You're funneh, J-kun. n__n

An incredibly cracktastic convo I had with J-kun today. o_o Hehehe.

Vash, you are teh funneh. n__n
[VashtheStempede] some1 buy me this
[VashtheStempede] http://us.yesasia.com/en/PrdDept.aspx/pid-1002871523/code-j/section-games/did-5/
[mirai] no i dun wanna
[Mizaki_monou] Never. >O
[Lego7] ddr?
[VashtheStempede] ddr yes
[Lego7] maybe quinne will buy it for you in exchange for your manjuice vash..
[Mizaki_monou] XD!
* Mizaki_monou laughs insanely
[VashtheStempede] AHHH
[VashtheStempede] AHHHHHH
[Mizaki_monou] AHHHHHHHH
[VashtheStempede] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[VashtheStempede] LEGOOOO
[Mizaki_monou] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[VashtheStempede] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[mirai] uh
[Lego7] lol
[Mizaki_monou] AHAHAHAHHHAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[mirai] AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
[VashtheStempede] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[Mizaki_monou] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[mirai] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[Mizaki_monou] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
[mirai] >_>
[Mizaki_monou] XD
[Mizaki_monou] Anyways...
[_Pete_desktop] Oh dear...
[VashtheStempede] that
[VashtheStempede] was so wrong, ew

Ha! I still <3 Squidi. j00 are an evil evil bastard, but I <3 AMD. XD

I realized today, upon going through my files and checking discographies to see what I was missing with certain bands, that I have EVERY BUGY CRAXONE SONG EVER RELEASED. O____O.....Wow, lykwtfomglolz?! 0\/\/|\|463. I am so 1337, 0|-| y34|-|.
Or maybe I'm just really really sad. Which I think is the most likely choice.
(edit. I'm missing one song..."o.m.d."....>_> I was getting it off a user and he got offline...-o-)
I threw up again today. >>; Then slept for like 398229857294 hours. ><
And did anybody who watches Cowboy Bebop know that Faye Faye means wrong in Chinese? Just a bit of random useless knowledge. Yesh, I am a retard.

Try and count how many people I've pissed off today.
What's that? I'm a horrible person?
Eh, I should die?
Well yes, but that doesn't mean you have to be pissed at me, you goddamn fuckwits.
I thought that everyone who knew me was already well aware that I'm a selfish bitch, and anyone who doesn't, let it be known now so you can fuck the hell off. Okay, yeah. Fuck you all.

I updated. FINALLY. ><
Bugy Craxone - Kotori
Cali=Gari - Kinjiki
Noir Fleurir - Boden
+DéspairsRay+ - Tatoeba Kimi Ga Shindara [Remake]
....whoo. Isux.

Auugh...*whimpers* I hate time zones....I hate oceans.....I hate pretty much everything...><

I want this so bad.....but it's too much money....;_; I hate being poor. ><

Yeah. I got lonely and bored. >> It's from a crappy cap of the live OBSCURE.


And this is pure boredom and freaking out with large colorburn brushes. >_> Yeah. I suck. x_x

Listening to.....NOTHING, WHOREAMP IS NOT WORKING.

AUGH WTF WHY IS IT NOT WORKING?! >< I can't sit here and not listen to music.
...bleh. I hate j00. Die. Tired of hearing that, aren't you?

Sigh. Done nothing all day. Had a conversation with Quinne earlier that more or less went both of us going "boredboredlonelyhornyboredlonelyhornyhornyboredlonelylonelycrazyboredlonelylonelylonely". That was the gist of the entire thing. Sounds great.
I am bored. Yeah. You knew that. My head hurts. I'm pissed off as usual, my mom is being a fucking bitch and I don't have anywhere to go to get away, yay. And if I tried she wouldn't let me anyways. I'm tired of this. I fucking am. I'm fucking sick of all of this. I'm fucking sick of hurting people. I'm fucking sick of meaning a damn thing to anyone. Why? Why the fuck? What have I ever done for you, what is even the slightest bit likeable about me? I'm bitchy, rude, mean, and I hate more or less everything. I sat on the couch for probably an hour before my mom came home, and was just so pissed. I sat there an seriously considered walking out the door and just....killing someone. I was pissed. I'm pissed because I'm fucking sick of being helpless. I'm fucking sick of being worthless. I'm sick of everyone's shit. I'm sick of being degraded even though I know that I deserve it, and I'm sick of people giving a rats ass about me when I know they shouldn't. When I know that no matter how much someone cares for me now, nothing lasts forever and I will be left alone again. And if I don't die I will be even more alone. I don't want to live like that. I'd avoid it. I can avoid it, sure. I don't want to live at all. I don't, but I can't do a fucking thing about it.

Well. Winamp still isn't working. I want to kill it. I can hardly see the screen in front of my face and my arm is randomly bleeding again, and I think that I'm going to be sick again. In fact, I'm pretty damn sure I'm gonna be sick again.

Wow. FFVII movie looks pretty. Bleh. *kills Sepiroth*

WTF. For the love of Lucifer, wtf.
...Insanitykun sent me that. I mean....WTF? Yes, homosexuals are intolerant to everyone else because they wish to get married. Oh yeah, that makes SO much sense. Lucifer I hate this country.

...You know you love the Kyo-groping madness. Dir en grey isn't my favorite band, I love them and all, but the best thing about Dir en grey is their lives. I have so many of their lives it's absolutely mind-boggling, and they absolutely kick your ass live. They're like...up there with MUCC and such. Anyways. I'm pissed. Har. My head hurts and I was bleeding again. Insanitykun told me that I sound British. *speaks outloud to herself* ...do I? o_o

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Auuuuugh, I feel so guilty now....><;;
Someone kill me. ~_~

Well now I realize unblocking was apparently a mistake. ~.~

Meh...sleep. Need...sleep. Badly. Keep getting dizzy.
God my head hurts ><;;

OH MY GOD. O___O I AM SO FORCING MY PARENTS TO BUY ME THIS, HOLY FUCKING LUCIFER. O___O

AUUUUUGHHHHSDFKhsoruwlanmODG! >_< >_< >_< *has a seizure and dies, HOO-FUCKING-RAY!* >_< ><
DIE! >_<

My head hurts. So goddamn bored. Fuck off. -_- The majority of my day was spent cloning AIM and annoying the hell out of random people. Whee, I bleed again. x_x

I am very bored. Stolen from Quinne.

i n f o r m a t i o n
name: I AM SETH, OHHOOHO. XD
single or taken: Taken. Get away! >O
sex: Female. o_o
bday: September Eighth, 1987
siblings: Two idiot bitch fucking brat sisters.
hair color: Red. ~_~
eye color: Green. >>;

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
who is your bgf?: Bgf? ..what? X_X;; *socially retarded*
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Obviously. *points above* <3 <3 T_T
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
where is your favorite place to shop: Shop? I am...not familiar with this concept...
any tattoos or piercings: Ears. Lip soon! :D
s p e c i f i c s
do you do drugs?: No. >_<
what kind of shampoo do you use?: Uh..that Suave stuff. What my mom buys. >D
what are you most scared of?: >>; Losing that someone..
what are you listening to right now?: +DéspairsRay+ - Tatoeba Kimi Shindara.
who is the last person that called you?: Patrick is the only person who calls me. ~_o
how many buddies are online right now?: I've blocked most everyone on my buddy list. >>;
if you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?: More or less everything.

f a v o r i t e s
color: Crimson. Black. Uh..hot pink. x_x;
pasta: UH. ANYTHING. GIMME PASTA NOWWW. O___O
boys name: SETH. >D
girls name: Uhn...dunno. @_@
subjects in school: I hate school. ~_~ Everything about it.
animals: Cats. FERRET. XD XD
sports: Uh...the SITTING SPORT. I CAN SIT LONGER THAN J00! >O

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
given anyone a bath?: O_o! NO. >>;
smoked?: >>;
bungee jumped?: Nope. o_o
made yourself throw up?: >_>
skinny dipping?: Nope.
ever been in love?: Currently.
made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: No. >>;
cried when someone died?: No. >>;
lied: Never! I've never lied in my life! XD XD
fallen for your best friend?: No. Uh. x_X
been rejected?: Er?
rejected someone?: Who is it that I could've rejected in the first place? -_-
done something you regret?: No shit.

f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
do you like fillings these out?: Relief from boredom. O_O
how many people are you sending this to?: I'm not sending it..I'm posting it. >O
who will send it back?: ~_~
least likely to send it back?: ...
gold or silver?: PURPLE. NO...wait. x_x...
what was the last film you saw at the movies?: Errr.....Pirates of the Carribean
favorite cartoon?: Saishuuheiki Kanojo.
who would you hate to be locked in a room with?: Most everyone. o_o
who would you love being locked in a room with?: *cough* ...*grabs K-chan* XD XD .....oh dear. *blush*
could you live without your computer?: NEVER. >_<
would you color your hair?: YES.
could you ever get off the computer?: No. I live here! O_O
habla espanol?: "NO HABLA ESPANOL!!" - Quinne, over and over in the J rock room. XD
how many people are on your buddy list?: Like....ten?
drink alcohol?: That's just....crazy! I mean, yes. >>;
like watching sunrises or sunsets?: Uhhhr...you hafta go outside for that, don't you? I'm usually at the computer at both times, and there's no window in front of it that's open. XD
what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: I could give a shit less about physical pain.

c u r r e n t
clothes: Disturbed shirt. Pants. Stuff. x_x;
music: Nightwish - Nymphomaniac Fantasia
taste: Mouth taste? o_o;
make-up: I don't wear make-up. >> Too stupid. XD
hair: Uh. Stupid. There...uh...messy..x_x;;
annoyance: Everything. ~_~
smell: *sniff* ...Air?
fav artist: Uh..dunno.
desktop picture: EBIL. BLUENESS. O_O
fav band: +DéspairsRay+ maybe. 12012. Kagerou. Berry. Noir Fleurir. SO MANY. X__X
book youre reading: The Scarlet Letter AND Frankenstein. (I'm multitalented, yup. ....okay, so I didn't read my books for English, sue me. ~_~)
cd in player: Kagrra.
dvd in player: Lord of the Rings : Two Towers. <3 <3 <3
color of toenails: The...toenail color. o_O;;...nothing. xD
refreshment: DR. PEPPER. >O O//|/463!

a r e | y o u
understanding: Probably not to you.
open-minded: Probably not to you. >>
arrogant: Not really.
insecure: I guess.
interesting: No.
random: Sometimes. *vomits, drools blood* Ayup. *bites, licks* (ha.)
hungry: Moderately.
smart: No.
moody: Fucking Lucifer, yes.
hard working: Absolutely not.
organized: I AM OCD. O___O
healthy: Yeah, right. I'm sick like ninety-nine percent of the time. -_-
shy: I guess. x_x;
difficult: Indeed. >>;
attractive: Yeah right. XD
bored easily: Yep.
messy: Eh.
responsible: No..
obessessed: Obsessed with what? o_o (Or who? XD)
angry: Fuck you.
sad: Fuck you!
happy: Hardly.
hyper: I haven't slept in two days. I get hyper when I don't sleep. >>;
trusting: No.
talkative: Not really..
legal: Er?

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: More or less everyone.
kiss: That hardly needs answering. >>;
get really wasted with: Well Quinne answered that she'd want to get wasted with me. ...the thought is frightening, so QUINNE IT IS. >D
get high with: I don't want to get high. ~_~
look like: Bleh.
talk to offline: K-chan! Sko! Quinne! Nikki! Corulerwife! (don't ask. XD) Maso! Hozda and Koro so I can kill them! J-kun! Capsule! Luci! Nomi! And many more. XD
talk to online: K-chan. T_T (I HATE J00, TIMEZONES. >_< I HATE J00, ATLANTIC. *EATS*)

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: Awake. Pressing my face against the computer screen waiting for someone to get on. x_x; (I'm a freak. >>;)
all i need is: A plane ticket. ~_~
love is: "when you would do ANYTHING for that person no matter what the consequenses and you want to spend your whole life with him/her in total happiness. Yep, I'm stealing yours, fluf." Yep, I'm stealing yours, Quinne.
i dream about: Bad things. (Bad things as in things I don't want to remember, and bad things as in really really naughty things. XD)

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: They both 5|_|xx0r5. Dr. Pepper 0wnz!
flowers or candy: Flowers. Red ones. o_o
tall or short: Uhms.....?!?

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: Yes. >>
save conversations: DeadAIM logs my convos.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Sometimes. XD You could guess when.
cried because of someone saying something to you?: Uhh. *looks up*

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: Never. <<;
of continents i have lived in: One.
of close close friends: Bleh. I'm to annoying and mistrusting.
of cds i own: Lots. Most burned CDs. >>;
of scars on my body: Don't feel like counting them all.
of things in my past that i regret: Too many to count at the moment.

Wow I am bored. x_x

My head hurts....and so does my goddamn ear....>_< Mother FUCKER...>_< *dies* ~_~

What the fuck? Chise? And Tetsu?
...banging?
What the fuck? I knew Shuuji was a little slut, but...Chise? What the fuck. ~_~

01. Who was the first J-rock Band you heard?:
X Japan

02. Who's the most recent J-rock Band you've heard?
Babysitter (they rock!)

03. Who's your favorite J-rock Band?:
Fuck you, that's hard! Déspairs Ray maybe.

04. Name 5 other Bands you Like:
MUCC, Kagerou, hide (w/Spread Beaver), Deadman, Phobia

05. Are you a fangirl/boy?
Nope.

06. If yes, of Who?
Nope, damn it. >>

07. Do you cosplay?
Nup.

08. Who?:
Nup! >_<

09. Do you like Dir en grey?
Yes. Why?

10. Are you a Toshiya fangirl?
No.

11. How about Kaoru?
I like him alot. But I'm not a fangirl.

12. Die?
No. >_<

13. Kyo?
[see Kaoru]

14. Shinya?
Nope. I like him alot too, though.

15. What's your favorite Deg song?
Child Prey, maybe. (Why is this so Diru centered?)

16. Do you like visual bands or non-visual bands?
I like anything that is good.

17. What's the first J-rock song you heard?
Drain. (And the person who took this quiz earlier, Gackt:..Emu For my Dear is NOT J-ROCK. >>)

18. What's the last song you heard?
I'm listening to Déspairs Ray - Valentine right now, so does that count?

19. Do you buy J-rock magazines?
I don't regularly.

20. What's your favorite?
Fool's Mate? Shoxx? Maybe it's a tie.

21. Have you ever been to any J-rock concerts?
No. >>; BLOOD WAS HERE IN THE STATES. AND DUEL JEWEL. MOTHER FUCKER.

22. Which ones?
*kills you with a paperclip*

23. What would you do if you saw any J-rocker walking down the street:
Take a picture or something. Stare in awe. Feel blessed.

24. Which three JRockers are you most in love with?:
I do not believe I'm "in love" with Jrockers....>> But...I like Kaoru, Hizumi, hide, Miyavi...Daisuke...Kuroneko, Shiina...Zero, Reita...Yukke (XD!) ...and whatever the vocalist of Rouage's name is.

25. Which three JRockers would you most love to meet in person (Dead or alive):
hide, Hizumi, and...Ao. :D

26. What are the three things you would like to say to/ask them:
Give me your clothes. Now.
Hug?
I want your instrument. Give. Now. O_O; *cough*

27. Which three JRockers can you relate to most?
Kyo, Hizumi, Ryutarou.

28. Which three JRock songs do you constantly replay?
Facism, Gabyou.Kugi.Hari, and...Quo Vadis.

29. Do you currently have a JRocker computer background?
I can't change the computer background, it's not my computer. >>

30. Which JRocker would you most like to get fashion/makeup advice from?
Mako.

31. Do you read JRock fan fiction?
No.

32. What is your favorite JRocker related dream?
I dun think I've ever had one.

33. How many JRock MP3s do you have?
About...halfway to two-thousand.

34. And, finally, if you could sleep with any three JRockers, who would they be?:
I wouldn't sleep with a J-rocker..x_x;


That was rather pointless.

Gomen....please don't hate me...
I'm pathetic and worthless, but I need you...

*hiss* Kyran. ...yep.

You realize just how sad you are when you decide to check blogs and nobody's updated, and you've updated like three thousand times in the last three days. -.-
Ugh. Hooray for nothing. Hooray for fuck you, bastard. Whoever that was directed at, I have no clue. But fuck you anyways. Ha, I have such a bad memory. It's like everything I knew and gave a damn about is like...fading. I guess I just don't care anymore? I dunno. It all seems distant. What the fuck.
There's nothing. There's just nothing important anymore. How fucking worthless. Helpless, fucking...nothing. I am nothing. I am something to nobody. I am confusing the hell out of myself. I am not drunk and it is past twelve o'clock, what the fuck. AUGH. FUCKING AUGH. IHATEYOUFUCKINGGODIEWHATTHEFUCKAMITALKINGABOUTIHATEYOU! >_< I hate you. I hate you. I really hate you if your happy. I REALLY HATE YOU ANYWAYS. FUCK OFF. >_< OH MY GOD.
...that's enough. No more. My arm is bleeding. Mother fucker. I'd like to die now. kthxbai.

So....now I have to make a profile page?! Uhm. I got bored and photoshopped an image of myself. >>; Fuck. SOMEONE, ANYONE, I SUCK, MMKAY?
And now I'm gonna get drunk off my ass kthxbai. Fuck you.

Cha made me make my own banner for Narcotic Kiss. -.-

Dear LUCIFER I threw up AGAIN. >_<

Kyoooo. Meh. Damn bad quality pictures. >_<

Is it...'black like the night'? I don't speak German. Obviously.
Uhm. Fucking ow my head hurts. And I have that weird tight feeling in my throat and it's annoying me. Fuck am I hungry.

Meh. Two people on my buddy list? Quinne and Sko, and both are idling. Ha..r...*pokes Quinne* Get out of the shower and entertain me, bitch. >>; That sounded bad.
But yeah, I'm desperate. -.- Anyways.
Today sucked, go figure. I'm fucking sick of this. I'm not patient. I'm really not. When things keep up like this for weeks at a time, the same thing every day, I am fucking sick of this and I can't take it anymore.
Holy fuck, you know what?
I don't know what. Fuck you. Fuck you, I hate you, go die somewhere and leave me the fuck alone some more. Bastards.

‚È‚½‚Ì•ê!!

Well.....at least you know I'm alive.
...what...the fuck? What the fuck do I care anymore, anyways..

AUGH I FUCKING HATE YOU! DIE! DIE DIE DIE! >_ ...LUCIFER, I have problems..

This one sucks ass. So much ass. >_< But it's a cap of Die from Obscure.
J00 lurve teh photoshop sex.

OHO, PHOTOSHOPPED ZOMBOID. O_O! That's what capsule said, anyways. >>; This one came out alot worse than I expected. >>; But meh. Something to do. Anyways yeah...
...I should probably go to school tommorow. I don't want to. It doesn't matter if I go or not, but...sigh. It's better than sitting around here all day, lonely as fuck and wishing that something would go right. Desperate much? I'm a bitch. Meh. Nothing has purpose anymore..

Tatsurou and his monkeh. >>; Photowhorified.
Me = no life photoshop bitch.

Lucifer I'm so fucking selfish.
What's with all these one-lined posts?
Bah what the fuck do you care.

(Yes, I'm home again and if you don't like it you can fuck off.) I need something to do...
(edit. That was stupid. Ignore me. Or kill me. The latter is preffered. Wtf, I so spelled that wrong.)

More Kyo brush whoriness.
Mitsuka and Nagi...brush whored by mah, drawn by K-chan, kill me for whoring it. (yaoi. ~_~;;)
Tatsurou and Yukke (they are SO watching porno...) a la Photoshop.
Thanks capsule.
God, I have no life. Nor do I want one. Nor do I need one. Nor do I deserve one.

Meh. I've stayed home today. I can't think of anything else...The sickness comes and goes...
...I hate this. I don't want to cry over you anymore. I can't even talk to you. I can't do anything.
I'm so fucking worthless. There is no meaning anymore...
I don't care what you say...I'm not deserving. I'll fail over and over again....you've shown me that.

Stop it......please god, just stop it..
Don't leave me alone like this..

I am still Photoshop's whore. ~_~

Just testing out some Photoshop brushes on Kyo.....
Bah. So bored.

Idiots. Goddamn fucking idiots. >_<

Oh FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU!

Listening to: Dir en Grey - Sajo no Uta
In the season, the month of April, the song written on the sand.
At the bottom, it is a dark and endless tomorrow.
To meet, to say goodbye under the blue sky.
The end of summer, I met the sea.
What is love if it just drifts away and its gone?
What did I pray to the sun that I know I cant reach, and turn it to ashes?
I cant seem to end it, so again I pick up the pieces of you that disappeared in the sand.
He sings the song written on the sand with his head down, keeping his voice down, and underneath it.....
The tears from the sky hit me.
Everyone looks so happy. You are not here by me on my left side.
The breeze is in blur from last year.
I met you in early autumn.
The weight of sadness more then the weight of the pain.
Flowers blooms and flowers fall, but a flower is as it is a flower.
But also wish to change by tomorrow.
The spring when I looked for you the sand of the sea disappears.

New Dir en Grey album, lyrics, yay.

I feel really vomitey. And they back of my legs are hurting like a goddamn motherfucker. Ach. Haven't slept yet. Too much DDR. Gonna die. So hungry. So fucking bored. So fucking nauseous. I can't think at all. I can't think or I'll get upset out of my mind and get sick again. This is just fucking retarded. Everything I do is totally in vain.
I realized something today. When you posted that you might be shutting your blog down, I was utterly freaked. I realized that I depend on that goddamn thing, because I don't KNOW a goddamn thing otherwise. Sad. So fucking sad. It seems like every day I get more and more worried, more and more upset, more and more helpless, more and more lost. Away. I'm drifting. I can't do a damn thing. WHAT THE FUCK USE AM I?
I'm tired of this. I really am, and I don't know what to do. And I don't want to hurt anyone. I really fucking don't.
I don't even know what I expect. I don't know anything anymore.

Miyavi's berfday is tommorow, not today, but I thought I'd post it anyways. Whee, Coo Quack Cluck, bitches.

I think I'm gonna vomit. What time is it? Four? I wake up too late...I wish I could sleep. I really wish I could go to sleep at a decent time, but that doesn't seem to be happening.
I feel rather light-headed. More or less disappointed.
Fucking....what the hell? I don't want to be here anymore..

Oh and before I go make a pathetic attempt at sleep, if I sent the new Dir en Grey album VULGAR to you, then you are most likely missing track 10 "R to the Core". I only sent it to Mandy...and someone else, I think...but if you need it IM me and I'll send it to you. Yeah. Sleep.
(yeahright)

Bleh. I'm so bored now. I need something to work on.
And...not sweeping. -.- Fucking ARGH. >_< I want out of here. Now. Help.

Like...omigawd. I've done THREE LAYOUTS in one night. x_x;; I did two blog layouts and the layout for the video section of Farfello.com. I like how that one came out, because it was all bloody. (And I used the cross brush I tattooed Karyu with, I couldn't help it. >_>) So yeah. Of course all you people are SLLLEEEEEPPING cause you suck, so nobody is here to share the moment in which I dance and prance because I am done. Annnd it's three-thirty and I'm supposed to sweep and mop. Bleh. I should do that. x_X;;

One good thing about this layout?
I tattooed Karyu. ¬¬;; (Yes, the cross thing was all me. I have no clue what made me do that. But it was a cool brush. @_@) Anyways. Bleh. Better than the last one, but still, it's teh sucks. -.- Oh well.

Yeah yeah. I'm working on another goddamn layout because this one fucking sucks so goddamn much. One day I'll learn to do something right.

I feel like such an idiot. I've been moping at bitching at people today and I just can't stand myself. Fucking worthless. I can't do anything right, I can't help anything that's wrong, I just fucking sit here and worry endlessly about all the wrong things, and all the things I can't change, and that's it. It will be like this forever. I will be stuck forever. There IS NOTHING I CAN DO. I don't want to even think about forever. I don't want to think about living that long, I don't want to even think about living past tommorow. Not with things like this. Not so utterly worthless like this. I can't do anything....and no matter how much I cry about it, I can't change a damn thing, because nothing I say matters...

SETH IS GONNA HAVE SEX WITH EIRI YUKI. LYK LOLZ OMG FUNNEH. (¬¬;;)

And as everything seems okay, it is doomed to fall apart again...and again....until there's nothing left of me..

*grumbles* . . . this sucks. . . >_<
I'm retarded. Just fucking retarded. -.-

Lisening to: Jinkaku radio - Saisei no Asa
So yeah, I changed it, I got bored, and I was sick of looking at the old one because I didn't do it. Somehow that annoyed me. This layout is possibly one of the worst I've ever done. AUGH. It sucks, yeah, whoo. MY HEAD FUCKING HURTS.
I am not in a good mood. I'm fucking...augh.
I wanna sleep. I can't sleep.
I wanna die. I wanna........(freedom, I wanna freedom, ah ah ah ah freeedddomm)......anyways. So fucking yeah. Au..gh. MY FUCKING HEAD HURTS AND THERE IS NO FUCKING ASPRIN FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WHAT THE FUCK?!

ORESAMA DA! >_O

Listening to: Bugy Craxone - Fuck the Melancholy
I've never felt so goddamn shitty in my entire life. I mean..fucking god. I'm hungry, too. So fucking hungry.
And I hate Evaneschit. Yeah, you heard me, Evaneschit.
AUGH. AUGH AUGH AUGH AUGH SOMETHING GO RIGHT PLEASE AUGH AUGH AUGH. >_< Yeah, this is a stupid bitching rant and if you don't like it you can fuck the hell off. Lucifer. I hate you. >_<

Yeah. I hate you too. -.-

Listening to: Dir en Grey - Obscure

Meh. Back from Alabama. It sucked royally, and I almost jumped off the side of the house, it sucked that bad. I fucking hate them.
I don't want to go to school tommorow. I don't want to wake up tommorow.

Urrgh....Baka.....>_Mizaki SCREAMED @ Friday, September 5, 2003+06:09 a.m.
chokeME!?!

Uwah, lives~~! I <3 Squidi. ^^

Listening to: Advantage Lucy - Oolt Cloud

Lucifer, what a fucking day.
I dun really care to explain. But the gist is, this sucks. I have to start seeing the guidance counselor. THANKS, MR. JULIAN. I didn't ask you to do anything of the sort, but THAAANKS. >_< Augh, Ms. Popikas is annoying. She reminds me of a...stork or something. It's kinda annoying having to sit in that damn room with her for like an hour. >_< AUUUUUGH. I have to go back on Monday. Or Tuesday. Whatever. I may or may not be able to get on tommorow, augh, because we're going to fucking alabama for my fucking stupid birthday, and this is fucking stupid. Amen.