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Name: Lisa

Alias:
Lady Gackt (LG)

Birthday:
March 31st

Zodiac sign: Aries

Chinese Zodiac:
Rooster

Location:
New York City

Background:
American-born-Chinese

Personality:
Obsessive.
Critical.
Sarcastic.
Pessimistic optimism.
Indecisive.

Hobbies:
Drawing
Piano

Preferred music:
Classical
Jrock
New Age
Rock
Occasional Hong Kong Pop

Frequents:
Bookstores
Art suppliers
Chinatown
Museums
Soho/Village

Most exciting memory:
Luna Sea - Brand New Chaos - Hong Kong Concert Trip

Most unhappy memory:
Grandmother passes away

Nouns that have had positive impact/influence on me/my life:
Family
Friends
P.S. 253
Brooklyn Tech
Mrs. Hannon
Metropolitan Museum of Art
Ozaki Minami
Gackt
White-click-eraser

Foreign places visited:
China
Hong Kong
Taiwan
England
Wales
North Ireland

Places I want to visit:
Japan
Egypt
Greece
Italy

Things that frighten me:
Frogs
Clowns
Ventriloquist dummies
Bugs
Closed spaces
Kyo from Dir en grey
Sharp objects
Hospitals/Dentists
David's cheesemuffins

Favorites:

Colors:
Black
Burgundy
Red

Books:
Wraeththu by Storm Constantine
Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles
Dragonlance novels

Music Artists/bands:
*Gackt* <3
Malice Mizer
Luna Sea
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Garbage

Just some songs:
Mizérable - Gackt
Dears - Gackt
freesia ~op.2~ - Gackt
ILLUMINATI - Malice Mizer
au revoir - MM
Le ciel (album ver.) - MM
Uruwashiki kamen no shôtaijô - MM
Yokan - Dir en grey
Cage - Dir en grey
G. - Luna Sea
Desire - Luna Sea
Rosier - Luna Sea
I for You - Luna Sea
gravity - Luna Sea
inside you - Luna Sea
a Vision - Luna Sea
Endless Rain - X Japan
Beauty & Stupid - hide
Shiroi Boquet - Lareine
Labyrinth - Pierrot
Pieces - L'arc en ciel
I'm Sorry. I Love You - Leon Lai
Your First Name, My Last - Jacky Cheung
Kiss Them For Me - Siouxsie and the Banshees
Push It - Garbage
As Heaven Is Wide - Garbage
Gravity of Love - Enigma

My blog. Everything you could possibly not want to know about me. Have fun.


Why the title? It's for Aya. I'm in an Aya phase.
o·bliv·i·on n.: the state of being completely disregarded or forgotten.

am·nes·ty n.: cessation of remembrance of wrong; pardon.

Wow.

Thursday, January 10, 2002 09:25 p.m.

I feel like shit. Why can't all the shit just go away. -_-

Why am I even writing in here. Hm. What to talk about. I'm in some dire need of...something. Anything. Anything that might make me feel better. There's just nothing to be lookin' forward to. Wake up. Go to work. Feel like crap at work. Come home. Too tired to do anything. Have dinner. No longer have time to do anything cuz you gotta get up early for work the next morning.

I think this 'work' thing is shoving in some serious depressing-ness. It's so purposeless. To have something that you have absolutely no care or interest in that takes up *all* your time. What the hell for. Money? No, I don't really need it. Not yet at any rate. And the weekend just seems so short. Like it's only a *pause* to mess up your routine and make waking up Monday morning harder.

Anyway. My DVD player doesn't play Japanese Dvds. =/ That really sucks since I have to watch my Gackt dvds somehow. I'll eventually have to get help and kill any regional coding restrictions on my player. I think you guys should be rather surprised that I can sit here alive and well after seeing the cover to Gackt's Oricon special. For those that haven't seen it, the cover is of Gackt holding some Jap female star. I really should be leaping off a building right now. But no. Hells no. I gotta kick her face in first. Yes I've got unfinished business before I can bite the big one out of misery. I guess what really kills me is that they actually look mad good together in that picture >_< ::sobs in the corner::

Okay. Another of my grievances about that book. GODDAMMIT after spending all that money collecting all those issues of Oricon with those two measly pages with Gackt in it for every week since like the past 2 YEARS, they compile the damn thing into one book. Oh whhhhhhyyyyyy.....>_<. And all the pics are nice and pretty now after me editing my ass off to fix up the scans from the crappy magazine paper. whhhyyyyyyyy.....

Funny thing is, that book wasn't even in my list of things to pick-up from my order at the bookstore. The sales ppl actually saved it aside for me x_X. I didn't even notice it in the pile and would have ended up buying another copy myself. I guess the new staff is finally getting the hint that anything with Gackt's pretty face on it is automatically gonna be on my shopping list. -_-; Oy, what a pleasant surprise they put aside for me. Grr. But of course I bought it anyway. Spent 300 frickin bucks this go.

Anyway. I need something. My Gackt trip was ruined this month so I need something else to cheer me up. Whaaaaat.....fics? Maybe. Y/A fics. Maybe. It gotta be mad special though cuz fics have really been annoying me as of late. Pics maybe. Not enough Y/A pics. I seem to be the only one who really draws them a lot. And it's just not the same as the feeling of seeing other ppl draw them. People should draw Youji x Aya pics. Make me happy. ::mope mope::

After the holidays I went shopping a lot. Okay I went shopping a lot before and during the holidays too -_-. Anyway. I saw that sexy lil black shirt Aya wears! The one that has the lil lace up in the front ::droooool:: It looked exactly like it and it was a girl's shirt. I was so tempted to buy it. But $30 for that tiny shirt...I know Aya would never have paid thity bucks for his...but oh he's so sexy in that. X)

Wow, that lil memory made me feel better. Scary. Now I will prolly sound perkier than earlier. Hehe. I was browsin' through some manga at the store and wow, the character on latest volume of Flame of Recca has an amazing resemblence to Mana (Malice Mizer). SO preeeettyyyy ^___^. JRock is everywhere. Ppl just pretend it's not. Pueh. So everyone should stop looking at me funny for liking RL pretty men.

Which reminds me. I think for the first time ever in a video game, I actually hate the "guy" character more than the "girl" character. No, I haven't played FFX myself yet (I've sorta given up on video games since I tried to play FF8) but DAMN I wanna bash Tidus's face in. He's such a loser -_-. Flame me if you want, I don't care. He looks like some sorta Jpop-boyband-Kinky Kid-wannabe. The ones that try to make themselves look white..."western". ::Snort:: [warning: LG's perkiness has been annihilated] And according to my friends, he acts like one too. And ugh, he dresses like Zell XP. What the hell happened. Geez. And those other two girls Yuna and Rikku. Final Fantasy is now Teeny-bopper Fantasy RPG for PS2. With all those brightly colored clothes. And was that a flying Circus-kitchen appliance I saw propelling thorugh the air? Whatever. NO, I don't care *how* great the gameplay is. I live off art, story and characters now. Ah, but it's one saving grace. LULU. She's kickass! ^o^ [warning: perkiness makes a comeback] Damn, just from the way she DRESSES and LOOKS. I think she's a representative for Jrock. Black magic-user. Awwwwesoommme. ::big-fangirly-eyes:: Hehe and she has that stuffed moogle companion. And that dress! She's like an Edea/Kaoru(Deg)/Toshiya(Deg) crossover. Geez she's way more impressive than that pack of losers you have to play. Namely, the aforementioned ones. I have no problem with Auron and the rest. Wow, I'm nasty today. Maybe it's PMS.

Hm, got me thinking who the best Final Fantasy characters are. Dress, hair, personality, weapons. Off the top of my head, Squall wins a lot of those...Sephiroth, too, with a different style. He definitely wins in weapons with his Masamune (me sucker for those things hehehe...katanaaaaa!!) I love Seph's hair and Squall's face(which in turn made me love his hair as well). Though I used to not like Squall that much with the whole Rinoa fiasco that pissed me off. But after I got over that (ok, I didn't but I got used to it) I really liked him. He's my fave FF8 chara. Seph is my fave FF7. Vincent comes close. FF9 I like Vivi! =) In FF6(III) I liked Edgar. And Terra. :) Edgar <3s Terra! That's how the game shoulda ended. Stupid writers =/. In FF4(II) I actually liked most of them. Yes, even Rosa. Hell, don't look at me that way. It was a long time ago back when there weren't so many RPGs! And I was young and naive! Though I remember I didn't like the Caller that much. Forgot her name. Ah, in the original Final Fantasy, you really had to like everyone, ne? LOL. But the black mages were the cutest. X) (wow, those Black-Waltzes were awesome in FF9)

I feel a bit better. Rambling helped I guess. Hm. I should try to look for good YxA stuff. Hope nothing pisses me off again along the way x_X. I'm such a bitch today.


::screams::

Monday, December 17, 2001 12:46 a.m.

Ahhhhhh!!!! I just went to check up on Storm's site!

[cut and pasted from her site]

Strangely, the Wraeththu muse has hit in other areas, as I was inspired to begin two short stories set in that world, one concerned with Cal's early Wraeththu days, the other with the Gelaming, Ashmael. I'll work on these whenever I get stuck with the novel.

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A story for Ash! A story for Ash! And you know what that can possibly mean? More Ash/Vaysh! I can't believe it! After making a whole complaint on it below I find this news! Oh life is so great! I can't wait!!!! ::does happy dance::

::runs off to scream some more::


Wraeththu.

Sunday, December 16, 2001 10:03 p.m.

Well, here I was browsing around some of the classic sites, was poking around Aestheticism and checked out what was in the December issue of their fanzine. I spotted an article Nora wrote on Storm Constantine's work. It's resparked my thoughts and opinions on one of my fave books. For those that don't actually pay attention to every little detail on my site (which should be most of you if not all of you if you guys are normal) I am a big, big fan of her fantasy trilogy, Wraeththu. The only thing that even indicates it on my site though, is a text link at the very bottom of my links page, a mention of it on one of my old updates, and it being listed under my Favorite Books on my profile to the left of you. Doesn't seem like I'm that much of a fan, huh? Well. I am. I really really love Wraeththu and the reason there isn't more material on it, is because I don't know anyone personally that's read it or would care if I *did* make a section for it on Nocturne. ^^; Sad. Pooor meeee...;_;

Well you know what? I have a blog right here. So I've decided to go on as much as I like about it right here. Yay for me and boohoo for you! Too bad, it's time I spilled my thoughts on the book and its interesting characters. If you haven't read the book, you might get completely lost as to what I'm talking about. If you *have* read the book, well then you're cool! LOL. And if you agree with anything I say below, you get promoted to "super kewl" and should then email me so I can tell you so personally. And then we can yammer about the book til our lil hearts' content.

First off, if you have never ever heard of Wraeththu before you're prolly wondering why I'm all obsessed over it. Well, it's a book based on a race of hermaphrodites (stop yeck-ing at me, its an interesting race). But the race is developed from human males so we can basically pretend they are all guys. And all wraeththu are beautiful. Hehe. Yes, they have sex with one another and one must get the "female" role, but their minds are usually still those of men. Basically, it caught my interest because it sounded so much like shounen-ai/yaoi. And trust me, after reading it, it *is*. So that's why this book is special. Yes, it also has a great plot, *amazing* characters, and a creative author, but the shounen-ai/yaoi-ness makes it stand out. All you shounen-ai/yaoi lovers, you MUST read this book! If you read it and hate it, email me and I will apologize for wasting your time and call you uncle.

Alright. Who are my favorite characters? Unbelievably enough, I like the *main* characters the most. The MAIN CHARACTERS! I mean....I NEVER like the main characters. This obviously shows how different and unique this book must be. It really really does. And the surprises don't end there. One of my fave pairings *is* the main pairing. That's right. I love Pell and Cal. Pell and Cal together foreeeeever!! And it was consistent thru all three books. I rooted for them to be together from the first chapter/first book all the way to the last chapter/third book. And you know what that means?

I basically hated every character along the way that got in the way of Cal and Pell being together. I *hated*, and I mean HATED Panthera. I shocked even myself, as Panthera has the type of personality I usually like in anime/manga. But unluckily for him, he tried to break up the wrong couple! I mean, while reading I wanted very very bad things to happen to him (like die, maybe). Call me mean, but I get very defensive over the things I love best. Oh, Cal pissed me off PLENTY when he kept screwing like *everyone* he met while he and Pell were separated, grrrr. So I guess it's not all Panthera's fault that Cal is a slut. ::pats Cal on the head:: But I *do* love Cal as a character so it's okay. Hehe. (what? Youji? Nahhhh....that's someone else XD) I also did NOT like Caeru at all. Yeah, Pell and him did the...geh. And NOT only that, but he is butts in on something way more significant which I won't disclose, since it's a pretty big spoiler.

Pell on the otherhand, didn't piss me off all that much. I want to say I like him more than Cal, but since Pell's story was in Book One and it was in first person, his character never really "fleshed out" as properly as it could have since Storm Constantine was probably more concerned with developing the setting/world, then Pell's character. In other words, Pell didn't *have* much character. Or maybe that was just my own opinion while reflecting back on it. OR maybe *that's* why I like him. Who knows? All I know is that he *is* one of my faves and I think Cal should love him *only*, not just most. ^_^ Pell gets more of a profile in Book Three.

Okay, so that was my favorite couple. But there is one other couple I wish I could obsess over, yet it is SO non-existent that I can't! They mention it, they talk about it for a few pages. That is *it*! For those that have read the book, can you guess whom I'm speaking of? Ashmael and Vaysh!! ::whines:: I LOVE those two! They... are the...the...Wraeththu *epitome* of Youji and Aya! Yes you, read me right. Youji and Ayaaaaa ::double whine:: Well, maybe not Ashmael so much as Vaysh. Vaysh is *so much* like Aya. He even has red hair! Phade calls him an *ice-maiden* for godssakes! Yes, I am deluded. I am obsessed. But no one familiar with Weiß Kreuz and Wraeththu can deny the similarities! Though Vaysh's traits might be a little more extreme than Aya. Vaysh is a very beautiful har with long red hair. He is silent, bitter, emotionally/physically scarred from past experiences(I won't spoil it for you), sulky, sometimes bitchy and arrogant, and very very cold at first. An all around unhappy person. Not to mention he is soooo potentitally uke, or should I say 'soume', as that is it's equivalent in the world of Wraeththu. Though I say potential since Vaysh distances himself from everyone and really doesn't sleep with enough ppl for me to label him ::Aya and Vaysh blink at each other trough the mirror::. But it's rather obvious from the relationships that *are* mentioned, that he is the submissive. ::giggles insanely:: If only Vaysh played a larger role in the books, he would officially be my fave. Actually, he *is* my fave, but it's difficult since Cal and Pell get so much more 'screen time', that they capture most of my attention. Now for Ashmael(or Ash). He's blonde. He's cocky. He's handsome. (He's Yooooouji!) and he was Vaysh's old lover. And that is ALL SHE WROTE. Literally! That's all the books ever tell you. Sure, they give a bit of background when Pell confronts Vaysh about it because it's obvious there is lots of unresolved tension between the two, but after those few paragraphs, they never pursue the subplot. No cloooosure! >_< This was all mentioned in the first book so for the next two books I had expected some *point* and more story to Vaysh and Ash's relationship, but nooooone. There was noooone. They just dangle the damn carrot in front of me taunting, and then just leave it there while I watch it rot. ::tantrum:: Okay, I'm sorry. I just get over-emotional when I think about those two. Ohh, if there were a fanfic for those two, I would die happy. But finding Wraeththu fanfics is next to impossible. Most of what I see are fics based on the book's setting, but not of it's characters. ::sighs and hugs the Ash/Vaysh pairing::

OKay, I've calmed a bit now. It's been some time since I read the book so I don't remember a lot of the details, but another character I liked was Terzian. Weird right? I thought so. But Cobweb, it was on and off for me. Sometimes I liked him, sometimes I didn't. I did *not* like him in the beginning (yeah, cuz he slept with Pell ::frown::) but Cobweb is an interesting character. I can't really decide with him. I had liked Seel until he hooked up with Swift. I don't like Swift. (...yeah...cuz he slept with Cal x_X;;) LOL okok, it's not *just* about who sleeps with whom. It just happens to be what I remember more clearly from them right now. =P Well, I wasn't too crazy about how Swift is such a backstabber either...

Hmmm, that's what made the book special. All these strong feelings it provoked from me whether it was intentional or not. I mean, I almost stopped and *refused* to keep reading at the very last chapters because I thought the conclusion would *not* be what I wanted. I just couldn't take it if...well, you'll see when you read the book ^_~.

After aaaaall my insane rambling are you interested or completely scared off? Either way, here's the skinny:

Wraeththu Trilogy by Storm Constantine
Book One - The Enchantments of Flesh and Spirit
Book Two - The Bewitchments of Love and Hate
Book Three - The Fulfilments of Fate and Desire

These books are also available in a compiled version that goes just by the title "WRAETHTHU"(that's the one I own) who's ISBN # is 0-312-89000-1 if you want to try to track that down yourself.

Storm Constantine is currently working on a 4th book to the trilogy! I can't wait ^_^....and I will CRY if Vaysh and Ash don't get their story ;_;. If you want to know more, you can visit Storm's site using the link I posted at the bottom of the links page at Nocturne.

This book is great. I've lent it to two of my friends, neither a huge fan of yaoi, and they both loved it. Even the grumpy friend that never has time or attention for anything couldn't put the book down. (And then her boyfriend got jealous of it, mwaha! Don't hit me, Kev!) And the other friend, who is lazy and never likes to carry *anything* around, was willing to carry this huge, thick, and heavy book everywhere just so she could read it. This is one amazing story. Pleeease try it and then email me so I have someone to talk to about it ;_;! And if you end up liking the Ash/Vaysh couple, too, I'll love you forever ^_^. Okay, well just drop me a line somewhere to let me know you do and it will make me soooo happy. I might even make a makeshift shrine for them (being as there is no official material for them whatsoever...I can make it up) Hehe. But do give the book a try. You won't regret it!

::done rant::
I can't believe you made it through the whole thing! Here's a lolly.


Wipes off some dust.

Friday, December 7, 2001 02:30 a.m.

Why hello there. I know, it's been some time since I've written anything in here. Well, lots of stuff have happened as well as been going on. But you don't want to hear about any of that do you? Rather, let me just talk and ramble about random stuff. Joooooyyyyy.

I've got a new job. Lost the old one at a digital imaging business. Guess me just sitting there having no work to do finally registered in my former-boss's head x_X. Ah well, stuff like this happens with all the events that are going on. This new job I have is waaaay easy. I hardly do anything either, but I earn decent money so I'm not complaining. ^_^ Gives me time to just zone out during the day and go online.

The holidays are coming up! Way way busy time for me. I haven't done my xmas shopping yet! I'm also going to the post office tomorrow to pick up some "letters to Santa" that lil kids send out. Some friends and I are gonna answer and grant some of them. Aren't we angels? 0=) I hope suspicious parents don't mistake our packages for anthrax or something and toss it since we're just gonna put From Santa >_<.

I went to Asahiya Bookstores today to pick up my biweekly stock of Gackt mags. Dir en grey are really changing their look! x_X It's so....played down compared to how visual they used to be. I kinda miss it. I liked them visual. :( And its making me have trouble telling who's who. ^^;

Also, since Gackt seems to show up in a lot of pop oriented mags(godammit, wastes money) I'm seeing a lot of new young faces. And I mean YOUNG. They look like they are 15! It's so freaky. And kinna yucky >_<. Or maybe I'm just getting old. ::sigh:: I think I will stick with my funky, borderline-scary, jrockers. Though even they seem to be toning it down a bit. Things aren't the same anymore I guess. Oh how I wish for the old days...

OH! But Gackt's new hairstyle is HOT! It's not a big change, but just styled differently. ::drooools:: I'll try to scan in pics soon for the Gackt page. I placed like a million pre-orders for his upcoming releases today. I think he's really trying to kill me, coming out with so many things right at Christmas. My poor wallet.

Which reminds me, I got my Gackt 2002 calendar recently. It's *nice*. The photos are full beautiful pages and there is that pic of Gackt in a leather trench. ^_^ It just screams Aya. ::hugs the bubble-and-plastic wrapped poster rolled in a box for protection, tight...but not too tight::

I am very proud to say I placed 2nd at Chalcedony Cross's BS fanart contest! If you don't know what I'm talking about, take a look at Nocturne's link page for Chal's site for details and to see the art. I also won for sweetest as well as sexiest! ::faints:: I've never won anything in an art contest before so I am very very happy and proud. Especially since the competition was damn tough! But I have to thank those that liked my pics and voted for me. ^_^ ::hugs you guys:: Okay, I guess that's suitable as my speech thingy x_X. Well, now I get to help request a fic from her and I can't come up with anything! >_< Ohhh, but I'll want it Youji/Aya of course *_*. ::ignores everyone as they roll their eyes:: Hey, I worked hard, I'm gonna indulge myself. nyeaaahhh. Anybody else have ideas? I'm creatively-challenged. -_-;

Hmm, what else can I ramble about? Ah, my recent and complete lack of site updates! Weeeeeell, I have been pretty busy lately with lots of different projects going on at once. But I promise to have something new by this weekend. A new Yotan/Ayan kitten pic is in the works! It's coming out pretty cute and I should have it finished soon. ^-^

Well, enough for now. Maybe I will be back in here soon, ne? I should update some things on the profile...like the song list...I'm really into Pink's Get This Party Started right now. Am I turning into a club junky? x_X

Listening tooo.....Desert Rose~Sting
Eatin' a really really good snow pear! =d


Dumb and Dumber.

Tuesday, October 2, 2001 12:25 a.m.

I went to see Zoolander today(against my will). Omigod, that was one dumb and retarded movie. I thought it was gonna be like Austin Powers, but it wasn't. Turned out to have less plot than even that. Heh. OH wells. What was interesting though was the scene where they had the NYC skyline. They ended up editing out the twin towers from it...::sigh::

Another bomb scare near where I live. >_< Damn.

I had more to say but my mind is drawing a blank now. I think that movie lowered my already precarious intelligence level...

Listening to: HURT~Luna Sea Could really go for: some mango pudding


My head.

Saturday, September 29, 2001 08:40 a.m.

MYYY HEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDD!!!!!!.....

::Runs back to her pillow::


Ugh.

Saturday, September 29, 2001 07:35 a.m.

AOL SUCKS. Wow, everything sucks it seems. Hehe. The consumer will never be happy. Well, AOL deleted ALL 100+ emails in my New Mail folder. And I haven't caught up with my mail from the past 2 days or so. Dammit, I had to email them and everything to get them to restore it. They finally did, but I have a pounding headache right now so can't go though that pile till later.

Damn. Was my friend's birthday....uh, last night? And I hardly drank but I have this blinding headache now even after passing out for 3 hours. And my vision was seriously impaired for a while. Another thing that just baffles me as to why people consume alcohol on purpose. I did *not* feel good. =/ I'm gonna stay straight-laced. No smoking, no drinking, no....erm. Hmm.

Listening to: Labyrinth~Pierrot (which ain't helpin' my head...)
Drinking: Miiilk.
Gonna: Go nap and feel better dammit!


Strangeness.

Tuesday, September 25, 2001 09:51 p.m.

Is it strange to cry over a fic? No, not like sniffle cry cuz its sad or angsty but like *cry* like something really bad happened in your life. Hurting, hurtful. Not like Titanic movie crying. Crying where you're not comfortable being seen doing it cuz it's somehow personal. To the point where you truly, truly regret ever reading it and wished you could erase the painful memory. I think it's strange. I mean it's just fiction, right? Made up words and ideas. It's probably not good to let something like that affect you in such a way. Makes no sense. Kinda scary. Maybe a person should cut down on it if it gets to a point like that. Losing yourself into something 'not real' is never healthy.

Or maybe a person should just stick with one kind of fic. Stuff where they know exactly what they're gonna get.

Listening to: Endless Rain~ X Japan


Damn Geocities.

Monday, September 24, 2001 02:31 a.m.

Hmm, I wonder how many times those two words have been uttered in the same sentence? Well, the evil data transfer limit has infected my site. (I honestly didn't think it would as I don't think my site gets that much traffic ^^;) Dammit dammit dammit. Argh I'm gonna have to move. And it might be to Verizon x_X anyone got any feedback for me on this place? It's my brother's DSL webspace, but it's only 10MB. Crap. That ain't enough for all my garbage. What a pain.in.the.ass. Oh well, I'll have to look around before I decide. Meanwhile, bear with me as the site pisses you off ^^.

Other note....hmm. What kind of nonsense can I impose upon you now? I need to gain some weight x_X. And get some vitamins. I think I'm dying from malnutrition. Feeling the ridges on your spine without even trying is bad.

Now listening to: INTO THE SUN ~ Luna Sea (how fitting. off my site goes...)
Now eating: Salted peanuts...hm.
Anime thought of the day: Why do main characters always have the weirdest hair? And why do I tend to hate main characters? Must be a hair thing I guess.


Soothed.

Saturday, September 22, 2001 12:09 a.m.

Celine Dion's performance on the tribute to heroes fundraiser that was just broadcast on television was really wonderful. She sang God Bless America(?) and I was so moved I had to cry at the end. I forget what an amazing voice she has when I'm hunting for my loud music ^^. Though I cried, I felt good. I was never much of a patriot.

But Home. Is Home.

Right now, I'm listening to Faye Wong's 'I Do'(Wo Yuan Yi). It's a really beautiful song. Her music always soothes me. It's a song like this that reminds me what a beautiful language Mandarin is (no wonder I can't speak it -_-;) Listening to this makes my other music sound crass and loud x_X;. Ah well, *I'm* crass and loud.
Oop, LOVE SONG~Luna Sea is now playing.

And now eating a nice, juicy snow pear =d (or however you say it in English)


Okay Lisa, calm down.

Thursday, September 20, 2001 12:32 p.m.

It's just sleep. It's just email. Who needs it really? When a person can talk mindlessly about anime and other inane things. Time to swing into a better mood. Okay, after just kinda staring at this waste of time of a weblog (I'm trying. Really.) why not get my mind off things and ramble about why I might have chosen the favorite characters that I have (those to your right). Hopefully this doesn't turn into some gawdawful rant.

Well with almost all anime I watch and manga I read (hell practically all aspects of entertainment I expose myself to) there always seems to be a trend as to the type of character I go for.

Silent/cool, intelligent characters with long pretty hair and happen to be swordsmen. They almost always have an air of superiority in some way and are kick-ass powerful. If they also happen to be bastardly or evil, oh well. X) They also tend to know or understand a little something more than the other characters.

Hehe, I notice this seems to apply for all characters, male or female (not too much difference for me really) I mean look at my fave female character. Arisugawa Juri? She's a very good representation of my trend. I also hardly ever see a female character like her in anime which would explain why I tend to like more male characters (that's right it's not just because I think they're hot, I have valid reasons...stop laughing)

Of course not all my characters fit the description to a T, but the basic personalities are usually there. The thing that differs most I suppose is hairstyle (wow, what a significant aspect to a personality right? But hell, with anime it usually is. Don't deny it. That's right bow down! Mwaha! er, yeah.)

I think the character that started the trend/character to blame is my first favorite ever, Yasha Gai. Don't know who he is or what he looks like? I haven't found many pics that really do him justice though, but you can take a *Look*. Thanks to Anomiko for unknowingly letting me use some of her images. ¬.¬; Heehee, she won't kill me...Well...if she does she'll regret it deep down inside ok? He's a half baddie/half good guy and has lots of angst potential. And his seiyuu is none other than Takehito Koyasu-sama. (Yet another trend I notice in my male faves x_X) Though I had first saw Shurato in Chinese dub and was very surprised years later to find out who Gai's original seiyuu was! (I was like five when I saw Shurato. Yeah, it was my first real anime) Well ever since Gai and my major obsession with him, I think I unconciously liked characters like him then on. I am *such* a sucker for swordsmen. Fujimiya Aya baby! ^_^

Some other characters I liked but didn't make my absolute fave list are Shinomori Aoshi (Kenshin), Saitou Hajime(Kenshin), Youko Kurama (YYH), Karasu (YYH), Mikagami Tokiya (Flame of Recca), Griffis (Berserk), Trowa Barton (GDW), Nakago( Fushigi Yuugi), Larva (Miyu), Scarface (Shadowskill), and Charizard(Pokemon LOL). Just some ^^; Oy.

Wow, I *am* in a decidely better mood...I should ramble more often. (Run, run!)

What am I listening to now? Heart of Sword~T.M.Revolution (Kenshin ending theme)
What am I drinking? Soy bean milk
What will I do next? Sleep. Or try to, the elusive bastard...


Godammit.

Thursday, September 20, 2001 11:53 a.m.

I can't freaking sleep. I was tossing and turning for what seemed like hours only to open my eyes to see that TWO have passed. What the fuck is going on with me? Got thirsty so I'm here for a break. Yeah, its like stressful or some shit.

Freaking crap, and I get up to read some email that just pissed me off yet again. I don't know if I'm being temperamental or what. ARgh. Well, this better pass or I'm gonna end up being some demon bitch from hell to deal with.

What am I listening to you ask? My own fucking fuming.


Oy.

Tuesday, September 18, 2001 08:35 a.m.

Yup. Woke up at 6 am -_-;;. Woke up like 3 times during the night really. What an insomniac I've become. So I did some bills, ate some junk food and came online to do nothing for a bit. That's it I'm a night person. No more trying to sleep early!

On an interesting note(at least to me ^^) I ran into a stranger on AIM. A friend had forgotten to log off at an internet cafe and I ended up speaking with a stranger. Nice conversation we had. I'm actually kind of glad I woke up this early and caught him. He was a strong believer of God though (while I am not) and he was a very positive person. He had pointed out how it was a slim chance that out of all the computers there, he sat at this one. Hehe, maybe there was a hand at play here. After all, having met him was a nice experience. Best of wishes to you, Randy, if you ever read this.

Wonder if I should try to go back to sleep. If I don't I'll end up being very tired very early again tonight. =/


Pooped.

Monday, September 17, 2001 10:20 p.m.

Yo, I am maaaaad sleepy. x_X Why am I writing in this thing then? I'm trying to stay awake as long as possible so I don't end up waking up at 4 am which I tend to do now when sleeping early. >_< Oy.

Today just consisted of a whole bunch of waiting. =/ Waiting in line at the bank. Waiting at the post office, waiting at the supermarket. Mad long lines. Yeesh.

But while walking around I was amazed at how many American flags were put up everywhere. *Everywhere*. Every store front, every building, every door. Honestly, I never figured Chinatown to be a very Americanly patriotic neighborhood ^^;. From news stands to fish stands. Everywhere. It made my heart feel lighter to see this support and unity.

However I bought this sandwich at a bakery today and the chicken tasted kinna funny which made me feel weird. =/

Ooh looky all the Aya ficcies popping up everywhere...*_*

What am I listening to you ask? Cube~Gackt
What am I about to do? Crash my face against this nice keyboard here
What did I buy today? MILK!!! Life. Is goowd.


Youji/Aya-nized

Monday, September 17, 2001 04:26 a.m.

Youji and Aya on the braaaain, man. This is a very unhealthy obsession I think. Like that's gonna stop me. Anyway, I'm listening to sappy love songs and angsty love songs. While listening to Bryan Adam's Everything I Do again for the first time in years, I think this is *such* a song Youji would sing. And you know what? The lyrics:

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for

would be *such* a thing needed to sing to Aya. LOL. I'm not demented in the head! Seriously, you can't tell me another character would feel more suited to tell someone they aren't worth loving other than Ayan, our lil angst baby. Man, both of these guys need therapy! Hehe, well that's why they are so perfect for each other ^_^. Share in the misery, ne? Erf, I'm angst overdosing again.

Alrighty on a brighter Youji/Aya note, Jean wrote such a pretty mock wedding scene fic for me ^___^. Heehee. I have to get off my lazy html-ing butt and post this thing! Meanwhile, if you wanna read it, it's on his site under my links. So *now* I think how perfect Jacky Cheung's Your First Name, My Last is for them. For those that don't know the Chinese and are unfamiliar, the lyrics tell of how "all I need is for my last name to follow your first name" and life will be complete, etc. It's a very nice song. I recall in the last concert I attended of his, he had played a lil animated cartoon of him and his wife and their life together while he sang this song. It was *so* cute and funny. How she would massage his big 'ol feet and when there was a big cockroach in the house, he'd freak out and she would protect him with a big slipper in hand. LOL. So sweet. Oookie, I'm majorly rambling now. ^^; Wow, what a waste of time for you if you're reading this.

What am I listening to you ask? I for You~ Luna Sea
How am I feeling? I was a little down, but now I'm happy.
What I still need? Milk!!! >_<


Bored.

Saturday, September 15, 2001 11:11 p.m.

Stuck. Wanna go do stuff. Anyone who reads this that has my number, call me so we can hang out, people =/. (BTW guys, let's head out to the memorial at Central Park Sunday. Go with ME or I will throw pretzels at you) Well, it's not as bad now I guess. They've opened up my neighborhood to the public. It's not creepy quiet, dark and deserted anymore. Some normalcy back on track. Now for that milk...

Played tourist and bought some postcards today. Couldn't find the really nice ones of WTC though. $12 on postcards. What a rip...

WOW! Is that a commercial? Haven't seen one of those on this one tv channel that is working, in days...

What am I listening to you ask? Piano Sonata No. 14 Beethoven
How the weather is? Cold. Hands are stiff.
What am I wearing???(freak...) Shirt with a humongous unknown sd/chibi-face on it I picked up in HK for $4.


A Blog

Friday, September 14, 2001 04:21 a.m.

Well, I've made a blog. Who would have thought? Well it's rather unfortunate that my first entry had to be such a sad one. But being stuck at home with nothing much to do these few days, making this helped pass the time. Trying to think of things to fill into my profile for the sides was pretty fun and brightened my mood. Took me hours to do everything. (thanks for the help, Rina ^^)

Hm, what to say that's not incredibly depressing? I'm out of milk. I need milk. I'm suffering from milk withdrawal. Can't go out to buy any, the nearby stores are all out. I hope they let supply trucks in soon. Ok, well this is depressing for me x_X.

I'm trying to decide if I should put significant thoughts in this thing or keep it nonsensical. ^_^; Well, either way, no one's gonna be reading this stuff so I'll do whatever. Hehe.

What am I listening to you ask? Androgyny~Garbage.
What am I eating? My pretzel and coke rations.
What am I dying from right now? Burnt/charred smell wafting in from the wreckage...


09.11.01

Friday, September 14, 2001 04:05 a.m.

Originally entered at Nocturne:

09/12/01-5:00am- It has been a long and exhausting day. I find I can't really get to sleep. Everything still feels somewhat unreal. But I just look out the window and can see this certainly wasn't a movie. Large monstrous cloud of dust hanging over the city. Streets are deserted and they've blocked off the whole downtown area where I live. Can't leave, can't go anywhere. A big, gaping hole in the skyline where the towers used to be. It's like being in a warzone of some foreign land. Things have so drastically changed. Nightmarish.
I hope everyone and their friends/family that might have been in the crash areas are safe and unharmed. And for those that are lost or have lost, the tears I've shed are for you and though it might be little comfort, my heart also goes out to all of you. For those that are still missing, I pray they will be found and rescued quickly. I was one of the lucky and my family and friends are all okay. For that I am so ever thankful.
The horror of seeing the buildings collapse and the people leaping off replays in my thoughts constantly. I can only hope this is the end of it. Maybe then I can deal with this sadness and anger. How can something like this have happened? How could people have done this? Or maybe 'people' is not the proper term. And then to see those that rejoice. Students and children cheering. I can't even look. What kind of world is this.

6:00am-Well, a bit more time has passed now and I sit here as the sun comes up. The city looks empty. Doesn't really look like my city at all really. The Empire State looks lonely. And I can only repeat what I hear a newscaster says now. "They are no more." And so I decide to drape some of the site in black as the city itself isn't dark anymore. Mourning. Cliché, ne?


More Favorites - unalphabetized items are listed by rank

Anime:
Tenku Senki Shurato

Mangaka:
Ozaki Minami

Manga:
Zetsuai 1989; BRONZE

Doujinshi-ka:
Excluding Ozaki Minami, Undecided.

Video Games:
Dragon Warrior IV
Final Fantasy IV
Final Fantasy VI
Phantasy Star III
Mariokart
Mariokart 64
Tetris

Anime music:
All from Zetsuai/Bronze - highly reccommended
Bad Blood
Dousurebaii
20XX ZETSU-AI ~Crime of Passion~
BRONZE the final chapter
Rurouni Kenshin OVA- In Memories "KO-TO-WA-RI"

Game music:
Liberi Fatali (FF8)
One Winged Angel (FF7)
Crystal Theme (FF)

Male Anime characters:
Yasha Gai - TS Shurato
Fujimiya Aya(Ran) - Weiß Kreuz
Aquarius Camus - Saint Seiya
Katze - Ai no Kusabi
Sendoh Akira - Slam Dunk

Female Anime characters:
Arisugawa Juri - Utena
Ten'ou Haruka - Sailormoon
Miyu - Vampire Princess Miyu

Male Game characters:
Egdar Figaro
Magus
Sephiroth
Shadow
Squall Leonhart
Vincent Valentine

Female Game characters:
Terra Branford
Edea Kramer
Freya Crescent
Shiva
Aeris Gainsborough (go figure ^^;)

American cartoons(LMAO):
Batman Beyond
Gargoyles

American comic:
Kabuki
Uncanny X-Men

American comic character:
Storm

Yaoi Pairing:
*Youji/Aya - Weiß*
Seifer/Squall - FF8
Iason/Katze - Ai no Kusabi

Non-yaoi Pairing:
*Ruka/Juri - Utena*
Miwa/Meiko - Marmalade Boy
Shishio/Yumi - Kenshin

General likes -
Watermelon
Milk
Cool beverages ^_^
Tong shui
White paper
Sunsets
Pilot fine point retractable pens...black.
Raspberry popsicles
Flowers
Parks
Silver jewelry
Thunderstorms
Being the Top hat in Monopoly

Dislikes
Humidity
Standing still
Most seafood
Eggs
Cigarettes
Cigarrette smoke
Yuuki Miaka
Rinoa Heartlily
HB lead
Spicy food
Sakura's theme in Puzzle Fighter
Sakura from WK
Nicholass whats-his-face (don't ask)
Carrying umbrellas
Jerry Springer
Mosquitos
Being the thimble in Monopoly