((closer than i wanted to get)) mind's eye 17.0

this.... is sad.

I'm sitting at work, ten minutes before I get to go home, and I don't. Want. To go home. I *always* want to go home, even if it's not a bad job. But even sitting on my ass here filing and sending faxes is preferable to going home right now.

Alas, I must not abandon Karasu-chan, so I shall merely go home and lock myself into my room.

...kouri last got too close at 04:52 p.m....
...Wednesday, July 17...

So I'm sitting at work, kind of bored, and it occurs to me that I could write... so I decide to write some more of When You Were Mine, only to have an image of my kindly coworker Jim peering over my shoulder and seeing Bren and Ethan having sex in Bren's parents' bathroom.

.......nope, no writing for me.

...kouri last got too close at 02:34 p.m....
...Wednesday, July 17...

And this is a totally random note, but... Shell? How did you get your links to look that cool?

I'm thinking it's time for a new layout. I've had a Yuki/Touya one that I've been meaning to put up for weeks, but the more I think about it, the less I like it. Blarg. Maybe I'll rearrange and put up Watari next.

...kouri last got too close at 01:35 p.m....
...Wednesday, July 17...

There's a woman in here wearing so much perfume it's literally making me be sick. Rhar.

The newest reason I'm annoyed with Cat, as of 9 a.m.! Because I'm sure you all want to hear it.

We're out of Mountain Dew. Which isn't a big deal, but I've been buying all of it, and while she doesn't drink as much as I do, she does drink a fair amount. I asked her a few weeks ago if, the next time we ran out, she could buy a couple twelve packs, and she said sure. It was all well and good.

So last night we realized that we were out and I asked her to pick up some today. She said sure, she's working 10-2 and then 6-9. I figured this gives her ample time between 2 and 6 to get the freaking soda, but she says no, she's going to buy it on the way home from her second job. Which means that I have nothing to drink all bloody day, and I'm so addicted that I get caffeine headaches if I miss my can at lunch. But when I ask if she can get it sometime in the afternoon, so I can at least have a can when I get home from work, she says it's stupid to make a trip out just so I can have soda. But she can't pick it up on the way home from her first job because she won't have seen the grocery ads then.

Let me just clarify here and point out that there is no grocery store, out of the four major chains here, that can't be reached in five minutes or less. So it's not like running out to pick up a 12 pack would take more than ten minutes. But no, I have to wait, or go buy the damn stuff myself.

Arg. Arg, arg, arg, arg, arg. I could go on with things that are annoying me lately, but I would be typing until my lunch break, and I don't really have any desire to do that. And I'm well aware that I'm probably being unreasonable, but yesterday Cat picked a fight over a tomato that she didn't want Karasu to eat, like it was her bloody tomato to begin with, when there's an entire bowl of tomatoes sitting on the counter. So at least I'm not the only unreasonable one.

And by the by, I totally agree with you about the language thing. I'm well aware that most Americans are pushy bastards. I went to France and all I knew was "je ne pas pal Frances" which means "I don't speak French", but at least I didn't expect anyone to speak English. Anyway, I was only 13, and with people who *did* speak French. People are remarkably snobbish about languages, and believe me, I think the American tourists are just as annoying as the Spanish people who refuse to speak English. Rhar.

...kouri last got too close at 11:15 a.m....
...Wednesday, July 17...

well, my hands are shaking...

But that must just be one of the advantages of having a huge argument with someone who was formerly one of your best friends on the way home from the movies, right? I'll just sit here and be glad that I didn't a) blow my speakers or b) actually do 80 mph around that 25mph curve like I was planning on. I lost my nerve at the last minute, or maybe came to my senses. Whichever.

Oh, and while we're on the subject of good news, Atropos 25 is up.

Now I'm going to go be steamingly angry, which probably isn't a good thing because, as usual, I have to be up early. Curse this morning job. And curse Cat while I'm at it.

Tomorrow, I work at 9h30 and she works at 10. She's going to drop me off on the way to her job. Someone *please* persuade me not to take the car at 9h15 and leave her fucking stranded here. It's *my* car, and I'm so mad at her right now I can barely see straight.

...there may be a prolonged blog on this tomorrow, when I have time. But right now I need sleep.

...kouri last got too close at 01:07 a.m....
...Wednesday, July 17...

almost done with work...

Spent some quality time reading Yami no Kenzoku this afternoon. ((Ha! I told you that I'd get to it!)) So now I'm going to tell everyone I know who likes Yami fanfiction to go read it. Now. ::nods::

Kira-kins, I'll give you feedbackses next time I'm online, which probably won't be tonight, but soon. I love Kaiki and want to give him huggles. And you write a splendid Tsuzuki. Far better than mine. Your Muraki is creepy, but hey, that's how it's supposed to be. And I like the murder mansion idea... that's about where I am now. The first real death has just occurred.

And my favorite line, by far, is "Hisoka looked at him as though he had sprouted a third head. Not even a second head; he just skipped right on to the third."

...kouri last got too close at 04:56 p.m....
...Tuesday, July 16...

My PSA for the day!

Okay. People can yell at me for being prejudiced if they like, but I have an announcement to make. This is one of my personal pet peeves.

If you're going to live in America... learn to speak English. Please. I mean, really, how do these people manage to get jobs? I've worked with them, gone to school with them, but the worst is when I'm the one working and I have to be *polite* to them, when I can't understand a word they say and I just want to shake them and say "You live here! Speak the language!" It's one thing if they're visiting, but really, I wouldn't go live in France if I didn't speak French.

But the real kicker is when they bring in their kid, or younger brother, or whatever, to translate. If your *kid* can learn English, why the hell can't you? I bet he doesn't appreciate being dragged all over hell and creation to be your interpreter. It's unfair.

Okay. I think I'm done for now. I got up way too early after going to bed way too late, and I'm sleepy.

...kouri last got too close at 09:08 a.m....
...Tuesday, July 16...

Well, my computer seems to have recovered. ::crosses fingers:: First off, Atropos 24, in all its Rainbow Bridge glory, is up on CLAMPesque. And I don't feel like typing the link tag. But it's in my sidebar.

Saw Ocean's 11 today. It was good, even though we kept singing the Mission Impossible music, and Brad Pitt is hot. And so is Matt Damon. So, um, yeah.

There was a *wicked* thunderstorm here tonight. It actually rained. We danced in the rain a whole bunch, until we realized we were going to get hit by lightning if we kept it up. Seriously. One of the houses in our neighborhood caught fire. We could smell the smoke in our backyard. It was awesome, in the true sense of the word.

And now, since I'm starved, I'm going to grab something to eat and then go to bed, because I have to work tomorrow. Yay.

...kouri last got too close at 12:20 a.m....
...Monday, July 15...

My computer had a brief fit of insanity last night, and actually saw fit to let me online. Of course, it's not letting me online *now*, but in the brief interim, I posted When You Were Mine 4. And then forgot to announce it. So now I'm using Karasu's computer to do so. I *really* hate my computer right now.

...hopefully there'll be more of Atropos tonight. You know. If my computer pulls its head out of its ass.

...kouri last got too close at 11:55 a.m....
...Sunday, July 14...

Well, just a quick note in case anyone was wondering why I haven't been online. My ISP has died and is refusing to let me sign on. I've sent an e-mail to them telling them to get their act in gear, but it's quite likely that I won't be on at all for a week or two, except at work. This annoys me terribly. I'm now going to go mope.

I have nothing to do. Karasu isn't home, so we can't write. Ethan and Bren are pissing me off. I want to slam their heads together, or at least into walls. I can't manage to motivate myself to work on anything else, my mother is monopolizing the television, and I'm out of books to read. I'm supposed to go clean the kitchen. Whoop-dee-doo. I can't even stay online. Blarg.

...kouri last got too close at 08:36 p.m....
...Saturday, July 13...

nearly forgot to say...

Atropos 23 is on up CLAMPesque, rife with idiocy and thrown food. Yay.

And there's a really cool thunderstorm outside right now, so I probably should shut the computer down. Eheh. But... that's what surge protectors are for. Cool lightning, though. Sideways lightning! And even a little bit of rain. I got out of bed just to see it. Then remembered I hadn't announced that and came to do so. Sleep now.

...kouri last got too close at 01:06 a.m....
...Saturday, July 13...

Got bored and started wasting my time at thespark.com. According to them, I am 39% gay, 40% lazy, a woman, and I'm going to die on September 6th, 2058 at the age of 77 from cancer.

Drat. I'm still bored. I want to write but When You Were Mine is going to be getting to sex soon (no spoilers there, I hope -- it *is* based on Ashes) and I can't write that at work. And anyway, Bren's being a dork. So I'm very bored.

...kouri last got too close at 04:47 p.m....
...Thursday, July 11...

the world is against me.

I figured, nice quiet day at work, I can read Yami no Kenzoku like I've been promising Kira-kins and want to do. So of course now FFNet isn't working. Rhar. And of course by the time it's working again we'll be busy, because the first appointment is in less than an hour.

I tried, Kira, really!

...kouri last got too close at 01:04 p.m....
...Thursday, July 11...

Ooh! I want to do this too!

X/TB Fandom character(s) you'd most like to...

* spend the rest of your life with in perfect bliss: Keiichi. Everyone else would angst too much and drive me crazy.

* have an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand with: Evil sexy Fuuma. Oh yeah.

* watch having an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand: SeishirouxFuuma. Definitely. I agree with you both in that it's like the hottest thing ever. Closely followed by FuumaxSubaru.

* set up with your best friend: Fuuma for my bestest pal Kimura. Not evil, but still hot and sexy. And Subaru, if he weren't gay, for Karasu-chan.

* have as your best friend: Erk... Keiichi again. ::nod::

* get wasted with: Kamui. I have a weird feeling that he'd be a really funny drunk. Maybe I could get him to wear a lampshade on his head.

* employ as a live-in masseur: Seishirou. He's the only one elegant and classy enough.

* use as a human pillow: Uhhh.... Nokoru. XD

* bring home to meet the 'rents: Seishirou or evil!Fuuma. Maybe if they would terrify them enough, they'd stop being such asses to me.

* have as your sibling: Uh. Subaru, I think.

* tie up in your basement and kick when you're feeling frustrated: Kusanagi. Or Yuzu. Or both. Or Hinoto and Kanoe! Yeah, that's it.

* tie up in your bed and lick when you're feeling frustrated: Hmmm.... Subaru again.

Um, yeah. The first appointment of the day is at one thirty. Why did I even have to come in this early? Arg.

...kouri last got too close at 09:43 a.m....
...Thursday, July 11...

yay!

Atropos 22 is up on CLAMPesque, with dinner dates, houses destroyed, and much shameless flirting. So, uh... yeah. Have a jolly good time.

...kouri last got too close at 11:04 p.m....
...Wednesday, July 10...

Woo, I've been doing work this morning. Go me. That's pretty much all I have to say.

Kimura-chan, your layout is done... next time we're both on AIM I'll put it up for you, or send it to you, whichever. Aragorn is staring longingly at Frodo. *snrk*

...kouri last got too close at 11:36 a.m....
...Wednesday, July 10...

I'm really alarmed.

She found a praying mantis in the house the other day. And decided to keep it. And okay, I'm not big on bugs, but whatever. As long as it doesn't get loose.

Now she and Cat are feeding it baby crickets. And it is *so* alarming to hear them cheering on the praying mantis. "Come on, get the cricket! Yeah!"

...I'm going to hide under the bed now.

...kouri last got too close at 11:11 p.m....
...Tuesday, July 9...

well, I've answered my email...

Hotmail was being kind of a bitch. If you think you were supposed to get a reply from me and you read this but don't get any reply within the next day or so... uh... email me again. Hotmail probably ate it or something. My account hates me.

In other news, I have no other news. Karasu and I are ijits and are planning a new original story rather than working on any of the things we should be working on. Eheh.

...kouri last got too close at 02:28 p.m....
...Tuesday, July 9...

so, ah.... bang, yo?

Atropos 21 is up on CLAMPesque. Family reunion and all. Way to go, us. My hands are so cold that it's difficult to type. I'm feeling rather anti-social. Debating whether or not to sign on AIM. Hmm....

...kouri last got too close at 08:37 p.m....
...Monday, July 8, 2002...

The child in the waiting room right now is singing the Barney song. "I love you..." You know, I bet Dad would fire me if I strangled her.

In other news, the downstairs air conditioning unit in our house is broken. So Mom cranked the upstairs one to try to compensate. Basically this has resulted in the fact that the upstairs is freezing and the downstairs is boiling. Right-o.

...still singing. Arg. The damnable thing about it is that she's a cute kid.

I'm sure I had things to social blog, and I really should answer my email, but I'm finding myself showing an extreme lack of memory for the first and lack of caring for the latter. Rhar.

Wrote more last night. God *damn* is Ethan fucked up. He's as bad as Nicky. His lack of spine is just way more obvious. Lucian is fucked up too, and I want him to wake up. I'm sick of Ethan and Bren.

Finally, finally, *finally* got an idea for the third in the Yami trilogy I'm writing. And it's been approved by my faithful approver of ideas... or something like that. In any case, it's stolen from BuffytVS, but I'll make it way cooler than they did. Or, er, something.

She's stopped singing. Praise the lord. Now I'll go bill people who won't pay.

...kouri last got too close at 01:34 p.m....
...Monday, July 8...

I've been a busy little girl...

Well, let's see. Atropos 20 and When You Were Mine 3 are up on their respective posting boards. The fireworks here sucked. But the fourth of July dinner was good. My parents are deranged. The Bourne Identity wasn't very good, even though Matt Damon is hot. And, uh... I don't know. Off to do... something!

...kouri last got too close at 09:23 p.m....
...Saturday, July 6...

We rule. Atropos 19 is up on CLAMPesque. And uh... bang, yo. 'Cause there is bangage indeed.

...kouri last got too close at 10:31 p.m....
...Wednesday, July 3...

IT'S RAINING!!!!

It hasn't rained since the day I got here. Gee, can you tell I miss New England or what? I'm blogging about the fact that it's raining. Ah well.

...kouri last got too close at 10:32 a.m....
...Wednesday, July 3...

The funniest thing happened to me on the way to work today. And maybe also the weirdest. In the mornings I listen to the classical station, because all the other stations have stupid morning shows with stupid djs yakking it up. So I have it on classical. And what's playing?

Tartini's Devil's Trill.

I laughed my *ass* off. It was the full version, too. And of course I'm waiting for a demon to come out of my stereo and scratch a curse on my cornea. Or something. Or maybe for Hisoka and Tsuzuki to pop up in my backseat. ((I should be so lucky.))

Anyway, that's my public service announcement for the morning. I will now go back to staring blankly at the computer.

...kouri last got too close at 10:03 a.m....
...Wednesday, July 3...

waaahh...

Iiiiii'mmmm soooooo boooorrrred... I don't wanna sign on AIM because I need to go to bed in like a half hour if I don't want to be a zombie at work tomorrow, but I have *nothing* to do for the half hour at all... too tired to write, got nothing to read, and Cat and Karasu (the sneaks) went out to a special preview of MIB2... lucky them working at the movie theater, wah.

My brain has turned off.

...kouri last got too close at 11:12 p.m....
...Tuesday, July 2...

My brain isn't functioning. My solution to this is to blog. Way to go, me. Like I didn't blog enough this morning.

I have a funky pen thing. One of the drug reps dropped it off. We get the weirdest stuff from them. This pen has a squeaky smiley face for a cap, and the bottom half of it can be used to blow bubbles. I wuv it. I'm mind-numbingly bored and it's keeping me entertained.

Wrote some, yay. Ethan is... Ethan is.... okay... Ethan is Fucked Up. There's just no other way to put it.

...kouri last got too close at 03:47 p.m....
...Tuesday, July 2...

it seems so early to be blogging...

Right. I, in all my coolness, will attempt to social blog. ::thinks:: I still remember how to do this, right? ::pause:: I'll just go down the list of ones I have bookmarked at work.

Kim, your new layout is hilarious. I wuvs it.

Are you okay? Okay, obviously not, but well... I know the feeling. About having to accept misery, I mean. I'll try to give you a call tonight and help you feel better. Or something.

VAST is one of the best bands ever. I had Pretty When You Cry pegged as an S/S song ages ago, but I didn't know who else listened to them so I never brought it up. Touch is a pretty good S/S song, too, and so is A Better Place. Hell, they just write for Seishirou.

Liz, I somehow doubt that the new story is going to end like Ashes. I can only write so much stuff that depressing in a year, and I've used up my quota. I have no idea *how* it's going to end, and I'm going to try not to end it in the way that everyone will expect, but there won't be CrazyAsHell!Bren at any point. I don't think.

I'm scared to hear that theory about Sirius. You're right, it sounds altogether too likely. ::huggles Sirius:: I really hope she doesn't kill him... or Lupin.... I love them so much!! ::throws them in a closet together::

And now on to the reason I decided to come blog in the first place... I love you. That pic is the cutest thing I've ever seen. I started having a giggle fit, and I'm sitting here at work. Nataku is so CUTE when he's chibi! ::snuggles the chibi!Nataku::

Right, and now... I'll go do... I dunno. Work of some sort, most likely. The ten o'clock appointment just got here.

...kouri last got too close at 09:44 a.m....
...Tuesday, July 2...

whee...

Well, after much ado ::coughcough:: Atropos 18 is up on CLAMPesque. Because we just rule like that. Also, check out these two fanarts that she did for us, of Seimei and Misako. So, everyone have a blast.

...kouri last got too close at 12:03 a.m....
...Tuesday, July 2...

the world is ending.

No, really. I just tried to use the word "buyed" in a sentence. And then I couldn't figure out why the spellchecker was annoyed with it. It took me like thirty full seconds to remember that the past tense of buy is bought. Arg.

...kouri last got too close at 02:25 p.m....
...Monday, July 1...

way to go, me!

When You Were Mine 2 is up at Questionable Reality. Because I just am that cool. Lucian shows up, but he's still comatose. And, uh... Isaac is cool. Bren is annoyed. Audrey is a conniving bitch. That just about sums it up.

...kouri last got too close at 02:16 p.m....
...Monday, July 1...

on a totally random note...

Tea grows invisible mold. And it tastes really bad. I'd never had tea that had gone bad before. I did this morning. It was extremely disgusting. I nearly yakked into the sink.

It's been a nice, busy morning at work. Yay. Yaaaay.

The second chapter of When You Were Mine is done, and will probably be up sometime this afternoon, because quite frankly I don't feel like putting the code in for it now. Unless, of course, I get really busy this afternoon, which is always possible.

By the way, she liked your color pic of Nataku too. And her opinion is more important than mine, since she's writing Nataku. And she said the bad color scheme is a nice touch, because we can't expect Nataku to have taste, and Fuuma can only watch him so much of the time.

So how else can I beg you for more fanarts?

I know I'm babbling. I'm chalking that up to not really wanting to get back to work. Because as long as I'm typing, Jim (the office manager) will think I'm busy. Not that he'll especially care if I'm not busy, as long as I get everything done by the end of the day. Which I will. Go me!

That fanart is wicked cute, Mura... makes me want to go back and read the HP books again too. Or write more fanfiction. Damnitall... Sirius and Remus need to get the hell out of my head, but I think they've taken up permanent residence. Ah well... they're so cute and tragic!

Right. I'm going to shut up now.

...kouri last got too close at 11:16 a.m....
...Monday, July 1...

oooooh pretty

I love you. And your mad drawing skillz. And I don't think that color scheme is *so* bad. What is the kanji on Nataku's shirt, anyway? I don't recognize it.

Speaking of fanart, her drawing of Seimei ought to be up with the next chapter. He only has one pant leg at the moment, which is sort of an issue, but it's done other than that. Well, it's black and white, but he's still adorable. ::huggles Seimei::

In the course of re-reading some of Atropos, I've come to the inevitable conclusion that I'm just a bitch to my characters, and so is Karasu.

...maybe someone will do a fanart of Takeshi for us, once we get to him. He looks like Oriya. Totally not on purpose, though. ::sweatdrops::

...kouri last got too close at 02:50 p.m....
...Sunday, June 30...

updatey!

Waha. Site updatey. Way to go me in my boring day. Have a whole bunch of stuff on the site that you've probably all read before, because it's all previously been posted elsewhere. Because we suck and haven't written any of the stuff we're supposed to write. It's Somewhere 11-12, Atropos 9-17, and When You Were Mine, prologue and chapter one.

And now... I'll go.... do... something.

...kouri last got too close at 08:42 p.m....
...Saturday, June 29...

I got bored...

So I have adoptions now! Mostly thanks to Cupcake Fun, which is a really, really cute site with Yami adoptions. And I figured if I had them, I had to have Subaru and Seishirou too, so picked those up. Maybe I'll get more later and make an actual adoptions section. But probably not, because I'm very lazy as a general rule.

My computer has taken to crashing at random intervals. This upsets me.

In other news, I think I have nothing to do today. Maybe I'll lock myself into my room and be reclusive. I haven't really had time to do anything I've wanted to do lately. I suppose I could work on When You Were Mine... Ethan has turned into a little whore, and is trying valiantly to get Bren in bed with him. Um, so what else is new. ::sighs:: I just want to get to Lucian. Me, favortism? Nah.

I've started reading the Anita Blake series. I'm on the second one now. I like them, but pretty much all I can say is that Edward reminds me a lot of Seishirou. So, naturally, I adore him. Eheh.

...kouri last got too close at 11:30 a.m....
...Saturday, June 29...

pretty new layout!

Okay, so the Care Bears didn't last that long. But that's okay, because I'm totally in love with this layout. Ran is awesome. I want to hug him.

Also, Atropos 17, a nice long chapter for everyone's enjoyment, but also a rather strange chapter, is up on CLAMPesque.

I just finished reading the latest mystery in one of my favorite series and now my brain is broken.

...kouri last got too close at 10:37 p.m....
...Friday, June 28...