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Past Ramblings
LIKES:
Being happy.
DISLIKES:
Being ignored.
WANTING:
To be respected.
NEEDING:
Not as much as you think.
REALIZING:
Things aren't always as they seem.
THINKING:
Quite a bit... so far thoughts have inconclusive results.
WONDERING:
Why is it that whenever you need someone, they're often never there?
GRR-ISH ABOUT:
Stuff.
LOOKING FORWARD TO: Being free of ISPs.
NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO: HOMEWORK!!!!!
HOPING:
To have a nice weekend.
WISHING:
Lots of stuff.
Secret wishes. :)
SONGS:
Gimme Some Lovin' - The Spencer Davis Group
Last Laugh - Dance Hall Crashers
Whole Again - Atomic Kitten
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
Somewhere Out There - An American Tail
All the Way - Frank Sinatra
I'm Just A Kid - Simple Plan
Build Me Up Buttercup -
The Foundations
Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews
FEELING:
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So, my sax is broken. And Gilbert & I scratched it many times in the unsuccessful process of trying to get the spring back in place. Sending it to get fixed tomorrow.
I officially hate English class... and the rest of my day left a lot to be desired... however, I did go for a walk... which was good for me... I really needed it. I'm so glad I have my discman now.
Monday, May 27, 2002 05:46 p.m.
What the fuck is wrong with me??? I can never, ever seem to win. My whole world seems to be crumbling right out from underneath my feet. I try so fucking hard... you have no idea... I am so frustrated.
Sunday, May 26, 2002 11:21 p.m.
"And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own..."
Sunday, May 26, 2002 02:04 a.m.
Well, as you may have expected... the inevitable happened last night... I did go to the dance... (some things never change I guess). I met Laurel in Stratford... we drove to the movie theatre... almost went in... but decided to turn back and check out the dance... SO... we ended up spending about 30-40 mins. there (it was really rockin') then we drove around... parked down by the river & blew bubble-gum bubbles played Truth or Dare and chit-chatted as I talked in dumb voices until 11:30 when we had to go back to the school to meet our sisters. Yup... that was my night.
Now today I'm working 1:30-6:00... should be alright... it's money anyway. Later.
Saturday, May 25, 2002 11:09 a.m.
Well... I've decided that I'm not going to the dance tonight. WHAT!!!?? You say?? Kristin's gone to every dance since beginning of grade 9 & she isn't going to her very last dance??? CRAZY! Yeah, well...
Think I'm going to go chill with Laurel.
I'm kinda frustrated right now... and I think I'm going to go drown my sorrows & frustration in some Cookies & Cream ice cream. Yummmmy.
Just found out Degrassi's on tonight! What is this?? It switched to Fridays??? They did this without telling me? Whatever! :p
Oh, and just talked to Nathan... he's okay, so that's all good.
Anyway... later I guess...
Friday, May 24, 2002 07:18 p.m.
Well... today's been okay... was left in charge of music rooms today which was cool... (Mr. G & Mrs. Ortelli were gone.) Got to be key-holder... unlock cupboards for people & lock up @ end of the day... OH YEAH!
Had a good spare...
Dave drove me to the bank & to Canadian Tire to buy Discman on afternoon spare... THANK YOU VERY MUCH DAVE. :)
Bought bubble gum after school...yeah!!
Not sure if I'm going to the dance tonight or not. Don't know if I'm going to go to prom anymore either.... Who knows??
I'm worried about Nathan... he went to the hospital after school & I haven't heard from him yet. :( I hope he's okay.
Anyways... have to go phone Laurel back... later.
Friday, May 24, 2002 06:33 p.m.
Today's been great! I've been in such a great mood! I feel that my presentation today in music went pretty well... and I'm sooo glad it's over.
Had good meeting with a bunch of grade 9s to plan music party.
I love it when younger people ask me for advice or to help them with something... it makes me feel very good about myself. :) It's cool to have someone who looks up to you. :p
Went for a walk with Laurel & Steve at lunch...
I went to the Shoe Box twice today... (love that store...)
Went to Sid's with Nathan & Phil which was cool... food was quite good... and quite filling. Went to Nathan's after school to hang out & watch some rassslin'... then went Discman shopping... picked one out...will be buying it tomorrow. YEAH!
All for now... later...
Thursday, May 23, 2002 08:25 p.m.
In response to entry #40 in my guestbook... I don't know who you are... and if I did, maybe I could say something to your face... if I did have a problem with you... I really can't say... because I don't know who you are.
However, you seem to have a problem with me... so how about tell me who you are... what your problem is... then maybe we can chat.
If you don't want to show yourself and talk about it to my face... then why don't you just forget about it - stop bashing me - deal with your own life... and let me deal with mine.
Wednesday, May 22, 2002 07:41 p.m.
Man... this sucks.
Monday, May 20, 2002 12:01 a.m.
Hey there... well, late night last night... turned out the lights at 3:00. I woke up early & Mom made me french toast which made me quite happy... slept a little, then Nathan called & went to his place for a few hours... had bubble gum on the way home - I'm getting so good at blowing bubbles now!! Yeah!! :p Now I'm home eagerly awaiting lasagna for dinner. Mmmmmmmm. :) That's all for now... later.
Saturday, May 18, 2002 07:08 p.m.
Well hello there,
So... todays been okay. Writer's Craft was prettty unproductive... we just had a discussion about grammar with the big FOUR people in the room!! :p I also discussed the tragedy of my going to Milverton Public School...
Spent morning spare writing poetry (not for school... just for me...)
Went to the Lounge @ lunch - saw Running On Empty... had a fun time with Caitlin... he he he... Kerry & her big mouth. :p
Health was fairly boring... wanted out... but oh well...
Now I'm on spare again... talked with Darryl & Alicia for a few minutes... talked to Nathan on the phone... went to Family & Co. to pick up my BIG .20 paycheck!!! And yes... I do only get paid once a month... sad... I know. :p Oh well.
So, I may be going to see Spiderman AND Star Wars tonight... haven't decided for sure... I was going to go lookin' for a discman... and 2 movies @ Silver City will be pretty expensive... plus dinner... but I'll probably end up going anyways... we'll see... Darryl said he's apparently claiming the seat beside me... (if he's lucky :p) Maybe I'll go so I don't let him down. :p
I should probably go phone my Dad... later...
Friday, May 17, 2002 02:41 p.m.
Well, today was cool. I enjoyed getting up infront of music class today and leading the discussion... it's fun to be in charge. Grrrrr. :p
Went to 7-11 with Andy on spare right after lunch... got some Jones Soda & some bubble gum. :) (Still haven't mastered the bubble-blowing thing yet.) Stopped by his house for a few minutes so he could pick up some stuff... and look at stuff on his computer...
2nd spare in the afternoon was fun. Hung out with Nathan, Ewan, Craig, and Andrew... some good times with duct tape. :p
Anyways... went home feeling good about my day... :)
I should probably get off now as there's lightning out and all... later...
Thursday, May 16, 2002 04:44 p.m.
Well... today's been okay... the time away the past week was a really nice escape... it kinda sucks to be pulled back into the harsh reality... but the day hasn't been all bad. I did however just walk in to the library to find some guy looking through my planner which I left with a pile of my books & a bunch of other guys sitting around the table... nice... hung out with Steve on spare this morning... went to his house... then up town to drop of my film... it was chilly outside... Dammit, where's the sunshine??? Anyways... going to see Miss McManus's pictures of Montreal... later...
Monday, May 13, 2002 02:22 p.m.
YEAH! Back from Montreal! Well... not that I didn't enjoy the trip... it was a blast!! I really enjoyed the trip. I think I really needed it... when I walked back into the school today while unloading the stuff... I just felt so much better... refreshed, happy... good stuff.
The Jazz Club was great, the Museum of Archaeology & History was really quite cool, Le Festin du Governor was funny... playing the national anthems at the Expos game was probably one of the coolest things I've ever done in my life... and shakin' my groove thang at the Hard Rock Cafe was lots of fun. I love Montreal! It's an awesome city! :)
Anyways... had lots of fun. I'm so glad I went... I really needed that break!! I feel soooo refreshed. See you people tomorrow...
Sunday, May 12, 2002 08:18 p.m.
Well... off to Montreal tomorrow(or today). Should be a good time... I am looking forward to it... right now I'm kinda looking forward to sleeping on the bus on the way down...
Anyways... today was okay... I had a student services appointment and finally dropped sociology officially... so that's one load off my back which is nice.
I had a frustrating day at school for the most part... but I'm going to go to bed with a smile on my face... I had a lovely, late evening and should probably get myself to bed so I can actually make it in time for the bus. :p
To all of you who may read this... that I think I can assume are not in Montreal, I hope you have a good week. :)
Toodle-oo,
Kristin :)
Wednesday, May 8, 2002 02:09 a.m.
Glare at me. Stare me down. Talk about me behind my back from time to time. Act like the saint you are not and cannot be.
You do the deed and blame me for the crime.
I keep building you up and you keep knocking me down.
Continue to make up lie after lie... I know you won't be satisified until you see me cry.
Keep on pretending and lying to keep yourself out of ill... keep trying to knock me down... but know this... you never will.
Monday, May 6, 2002 02:11 p.m.
Yeaaahhh!! Leafs won in triple overtime!! WOO-HOO!
Sunday, May 5, 2002 12:56 a.m.
Well... got 11 hours sleep last night. Very nice. Worked today, was pretty good. A.J. came in... talked to him for a bit... Caitlin & her sisters & their only cousin came in too. I also chased shoplifters for the first time ever... it was pretty cool. All for now...
Saturday, May 4, 2002 05:01 p.m.
Who is anyone to judge or put down someone because of what they choose to do with their life & what makes them happy?? It's not your life... don't worry about it... just because they're not doing something that you would do yourself doesn't make them any less worthwhile... or anything "less than prestigious". Let each to his own and don't degrade someone because they choose to be happy.
Friday, May 3, 2002 06:48 p.m.
Had fun in band this morning, went uptown with Laurel & Erin on spare... went out for lunch with Brad & Erin, went to health... worked on Music I.S. for 30 mins. in library on afternoon spare... found an AWESOME unrelated book that I signed out to read. Saw Luke Mistruzzi & Rob Scarborough who I haven't seen in ages - talked to them for a couple minutes... Dad took me out for ice cream after school & I bought a new Frank Sinatra CD at Video Plus which I'm listening to right now... it makes me so happy! :) That's all for now... later...
Friday, May 3, 2002 06:23 p.m.
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
Friday, May 3, 2002 10:43 a.m.
It seems as though I've been doing a lot of screwing up lately... yesterday was just filled with one screw up after another... oh well... at least I can find something I'm good at. :p
As I sit here in writer's craft... leaning back over my chair... looking out the window upside down... watching the clouds go by... I think about life... and why things work the way they do... and why some things always seem to happen... how it sometimes seems like there's some pre-determined way that things are supposed to turn out... I sit here... looking at things from the outside... at happenings... and just watching... and realizing... from the outside, looking in...
Wednesday, May 1, 2002 09:10 a.m.
Well... here I am at school... yeah... another boring as hell spare. WOOOO!
I'm getting kind of sick of the whole pita thing... meh. Borrring.
I've been having some pretty interesting dreams lately. Very weird.
I can't believe the Montreal trip is so close... it should be good I think. It damn well better be anyways. :p
Things have been very weird lately... ever feel like you're on the outside looking in? Viewing things in a different light... I've been in a weird state of mind. Which has been kind of cool in a way.
Anyway... that's all for now.
Monday, April 29, 2002 02:35 p.m.
"Anon",
In response to your ever-so-kind guestbook entries... you're really one to talk about needing to grow up... you're too fucking spineless to leave your own name... and I asked no one to speak for me or "fight my fights" - they did that themselves... so I haven't said anything to you yet... maybe because I don't give a shit to waste all my time and energy over someone who isn't even strong enough to show themselves. If you're so damn sure of yourself and everything you're saying... why are you hiding? Why be ashamed if what you think you're saying is so right??
Don't tell me I want attention... because I could really care less about you or anything... and wanting attention is the last thing on my list of priorities.
And don't pretend to know me or anything to do with me... because really, you have NO FUCKING CLUE!
Friday, April 26, 2002 08:53 p.m.
Well. Today... Band in the morning... band at lunch... and band all night. Yuh-huh. Class was class today... went to Nathan's during afternoon spare.
Band camp started out pretty rough... (sorry I didn't tell anyone what was wrong... I just didn't want to talk about it) but I took out all my emotions on my saxophone (now it's still laying in pieces on the music room floor) (just kidding... :p) I just blew really hard (shutup :p)... I seriously don't think I've ever played so loudly in my life. (Rebecca L. who had to sit beside me could definetly vouch for that one. :p) However... it was a nice release... aside from the fact I felt like I was almost about to pass out at one point due to lack of oxygen... got really rather hyper... went outside on some free time... to play Aerobie... though Andy threw it into the tree... and instead of moving on to 'game time'... we spent 1 hour and 15 minutes throwing things into the tree to try to get it out... while we succeeded in getting several other things stuck in the tree... my aerobie did not come out... my neck is so bloody sore now from spending an 1&1/4 looking up into the tree... it was pretty damn entertaining though...
The cabaret was kinda cool... loved the S-Club skit... that was fucking hilarious... Ewan made quite the dancer. And Scott was really funny too... especially dressed as a woman. :p Then there was Liz and her 'Booty call'... I must say I do love that song. (Baby Got Back).
Oh well... that was my evening... then I went outside... made an ass out of myself... went back inside... got my stuff and sat out on the front steps in the cold waiting for my Dad. Yeah...
Friday, April 19, 2002 11:27 p.m.
Well. It's been one crazy day. Ambivalent feelings all around exploded and I let loose... which was - in a way - quite a good thing. I've been spending a lot of time alone lately... well... not really any more than normal... but I've just been thinking a lot more about what is inside of me... and just thinking about everything going on in my life. And I've become much more in touch with what is really important... and letting go of things I've been dwelling on that really don't matter at all. I'd like to think of this as major growth as a person... I'm happier... and more at ease. I'm TRULY getting better. :)
(I know... some of you who saw me crying today would beg to differ... but every experience is a chance to grow... and you know what they say... "no pain, no gain" :p And sometimes, to take a step forward... you first need to take one back... but that only makes you stronger.
I'm feeling so much better about myself (even though I have my moments of weakness... like everyone else) - I've "found myself" and I'm breaking out of my shell... slowly but surely.
Thank you Rebecca (Hoke) for being there for me today when I didn't want to be alone and thank you Mr. Gilson for giving me a hug, even though you were hot & sweaty. :p Lastly, thank you Nathan for that conversation on the phone - I really needed that, just talking things out can do so much... and you made me feel a lot better. :) Thank you.
Thursday, April 18, 2002 08:20 p.m.
As I search on imood for a word describing what I'm feeling right now... I have absolutely no idea... things are so confused... I sat by myself outside for a while during Writer's Craft & thought... and wrote and released a little. I've been very pensive lately... if only you would see....
Thursday, April 18, 2002 10:33 a.m.
Well. Today was today. Hmm... made it to band on time... class was boring... spare was interesting... went uptown & got my long-lost ring fixed... played Aerobie with Kerry on last period spare... Tim eventually joined us... then we went to Nathan's... watched a little wrestling... then I left... I went back after school though watched a little more wrestling... was even involved in a little wrestling & hung out until almost 6:30 I think... walked to Dad's office... decided not to go to band as was not feeling like it in any way, shape, or form... I walked to Tim Horton's to get my Dad & I something to eat... had a rather flattering experience there...hmmm.... Went back to Dad's office... slept in his comfy recliner. :) Came home... here I am... and that was my day. This is where you pretend to care.... :p Later.
Wednesday, April 17, 2002 11:07 p.m.
I apologize to a certain person I was talking to online earlier this evening... I was frustrated... and I should have explained... sorry I was kinda bitchy. Please forgive me. :(
Tuesday, April 16, 2002 10:41 p.m.
Well. Today was interesting. In bad mood for the most part... on spare this morning I played aerobie with Erin, Scott, & Devin (I don't know if I spelt his name right but don't really care.) Was nice to get some sun.
For lunch, me, Laurel, Erin, Caitlin, Rebecca L., Jordan & Brad went to Pizza Pizza.
Took notes all period in Health... then went to Family & Co. on spare to pay Janis (Sidwell) the money I owed her (for drugs) (actually Girl Guide Cookies :p)
After school went to Scoopers with Caitlin, Dave, Andy & Brad... then I walked to my Dad's office... so I got lots of sun today. :) (I can actually see a tan line... everyone will tell me they can't see it... but I know it's there. :p)
Yeah... the car broke down AGAIN! Finally got home at like 6:45... this man stopped and drove us home in his pick up truck... THEN... as we're getting out of the car & my Mom's there to greet us (with the truck door still open) my Dad says "We wouldn't have been so late, but Kristin went to La Senza to buy some underwear... 5 pairs for 25 dollars." RIGHT INFRONT OF THIS MAN! Just a little embarassing... oh well...
Tuesday, April 16, 2002 07:11 p.m.
Yeeahhh! I finally beat the expert level of Minesweeper again! :p (I think I've only beat it once before.)
Well, today was okay. My 2 classes were rather uneventful... 1st spare was painfully boring, 2nd spare went to Nathan's... After school helped Laurel pick up garbage for environment club (ie-held the bag & told her when she missed spots :p) living up to our title 'The Environmental Crusaders'... then threw the my aerobie back & forth in the music hall with Reuben... went to Salvation army with Nathan, Ewan, and Mike. I am really liking this nice warm sunny weather... maybe now I'll get something resembling a tan... Went home... almost had to walk to gas station... we ran out of gas & my Dad added fuel injector cleaner to the tank & that was enough to get us back to Stratford to a gas station. *shakes head in disbelief*... yeah... now I'm at home... alone... eating lots of food and moping around the house. Woo-hoo. Meh.
Later...
Monday, April 15, 2002 07:08 p.m.
Hey there... haven't updated in a while. Well here it goes...
I've decided my new anthem is 'The Middle' by Jimmy Eat World. I liiiike that song. :)
Worked 11-4 yesterday, went on an unsuccessful shoe shopping trip - then came home & called ma girl & chit-chatted with her & her little brother for a while... and didn't do much else for the rest of the evening.
The dance on Friday was okay, was very glad Dulcie played Come On Eileen. The evening wasn't all bad... I had my moments of weakness, (I've just been under so much stress lately) but ended up feeling okay about the evening. I did get to dance with Nathan and Phil - what more could a girl ask for??? :p (Maybe a dance with Davey B. - but not all of us can be so lucky.) :p
Sunday, April 14, 2002 01:08 p.m.
Just got back from SCB... was okay... I have a big solo in "Salute to American Jazz"... yippee for me.
Well, finally got the debate over with today. I think it went fairly well. Thank you Nathan for doing so much work. :) I hung out with Steph & Martina on spare which was cool.
Had amusing time with Laurel after school as she read her sex education notes aloud for Mr. Booker & I to hear. (Mr. Booker's a cool guy by the way.)
I decided to walk to my Dad's office instead of wait around. (I stopped by the bank on my way, so Brad will be glad to know I have the I owe him.) It was great - the weather was sooo awesome!! I love the sunshine... and hopefully it will love me back & give me a nice tan. :p
Wednesday, April 10, 2002 11:13 p.m.
MAN! I am so happy with how much debate work I've got done tonight!! It's 10:20, and I still haven't fallen asleep yet! WOOO!! I am actually accomplishing something, this is a major deal for me. Yeahhh!!! It is getting easier! I feel relieved! I can do this!! :)
Tuesday, April 9, 2002 10:23 p.m.
Haven't made an entry in a while. This weekend was okay. Had whole weekend off work... had SCB Concert on Sunday which went well, then went to Nathan's... watched October Sky & studied for health test. Got home at 11:30 and zonked out on the couch with out getting any homework done. (Surprise surprise. :p)
Today... so extremely stressed out... everything is all happening at the same time... it's awful. I don't need stupid twisted people screwing with me either. Does not help at all. Am not very happy with that. Laurel, I love you, I can always count on you for the truth (even if it hurts:p), you help ground me & make me feel better.
By the end of the day, I think I just had too much... all the stress got to me. Overload. Good to go home and relax a little. Feeling somewhat better.
Monday, April 8, 2002 08:46 p.m.
Well... I slept from 7:00-11:30.
I have so much to say, but no one to listen to me.
So I won't say anything at all.
Saturday, April 6, 2002 12:32 a.m.
Well, I got accepted into Mohawk. Yeah me! I don't think I'm going to go though. But it's nice to know I got in.
Today kinda sucked. I got one big stress out of the way... the Gatsby novel. That's good at least. Band was good too though. Had very interesting spare with Caitlin, Scott & Dave... nice conversation... Dave has one track mind & is quite nosey. Sitting through that for that long started to warp my mind and get me thinking all these 'dirty' thoughts too. Awful. Awful. Awful. :p
You know, I sometimes get this weird energy out of being angry or frustrated... gets me all fired up... I should probably channel it into something productive. Maybe clean my room.
Friday, April 5, 2002 05:02 p.m.
Hmmm... I'm pretty stressed out. I'm not handling it overly well 'cause all I can do is sleep (which I just did for 2 hours) and sleeping doesn't get the work done.
Things got pretty stressy at school today. School is getting on my nerves.
Hung out with Erin & people on spare today. I feel very badly for Erin. :( If you ever need someone - I'll be here for ya. :)
Helped Miss McManus with sign things for 30 Hour Famine.
Choir Camp was pretty good. I really enjoyed singing. I was having fun... and felt a lot more confident about it than usual. It was cool.
Friday, April 5, 2002 12:30 a.m.
Well. School today was kinda sucky. Things just sucked in general. I started feeling better eventually after school though. Hugs are very nice. :)
Anyways... now I must talk about Laurel because I apparently need to make this pita into more of a shrine of her. So I will say the following: Musical Theoretical Exercises, This Calls For Another Bud Light, *pushes up glasses*, *hunches over - closes eyes - and snaps fingers*, ENVIRONMENTAL CRUSADERS!, "H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A" :p, "You can do it put your ASS in to it..." :p he he he.
Laurel, You are incredibly intelligent and talented, very crafty, quite witty, very well mannered, and you one sexy bi-atch! :p (There... was that good enough?? :p)
Wednesday, April 3, 2002 10:51 p.m.
Well... was feeling slightly lousy today... but who was it that sweet talked Mr. Cassone into not making Nathan & I do our debate today? Oh yeah... that's me... but actually... I think we may not of had to do it anyways... :p
Yeah... and I LOVE YOU LAUREL GRIEVE! I hope you are feeling better. And sorry for interupting your trumpet sectional today... just had to have some crucial convo. with my girl. :p It's great that no one shows up for your sectionals... damn trumpets... you should smack them around a little. Heh heh heh. HORRAY FOR THE ENVIRONMENTAL CRUSADERS!! :p
Went to Zuby's after school with Nathan. He made me laugh so I'm feeling better now. :) I don't think my wrap was cooked enough. (Probably would have been better if Erin had made it. :p) Icky. Oh well. The water was good. :p
Ta ta for now.
Tuesday, April 2, 2002 06:48 p.m.
Why is it that as a child, April Fool's Day was always a happy day full of jokes that made you feel so clever, and now it's something completely different?
It was two years ago today that I got dooped big time... I suppose the cruelest of all April Fool's Day jokes... It's occasions such as those that make me question if my whole life is just one big joke and wonder if everything I know and believe to be true is false.
I hate April Fool's Day. It's just a yearly kick in the ass that makes me feel like the biggest fool of all.
Monday, April 1, 2002 11:04 p.m.
Hey there all... well I have two things...
First off... something rather upsetting... the suicide bombings going on over in the West Banks. There's been 2 today. Seeing it on t.v. sends chills down my spine. It really bothers me. My Aunt Yedida's from Isreal, and she's been really depressed lately seeing all this shit going on on t.v. - I can't even imagine what it would feel like to have family so far away in a country that's going to complete destruction and to feel so helpless because there's nothing you can do. Sigh.....
Second... My Mom just came back from church... apparently Scott & Julie & the Wilhelms and people were at my church (yup... good old Christ Anglican in Milverton) today singing. Now I wish I had gone. :( Oh well.
Happy Easter everyone.
Sunday, March 31, 2002 12:32 p.m.
YEAH! It's Saturday night!!!! WEEKEND!! I'm staying home and cleaning!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Party down! I've even got the bandana tying my hair back and everything... oh yeah, I'm all set for another great night of exciting, fun-filled cleaning at home like every other teenager on the planet. YEAH!
Good Lord! My sister's playing freaking Arkansas Traveller (a.k.a. the damn Baby Bumble Bee song) on her trumpet just to piss me off. GRR!
Yeah, so I just got home from Nathan's... working on the debate again... and stayed for supper. (Thanks again.) And I now have a new song ('I'm Just A Kid - Simple Plan') that I have proclaimed as my theme song... thank you Nathan R. Rolleman for playing it... it's the story of my fucking life. :p Sad but true. Oh well... I'm off now to shake my groove thang as I go clean my room or something. Later...
Saturday, March 30, 2002 07:42 p.m.
When I got up this morning my Mom told me some really good news. My Papa's going to Scotland in May! (This probably doesn't seem like a big deal to anyone but me... but my Papa was born in Scotland, and he's wanted to go back forever but when my Nana was alive, she would never agree to go on an airplane, so he never went.
When I went to Scotland a couple years ago, it was so special to him, he told me all about where he lived, showed me pictures and told me stories, and I called him from Scotland too. [We both cried on the phone. :p] And when I got home, I shared all my pictures with him, and ever since I've felt like I have this special connection with him.
He was supposed to go to Scotland about a year ago, but decided not to because he wasn't healthy enough. [Which was really quite sad.] My cousin Ian [who's a cop] and two of his 'policemen friends' are taking him... and as my Mom said, they're strong enough to people able to help him around if he gets weak.
I'm so happy for him! :)
Friday, March 29, 2002 12:34 p.m.
I am at Dave's house. I am kinda sleepy and I have a headache... although I am feeling much better than I was earlier today. Mmmhmm. :) Tomorrow will be a good day.
I am bored. Falstaff's was okay. Kate was our waitress... she forgot to bring me my Coke. (as I shake my head in disgust) Oh I got it eventually. Hmmm... well I will go now... my Dad may be here soon. :) Then I will go home.
Friday, March 29, 2002 12:12 a.m.
Well hellooooo there. I would like to apologize for slapping Mike Gilson today. (Even though he was being annoying and teasing me. GRRR.) I'm sure he doesn't read my pita... so he won't read this.. but oh well. I apparently am the violent one too... becuase I slapped him ONCE! But heeeeee had me in a headlock yesterday and then proceeded to pick me up and not put me back down and chase after me trying to get me to squeeze him (shudder). I probably should not have resorted to violence. :p But I didn't think before I acted... ahh well. He kinda deserved it. :p
Band this morning was funnnnn. I love playing Gospel John... it is sooooooooooooooo sweet!
The EWCOA exam this morning went pretty well I think.
Spare was interesting this morning... I was really giddy (just ask Jordan & Ewan). I brought out my bubbles in the seminar room & swayed Jordan to to agree with me about the simplicity of blowing bubbles being so wonderful. :) Or as he puts it 'tranquil'.
Health was kinda boring... I didn't feel like listening to the debates. I hope my little red plastic dancing monkey
made Kerri happy. Anyways... that's all for now.
Wednesday, March 27, 2002 02:24 p.m.
I am so giiii-ddy, I want to paaaar-ty. :p
Tuesday, March 26, 2002 07:32 p.m.
Grr about after school! Mike Gilson, you're going down! :p And I hope I don't have nightmares of you putting me in a headlock or chasing me around telling me to 'Give Uncle Mikey a squeeze' (Shudder at the thought.) I may have to call in a shrink...
Tuesday, March 26, 2002 06:38 p.m.
Well. Here I am. Fell asleep in the comfy chair for a few hours later this evening... and now I'm up... I wanted to check my e-mail to get confirmation from Erin that we do have Kerry's I.S. group practice tomorrow morning. And we do... so no sleep in day for me... Oh well... who needs sleep? Oh... me.... right. :p
Had nice evening. Had house to self... watched a little t.v... did a little studying for dreaded music test tomorrow... talked on phone with Nathan... (h-hem Mike's a m-whoore :p) and won on bingo card that my dad bought me. Yeeeah! :p
Now I think I go to sleep. Until tomorrow...
Tuesday, March 26, 2002 01:34 a.m.
Went to Features for breakfast this morning for the first time ever... I was rather excited about that. Yummy bacon & eggs. :) Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. :)
Choir this morning was good... looking forward to the assembly on Monday... not as much because the choir gets to perform... mainly 'cause Jazz Band is... wonder if we'll play In the Mood... hmm... not likely. :p I would like some chance to have the band one to a part for once... like it's supposed to be... that would be soo nice. Not that I don't like playing with Dulcie & Kelly... it's just what I've been waiting for ever since gr. 10... It's cool to be able to hold your part all on your own. Oh well.
That's all for now.
Thursday, March 21, 2002 02:22 p.m.
Well... hello there. I'm rather sleepy 'cause I was up until almost 5:00 am... for pretty much no reason at all. Oh well. Went to Stratford today... had doctor's appointment. All is quite good. Did a little shopping. And came home... (and the day's not even over yet).
I just got an e-mail from Nathan (straight from "sunny Saint Maartin") and he says hey to everyone. :)
The thing that ticks me off is that we've been home for over an hour now... and if Alison would have let me on when we got home... I could have talked to him 'cause Dave said he was talking to him an hour ago! :( Oh well... can't win 'em all.
Friday, March 15, 2002 01:46 p.m.
Wellll. Mom took my sister & I shopping in Hamilton today (Thurs.) at Limeridge. Very successful shopping trip. :)
We drove by my Nana & Papa's old house which was sort of sad. :( My Papa just moved out in the fall to go live with my aunt & I miss my Nana a whole lot. :(
For dinner we went to my sister, Jackie & her boyfriend, Sam's apartment in Dundas & hung out there for a while. Then... made our way home where I fell asleep in the chair for like 3 hours... which is why I'm on here so late.
Anyways... that's all for now. Until tomorrow.
Friday, March 15, 2002 01:25 a.m.
Yaaaaaawn. :p Well, this morning Mom, Alison & I went for a 30 min. walk down the sideroad which was quite nice. It was sunny and fairly warm out.
Went to Fellini's AGAIN. John & Kelly took all us Family & Co. employees out. I had Grilled Chicken Caesar... which was pretty good. Had a good time. John & Kelly are pretty cool people, I like them a lot.
Wednesday, March 13, 2002 11:05 p.m.
Bummed around house again today... Elly called me this morning. Did a little cleaning. Dad drove me into Stratford. Went to Fellini's with Dulcie & Elly. I had tortellini in alfredo sauce which was okay. Then we went and played 2 games of bowling. Saw Scott there... since he was working. I got 2 strikes and a spare. Yeah me! :p Was a fun night.
Tuesday, March 12, 2002 10:27 p.m.
Worked from 11:00 until 4:00 today. I found out that I have all this week off and don't work again until next Saturday... which is sweet. Nathan met me at work and we browsed around downtown and then I went back to his place for dinner. Was a nice evening. Lucky guy... going to St. Maarten. Then I came home and watched Trading Spaces. :p Then... I fell asleep. And came on the computer... which I kinda wish I hadn't done. But I'm going to try not to let what happened to me so late in my day ruin the good day I had. Screw it.
Sunday, March 10, 2002 01:24 a.m.
Today was good. Gilbert cancelled band for this morning so I got to sleep in. Enjoyed Mr. Mavor giving us donuts again in Writer's Craft. Helped Erin with her pita 2nd period... Had a very nice Health class... Nathan and I started working on our debate, but it was hard to get much work done today with March Break so close and all. Hung out with Phil on spare... went for a walk by myself uptown after school... was nice. I went without a coat. I love warm weather! :) March Break should be pretty good... even though I'm not going away. I don't think this break could've come at a better time.
Friday, March 8, 2002 05:50 p.m.
I've realized... that I kind of got some things in my life a little off-track... and am in the process of getting them back on-track. All will be good.
I find it amusing that people think I'm dumb enough not to be able to figure out when they're talking about me. Ohh... I'm smarter than most people think. As I've said before... there's more to me than people think... but you wouldn't know that would you... because you don't take time to see. Oh well. Too bad for you.
Thursday, March 7, 2002 07:57 p.m.
Well, I'm back from Endless Noodle. Had a GREAT night. I am quite pleased with the performance tonight. :) I had a lot of fun playing... I was really kicking out the sound tonight... it was amazing... the sound just came out so clearly - it was just open and ahhhh I love that feeling. (It's kinda hard to explain I guess.) But I love being able to just let the sound pour out and just let go. It was great! We played Harlem Noctune second half & it was the highlight of my evening. Mmmm. :) It's so much fun to play... all slow and laid back and sultry if you will :p (I need to work on the sultry part a little - but that's what it's supposed to sound like.) It's just so much fun to play... and I think I played it tonight the best I ever have EVER! I just started playing and I couldn't believe how much sound I was getting out... it just had so much energy and volume and openness. I felt powerful. And Mr. Gilbert even commented on it after... and said 'Great playing tonight.' Which made me feel pretty good 'cause I don't remember him ever complimenting me personally like that before. Tonight was great. I smiled all the way home. :p Anyways... that's my story. :p
Monday, March 4, 2002 08:57 p.m.
I am pretty satisfied with my weekend... went out Friday - wasn't too bad... Saturday was very nice... wedding and all... Today: sat around house all day... went to Nathan's tonight. Missed Degrassi... yet all was not lost... ended up having nice evening. Feel much better. I have been feeling a lot better lately and am quite happy with my progress... Beginning fresh new outlook... I'm back and better than ever. :p Anyways... am very sleepy... going to bed now. Until we meet again...
Sunday, March 3, 2002 11:26 p.m.
Well... I orginally thought that I'd only stay at the reception tonight until like 10:30... the dinner before hand was kinda slow... and boring... but when we got to get up and start mingling it was better. I hung out with Martina & Christine & Mary for the rest of the night. Got a few pictures of Mary & Jamie... some with me and Tina and Christine and Mary... did a lot of dancing... Tina bought me a drink... and I was having a good time and ended up staying until 12:00... so it's been a pretty good day.
Sunday, March 3, 2002 12:51 a.m.
Just got back from Mary's wedding not too long ago... it was very nice. She looked beautiful... she was crying the whole time almost... :p I hardly knew anyone there... so the dinner tonight should be interesting... It was a nice wedding. Mary's son is sooo cute!! He was the ring bearer... one of the flower girls pulled him in on a wagon (He's only 1 year old.) Yeah... so have to go to supper and reception tonight in Wellesley. I'll probably be back on later tonight.
Saturday, March 2, 2002 03:34 p.m.
Well. Today was certainly interesting. Mmmhmm. Taking advice from people isn't always the best thing... so many people tell you different things... should listen to self... though people do have some good suggestions... but basing what you do on other people's opinions isn't necessarily a good thing... a little advice is good... but not too much. It can get very frustrating. No one has as much insight into your own situation as you do. Therefore you must be the masta. :p Yeah... I felt much better later on after I went ahead and did what I had to do. A lot of relief. Was able to have a good night. Crabby Joe's wasn't bad... enjoyed drawing on paper table cloth... Caesar Salad was not too great... went shopping... tried on pants... looked at all the CDs I want... dreaming about having them all... then went to Chapters for the 1st time ever... cool store... could spend hours there. Anyways... going to go get orange juice and look for CD with B.B. King on it so I can listen to that coooooooool song. Ta ta.
Friday, March 1, 2002 11:47 p.m.
Well well well... here we are again. I've had quite the day. First off... made an ass of myself and made everything seem like a big deal because I wasn't being articulate in any sense. Of course... as soon as I no longer have the opportunity to talk - I think of the perfect way to explain how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking. Ain't that always the way?? Then... found out that some people are aware of things that I didn't know they were aware of... and felt pretty embarassed that my stupidity is now public knowledge. Grrreat. Why find out from the 1st party when you can find out from the 3rd? Just feel stupid that I did not take the hint sooner. Anyways... got very nice iron candle holder & candles for Mary at Walsh Mountain Iron Works after school... quite a classy looking wedding present if you ask me. That's all for now...
Thursday, February 28, 2002 06:08 p.m.
Well. I meant to come on last night to make an entry... but I fell asleep. Surprise surprise. Well anyway... I had a very good day and am quite happy about my weekend overall. Yes. Pizza making yesterday was okay. Went home... finished Bridget Jones's Diary. Yesterday was such a beautiful day... nice and sunny. A lovely day for a walk. Had a fun night too... went to Nathan's... watched Degrassi... saw his and Phil's comic which is pretty darn cool and also did end up going for a walk (at night - so it wasn't sunny... but still quite nice). Learned a few wrestling moves which was interesting as well. :p Today's been okay so far. Jazz Band was cool. Looking forward to Endless Noodle on March 4th. Mmhmm. Hope the rest of today is good too.
I've been feeling a lot better lately. Quite good, and I'm very happy about that... anyway... until we meet again...
Monday, February 25, 2002 01:38 p.m.
Well... tonight was cool. I fell asleep curled up under a blanket in a chair at Brad's for like 20 minutes while Kerri had on her Shera video... (Damn people took a picture of me.) Bowling was a lot of fun. I didn't get last either game... so that's a plus. Want to go again soon. I'm scared to go to sleep because I'm afraid I won't be able to talk in the morning -- My throat is rather sore. Oh well... we'll see. Nighty night.
Saturday, February 23, 2002 01:54 a.m.
I feel like a fool. A complete and utter moron. I feel naive, and blind, embarassed and humiliated. I've tried. Why do I bother? I always end up looking like a desperate, pathetic moron. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I am better than this. Why do I always give in?? Because I'm a nice, caring person. Maybe this isn't my fault. But it feels like it. I'm the one that falls into the same rut everytime. WHY!? I am not the fuckwit. (he he Bridget Jones) Screw this. The ball is no longer in my court. Must wait for it to come back.
Friday, February 22, 2002 06:48 p.m.
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