it hurts
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January 30, 2005
6:57 pm mood: oh goddy goddy god music: radio
IIIII think i'm gonna die. well, i know i'm gonna die. but i feel like dying right now.
on the bright side, Monica's home from Spain! she brought me a fan, hotel shampoo and stuff, and a couple of Euros. i've got a 1 cent, a 2 cent, and 5 cent piece. and unlike our crazy American currency, THE SIZE AND THE VALUE CORRESPOND! i'm lovin' Europe allready. the one cent is a little smaller than a dime, the five cent is a little bigger than a nickel, and the two cent is in between.
i have to go now, so maybe i'll write tomorrow if i have time. later, all my faithful readers.
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January 27, 2005
6:58 pm mood: fun! music: Marilyn Manson - personal Jesus
meassage from hannah: sup guys..... um.... hey, guess who so failed their chem final? literally? this guy!!! i love hercher, but seriously, his tests suck. ass. but seriously though folks. bill is now complaining about kara's music. i told him that after a while you learn to ignore it. like me. gyah. kara called him a loser..... and..... yeah... kara says she went to burger king, and she's like totally psyched. she said it was diguesting. well, i'm out.. like a...... i got nothing. tata chaps. *kisses*
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January 20, 2005
12:35 pm mood: whatever music: The Casualties - get off my back
so, skipping class rocks and stuff, but when yo're alone? no, not so much. so i'm just sitting here, waiting for 2:30 when i'm gonna go back to school so i can go on one of my 6 "drives" with my driver's ed teacher and my partner, Evan. speaking of which, i'm quite nervous. and bored. i'm actually thinking of doing some schoolwork soon, heaven forbid.
happy birthday: Paul Stanley, John Michael Montgomery, Stacey Dash, Rob Bourdon
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january 16, 2005
4:29 pm mood: sad and disappointed music: some of my mom's shitty music
yay for drivers' ed. the first class consisted of my crazy teacher talking about nothing and setting times that will be driving to demonstrate what we "learn" in the class. me and Evan used to be group F for Fuckin Awesome, but then we got changed to group G for God. i went driving today, and my mother said that every time i go out it's like starting over again. that made me feel verrry good as you can imagine.
don't feel like looking at the birthdays, sorry
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January 7, 2005
8:52 pm mood: kind of happy music: something on 97.9
roses are red
violets are blue
you're funny looking
but for tonight you'll do
wheehee, we're hanging out tomorrow! with Laura, and Farrell, and Laura's friend, but whatcha gonna do? it'll be like a party.. or something.
but i'm also angry. because almost all of my CDs got stolen out of my locker, along with my old CD player. and i forgot to report the theft today, so by monday nobody will give a shit. i do believe i need a new locker! kbye, slut
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January 2, 2005
8:04 pm mood: not really happy with myself music: none
I will start off by telling you that i got three CDs yesterdaym because you care a lot!! Chevelle: this type of thinking (could do us in), Franz Ferdinand self-titled, and Breaking Benjamin: we are not alone. woohoo! so i should be happy, right? guess not. i'm just gonna stay with that i'm a pretty complicated person inside, and i'm not even going to try to write about it on a webpage that people from Spain and Australia are accessing. school tomorrow! chopchop.
happy birthday: Donna Summer, Val Kilmer.
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December 24, 2004
11:49 am mood: happy happy happy... kind of music: Deftones - Minerva
so far, my Christmas presents include: underwear, a Hershey's Kiss, and an opened box of Sugar Babies. you can tell this Christmas is gonna be good! ha, just kidding. I love Christmas like a fat kid loves cake. literally. only it kind of sucks that my sister brought home all these DVDs that i "can't watch" because they're "rated R" and shit. ah well. Happy Christmas everyone!
happy birthday: Lemmy, Ryan Seacrest, Ricky Martin
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December 18, 2004
5:01 pm mood: anticipation music: A Charlie Brown Christmas
agh Christmas is so cruel to me! my mother brought home all this candy and fudge and cookies and candy from her students so i'm going to get unbeleivably FAT this year. and it's a week before Christmas and i haven't even begun to shop! oh well, viva la Navidad.
happy birthday: Keith Richards, Steven Spielberg, Brad Pitt, DMX, Katie Holmes, Christina Aguilera
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December 13, 2004
7:48 pm mood: you are shit. music: The Dishwasher
i am such a fucking whore. i led on this fabulously cool guy and then told him i didn't like him like that, because i like another guy, a lot, and i'm not even sure he likes me anymore. DRAMA EQUALS SHIT. no, not the shit. just regular shit. shit shit shit. goodnight.
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December 11, 2004
1:32 pm mood: tired and a little h.o. music: Disturbed - prayer
wow, i haven't had that much fun in a while. muchas gracias Allysa! if you want details (which you probably dont) just ask me. but i will only give them to a trusted few. well i will see you diggity dogs later, i have to go get shit straight with someone.
happy birthday: Rita Moreno, Gary Dourdan (oh baby oh baby), Mos Def, Rider Strong
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December 9, 2004
8:01 pm mood: just guess, you know everything right? music: none
i just wish people would stop and think, "hmm, do i know what the hell is even going on? and if i don't, should i get involved in it?" because the answer is usually no. i'm just getting tired of all these adults asking me if i have "suicidal thoughts" when in reality that's not what it's about at all. i wish people would stop trying to understand me. "well do you want me to just leave you alone?" YES, ACTUALLY THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I WANT. quit. just quit.
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hello and long time! for all of you that didn't hear about my trip to Cali (which isnt many of you), it was very fun! the highlights were getting my makeup done by the international eyebrow expert, riding in the ghetto-mobile, getting about a bajillion comments on my arm warmers by random people, going swimming in an outdoor pool, eating the e-mail food service stuff, and winning a trophy that comes up to my, whatever you call that area between your knee and your thigh. it was the most exotic place i've ever been, which is really sad. just IM me, email me, call me, or talk to me at school and i'll tell you more about it. l8ur dewds
happy birthday: Shiri Appleby, Aaron Carter
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November 28, 2004
4:15 pm mood: ice cream :) music: Grateful Dead - Casey Jones
Thanksgiving was mucho fun! we had the family and CJ over and we watched HP3 and Elf. then Megan spent the night and we snuck out (and then right back in because it was cold.) also this weekend i went to Candy's house and got some Mardi Gras beads and a Barbie lip gloss ring, which was not even the best part! we watched a bajillion 80's movies, 2/3s of which starred Molly Ringwalds. drivin that train high on cocaine, Casey Jones you better watch your speed...
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November 24, 2004
10:42 pm mood: bla music: no
tomorrow definitely = THANKSGIVING! this means the whole family coming over, finally seeing Megan again, and possibly CJ coming over too if my parents ever stop deciding. oh well, whatever the circumstances i'm still excited. for i get to watch Harry Potter 3. megan hearts daniel megan hearts daniel megan hearts daniel :-P <3
oh yeah and i found someone at dance class that has the same problem-type as me and we talked about it and i think i'm gonna quit now!
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November 13, 2004
3:02 pm mood: bored, thinking music: hmm... what a good idea!
grararararrr!! today has been so frustrating. i want to go do something, but nobody loves me enough (or is available enough) to go with me. i also want to go downtown and see if *cough* someone is as hot as *coughcough* 2 someones said he is. so, if you're reading this right now, and it's Saturday, please call me and make me feel better.
of all those times i've convinced people not to try and kill themselves, who ever did it for me?
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November 9, 2004
4:19 pm mood: happy but sad.. if that makes any sense music: Crossfade - cold
i think today was the second best day of this week (besides sunday)! i'm officially going to Palm Springs in less than a month and i'm missing two days of school in the next three weeks. but then it comes to the issues of other people.. am i the only happy person these days for God's sake? not that there's anything wrong with you guys of course.
Robert David Hall, Nick Lachey, Sisqo
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November 6, 2004
12:59 am mood: content music: shhh you might wake them
wow i just had like my first movie of the year! too bad my eyes were closed for most of it. shut up Allysa, i know you're laughing. well we're about ready to sneak out to Alexis's house, i mean go to sleep, so see you in the morning!
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November 3, 2004
3:04 pm mood: pissed and sad music: watching Spiderman
today is not a happy day for the Nelson family. Bush won. Measure 36 passed. Mother is working full time. Our bunny died. i'll write again when i'm feeling happier.
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hey, guess what? right now, i am definitely NOT out doing anything fun for Halloween. my grandparents just came over. the CD i made for Allyson has sucky downloads on it. nobody called me to do anything tonight. this skirt barely covers my ass.
yeah in general, i'm having a super bad day. the only good thing was spending the night with Candy and watching Signs for the first time. i mean, it was good seeing people at the Peer Mentor thing, but thats just not my ideal way to spend Halloween ya know? anyway, tonight sucks, and i'm going to try and find a scary movie on TV.
oh, i bet you want to know what i am, don't you. well, i was a catholic schoolgirl gone bad, but then people kept calling me Britney Spears so i went along with that. ok the end.
happy birthday: Bill Nelson, Netti Miller, Dan Rather, Peter Jackson, Rob Schneider, Ad-Rock (of the Beastie Boys), Eddie Kaye Thomas
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October 27, 2004
10:21 pm mood: disappointed music: noFX
damn internet not working all afternoon! damn dressmaker being all rude and shit! damn people at dance class being all nice and making it better! i love them girls :)
happy birfday: Kelly Osbourne, Jack Daniels (no kidding! he's a country singer or something, apparently)
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October 26, 2004
12:01 am mood: long, contented sigh... music: no, might wake the chillins!
ahhh, i just went downtown for seven and a half hours! only about four of those were spent at the mall, mind you, but those were successful. did you know that Victoria's Secret is giving away free cute stuffed dogs with purchase? i did. and i have one. and i'm naming it panties.
anyway, i spend the day with some really fun people i don't know all that well, and i ate pizza for lunch and dinner (not my choice) and i also sat at the bus stop for fifteen minutes in the rain before having the bus drive off while i was running towards it. isn't life grand?
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October 21, 2004
8:41 pm mood: dont know what to say music: no
it seems like everyone around me is either too sad, so they make me feel sad, or too happy, so they make me feel even sadder. and i don't know what to do because i can't get people out of their sad moods because i'm too scared and i feel bad to try and get people out of their happy moods! and everyone has Halloween plans but me. this sucks.
October 20, 2004
4:59 pm mood: neglected music: not at the moment
Subway and Jamba Juice are good, especially when you see a hot senior from South working at Jamba Juice and he says you should apply to work there. it's not as cool when you're with your mom, but oh well. at least i have Mango Mantra or whatever its called. well, Portland tonight, catcha later!
happy birthday: Chris Kattan, Pras Michel
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