I'm so tired now. I've gotten like maybe 13 hours sleep since Wednesday >_< But so well. Had a sleep over at my friend Joey's house. We had a blast, though I hurt my knee on his trampoline. Wished I coulda stayed another night...

Heh, got my make-up work in friday, so my grades shouldn't be too bad. We'll see though. The only class I'm really worried about is Graphic Design. But, if I fail it, just means I'll need to do extra good second quarter to make up for it.

We talked about depression in Psyche class Friday. I was surprized when some of the signs described me. Been thinking about it, but I dun think I have depression, I'm merely laid back and extremely lazy I think.

Heh, Ada needs to get a webcam ^_^ That'd be cool. My friend Dan has/had? one setup in his room and has it going 24/7. You could watch him sleep if you really wanted to lol. As for how you feel hon, only thing I can think of like that is Mono = But if you have that, I dun think it should be coming and going. So I dunno. GL with Ballet though hon ^_^ And I'll take that color test sometime soon =)

*_* Can't believe Sashi posted ALL THAT... Heh, not that i mind hon, except that whole cherry pie comment -_-; lol But I thought it was funny. I always have a blast talking with Sashi ^_^ And I have the satisfaction of knowing you had to change all my brackets to ** for my actions 8-P I'm still not used to doing *, though I'm forced to get used it cause Paradigm. Oh well...

I'm considering whether I want to sleep in tomorrow and stay home playing Diablo 2 (I just borrowed it off Joey), but this week in my L5R game is supposed to be important, so I dun want to miss it I think... And my other game I just started, so it wouldn't do for me to not show up for it. *sighs* Looks like busy day tomorrow. Would stay up late to play tonight, but I'm just too tired. speaking of which, I think I'm gonna crash. Night all, sweet dreams, and keep in touch all! (and that goes double for you Stacey! Everytime I've gotten online lately, you've had to leave ;_; And Ada, if you don't have time online, at least drop me some mail =) Laters all!

P.S. Look, I've started to link in my posts ^_^ Aren't you all proud!

Hey all! How was your halloween? Mine was great. ^_^ Had a grat time at the party, and I even got a pic of me in costume 8-P I'll get that posted as soon as I can. It was very cool. got a ton of candy too 8-P

Went to make up for detective Lit, but Mr. Paul never showed. Not happy. After that, big rush to get home and suit up. Took me like a half hour to find my Jester's cap. And didn't get any work done today, which means it's all up to tomorrow....

I still haven't seen ada since she came back. ;_; Maybe soon, I hope =) Haven't seen much of anyone really. Talked to Lost though =) And the Paradigm board is doing great, with tons of new ppl. Everyone needs to go there. I'll post the link sometime soon, and it can be found pn Stacey's page, 3 O'clock Fairy. Go join up! =)

Anyway, I think I'll try to crash soon, though not likely with the amount of sugar coursing through me 8-p Night all though, and take care. Keep in touch! *hugs*

Hey all! Everything is going great right now! Ada's back, finally. ^_^ Thats awesome. I got to talk to Sashi, Lost, and Mav today, though Stacey was away, doing costumey thingies 8-P I'll be going either as a Sorceror, or a Jester. Prolly a Jester, as I've been feeling the fool lately. Been feeling my wit, always haven't a comment on hand, and feeling kinda silly. =)

Sashi told me she origonally pictured me as a short to average kid with light brown hair and freckles. I still think of her like Sasami, though I know better. I think a lot in Anime terms 8-P She said I'm a Shinji, which I take as a compliment. People doen't give Shinji enough credit. Anyway, I've decided to list out what I think ppl as.

Sashi, I've already said, I think of like Sasami. Stacey comes up as the Class Rep from Evangelion, I can't remember her name right now... Ada I get as Melfina from Outlaw Star (I dunno why for this one) or as that pic she had under her name origonally. Lost, I see like Ryoko at times. Orion, if your reading this, you come up as Duo 8-P Rieg, you don't really come up as a specific character, you I just see as a Anime version of a L5R Crane Bushi. Please don't take the crane part as an insult =P Mav I get an image of Merle, buts thats mosts cause thats what her pic was...

I think that was mostly everyone, If I left you out, sorry ^_^; Anyway, I've decided that Escaflowne is still my top Anime, though Bebop is close. I think prolly the biggewst part of that is cause there doesn't seem to be much of a plot to CB, and a lot of it seems like filler. Very cool filler, to be sure, but still. *hides from Sashi lest she dislike comment*

Heh, I think I'm outta here for now. Great to see how the Paradigm board is flourishing. (thats pronounced Paradime, for those of you who've never heard the word before) Even if it does take me so LOOOONG to check it because of that and my DCing. -_-; Take care everyone, keep in touch! *hugs* Laters!

Hey all. It's early yet eh? I should be sleeping, but I'm not. Damn insomnia. This afternoon sucked. Hoping for a better tomorrow. Grades close this friday, I gotta get my ass in gear >_< And Sashi, no living off Pepsi, just to remind you. Laters all, take care, and keep in touch! Kinda hard when I fade on and off constantly, but *shrugs* Nothing I can do about that... Laters! *hugs*

Oh, something I've been meaning to put here. Recently, I got this crushlink thing. Basically, you put the names and E-Mails of your crushes on a list, and if the person who has a crush on you is on the list, it'll tell you both. Course, every person you put on your list gets an E-Mail saying that someone has a crush on them. So I'm not gonna bother with it, but I want to know who it is. So, if it's someone who's reading this, let me know. I think it prolly is, cause most ppl don't have my E-Mail (I like ppl to AIM me rather than E-Mail, so maybe like 4 ppl I know IRL has my E-Mail addy). And most of my Online friends have my blog addy. So, anyway, if your out there, and feel like coming forward, just send me an E-Mail, or catch me over AIM. Laters!

Hey all! =) Blogging in from school, 6th Period. Theiy're setting up new comps in the other room, so we're in the comp lab with free rein! *cackle* Heh, we just started the Holmes part of my Detective Lit. class, so I'm happy for that. I like Sherlock, even if he is rather arrogant and such 8-P

They deleted all my ROMS on my account. *sigh* And with Plasticman gone, there aren't many reliable places to get good roms left. Gonna have to put some on disk for my account. I've got a ton at home 8-P I like old school.

Crystal wants me to come to her youth group Halloween party. ^_^ Just as friends, but still. But of course, now I need a costume. I was thinking of trying to get the ppl at the Anime club to help me out on an Anime costume, but to little time for that really. Too bad lol I dunno what i'll do for it, but I've got 2 days to get set.

Feeling a little less burnt today overall. Maybe I can brake it before it gets too bad. I hate burnout periods. Course, thats what I get for throwing myself into whatever I do. Get all used up.

Heh, think a big reason why I feel better is that apparently Chris told Melaine earlier this year that she thought I liked her, and that if I asked that she was going to say yes. But that she changed her mind and would rather just be friends. Depressing news, cause it means I'm a horrible victim of bad timing and nice guy syndrome (though like Stacey said, would I weant to be anything besides a nice guy?), but good too, cause it means that it might not be a closed book. Maybe in the future, if I still like her. I still do, even after rejection, but that might fade.

Anyway, I think I'm gonna do some surfing. Heh, Lost's blog is blocked on our comps lol Funny. Wonder if I'll find anything intresting. Any ideas on what I should costume up as? Anyway, laters all, take care! *hugs*

Hey all again. Been in a fey mood lately, haven't felt like doing much of anything. But, I'm feeling a bit better tonight though. Still, Friday is high ranking in my book as a suck day. Still, no use moping over whats said and done. Just hope this doesn't make things awkward. If I lost her friendship to boot...

I saw From Hell tonight. Ok movie, I was expecting better though. VERY gruesome. Over all, not something I'd recommend. Better movies out there to see right now.

I need to get on tract again. I haven't been productive for over a week. And grades close this Friday. If I don't get my ass in gear, I'll be flunking more classes than I can afford. And let me tell you, a being a super-senior is not an apealing thought. Dunno if I can pull it off though...

Sashi, sorry about your motherboard., That blows ;_; At least you can still get on another comp though. *sighs* It seems I never talk to anyone except Stacey nowadays... I've put a name to the numbish feeling. I'm burning out again. Lovely time for it Eh? At least I'm not all depressed like anymore. Anyway, I'm gonna watch Bebop then drift off. Night all, take care *hugs* Keep it touch everyone.

I asked crystal to the masquerade ball tomorrow after we had breakfast. Felt all flushed and light headed. My face was all hot, glad that my blushes don't show. I think I caught her off guard, from her expression. Didn't shock her, but most definately caught her off guard. She told me she'd think about it and let me know after 4th period.

Took forever to get to through 4th period it seemed. Felt wierd, hot, but I was shivering, and really happy.

So fourth period passes and I go to 5th (Chrystal's class is right next to mine 5th). She stops in and hands me a note:

"I only want to be friends. You are one of my best friends, and I don't want to ruin our friendship. You know how many relationships I have messed up. I love being friends with you, I can tell you anything. I had a feeling you liked me, I'm sorry but I don't feel exactly the same way. I love you as a friend. I don't want to ruin what we have, I don't want you to be one of those ex-boyfriends that don't talk to me. If I knew we were just going as friends, I'd say 'yeah, sure', but I don't want to be in an uncomfortable position! Thats why I won't go with you. I'm sorry, but I'd rather tell you than lead you on and hurt you later. I like our relationship the way it is.
- <3 Crystal "

Am I ok? I dunno. I feel rather numb right now really. Few times during the rest of the day I felt my eyes burning up, but besides that, I've just been really numb. Maybe it hasn't hit me yet. I really thought I might have had a chance. Looks like nice guy syndrome strkes again.

Think I'll go out tonight. Dunno if I'll get on tonight. I think I need some down time. Then again, talking to ppl is prolly a good thing too. I dunno. So I'll catch everyone whewnever, and take care.

Hey all. not much happening today. Very boring really. finished reading all of the MMHP's MegaMan fics. *sighs* She needs to write a new one 8-P I should be sleeping, but I'm doing laundry instead 8-P But I'm up. I'm slightly wired too from the barqs I just drank. I need to do some work still though, so it's ok =) Night all, take care! *hugs*

Hey all, how goes it? Going good on my end, more cayse I was out of the house all day than for any other reason. But I had fun. Cool episodes of CB this week. I slacked this weekend, and I'll have to do some bang up speed work tomorrow for 4th period. Or Maybe i'll hand it in late. It's for Physics, so I can just turn in a physics buck with it to have it not count as late. *sighs* I'm falling so behind right now. Just this last week to. Been too frustrated to get down and do any work, spent most my time trying to relax. I'm gonna pay for it this week. Oh well. night all, take care!

I am SO not happy right now. The last few days have been hell as far as plans have gone. Thursdays, Anime club meeting was canceled, Friday, my RPG game was canceled, and no one told me, so I was stuck at the local gaming store for 2 hours with nothing to do. Today, I had plans I had to cancel cause I was supposed to have my friend Joey and his baby sister over for the night, but that apparently was a bust (I still dunno what happened with that, they just never showed), so my plans were canceled for nothing and I was stuck at home bored. No one was online all day either. not that I was really either, but thats cause my connection has gone from a car load of suck to a plane load of suck. So I'm not a happy person right now...

Hey all. I'm not in a particularly good mood right now. Very frustrating day. Sorry to Stacey for ranting out at her. I went and lied down for a while after that, relaxed a bit. drifted off for like an hour...

Sashi got on when I finally got back, but I got DCed, and when I returned, she was gone ;_; Seems she's working on her domain layout that she wiped accidentaly. I'm sorry hon, thats a lot of work. GL to you, and catch me later.

Think I'm gonna zone out, try to drift off to music again. Pop in my nights disk and add in some choice anime music. Night all, take care everyone *hugs*

Song: NiGHTs - Dreams dreams

{Boy}
In my dreams I can see you are not far away
Anytime anyplace, I can see your face
You are that special one that i have been waiting for
And I hope you're looking for someone like me

{Girl}
In my dreams I can hear you calling me
And I know everythings so sweet
In your eyes I feel
Theres so much inside

{Chorus}
In the nights, dream delight
I want to see you standing there
In the nights, dream delight
I found someone who really cares
In the nights, dream delight
I want to see you smile again
In the nights, dream delight
You are the one I waited for

{Girl}
In a dream we can do anything we want to
There's no where I'd rather be, but here with you
Scati Ball light the way, only for you and I
I'm so glad I found the one I've been looking for

{Boy}
In the dream, I can tell what your hoping
Love can climb through an open door
Just be strong
And your sure to find the one

{Chorus}

{Chorus}

I love that song. Very beautiful and sappy, fits my mood lately perfectly...

Hey all. Another mostly relaxing day. Except someone got stabbed at our school today. They tried to keep it all hush hush, but that failed. I don't think I know any of the involved, though i heard my old friend Tony was involved. I hope he wasn't....

Anyway, I'm out to crash folks. Take care *hugs* Laters!

Hey all! I'm trying to blog more, see? ^-^ Not much happening today though. Been really relaxed today, except me repeatedly cursing my connection (Never more than 5 min without DCing ALL DAY). Not even my Dad got to me today. Got some E-Mail from Ada-chan ^_^ That was cool. But besides that, I've just kicked back today. Didn't ask Crytal out. I'm not ready for that, not yet. Soon though. Maybe even tomorrow, who knows? =) Anyway, I'm gonna jet for now. If you see me popping on and offline a lot, don't bother rtying to talk to me. I'll catch you if I'm in the mood to handle the constant interruptions. That SO frustrates me, can't even talk to ppl without being interupted ever other minute... *sighs* Take care everybody. Laters! *hugs*

Sorry I've been away for a while. Wasn't by choice, had no connection. Anyway, here's my life for the past week, in no particular order.

The Hike was awesome! I met some cool people (Shout out to Melissa, Amber, and Kristy and everyone else whose names I don't remember ^_^). Going down the mountain killed though, and I hurt lke a nitch next 3 days...

My NetZero time ran out, so i was without a connection for a while, and my dad has canceled Cable, so I'm stuck using Juno for now... I'm so sick and frustrated about not have a decent stable connection. I'm gonna blow son.

Got my pics on my comp, and stacey uploaded them =) Both of them say I'm cute. Not sure I buy it, but maybe hey see something I don't. Sound like Ada when I say things like that. Haven't seen Ada since her birthday ;_; Maybe sometime soon.

I think thats it for now. My mind is fragmented, and I'm overly worried about Crystal again. I need to sleep, but thats gonna be a while in coming I can tell, just by the way my hands are flying over the keyboard. I'm wired, sleep isn't happening... Night though I guess. *hugs*

Hey all. It's too early. But since I'm up waiting, figured I might as well blog. I couldn't last night, which had be pissed...

Was in a rather black mood yesterday. I dunno why. It's been a long while since I've actually slipped into a black mood... Though thanks to Sina for being rather silly with me and helping me escape it for a little while ^_^.

Sashi, the reason you recieved no mail during your away time is cause if you're not blogging, I know your not checking your mail either 8-P So it's kinda a moot point sending it then. Besides, I'm a much more up front person. I'd rather talk face to face (or AIM, as close you get online) than through E-Mail. Told Ada the same thing, though I'm sad I haven't seen her since. Everyone seems to be disappearing lately...

The Hike's today ^_^ I'm mostly set, just a few more things to take care of. Like food. Hope I don't miss my bus, that would blow. So I need to jet. See you all, take care *hugs*

Real Name: Iziah
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