Wow, I've been referred to as fresh meat, and the 6 key on my keyboard is sticking. The day just can't get any worse. ::rolls eyes::
I'm going on hiatus for a while. The entire world is pissing me off to the point of no return. I'll admit that it's partially because *I've* been especially pissy and having a lot of trouble lately. But I only have so much vacation, and I don't want to waste it on this.
Fresh meat. Jesus. What a great insult.
No blogging, no fanfics, until I get back to school. That's January 18th, I think. Maybe not longer. I'll still try to update the original fiction on the site weekly, like I usually do, so you can just check the updates page on it to know whether or not I've done anything.
....I just can't get over this. What kind of an insult is "fresh meat"? It makes me feel like I'm being dragged to the slaughterhouse. Though I suppose that was probably the point. If there really was a point to the insult at all.
Wow, I really don't like people today.
Well, taking my fresh meat-ness away for a while. See you on the flip side.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 02:25 a.m.//
//Monday, December 30//
I'm sorry if I insulted you, honestly. It wasn't directed at you; it wasn't really directed at anyone. I really don't even know you, though I've heard that you're nice and worth knowing. No offense or anything, we've just never crossed paths. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. This is just something that's been bothering me for a long time. Look at it this way -- when someone complains about Big Four fanfiction, it probably bothers me just as much as it bothers you that the rest of the characters are ignored. Difference of opinion, that's all.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 10:40 p.m.//
//Saturday, December 28//
Okay. I have got to get this out of my system before I go nuts. I'm typing this in Word Pad, still haven't decided whether or not I'm actually going to post it or not. But if I do, here's my disclaimer -- this is not directed at anyone specifically. In fact, if it's really directed at anyone, I doubt they'll ever read it. But mostly it's just a general rant, not even really inspired by recent events. Actually, this one's been brewing for a long time. I'm well aware that this is going to piss a lot of people off, and at this point I'm really beyond caring. This is the rant, and after that it's done. I'm not going to respond to any replies I get.
So I've heard complaints recently (this is the part that was inspired by recent events) about how all the fics on CLAMPesque are just about the Big Four and we ignore the minor characters and well don't we just suck. But see, I'm having a problem here, which is probably the word "minor" in that sentence. Yep, they're minor. Even the people arguing agree with it. I've been asking around for a few days, and I have yet to find anyone who has answered "yes" to the question "Do you want to read a fic about Kusanagi?"
There's a reason why a large majority of the X fanfics out there are about the big four. It's because, to be judgmental and a bitch, Kamui and Fuuma are the main characters, and Subaru and Seishirou are the interesting ones. So very few people write about the other characters? Yeah, but if you're going to complain about that in fanfiction, I sure hope you're writing a bitchy letter to CLAMP about it too, because come to think of it, when was the last time Kusanagi even *appeared*, let alone did anything useful?
So all Yuzuriha ever does in fanfics is bounce and be genki and occasionally whip out her inugami sword and sometimes die a horrible death. ::flips through X manga:: Yep, that looks like accurate characterization to me. It's all she ever does in the manga, too, and I'm willing to bet she *is* going to die a horrible death. Gee, all Kakyou ever does in the fics is lie around and mope and angst beautifully and occasionally say dire things about the future? ::glances at X:: Well, that's all he ever does in the manga, too.
I've heard a lot of people complain about the way Sorata and Arashi are treated. All I have to say on that matter is this: When you explain to me, *logically*, why the hell Sorata is in love with her, I'll write a fic about them. Because "she's hot" is not a reason, and if you ask me, it's one of the most poorly done romances I've seen in anime.
I could keep going with this, but I'll stop there. X suffers from a common complaint called "Too Many Character Syndrome". Fushigi Yuugi suffered from it as well. They both have 16 main characters to deal with, and as a writer, I can categorically say that it's too many to flesh out and deal with properly. I don't really blame CLAMP for this, no more than I blamed Watase Yuu -- they're both dealing with myths of a sort, and needed that number of characters.
I also won't pretend that I've never suffered from it myself. Hell, Genesis X has the problem, and in a few places, so does Touch the Sky. Separate Selves was practically overflowing with characters that I didn't have time to develop. It's a common problem, it really is. But I have a problem when people blame the fanfic writers about it, instead of the actual authors. Hell, I have yet to figure out why Kusanagi is even *in* X. There just isn't time to give everyone the screentime they really deserve. Atropos got a lot of complaints about this. And you know what? All you people who complained about it, you're right. We focused on the big four, plus Kakyou, Keiichi, and the Yami characters we brought in. But Christ! The fic was already over 500 pages long! If we had bothered to spend that much time on everyone, we never would have *finished* the fucking thing!
So in general, yes, I ignore the minor characters. And that's mostly because I'd rather read a story about four or five really well-done and fleshed out characters, than a story about sixteen characters who are tossed about without any real personality, whose actions are often ambiguous and unexplained.
And I'm back to my old standby. If you don't like it, don't read it. We don't ask you people to go to CLAMPesque. We don't ask you to read our fics about the big four. If you want to fic about Kusanagi, look elsewhere -- or hell, write one yourself! I got annoyed that there was barely any fanfiction about the twins from FY -- so I wrote my own. Three fics. Just to make myself feel better about the fact that they were, for all intents and purposes, ignored.
I just don't get this fandom. You don't see people in the Yami fandom complaining because most of the fics center around Tsuzuki and Hisoka. Why? Because they're the main characters. People in the CCS fandom don't complain that there isn't enough Yamizaki fanfiction. I really don't understand why everyone wants to bash CLAMPesque just because of the genre of fanfiction that's posted there. If that's not what you want to read, don't go to the fucking board, and don't complain that you can't find enough Hinoto fanfiction, because Hinoto is a creepy bint that no one likes.
That was long. But I think I'm done. I sure hope I'm done. And I just don't care how many enemies I'm making by saying this. Because it doesn't fucking matter. It's not like anyone will remember this five years from now. I've made some good friends online, some great friends. And quite frankly, the opinion of this fandom means fucking beans to me.
Thank you and good night.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:59 p.m.//
//Saturday, December 28//
Why can everyone see my domain except for me? That's... bloody irritating, actually. I feel a sulk coming on. I also can't go downstairs because my brother's friends are over and I'm still in my pajamas.
I also feel an enormous rant coming on. Which I will try very much to avoid actually posting.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 12:09 p.m.//
//Saturday, December 28//
As promised, stuff posted. When You Were Mine 12 is up on Questionable Reality, and Mating Habits... 4 is up on FFNet. I shouldn't write that fic when I'm pissy, really.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 01:10 a.m.//
//Saturday, December 28//
Had a good Christmas... saw Harry Potter CoS again... had a pretty good day. Have written lots. Will probably post later tonight. Will probably not do a site update this weekend because I'm trying to get some stuff together. Like all the broken links.
Gee, people have called CLAMPesque the worst thing to ever happen to the X fandom? That's amazing, considering that I had no idea it was popular enough to have really affected the fandom that much. Guess we'd better bag the whole site, then. ::rolls eyes::
...I'm in a bit of a crappy mood. Given that it's the holidays, I'm feeling incredibly misanthropic.
However, this fic that you recommended is well on the way to cheering me up. Mm, smut.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 09:55 p.m.//
//Friday, December 27//
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night. ^_^
12 inches of snow here. Yech.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 10:17 p.m.//
//Wednesday, December 25//
And after much arguing with my ISP, I present the last fic site update of 2002. Which has less stuff than usual. But includes Shadows and Windows. So voila! And now I'm going to go... I don't know, do something strange. Like maybe throw Lucian and Isaac into a small room and see what happens.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:54 p.m.//
//Monday, December 23//
I should be in bed, but wow did I ever get some real doozies of referrers.
"arwen pendant": This wouldn't be so weird, except I got it about five times. Strange. Someone is searching really hard for that pendant.
"fanservice wallpaper": Hm... if you'd be a little more specific, maybe I'd be able to help you.
"two towers gay legolas aragorn eowyn": ....so would that be a threesome or what? Because it's not necessarily gay as long as she's in the middle. In fact, why involve her at all? Mm... Aragorn/Legolas...
"cowboy bebop beach bubble wallpaper": ....what?
and my personal favorite, "magical manatees stained glass": I have no idea what this person was looking for, but damn does this crack me up.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 01:54 a.m.//
//Monday, December 23//
Wow, I haven't blogged in... a while. Because I've been very busy. Christmasy stuff. And I have just about jack to show for it, but I got some presents yesterday. And my parents got me the Harry Potter movie. ((Please don't ask why I got all my presents already. It's a bit of a long story.))
Also, Valley 2 is up on CLAMPesque and FFNet. The whole damn fic is pissing me off right royally, but... oh well.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 10:13 p.m.//
//Sunday, December 22//
And also, if anyone was hoping to see me on AIM tonight, sorry. I'm wiped and going to bed before I collapse.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 11:58 p.m.//
//Thursday, December 19//
Forgot Faramir! What the hell is in the genetic code in Gondor that makes all the men act like massive dorks? Jesus Christ. Ah well, at least he came around in the end. And so did Boromir, I suppose. But Faramir was cuter, and that makes everything all right.
....::trying to remember the books:: Does he get together with Eowyn in the end? My brain is trying to think so, but I could be making it up.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:25 p.m.//
//Thursday, December 19//
So... I have seen LotR: The Two Towers. And just to torment all you poor people out there who haven't seen it yet, I will now write a long entry on how ABSOLUTELY FUCKING KICKASS IT WAS. ^___^
Beware the evil spoiler beast.
To start off with, you can tell I really wanted to see it 'cause I got up at ten a.m. to drive to frickin' Lowell, where they have stadium seats, for an 11h30 showing so I could see it with neechan before she went to work. And... the 11h30 was cancelled, so we went to a noon somewhere else. Which hacked me off. But... mm... acrobatic elf. ^^
I cannot count how many times the thought "Legolas, you are so damned cool" crossed my mind. Probably for a rough estimate, you can count the number of times he appeared onscreen. That'll be close.
Alas, Gimli is comic relief. But I never liked Gimli, so I don't care. ^^ ((I care a lot more that they're doing it to Ron in Harry Potter, personally.)) And he and Legolas arguing is great. "Nineteen!" XD
Aragorn, you are a tough cookie. And since you thought Arwen was on that boat, I don't blame you for flirting with Eowyn a little. She's cute. And cool, and has a sword. Want to see more of her, but presumably we will in the next movie.
Gandalf... damn, you're cool. That is all.
Merry and Pippin were great, especially with the Ents. The Ents were equally cool. The scene with them fighting at Isengard had me squeeing with joy. Especially with the aghast look on Saruman's face. Take that, Saruman! XD But seriously, I think Pippin's way of getting the Ents involved may make up for his stupidity in the first movie. All is forgiven. ::snuggles the hobbitlings::
Gollum... freaked me out. Massively. His conversations with himself just alarmed the hell out of me.
I wanted to smack Sam around a few times, but I can't say in his shoes that I would be acting any different. And he *is* adorable around Frodo. Upon checking the books, they really *do* act like a couple. But maybe that's just my sad, sick little mind. Probably.
Frodo was... Frodo. I never even liked him in the books that much. Though him going all freaky and saying "They're here" in that weird voice was damn cool.
Eomer, I don't remember you being that cool in the book. Actually, I don't remember you at all, so go you for making an impression. Theoden, I don't remember you either, but you're a dork.
Everyone's all annoyed with Elrond for what he said to Arwen, but ::shrug:: he was only trying to do what he thought was best for her. Chalk it up to a father's concern.
Damn, those Ents were cool. As were the wyvern and the dead people in the marshes. And the BATTLES!! Fucking COOL!!! Especially Legolas and the whole... skating down the staircase thing. Or vaulting up onto a horse. Just... damn, Legolas.
Funniest moment outside the movie was when Legolas was giving Aragorn back Arwen's pendant, and I was looking at Eowyn watching them, and found myself thinking, "I bet she thinks they're gay, and that Legolas is the one who gave him the pendant." XD In all reality though, I really liked that scene. Especially Legolas' greeting, which may have been the best line in the whole movie. "You're late. And you look terrible." Heh.
Can't remember much more to gush over, though I'm sure more stuff will occur to me. Oh, Wormtongue. He needs to die. Yeah.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:15 p.m.//
//Thursday, December 19//
I haven't blogged for... a while! Because I've been busy doing stuff. Writing. And having tea. And Christmas shopping, lots of Christmas shopping. But now I have presents for everyone on my list and I'm all done! ::cheers::
So in celebration, When You Were Mine 11 is up on Questionable Reality. And hopefully sometime soon I'll get a chance to answer my email, because man do I ever suck at that.
In other news, BtVS has me seriously freaked out. Highlight for spoilers.
So, is Giles dead, or what? He said in this episode that the First could masquerade only as someone who has died-- and let's face it, that axe blow that he was about to take to the head looked awfully fatal. I think it's rather telling that they haven't as of yet shown how he survived that.
Of course, does Joss Whedon actually have the balls to kill Giles? Maybe... the First can't interact with anything physical, and as far as I know, Giles didn't. He stepped back when Buffy was about to hug him. He didn't help her escape from the Ubervamp. But then again... I thought we'd seen the First interact with things before. I mean, when it was being Cassie and talking to Willow, didn't it pull out a chair and sit down?
And that brings us to the whole thing with Dawn and her vision of her mother. If that was *not* the First, as would be suggested by the fact that it nearly tore the house apart... well, things're getting strange. But I really hope that Giles isn't dead. Because man, that would suck.
Anyway, I'm off to work on my Yami fic for once, because I haven't touched it in nearly a month and... it needs... touching.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 03:04 p.m.//
//Wednesday, December 18//
Well, as promised, fic site update. Complete with... lots of stuff that I don't feel like listing, but most notably, the first two chapters of me and Karasu's new origific that we were writing instead of working on Windows like we should be. ::nods:: It has crazy telepaths, werewolves, and lots of other... uh... cool stuff. So go read it. Yeah.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:33 p.m.//
//Sunday, December 15//
No one is online. And this makes me a very lonely Kouri. ::sigh::
::lotsa huggles:: I'm sorry I wasn't online last night for you to talk to... I hope you feel better soon.
Today, made Christmas cookies with my sibs and watched old Firefly episodes. Mm, shirtless!Simon. I'm starting to develop a crush on him, methinks. But damn, for a doctor, he is buff. ::snrk:: Also, the best line was definitely the one about "I can't keep track of my sister when she's *not* imcorporeally possessing a spaceship."
And now, since I attempted to type "shapeshift" instead of "spaceship" (Harry Potter on the brain, I think), I'm going to bed. No, really.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 12:49 a.m.//
//Sunday, December 15//
I... did nothing for most of today! And it was quite nice. Watched movies. Well, did laundry. And then wrote for a while with Ka-chan. Should've worked on Windows, but worked on new story instead. But I love the new story, because it has Asher, who is crazy. ::snuggles Asher::
Trying to get a site update for tomorrow, but in all reality it probably won't be up until Sunday. But hey, I'm still updating once a week, which is pretty good. ::nods::
Off to bed.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 12:31 a.m.//
//Saturday, December 14//
So. Here I am, home. Roads sucked. Stupid people driving like the roads sucked even more than they did, sucked. But. I am home! ::cheers:: And starving. My brother has no food.
In celebration, Before I Wake 3 is up on CLAMPesque.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 12:19 a.m.//
//Friday, December 13//
As Tsuzuki would say... SHI-A-WA-SEEEEEE!!!!
XD XD XD
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:02 p.m.//
//Thursday, December 12//
Aced my psych of learning final. Go, me! Now all I have to do is finish this bloody paper, clean my room (which will probably take me longer than all my finals put together), wait for her to finish, and I'm outta here for home.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIMURA-CHAN!!
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 11:31 a.m.//
//Thursday, December 12//
.....winamp? "Peony Pink" with a bondage!Subaru skin makes me want to cry. Also, you can stop playing "Falling is Like This" every half hour now. The fic is over. Honestly.
I'm almost done this horrid essay. And I'm not sure I'll finish it tonight... my brain has died a horrible death, I think. Or at least it's well on its way.
You know what's really funny? When you're really good friends with someone, and you have a falling out, and then you run into them a few months later and they annoy you so much that you have to wonder how you were *ever* friends with them. It's very weird. And you have to wonder, did they change? Did I? Or does their annoyingness just seem more intense since you aren't friends with them anymore? I'm not sure... might be an interesting psych experiment, though. ^_~
Today's quote: "I can't write this paper! I don't know what a superior olive is!"
And yes, if you're wondering, there is something in the brain called the superior olive. And no, I don't know what it is.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 07:04 p.m.//
//Wednesday, December 11//
Meant to have this up days ago, but I kept getting distracted by real life. WYWM 10 is up on Questionable Reality. Lucian is tormented, bits of Alec's backstory are flung around without compunction, and I foreshadow with a Mack truck. Go, me!
....also, this essay makes me wish to die. That is all.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 03:45 p.m.//
//Tuesday, December 10//
To be fair, Kimura-chan, I was never *angry* at Kikite for what happened that day. I thought the whole situation was rather funny, actually.
....which probably doesn't help. -_-;;
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 11:46 a.m.//
//Tuesday, December 10//
Forgot to say this, but I wrote a very short Tsu/Hi fluff ficlet called The Prize. Totally pointless, but cute. Enjoy. ^^
I finished about a third of this essay and my head is killing me, so, bed soon.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 12:46 a.m.//
//Tuesday, December 10//
This essay is making me cry. Summing up everything I learned is hard. Also, I think I'm doing it wrong. She said to make it about 5 pages. I already have three, and I've only gone through the first three chapters of material. There were eleven chapters total. This just can't be good.
Then again, if I just throw everything into the essay, she has to give me an A, right? Right?
::whimpers and crawls away::
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:22 p.m.//
//Monday, December 9//
....no, I'm not avoiding my homework. Why do you ask? Oh, maybe because Before I Wake 2 is up on CLAMPesque... that could do it.
::skitters off::
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 01:38 p.m.//
//Monday, December 9//
which stereotype are you?
...::snrk:: That couldn't be more true if it tried. Except for the "you are nice" bit.
My hotpot leaks. I found this out last night when, while boiling water, I picked it up and a whole bunch spilled out onto my hand. You know, I bet most college kids get through school without ever once boiling their own hands. Now I've done it twice. Not as bad this time as the first time, though.
...so I threw it out. No more tea for me. I'm torn between buying a new one and not. I mean, I'll only need it for one more semester, so I want to say no, but I think I'd go nuts if I had to go a semester without any tea. Maybe I can find a really cheap one.
'Tis reading day. Time to write my essay on eyeballs.
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 12:07 p.m.//
//Monday, December 9//
My, I'm blogging a lot today. Well, since I finished my testing essay, I did a fic site update. Go me!
Chapter one of Before I Wake, in which Seishirou taunts Irishido a whole lot more than can really be considered proper...
Chapters 8 and 9 of WYWM, in which a bunch of stuff happens, including Lucian being really depressed...
Chapter 26 of Stained Glass Windows, in which Nicky insults Ginger... a *lot*...
Chapters 9-12 of Separate Selves, in which I gave up on ever rewriting the ending and decided to just post what there is left before people start throwing things at me...
the third 003 ficlet, and some new fanart. Banzai!
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 05:45 p.m.//
//Sunday, December 8//
A phrase that you really just don't want to use in a final essay is "And I know this means something, but I sure as hell don't know what."
...::sweatdrops::
On a similar note, here's a conversation you never want to have with someone who is singing in the choir with you, twenty minutes before the concert:
Her: Can you smell me?
Me: Smell you?
Her: Yeah.
Me: What should you smell like?
Her: Gin.
.....>_<
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 04:56 p.m.//
//Sunday, December 8//
Beware: long entry coming up. To begin with, new layout! I'm aware that this is basically the same Xmas layout I had last year, but last year I didn't really know how to make layouts. And didn't have a scanner. So it looked crappy. This year's is much better, even if it is the same picture, and I really like this picture. So. Subaru! ::snuggles::
Sorry to everyone I missed on AIM last night. Mark, Karasu, and I went to Boston. My sole purpose was to get Yami manga, but Sasuga was sold out. I was very upset. ::sigh:: So I got CCS12, which is okay because I've had 1 through 11 for months and I've been waiting to get twelve.
I also got Christmas presents for you and you. I had a particular one in mind for Natalie, but I couldn't afford it, which bummed me out. All in all, I spent nearly seventy dollars, which is pretty sad. But I got one of those nifty silk Chinese shirts that I've wanted *forever* and finally found a place that sells them cheap enough so I can afford them.
In addition to those goodies, I got The Big Gay Book, which is all on gay lifestyle and stuff like that, which out to help me with things like WYWM and the redo of Father Figures. It has a whole section on gay writing and publishers and stuff like that! I'll have to read it when I have time.
Of course, time is something I'm particularly short on, especially now that I've lost three hours of today. Have to drive home and back, since neechan's car died and she needs mine. -_- Didn't get enough sleep either.
I was bummed after not getting any Yami, so we came back here and watched the whole series. Damn me, I nearly forgot how glowy and happy that series makes it. I love it to death, honestly. And now I'm in the mood to write Yami fic, but I must refrain! Not even because I want to write something else. Just because I reeeealllly need to do these final essays.
To address people who commented yesterday-- Kimura-chan, the video we watched was on the sexualization of women athletes. Anna Kournikova being a big sex symbol who has yet to win a singles tournament, got a big portion of the show.
Aoi, if you're using pitas, I think I know how to help you. In the Javascript that HaloScan gives you, enter %%pagename%% -- then just put a different number in the pagename field for each entry. That's how I'm doing the comments anyway, and it seems to be working thus far. I'm not sure this is technically how you're *supposed* to make them work, but I'm a big believer in whatever makes it work.
I already commented on CLAMPesque, but I just thought I'd mention here, your new chapter rules. The whole fic does. I'll pimp ya. ^_~ Anyone who hasn't read Flash Before My Eyes, go read it. Now. You don't even have to finish my entry, since I'm just blathering on.
...this is what happens when I don't get enough sleep. Anything else I had to blog will have to wait.
Except that I have a new character now, named Asher, who is like Hisoka only more misanthropic, if you'd believe that. And I wuvs him. ^_^
//Kouri wished you a merry Christmas at 11:25 a.m.//
//Sunday, December 8//
