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o6.27.o3 | pop that p** and shake that a** | cinco.
went to the bowling alley, like we usually do every friday. it is great fun. gotta do the friday five. here it is..

1. How are you planning to spend the summer [winter]?
well i am going to cali from july 6th to july 31st-august 1st. and the rest i will be lounging torpidly (one of my werdds) lying around the hiz-ouse.

2. What was your first summer job?
a lemonade stand that went horribly horribly wrong. (hence, someone borrowed a quarter from us to buy one from us) well we had a giant cardboard box that was our station for making more lemonade, a table for waiting, and we even had a casheir box, which was really a savings box. and if that doesn't count, i babysatmy brother. he kept squirming but boy did i sit on him well.

3. If you could go anywhere this summer [winter], where would you go?
i would go to the PI and kidnap april's dog. and eat it.M

4. What was your worst vacation ever?
dude. the many trips to various places, in a small honda civic hatchback. boy oh boy. and then there also that my parents view of a vacation is to go to a place for only one day. i remember going to disney land and seeing micky for the first time, and then we had to leave. i did not even get a hat, poor me. when you are reading this think of eeyore. and his middle aged crisis voice. poor ryan. poor poor ryan. wasn't eeyore a donkey? said eeyore: "thanks for noticing. i'm going to sit here and be unnoticed. boy my tail isn't even real. no wonder i keep on losing it, it's attached by a nail. dude."

5. What was your best vacation ever?
when i go to my cousin's house in cali. it's nifty because they have a pool.

and that is the end of that chapter.
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o6.26.o3 | where is the love | argh..
long absence.. been tryng to convince my father to let me have no time limit on the internet.. have to be good. gr.. well y'know what day it is? well it's thursday so that means.. the thursday thumb-twiddler! here goes.

1. Granville Hicks said that a censor was "a man who knows more things than he thinks you ought to." Are there times when government censorship is necessary, beyond, perhaps, "top secret" spy stuff? Why do so many folks want to censor stuff?
so no one will know that it is indeed then that stole the cookie from the cookie jar..

2. Ashleigh Brilliant said, "If you can't learn to do it well, learn to enjoy doing it badly." What do you do badly that you nonetheless enjoy doing?
well for one, making websites, drawing, writing, and many many other things.

3. Robert Heinlein's Lazarus Long suggested, "Don't ever become a pessimist; a pessimist is correct oftener than an optimist, but an optimist has more fun -- and neither can stop the march of events." Would you consider yourself a pessimist or an optimist? And does that ever bother you or cause you problems?
i am an overbearing optimist and sometimes i annoy people with my high-ness haha. i am high on life.

oy vey. i just unclogged the toilet. | p o o p o o | ..eww.. haha. grossness. my friend josh let me borrow a samurai sword. haha i feel all, its made of wood, and i like to chase my little cousin cause he thinks i'm gonna hit him. and it's not | h e a r t l e s s | because he was the one that clogged the toilet. hmph.

where is the love by "black eyed peas ft justin timberlake" is the | G R E A T E S T | song in the world! OMFG, did i tell you people that yet? DOWNLOAD IT NOW! and if you cannot, get a downloader!

i need to be | i n s p i r e d |

me and misha are over.. :( haha. it was bound to happen. so long previous bff.. *tear*

oh my lord. my father bought another car.. a | c a n d y r e d | toyota echo.. i did not agree, but he got it.. grr.. haha. too many car changes. ugh.

well it's set. i am going to california from july 6th to july 31st. i will still make rj's party tho.. if it's early enough.. haha.
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o6.24.o3 | i'll fly with you | over.
i can't be over!! i need to know more.. i can't wait.. like 2 years for the next one! i bet it's already done too, just makin us | w a i t | for more.. arghh.. it can't be over! it was so soon! why o why o why!? deng..

carson daly on trl is weird now. he's all skaterish, and it does not work.. ugh.. he has a trucker hat and wristbands.. i think he's trying to hard.

feel the excitement.. i am channeling it to you.. *chants* ohmmmmmm.. ohmmmmmm *end chant* wow i am making everybody get blogs.. even you!

well.. anyways. i found a list of words i want to use in a book.. i will find more tho. this isn't the last of them. oh no sir.

Words to use in a Book :
 +abysmal
 +euphoria
 +traipsed
 +gusto
 +pince-nez
 +torpid
 +chintz
 +sycophantically
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o6.23.o3 | where is the love | half and half.
got another new car yesterday.. honda accord. gold. yeah. they are so much nicer than my other previous cars, but i would still prefer a candy red one.. i miss my other cars.. i feel like having a ceremony for them.. hmm.. no that's quite alright. ok that's it for today, must return to harry potter.

Quotes of the Day
"today i'm passin out ass-whoopins and | l o l l i p o p s |. and i'm all out of lollipops.."
"the difference between life and a vacuum cleaner is that the vacuum cleaner needs to be plugged in before it | s u c k s |"
"dang, my computer's pulling a brian.."
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o6.22.o3 | intuition | after the fact.
i feel so calm.. harry potter has just washed over me. the car is now behind me. *smell that?* well it's the stench of completeness.. haha. i had a funny dream! ahahahaha. it was so funny!

ok here it goes.. mary kate and ashley olsen for some reason were at my school. and then a big monster was inside so we all ran outside. and then we were all | b u m m e d | cuz some people went back in and got eaten. so then a giant set fell from the sky and mary kate and ashley jumped out from behind it and said,

mk: cheer up folks
a: yeah!
mk: welcome to the Mary Kate and Ashley Show!
a: fer shizzle bizzle dizzle!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. it was hilarious, because it was in a real wankster voice and it was sooooo | f u n n y | !!! ahahaha.

i used to think that mary kate and ashley were like 3 people y'know? like, mary, kate, and ashley. i was always like, 'dude those two are hogging the spotlight, let kate, or is it mary?, get on! jeez.. haha.

spent the day with jennie, ashleigh, and rj. it was fun. we watched billy madison.. never seen it until today.. ok g'bye.
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o6.21.o3 | right thurr | maniacal.
ahahah!! wee!! we got a new car! bwahahaha. it's huge.. and big enought to squish even the tallest of midgets! [note: author does not intend to harm any midgets whatsoever]. i feel so | m a n i a c a l | and crazy.. bwahahahahahaha!! surging.. i am high like cherry pie. y'know why? because cherries are | b a d | they are the baddest of all the fruits, it is. i feel like ten april's i need to join more cliques.
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o6.21.o3 | chori chori gori se | summer solstice.
yes. i indeed got the book | h a r r y p o t t e r | and i | l o v e | it. haha. well anyways. i also *heart* jippii! the drawing game is fun as heck. i am always under the name adobo, so if you wanna play against me go ahead!

there is a | t h u n d e r s t o r m | and i hate thunder.. well i like lightning bolts, but that rumbling makes me jumpy. haha. OMG! there it is again! -______- i'm gonna need some pills sooner or later... anyways.. i registered to haloscan.com and i think you can comment now on my posts, as soon as i get them up.. i might put the comment thing on thoughts and emotions..

ughh... i am gonna barf!! ughh....

the | f r u s t r a t i o n | my remote fell to the bottom of my bed.. and it is out of reach. the pain..

i need this....
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o6.2o.o3 | breathe [remix] | friday five.
1. Is your hair naturally curly, wavy, or straight? Long or short?
it's kinda curly in the front, and a straighter near the back, i guess. but my hair gel makes it all spiked. and i gain an inch in height with my hair like that.

2. How has your hair changed over your lifetime?
oh gawsh. well first it was parted on one side. then parted in the middle. now spiked, so no one dies of the horribility [i took your word, nadine!].

3. How do your normally wear your hair?
on my head.. ?

4. If you could change your hair this minute, what would it look like?
i'm thinking blue.. no haha. maybe more straight. it curls still at the front a little.

5. Ever had a hair disaster? What happened?
haha. ok first my father shaved most of it off, like rj as of today, haha. and the next.. only two words can explain. bowl cut

- friday five
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o6.2o.o3 | lemonade | thoughts.
matt is threatening to eat me. well a smurf anyways.. why is everyone interested on | h e r ? | it is uncanny. but i think she goes to our school.. anyways..

i watched about shmidt last night. it was an ok movie. i didn't know what the main theme of it was until, like, the end. it was all | d e e p | and y'know.. deep.

i always wanted to find myself. like go to some unknown place by myself and find myself. i might be under a rock. who knows.

another thing that i always wanted to do, well always wanted is a nice big house that's all fancy and stuff, but with lots of art. | a b s t r a c t | art. i agree with it.

i've been thinking of a slogan for my site.. maybe .. "silver lining. -read and be enlightened" yeah. i was thinking of that because i always say that to people when i tell them to read my blog. i think it will work.

i need to be | i n s p i r e d |

i dislike mullets... and long long long long marriages, and writing things down [possibly the reason why i have a blog instead of a journal where you 'write' in], and i dislike bugs, and people who seem really cocky, people who make fun of other people, people who make fun of people making fun of other people, people who make fun of people making fun of people who are making fun of people. basicaly can't we all just get along?

any remember the tv show wishbone!? the dog with the books and the mysteries!?!? wowzers! that was one entertaining show.
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o6.19.o3 | the good fight | boredom.
first day of summer vacation. i feel | l a n g u i d | there is nothing. absolutly nothing to do. but i guess i can just sleep somemore. mm.. sleep.

on another note i misspelled the word 'combination' on my o6.17.o3 post. see if you can find it! fun for all.

i feel like i need to go on a healthy food diet regime, because my kid brother has a high blood pressure. and he's like only 11, so it's like whoa. i feel paranoid, but like all my goals to better myself, [like flossing], i probably will not complete it.

on another note, i hate | b u g s ! | oh lord, do i hate bugs. and because it's summer, there are mosquitos, catapillars, and worst of all, giant hopping | g r a s s h o p p e r s | why oh why do they haunt me!? grossness. and then they like to jump around when you step near them and they freak you out when they do. now i feel like i'm covered in them. ughh...

later} no clues for you! haha. i fancy your cow!! and as for you, | j h e r r i c a | you are now in my blog. good for you!
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o6.18.o3 | excuse me miss [remix] | ending.
"summer has begun do you know where your children are?" - aura-CHAN. haha. those children. haha. you have now risen from your '-san' status and now have become a '-chan.' feel | p r o u d | haha.

aileen is raving to my musik. haha. go aileen! go aileen! it's your birfday! wooOo! haha.

last day of school today. let me explain in detail:

i woke up late. and all i had was a glass of milk for eats. at school we "enjoyed" a llloonnnggg assembaly congradulating the people who have shown high academic status. naturaly, try as i might i did not win a single thing. oh have i longed for the student of the year award. but alas. carlo won not once but twice now in a row. it steams my corn. it heats my cold pizza. it makes me plain old | a n g r i f i e d | oh mayan. haha, and colin and brian were acting like a couple. that was funnay. ok then i went home. rested and me 'faja' [goldmember] drove me to the waterfront where much fun was had. | s h e | was there. but talking did not commence. just adding that to further spark the curiosity of my 'readers.'

so anyways. i have now returned home. talking to dara and nadine/aura-chan. dara is too kool for kool-aid. | g o t  m i l k ? |
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o6.17.o3 | cherry lips | arisen.
i have returned. i have been lazy. i have not come up with a good blog layout. i have been paranoid. i have been gone. i have wondered if this font hurts your eyes. indeed i have wondered if this font hurts your eyes. i have awaited schools end. i have many things to say. but no words to explain. i have been confused. the end.

how | m o n o c h r o m a t i c | of me. as a *suffering* artist, i have ventured into my black/tree period. mostly a tribute to blackened charred charcoal stricken trees. not dead, not living. just hurting. how | s a d d i s t i c | of me.

have not returned aura-san's money/book yet. i should do that. and reclaim my 50 dollars from the school. i would in turn use that money to repay aura. but that would be too simple.

i need a vacation. *wow* summer vacation is coming up. *woohoo* blargh.

let me explain my blog. as no one else may get it. first the heading of all posts. first is the date. of course. second in a color ranging from any color of the rainbow is the song i am listening to. the color represents my mood. like a mood ring. but with words. and last is the title of the post. *make sure to reply to my posts by clicking the prompt below all posts. or else.* here is an explanation on the color mood system and remember color in text is used for viewing purposes and sometimes symbolism.

red - angry, hot, or both.
orange - mild, normal.
yellow - happy and/or wired.
green - mood uncertain, possibly irish.
blue - sad/broken or calm.
purple - venomous, don't touch.

brown - ugh. don't ask. gwar.

kinda like skittles. though i hate skittles. i also hate hot weather, but i want to get my "under arms" more tanned. ironicaly rainy washington is experiencing a | h e a t s t r o k e | and i am burning and i know i smell like chicken. i'm gonna faint. 80º F of pure sun radiation.

i just had a homemade fajita wrap. it had toe-mah-toes, lettuce, cheese, chicken, and italian dressing, on a fajita circle thing. it was an odd combonation but it was good in the hood. wait! i also have to return daniel's red dice. they're so red. and.. red like. they bring me happiness.

school is ending and i am glad. 2nd to the last day today. twas fun. but then colin came. everyone crowded around him, naturally. even | h e r | . oh well. let's forget that and move on.

i am doing health and washington state history during the summer. i don't see why i have to do either for i am alive for one, and i will probably move from washington in the future.

i was watching arthur (( yes the anteater )) they had some pretty spiffy songs.

on another quite strange topic shift, my brother is sick. he has a fever of 103.2º F. i am too lazy to figure out the celcius measurement for readers who are not of united states origin, like there are others other than myself and a few friends. please email me if you know. haha fun out of my brother's pain. does the fun ever stop here? i think not.

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