My colorgenics profile. Freakishly accurate =D Here it is:

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others...and it is this need that sometimes will hold you back ... so let go - trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens ...

At this time you "need to be needed" and again you "need to need". You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have that belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

You are not an argumentative sort of person and "rather than fight - you'd switch" (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet ... you tend to become inhibited You keep it all to yourself ...but deep down-you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion ... In fact you just don't want to be involved in any arguments of any shape or form ... All you want is for "them" to get on with it - and to leave you alone..

In other news, I'm out of stamps XD Heh, hope everything reaches everyone in a proper time and condition...

I'm tired, but I'm gonna stay up a while longer to try and catch Sashi =D BTW, ignore whatever times my blog say right now, becaise is comp's clock is really off, I try to adjust the time when I make an entry, but I don't always remember. Anyways, laters all, take care! *hugs* =)

Just 2 left. Just 2! So close to the end... ^^ Heh, finals suck.

Anime club was cool, we watched some openings for some anime shows, and gave our opinions, Michi's gonna send it in to some companies. Heh, it was fun. Oh, we have a guy in our club now that ~SOOOO~ looks like Gendo Ikari, it's frightening. XD

Whoo! They got a new DDR machine at fun world, the 5th mix. Lets you do custom steps to song using a playstation mem card. XP These guys were doing insane mixes that would have had me tripping over my own 2 feet halfway through. Me and Jon stuck to 3rd Mix =D.

Lost is on hiatus too now ;_; Everyone's leaving! *cries* Heh, come back soon hon, and keep an eye on your mail. That goes to everyone =) I got stamps ^^

Well, I'm gonna go relax, I've been doing entirely too much walking lately, so I'm just gonna lay back. Peace everyone, take care! *hugs* ^^

Hey all. Heh, 2 day streak ended case i forgot to blog yesterday. XP But, Still, I'm blogging more, you should all be proud =D

Finals should be a breeze tomorrow, which just leaves Psycology Friday. I have to present, so i dunno how that'll go. I dunno what I'm gonna do tomorrow after school though, cause we get out early during finals. Usually I just head down to the Tower for Anime Club, but can't do that. I just guess we'll see. I'm not going home, cause I'm supposed to be grounded, and given that they've taken away all of my stuff to boot, I'm just ignoring them right now, cause hey way over reacted. Anyways...

Saw Crystal today ^^ Haven't actually seen her much at all lately. Heh, which isn't neccesarily a bad thing I guess, but I still like seeing her.But until I get some advice and know which way I want to jump, *shrugs*

I saw Ocean's Eleven with John Tuesday, it was a great movie ^_^ If you havn't seen it, go see it. Anyways, that takes care of 2 of the movies on my list. Heh, seen 2 movies already this year, and thats 1 more than last year XD Now I need to see vinilla Sky and I still want to catch Harry Potter in theaters. Maybe I'll invite Crystal to go with me to one. =) Prolly not though, or if i do, she'll prolly be too busy. *sigh* Oh well.

I totally spaced going out to run errands today. X( Need to get a card for the Birthday girl, and more stamps. Also need to stp at the SS office... Maybe tomorrow, I've got the time, after all.

Heh, I'm gonna start reading some Lovecraft. Found a site that has some of his stuff on it, has Call of Cthulu of course, and I'm gonna jump into it soon. Finished Diplomacy of Wolves. =) Wonder how John's doing on the LotR books. Need to get back my WoT book from June, and my Gunfighters book from Chris. Wonder if the library is still hunting me for those books I lost back in 3rd grade... XD

Heh, seems Finals are keeping everyone busy, haven't seen hardly anyone online lately. I miss talking to people ;_; And Ada is on leave, and I keep trying to remember to E-Mail her, but don't >_< Or write, or something! *sighs* My correspondance seems cursed, my stuff either never seems to actually hit the mail, or when it does, never arrives. But, letter letter for everyone, as soon as I get stamps 8-P

Whoo. Long post. I think I tend to ramble overly much. I need to archive this crap. Eh, I'll wait till I give out the addy to a few more ppl, that way they won't need to look up the archives too much.

Heh, I'm ressurecting my RPG with the help of Riegien and Vince. Going Gundam UC, not Wing, like last time. Hope it works out this time, last time it never got off the ground. But this time, I'm not the only owner, I've got 2 co-owners. I think that'll help.

Anyways, I'm gonna go listen to some music, then crash I think. See you all around! *hugs* Take care,

Had a migraine this morning, so I didnt get into school until like 6th period -_-; But, I handed in what I needed to, so purpose accomplished. Finals start tomorrow, I'm soooo screwed, I just know it. *sighs* I should go study, but I think I'll go play FF9. I'm such a slacker. Laters all, take care! *hugs*

Had a migraine this morning, so I didnt get into school until like 6th period -_-; But, I handed in what I needed to, so purpose accomplished. Finals start tomorrow, I'm soooo screwed, I just know it. *sighs* I should go study, but I think I'll go play FF9. I'm such a slacker. Laters all, take care! *hugs*

Hey all. Had a blast at Chris and Lynn's party. Was up until like 6 in the morning or something. Lynn's friend Sam is very wierd and kinda creepy. Watched lots of cool movies, mostly anime (Heh, Lupin is awesome, and him and Jegan look SO like Spike and Jett XD). Less drunkeness than expected, which is fine with me. Was tons of fun ^_^

I completely forgot to ask Lynn for advice until like there really wasn't time. Not that I'm too keen for asking for advice, kinda like asking your older sister, but still. Should have Chris there too, cause he might have good advice too. Hope I don't need to fall on my sword. XP I feel very much stupid about the whole thing at this point, like I should know what to do, but don't. *sighs*

Need to finish make up work and bridge tonight. I just want to try to relax though. I wish school like gave you a week off after finals, I need it. Finals week is gonna be horrible. So well though. I think I csn pull out most of my classes though, with the exception of Mythology... And if i fail that, then I've pretty much set a second year in stone. I'll deal though. I will grauate, even if a year late.

I hate my parents. I forgot to tell them when I left for the party, and cause they forgot I had the party to go to (My Dad claims never told them, which is absolute bull, cause I made a point of telling them, because it was gonna be an overnight thing), they've grounded me and taken my stuff out of my rom. I'm SOOO pised at them right now. And having my brother home is just super crappy too. I can't wait till I can get out of this damn hell I live in.

anyway, I need to go do work and such. Laters all, take care. *hugs*

Woo. It's been a while. Haven't had a connection for more han a week now though, so it's not entirely my fault though. What a time it has been though. Went back to school last week, found that trying to get rid of my crush on Crystal was totally ineffective. *sigh* I've got it bad. Getting worse it seems too. I just want it to go somewhere. It'd be nice if things were clearer between us. I mean, she made it clear that she just wanted to be friends, but then things got muddied again, and it's just a mess.

Last Saturday was a busy day. Finally saw LotR ^^ Awesome film, if you haven't seen it, go. If you have seen it, go see it again! 8-P After, went down to the tower, and after the game I went out to Denny's till like 3 with Chris S. and Lynn (Chris had to go sleep, but Lynn got to go out with us cause Chris S said he'd take her home). Lynn is one of the people I love most in the world to be with. She's more my family than my real family is. And me and Chris S actually get along now (god, when we first met, we went after each other bad. XD But after returning from his exile to Kentuky, we've gotten along great). So that was awesome. Lynn reminded m about the housewarming party too, which is tomorrow, and will be a blast =D

I got a card from Ada! *dances* I put it in my stash of personals. It's a small stash of little things I kee arond that have some personal signifigance to me. A pic of me holding my Sister cherish when she was a baby, a valentine from Sarah, The Note from Crystal, stuff like that ^^ Also where I stash people's phone #'s whose I don't want to loose...

This week has been an utter mess. I've had horrible migraines. The stress of end of quarter is getting to me bad. Haven't had internet connection, so I haven't bee able to do any research (just finished a 3 page report on Bipolar a half hour ago, was due Wednesday). Have more I need to do, but I'm opting out for sleep. Heh, Sashi went to bed before I did, by a long shot. That should tell me something. But I'm just in it for the maybe 2 hours of sleep. Mostly cause I don't want to be dead for the party ^^.

Heh, I think thats mostly it. I think I'll seek Lynn's advice about Crystal before the party, or maybe Saturday after she's up. Gonna have to spend all Sunday working though >_< Oh, and my bro gets out of Jail tomorrow. Joy. *rolls eyes* Anyways, peace all, take care. *hugs* Laters!

Hey all! ^_^ Merry Christmas! Hope you all had a wonderful day. I had a ton of fun. I'll post all about it tomorrow, cause I'm exausted now, so night all take care! *hugs* Laters!

I think I've been dealt a crushing blow... Yesterday, Crystal was all dressed up to meet her ex-boyfriend -_- Well, apparently it went very well, and now they're going out again. So much for her saying she's staying single. I'm kinda depressed, but more than that, I'm angry. Angry at myself for thinking I had a chance, and for being angry at her for going out with someone else. Which I am. I feel like a fool, and I feel like I've been played off. Maybe that 'I'm think I'm gonna stay single for now" comment was directed at me. Worse, the way she described him, a gentleman, very romantic. I wish I never had this crush, or at least never said anything about it. Damn.

Other stuff happening the last few days, but I don't feel like typing it all out. I'd like to go curl up, but I'm not gonna do that either. Broding over it won't do me any good, just make me angrier and feel worse. I think I'm gonna go out. It's my sister's birthday tonight, but I can't sit around here right now. I dunno when I'll be home, prolly past midnight, so if your looking out for me, don't expect me before then. Laters all.

I think I've been dealt a crushing blow... Yesterday, Crystal was all dressed up to meet her ex-boyfriend -_- Well, apparently it went very well, and now they're going out again. So much for her saying she's staying single. I'm kinda depressed, but more than that, I'm angry. Angry at myself for thinking I had a chance, and for being angry at her for going out with someone else. Which I am. I feel like a fool, and I feel like I've been played off. Maybe that 'I'm think I'm gonna stay single for now" comment was directed at me. Worse, the way she described him, a gentleman, very romantic. I wish I never had this crush, or at least never said anything about it. Damn.

Other stuff happening the last few days, but I don't feel like typing it all out. I'd like to go curl up, but I'm not gonna do that either. Broding over it won't do me any good, just make me angrier and feel worse. I think I'm gonna go out. It's my sister's birthday tonight, but I can't sit around here right now. I dunno when I'll be home, prolly past midnight, so if your looking out for me, don't expect me before then. Laters all.

I feel stupid, my blog is fixed now though. I'm very much burnt out right now. I think I'm gonna be quitting Q's RPG. = I'm just sick of the stuff going on there and such. Though I won't be playing in a RPG anymore then...

Lynn invited me to her and Chris's Chrstmas get-together at their new house ^_^ This means a lot to me, because Chris and Lynn are gamer friends of mine, and almost all of my gamer friends are older than me. So, I don't really expect to be included in stuff like this mostly. The youngest person there other than me will be Matt and Lynn, 20 and 21 respectively, and everyone else are like 25 and older. So it means a lot to me than Lynn is including me in it, though she said I can't drink (not a prob, given I don't), though neither can Matt, less because he's not legal than because of what hapened last time he was drunk XD.

Got totalk to Ada yeasterday ^_^ *hugs* Glad I caught you hon, and hope to catch you again soon.

Love troubles continue to abound. I feel so bad for Sina... ;_; And whoever this Mark person is I hope gets hits by a mack truck. Then backed over when the truck goes to see what that bump was. *BIG Kyoso brand hug for Sina*

Things are still stationary between Crystal and I for those who are curious. And I doubt anything will happen between us really. Though that might be mood talking. I kinda wish my crush would go away. Though that might be mood talking too. I'm not in the best of moods, for those who wondered. Very emotionally burnt from being angry over Vince getting set up, and how P is getting away with so much crap... *sighs* but, thats why I'm considering quitting...

Well, I think thats it. Heh, Chibi-Sarah was on yesterday too, got to talk to her for a short while. NO anime club meeting this week, which is too bad, though I don't understand why no meeting. Got school stuff I need to do, but I'm not gonna, at least not right now. Lost-chan is packing, she's leaving soon. Hope I'll still get to see her on sometimes, dunno how the TZ diff will affect it cause I haven't worked out it. Hope to see Sashi on and stcey sometime today too. Maybe I'll luck out and ada will jump on too, but I don't think i have that much luck after catching her yesterday 8-P Anyways, I'm outta here, laters all, and take care everyone *hugs*

It's been an up and down day. Was able to go out, and had fun. stopped by John's, then went to Anime club. It was lots of fun today =) Met a person I hadn't seen there before, Sarah ^_^ Heh, she's fun, though has a penance for poking, we spent like half the meeting poking each other =D It was fun. Though it drove Mike inane i think 8-P No DDR though, oh well. Sarah gave me her SN, but she hasn't been on, too bad.

Got online tonight to find a friend in the RPG I'm in, Vince, was basically killed in a setup cause RPG politics, or thats how it seems to me at least. I'm so pissed over that, it's not cool. And I can't do anything about it, not without sinking myself to a low level, which I won't do, and it's so frustrating! I don't know why Q lets stuff lke this go on. He's a nice guy and a friend, but he lets people walk over him. But I'm emotionally drained now, and still slightly POed. Considering dropping it, but no other real RPGs to hang about, and I enjoy it when stuff like this isn't going on. I dunno... Talked to Stacey about it, and then moved on. You helped my mood hon, thanks =)

Updated links, as promised. Go check out the new ones people ;) Take care everyone, sweet dreams. *hugs* Laters!

I'm still not blogging that often, but I'm hoping that'll get better once I'm off grounding. Been sick lately, stomach flu, so I haven't been in school the last 3 days. -_- I'm gonna force myself to tommorrow, because I can't afford to miss anymore school. Besides, I want to see Crystal ^_^

Talking with Ada Tuesday was a bust ;_;, cause she needed sleep. Catch you another time hon *hugs* Just let me know when. Caught up with the birthday girl tonight ^_^ Heh, too bad Stacey wasn't on.

Still haven't fixed and added links, I promise to tomorrow. Should get to the HTML of my layout in about a week I estimate, but we'll see. Anyways, I think I'm out, laters all *hugs* take care! ^_^

Hey all once again. I'm so unmotivated right now. I need to update my links secton so badly, it's horrid. Watched the Matrix the last 3 nights, and taped most of it tonight. VERY cool movie.

I'm still very burnt out, and feeling crappy the majority of the time. I hate feeling like this...

I got to talk to sashi briefly Saturday. She says she's gonna get a pic of Jessie and scan it in for ppl to see =D. She's got it bad XP. Worse than me even. Heh, you need to tell him hon.

Yes, it finally snowed! ^_^ I love snow. Alls I can say is it's about time...

I think I'm gonna crash now, but we'll see. Wonder where I can find some misletoe. Got some Christmas gift money, gonna start looking about for gifts for ppl this week. Prolly gonna end up just getting many ppl cards. Oh well. Heh, Lost says ada is gonna be on AIM on tuesday =D We'll see if I can catch the elusive Ada-chan yet XD Love you hon =) Heh, catch everyone laters, and take care! *hugs*

Hey all once again. I'm so unmotivated right now. I need to update my links secton so badly, it's horrid. Watched the Matrix the last 3 nights, and taped most of it tonight. VERY cool movie.

I'm still very burnt out, and feeling crappy the majority of the time. I hate feeling like this...

I got to talk to sashi briefly Saturday. She says she's gonna get a pic of Jessie and scan it in for ppl to see =D. She's got it bad XP. Worse than me even. Heh, you need to tell him hon.

Yes, it finally snowed! ^_^ I love snow. Alls I can say is it's about time...

I think I'm gonna crash now, but we'll see. Wonder where I can find some misletoe. Got some Christmas gift money, gonna start looking about for gifts for ppl this week. Prolly gonna end up just getting many ppl cards. Oh well. Heh, Lost says ada is gonna be on AIM on tuesday =D We'll see if I can catch the elusive Ada-chan yet XD Love you hon =) Heh, catch everyone laters, and take care! *hugs*

Everyone with new layouts, I feel so left out -_- Oh well, I'll fix that eventually. Not much happening lately, just lots of boredom. Reading Frankenstein now. It's cool. Ummm, thats really about it. Crystal's been out the last 3 days, meant to call her today. Forgot. But she has Mono right now, so maybe thats why. But, I still worry. Doesn't take much with me. Anyways, laters all, and take care! *hugs*

Hey all =) Been a while since I blogged. Though there really hasn't been much going on. I'm watching some Jackie chan Movies right now cause I can't sleep.

Gonna try to get some notes from teachers so I'll be able to go to Anime club. I convinced my friend Mike Gardener to come a long too =D Heh, I lent him my Tenchi Muyo videos, he just watched Ep 7 yesterday, and saw Washu and the Angel of Mercy part XD So funny, his reaction... Hope I can go, cause he won't go unless I'm going, so they'll be someone he knows there.

Heh, I need to start linking to ppl's blog in posts. Heh, and I still need to add to my links part. And I might attempt my own layout soon, though I'm gonna save this one, just in case mine doesn't turn out well.

I need to talk to more ppl. I only seem to talk to Abbey and Stacey lately...(wierd thing, Abbey is one of the few ppl I use more than one name for, cause I still call her Lost a lot of the time too. I switch back and forth, rather randomly. Hon, let me know which you prefer ^_^) Sashi, you need to get online! =) Haven't talked to you in forever it seems, cause you've been sick... Anyone else i haven't talked to in ages (Sina, Mav, anyone), IM me! =) I don't always talk to ppl unless I have something to say generally, but I enjoy talking with you all, so keep in touch! Anyways, got bloggy done, back to TV, and hopefully sleep! *hugs* Take care all, and sweet dreams!

Pumped for tonight's Cowboy Bebop. It ends here, folks... I want to see the showdown, Spike Vs Vicious. I'm hoping they settle things at least. Heh, soon, soon...

I'm still feeling rather burnt out. Alls I do is go online, watch TV, and play Diablo 2 right now. Not that there is much more I can do... *sighs*

You ever get the feeling that the world is moving and that your not? Not literally, more in a figurative sense. I'm feeling like that about now. Burn out sucks. I need to get active, do stuff.

I still haven't given Chris the addy for this. Though John has it now. I've got his Livejournal bookmarked now, which is col, cause we really don't talk much now... I'll eventually add it to my links, but I don't feel like it right now. Gonna add Nick's blog to my links too, cause he seems pretty cool.

Ummm, thats about it. Best of wishes to Ada, hoe things get better soon. I know you can beat it, I've always had faith in you ^_^ And Lost, GL with loosing weight. And don't be too hard on those who get on your case about eating, they just do it cause they care. BTW, I like your christmas outfit, it's very cool =D. Umm, get well soon Sashi hon, having the flu sucks!. Bye bye now, watching Bebop! *hugs* take care all!

Hey all. I had a good thanksgiving, though I wish we had stuck around longer. I wish Cassi had been there too... But it was still good.

My browser is beiung funky again, and not giving me everyone's latest blog entries. I hate when that happens. *_* Heh, Ada's on, but not on AIM. But judging by the post she just posted, I can understand... I dun think talking with people would be what I would want. Course, most of the time I don't feel like talking to people, with very few rare exceptions for people like Stacey and Sashi and such... Reading Ada's Josh post made me kinda depressed, reminds me of my own missed oppertunities. I do really wish I had let Sarah know I liked her, even if nothing would have come of it. And maybe if I had asked crystal earlier, things would have been different. But, regrets are pointless, as you can't change the past. But, if I may offer my own opinion in matter which I prolly shouldn't, I'd definately send him an E-Mail hon.

Just read Sashi's blog, and I feel horrible about that. What a crappy way to end any day, and Thanksgiving... *sighs* I'm so sorry hon, and I sympathize...

On other, more happy notes, I suppose, I just installed my Voodoo card. So, yay me. But, I can't add my 128 stick of RAM cause it's the wrong type *_* Pissed about that, it takes crappy DIMM, not SD, which is what I have in all my old computers. Bugger.

There's no one on to talk to. Not that I really feel like talking to anyone really. I'm bored. Maybe I'm burning out again. I haven't seriously burnt out for a long time, been able to break out of the rut. But nothing has really been able to really intrest me since my brief creative burst, and I've been feeling so tired.I just want to lay down. And I can't do anything to even try to break out of it, cause I'm grounded. So looks like I slip to it this time. I want to go laydown. Laters all, and take care *hugs*

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! ^_^ Just stopping in before I leave to wish everyone that. =) Made my call earlier, and I'm ready to stuff myself. Laters everyone! =) *hugs*

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! ^_^ Just stopping in before I leave to wish everyone that. =) Made my call earlier, and I'm ready to stuff myself. Laters everyone! =) *hugs*

Hey all. Haven't thought to blog in a while, sorry. things are going well, can't wait till T-Day break. I love T-Day, get to see lots of my relatives. Only wish Cassie were here for it. *sighs* It'd figure, that of all my cousins, my fav would live cross country...

Juno won't let me ply d2 over B.net. Thats not cool, can't play with Mat know ;_; Well, maybe through a direct connection. We'll see.... But I do have lots of fun with the game. Been a while since I've had a good run on a game like this.

God, the episodes of Cowboy Bebop were so awesome this week. Can't wait to see them again Thurs, then RFB Pt 2 on Sunday. God, Faye looked so sweet when she came in, and Jet asked her where she's been in ep 24.... ^_^ Heh, and the part where Julia and Faye meet was awesome, and kinda creepy. Faye was creeped by it, her knowing she knew Spike... Though I'm actually sad Edward left. I loved the message she left when she left though. Hope she'll be back. Heh, but I can't wait to see how it ends. I'm hoping for the happy ending, but I have the feeling it won't work out that way. I hope Vicious gets his from Spike. I hate him, though I'll admit he is awesome, if in an antichrist type way 8-P He is very cool. But I want him dead badly. I don't see things working out otherwise.

Hey Sashi, did you know HHH lives out here? Goes to the Gold's gym in our town 8-P Too bad I have no intrest in wrestling, or I'd find that really cool. We've got a few local stars, Adam Sandler is from around here too (from Manchester). It's neat =)

Anyway, I'm debating staying up to try to catch Sashi, or trying to get a head start on sleep. But I have a feeling I would be able to sleep for like an hour or so anyway. But we'll see. Gonna go read right now. Laters all! Take care! *hugs*

Today was an off morning. I got up, went to grab my laundry, and it it into the washer without thinking @_@ Heh, but i didn't turn it on, so all was well. Then all morning I kept going to the wrong classes cause I wasn't paying attention, I was walking to the wrong place XD

Operation DDR was a success, no hitches. My feet kill, but it was worth it. Had a great time. Heh, I love my mom. I got home, and she wa like "Your father was out looking for you. You better tell him you were out working on a project, and get something to show him." It's nice to know my Mom is backing me in this, even if she really can't help much with the tyrant, she tries to help me out where she can.

Heh, that's prolly why Ada. *sighs* I hate conflicting scheds. Well, mayube I'll catch you on sometime around Turkey Day, cause I don't have school then. look forward to your E-Mail though ^_^ (see, if I was more industrious, I'd have actually just E-Mail you instead of complaining, but I dislike having to use E-Mail, and I'm just lazy like that I suppose. I need to work on stuff like that...)

No Sashi again today. Heh, try again tomorrow. Need to send mail to Matt, but I'll prolly do that tomorrow. Need to strat looking for job again, cause I'd like to get one soon. money is important, and I'd like to be able to buy my friends gifts this year for the holidays.

Anyway I'm gonna crash, as soon as I set up AG to DL the rest of the Bebop songs I want. Finally have a (semi) stable connection. ^_^ Next is that list Fal-chan gave me. ah, classical.... Night all, and take care *hugs*

Hey all. Meant to blog a bit earlier than this, but so well. I'm relatively ok, aws compared to last friday. Much better really now, cause the fighting has stopped for now, by peace negotiated through mom. So right now I'm just very emotionally drained. I'm so sick of having to fight with the tyrant over everything. But, I'm not going to get into that. I'm sick of it.

Talked to lots of people today from the LE gang. Orion, Rieg, Q, and P dropped me a line while I was away. Wish my RPG hadn't died, we had a lot of fun. Reminised a bit with Orion about old times. thinking of inviting them all to come down to Paradigm, but I think they'd be scared away. =D But still, it'd be cool to have them around at the board and chat with them reguarly.

If anyone's interested, I could set up a mIRC room for Paradigm. Was thinking on that too earlier, after reminising. I miss using mIRC, it was a blast. So if anyone would like me to set up a room, let me know.

I'm feel productive. not work productive, or at least not school work. but I feel like doing, creating. Not writing, unfortunately. think I'm gonna make a stab at writing soon anyway, cause I feel like writing a story. Maybe I'll play around with PSP and create some knifty graphic or some such. I dunno.

Anime club is supposed to be DDRing tomorrow, and I dunno if I'll go. I want to go, but i'm supposed to be grounded. But, because when I go out, I'm largely only going out to the Tower (Local gaming store), thats where i'm grounded from. Anime club meets there, but If I got there at the right time, I could be there and gone with the club DDRing, and no one would know I was there. Course, that would be breaking with my grounding, but I dun agree with being grounded in any case. but being caught could result in more fighting, but if I go the route I was doing Anime club, not Tower stuff, I could prolly talk my way around it. So I'm not sure whether I will go. But I really dun want to miss it cause they won't be doing it again in a while, and one of the members will be bringing a ton of token from club use, so I won't need money. *sighs* decisions decisions...

No mail from Sarah. Maybe I should send her another mail. Or maybe not. I dunno. She might not be responding cause she doesn't want to talk to me. I'm being paranoid prolly. but what can I say, I'm not at my best right now. Haven't been able to talk to Ada either, and no mail. And it seems she's leaving Paradigm ;_; So I won't even see her around there. I like having Ada around, and talking with her. Kindred spirits I suppose. Hon, get in touch with me if your reading this!

What else. Just doing a brain dump here, anything thats on my mind. We've finished up Sherlock Holmes in English, which is too bad. I like Holmes. but, I've gotten all the stories off Project Gutenberg. Project Gutenberg is a volenteer group that takes all books no longer covered by copywrite, and makes a .txt copy of them and places it on the net. It's at http://promo.net/pg I recommend everyone check it out.

Sashi, dont lay off the apple pie on my account. And We'll talk next time as soon as I see you next time. Thank you for the E-mail, it meant a lot to me. 588, I counted them all. In the meanwhile, try not to injure yourself attempting to injure others ;)

Stacey, you need to blog hon 8-P You haven't blogged since Thursday. I've been keeping well up on my blogging. 8-P Oh, and beautiful layout Sina. I love it, very cool. only prob I have with it is it open in a seperate window, and that bothers me (I'm a freak about things like the for some reason. I'm odd). Maybe I should try to brush up on my HTML and try to crate a new layout for this place. but, I like this layout (thanks once again to sashi for it), and while creating a new layout would be satisfying to my creative need right now, basically relearning all of HTML is too much effort for it. Rather do something simplier.

Wow, I rather rambled on in this one. We'll see if we can't try to keep the next one shorter. Heh, funny, I remember back when I first started my blog, I was intent on only putting important stuff in it. That didn't happen. Such is as life though. I like having a place where i can just put my thoughts for everyone to see, and to just put them down somewhere. Anyways, I think thats it really. Night all, and take care. *hugs* Laters all!

Just letting everyone know I'm alive and kicking. not in the best of shape, but I'm ok now. More later, when I'm not dead tired...

"One step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break" Well, I'm broke. I'm so sick of fighting. What's the matter? My gradesw. I got an A, a C, 3 Ds, an F, and a Incomplete, that if I made it up, would be around a B. But thats just not good enough for him. It doesn't matter that it's worlds better than last year, where I was failing more than half my classes. It doesn't matter that I've made nearly 2 weeks without being late or absent, that i'm getting that problem under control. It doesn't matter that I haven't just given up and dropped out, that till now I was on my way to being the only person in my family to actually graduate high school. It doesn't matter that I have higher aspiration than being a drug dealer like him or my brother. Rome wasn't built in one Day, and I'm not gonna have a miracular change in grades in just one quarter. But he doesn't understand that. So why should I bother. I'm sick of fighting him. Alls I have less is the rage and the pain. And thats not enough. So I give up. I'm sorry.

Hey all. Meant to blog yesterday, but I couldn't get into pitas. So well. My ankles are so sore right now. I walked to my Anime Club meeting, and after the meeting a bunch of us went out and played Dance Dance Revolution at fun World for like an hour ^_^ It was tons of fun. Heh, the games really addictive, you want to get it right and want to keep trying. We're gonna spend one of our meetings there playing one week... =)

There's an Anime con this weekend, and Michi said she'd take any of us who wanted to go, so I'm gonna scrounge up some money and see if I can go. It'll be awesome if I can, I've never been to a con (Heh, I so wanted to hit Otakon this year, but couldn't ;_;). Michi's a dear ^_^. Feel bad for her though, cause her Fiancee of a while just broke it off for no real reason. She had to make a trip to the psych ward, she was so broke up over it. but she's ok now ^_^. Gonna ask her for her blog addy, so I can add it to my links.

Still haven't given Crystal my blog addy. I metioned it to her, but forgot to write it down and give it to her. So I'll try to remember tomorrow. And I haven't gotten any E-Mail from Sarah like I hoped. but then, it might just be that she hasn't checked her mail in a while. Who knows? And I haven't seen Ada about since her return either. ;_; Send me some mail hon! =) You know I'll reply.

*BIG hug to Stacey* Glad you are feeling a bit better. Don't let things get to you, and remember we're all here for you hon =) People worry me when they get like that. Not that it takes much for me to worry =D

I think thats mostly it. I need a playstation so I can borrow Michi's DDR. Skirts are hot, girls should wear them more often. ^_^ Heh, crystal doesn't like skirts. Got into a small amusing exchange over that... Basically, I said I liked skirts, and she gave me the strangest look and was like "@_@... On Girls, right?". I'm like, of course, didn't think I needed to add that. She just said "I dunno, maybe there was something you weren't sharing..." *_* Oh well. Remember, wear a skirt ^_~ I dun care how ugly you are, wearing a skirt is that much more attractive 8-P Anyway, I'll leave you with those last thoughts XD Night all, sweet dreams, take care, and keep in touch! *hugs* Laters!

Heh, just archived, and realized that there is no way to get to my archives on the blog... Have to add that now =) Been a nice day, just got up an hour ago XD No school cause election day =)

My Diablo 2 addiction is coming along nicely lol I'm almost to Act 2... Fun game, though I'm not sure if it's better than Diablo 1. It's a lot doifferent, so it's kinda hard to compare. But, I enjoy playing it, and it burns time =)

I got a Yahoo greeting from Sarah! ^_^ Haven't talked to her since she moved last midterms... ;_; But, sok now. i sent her some mail in return, and gave her my blog addy (Hi if your reading this! =D), and hopefully she'll keep in touch =).

I realy need to do stuff. Blog needs some changes, and I'd like to get writing again (been SOOO long since Ive had the mood apon me), cause I have a really cool character idea, and a nice plot to go with... *sighs* I wish I could always write, but my writing blows when it's forced. Oh well...

Ok, I did ok as far as grades go this quarter, though not as well as I would have hoped. Bu, I;ve got 2 incompletes, due to missing tets the week before grades closed. Maybe I'll be happier after I get those through, if I do good on them.

Anyway, I'm gonna jet. I need to give Crystal my blog addy too, but I never remember... Maybe tomorrow. Laters all, take care, and keep in touch! ^_^ *hugs*

Heh, just archived, and realized that there is no way to get to my archives on the blog... Have to add that now =) Been a nice day, just got up an hour ago XD No school cause election day =)

My Diablo 2 addiction is coming along nicely lol I'm almost to Act 2... Fun game, though I'm not sure if it's better than Diablo 1. It's a lot doifferent, so it's kinda hard to compare. But, I enjoy playing it, and it burns time =)

I got a Yahoo greeting from Sarah! ^_^ Haven't talked to her since she moved last midterms... ;_; But, sok now. i sent her some mail in return, and gave her my blog addy (Hi if your reading this! =D), and hopefully she'll keep in touch =).

I realy need to do stuff. Blog needs some changes, and I'd like to get writing again (been SOOO long since Ive had the mood apon me), cause I have a really cool character idea, and a nice plot to go with... *sighs* I wish I could always write, but my writing blows when it's forced. Oh well...

Ok, I did ok as far as grades go this quarter, though not as well as I would have hoped. Bu, I;ve got 2 incompletes, due to missing tets the week before grades closed. Maybe I'll be happier after I get those through, if I do good on them.

Anyway, I'm gonna jet. I need to give Crystal my blog addy too, but I never remember... Maybe tomorrow. Laters all, take care, and keep in touch! ^_^ *hugs*

Real Name: Iziah
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Age: 17
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Birthday: 2/22/84
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