Sunday, December 28, 2003
07:24 p.m.
♪ noise of the heat sink fan :x ♪
hmm.. i was just thinking.. weirdos are an unpleasant presences on the net.. The reason is that.. there's this person on IRC, that I've heard stuffs about, that he's some old dude always looking for girls to talk to and stuffs. I don't know if "pry on" would be what that guy's doing, but seeing his convo with other people seems to support that. And I don't know if he's just bored or if he's a loner or something... he just says hi to virtually every newcomers to the chan, especially those who is obviously a girl from the username.
I just feel really urm.. ewww, when i see the convo, and thinking how unknowning these girls are to what this guy's intention could be. Granted, I don't know for sure of what this guy's doing.. It maybe that he's just a guy who likes chatting a lot.. but still, given what I've heard from some people, and these stuffs i heard aren't recent either.. I keep thinking in my head, that this creepy, perverted old man in the middle of somewhere in the US, trying to make friends with girls and think indecent thoughts about them. I heard that he stalked this one other person on the net.. always asking about her life and stuffs. And I don't think that is untrue.. since more than 1 ppl know of that, and I'm not the only one who has this opinion on this guy..
So, my point is.. there are some really weird, and creepy people out there. And I hope I will never come across them. Funny thing.. I think that guy stopped the creepy(at least to me) greeting to me after I kinda ignore the hi by neglecting no see it and also after I said I like yaoi :P But still, seeing this username still creeps me out..
No new layout on the horizon yet...
♪ Sun Yanzi - 遇見 ♪
:X but i am lazy... don't want to dig up those CDs :I I'll see what I can do :P
Regarding expensive-ness of anime cds.. why not switch to manga?? They ARE much cheaper than animes.. Or you can try finding if you can rent those animes.. :P
♪ nothing :x ♪
Buu.. I just found out, I can't watch THE movie anymore.. No place I can conveniently go to shows it. I checked last week and it was still showing at this one place, but it no longer does now. ;_; stupid lotr finale, taking up theatre space >.> *grumbles*
Now I have to wait for the dvd.. to rent.. which knowing me, isn't very likely. So my chance of watching it now is close to nothing. My best bet is probably wait for it on TV. Since it is a christmas theme movie... :T
And now.. I have nothing to do, or look forward to do this Christmas. I'm already bored from having nothing to do at home. My only source of entertainment is gone too. :X Hopefully there'll be something good on TV...
♪ *gasp* nothing! ♪
HIYAS World! I re-surface! *dun dun dun*.. *waiting for people to run off* :p
Reason for disappearing? The most dreaded f-word for all students.. Finals! Yep. I had to frantically(sp?) finish all my projects during the last few weeks of class. Then I was off to study for exams, which comes a few days after the end of class.
Unlike some ppl/schools I know, I don't get a week off studying, everything for us engine students comes right after last day of class. So, it's been a hectic week or so of studying, cramming, and panicing. But alas! One week and 2 days of torture is now DONE! Exams are finished (for me)!
Truth be told, I was done since yesterday.. But i didn't feel like blogging, just wanted to enjoy this quiet time of no school, no pressure, no stress, for a bit first. I found that, during exam time, I really need to have the computer turned off. Otherwise, I would NOT be able to study. At all.
How I did during this exam period thou.. I wouldn't know until I get my marks. I *wish* and *hope* I'll pass all the courses. The exams didn't go so well. I'm pretty sure I fail a fair amount of them. I just hope I can at least pass the course. Coz I don't want to repeat anything, neither the course, nor the term. Thou.. if I failed the term.. I'll probably be kicked out.. :X
I think, if I'm lucky, and passes this term.. I'll start another stradegy(sp?) of studying, which is reading and reviewing my prof's notes, plus as much homework on the side as possible. Maybe that's a better way to learn for me.. Before I just blindly did homework, and they didn't help much during midterms and stuffs.. So, urm.. I'm not sure on anything for now.. but we'll see how everything goes, right?
So, that's my "back" blog entry. I'm going to give a new layout a try this holiday break. Can't promise anything thou. Since I have no idea how I want it. And I'll also see THE movie... :3 same one I talked about waaay back earlier. :D And that's about it! Oh! I also wanted to go to the Andy Lau concert in skydome tomorrow, but me and my bro haven't got tickets and they're quite expensive, and my bro just decided that we aren't going after all, to save $$, so now we're not going. ^^;;
So, yea, that's basically all that's happening. :D Be back later~
♪ school lab ♪
This is one interesting palm reading/quiz...
Your Life Line reveals that you are a very passionate person that possesses an imaginative and romantic nature.
Your Head Line reveals that you lack confidence, but have a sense of grievance. You carry a chip on your shoulder, but will vent this emotion through participating in political activities.
Your Heart Line reveals that you have a masculine nature and are easily aroused by your own desires. You are able to maintain a good balance between the physical and emotional sides that accounts for your warm and generous disposition.
Your Fate Line reveals that the early years in your life were full of hard knocks, teaching you that success comes from hard work. Due to this learning process, you will have a late start with your career and financial independance.
Your Sun Line reveals that a period of fortune begins later in your life and will continue to grow, bringing you much success.
You have a Water hand. You are a person who is quiet, reserved, dreamy, insecure and intuitive. Your optimal career choices are to work as a nurse, psychiatrist, chiropractor and psychic.
-OR- You have an Air hand. You are a person who is independent, intellectual, analytical and unpredictable. Your optimal career choices are to work as a writer, psychiatrist, scientist, detective and teacher.
♪ Sun Yanzi - Can't be with you ♪
Yes, still blue. I failed another one. And this one is worst than the other fail. Class avg is 50%, I got 30%. I nearly had a heart attack when I saw that mark. The bad thing is, I saw the mark in the morning before I went to school. Everything after that was just.. numb. I'll probably have to talk to that councilor person. Give me her email? Email me it or find me in school. And when I went to school.. I ask a few ppl how they did.. they did well... T_T
I don't know what to do.. Everytime I think about it, I just want to cry. Both Helen and my lab partner say to think positive. But I can't. It hurts. One thing after another. I try, but things never go well.. My self-esteem is near bottom.. I just want to feel like I know something. And that it's worth it to spend so much on this "education".
I'll be really busy these coming days, have lots of stuff due. So I'll talk to you sometime somewhere later..
♪ school lab ♪
I should be doing java, but i don't know how to start. and it's due tonight. so.. i went to take a quiz.. Got my fav Qoo flavour :d
Youre mellow, and sweet. Steadfast. Are you everyone's friend? The good one that doesn't get into trouble, because you don't go looking for it. We love your subtle style and how you're not demanding.
Advice: do something strange for once in your life. It's liberating.
take the quiz!!
♪ Sun Yanzi - Met ♪
._. Don't feel so well lately... All those negative and depressing thoughts kept coming and coming after that failed midterm. Feels like nothing about school and life is good anymore. Just log off from irc.. felt like I was being ignored... :/ I typed something, was hoping to get a response. To me, any response will do. I just want to see somebody outthere acknowledges I had typed something. But no. There was nothing. So that wasn't a nice feeling. I think I'll stay away for awhile. Until this mood I have is over or something. I've become quite sensitive to feeling being rejected lately. Since I'm feeling low. And yes, I am depressed. That's nothing new.
Leeching manga isn't as nice as it used to be as well. Recently I always had to wait a long time to get releases, and i don't like that. Since that wastes a lot of my time. The waiting. I'm the type who always want to read the thing while it's hot, otherwise, i'll leave the file on my harddrive and never see it until extreme boredom comes. So, that makes me having to do nothing but surf aimlessly while waiting. The longer the wait, the more time i waste. And the more I blame myself later when I run out of time to study or do work. I know it's my fault. And that I SHOULD make a conscious decision to DO work while waiting. But it has become a bad habit that I can't shake off. :X
Just finished talking with Helen on MSN. More about school and stuff. It was beginning to lift my mood a bit, until it got to the topic about marks.. And I was right back where I started. :/
That's enough depressing thought for 1 hour tonight. Still feel ignore, upset with self in general.. etc etc *waves bye for the time being*
♪ Prince of Tennis - op.REQUEST - 10 HIRO-X - Shiawase no Uta ♪
Latest news of me: As the people who matter (ie: ppl who i feel comfortable talking about my marks with) already know.. I failed a midterm.. :x So here's just a little record thingy on my blog.. to remind me that urm.. i need to work harder. T_T *waves*
♪ 中島美嘉 - FIND THE WAY ♪
This is funny XD..
EDIT: actually.. this one is weird too, now that i think about it.... :x
And this one is weird XD: