hair cut, and i cant stand inhaling any more of this smoke, so i'm off outa here.. +coughs+ Bye xxx
p.s. I GOT MA BLOODY YOGHERTS WAHOOO
I've got adicted 2 readin ppls blogs! urgghhh! that kinda aint v. gud! +lafs+ I found this... n i think it's way tru
'some of you say that the internet is a way to put up a front that can be totally fictional, an act that you show to others. as mei said, its 'insecurities'. i think people can be the direct opposite from that.
when you type out your feelings, somehow a little bit of you comes out. you can be shy in real life but by yourself you can be wonderfully and powerfully expressive in different outlets, may it be drawing, writing or intimate conversations with some friends and family.'
Gud innit, thats from Contradict Me (^_^) +grinz+ I've had ma shower, so i'm nice n clean! hehe, i smell mighty gud n all! ('_~) ma hair smells of peaches mmm, nice +smells hair+
Abz wrote on her blog that i'm a 'bitch' HAHA! Charmin. she says cuz ma blogs really kool... summit like that ne wayz. I'm so bored. Theres fuk all 2 do. Hopefully Chris will cum online soon n he'll b more talkertive that last nite. +sighs+
I completed a new song +grinz+ 8 steps WAHHOO! can't wait 2 try it out down Chappel in June (^_^) on the BIG machiens, cuz big is alwayz betta ('_~) well in sum cases innit. +lafs!+
oh god, i'm fukin knackered, but if i stop bloggin i'll like b SOOOOO bored innit. i think i'll just read sum otha peepz blogs.... xxxx
I just adda blog and say *ALL* this shit i'm fukin gonna say... cuz i got tons on ma mind, and this is only like 1/999999999999999999999 of it... + sighs and wipes tears from eyes+ Prennie u made me cry (>_<)
'I miss India and canada and the US. I'm fuking bored of this country. Why couldn't my parents emagrate 2 a hot country or sumwhere where i feel like i fit in. Shit dude y couldn't they just stay in India. So i could be a lil villager with piggy tales playing in fields with the cute guy next door and then marry him....wow wtf!'
awwww baby. +quickly wipes eyes again as dad walks in+ I'm fed up of this blooy country n all. I wanna go on holiday. Sum where fun, Sum where hot, sum where wiv fit lads. n England is TOTALLY not that. It's not fun, well in the summa it is sum times, it's not hot, apart from in the summa n theres only like 1 or 2 fit lads +thinks of chris n lafs+ Yea n he's 1 of em. But he dont count, cuz i cant have him +CRIES+ notttt faiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (;_^)
Well it's now wot um... 3:44pm and i'm *STILL* sittin here in ma pj's bein a lazy bugga. I need a shower badley cuz i feel nasty. I spose i'll go put a face mask on, watch tv 4 10 mins (2 let ma face mask dry) or mayb longa if Tuckers on (^_^) n then jump in the hott streamy shower.
Lets go on holiday Prennie! U me n Ab. +dreams+ I wish. Nar, i'm gonna save ma muny up n do LOADS of shit in the holidays. If sum1 NE1!! will do sum shit wiv me +LAF!!!+ omg, no not like that, do sum shit as in go out sum where wiv me, go down skeggy sum Saturdays on the train (even tho i got a BIG fear of trains, also spiders, oh and boats (i get sea sick) actually cum 2 think of it... I dont like any ways of transport apart from cars n buses, they alright.. i spose +lafs+ oh well)
I MITE just mange 2 get of ma cute lil butt n have a shower now, so i luk sexy smell sweet and feel silky soft! +giggles+ Oh n then ma hair no b REALLY greasy n lanky +cringes+ Oh that reminds me of G.D LMAOOOOOOOOO +cough+bitch+cough+ Byeeeeeeee
i've put ma piccy on n ma ickle desktop. I've found a server *AT LAST* that will upload ma piccys onto! Its an absolute mirricle! +nodds head+
I think i might look colours 4 the bg, cuz like chris said last nite, afta u read it all then it makes ur eyes go funi, which aint 2 gud cuz it bugs me wen it duz that!
I want sum *KOOL* ideas 4 ma blog. Cuz so far it's *COMPLETE SHIT*. Abz is like so kool. +sighs+
I guess ma blog will afta b shit!
Chris txted me b4 he went bed last night +grinz+ just like he said! So that cheered me up last nite. I woz just sittin on ma bed drawin, which dint turn out 2 gud i spose (^_^) it woz alright... but i cunt b arsed. n then i woz watchin Fraisier HOW SAD! I think thats how u spell it.. I'll afta check innit.
Me wanna meet chris +sighs n shrugs shoulders+ Don't think i will tho... +luks out the window n thinks of skool+ haha! I've got 2day n 2moz left, n then i'm back. FUKIN GREAT. Actually i'm gettin bored of being at home. N pitas is gettin 2 adictive! It'll probally do me gud 2 get out really. Aint put ma foot outside since like wednesday, i'm such a lazy bugga.luk it's 1:04pm n i'm still in pj's! Wut the fuk tho, i dont give a damn.
i'm gettin hungry now, n I'M CRAVING BLOODY YOGHERT!!!! how weird can i get. I just opened the fridge n said 'YOGHERT' out loud like a twat... then kinda turned the fridge upside down 2 find sum, n there aint ne +cries+ hehe +lafs+ O.w I'll get ma dad 2 get me sum l8a innit. Mite actually go now n stop bloggin! Bye xxx
I foned fanny. She been chattin 2 Jason +grinz n nods head+ He cummin bak on Thursday n so is wotsit, 4 got her bloody name, lets call her The Bitch, so she's cummin bak n all n like *EVERY1's* out 2 get her +evil laf+ speshy Fanny! hehe
Omg, theres fuk all on tv. Ma bros got rugrats on, n all the babys r goin thru a crazy of takin there bloody clothes off +lafs+
Chris aint got much 2 say 4 himself 2 nite, well actually, neitha have I n steves doin ma head in ramballin on about loads of computer soft wear that i dont give a fuk about! +raises eye brows n sighs+ So i thought i'd blog n write sum shit in. God, it've blogged like 5 times 2day! or summit +shakes head+ wut am i like a! Alright, i'll shut up now n go!
+sighs+ I think i'm givin up wiv ma *NEW* blog 4 2nite. I aint goin town wiv fanny 2moz no more (>_<) +cries+ not fair iz it. She in pain! well... so she says. But i believe ya babe (^_^) I'm gonna fone her in a min, n c wot shes been up 2. She's at Marls again! She goes up there every nite now, it's kool up there, wish i woz wiv her +sighs+ O/w i'm stuck in the house aint i! One gud thing about it, i'm chattin 2 chris. Dats gud... i spose...
I'm just a lil tired at the moment. I bin gettin 2 bed dead l8. Wish Abz or Prennie woz on 2 chat 2. I wanna talk 2 1 of em (;_^) +sniffs+
Ma mommy n daddy r goin shoppin in a min +giggles+ so we'll av LOTSA nice food +licks lips+ cuz im starvin, i only just ate ma tea n all! +cough+ Me got a cold +sniffs+ c!? +lafs+ Im goin now +sighs+ Mite fone Fanny up at Marls innit. xxx
+sighs n luks around the room+ I'm tired. n i just aint sure about the bloody blog! I need prennie online so i can ask her if it's ok, n wot i shud change about it, n wot i shud leave, shit like dat really.
I've got tons of hwk 2 do *STILL* bloody pisses me off it duz. O/w. ill live... i spose.
Ma stomach feels all gluggy, i just drank a pint of vimto, on an empty stomach +shakes head+ Not gud a. +sighs n wipes nose on sleeve+
