Hey all, checking in fom NSHS. Our class has a sub, so we're in the comp lab now. They deleted all my stuff off my account over the summer, that blows. No games. Oh well. Chris wasn't here today. ;_; Haven't seen John about either. Need to talk to him, so I won't make a fool out of myself.

I want to see Sashi tonight, but I also want to go out later. There's a game down at the Tower I want to join up in. But I haven't talked to Sashi in like forever besides yesterday. Dunno. Maybe I'll Get there a bit late, and see if I can catch Sashi early.

Wonder how Ada's doing. Haven't talked to her in like forever either. Hope she has a happy B-Day tomorrow. Happy B-Day in advance in case I don't blog tomorrow and you actually keep tabs on my blog Ada-chan =) I'll try to get a card this weekend to send out. Borrow a few bucks off Barneby maybe. I'll actually have stamps too. I never have stamps when I actually need to mail something.

Psych class next. Gotta work on our groups persuasive essay, it's due Tuesday. Heh, no school Monday! *dances* So I'll get to be all nice and relaxed for 3 days. Well not really. I'll still be wired over Chris. but besides that, it'll all be good ^_^ Anyway, I'm gonna check out, laters all, take care *hugs*

Hey folks, been a while. Gonna be a long one, so be prepped, I've got like 3 weeks of feelings and events to go through and get out of my system. I think we'll start way back and move forward. Here we go...

Things have just gotten worse between me and me Dad. I'm so sick of him constantly ordering me around and trying to run my life. He needs to butt out. Thankfully, he has a bit lately, because my Mom. Basically, she's making sure everything goes smoothly between us, that he backs off a bit, and that I'm keeping up with my stuff. Doing fine now that he's backed off. He was making it 10 times worse. But there's a semi peace for now...

Still not cool on the whole Vermont thing. I'm not ready to get my own place, and I'm sure half a year won't chance that. I supose I could rent a room from my Memire, but I'm not big on the whole living with relatives thing though. But it's better than Vermont I really think. At least I have some options.

Decided not to take that trip. Just so everyone knows, I was thinking of visiting Adora for her birthday =) But I took too long thinking about it, and my friend John is busy then now. Besides, I wouldn't have a gift for her, and I'd feel bad for that. So I'll just send a card and letter. =) Wish I had money for a gift though...

Since I'm on the subject of Ada-chan, I'll tell everyone who my crush was. It was Ada. Heh, Stacey told me thats who she guessed anyway. Most ppl prolly had put 2+2 together, and gotten something close to 4 at least. I'm sure everyone can understand why I thought it was hopeless though. She's got enough on her hands in that department without my muddying things up further. It was much better that way, no matter what Stacey and Sashi might have thought.

Going on a hike this wednesday! ^_^ Hiking rocks. Its a Health class field trip. It's good for a day out of school, it's hiking, and it's a mountain I've never hiked before. Gonna be awesome. Really loooking forward to it. Other than that, school is going ok. Did worse on Progress reports than I thought I would, but sok. I can still bring everything up, plenty of time to make everything up. =) Detective Lit. is awesome, I love that class. Dupin is awesome, and we'll be doing Holmes soon.

Sashi's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *GLOMP* WB Hon, I missed you so much. Was really worried about you, just disappearing like that, not even blogging like in over a month. But I'm glad I caught you today. ^_^ Next time you plan on not being around, let us know so we won't worry. *hugs* But we got to talk today, which is cool, and you had better be on tomorrow like you said you would ; )

Still thinking on whether to ask Crystal out. And how to ask, since Stacey pointed out that. I think I will. But I need some money, so I can take her out, have some fun with her. Right now I don't even have the money to bring her to McDonalds even -_- If it was the summer, I'd just plan a picnic for the 2 of us. Too cold for that though. Though Stacey said it'd be perfect, cause we could cuddle cause the cold ^_^ It's a nice idea, but I'm not that comfortable with this kinda thing yet. I'm really a reserved person in nature. I'm new to all this, even though I'm a romantic. The whole thing has got me extremely nervous. Hell, I'm half scared she'll say yes. Rejection is known territory. Though I'd much rather not be rejected. I really like her. I want her to say yes. But that won't happen unless I ask her. Maybe not then. Trying not to think about that though. She's such a dear though. Here's to hoping for the best...

I think I covered just about everything. People, if you see me on, message me! =) I'm not the most conversational person, but if you messaage me, I'll be glad to talk. =) Anyway, laters all. Good to blog again. Wnder if Ada is gonna read this. Wonder if I should just give Chris this addy still. Wonder how she'd react. It's my honest feelings, far better than I could explsin in person. And itd save me the pain of rejection in person. *sighs* I'm such a coward. I really am. I'm too guarded with my emotions. I've got to jet. *hugs* Take care all, keep in touch.

Hey all. Sorry I haven't been about, but my Dad took my comp away because I didn't get up for school Wednesday. I was very much toasted from watching the news till 1, then not being able to sleep till around 3. My Dad is an ass.

News on other fronts, my parents have bought land up in the Vermont. They plan to build a house up there and be able to moe in by mid Summer. I don't think it'll happen that fast, but it stil sucks. I don't want to move to Vermont, especially right after my Senior year. My Dad says I should be happy, cause if I live in Vermont for 2 years, the state will pay for me to go to College. Fuck that, what am I supposed to do for 2 years? Not to mention I won't know anyone, and how will I even meet people, out in the boondocks? And of course, thats if I pass my Senior Year. There is a chance I won't, cause of how incredibly crappy I did last year. I think I can manage it, but we'll see. My Guidance counilor is actually recommending I let the extra year slide so I can raise up my GPA and such, get in some extra courses, so I'll get into college easier. *shrugs* I dunno, I think I'd like to graduate with my class. So basicaly, I have less than a year to find myself a place to live or I get shipped to Vermont. This bites.

School is still going well. Though had a hard moment in Health class, though not because of the class itself. We were talking about smoking, and the teacher was talking about a kid she knew who had died from it cause he had asthma. His parents went to the graduation of the class he would have been in, and presented a scholarship in memory of him. She says how she can't imagine how they could do that, and that it was a realy nice thing. I'm just sitting there, trying not to cry as I remember similar after my sister died. We went to what would have been her elementary grad, and presented the school with new comps and stuff, and the school put up a memorial for her. Weird how somethings hit you. I can talk about my sister, and that kinda stuff without a prob, doesn't bother me, but something like this that reminds me of the time can get me going like that.

But I've been emotionaly on edge in general lately. No, it's not because of the towers. Not to be disrespectful, but thats more of an annoyance, hearing of it constantly. I don't want to hear about it, I want something to be done about it and get it behind us. But between other people being on edge because of that, the news about Vermont, and a few other things (another small crush, probs with a friend of mine, my possible trip of which some of you know), just been keyed up lately. Which of course isn't helping my insomnia. Haven't been to bed earlier than 1 this week. *sighs*

Oh, my crush. I have a friend named Crystal (I call her Chris), I'm sure I've talked about her here before. She's really sweet, and has always been one of my best friends. One of the few people that I feel like I can talk about anything with. Just fun to be around. I have a crush on her. I've had crushes on her before, on and off since 10th Grade. She usually has a boyfriend though, so it hasn't mattered. Right now though, she's single, broke up with her last boyfriend over the summer. We were talking about it a while ago, me teasing her over her taste in guys (of all her boyfriends she's had, not one will speak to her after the breakup). She said she just seems to go for that type it sees, and that no one normal seemed to like her in that way. Well, I'm not normal really, but I'm on the benign side of wierd at least ;) Been considering actually asking her out. Haven't gotten up the courage though. Hope I do. Or maybe I'll just give her the addy to this blog. So much easier than saying something in person -__-; Yeah, I know, I'm rather cowardly like that at times. So sue me.

Now that I've moved on from my old crush really, been considering saying who it was here. But, I still don't know if that'd be a good idea, for the best or what. Anyone can feel free to try to convince me one way or the other. We'll see.

Anyway, I'm really glad to be able to get all that out of my system. Even if I don't blog much, knowing that I can, and being able to when I need to is a big help. My Dad picked one of the worst times to take that away. I realy don't like him. Bordering on hate now. I just wish he'd leave me alone, stop trying to interfere in my life, stop trying to run it. *sighs* Anyway, laters all, try to catch me on AIM, I'd love to talk to everyone/anyone. =) Take care all!

Connection is still horrid. What was my count Sina? I think 7 before I called it quits? *sighs* And I know it's my ISP, because my new comp has a new modem (obviously), so it has to be the ISP.

Falling blissfully back into a romantic mood. Everything sems more real when I'm like this. Music is richer, I'm more energetic, and things just seem more cheery generally. To feel is to live.

Going to Maine tomorrow. Hope my cousin Mike is up there. Need to pack. And pick a book and some CDs to bring up. A weekend up would be nice, just a get away from home life and school. Though school is going really well actually. My teachers are cool, and I like my classes. And it's good to see friends again. I turn into a semi-hermit in the summer, just cause I never can get in touch with anyone. Been hanging with Crystal a lot lately. She's such a dear, love her to death. One of the few people who I really feel comfortable all the time, and can talk about anything. Or almost anything. There are some things I just leave in my head.

Anyway, I'm off I think, night to all, take care, and everyone, get in touch with me =) Seems I don't talk to people as much now that schools started. Laters all. *hugs*

Ok, here we go. Gunshin, I have every right to talk. I'm both Ada's and Sashi's friend. I don't know how you think I attacked Adora, but W>E. As for Sashi attacking Ada, she was angry, and people say heated things in anger. You of all people should understand that. But she's not the first person to blow up at Adora. Lost has at least 2 times that I know of. At least Sashi is honest about how she felt. That is something ada would appreciate, honesty was the biggest thing she asked for. But Ada leaving wasn't Sashi fault. Was she a part of the decision? Yeah. But it's not her fault. Ada decided, and for reasons besides that. And why is saying your day is ruined selfish? It's honest, and I can understand the feeling. And you don't understand why her day was ruined, thats obvious. Do I like how she reacted? No, but I can understand. I'm not gonna hold it against her. I'm not angry with her for it, and I think your wrong to be. You think I like not having Adora around? I don't, and I hope she returns as soon as possible.

As for you attacking me? Bite me. RPG killer? Sorry if I place schol ahead of a oline game. I apologized to Lost for it, but real life comes before that. Real life comes before MY RPG, which is currectly on it's last legs because I don't have the time to run it. Shit happens. Glad to see that you can't accept that. Shinigami reject? *laughes* If you say so. Suck up? Hardly. You dont know me well enough to say anything about me Gunshin. So don't try to insult me.

Lastly, saing you'll forgive someone only if they promise it'll never happen again is just plain foolish. That reminds me of a quote from WoT. "You will be angry with me Perrin, and I with you. If you want to make another Wedding vow, vow you will not hide it when you are." Even friends fight at times. You deal with it when it comes.

Anyway, enough on that. I'm doing decently, still busy, but *shrugs* I need new books to read. I haven't been able to read for a while. And I've no music besides my few CDs until I can transfer my junk from my old comp. Thats a big kicker, I need my music. Need to just be able to drift with the music. *sighs*

Still on my Megaman kick. Beat MM 2 and 3. Been reading lots of Fanfics too. Heh, maybe I'll be able to start writing again soon. Maybe I'll start my lemon anew, instead of trying to pick up the half-finished one. Dunno.

Anyway, I think I'm checking out again. Maybe I'll jupm on AIM first, see who's on. And I haven't checked In-different yet. *sighs* but it's late, and I'm tired. we'll see. Night all, take care.

Hey all. No, I'm not dead, just been busy =) School started Thursday. Wasn't that bad, and I have some cool teachers. once again, almost no one I know in my classes, but *shrugs*. Still need to do some things for school, but cleared most of it up Wednesday.

Everyone has been missing lately. With Ada gone, Sashi been missing, and me being on only during the night realy, I haven't seen much of people. Oh well I guess. But Mav has AIM now, which is Uber-cool. Now if only Fal-chan would get AIM... Or a blog. As long as I have a way to find out how everyone is doing, I'm hapy. But AIM is better.

Feel like ripping into Gunshin for blaming Sashi for Ada leaving. Sashi, it's not your fault, no matter what he thinks. It's not the first time Ada's got to you, and your not the first one to react badly. I think she was thinking of going for a while, unless I miss my instinct. Anyway, thanks for the mail hon, and get in touch soon. =)

My romantic mood has faded a bit. Not sure if thats just a part of Burnout, or if I'm just slipping out of it. I hope its just a part of burnout, cause as much trouble as it is, I like being romantic, I like the mood. Seeing the world like that is just so much more.. I dunno. It's more something.Hope I slide back into that something...

Anyway, it's late, time for me to sign out I think. *hugs to all* Take care everyone!

Real Name: Iziah
AKA: Kyoso, Wolfie, Jeans
Age: 17
Gender: Male
Birthday: 2/22/84
Race: Caucasian
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