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Disclaimer: This is all Laurelgand and Moonsong's fault. Blame them and especially Laurelgand for the corpse tea.
v26 |:| Ever since I heard the song by Takashi Sorimachi, I've wanted to do a layout, and the picture of Kanoe is perfect. The song is pretty upbeat, but I really like the "green" poisonous theme. XD Image from the back of X manga #3. Song lyrics from Poison, by Takashi Sorimachi, GTO dorama opening.
I don't want to be manipulated
By dirty lies and words
I don't want to look away
From true feelings
In a world like this where
You can't even say what you want
I'll live on being true to myself
transmission :: past thoughts
date :: suiyoubi 10.03.01
music :: Utada Hikaru, Final Distance
desktop :: Mikage, Shoujo Kakumei Utena
It's funny how little time we take out of our lives to just be with the people who mean most to us. I'd like to dedicate this to my "family," who know me better than anyone could ever know me. And just to remind them that I'm always here for them.
Neesan, thanks for being you. That in itself means more to me than anything.
Laurel, you always make me laugh. And you know me maybe too well. Thank you, neechan.
QS, I've missed you. And I believe in you.
Mearl, I don't know what this means to you, but I'll be praying for you. Take care, and see you soon.
Lyra, you're one of a kind. Imouto-chan ga suki da ^^
Jen...I haven't talked to you in a while, but I'm thinking of you. Take care.
^_^
cadet tarrant reported to the mess checker at 2308 hours
transmission :: make me feel real
I believe, if time passes, everything turns into beauty.
When the rain stops, tears clear the scars of memory away.
Everything starts wearing fresh colors.
Every sound begins playing a heartfelt melody.
Jealousy embellishes a page of epic.
Desire is embraced in a dream.
But my mind is still in chaos, and...
transmission :: nothing to do
date :: getsuyoubi 10.01.01
Hmm...today's date looks like a bunch of binary code. XD
I've been really tired the past week or so and I have no idea why. Maybe it's cause of allergies, but I've been sleeping a lot. Of course, that's no excuse for missing class, which I have been also...^^;;;
There's really nothing going on, so there's nothing to blog about. I have an english essay due tomorrow that I've done half of, but my professor claims he's a really hard grader so I'm kind of nervous about the quality of writing I submit. Usually on essays I jot down something at the last minute, but I guess now I'm actually going to have to say something profound. Or something ^^;;
Minna, sorry I haven't been online. I've been sleeping. ^^;; I'll try to get on more often this week. ^^
Lyra, I love your con pics! XD
cadet tarrant reported to the mess checker at 1311 hours
transmission :: o.O;;
date :: doyoubi 09.29.01
music :: Hide with Spread Beaver, Pink Spider
We had a chat today.
Gerald: ....spleen in japanese
Gerald: is hizou
Moonsong: TsukinoHizou!!!!!
Gerald: i just looked it up in my japanese dictionary
Moonsong: Ooooo
Laurel: hizou huh?
Laurel: HIZOU NO RECCA! The fascinating tale of a boy and his destined spleen
Moonsong: Boku wa Tsuki no Hizou! XD
Gerald: boku wa....gackt no hizou!!!!
Gerald: EMU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gerald: ~for my spleen~
Moonsong: Longing!
Laurel: Hizou no Tameni!
Moonsong: ~ everlasting spleen ~
Gerald: MELTY LOVE!
Gerald: MELTY LOVE!
Gerald: MELTY LOOOOOOVE!!!!
Gerald: HANASANAI! HANASANAI!
Gerald: KIMI NO EGAO!
Gerald: SUKOSHI DAKE!
Laurel: would you care for me if i was deaf and blind
Laurel: would you hear my voice if i was always quiet
Laurel: would you hold my hand if i was going to fall
Laurel: would you cry for me would you know my name at all
Gerald: *pouts* you just ruined the mood of melty love!!!
Laurel: :PPPPP
Moonsong: O_O
Moonsong: XD i was gonna say.. wow... what a switch..
Laurel: subete no kako wo nakushita machi
Laurel: towa ni chikaou
Gerald: WAI!!!!!!
Gerald: MIKAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Laurel: kodoku no mune ni hi wo tomoshi
Gerald: WATASHI KUUSOUUUUU SEIMEITAAAAAAIIIIII
Laurel: mikotoba ni waga mi someru
Laurel: and i've been WAITING i've been CRYING i've LOOOOOOOVINg LOVING LOVING YOUUUUUUUU
Gerald: PINK SPIIIIIDAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moonsong: O_O
cadet tarrant reported to the mess checker at 1329 hours
transmission :: still alive ^^;;
date :: kinyoubi 09.28.01
No I haven't died. ^^;;; This week has been crap. I think this has been the busiest week of the entire semester, except the first one...but it's over! A good thing ><
I haven't had much to DO, but I've just been really tired all the time. I think it's my allergies, which are just starting up because allergy season is beginning here. Every time I step outside I start sneezing and my throat itches, and right now I don't even need to step outside to feel my sinuses clogging up. EWWWWWWWW
Anyway, I don't have much other news. I've been sleeping a lot. Also, I think I've gotten out of the habit of blogging, but I'll try to keep remembering to blog. XD XD
Neesan...arigatou. ^_^
cadet tarrant reported to the mess checker at 1240 hours
tranmission :: i'm back!
date :: kinyoubi 09.21.01
music :: Cowboy Bebop, Ave Maria
desktop :: Tasuki, Fushigi Yuugi
Hey minna, I'm back ^^;;
I kept forgetting to put the blog back on this week...a lot's been going on with ROTC and stuff, especially with the state of the country and the military right now. It's kind of weird to think that when I get on to active duty, we might still be fighting over in Afghanistan. Of course, I hope this all ends soon and we find some sort of closure.
Anyway, I'm home and I'm bored and waiting for my Macross CD to finish burning, so I decided I'd put my blog back up. XD XD I finally got the Alice Holiday song Galaxy on mp3. I've been looking for it ever since I saw the series, and it's on the Galaxy Network Chart CD, which no one online seems to have. But I was finally successful last night...the song's a good one if you've seen the series. I dunno what people who haven't seen it would think about it. ^^;;;
I skipped my 10-11 AM class this morning. I didn't mean to, I swear. But I hit the alarm on my clock this morning and was going to sleep for just a little bit more. Everyone knows how that works. I woke up at 10:30 AM and said oh well. But I had to go to campus to meet with someone about the corps webpage at 11, so I had to get up anyway. Blah. Though it's Friday, so it's all good.
Laurel, I'm waiting for the mysterious flat thing!!! XD XD XD I'm glad I got to talk to you this week...the tachi just aren't the same without you!! You need to get on more often...
QS, if you EVER need to talk, you know where to find me. ^_^
It's kind of weird to be blogging again...I guess I've gotten out of the habit? Heh.
cadet tarrant reported to the mess checker at 1437 hours
transmission :: just another day...
date :: kayoubi 09.1101
music :: Gackt, Story (instrumental)
desktop :: Mikage, Shoujo Kakumei Utena
Well, there's really nothing that I can say that hasn't been said before, so I'm not going to try to describe anything here.
I've been sitting here listening to music for a while...soothing stuff, piano, soft vocals, stuff like that. I was shocked earlier today, but now I just feel kind of detached. Like it's something that I've witnessed and passed on away from. I guess it's just because I'm tired and the pressure of the day has worn itself out on me.
I was in class at 8 AM, so the first time I heard the news was when I went back to the ROTC building for class. The captain was there telling us to change out of our uniforms into civilian clothes as quickly as possible. At first I thought everyone was joking. Then I saw a couple POC already in civvies, and then everything just got weird.
I completely missed AS class because I had to go home, since I didn't bring any civilian clothes to school that day. They sent the flight commanders up to LBJ to intercept any GMC who were going there for LLAB, since we had changed LLAB to Garrison. Then Pete McCormick, the Operations Group commander, ran up to us halfway there and told us that LLAB was cancelled. That we could go home.
The day started getting unreal when they told us to get out of uniform. Not because the WTC was destroyed, but because we had to get out of uniform. I wasn't sure how to take that at first. And then...I felt...angry. While I definitely understand the reasonsing behind telling us to change out of uniform, my gut reaction was to stand up and say no, I'm a member of the United States Armed Forces, and I'm not going to hide.
My uniform is a part of me. Changing out of it, especially in a situation of this magnitude, seems to me like saying I'm a coward. That I can't stand up to say this is my job. That's what I do.
When I heard the Pentagon had been hit as well, I couldn't help thinking of the men and women who had been in there. Maybe there were some civilians who had been hit, but most of the people in there are military members. Then I thought about the code of conduct, the 5 articles which we as members of the military are supposed to live by. And I wonder if the people in the Pentagon were still "prepared to give" their lives for their nation.
No one expects to die like this. If I'm going to die, I'd prefer to go down fighting, not killed by some plane crashing into my office. But the code of conduct doesn't really concern itself with that. If you call yourself a member of the military, and you wear the uniform, and you have taken the oath, every minute of your life, you're in the line of duty.
For all the civilians who were killed, that's just wrong. You don't kill civilians. Military members, fine. This is our job. We at least are taught to expect this. But civilians? What did they ever do to anyone? All they want is to go about their normal lives, to be happy, to have a good life. They never wanted to hurt anyone.
That's my job, to protect this country, and I'm going to do it at any cost. Whether I have the uniform on or not. This is when I am proudest to be in the United States Air Force.
Tuesday, 11 September 2001, 2254 hours, Threatcon Charlie
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