ehe. anyway, joined friendster. add me? *puppy eyes*

hmm. what else. yeah. i feel bitter these days. why? lotsa reasons. don't make me spew it all out. its a tsunami of regrets and frustrations that sometimes i cannot handle. damn you fate. *dyok*

grippin goyles. a friend got mad at me. the reason? shallow actually. she's gone crackers. sometimes i want to spew out all my grievances to her. she's actually my best friend but she takes me for granted. *angst* *angst* *angst* and she has this annoying habit of badmouthing/backstabbing when she's mad at you, not to mention flinging you with that razor-sharp, piercing glares of hers. i wonder, ilan na kaya silang galit sa akin...

hay. swimming in loneliness, angst, misery... those stabbing emotions that you can associate with me.

hoy ah. i'm not turning into a psycho! hindi ako napapraning because of depression. this is just my way of releasing negative emotions. ^_^

angst. friendster. friendship.

Wednesday, October 29, 2003 >> 05:37 p.m.

i'm downloading houses, objects and skins for me sims now, and i hope the game won't crash when i paste it in. and i'm off for school tomorrow to enrol. ^__________^

sims. sims. sims

Tuesday, October 28, 2003 >> 03:11 p.m.

wow. its been a while since i've blogged. aside from the fact that pitas was down last week, (yeah pitas, yer forgiven, no need to cry now! hehe!) indolence crashed into me that i feel lazy to write anything in kudaranai whenever i go online. nyaha! eeyeyeyehay!!! indolenceyay isyay issblay!!!(translation: heheheyeye! indolence is bliss!) (readers: wow! kelan ka pa natuto ng pig latin? lol!)

as usual, nothing extraordinary happened in me life in the past few weeks. i was a certified couch potato in those boring times of seclusion in front of the tv and a tumbler of orange juice. i satisfed meself by playing the sims and razored time by watching anything in hbo, axn, mtv, cinema one and uh, chinovelas from gma and abs. bloody hell. tera ma. what a boring, unfair life.

i've lost communication with my friends too. they seem to be busy with whatever matters they're attending to. most of them enrolled in NMAT review session or something. i've only seen some of them when i went to school for my grades. hay.

on without the angst, i'm happy that they will make the survival horror game - alone in the dark into a movie! oh yeahh!!! *backflips* edward carnby will be played by christian slater and aline cedrac will be played by tara reid. sweet. i was so into slater until jonathan taylor thomas came. *lakad down memory lane* hehe. been months since i've played alone in the dark and it was such a great game... although it made me insomniac for a whole week. (geez, goosebumps whenever i hear those tall, mutilated zombies scream.)

whoop-de-doo. that's it for your daily dose of a uber senseless entry. and yep me forgot. *batoks herself* i joined an online poetry contest! wish me luck! ^_^

ima couch potato and i'm fried under a hot sun like a green tomato... *imbento*

Sunday, October 5, 2003 >> 02:12 p.m.

ehehe, i took this quiz months ago, and i took this again to check if my outlook in life changed. *ngek! meh koneksyon ba?* btw, stole the link from sakura riu^_^

You are the Death Dreamer
Kakyou
Lost in your past, you hold no more intentions on life than sailing in your sea of memories and 'see' other's deaths. Most powerful of the Dreamgazers, your state is closer to death.

What kind of Dreamgazer is more appealing to you?
Quiz made by Let-kun, based on Melange's Treatise on Dreams

right. nuffinks changed. *smirk*

Which CLAMP series' random item are you?
Quiz made by Let-kun

ehehe. an incense all right. makes sense. creepy sort of scenario huh? *looks at the incense pic* i thought it was some sort of an arabian-style cheeseburger. ^^;;

quizzes~!

Saturday, October 4, 2003 >> 10:50 p.m.

argh. darn nervous about both recitation and oral defense. any suggestions to calm nerve-janglings and shoo the butterflies in the stomach? hehe.

good thing me and my groupie in thesis are doing okay now. seems as if they read my mind, everyone's participating already. now, we are trying to cover up any holes in our reaseach and answer probable questions my prof might ask. ^_^

Gots ta go! *layas*

toia toink!

Friday, October 3, 2003 >> 03:20 a.m.

latest news. new lay-out. thanks to digik.net. i hope i can come up with such pretty lay-outs like this one.

mood: dead-tired.

i feel so pressured these days. from the routinary quizzes, nerve-wrecking recitations, to our thesis... it feels as if my brain wants to escape my skull for a while and drag its way to hawaii or somewhere... just to have a complete 10 - hours sleep and rejuvenate. *sigh*

albeit semestral break is nearing the students' shore, the succeeding semester is already considered "dreadful" by my fellow classmates. we have our practicum, where we have to submit ourselves to the authority of some random educational institutions and complete all one hundred hours of pure servitude. *snort* ick. plus, our prof decided to change our curriculum and added a "few, good, extremely easy" subjects like human anatomy, greek and latin subjects etc. XD and oh, how could i forget the one who caused me to devote my entire being to school. thesis.

its okay if your groupmates are participating in conducting your thesis. true, but how i wish it's applicable to my groupie. i dunno if they give a damn whether we finish the damned research or not. i don't want to bad mouth them, but some of them are just being plain dependent on what you say. they won't move until you told them so. they won't collect books until you ask them to. then they say they don't like being ordered around. deym. and one of them have been making alibis just to escape work. hay. we can't pull this off unless you guys help me with our thesis. it's not easy mind you. i can't do it all by myself. i am not a genius. pfft.

*erase angst* on with the lighter side. it seems that the name JOSEPH YEO keeps on reverberating inside the four corners of our classroom. they like/idolize/adore/worship/love the chinese guy, that's why. the chinese rich boy is already famous. famous enough to penetrate our dingy, old, and unknown-to-many school, with students still blushing over F4, and with technology-estranged administrators. nyah. since 1904 eh? (and gulay, the university gym! often mistaken by many as a "chicharon" factory! drats!) >___<

pooh. i still feel angst-y men. guess i juz feel pressured. and tang-ina. i still have to finish our damned bibliography. +___+ *layas*>

do i need a reason?

Friday, October 3, 2003 >> 03:04 a.m.

halu. Hay salamat!!!a new lay-out. thanks to digik.net!!! ang kyot nung anime gerl no? and i like the colors... mejo meh pagka classic ang dating. XD

be back later.

you imagine songs that i have never been played...

Tuesday, September 30, 2003 >> 08:38 p.m.

i've travelled 30928498739 light years away from our beloved galaxy that's why i haven't been blogging these days. XD

and yes. i need to change the lay-out. at meh virus pa ang lintek! *inis*

thesis eats most of my boring time as of now. *tama ba grammar?* XD sa wakas, sa friday na start ng oral defense para sa aming bioresearch! goodluck to all my classmates. sana makaya namin. at sana rin, my prof won't bombard us with questions na out of this universe. ehehe.

i was watching UAAP kanina, at todo naman talagang exciting yung game! Ateneo versus La salle!!! hu ye!!! *sayaw* at ang saya ng mag rambol yung mga players!!! linsak! na-amuse naman ako sa mga rich kids na ire. Pag dismayado o kaya stressed, eh english swearword gaya ng sh!t, f*ck, damn, whaddahell etc. ang ginagamit nila. para ba sabihing sosi pa rin ang dating. hu ye!! pero nung nagkapikunan na, pucha! puro g@g0 and p.i. na ang umaalingawngaw gad demit! XDDD
Jerwin Gaco: P.I ka pala.... blah blah.... (ohohohho!!!!)
Joseph yes yes Yeo: g@g0 ka pala *duro kung sinumang player yun* P.I. ... blah blah chukoink.. toink..

ehehe. mga rich kids talaga oo. *sweatdropped* anyhoot, i got a call from my friend asking if i saw the game. and inis na inis sya ke joseph yeo dahil paka war freak daw. inaaway si wesley blah blah. paki ko ba sa dalawang yun kesehoda mag demandahan sila sa supreme court. *evil cackle* my other friend naman who's in total love with yes yes Joseph Yeo beg to disagree instantly. I beg them to shut up. tinanong sa akin nung isang friend ko kung kanino daw ba ako... ateneo or la salle. sa totoo lang men, wala talaga. Di naman ako nag aaral dun eh!!!

well... i'm back!