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Past Ramblings
Ancient History
Summer 2002
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LIKES:
respect
DISLIKES:
disrespect
WANTING:
respect
NEEDING:
release
REALIZING:
I should take better care of myself.
THINKING:
(I wish I wasn't.)
WONDERING:
Hmm...
GRR-ISH ABOUT:
Empty promises.
LOOKING FORWARD TO: God knows when.
NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO:
Waiting.
HOPING:
For divine intervention.
WISHING:
My dreams will come true.
MOVIE:
Yes, I would very much like to see one.
SONGS:
The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face - Roberta Flack
Bulletproof - Blue Rodeo
Save Yourself - Sense Field
Alwyays You - Sophie Zelmani
I'm A Fool - Letters to Cleo
All My Best Friends Are Metal Heads - Less than Jake
Jitterbug - Wham!
Come On Eileen - Save Ferris
Underneath it All - No Doubt
FEELING:
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I am completely and utterly shocked.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002 06:10 p.m.
So Christmas Parade today... was on the SCB float. I cannot believe my toes are still attached to the rest of my feet. I don't know if I've ever been so cold before. There was ice inside my saxophone when I went to take it apart for God's sake!! I couldn't even get the neck off... it was frozen, I had to get Tony to take it apart for me. When I got off the float and tried walking, my feet felt all weird.
Anyway... I thawed out eventually, and then had to go to the SCB/PCYC concert. My solo went well I guess (or so they tell me). :p I'm kinda glad it, the concert and everything, is over. Now there's nothing major I have to worry about... I can just look forward to the Christmas Party (which I think I will actually attend this year 'cause it sounds like it'll ACTUALLY be fun :p).
So... all for now anyway. I'm outta here.
Monday, December 2, 2002 03:54 a.m.
So, have officially graduated from high school I guess. The whole evening of commencement wasn't nearly as bad as I was expecting. I wasn't overly looking forward to it at all, but it was nice to see some people, and I had a good time.
So, we went to Crabby Joe's... wasn't too shabby... there was a ton of people there... way more than I was expecting.
Got an offer from a bunch of like 30 year old guys at Molly Blooms. (Yahoo... heh. :p)
I ended up having a pretty decent evening... Laurel & I drove Tina home... and ended up walking around the (very icy) back yard... climbing up the (very icy) deck and helping her in the bathroom window as she was locked out of the house. :p That was funny.
Laurel & I got home sometime after 2:30 & hung out until finally going to sleep sometime around 4:30 or so I think it was.
Went to Sam's surprise birthday party tonight which was cool. I was really freaking tired by the end of it though.
Anyway, all for now. Later.
Saturday, November 30, 2002 11:46 p.m.
Martina's home! (Well.... in Ontario anyway...)
She & I hung out tonight, caught up and went to see '8 Mile' in Stratford. Sweeet. :p It was a good night! (And P.S. thank you for the picture frame!!! :) )
Tuesday, November 26, 2002 10:14 p.m.
In need of massage. Must utilize prescription for them soon. Siiiiiiiigh...
Work's been tiring lately. I've also been rather busy. I may stop taking overtime shifts...
Nathan & I went to Bentley's tonight which was tres chic & tres filling as well.
There was an old man gettin' it on with his wife in the restaurant! :p hehehe
All for now...
Thursday, November 14, 2002 12:06 a.m.
MY BROTHER'S GETTING MARRIED!!!!! :) :)
Mike & Christine, and Jackie & Sam all came over for lunch yesterday... and oh my God... Mike & Christine are getting married!!! :p I cried... (surprise surprise)... but not a whole lot... you'd be proud. :p It was funny.
So anyway... we broke out the wine... and then everyone stayed for dinner too... Jackie & I went to the LCBO to get some more wine and some beer... and Mom (who had to go to work) brought the woman she works with to our house for dinner & brought home roses for Christine... Dad invited Dan & Betty over ('cause he was supposed to go out for dinner with them) and we ordered Chinese.
It was a pretty cool evening.
On a sad note... Tip, my brother's dog died on Friday night. :( He was 16. :(
I was supposed to hang out with Laurel though... I haven't seen her since the end of August. :( But that didn't end up working out. I still could have... but as Laurel said... it would probably be better if we did it another time. Oh well...
That's all for now. Later.
Sunday, November 10, 2002 01:12 p.m.
Sunday, November 10, 2002 01:03 p.m.
My life is so confusing... why is everything made to be so complicated?
Thursday, November 7, 2002 12:24 a.m.
Oh sigh... man all I did tonight was sleep. I was (& still am) soooo tired. I bought On the Bright Side I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God today. (Yeah!! :p)
So I get an e-mail from Tony saying I'm anti-social. I made a lame argument in my defence disputing that... and he says... proove it. Yeah... well... it's not my fault I didn't go out for Joann's 19th... and anyway... how come no one took me out for mine... huh?? Boo! :p I may have gone if Dulcie came with me & I had found out sooner than when they were already out at the bar. (Damn not having a computer for a while.) Who knows... I hardly even know Joann. But I guess it could've been fun. Oh well... next time maybe.
Monday, November 4, 2002 11:39 p.m.
Well... back from the cottage. Had a nice time. And guess what Elly!? I bought Angus, Thongs & Full Frontal Snogging!! Read it in less than a day. Good book. :p
Also went "antiquing" with father dear. :p Was pretty cool.
We're having spaghetti tonight (boooo), then I'm going to Nathan's.
Anywho... I'm too busy to write now... I'm talking to Laurel. hahaha :p Later all.
Sunday, November 3, 2002 06:12 p.m.
WE HAVE A NEW COMPUTER! HOLY FUCKING ALMOST INSTANTANEOUS INTERNET SURFING! :p
I love this!! It is amazing! Yeah Windows XP! :p No more dumb ass disconnecting all the time! Yeah! :p
ANYWAYS... so yeah... what's new? Umm... have been working a lot. Very tiring. Yet pays off nicely. Am looking forward to another night of after hours gift picking on Tuesday. Yahoo!
We were supposed to go to the cottage tonight after I got off work... but as the weather was bad enough that my mother ended up driving (unknowingly) driving on the wrong side of the road part way home... we decided to delay the trip to tomorrow.
I'm excited about next weekend!! LAUREL'S COMING HOME!!! YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I HAVEN'T SEEN HER SINCE THE END OF AUGUST!!! :( I MISS YOU LAUREL! :p And Martina's coming home soon for commencement too!! YEAH! :P
Laurel & I have already made plans to get ourselves pleasantly smashed on Saturday evening. :p I'm so looking forward to this joyus reunion. :p hehehe
All for now...
Saturday, November 2, 2002 01:33 a.m.
Last night Nathan & I went to see Three Penny Opera. Neither of us really liked it... but it was okay... I've seen better. :p It was still a good evening.
I'm so glad it's the weekend. Sleep... mmmmm... :p Work this week has been exhausting. Damn student bus trips. :p
Dad & I are going to hang out this afternoon... do a little antiquing I think. :p
I guess I should probably get typing the minutes from the exec meeting on Wednesday so I can get them sent out. Hmm... I'll wait until Christine e-mails me back with the e-mail addresses... yes.
Now I think I'm going to go e-mail Elly.
Later.
Saturday, October 26, 2002 10:45 a.m.
CORRECTION: Due to recent harassing comments Laurel has recieved, I felt it necessary to clear up something... she does not actually wear fishnets... it's just an inside joke we have. Sorry for any misunderstandings. :p hehehe
Friday, October 18, 2002 07:33 p.m.
So... my Grandma died on Wednesday at lunch time. They say she went peacefully, and wasn't in pain... that is some consolation I guess. I'm just so glad I went to see her on Saturday. She was 92.
Friday, October 11, 2002 04:06 p.m.
Last night Nathan and I went to see Oscar Peterson at the Festival. It was a very nice evening. I had a good time. :)
I've been keeping pretty busy lately. Went to visit Grandma with my Mom & went shopping on Saturday... Went to Women's Festival with Mom on Sunday afternoon... baked cookies (oh yes... 1st time in forever) and hung out with Nathan on Sunday Night. Went out last night.
Today I woke up still very tired. Went to work... dreamt of Laurel. (hehehe) Tomorrow I have band... we start playing Christmas music (weeeird). Anyway... that's all for now.
Tuesday, October 8, 2002 07:37 p.m.
This entry is dedicated to Laurel Kathrine Grieve.
I originally planned to dedicate a space on this fine page of mine to her awesomeness on the date of the 19th anniversary of her birth (Oct. 2)... however... for reasons of my own forgetfullness & the dumb-assedness of my tempermental internet connection... I did not. :p
Laurel is one sexy chicka. She enjoys displaying her wit, making an ass out of me, making up stories and seeing if I'll fall for them, wearing fishnet pantyhose, primpin', running, blowing her horn, saluting people (fellow trumpeters and non-trumpeters alike). She speaks the whole truth - and nothing but the truth, is a hilarious drunk, is way better than the advice column in YM :p, an awesome friend.... and in her spare time she is an environmental super-hero.
I LOVE YOU LAUREL!!! (Insert Salute here. :p)
Saturday, October 5, 2002 12:33 a.m.
Oh man I'm tired... must get sleeeeeeep...
Had a great day anyway... very busy. Went to work this morning... had doctor's appointment on my break & did a little shopping downtown with my Mom after work.
Had a iiiinteresting phone conversation with Nathan. *rolls eyes* ... I'll get you back! :p
Tonight Elly & I went to see My Big Fat Greek Wedding. It was really good! I had a great time. :p (Well aside from the moldy Pepsi anyway. :p) We also discovered that we are living the exact same lives. :p Cool!! hehehe
"I didn't recognize him... I've never seen him with pants on before." HA HA HA!! :p
Later.
Saturday, October 5, 2002 12:11 a.m.
Well. Another day... another dollar. I guess...
THANK YOU SO MUCH ELLY FOR THE BRACELET!! You're such a Sweetheart! ;p
Went to Chris's after work... gave him his birthday present for Tina. Stayed and talked for a few minutes.
Then Jackie came home which was nice. I GOT THE BRITISH GROOVY GIRL ELLY! :p AND... Jackie gave me this AWESOME bottle of Vodka in the shape of a (life-size... oh yes) trumpet... it's sooo cool. :p
Then later after dinner she took me to Falstaff's for drinks. It was very nice. :)
Anyways... off to bed I guess.
Saturday, September 28, 2002 12:32 a.m.
Well... today's the day. :p
I've never got so many phone calls all in one day. :p Well... at least not in a really long time... Thanks Janelle, Dulcie, Jackie, and whoever the people from Family & Co. were... Alison said it may have been you Elly 'cause she said you were working today. :)
Oh, and also, thank you for the e-mails & cards Laurel & Emelie... and Martina (For everything! Banff! :) ) Thank you for the message Julia... and thanks Brad for singing to me last night over msn. :p
Anyway... today's been okay. It doesn't really feel like my birthday a whole lot... it's weird... I guess when you're little there's always this huge anticipation about having all your friends over for your birthday party and stuff... and it's a really big deal... but not too much this year... pretty much like an ordinary day.
My brother gave me $50 to use to go to the Scrapbook store... (YEAH MARTINA!!! :p) I'm really excited about that. And Alison gave me No Doubt - Rock Steady! & some candy. :P (Woo-hoo!) And my parents got me tickets to THREEPENNY OPERA! (YEAH MACK THE KNIFE! :p)
It was nice to have Mike home tonight. Drank some beer with him. :p
Jackie's coming home tomorrow & taking me out for a night on the town. :p Should be cool. :p
Anyway... I guess I'll go now... I wish I could enjoy the lasagna & birthday cake my mom made me... but I really don't have much of an appetite unfortunately...
Later.
Thursday, September 26, 2002 07:50 p.m.
I'm back. Though it's nice to be home... it was really hard leaving Martina at the airport! :( I had a great time though... and I'm so glad I went. I can't wait to get my pictures developed! Now I'm home... almost 19... and off until Friday... who could ask for anything more? :p
Anyways... all for now. Later...
Tuesday, September 24, 2002 09:49 p.m.
Well, this weekend's been good. Hung out with Nathan on Friday night, worked yesterday... not much else really.
So, it's off to Alberta tomorrow. Starting off on roadtrip extraordinaire...
It hasn't really sunk in that Martina, my friend ever since kindergarden... my 2nd oldest friend (oldest being length of friendship)... only to be surpassed by Emily who I've known since I was 1... is actually moving away. Sigh... I think this trip will be good though.
Anyway... I'll sign out now... should probably work on getting my stuff together.
Until sometime after the 24th...
Sunday, September 15, 2002 07:31 p.m.
Well... finally, our computer's fixed... the modem was fried a few days ago... however it's still not working right which is annoying. Anyway...
I'm reeeeeally getting sick of all of the stupid asshole, male jerk-offs there are out there. It's reeeally starting to get to me. If I get hit on, harassed, or bitched out one more time from some stupid self-righteous tourist (or group of male tourists) one more time I think I am going to snap.
I know there are many very friendly Americans out there... but lately I've been meeting way too many of their less than civil counterparts... Please lock them up and refrain from letting them out of your country... for the sake of all our Canadian souls... and my personal mental health.
So... 2 days left then I'm out of here. It seems like a pretty long trip. It'll be good I'm sure. Should probably start packing I guess... oh well...
Yeah so... fell asleep at like 8:30 last night... slept for about 10 & 1/2 hours... work again tomorrow 9:15-6. Woo hoo... Anyway - off to waste more time. Later.
Friday, September 13, 2002 07:11 p.m.
On the inside... I'm screaming, and crying and writhing trying to break free... but on the outside I'm just silent, still and straight faced to the world... alone and cold.
Monday, September 9, 2002 01:10 a.m.
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard.
Saturday, September 7, 2002 03:56 p.m.
This entry goes out to Eleanor L. Vousden for telling me to update my pita. Can't promise anything exciting... but we'll see.
Well, I'm now officially one of the adult staff at work. I've even been in charge of the floor the past couple days... which hasn't really been overly exciting because it's been so damn slow I haven't had to order anyone around much at all. :p But it's money, and that's nice.
So I was waiting for someone to get there to let me in this morning... and who do I see sitting on a bench infront of the store... but that guy that asked me out earlier this summer... he was with a girl which was a relief... glad he wasn't alone 'cause I had to wait forever.
Anyways, I don't mind the whole full-time adult scene completely... it has it's perks. Just wish the night life had a little more to offer. All in good time I hope.
Later.
Wednesday, September 4, 2002 11:29 p.m.
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Tell me one more time again
Just like I didn't hear you
Like I don't know what's going through your mind, I do
I play the same game too
I know it's hard to stop
Even when you want to
Now the moon lights up your face
And I can see you're crying
You never liked me to see you cry, it's true
I've done some crying too
The hardest part about it
Is trying to hide it from you
It must be great to be so strong
Never needed anybody's help to carry on
But we're so scared of the silence and the tricks that we use
We're careful and we're cunning, but we're easily bruised
I don't want to lie about it
I'm not bulletproof
Well I finally found the way
To hide from all your glances
Til the waiting game we play is through
I can, but what's the use
When all I really want to do is hide out with you
It would be great to be so strong
You never needed anybody's help to get along
We're so scared of the silence and the language that we use
Yeah we're careful and we're cunning, but we're easily bruised
I don't want to kid about it
I'm not bulletproof
Tell me one more time again
I guess I didn't hear you
I don't know all the secrets that you keep inside
I tried the same thing too
But they all come pouring out of me when I'm talking to you
It must be great to be so strong
You never needed anybody else's help to carry on
But I'm not waking up each morning with forgiveness I can use
No I'm careless, and I'm cruel, but I'm still easily bruised
I'm so tired of lying about it
I'm not bulletproof
No, and I'm not going to lie about it
I'm not bulletproof
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