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Name: Lisa
Handle:
Lady Gackt (LG)
Birthday:
March 31st
Zodiac sign: Aries
Chinese Zodiac:
Rooster
Location:
New York City
Background:
American-born-Chinese
Personality:
Obsessive.
Critical.
Sarcastic.
Pessimistic.
Optimistic.
Indecisive.
Hobbies:
Drawing
Piano
Preferred music:
Classical
Jrock
New Age
Rock
Occasional Hong Kong Pop
Frequents:
Bookstores
Art supply suppliers
Chinatown
Museums
Soho/Village
Most exciting memory:
Luna Sea - Brand New Chaos Tour- Hong Kong Concert Trip
Most unhappy memory:
Grandmother passes away
Things that have had positive impact/influence on me/my life:
Family
Friends
P.S. 253
Brooklyn Tech
Mrs. Hannon
Metropolitan Museum of Art
Ozaki Minami
Gackt
White-click-eraser
Foreign places visited:
China
Hong Kong
Taiwan
England
Wales
Places I want to visit:
Japan
Egypt
Greece
Italy
Things that frighten me:
Frogs
Clowns
Ventriloquist dummies
Bugs
Closed spaces
Kyo from Dir en grey
Sharp objects
Deep water depths
Hospitals/Dentists
David's cheesemuffins
Favorites:
Colors:
Black
Burgundy
Red
Books:
Wraeththu by Storm Constantine
Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles
Dragonlance novels
Music Artists/bands:
*Gackt* <3
Malice Mizer
Luna Sea
hide
Garbage
Just some songs:
Mizérable - Gackt
Dears - Gackt
freesia ~op.2~ - Gackt
Lu:na - Gackt
Death Wish - Gackt
ILLUMINATI - Malice Mizer
au revoir - MM
Le ciel (album ver.) - MM
Uruwashiki kamen no shôtaijô - MM
Yokan - Dir en grey
Cage - Dir en grey
G. - Luna Sea
Desire - Luna Sea
Rosier - Luna Sea
I for You - Luna Sea
Breathe - Luna Sea
gravity - Luna Sea
inside you - Luna Sea
a Vision - Luna Sea
Endless Rain - X Japan
Beauty & Stupid - hide
Bacteria - hide
Erase - hide
Shiroi Boquet - Lareine
Labyrinth - Pierrot
Pieces - L'arc en ciel
Rest in Peace & Fly Away - Sugizo
Red Bean - Faye Wong
Kiss Them For Me - Siouxsie and the Banshees
Push It - Garbage
As Heaven Is Wide - Garbage
A Stroke of Luck - Garbage
Gravity of Love - Enigma |
My blog. Everything
you could possibly not want to know about me. Have fun.
Why the title? It's for Aya. I'm in an Aya phase.
o·bliv·i·on n.: the state of being
completely disregarded or forgotten.
am·nes·ty n.: cessation
of remembrance of wrong; pardon. |
Freaky...
Saturday, March 29, 2003 12:03 a.m.
An interesting movie a friend sent my way. I'd rate it 'R' for language and some subject matter. Check it out...
The Parlor
I think you need Windows Media Player and maybe a better connection to view it. My 56k couldn't handle it, but a friend had downsampled it for me so I could watch it.
That's the guy from The Fast and the Furious! o.o Er well, I don't know how I can say what I thought about the movie without giving anything away. But did it freak you out a bit like it did me? And a bit chilling eh? And did you feel you needed to go back and watch it over again like I did? Heh.
-_-
Saturday, March 22, 2003 03:23 a.m.
Am I the only one here not born/raised in Hong Kong, China or Taiwan that likes Slam Dunk?? o_O
Me seriously likes that pop song used in the ending of VHD:Bloodlust, Tooku Made by the group Do As Infinity! It's so...uplifting! (without making me feel like cotton candy) And yet still kinda has a bittersweet sense when I see it used in the movie promo. Kinda oddly fitting actually. x_X Nice, agreeable voice the vocalist has :).
D is pretty.
o_o
Thursday, March 20, 2003 08:18 p.m.
My uncle bought my cousin a car. A Mercedes. ::falls over::
*silence*
Thursday, March 20, 2003 10:35 a.m.
I sometimes catch find myself wondering how much of a hermit I can be. I didn't really think I was unsocial. Well, at least I feel it's not that I look to be unsocial. Maybe it's just how I'm not socially adept. Communication-wise mainly. I do like talking to people. But I don't find myself reaching out to do it. Nor maybe know how to, I dunno. I always seem to stop at a certain point.
Is that what my friends mean when they say I sometimes seem 'unapproachable'? I don't mean to be that way =(. I guess I don't often feel driven enough to develop relationships past a certain level. I just kinda 'sit there', figuratively =P (though sometimes literally o_O;;). Again, it's not that I'm adverse to it... I don't think. I'm usually open to it if the other person makes an effort XP. I'm lazy huh?
And it's not as though I find myself often feeling 'lonely' from it either, which is what worries me. But I do have those few I can just shoot random mumblage at, which comes in handy. They don't care, I don't care, and it just works =).
LG: This nugget is white meat.
Target Friend: okay.
[End conversation]
[Social quota met]
Something's gotta be holding me back. So in some ways I am kinda recluse I guess. Or else I'd be using a freaking livejournal now. =/
And get some input, rather than just talking to myself. Nyeh.
FF mumblage.
Tuesday, March 11, 2003 03:47 a.m.
Hehe, a friend sent me a notice about the Final Fantasy Origin's Sweepstakes and I actually entered it. XD I think this is the first time I've ever entered a sweepstakes (at least to my awareness o_O;). I actually look forward in seeing the game, both I and II. But wow, FF1...it's been sooo long. It was damn hard too, but I remember playing it and I had liked it a lot (Yay for the Black Mage!!). And constantly pissed at how the Nintendo would crap up in the middle of playing, sometimes erasing my data >_<. Drove me nuts. Must have had amazing patience back in elementary school. And I sure as heck recall FF4 was mother freaking hard as well. o_O Pretty sure it was harder than FF, but loved it sooo much (Old Fogey LG says: "Now that was a game..."). And then when FF6 was released in the US, the total *aweness* at the 'graphics' and innovativeness, lol. Those were the days... =*)
FF7 was also quite earth-shatteringly awesome in its own right when it was released. But maybe my opinion then was colored by the excitement and nostalgia of playing another FF after so long ^^. But oh, he who is Sephiroth! Damn, but that one-winged angel really set the par for me with game villains.
I think FF4 will always be my fave (Ciiiiiid!). But I'll get to play 2 soon, so who knows?
Nummy.
Tuesday, March 4, 2003 03:58 a.m.
You need a Closet Uke!!!
Which Type of Uke Is Best Suited to You!?
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Nyayaha. Amen to that. *Especially* that first part. ::shudder::
But yeah, I'd like to make Aya my uke XD. Wouldn't have minded Izumi the Avoidant Uke either. ;)
Monday, February 24, 2003 08:07 p.m.
I'm usually a firm believer in coincidences, but I had a dream two nights ago that my mom was really sick (which eventually lead into a nightmare which involved discovering a dead body inside my piano, but that's another thing entirely. I hope. It's weird, I don't usually have nightmares). Today I called her and found out she is sick. Should this make me as worried as it does?
Monday, December 2, 2002 06:17 p.m.
Why is it every time I see an image of Yuki + Shuuichi I want to vomit? Literally, no exaggeration. No matter how disturbing and irritating, you'd think I'd be used to seeing that sort of couple by now.
"LG, these are just some of many reminders as to why you had stopped watching anime. And this one is extra-strength."
Actual crossbreeds of genki Mary-sue characters and 12 year old girls with dicks?
"Yes."
With the stereotypical cold, distant love interest/bodyguard?
"Yes."
Oh yeah. But what about Youji and Aya? I can't abandon them.
"Don't worry about them, they've long surpassed anime dimension and now permanently reside in your head as part your obssessed psyche."
Alright then.
(it can't be PMS, way too early)
Well, I've been kinda MIA for the past few days. And will most likely continue to be for a lil bit. Too caught up in this game I've started playing again...
Kikkomaaaan!
Sunday, November 24, 2002 02:53 a.m.
Do you like soy sauce? How much do you like it?
KikkoMan
XD Hahahaha!
schlup
Wednesday, November 20, 2002 03:12 a.m.
Ok, I might have posted something serious, but hell doing this was funny:
The Advertising Slogan Generator
What it offered:
"The Yaoi that Refreshes."
"Does You Does, or Does You Don't Take Gackt?"
"Unzip a Lady Gackt." (Yeah, it's gotta get perverted eventually)
And my fave ^o^
"Try Aya, You'll Like It."
Keep in mind these were thrown out in big, bold, block letters so I almost busted a gut. The Youji one wasn't nearly as funny though - "I Liked The Youji So Much, I Bought The Company!" and "The Too Good to Hurry YoujixAya." ;)
And finally, the one for Sanzo!
"Sanzo. It's What's For Dinner."
No joke O_O;; Godamn, is that freaky accurate or what?! LMAO! This should be an official Saiyuki youkai slogan! ::is high::
Annnyyhow. Wedding's tomorrow. Saving my rest for that =/. Dang, I'm gonna look sooo underdressed next to my mom. She's helping a lot with the hosting so will be wearing this deep purple, velvet cheongsam-style dress with silver stitching/embroidering with these lil pearly things sequinned into a flower design. >_< I'll be wearing black. Maybe do my hair up (o_o!). And hoping some jewelry won't make me look so dreary. But I guess better to fade into the bg with. ::sigh:: Gonna be a long day. My brother better not nag me to talk to him every other minute. All I ever really hear is "blah blahblah blah." -_- I'm so mean to him.
Hehe though what was amusing yesterday was watching the married couple-to-be do some last minute dieting before the big day. No sugar, salt, or oil; chicken and boiled vegetables only. Been doing it for the past week I think. The bride had to keep yelling at him not to eat the junk. ^.^ Funny as hell to watch his antics. "Just one! Just one!"
Strange, frightening, and completely random . . . yet it makes perfect sense.
Who's Your Inner Schwarz Pairing? @ Weiß Versa
O.O!
Geez
Monday, November 18, 2002 03:43 a.m.
What the *hell* was I talking about before? x_X Why was I even talking about that? I should not be allowed to blog when I'm like that. Delete it I should.
And I just realized that there is an Angel Sanctuary Angelic Voice postcard book under some paper that I've been using as a mousepad. O_o
I really need to organize. And sleep. I want a good movie to fall asleep on. And my drawing fiendishness seems to be defunct now >_<. Now I just have *more* unfinished pictures nagging me. I was *so* close to finishing a kiriban pic too! Rahh.
But really. Does red bean negate green bean?
A Wondering~
Monday, November 18, 2002 12:04 a.m.
Was finally browsing through some of the MLs I have set for webmail only and am reminded of why I have it set that way. o_O Especially Saiyuki. Some huge, involving discussions going on. Too much. And while I have no prob with that stuff face to face, getting involved in this sort of thing on the net is well, too involving x_X. Prefer a light and relaxed mentality when I'm doin' my leisure/escapism thing. But usually only for stuff I like and have already settled in on. For stuff I just discovered, I'd prolly eat that all up!
Really though, we read into things a *lot*. Way too much sometimes I think (And I'm not talking about yaoi =P). To the point where we come to conclusions and theories the creator probably never expected us to think up nor even realized that he/she was doing things to cause them. And not meant to be belittling in any way, but I think sometimes we give the creator too much credit. Where we assume every little aspect and characteristic of the story has been planned and thought out before publishing. Take the Sanzo/Goku relationship for instance. Considering how Minekura portrays the characters, there is not much sense to be found as to *why* they would have the strong 'soul-bonding' connection with each other that they do. And I'm not talking about reasons of pure plot/circumstance. Certainly doesn't seem like something a character of Sanzo's behavior would willingly allow. The only obvious reason it's there is cuz, well Minekura said so. Doesn't have to have any reasoning or 'inner sense' behind it, she had deemed it so. So I don't see much point in trying to look much deeper than that. She hadn't given it much more than the "setup". I get the feeling Minekura didn't consider Sanzo and Goku's personalities and psyche to the depthly extent the fans have (o_O) before deciding those two would have a destiny linked with one another. She just did it. For her story. She wanted to. The Gojyo/Hakkai relationship is something she seems to have built more than just circumstance into though. But that's just the feeling I get. I get that feeling for lots of other titles too. =P It's easy for us when we can sit back to speculate and analyze every little thing as much as we like once it's placed before us. Just don't think every manga/anime artist/writer sat there unraveling and justifying everything so thoroughly in their head before starting on a project. Maybe not everything has a reason other than they just went with whatever they felt like or just went with the flow. And that we are trying to read things from something that isn't even there. o_O
Cuz really, it just seems like Minekura had Sanzo and Goku meet. Had them meet again. Had Sanzo free him (and Sanzo doesn't even really know why). Had Goku follow him. And had them save each other all the time. And all because they are supposed to have some sort of bond. Because Minekura wanted it that way. Maybe like just sticking two ppl together and saying 'Okay, you two be soulmates" and didn't need or give any more explanation. Can't see 'into' it much more than that. No deep, emotional/psychological 'inner workings'. o_O;; Emotional connection(w/Sanzo??)? Camaraderie? Common interests? Words exchanged? Doko? Anything of that is probably on Goku's side, but it wouldn't be out of the ordinary for him to be that way with anyone else who was given Sanzo's 'character duties'. Maybe I need to see all the manga. But I still don't think I'd see much more.
K, don't answer those questions. That was just an example that veered off by itself and I'm prolly missing something. Just a wondering in anime and discussions in general. And it's getting *involving* >_<. I'll just stick with nummy Gojyo x Sanzo wonderings. =d*****
Just came back from the bathroom (yay, everyone wants to know *that*). Dropped a roll of TP on the floor and it unrolled all the way across the room. Argh, that was annoying. >_<
My Saiyuki Personality Test Results:
#1 Nii Jieni
#2 Genjo Sanzo
#3 Kougaiji
Wah! That's scary!
Wondering of the Day: Does eating red beans negate the qualities of the green beans I had? ::worries::
Stuff
Friday, November 15, 2002 04:12 a.m.
I just found out my dad doesn't even want to go to the wedding. My brother told me he had said there was no point in him going. ...that doesn't make me feel good. And it kind of hurts. Despite me not wanting him there. Gee, emotions are so great. I just hate all this shit.
On a much different and brighter note, my friend surprised me with a gift today. There had been this doujinshi I'd been trying hard to acquire for a long time now, but kept failing. He took it a few steps further and actually got it! I was so touched =*). And shocked. It was so unexpected. I can't believe he did this. It must have cost him a lot. But I'll be even happier when I can get him to accept my money for it. If only he'd tell me how much it cost him.
I also *finally* got my hands on an Aya mechanical pencil! ^^;; Hey, that thing's been sold out for ages. But now I have it. I will never use it. But I have it. ^-^
LG likes to have things.
A deeper look into LG's Subconscious?
Do we even dare?
Thursday, November 14, 2002 04:15 a.m.
Taken from Chal's LJ: (Damn, this test was long)
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Emode's Original Inkblot Test:
LG, your unconscious mind is driven most by Peace
You are driven by a higher purpose than most people. You have a deeply-rooted desire to facilitate peacefulness in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with love ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to influence the world.
You are driven by a desire to encourage others to think about the positive side of things instead of focusing on the negative. The reason your unconscious is consumed by this might stem from an innate fear of war and turmoil. Thus, to avoid that uncomfortable place for you, your unconscious seeks out the peace in your environment.
Usually, the thing that underlies this unconscious drive is a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it. As a result, your personal integrity acts as a surrogate for your deeper drive toward peace and guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Peace, there is much more to who you are at your core.
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. . .Wow. . .wow. . .for real?
Dang surprising. Huh. How do these work I wonder? Though a few things did hit the mark I think.
See Dave? I am peace-loving. Holly and I fusing would *not* bring about the Apocalypse, armageddon, nor annihilation. In fact, I might curb Her Anger. 0=)
...yay...
Thursday, November 14, 2002 01:18 a.m.
One week left to figure out what to wear for the wedding. The *two* dresses I actually own are both black. I can't wear all black to their wedding >_< !! Don't have anything suitable to wear over it either...argh. Do I want to spend precious money on something I'd only wear this one time? NO. And found out my dad will be going, too...just...great... Taking what will most likely be our last "family photo". He better not try and have a 'talk' with me. And if he even tries to tell me what to do, *anything*, I will flip.
Can't wait.
Who needs religion...
Tuesday, November 12, 2002 04:29 a.m.
I'm an atheist!
Which Enemy of the Christian Church Are You?
A(nother) Robert and Tim Creation
Eh?! I'm Keanu Reeves at forty?
Shekshy
Saturday, November 9, 2002 04:41 a.m.
What's your brand of sexy?
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Languid-Sexy.... You rock the messy hair and crisp white cotton sheet. Your idea of bliss is a day spent in bed with your lover. There is nothing wrong with that, though some people like to leave the bed at times. You're a total fox, even if you are a hedonistic bum.
...I am?...you bet I am! X)
.o_O.
>.<
Friday, November 8, 2002 03:50 p.m.
I wish I had a tablet...I wish I had a tablet...
!!!
Friday, November 8, 2002 04:14 a.m.
Suddenly I'm a drawing FIEND!! O_O!
Though I can't seem to finish any of it!!!
(Please oh please don't let the juice run dry cuz of this...)
Which Saint Seiya character are you?
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Only about half of that is true...
My Grrrs and Rahhs.
Monday, November 4, 2002 02:11 a.m.
Random, irrational things that annoy LG:
.Gratuitious use of the word "tasteful."
.Body glitter; make-up with glitter. (why don't you just have me blow bubbles chewing pink gum and stand in line for a Britney concert) And the attempts of working glitter with black. Right, okay. The way I see it, you can't have both.
.Large groups of people just standing, talking, *loitering* in the middle of the sidewalk. Usual perpetrators are tourists or teenagers. Rahh! >_< Outta my way!
.When guys 'giggle' in a fanfic. ::twitch:: o_O Unless they are young kids or something.
.Boybands with their 'nasal' singing. ::shoots N'SYNC:: Backstreet was....tolerable.
.Being spoken to after just waking up.
.Being spoken to after just returning home.
.Expectations that I give a response or acknowledgement to every sentence a person says on the phone or online. Checking to make sure I'm listening or something...(god, shoot me if I ever chain myself to a relationship like that. Oh wait, *I'm* the girl...)
.When strangers try to talk with me on the subway. (Can they not see I'm listening to music??)
All I can think up for now. I'm positive there are more. Heh.
I make no justifiable reasons for these peeves x_X. They just trigger my PissOff button in an adrupt way.
But really, with regards to the second to last one? I don't even have the attention necessary to keep a pet. My husband's going to live next door. We'll rely on an intercom system. It could work...
Maybe my rating for Schizoid should have been a bit higher considering my other ratings x_X. There could be a reason why I don't move to a journal that supplies comment options.
blah blah
Sunday, November 3, 2002 02:29 a.m.
I've taken this test before but never posted...:
Odd...=/
Anyway, anyone who uses Windows PC should find this really funny:
Microsoft's Windows RG (Really Good Edition)
Don't forget the Start menu options! XD
Got my copy of Shonen Hump yesterday, thanks to PL Nunn for so kindly picking up a copy for me! Have to say after flipping through most of it, I most enjoyed Pam's "Bloodstained Illusions" excerpt. That was *yummy*. Just how I imagined it. And also got a copy of "Steel Engagement" which was just as wonderful. Just adored Youji's facial expressions when he tried to look 'harmless' or 'innocent' XD. And some really great Aya renditions too. Think my fave illustration of these two stories would be the top of p285 in the anthology. ^.^
Ahhh, wish she would work more on Bloodstained. I'm so greedy. All these other great fics were just updated, too, and I want more. Rah.
Tralala
Thursday, October 31, 2002 03:20 p.m.
I'm just sittin' here. Nooo one's in the office. Where did everyone go? Maybe to that Halloween party for the kids. But how much fun can that be? It's been almost 2 hours. Hmm and no one's assigned me nuttin'. That must be their way of telling me just sit here and type nonsense in this blog.
What sort of costumes have I seen so far today? Not too many. I saw a few princesses, a Raggedy Ann, a Spiderman, a Spongebob, and lots of kids just with wigs where I couldn't tell who they were supposed to be. I *could* go drop in on the party...But that would require getting up and being social. So that's out. Maybe they will bring me back food. Hope it's not anything chocolate though >_<. Too sweet. Don't really like chocolate. Vanilla.....yum.
Bored. Hmm, do I miss everyone? Nah. Now I get to turn the winamp on as loud as I like. Hehe, I've even made my 60 year old supervisor enjoy Malice Mizer and Gackt. X) She has no idea what they look like though.
I can't seem to stop sneezing. I so better not be getting sick. Shi-ne to that. Must drink water till I'm peeing every 15 minutes.
Maybe I should go check out this year's Halloween parade in the Village. Have to get someone to go with me though. Errr...who can I bug last minute....
I am always too lazy to dress up. Don't want to do it unless I know it will look really good. Being a small Asian girl don't leave many options. At least none where I actually look like what I'm supposed to *and* not be anything stereotypically asian-oriented. Weehee, get it? Oriented? Oriental? Haha. God, someone come back.
Come back before I start singing along to au revoir...that must not happen.
Damn them for disabling administration rights on this pc. Or else I could install all my programs and slack off properly. Even work on the site. o.o Ooh, wouldn't that be something?
Damn, it's almost five. And I thought *I* was slacking off! Oh well, gettin' paid to do nothing. Not gonna complain. They should use the whole academy building for Halloween. Would look pretty scary with most of the lights off. The exterior and interior look old-style enough to pull off the 'spooky mansion'. Long, dark-carpeted hallways, portrait paintings lining all the walls. Even the elevators are manual. o_O Not to mention the library. Dusty old books and high ceilings, where every step on shiny tiles would echo throughout the floor. There is even a mezzanine. =P
Whoop, my supervisor just pulled me down there to help clean up. x_X Better than the actual party I guess. There were these two tiny kids dressed up in these furry lion costumes though! So cute! ^.^ And my boss was dressed as the murderer from Scary Movie, LOL!! Ahh...cake. Chocolate cake. with vanilla frosting. Decisions, decisions...but I guess I'll pass. Seems to be a lot of fudge in it.
Time to pee and then head out! (I did nothing today!) Hope I don't get egged.
Some Utena rambles. . .
Tuesday, October 29, 2002 03:24 a.m.
I never feel like blogging when I have something interesting to share. =/
Well, my old passion for Ruka/Juri has arisen once more. Was chatting with a friend and somehow the subject lead to Utena and Juri (Love Juri!). [Beware, this passage be littered with SPOILERS!!] And for me, where there is Juri, there must be mention of Ruka. *Totally* underrated pairing! And I think my favorite hetero pairing to date. But where there is Juri, there must also be mention of Shiori, whom I despise with a passion. What a total conniving bitch. Can't understand how Juri fans can see that pair in any sort of positive light. I was sooo happy when Shiori finally got hers in the movie. I've never done much Utena surfing before, but a brief one has lead me to understand that Ruka is not very well received by Juri fans. Kinda odd since Shiori was much more horrible than Ruka, not to mention Ruka only did what he did to help Juri. To free her from the piece of crap Juri had chained herself to. Geezes, that episode was so sad. I get so freaking torn up about it and canon romance drama hardly ever gets to me. I hadn't even realized I wanted those two together so intensely until the duel ended. And it was raining...and Ruka told Juri that it was all right...::sniff:: And then....he was gone. ::sob:: Their relationship was so...dammit, just look at them. Oh the Angst! They are so desperately beautiful together. ;_; And I won't deny it, they do remind me of the Y/A relationship in a way. In fact, there is a pic that I *think* is a doujinshi image of the Weiß guys dressed as the Utena girls (no, I'm not kidding). Needless to say, Aya was used for Juri ^_^v : Shounen Kakumei Weiß!
Fourth pic down. It's cropped though =(. Link is from the Juri site, Fallen Angel. I've been trying to locate a full version of it. Anyone reading this know where I can find one?
Anyhow, I'm just about ready to rewatch Utena just to see those episodes again. And I want to do some serious Ruka/Juri art. What's been keeping me back though, is that I can't draw Juri properly >_<. Rah! Why must I suck!?!!
For those curious about my Utena fan side, the only characters I really like are Juri and Ruka (by association). I think Saionji is a bit higher up for me than the rest of the cast as well. And as the series progressed, I didn't mind Nanami anymore either. I think most people don't like them though o_O;;. Who I don't particulary like, aside from Shiori, is Anthy. I can't really pinpoint why. Maybe it's her role as the supposed innocent victim in all of this. She acts a bit too passive and mindless. Creeps me out. She seems so inhuman, behaves so alien, never know what she is thinking (if she is even thinking). Not to mention her relationship with her brother. I share Akio's fiancee's feelings about Anthy. WTF is the matter with her? Yes, Akio is creepy too. But he's still interesting and funny. Anthy is like that plastic doll sitting on your shelf at night.
Ruka...Juri...Ruka...Juri. Want fics n pics. Once again, curses that I can't read Japanese. I'm tempted to pick up an artbook just to get my hands on those Ruka+Juri images. I know I'm definitely getting volume 5 of the manga! o_o Kiss....damn those animators for leaving it out!
Argh, my mom's god daughter is getting married next month. They are trying to get me to be a bridesmaid. No WAY! Hate pictures. Don't know how to be social. And do NOT want to wear pastel or anything close to poofy. >_< Bad enough I'll have to wear something 'nice' even if I'm not a maid. What'll I weeeear?? I don't even know what to get them as a wedding gift! Leave me alooooone...
::sigh:: Thanks to Max, I'm totally hooked to the song "A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos. Hooked. Hooked, hooked, hooked. I can't stop listening to it. And I had first heard it while watching the music video. Which was just weird. But got me more immersed in the song my first listen because of it. Has me feeling a soft, wistful mood. That of a mellow romance. . .yes, a Youji/Aya romance, sue me they stuck in mah head. Like a Mami-sama's Dolphins Cry romance. . .::smile::
"LeFou, I'm afraid I've been thinking..."
"A dangerous pastime."
"I know."
Monday, October 21, 2002 08:49 p.m.
I don't think Aya is controlling. I think Aya detaches himself too much from people and situations to be controlling. Any need for control is in dealing with himself. He seems more focused on self-control than anything else. Making sure he doesn't breakdown and lose his composure and can handle the uncontrollable circumstances around him. He knows that so tries to keep his distance to avoid being hurt. If his experiences have taught him anything, it's that things can't be dictated by anyone, especially not himself, and that what he *can* try to do is manage *himself* to get through them. I don't get the deal with so many fanfics' obsession with a controlling Aya. It's like they forget he's his own character and not necessarily cookie-cut from other character stereotypes. As Chal so perfectly explained once, Aya is very 'internal' with what he thinks and feels. Anything that doesn't involve Aya-chan or Takatori is not something he focuses significant attention on and if he does, he just deals (or runs away) so he can move on. Not try to dictate it or others.
Now Crawford...his talent just seems to make him that way. Gets used to knowing what happens and what will happen and doing what he can to change it. Can't help but develop a controlling personality both inward and outward. His plan and scheme against Estet just screams it.
Those two are the team 'leaders' but very different. Though I know other ppl share my sentiments that Omi really acts more like the leader of Weiß. Aya just does what he needs to do and can make impartial decisions. Usually. And really, I think it was just part of the anime rule of teams/groups that "the main character and most detached character be the 'leader' of a team of 'good guys'" that gave Aya that role despite all his other qualities. o_O
Youji. Hehehe, Youji. I don't really have much to say against/for things about him. All I want to say though, is that he is not girly, not wimpy, and not Duo Maxwell.
And there you have another pointless anime/fic opinion. Just hoping that since it's my blog, it's what you're here for. x_X
Boredom, boredom. What a sucky weekend. Played my Sims some more. Not much progress in the Youji/Aya Experiment. Aya still pretty much hates Youji, having all points in the negatives for him. While Youji likes Aya very much with about 70 relationship pts. Aya plays the violin a LOT. In fact, all they ever do is soak in the hot tub, eat and play/watch each other play the violin (occasionally dancing along, hehe). But Aya. The dude is obsessed. He practices all freakin day. His record was 9 hours straight. Doesn't eat, doesn't pee, doesn't rest. Just keeps at it, raising his creativity levels. Determined eh? Personality fitting yes? And Youji spends aaall day just watching him in between snacking, racking up Aya-points, then going to sleep. Finally Aya stops when he's ready to collapse from exhaustion and ends up all cranky in the morning. He *really* needs to be potty trained. And Youji really needs to study cooking. They both have no cooking pts, but Youji is the one always setting the stove on fire. But I did notice that they got along a bit better once in the middle of the night when, coincidentally, they both woke up to use the bathroom and have a snack. Always knew night time did it for them ^_~. I think things will eventually get better between them though. Aya *does* go naked in the hot tub with Youji now. Though that prolly has more to do with the hygiene meter, a girl can pretend.
Quirk.
Sunday, October 20, 2002 04:07 a.m.
What's Your Jrock Quirk? Test made by: Docudrama.
Funny. I have no cheekbones.
But it don't matter! Hahahaha!! This quiz was so fudging funny that I actually came back for another blog posting. The different results are hilarious.
Anyhow. Hm. I'm back. What do I say. Well, during my night of doing nothing, I started a new Sims game. The objective: Toss Youji and Aya into a house together, leave them alone with no interference from me, and see how long it takes for them to go physically at each other. Either in the sexual sense or the violent sense, don't matter. So far, it seems to be leaning towards the latter =P. They spent most of their first day in the hot tub and then a meal and in less than one hour, Youji managed to reduce his relationship points with Aya down to ZERO. While Aya has doubled his points with Youji. o_O I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. BUT. Last I left them, the strangest thing happened. Youji went to try and Tickle Aya and I thought "Fool!" and was expecting WWIII to break out when Aya actually *let* Youji tickle him and liked it! O_O Could. Not. Believe. It. Damn, Yotan got skills. Has Aya hating him and wanting him. Dude. Go Youji! There's hope for some nummy bedroom fun yet!
Also just watched this Hong Kong movie. "Ah Fai the Dumb". Was rather good. I got all emotional. ;_; Amazing how they took an old idea and still made it good. The scene where Fai tells Bing that he would eventually revert back to his retarded mental state got me all choked up. >_< I know, sounds stupid, but you have to see it and hear the stuff they say.
Sucky music news
Saturday, October 19, 2002 09:15 p.m.
This is just not my weekend for music celebrities. First off, that mother fcuking Nicholass gets off with just a few days in jail and community service after a hit/run and *then* paying someone to take the blame for his shit in court. Such total fucking BS. I bet the judge's daughter was a fan of his or some shit. God, I hate that loser. He's never to be mentioned on this blog again.
More coverage on Gackt's movie in all the mags. Don't like this. I had really hoped he wouldn't go down this road. But I guess I'll always love him in spite of it all. The plot is of a futuristic Japan where Gackt plays a Yakuza boss and meets some young vagabond-type guy. Like some cheezy yaoi manga, right? And did the other role HAVE to be played by HYDE of all people??! No, I don't particularly like him. His singing gets annoying. He can't compare to Gackt and I don't like it when ppl try to (yes, call it the talk of the obsessed Gackt fan). I guess it's better than some jpop girl. But Gackt/Hyde. Ew.
I can't keep up with all the Gackt stuff now. I've been avoiding the bookstores lately because I can't afford to buy all the mags. And it's not possible for me not to buy them if I see them. Who knows how many issues I've missed with him. This is depressing. And I'll have to go back there to pick up my Gackt calendar soon. God, it's almost stressful. >_< It's tough being a Gackt fan.
I hear Klaha's gone to doing solo. Sorry to say it seems a bit bleak for him...
On much sadder news. My mom's favorite singer, Roman Tam, died today of liver cancer. He had forgone treatment since it was incurable anyway. Had rather spent the short time he had left eating and doing what he wanted. I saw him in concert only once when I was very young. But he was an interesting character. Nobody was really surprised when he came out of the closet. I think one of the reasons my mom liked going to his concerts was for his entertaining effemininity. That's a word right?
She also yelled the shit out of me today. Which, ironically, lead to me feeling shitty. And ended up passing on going to the Hacken Lee concert in Atlantic City tonight. So here I am...doing nothing. Feeling shitty. Aaaaw.
Too freaking lazy to update the site. Once a month is apparently too much to ask from me.
I'm sad. Maybe it's too much violin. Or maybe it's this dull red I recolored my hair with.
Sadness.
Wednesday, October 16, 2002 05:20 p.m.
I want to go to Yaoi-con, too. =( Sucks.
But I wonder. If I were able to go and had the money to spend, would it even be worth it? Would I have fun? Not so sure. I'm not really into "yaoi" too much anymore. All I'd really do is...well...buy stuff. Which is bad. Buy lots of stuff of the few things I like. No moolah.
I don't even know if I should call myself a "yaoi fan" anymore. Shouldn't a yaoi fan like most of what the genre offers? I mean, I still like m/m, but I only like a few very specific things in yaoi and dislike the rest. I like Youji/Aya. I like Gojyo/Sanzo. I like certain types of pairings from certain series. Could you call a person a Jrock fan if they liked only Dir en grey? And only a few songs at that? And add to the fact that I can hardly stand everything else. I am too picky. Very critical. Many things in yaoi now annoy me as much as the things in most mainstream anime did. For instance, what used to be Mary-sue-like heroine/female charas are now just Mary-sue-like uke. Ooh, now they have penises. *cough*shuichi*cough* It gets old.
But damn, I used to looooove yaoi. For years and years. Everything I could find. SOoo much stuff. I look back now and can't believe the titles I bought. Can't even stand to look at most of it now.
It's gotten very hard for me to like *anything* in anime. Like David says, I hate everything. But there are still just these small things about it that keep me there. Just enough to draw me back in. And once I find it and do *truly* like something, I'll like almost anything/everything about it. It's like my critical nature does a 180 once I can get past the green line. Doujinshi for instance. I don't care how crappy it is, if it's Y/A I'll take it! Almost none of my usual criticisms can apply to it anymore. Everything is good. x_X
I don't think I like yaoi. I think I like a specific idea, be it story, character, or pairing, that can actually apply to any/all anime. It just happens to be easier found and satisfied in yaoi because fanwork makes up so much of it. And well, cuz guys are less likely to act like girls o_O. I've made the connections long ago. The characters I like usually have one major similarity in personality. The pairings I like share one similar dynamic. And it seems I don't like big eyes o_O (and everything it usually entails). You can pretty much tell from what I've listed as my favorites on the right including the female charas and non-yaoi pairings. Pretty consistent throughout and one should be able to come up with a vague idea of what these similarities are if they recognize all the names. There is a similar trend to the things I dislike most, too. But no way I can list them, it'd go on forever. Besides, what I like is more important than what I dislike. Hobbies are supposed to be enjoyable.
Hmm....NOT to say I see every character and pairing the same way though. Youji/Aya and Gojyo/Sanzo. At first glance, they do seem incredibly similar. But I think their relationship would be hell different. For one thing, G/S would be hell more violent and volatile x_X. Lust, lust, violence, and LusT, then some more violence. If the writer is good, they can write them into something more "meaningful". Y/A *could* be like that, but is sooo much more. To me, their relationship is nothing if not meaningful. But damn, I don't think any pairing I like can compare to Youji/Aya. Aya himself, is lot different from my usual tastes despite what fans generally think of him. He's just not your typical cool, cold character. I'm so obsseeeesssed.
Anyhow. "I'm sad, I want to go to Yaoi-con" has turned into yet another long ramble.
Other news (ooh, mind-tingling isn't it?) I actually beat a video game this weekend! (beating games is now as rare as finishing anime). David is so proud of me ^-^. Was visiting at my friend's dorm and molested his games and consoles. There wasn't much to do other than mindlessly sit there for 7 hours straight through the night and start/finish Devil May Cry. I had actually liked it! Surprising, I don't usually like playing these types of action games. But the non-Resident Evil/Biohazard controls were a definite plus. The 'romance' and ending were DAMN cheezy though. Total BS. But I expected that from this type of game. Dante was coooool though. I actually liked his guns (don't usually go for guns). His look was mad nice. Just wish his voice sounded a bit deeper and behaved a bit more dignified. A little too much "I'm gonna kick yer ass" tone. Hehe, or maybe I'm just looking for another Alucard XD. Actually looking forward to DMC2. Hear it's going to be a city setting, though I hope it doesn't lose the Gothic mood and atmosphere of the first one. Gonna have to smuggle the PS2 from my brother x_X.
Huh, what? What about FFX? Dunno. It's too brightly colorful! I'll only play for Lulu. (Tidus is a punk)
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Favorites - unalphabetized items are listed by rank Anime:
Tenku Senki Shurato
Mangaka:
Ozaki Minami
Manga:
Zetsuai 1989; BRONZE
Doujinshi-ka:
Excluding Ozaki Minami, Higuchi Aya.
Video Games:
Dragon Warrior IV
Final Fantasy IV
Final Fantasy VI
Phantasy Star III
Mariokart
Mariokart 64
Tetris
Anime music:
All from Zetsuai/Bronze - highly reccommended
Bad Blood
Dousurebaii
20XX ZETSU-AI ~Crime of Passion~
BRONZE the final chapter
Rurouni Kenshin OVA- In Memories "KO-TO-WA-RI"
Game music:
Liberi Fatali (FF8)
One Winged Angel (FF7)
Crystal Theme (FF)
Male Anime characters:
Yasha Gai - TS Shurato
Fujimiya Aya(Ran) - Weiß Kreuz
Aquarius Camus - Saint Seiya
Katze - Ai no Kusabi
Sendoh Akira - Slam Dunk
Genjo Sanzo - Saiyuki
Female Anime characters:
Arisugawa Juri - Utena
Ten'ou Haruka - Sailormoon
Miyu - Vampire Princess Miyu
Male Game characters:
Egdar Figaro
Magus
Sephiroth
Shadow
Squall Leonhart
Vincent Valentine
Female Game characters:
Lulu
Terra Branford
Edea Kramer
Freya Crescent
Shiva
Aeris Gainsborough (go figure ^^;)
American cartoons(LMAO):
Batman Beyond
Gargoyles
American comic:
Kabuki
Uncanny X-Men
American comic character:
Storm
Yaoi Pairing:
*Youji/Aya - Weiß*
Seifer/Squall - FF8
Irvine/Squall - FF8
Iason/Katze - Ai no Kusabi
Gojyo/Sanzo - Saiyuki
Non-yaoi Pairing:
*Ruka/Juri - Utena*
Miwa/Meiko - Marmalade Boy
Shishio/Yumi - Kenshin
Edgar/Terra - FF6
Gambit/Storm - X-Men
General likes -
Watermelon
Milk
Cool beverages ^_^
Tong shui
White paper
Sunsets
Pilot fine point retractable pens...black.
Raspberry popsicles
Flowers
Parks
Silver jewelry
Thunderstorms
Being the Top hat in Monopoly
Dislikes
Humidity
Standing still
Most seafood
Eggs
Cigarettes
Cigarrette smoke
Yuuki Miaka
Rinoa Heartlily
HB lead
Spicy food
Sakura's theme in Puzzle Fighter
Sakura from WK
Nicholass whats-his-face (don't ask)
Carrying umbrellas
Jerry Springer
Mosquitos
Being the thimble in Monopoly
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