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 Kleptomaniac v3 features Ninamori Eri from Furi Kuri. Colouring and planning done by the wonders of Kimiko. Credits for actual picture goes to Gainax and Sadamoto Yoshiyuki
Kam: Reminds me of the quote "Siel i'an i'anient". Cookie to you if you can translate it and name where it came from.
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*looks up at title of this layout* Journey of Self Discovery indeed... I think we've just taken a look through the looking glass, and seen ourselves closer that before *smiles* :3 I think this archive would be a fitting end to this journey, don't you?
Archives
~Kimi
[Possible New-Blog image?] (Doesn't have to be in that orientation tho...) Oh yes, I was actually thinking about doing a new layout... scanner prevents me from getting new images but I think I can come up with something by the time you get back. Yes, chances are it will be D.N.Angel... in celebration of the new volume maybe... XD The layout from my D.N.Angel (currently not up) site would work quite well, reduced, a a blog layout actually... simplistic B+W
~Kimi
Truly the Kam I see isn't the Kam you really are... but only each of uss know ourselves. People might say they know you, but in reality its quite different. Although I think I see you a bit different from how you think I do. Knowing you for however long as I have, and through this blog, there have been glimpses of who you believe yourself to really be. The depth to which I know you has been dug a little deeper. I don't think you'll ever get to know someone fully and completely though, because we all wear a little mask for others, and however hard you look you won't see through all the layers. Personally I think I wear my mask a little thin... how I act around people isn't a whole lot different from who I am. To me it would be living a lie if I tried to put on a facade of niceness and falsity for others, although I think I wear a mask of boldness to hide my inner worries and doubts. The uncertainties of life. But the Kimi you see is not the Kimi I know I am. (Has stupid mental image of bitchy Kam as being some bubble-gum blowing slacker with an evil glare in her eye, sporting ripped jeans and some punk top ><...) I'd have to say that until I came to your house the first time, and indeed until that camp I never knew the depth of your faith.. I guess there's a little something ebout everybody that you never really notice until one day you just realise it. And about the apology? I most sincerely accept it :)... although I must say it came as a bit of a surprise (we are talking about that camp, right? forgive me otherwise if it's not...). I won't pretend and say "noo, don't worry it's all fine. You don't need to apologise". Because truthfully that was one turmulous week. I kind of got tipped on my head the whole time, and the little pillars of my belief got nudged a bit hard. There were a few times where I felt truly insecure, that there was something wrong with me because I couldn't see what everyone else saw. Or maybe because I didn't want to see. Didn't want to face up to the possible truth in a view that contradicted my Aethistic beliefs. I don't want to think on what it would have been like if it had been at that place in the country... without even being able to go home to my normal life once a day. Although some bits I did enjoy, it was all a bit... how should one put it. Unnerving. I could tell I was one of the very few, if not the only person who didn't actually Believe. If you hadn't been there, it would have been a rather isolating experience. Although I think, through that experience, we've become closer friends so I'm glad for that... but I won't guilt you up anymore... and I do thankyou most sinceirly for the apology :). Erm, how about we vote to archive this afer this post? (it's getting kinda long anyway) ...we might start to frighten our fellow readers by getting all philosophical and angsty... and then I can rant about D.N.Angel~ Actually it's a rather meaningful rant about Dark, but anyway... I went shopping today as well, as you must'v guessed~ did not really find wnything to sqee over since I aleady have PoA in hardcover... Aaah, I want to read Across the Nightingale Floor.... it does have a pretty cover, doesn't it? :)... i'd like to get a promotional poster for that~ How about I get Across the Nightingale Floor and I'll let you borrow it~ If you really like it I can get it in softcover for your birthday or something~ (just don't bust your ankle this time around) *Waves heartily at Lilack" Hello fair Perth-sider :D... stumbled upon our fair slice of rantiness have you~ (wonders who else reads our blog~) We need a tag-board :/... we should set one up during the holidays some time. We have all those cgi-bin stuff on our server after all, don't we? Lol, sure... if you read WoT2 I'll wholeheartedly attempt to crawl through Curse of the Mistwraith :) (maybe if it had Mearn in it I could manage... but he's not until the 2nd book isn't he? Bah, WoT in my oppinion doesn't get really cool until the 3rd book and onwards...). But yes, We shall make it our new-year resolution or something... but hey, wasn't Empire Troligy my trade for WoT? Three books for one~ Mwah ;P... lol, anyway... I will try extremely hard to finish Mistwraith :)... as long as you don't chicken out on WoT b/c you can't leech on to anyone ;P
~Kimi
My computer has frozen three times, all while viewing this page. I am going to chop down the size of this html document. And try and work out what the **** is going on. You have.... well. I'm leaving on Thursday, so you have one day to design an new layout. Who this time? You seem to be in a DNAngel high. Or we could go for books, in celebration of recent releases LOTR or Harry Potter (maybe over done)
[edit: It is not the layout that hates me, it is my F***'D! up Windows XP.]
~Kam
Make that 2 on the German email spam count. No, Kam is still here; I've been drawn into the world of Dead or Alive all day yesterday and back into the wonders of Final Fantasy Nine today. This year it's only going to last for three nights and four days.
Religion frightens me. I'm a Christian and I will proclaim it loudly. I'm proud of being Christian. But here I pause; Really? When it comes right down to it; maybe I'm not. It's always the last thing people find out about me: I seem hesitant about divulging the fact to the world. I've always been taught that to be doubtful is the worst position you can be in - concerning religion that is.
It's hard to draw the line between cult and religion. We are not a cult. But can someone give me a clearer description between the two? Devotion? Tick. Wars? Tick. Suicide and Mass Murder? Tick. Sometimes I think religion is not good. In fact, Kimi, there's one thing I have to apologise to you for. Three years ago I saw one of my role-models fall like a chunk of ice hurtling at rapid speed towards the earth. Needless to say, it was very demoralising and I don't think I've ever quite gotten back onto the right track again. Last year was not a good time, seeing as I felt as certain about things as a newborn baby in a car factory. This year is not a good time either (as you can see/read) but I think I've already scarred you for life. Sorry. Seeing as I don't celebrate Christmas, but would nevertheless like to "get into the spirit of things" I'd like to wish anyone who stumbled across our ranting by accident NOT to get completely freaked out, we're not normally like this and also a Safe and Happy Holiday.
Oh yeah, your screen is a lot darker, Sapphire's layout must be nearly completely black to you.... Tommy is one evasive bugger. Went book browsing yesterday. Lindfield has the CUTEST little bookstore. It's very friendly although they seem a bit.... glary when it comes to page flipping. Saw Across the Nightingale Floor in hardback (not in paperback yet I think) and LOVED COVER! So PRETTY! And it sounds pretty interesting too. Am now in a bit of a dilemma - To Ride Hell's Chasm (which they also have) or Across the Nightingale Floor? Arrgh! Incidentally, bookstore also has all four HP in hardback. Saw them on shelf but staff was not impressed by drool stain on AtNF cover and was kicked out before I got a closer look. Lilack, Kamini here says hullo. :) (Kimi, what’s this Bowling for Columbine she’s ranting about?) And Kimiko, dear heart, still has yet to experience the sexiness/angstiness that is Arithon. Hey, Kimi, how about it? I read WoT2 and you finish Curse of the Mistwraith?
~Kam
Er, I think Kam has left for the week.... so you'll have to contend with just me ;P Why did I never realise it was Christmas Eve today? I must be growing slow.... I failed to notice the significance of December the 24th until halfway back from the station after shopping... x_X... Argg, help me now... I think I'm becoming forgetful. Maybe it's just that the end of the year seems to have come upon us like that *snaps fingers*... and now it's suddenly christmas. I feel poor.... I just spent $50 on presents... and have a very weighty wallet of change.
~Kimi
In other, more lighter bloggings... I think I'v summed up my personal stance in the area of slashy fandom. *cough*... so there you have it :3
~Kimi
Hmm, Kam is being... philosophical~ I tend not to lean toward philosophical or self analitical rants. Maybe, in some ways, it takes the fun out of being who you are. If you try to analyse yourself of what it is that you are and believe in, and subsequently, what you think is f*cked up in your life... or some suchness. Not that it isn't natural for one to want to rant to the world what you think about life. Oh yes, Kimi is going to rant philosophically now ;D... she feels a need to speak out, in light of what Kam has said. Come, people, rejoice in a little soul delving. I don't think I have a fear of reality. I tend to be quite outspoken sometimes, actually. Your comment about "shyness" brought me to that time in Sport Trials when those assholes cheated in the line and stole our racket-ball spots, and your comment on my said outspokeness. Kam admitted (correct me if I'm wrong) that she couldn't go up to the teacher and complain rather forcefully at the unfairness of this, as I had done. I suppose it's my nature, or something... What does Kimi fear then? I fear not being accepted. It is a failing of mine that I tend to worry what others think. I tend to have my perceptions altered by other peoples oppinions rather easily when it comes to some things. At the same time I tend to try and reaffirm my thoughts and ideas with people who share them. I find it hard to hold onto an idea unless I know it's shared by others. If I become involved with someone who has a different idea, unless I'm convicted enough in my belief I crumble under the weight of their ideas. After all, maybe what they think is right. I guess I have an inability to hold onto my own views in the face of others. Not always, but it's a fact that's definnitely there. One comment can make me look at something in a different way that what I use to, and the way I wanted to. I also have a tendancy to overtly worry about small things. How I am viewed by others, what I should do to make these people see me in an acceptable light. So in that sense I guess I also share a fear of rejection, but it's more a fear of being found unacceptable by others. People always say you should hold into your beliefs, but in the face of others, the reality isn't always so easy. All summed up, I would say I have a fear that I won't be accepted into a place in society that I'm comfortable with. Rather, a place I have been pushed into unknowingly by the the ideas of others, so I think that's where I belong but in truth I don't. What are my truthful oppinions? In keeping with the idea of not letting myself be swayed by others I'm going to write exactly what I feel, regardless... although I will temper for the case of common curtisy Indeed, John Howard is one of the most irritating and narrow minded Prime Ministers one could hope not to have in government at the moment. I suppose one should atleat admire his ability to stick to what he believes, but his conservatism and inability to see two sides of an arguement make me wonder how we managed to vote him in again. Oh wait, that's right... Because the only way he can win is by playing on our fears and manipulating our ideas. So, John Howard, I commend you on being a sly heartless bastard. I had an interesting discussion with my dad the other day. More Americans have killed eachother than been killed by enemies in all the combined wars America has fought in. It's a horrifying thought. It's a society of fear and violence, fuelled by ignorance and narrow mindedness. Blame the world and ignore your own plights. Over 100 people a month get murdered by guns in New York alone. only 65 people a year die of being shot in Australia. America is s society, in my view, that has switched off from itself. My dad, when he was in America, had to walk to the firm he worked at, and he just learnt to switch off to the people around him. To the beggars in the street with poly styrofoam cups. America seems to me, to blame everyone but themselves, for everything. I think Micheal Moore summed it up rather well in his talk about guns in America. Guns don't kill people, Americans kill people. A sad thought, but all too fitting. It sickens me to watch on TV as America rejects Iraq's policy again, and again. I feel sorry for the people of Iraq, who are being targeted by a country that will wage war regardless. George Bush doesn't care if they hand over all their weapons now in a neatly tied package withe "Returned to Sender" stamps all over it. He wants war, and I'll be damned if he won't get it one way or another. No, make that he wants their Oil. Lets be honest about this after all. No, I don't hate America. I hate the ideas America presents to the world, and I hate the ideas it tries to force on others. I believe that people have a right to believe in what they want. That was perhaps the only thing that irritated me greatly about that camp I went to with you. It just struck me as astounding that the person I spoke to sincerely believed that their religion was the one and only. I wholeheartedly respect your beliefs, Kam, and would never try and change the way you think, but that whole experience was rather unnerving. I believe in the idea that we forge our own beliefs. God, to me, is something made by human beings to explain that for which they have no answer for. Inwardly during that camp I rejected a lot of the ideas presented there. The convicted belief in something I could not see for myself was rather overwhelming. Actually... (feeling rather open at the moment) for a few moments I did understand. It's going to sound horribly weird, but from anxiety or something I don't know, for a second I sctually thought I felt the 'something' etheral come to me. Yes, it sounds very stupid writing that here... In some ways I can't believe I'm writing it (gosh, Kimi's gone very deep and philosophical - -;...). And for that second I felt fear and anxiety as I never have. I guess I was caught up in the moment. But the thing I kept shouting in my head was "Get out of me. I don't want you". To me, that was a very scary moment. I didn't want to believe. I didn't want to be tied down to a strict belief. So when I thought I felt it, that thing which to me in that moment so violently contradicted what I believed, I rejected it. I still don't want to believe. It's just not who I am. I think I can be safe to write here that I was very glad when that particular day was over. It still brought a faint chill to my mind while I was writing that, actually...
Yes, religion is not my favourite topic. Sometimes it makes my blood curdle. It's epitomy of half that's wrong with the world. Belief, and what holding to your belief can end you up in. Peole have to believe in something, but for me that something is not God. Like I said before, my belief is in something greater than us, but what that is is for you and you alone to decide, whatever it may be that you choose. Anyone who tries to make you believe in something you don't want to should be... actually no. That would be forcing my belief on others...
I believe that we are unto ourselves. Society shapes us, but it is we who make us what we are. It is our decisions and views, our ideas and the circumstance of our existance. And this is why I don't rant philosophically.... I drains you mentally. Makes you feel like someones gone inside your head and picked through it with a fine tooth comb. It's depressing.... I want to laugh, read something funny, escape away back to my normal life. I have a tight feeling in my stomach... does this always happen when you rant like this?.... I think it's only natural for people to want to escape from reality, actually. Reality is harsh. It can be exillerating and beautiful, but at the same time you have to face up to the parts of it that are just plain horrible and sickening. Even now that I've stopped writing as I did up there I feel better.... mayebe it's because I'm drifting~ -.-.... Argggggg~!! (pushes rant away >:/....) Okay, I think I'm done.... this is going to be long, I can tell.... Although it was rather refreshing to get all this down. I suppose philosphical rants aren't that bad, although I don't want to repeat the experience all too soon either *squints* Oh, there's Tommy... I had to print screen and turn up the gamma, but he's there~ Rather hard to spot, aren't you... Oh yes, the collab :)... we've finished it now actually... I drew Sirius and she drew Remmy, in case you're wondering. Oh, and when do you go away to that camp? Tomorrow? Oh well, if I don't get to blog before you go I hope you have fun~ Enjoy yourself, whatever~ Eeep. *backs away*... Hey, I didn't write those googlism things ;P... If I remember there were worse ones... something about one of us giving our boyfriend a soapland bubblebath... and other, er, things.... x.X Ugh -_-;... remind me again why I don't do philosphical rants. I think I'm going to rant about D.N.Angel at the next oppurtinity. I hope this page gets archived soon... ...I spent one and a half hours writing that :/
~Kimi
Wow, my very first german spam mail. Why, yes indeed, I do believe it is. (Bishounen, I mean) Warning: philosophical rant up ahead
If I'm only allowed to name one major problem of mine it would have to be my fear of facing up to reality. Maybe that's why I read fantasy so much; because in the end, when you come down to it, I'm not really there and everything that happens to "me" is just an extent of my mental self. Not really myself; as in I. If you know what I mean. Above spiders, cockroaches and cannibalism is my second top fear: fear of rejection. I'm sure I ain't the only one. Only, I've noticed that people don't seem to let this get in the way of their life. I don't make friends very easily, I think, mainly because I'm too afraid of speaking up. You label it as "shy" and pretend it's normal, but it's not. Well, I'm not going to let this fear of mine constrict me anymore. Hey, let me be a little opinionated once in a while?
Kamini's Opinons on Life.
My brother borrowed his friend's dreamcast and we've been playing DoA2 all day. My thumb is swollen as... something very swollen. Can you spot Tommy on Sapphire's blog? I couldn't see him before but now that I've seen CoS I can. Sirius looks nifty. No, I don't mind you adding comments. Ooo, Remus looks nifty and Sirius too, She draw like you; I couldn't tell the difference.
Kamini is to be avoided? What? If you were next to me right now I would crack my knuckles threateningly, however that would use too much energy when the targeted victim is not in the immediate vicinity. But the Jedi Knight bit redeems you. (Yoda! Yoda!)
Saw this on Sapphires blog and thought I might try it XD. A couple of wierd things I got when I entered our names~
Kamini is;
Kam is;
Kimiko is;
Kimi is; x.X this thing is weird... but strangely funny XD Almost finished collab in the Tennis Court. Kiku just needs to do the BG~ You know, I never realised how cool our (currently non-usable) scanner is... Despite it's huge thickness and rather oldness, it kicks ass~!! >o<... It has a resolution of bloody 4800dpi! That's 4 times the resolution of most USB scanners. That's twice the resolution of a top-end, 500 buck 2400 resolution USB scanner...(Is in awe of her shibby scanner~) No wonder SCSI scanners cost thousands. ;_;.... You can't stop working on us now! You're too cool~~ Not that I ever went that high a resolution... I only ever went as high as 300dpi, but I never realised how powerful our scanner was. (apologises to her scanner for all the times she called it an old twitchy piece of crap that's too thick for it's own good). Come back to us, our sweet Artec ViewStation A T6 SCSI Scanner... we need you ;_;. Hell, we want you >o<...
~Kimi
[Link] Finished yo bishy Sirius~ >o<.... You don't mind me adding a comment of my own, do you? You know, I just realised I tend to have very long-winded comments -_-;... they go on for a bit~ Is the BG suppose to be pitch black or what? I think it's a slight blue-ish black... although for me it just all fades into the same colour as the page BG anyway... I like the way his hair came out~ e.e
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I'm doing a Collaboration Oekaki in the high-end Collab room with Kiku. We crossed over Hp and D.N.Angel, so we're dressing Sirius and Remus up as Dark and Krad XD This is our planned comment-dialogue~ I'm in charge of drawing Sirius in the foreground, probably pulling off one of Darks jaunty hip stances ;P... And Kiku's drawing Remmy in the background. Should be fun XD... although b/c Kiku is drawing first I have to wait (she's offline now, not drawing until tomorrow). Just hope we don't get kicked off the high-end board. It's three stars, which is advanced level... But we should be able to pull it off
~Kimi
That was the only thing I spoiled ><... don't worry Kimi:: Whassa name of Lujans cousin? Saric or something? I was pissed that he died as well >:/.... although he did have a cool ending scene IMO....
Sapphire:: Aaaaaaaaah! x.X my virgin ears! x.X;;; I should really read LotR some time... But I still haven't finished Darksong and the rest of WoT for the release of the next book~ (wonders if she'll make it x_X... it does come out in January, after all, and I still have... 4 books to go ><;...) Ah, will work on Sirius after blogging then~ Do you want me to do Tommy as well? Isn't it bishounen?... anyway, yes, Kimi urges you to give WoT another chance... Books aren't all about leechiness, and once you get to the 3rd book and onward the plots get deliciously thick~ XD... And yes, 4 books on we still don't know who killed "spoiler" :/... maybe RJ will give us some more hints in the next book. Actually, Steph is really getting into WoT. I think she's probably finished the 2nd book by now, but her mum bought her book three for X-mas so now she has to wait to find out what happens~ I saw that Across The Nightingale Floor in a bookshop.... it looked hell nifty XD (Mayhap she will borrow it some time~) Oh yes, Dexter, I need to get abck to him (has been lurking at the Oakaki board and has been neglecting her Devious Duties)
~Kimi
Hullo Sapphire! Am planning on starting a WoLaS squeal/rant mailing list for those people who just want to rant and not actually discuss anything.... :P (Three people so far, one I've found atleast five, I'll start it) Oo Kimi! You and your big mouth! What else do you blurt out about Empire? (Nothing about Kamlio I hope.... she deserves to discover the horror herself...) *sigh* Arakasi~~~~~~~~ *drool slobber*
Have fallen in love with Earendil all over again. LotR is alright, but when it comes to Middle Earth, the First Age ROXS MY WOIRLD!. Elwing is one lucky buitch.... Tommy? Well, I'd like red but I don't have a red that colour so I gave up and made them blue. Sirius - his robes are rags so shades of brown and wotnot, the background is black with stars (you know how to do that?) but the silhouettes are left in white.... (could you change the background of pop-up to black?) NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Not fair! I wanna see TTT!!!!! Arrgh! Arithon: everyone reads WoLaS for his bishyness and angstiness and drop-dead gorgeousness... I started from FP and was hell confused, but the fact that it reeked of slashy potential I kept on. I think slashy fangirlness is inborn and manifests itself even when you don't know what bishonen means. Am thinking about reading WoT and giving it a second go. If Steph can do it I'm nearly certain I can..... I mean, Fool's Errand had absolutely no leechable characters but yet I love it with all my heart.... Actually, I want to read Across the Nightingale Floor, anything about assassins is a perk for me, kinda like Arakasi and Pteppic. Yay! WOW, fangirl rant today.
[edit: That reminds me; who was that guy that wanted hosting? Does he still? Kimi?]
~alaKAzaM
Oh yes, Kimi forgot to mention that she's now being stalked by an "evil-rabid-slashy-fangirl" who hails from Brisbanetown x.X.....
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- I live in Australia In light of my credentials to become your stalker, i hope you will consider my application favourably. ---- Eeep, although while ranting in reply mail about Pape I accidentally let slip that Saric dies as well XO (Hehe, gomen.. I didn't know you haevn't read the last two books -_-;...). Did I mention the smutty slash? Don't think I did, actually (Don't mind if I quote you here, Sapphire? XD) slashy-fangirl? me? *looks shifty* Actually, the only thing i enjoy more than good slash, is good smut. *pervert* XD And all the Mukki/Tsuzuki slashy undertones in YnM have me zinging.
(should make you laugh, Kam XD...) Sapphire:: *bursts out laughing* That was possibly the funniest thing i've heard someone say all day. Don't hate him cuz he's angsty! XD XD admittedly, i had to flog myself to keep going. They moved so slowly. x.X;; Add to that that i started at the third book thinking it was the first, so i was confused as hell the whole time, and you get a Sapphire who's very proud of herself for managing to read as much as she did. And the only reason she managed it was because Arithon was sexeh. And angsty. Mwah, I cracked up laughing all through the 2nd e-mail >.<... I must D/L MSN again, and rant some more with our fellow fangirl XD Hmmm, I do believe it's 4 in the morning x_X... gosh, I'm in one of those moods where despite the time I don't feel tired
~Kimi
Well, it really just depends on what look you're going for with Tommy. Do you stay realistic and go with the fan choice of blue, or do you go the evil look with red? Oh, and what do I do with the Sirius pic? I have the hair done but I don't know what colours for his robes. Could you fill me in on the specifics? (BG, etc...). Oh, and for the Tommy pic as well... (you never know, Kimi might actually get something done within a week -_o...) Updated Capricious but only with my stuff :/ (had so many damn Oekaki's ><...) XD... but one of my Oekaki's got Archived on the Bishy Board~ Sometimed Admins archive things they thing are particularly deserving, so they don't get written over when the new rotation comes in. Actually I was about to start on an Oekaki but read this, and thought I should probably start on the colouring of those pics ;P... what else was I suppose to do? Oh yes, that cover pic... and that gift pic x_X... Oh well, It's not like I don't have enough spare time ;P Hehe, but Jess booked our tickets for LotR!! Going to see it on Boxing day at 11 XD~ Nifty~
~Kimi
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