Tuesday, May 6, 2003
11:03 p.m.
♪ Getbackers OST - 02 - Gymnopedie? ♪
let me know when you'll be online. I want to send you some mp3s. ^^/ namely some from the Getbackers soundtrack that I like and think you may want to hear too. :D I don't know what to make of this soundtrack. It's... different from other OSTs I've been listening to. And the type of music this soundtrack has is both the same and different from the type I usually like. So, it's a little strange that I actually like it. :D 9 of 22 tracks I like. nearly half of the OST. which is pretty good, considering that I usually only like about 4-5 tracks from an anime soundtrack. :D So, give it a try, and let me know what you think. I'll send you the 9 tracks that's recurring on my playlist when you're on icq. :D
as you know, exams are finished. I don't think I did well... since there's one course with exam solutions posted up, and I didn't get most of those questions right. So, 1 failed exams definitely... X_X but anyway, I'm also glad that it's over. ^_^ now to look for something else to do... :D and what do you think I did? ^^; yes, it is the ever "un"changing habit of mine: download manga scans. XDDD I downloaded waaay too much just over the weekend. So much so that I don't think I'll have time to finish them before my next download craving starts again ^^; so... help meeeee!!! I need something to stop this addiction!!! XD
but back to something a little more serious, (me being serious? outside of school? XD) I wanted to go to anime north. yep, the anime convention of toronto that's held somewhere west of the city. First I wanted to be a volunteer, but I think it's kind of late now. The con is probably held in the next few weeks. so time is really short. which is another problem I'm having, since I think the pre-registration has passed also. so how am i going to go without registration? I'll need to look up anime north's webpage and look at the details. The voice actor of Heero is coming, so I want to go see. It's the japanese voice actor I'm talking about. Hikaru Midorikawa. Thou the american one is also coming too i heard, but I'm not interested in him. XD So yes, I want to go see! a real life jap VA who voiced a character I actually know! XD and I "know" he does a lot of BL (Boys Love) dramas too. XDD So yes, I want to go! ^_~ But I don't know how yet.. :(
also, I did an interesting quiz the other day. it says I'll be sent to purgatory after death. Instead of the many levels of hell. XD Interesting... and good to know that I still maintain a fairly good Catholic mind set, despite liking shounen-ai/slash stuffs ^_^;;
AHH!! did a little research! I can go to Anime North! Pay 40$ at the door for the weekend pass. Con is at May 16-18. Can take TTC to get there! *_* Ohhh! I want to go! :D
anyway, DNAngel 8 was quite fun, I think. I glimsped thru it, since I'm still slowly going thru vol 2. But v8 looks good. Lots of actions and cool battle scenes. I'm not too familiar with story line details/backgrounds, but I could still follow decently. and I want v9! ^^; I saw on the dnangel anime site that it will be coming out in the summer. \^__^/ yay!
Re: Furuba doggie guy does have a little bit of romance story thou. I personally am sort of pinning for him to like this old girl friend of his, but due to some reasons not yet known, he can't pursue her. Or something to that extend. As for rooster guy, he seems a little cold to me actually. That's my impression from the few appearances he gave over the pass few recent installments. It seems his main interest/concern is over Akito (aka the scary evil head of the Souma house). Maybe he does feel concern or is obliged to look after/accompany the family head, but his actions seems like a robot, like programmed to do things without emotions. Every time I see him, he has on a passive face, just following Akito around. It's like he has no sense of direction, so he just follows the flow. :x So, I can't really agree with you that he is an ideal type of guy. I think he is just too passive, and quiet. I don't know what to make of him. and I can't help but feel that he needs to develop _something_ in his character to make him unique, interesting, or something that stands out as being a part of the 12 animals.
Re: K I actually took a little while to think of which letter to use, something that could represent me a little bit. and the letter I came up with was K. Think of my real name for a second, see a connection? I didn't want to use C, coz that just looks weird. and I don't really prefer alphabets of the first half. strange of me I know, but I can't help it. K looks more interesting than C. ^^; so I used it. and now that I think more about it, it's also the first letter for kuu, so, in a way, it is me, and like you said, while still not giving much away about me. :D
As for creative naming process, I can't name myself. I tried to think of a japanese alias for myself. But I can't find one that I like the sound of. One strange thing thou, I named my brother just fine. I gave him the name Takashi. and he liked it. I like it. and It just took me about 1 sec to think of it. But why can't I think of a name for myself??? why is it so hard? >_< my irc alias is still the same as before, although I did change my 2ndary alias from before. I didn't like the new name much, but I'm slowly getting used to it. since it's girly and I can't think of anything better. ;_;
so thus ends meh blurb oof todai... ja na~ :D
...going around the world...
♪ Maaya Sakamoto feat. Steve Conte - The Garden of Everything ♪
arrgh! I was reading some fanfics again. And no matter how hard I tried.. -erm, actually I wasn't trying at all, come to think of it- I can't bring myself to like this certain pairing. Good thing it's pretty obscure. So I don't get to come across fics with that pairing much. phew~ But anyway, like I said, I can't like it. I don't enjoy reading about it. At all. Some of the authors I follow like it enough to write fics about it... and I'm always like, "Nooo, not again ><". In cases like these, I either glimpse thru bits to see what it's about (only if it is a necessary chapter in a story arc thou) or I just delete it off my mailbox after reading the summary. But anyway, I'm always going "Noooo, don't like this pairing more that the one I like... Nooo nooo nooo >< Write more fics on the pairing I like and stop liking the one I don't." Yeah, like that. Do you have fits like that too? :DD
and something else, what do you think of the letter "K"? anything bad or good that you can think of that associate with that letter? coz that's the name I use to review on ffnet. Don't know whether if people get offended from receiving a review from a 'letter'.... hehe, but then, i don't really care :E nya~
bye for now!
...going around the world... Saturday, April 26, 2003 11:08 p.m.
♪ Hikaru no Go - OP3 - [Katase Nana] FANTASY ♪
*waves* to you! You finished with your exams already? I still have 2 next week. After next friday, I'll be free. \^.^/ But then, the dread of waiting for marks... --; And after all that, I'll want to find a job if I can, don't want to be a bum all summer. Me wants to get rid of the 600 hours and get some experience if possible.
I'll mostly go to kikiwai next friday after exams. D.N.Angel 8 came :) and I may also place an order for Hanakimi 20 if I didn't do that already. Buuut, all this will depend on my mood on friday, since I tend to feel low after exams... so all will depend on how well exam goes.
I've been thinking of registering in a free hosting service. still have to look clearly on how to go about that. don't know whether if it's really free either... but, I hope it is. :D then I can use it to host some images, and perhaps, make a family site or something. me will be adding some links to this place too... just some sites that i visit often. that's about it this time. ja~
...going around the world... Saturday, April 19, 2003 01:49 a.m.
♪ Maaya Sakamoto feat. Steve Conte - The Garden of Everything ♪
okay, I haven't posted in a while. Due to exams. Since it's finals week and all. and *sighs* just over the pass two days, I witnessed an ugly flame war started over a fic. For once, I actually have access or was at least present (sort of) to know the situation with the one accusing, and the one accused. In simplier words, I can pretty much say I know both sides of the matter. So, I got myself involved in trying to bring some light into the situation. Since I think both the accusers were way too harsh and quite unfair. care to tell me what you think? But at least no one is replying to my two posts about the matter yet... so I have yet to see what the outcome of my posting was. I'll give you links to my two posts. And call me to discuss or tell me what you think, since I am almost out of words in writing.
This whole thing is so ugly that it made me sad. I'm now kinda out of respect for those people who didn't even bother to learn of the situation, and just flame an author just because they want to defend their friends, while believe everything they say were right because their friend was the hurted party. Am i expressing this clear to you? if not, call me. I'll explain more on the phone.
The situation was this. The author of this fic uses the idea/plot of this yaoi doujinshi from this certain scanlation group to write a WK fic. She practically did a copy of it, since that was what she intended in the first place. To want to explore the story using characters from WK, and she even went beyond to write her own ending. Now, just knowing that much, this sounds like plagerism right? Yes, I think so too, but that is *IF* she didn't bother to write disclaimers or where the idea was from. But the thing is, she did do a proper disclaimer, never claiming the idea as her own original fic idea. And... she still got flamed for it. Some people related to the translator of this doujin read this fic and passed it along. And I don't know if they didn't bother with her disclaimer, or some other blind rage that blinded them in the moment of anger, or something.... so the author was flamed for plagerism and taking without credit. Is that right? I personally thought it was pretty unfair, especially since those negative reviews were directly aimed at her ability as a writer, and her moral character. All of which she doesn't really deserve because she did provide disclaimer for what they accused her of not doing so. I mean, she already did what she could in telling people where the idea came from, it shouldn't be her fault that some people don't bother to read her disclaimer right? And now that she made the disclaimer clear'er' to please and to express regret to those she offended without knowing, that should be enough right? but nooo, it makes me mad that those people continue to trash her, i mean really trash her in a very mean way, and says that she was just looking for pity... arrgghhh....
So in a way to help, I posted a reply to the fic's review section, trying to help her clarify, but I don't know how much good (or bad) that will do. And also another post in this other bbs that I know these other flamers/upset ppl/reviewers will look at. I don't know what the response will be... they'll probably view me as an annoying person who sticks her foot in where she shouldn't be. *sigh* but i really feel those accusation were unjust and harsh and degrading to the author. so i had to speak up. i might even get banned from those people's chan from irc... but... *sigh* i hope i don't ^^; *crossing fingers* since I think what i wrote came across as a reasonable and polite. but you know me, i told you once before that i read something i wrote ages ago, and even thou i meant to be polite at the time, when i looked back, it was actually more meant sounding than polite. so, i'll send you the links for my responses thru icq. they're just text files, since i wrote my response and copy and paste to the posting box. so, after you read them, tell me what you think. I want to know whether I did right or wrong. it's kinda nagging me and i don't know why. probably coz there was injustice. ^^;;;; ja~ check your icq!
...going around the world... Saturday, April 12, 2003 04.27 a.m.
♪ Hikaru no Go Character Single - Sai -Chiba Shinpo ♪
You're Daisuke!! (Not Daisuki *giggle*)
What DNAngel Character Are You? (Manga)
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what am i?? a guy now? oO; I don't know whether if i'm like Daisuke or not... although I answered those questions as truthfully as possible. some of those questions were aimed at a guy... --; anyway, you called me the other day? I was sleeping like the dead, so couldn't take the call. what is it about you having to type blind? me don't get @@
well, i like to be nameless coz i'm anti-social :DDD well, not totally it, but partly yes, avoid ppl as much as possible. coz i'm lazy. chatting online is quite time consuming. have you ever chatted non-stop to the point where you couldn't do anything else but chat with the person you're chatting with? well, to be truthful, my chat with you in icq is like that sometimes, since i seem to write so much in response --; but not just you, on irc, participating in a conversation involve "paying attention" --;; hehe and to a certain extend, i'm usually not interested in conversations so, being nameless is good in that I'll never have to talk to anyone, and I use the time I idle to surf the web or do some other stuffs. and of course, I can come and go as I wish too. I need freedom you know? and being part of an online anime community "can" be fun... for some people, but it's no longer fun for me. It became too much effort to keep up with it. That's the way I feel at least.
the DNAngel anime, it's not because it's raw that I don't like. I kinda understand what's going on vaguely, so it's no big deal that there's no sub. but it's just that overall, it just doesn't impress me that much. even though i like the voice actor for Dark and the anime is cute... but Satoshi's hair colour... x_x dies... he's not cute anymore. in fact, come to think of it, not a lot of anime impresses me that much these days. and we're coming back to the manga over anime preference again ^^;;
and Saiyuki... bleh ^_~ the only slashable series i like is wk XD and I want to keep on liking wk for as long as possible. (EDIT: the only non-shounen-ai slashable series. since i like lawful drugs too, but that's shounen-ai-ish already) I don't like change all that much too, kinda like how you keep liking X hehe :D and are you a Risa? hmmm, i don't know, the picture doesn't tell me much of what personality it's referring to, so i don't know ^^; my first thought after reading the description was: "Who is your Riku?" XDDD
and regarding that list... well I will never read hentai, and yuri, since i don't like that kind of thing... and i'm not a guy, so i'll never find the appeal in those things. and hentai is eww, it's porno! *shudders* as for graphic yaoi *ahem* *ahem* too late...(the stories are often so sweet.. and cute...) x_o sorry God, I'm not a good Catholic T_T although, I do skip looking at the pictures, since i don't know what they are... I just look at the words XD kinda like how i read fics, skip the lemony parts and on with the story XD as for shota... *sigh* *sigh* i tried my hardest to avoid those, but i slipped once and unknowingly read one. it was the most disturbing thing i've ever seen... and from then on, i've avoid that series like a plague. I have no idea how people would like that kind of thing @@;;
and that's it for this time *looks above at the time* i need to find food, just got up 3 hrs ago and never ate anything... bye~
...going around the world... Monday, April 7, 2003 12:08 a.m.
♪ nothing ♪
well, I have a cold. --||| not SARS, well, I don't think so anyway. But yes, I'm sneezing and having a runny nose, and some occasional tiny coughs. I think my nose will be red tomorrow morning when I go to school.
yeah, the reasons you stated were partly it. For back then that is. But now, I just don't feel up to it anymore. Heh, nowadays, I go to IRC to leech manga scans, and then I leave right away. It's more like I don't want to linger in that place for long while knowing that ppl there may know about me. I think I just want to remain a nameless leecher who comes and goes whenever. As for anime, there isn't really a guilty factor involved... just tired of the same old thing I guess, plus I started to like manga art more. In comparison, anime art in general just became kinda plain. So naturally I stayed away... not completely, since I still get a few eps when I felt like it, like those Hikaru no Go ones I mentioned. But just enough that I wouldn't be wasting time anymore.
and soon HikaGo will be finished too, like I said here before. So after that, maybe one or two more Prince of Tennis eps, and then, I'll most likely be done with anime, only coming back out if there's something I really really want to see. ^^; Ah! here sparks my memory, one old irc friend, whom I came across like I mentioned in my previous post, kindly sent me DNAngel 1 raw. I don't know if you'll like the anime Satoshi... I don't. Sadly. His hair is no longer that soft blue I like so much from the manga. The first ep is... a bit disappointing. But that's what I expected anyway. I read somewhere that the story is changed a bit so now Dark like Risa instead of Riku. I hope that's not true >< I much prefer the manga story line. But he(Dark) did kiss Riku in the end, so... *crossing fingers* But despite wanting to know what happen next, I don't think I'll go out of my way to find future eps. If I happen to come across one, I'll get them, but if not, it's no big deal either. About Satoshi's scenes from the anime, what kind of hints are you talking about? slashable one? well, there is one from ep1... i think... but the colour of his hair really turned me off --; so I didn't like it that much. All in all it's an mediocre ep, I'm afraid to say. so.. yeah. if you want to see the ep, we can arrange a time for me to send you.
manga manga manga ^^ strangely enough, I like Saiyuki because I love the art, but I never wanted to read it or find out more about it. I don't know why. It's another one of those heavily slashable manga/anime. like gw/wk/etc. It must have something to do with my knowledge of the "Journey to the West" stories, which Saiyuki is based on, to a certain extend. In a way, it's like my situation with gw, meaning that I don't want to taint my views/memory of the original story, so I stayed away from the anime, like I stayed away from the gw slash fandom. But, I do identify with you, coz Sanzo is the one I like too, reasons mostly based on his personality or shall I say, attitude. ^^; The art helps too, definitely. :D Purple hair guy looks girly, but I like that purple colour. Green glasses dude is... like Ken from wk ^^; I don't particularly like or dislike him. The monkey kid is just... a monkey kid I guess. ^^; And that's probably as far as I'll go for knowing about Saiyuki XD and I don't think I'll ever touch it's fic fandom either ^^;
there will never be enough good looking guys for us to drool over ne? ^_~ Ken from wk does look quite good (in ep7), I must say, just have to lose that awful mission attire. ^^ Well I think this must be my longest posting yet, so I'll end it by asking you what you mean by extreme type mangas ^^; extreme types of shoujo? shounen? or do you mean expl****ly "y" ones... ^^;;; Hehee. I still like shounen ai ones more but there are some good "y" ones out there too... >< me thinks I've said enough and you don't want to know anything more... ^^; and I'll try to find a way to compress the DNAngel ep into an RM, so it won't take up too much space :)
...going around the world... Saturday, April 5, 2003 11:24 p.m.
♪ Maaya Sakamoto - RahXephon Movie - Tune the Rainbow ♪
kyaa~ just few like a good shouting. ^^; i got this result, what does it mean? i'm a cat with a mousie personality? o_O;
You are a Mouse!
What kind of furry are you?
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anyway, i'm been on irc again, not to download anime, but to download manga scans. like i told you before, manga has now pretty much taken over anime in my head... and now i've become a manga fiend... shoujo, shounen, shounen-ai, and *gasp* yaoi too >_< i've become immune to all the "sinful"-ness >_< no~~~ thou the good looking guys are really hard to pass up... in all kinds of manga. so anyway, back to what i wanted to say, while i was lurking around the irc world, a few of the people there actually recognize my nick from my anime days, and found me out. do i sound like i was purposely avoiding them? maybe i was, and still am, a bit. i just don't want to be sucked back into that world again, since i decided to stay away from anime and irc to concentrate back on school. is that bad of me? you think? and i felt obligated to chat a little, but soon i was back to lurking again. even thou they asked me to visit some other time or just once in a while (not like they really wanted my presence or anything, me think they do it more out of coutesy and for old times' sake ^^;), i can't really decide... And... i don't even know what my point is to share this on my blog... I guess i'll visit sometimes... what do you think? part of the reason i stopped mirc was also coz i got tired of it... is that bad?
and lastly, i had to update my death counts again. electronics, electronics, how will i overcome you?.... ;_;
...going around the world... Saturday, March 29, 2003 12:08 p.m.
♪ Maaya Sakamoto - Gravity ♪
I just found out that the Cowboy Bebop Movie is here! It starts showing in downtown's Paramount on April 4. If you want to watch it, go there. Speaking of which, where have you been lately? I didn't see you around for almost the entire week... did you become sick? As for me, I don't know what I'm having, seems just like the occasional runny nose that comes with the change of weather and the "ahem" "ahem" one goes thru to clear their throat. I don't think, and certainly hope I'm not coming down with SARS... Haha~ yes, I know it's serious matter. but gotta have some humour no? Hee. so anyway, nothing much new to report, just came back upstairs from a full stomach of breakfast. so, I'm full! agian! my tummy is starting to show again. I can't fit into my pants anymore... x_x me thinks it's time to stop filling myself. Hahaha~~
...going around the world... Thursday, March 27, 2003 11:49 p.m.
♪ Sun yan zi - Limitless Youth ♪
Yay! I'm happy that I got this result. Hee :E
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I知 the homeless moody bishie who shares an apartment with the jerk (who saved my life) above the drugstore where I work. When I知 not being groped by my boss痴 boyfriend, I take on supernatural side jobs by aid of my acute psychometric abilities for extra cash. |
Downloaded one ep of Hikaru no Go a few days ago... got suck back into it again. Especially since this part of the story is the part I like the most. Only a few more sub eps to go before the anime ends. I love it when I read that part in the manga, and I'm sure I'll like it when I see the anime version. Not to mention the music! All those piano scores and remixes of old OPs and EDs. I really need to track down the second OST. ^^;;
...going around the world... Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:44 p.m.
♪ not my compy ♪
hmm... i really should get working on my new layout. but i still haven't got a concrete idea on what i want yet. and neither do i have time to think about it. too much depressing things happened... such as... another failed midterm -_-;; trying to pass, and all that. and while all this is happening, i still want a nice cheerful layout, with a touch of spring to it. hmm... i want in general, light, soft colours... but they won't reflect who i am at the moment. so, i don't know what to do exactly yet.
on something else, i'll be going to kikiwai this friday, to pick up karekano15. and depending on my mood and monetary status that day, i "may" order fruits basket 11, and dnangel 8 ^^; i don't know what my feeling towards kknj15 is. in one way, i want to see it b/c it deals with Arima, but the chapters in this tankoubun are pretty depressing, i think. so i don't know if i want to read it... but then... at least i know it's starting to go well in the recent chapters... so, i guess it won't be too much of a bad read.
oh yeah... download download download... this week is the last week of my streamload days, so i gotta max out my downloads before friday... and then, it's bubbye old streamload account, and maybe start a new one! :P something else i want, Hikaru no Go OST 2... have to find a place that has it. anything else i want? let see... yes, a box, some qoo drinks, some shounen ai mangas :D... well those need $$, except the s.a. mangas, since i'll never buy them XD, so... i'll be leaving now and daydream about $$. :D ja ne~
...going around the world... Saturday, March 22, 2003 11:32 p.m.
♪ Hikaru no Go OST 2 - Sayonara, Hikaru ♪
haha, you got a point there, about the fanfics. It's so hard to find good stories these days, although, there are a few good ones out there, but, there is just *so few*. know what i mean?
and also, you know that i only prefer certain certain pairings right? so, i sometimes find that i'll just read whatever there is out there about those pairings, since they don't come up as often as other popular ones *sob sob*. Not that I would read *every* fic out there about the pairings i like, but only those whose tiny summary/synopsis sound slightly interesting. but still, sadly, i often get disappointed, mostly because of the reasons you stated. and don't you just hate it when fics of a pairing you don't agree with get written ALL the time, and the ones you like are not there at all? *sigh* where have all the good fics gone?
and even if there are good fics out there, they're not as oftenly updated as before. I don't know why >_< good writers seem to just vanish since FFnet banned those fics... and even with the existence of the mediaminer site(you know what it is right?) it's not the same thing. *sigh* anyway, i guess that's my part in this fic ranting business ^^;;
PS: nothing much. just want to mention that I updated my death counts, the latest bomb that got dropped on my head is an electronics quiz... i *know* i didn't pass it... i really don't know how to pass this course... i really don't know....
...going around the world... Tuesday, March 18, 2003 12:59 a.m.
♪ Hikaru No Go OST2 - Kunpu ♪
got this just now...
What Anime Type Are You?
don't know what to make of it... ^^;
and i got this too:
Which OS are You?
yay! the OS that I actually like and wish i can go back to. ^_^ anyway, got stuff to do, ja~
...going around the world... Wednesday, March 12, 2003 10:13 p.m.
♪ Hikaru no Go OST2 - Atatakai Manazashi ♪
i'll be getting my electronics midterm back tomorrow. ~~ the avg was 42% for the entire class, it is so low that they had to make the exam out of 30 instead of 40. and even then... the avg is still just 55% T_T i don't know how i'm going to pass the exam for this course, in fact, i don't know how i'll be able to pass this course >_< what can i do? what can i do? *cries*
and today's history of science midterm... i don't know... i couldn't remember a lot of the small things, like details... so i may not be able to pull up my marks from that bad first midterm. *sighs* and there's also a quiz today that i didn't study, which i did horrible in again. 0.5/10 is what i got on it. i choose to study history over doing the homework for that one, so i didn't know how to answer the question. why me? *cries some more*
so much depressing things happened during these 3 weeks of midterms... that's why i wasn't blogging before. i just didn't feel like it. i haven't worked on my new layout at all during these 3 weeks too. can't think of any ideas. i'm just that seriously brain-dead. -_- hopefully starting today, i'll be graced with the creative muse.
anyways, i got a new mp3 recently, it's called Gravity, by Maaya Sakamoto. It's the ending(?) song of an anime called Wolf's Rain. I have no idea what the anime is about, but from some pics i came across, it looks to be a bit sci-fi. so, my point is, go check out the song! it's a nice melody, and it's sung in english. that's it for this time, *waves*
...going around the world... Wednesday, March 12, 2003 10:50 a.m.
♪ at school right now ♪
added another 1 to death counts. that's for the e & m midterm yesterday. i screwed up again big time... and now i have another midterm in 1 hour... -_- still have to finish studying for it, can't do bad on this one since i already did bad on the first one. anyway... life still sucks... and busy... and annoying... and depressing... same old same old... i'll probably come back tonight... indulging myself some internet time, but don't count on it... ja~
...going around the world... Wednesday, February 26, 2003 05:12 p.m.
♪ Full Moon o Sagashite - ETERNAL SNOW ~Piano swing instrumental~ ♪
adds 1 to death count. that's for bombing the electronics midterm. i wonder if i pass... i hope so at least. ;_; well, this is gonna be a short entry. i've got another midterm 2morrow, so i go study. ba ba :E
...going around the world... Wednesday, February 19, 2003 01:45 a.m.
♪ Seki Toshihiko - The Clouds Break ♪
Guess it's time to start a fresh page. Haven't done much of anything lately, break from school is always nice. i'll have to get cracking soon thou, midterms are gonna hit me once break is over. I felt lost and day dreamed every time i go to class lately, and this break is as good a time to catch up as any.
whatever happened to all my resolve to do better at the beginning of the semester? some may ask... well, i really don't know. -_- I just feel so tired lately, of everything, and i've been thinking to just quit everything and start fresh somewhere else. but, can't do that now can i?
and i've been wanting to find a job this summer too, doing some compy stuffs so i could put it towards my hours, but the prospect of this is slim as well. i just don't have the marks for it, nor do i have the skills that ppl may be looking for.
i did realize that i'm not good at computer stuffs before i go to uni, and my reason to be in comp eng was to "learn". is it so wrong to have this mentality? or is it simply that i'm just not good at comprehending those stuffs (ie: me = dumb) seriously, any avg compy geek knows more about the actual workings of the comp than i do, so why am i here scraping by? and with marks that can't even get me a job anywhere?
and i'm gonna start up a death count to my academic woes. just to see how many times i can screw up in school.
*sighs*
well, as you can see, i'm somewhat depressed... so, don't mind me, i go into these phases a lot, i'll snap out of it when something makes me happy.
Thank you for the tea bags. orange pekoe tastes a little bitter, but i like it. :)
ending this for now~
...going around the world...