Now, speaking of how my faves are usually coolly mean, there is one exception I'd like to address. Fujimiya Aya/Ran. I actually don't think he's as bastardly cold as everyone seems to make him out to be. In fact, if he were that way, he would have been my favorite immediately! X) Which he wasn't, Schuldich was. I wasn't too sure about Aya and it wasn't until a little while later when I got more familiar with his character, that my interest became obsession. (Y/A didn't come until later) Aya has many sides to his character. The early fics I read seemed to give him only one side while the other Weiss characters were given two(now how unfair is that? =P Anyway). Aya *is* cold. But I don't think he's *mean*. I think he has too many issues with himself to even be mean to others in a conscious and intentionally hurtful way. He detaches himself to protect himself and it comes off harsh. But he certainly wouldn't be doing it for the sake of being mean.

Now, the Aya-haters usually seem to dislike him for being cold when everyone else isn't. They say the others have a past just as bad as he does or worse so Aya doesn't have the right to be that way. Well gee, I guess they should have made an anime based on everyone with the same personality who thought and dealt with things the same exact way. Just give them different names and stories and maybe the audience won't be able to tell. =/ Get real ppl. Everyone is different. Everyone deals with things differently. It's not about "having the right" of anything. There will *always* be someone that has it better than you or worse than you. It doesn't change *your* situation or the fact that its still the worst thing thats ever happened to you. Give him a break. Hehe, but I guess it *is* just an anime so, lol... I'm going off on a tangent.

What I wanted to say was Aya's past is not the same as everyone else's. (There's a reason he's the main character, you know?) His torturous "past" was *still* in the works. His sister ain't dead yet. He's in limbo. Which is pretty damn sucky. Everyone else's shit was pretty much over and done with and they were left to either have dealt with it well or badly. (I know their pasts came back, but assuming, we don't take into account the events of the anime just yet) Aya was still suffering from his family's tragedy(whether he might have forced the pain onto himself or not). It's kinda like the difference between a bullet through the heart or being burned alive in a fire. Fast or slow. Everyone else at the beginning of the series, already had their closure (though none of them knew that they were in for more XP). Aya hasn't gotten through his shit yet. His sister has been in a coma for years and he's looking for revenge. I can't blame him for being the way he is when the "fire" has been burning him for so long and is *still* eating at him. So to compare his dilemma and attitude with his other teammates' this way is not quite right.

To compare the others with each other wouldn't really be right either, they are very different people, but that's another issue ^^;.

Hmm, and I think I should finally say something about Ken. I'm sure some of you have wondered why Ken seems to play a rather small part, if any, in the things I do. To put it bluntly. He's not very interesting ^^;;. I mean, I have taken into account the things I've just said above, but Ken's past or character just isn't as stimulating as the other weiss members. Oh, I'm not saying his past isn't bad or painful. But it really doesn't compare to the others entertainment-wise for me and my interests. His appearance isn't very unique (yes, appearance does matter. It's the truth. Aesthetics.) which doesn't make drawing him very interesting. His personality has a lot to do with it, too I think. I never went for the "boy-next-door" type in anime. They remind me a bit too much of the typical main characters which I had never liked. And like I had mentioned earlier, I find the non-"all-around-nice-guy" more interesting. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate Ken. But I like Ken as a supporting role, rather than the main focus of stories.

There *is* a Ken that I don't like though. I've labeled him as "Fanfic Ken". In many many yaoi fanfics Ken is uke. Not just uke. Girly uke. ::shudder:: I can't stand that >_<. It's so...odd. Especially since in-character portrayal is pretty significant to me. With the way Ken looks and the way he acts in both anime and manga, seeing him be so...wimpy is really...annoying? x_X Ken is so...jock-ish. And his temper. I would think he's the straightest of them all. I don't like or believe in sweet, clumsy, naive, innocent Kenken. Where the hell does that come from, I've always wondered. That he's everyone's victim and willing uke. Nah. Ken's a seme if he had to be gay. But of course, I know, that's just me. 3/4 of the fandom would prolly disagree with me. Oh wells. 3/4 of the fandom bastardizes Aya, too.

I've finally decided on the kind of fic that pisses me off most. The triangle of Youji/Ken;Aya/Ken. I can't stand those fics -_-;. I'm not going to justify or defend it with any reasoning other than pure, personal feelings. Don't like it. I would actually rather read a Aya/Omi. No. I didn't just say that. Ignore everything. o_O I can read a Aya/Ken. I can read a Ken/Omi (I actually prefer this Ken pairing to any other Ken pairing) I avoid Youji/Ken. (honestly, I think it should be Ken/Youji if it had to be these two o.O) But to have Ken the object of both Youji and Aya's attention...that's just a bit too surreal for me to accept. You can call it my bias for Youji/Aya if you want, but I'd find it more believable if Omi were in between.

Oh and for the Omi-fans, I like Omi. ^_^ But since I'm such a yaoi freak and Omi is like 8 years old in my head meaning he can't be doing anything sexual without causing me discomfort, which then means he doesn't get a lot of attention in my doings. Gomen! I can really only accept Omi in light shounen-ai situations and that usually has to be with Nagi or Ken. Anything else would be too much for my stomach and poor, traumatized brain.

I'm sorry if I offend Ken fans, I'm not trying to bash him. I honestly think he's a nice guy. If this were real life, I'd probably love to be his friend. But it's not about RL, its anime and entertainment. I can follow different realities, LOL. Oh the joy of fantasy...