ehh, this layout will do for now... i like brushes. they make everything more fun. *ooo look at the pretty colors* a lost has passed during my stay here, i missed rj's birthday party, regretably, but i think my absence was not noticed. i feel invisible. or slighty transparent.

so far my clothing bought during this trip is from old navy. yes. old navy every store here is.. well, preppy. they have banana republic, abercombie and fitch, and anchor blue galore. some people would thrive in an environment like this, but i'm not dissing that one person, it's just y'know, i have this one friend, well not really a friend just a person i know, nevermind, i hate him, well he's not exactly on my good side. well aside that small fret over the types of stores and hatred, i got some converse shoes.. but i n e e d black chuck taylors. i crave them.

[rant]why is there so much emphasis on looks and this so called, "individuality" if you are going to try a new look, probably others have it. and you will most ultimatly be shunned, even called the dreaded "poser" by some. that word is like fire. it makes people question themselves and believe that they can never belong. of course i have never been through such ridicule, but i can sympathise. (did i spell that right?) humans have a need to classify, based on aesthetic notions of dress and music, even books that are read by the individual. how else could you prove your superiority? if someone goes for true originality or tries to be themselves without fearing the oh-so-powerful hand of the self proclaimed popular people, they are prime target for jokes and jeers. it's sad how people band together so closely, sometimes to further boost their popularity points, because primitivly that is what it all boils down to. even now, like five minutes ago i typed a few words of resentment toward a person, and took a blow toward his social relation to people known as "preps." hyprocritical, yes, but how can you improve without knowing the problem. humans are poisonous toward each other. the linguistic, theologic, and technologic advances we have strived for is shamed by the youth of today worrying about such trivial things. we live in a day where true innovation and genius is laughed at, even if for just a smudge of acne. humans are acidic, thus i am acidic in nature. fear me.[/rant]