*yawn* OK, so I didn't blog yesterday. Blar. I had to work. I always have to work. Work can bite me.
Now that I'm done with that Moment of Zen... what have I been up to? Mostly trying to download the X OAV, which, on my 56K-but-connects-way-slower modem, has not been a fun experience. However, I have made it to 65% in... two and a half days of off-and-on downloading. Which is pretty damn good, for aforementioned shitty modem. Unfortunately, for some reason, the person I'm downloading from now keeps timing out. And I really hope it's the subbed version, but if not, I'll still be happy that I got to see it.
*meeps* Me? *innocent look* hehehe, I'm proud, I officially have converted someone to X obsession! *grins and pats self on shoulder* So what do you think of the other characters besides Sei and Subby? I already know you don't like Kamui... hehe, and I will read your fic sometime when my brain is functioning correctly, like... tomorrow. ^_^
Speaking of Kamui, I really don't want to hear anything else about his mighty manmeat, or his gargantuan antelope love rod, or anything else you and you have come up with. XD Kamui doesn't even have one of those in my world. He's not even a sexual being to me. Unless Fuuma's molesting him-- I guess that's okay. *snicker* And you can nail Brad? Please, share the tricks of the trade with us poor non-Brad-nailing peasants. XD
Joey (if you even read this, not sure if you do ^^;;;), my friend showed me a printout of that poem earlier today. I liked it. And... *hugs you* I really hope you feel better soon. You know where to find me if you wanna talk.
No, you're not too old-fashioned, too elite, or stupid. People just plain suck. *nods* As Milly would say, "don't let it get to you." *XD @ Kamui getting a 55* haha, he's dumb :P
I should, like, go and stuff, before someone throws me to the wolves for being on the computer too long. o.o
filling the space with time on Friday, September 21, 2001 at 11:08 p.m.
This is an utterly pointless entry. I don't have much to say and I don't have much time in which to say it. Buuut, I've blogged every day for quite a while now, and I don't wanna break my streak.
Yes. I am a dork. XD
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 19, 2001 at 10:58 p.m.
OK, Nin, I think the best way to do this is to show, not tell, so here are the translations of the relevant scenes. (Note to all others: If you don't know and don't want to know what happens to Seishirou and Subaru in... hmm, I think it'd be X 15 or 16.... do not click on any of these links.)
November 00 Asuka
December 00 Asuka
January 01 Asuka
February 01 Asuka
That should cover it. If you wanna keep reading the translations, just go to the main page and continue in order. Interested to hear your reaction to it. ^_^
And I'm in the process of looking for the wedding pic, I thought I had it saved, but I'm dumb, therefore I didn't. >< Will post the link as soon as I find it. (Real time blogging. *snicker*)
(about half an hour later ^^;;;) Wai! Thanks to Kimmie, the wedding pic has been located. Click. Enjoy. *grins*
Awww, I bet you and Subaru would just make the loveliest couple despite the fact that he's flamingly gay and the smoking thing and the family problems and... well, okay, maybe it wouldn't work out. XD oh well, here's hoping you find a guy who's just like Subby without all the gay..... *pauses, thinks about that and O.Os* Is it even dimensionally possible to have a Subaru without the gay? The gay is such an integral part.... *snickers* Well, if all else fails, you can always keep hoping for your very own Subby the Puppy... hehehehe, hooray for the first children's book with blatant homoerotic overtones! XD
Hehe, Winamp just pulled Subaru on "Possession" by Sarah McLachlan (which reminds Kimmie of Fuuma)... I always thought it was a rather Seishirou-ish song... *shrug* And man, my Winamp really likes to pull the topless bondage Karen skin about every five minutes. o.o It also likes Clow Reed. O.O
.... *reads*.... *reads again*.... *screams* WHO subtitled the X OAV, and how much would I have to pay to get a copy?? Is it through a fansubber? Agh!!! I would so pay a lot of money for that...
*blinks at her Winamp skin* OK, Winamp, you might think it's funny to pull the skin of Subaru smoking on "Hash Pipe" by Weezer, but I... well... okay, it is kind of funny. *snicker*
filling the space with time on Tuesday, September 18, 2001 at 04:37 p.m.
Wai! My endless ramblings are good for something at last! XD Yes, I did the same thing (reading all the fics in the CLAMP archive) and am now seriously hurting for good X fics. ~_~ As for that Seishirou/Subaru poster... hmm... perhaps you mean the "wedding pic"? ^^ It's VERY hard to find in poster form. It might turn up on Ebay, but I don't think there's anyplace that sells it online. If that's not the one you're talking about, describe it and I'll probably be able to figure it out. (But that is the one that everyone normally talks about. hehehe)
Anna, nice new layout! ^^
I'm not having a happy moment right now. I'm having a "get the hell away from me, I hate all of you" moment. (Not you. Just the world in general. ^^;;;) It's more me than anything else. I'm frustrated. I don't even really know why. Things are basically going smoothly. I'm not satisfied, though. With myself. I feel like I should change, like I should be doing more than I am to better myself-- no, to make myself a completely different person. The problem with me is, I'm hardly capable of realizing a bad (or even different) quality in myself and accepting it, but I don't have enough willpower to change it, and sometimes I don't even think it's something I CAN change. I feel like I'm too dependent, because my whole life centers around a few people, and I worry to the point of obsession that someday things will change. I realize this. I don't want to change it, because I can't imagine living any other way. There's a million other psychological quirks like that that I usually just ignore or laugh about, but right now I feel like I need to change even though I don't want to... does that make sense?
*sigh* Being a hermit is looking better and better, this way me and my emotional shit will never have to bother anyone anymore. ><
One last note... *hugs*
filling the space with time on Monday, September 17, 2001 at 03:34 p.m.
Well, Cori told me to update, so I'm updating. *yawns* I'm tired. I can't really find much to reply to. And I have nothing whatsoever interesting to say. All I did this weekend was work. All I'm going to be doing this week is going to school and working. This is my sad, pathetic excuse for a life. *sigh*
Anou, Kim, I really doubt they could take your house away for something that's beyond your control... o.o;;; And I guess I see where you're coming from on the whole getting over it thing, but... I don't know... I'm not depressed anymore, but it's not like I've forgotten, either. Not the bad stuff or the good stuff (i.e. pride in my country and more appreciation for others and all that). And I don't mind all the news coverage. If anything happens, I want to know about it. *shrugs* That's just me. Things tend to stick with me for a while.
Speaking of that, we're collecting donations for the disaster relief fund at work, and some people are just so damn callous. This one guy just stared at me when I asked him, then said "No" as if it was some kind of ridiculous request. Or else they laugh, as if it's supposed to be funny that they can't even spare a freaking dollar out of the wad of bills they're carrying around to help other people. *sighs* You can disagree if you wish, but I think it's pathetic. But then again, the Red Cross has collected a ton of money, so someone out there must be thinking of someone other than themselves.
Anyway, to move onto topics I'm not quite so pissy about... ^^;;; this page is highly addictive and very entertaining. *snicker* The captions on the links are the best part.
Ooh, and Eri, nice new layout, tis pretty... and wai wai you used DMB lyrics in the title ^___^
Wrapping up now because I'm boring and I can't drudge anything else up from the dark depths of my brain to talk about. -_- *goes to sleep on keyboard*
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 16, 2001 at 10:17 p.m.
Words cannot express how much I do not fucking want to go to work for 8 hours today. Even if my mom is taking me out to lunch on my break. When I get home, I will most likely be pissy as hell. Prepare yourselves.
Buuuuttt, on a happier note... scans from the issue of Asuka I won off Ebay... there is the cutest little omake after the X installment, although I have no idea what's going on and I wish I did. They're all sitting at a long table eating, and Sorata's freaking out for some reason, and everyone else is mostly just staring at him. o.o It's cute though. ^___^ And there's a thumbnail of this adorable Kusa/Yuzu pic that I've never seen before (I guess it's from the 2000 calendar... *shrug*). Here goes:
Cover - the whole reason I bid on this in the first place. *g* It's so kawaiii! Look at Aoki and his little cell phoneeee! *hearts* Too bad Subaru's head is covered up, though. And am I the only one who thinks chibi Kamui looks exactly like Li? It's the pissy expression, I think. XD
Looks like an ad for a poster of the cover image - You can see all of them in this one. Awww, Subby's cute. ^^
Calendar pics - I’ve seen most of these, but I figured I’d scan ‘em anyway. The Kusa/Yuzu pic is kawaiiii. ^__^
Would someone kindly tell me what the hell this is supposed to be? o.o;;;;
Dude, I wanna be a Dragon of Heaven ‘cause they can run up buildings! (It’s amazing the things you notice when you’re reading a manga at twice the size that you read it before. *snicker*)
Omake:
page 1 - Either Sorata is trying out his rockin’ boy band dance moves, or he’s having some kind of full-body spasm. O.O;;;;
page 2 - Sora’s sweatdropping, Kanoe’s being a ho, and that poor waitress looks very confused. Business as usual. But... whose arm is that? o.o;;;
page 3 - This installment gives us the great privilege of seeing Arashi making what can only be described as "cow eyes" at Yuuto. *snickersnicker* And Sorata, sweetie, didn’t anyone ever tell you it was rude to blow your nose on your sleeve?
page 4 - Sora’s ‘bout ta lay the smack down on Yuuto. (I think. o.o) Two questions... where the hell did Kotori come from, and where are Karen, Yuzu, Subby, Sei-chan, etc? Some mysteries may never be deciphered. Oh, and Aoki... even though you don’t have a nose, I love you anyway. *snuggles* hehehe
page 5 - Everyone yells at Sorata, which causes flowers to grow out of his back. Mmm-kay.
Yadda yadda, don't steal these without asking, blah blah blah. Hope y'all enjoyed. ^____^
filling the space with time on Saturday, September 15, 2001 at 10:31 a.m.
On a lighter note...
*dies*
"Here Lies Holy Land".... XD
filling the space with time on Friday, September 14, 2001 at 07:36 p.m.
I'm feeling better. But slightly pissed off at the moment.
Getting really irritated at two opposite but strangely equal groups I'm seeing. First, as I mentioned before, there's the psycho "let's bomb 'em off the face of the earth" types... but then there's also the self-righteous people who keep mentioning bad things America has done in an attempt to make it seem like we'd be the sick mass murderers if we were to take action. If I didn't know better, I'd think they were attempting to rationalize this, ne? Even if they don't mean it in that way, it's really not the time to bring up what our government may have done in the past. No one said America was perfect, but no one deserves what happened on Tuesday. I wish people would show a little bit more respect and put their pointless political arguments aside for a while. *sigh*
Oh well. As expected, I was one of the only people who wore red, white and blue. I don't even know if anyone else did it on purpose, although some of my friends did find out about it later in the day and said they would have if they had known ahead of time. I'm going to light a candle tonight, too. Little things, but they do make me feel better.
Speaking of feeling better, thank you to all who I talked to last night, you cheered me up massively. *huggles*
Wellllll, I'm off to go out to eat and pick up my paycheck. Not looking forward to work tomorrow... not at alllll. ~_~
filling the space with time on Friday, September 14, 2001 at 03:50 p.m.
First off... sorry to those who no longer wish to hear about the events of September 11th, and those who have moved on somewhat... I respect that and understand where you're coming from... but I really need to vent my feelings right now... here goes:
I have English homework to type up. Not write. Not do any thinking about. Just type.
And I can't.
*sighs* I cannot make myself work. I can't make myself concentrate. This is beyond my usual general apathy and laziness when it comes to schoolwork. For the past few days, all I've been doing here at home is checking blogs and message boards and news sites over and over and over. It's okay when friends are on to talk to, because I can act normal and joke around and forget for a little while. But when I'm by myself, it's all I can think of. And one minute I'll be just bursting with pride in the country, in the people, in the way we've come together, and the next I'll be terrified because I don't believe it's really over, and the next I'll wonder if I really should be still thinking about it. I can't decide how I'm supposed to feel right now. I didn't know any of those people. All my friends are safe. Some people seem to be moving on, to begin writing about other things, while some are just as upset as I am, and I don't know how I'm supposed to act.
Throughout this whole thing, I didn't cry at all, but I did last night. It was one of those things where I was minorly annoyed and sad about something, teared up a little, and then just didn't stop. Then I turned on one of my Card Captor Sakura tapes and attempted to immerse myself in a fictional world that has never seen terrorists or bombings or collapsing buildings or mass murder or anything besides the most minor perils that always end happily. It did help, a little. But the thing is, I don't want to escape this world. What I said earlier was true. I am so proud of the people of America, proud of those non-American citizens who've stepped forward to share stories of how deeply it affected them even though it was someone else's country, proud of everyone in the Internet communities I've visited (except for those promoting hate, of course... we all know how ignorant those types are). I love the way the country has come together and bonded. I think it's made a lot of people appreciate their loved ones more, including me.
But. At the same time, I have the strangest feeling that despite our solidarity, despite the strong love between friends and family that has been reinforced by this, these faceless soulless heartless people are still bigger than us. Their very lack of morals and sanity and love make them something we can't understand and therefore cannot fight... And it SCARES me that such people could exist in this world. I don't care about the theories of karmic retribution, I don't care if they're going to Hades or Hell or the Underworld or whatever you wish to refer to it as, it terrifies me that people are born (or made) like this at all. That we have to share the same planet with them. That maybe another one was born today, or yesterday, or will be born tomorrow.
I'm a worrier by nature. If you know me, you know this. I worry to the point of obsession sometimes, about everything from illness to getting older to whether my loved ones will stand by me. But this is unlike everything I've ever worried about before. And I don't know how to react.
I'm sorry, all of you who are reading this, for dwelling on it, for maybe slowing you down in your recovery process, I'm sorry. Maybe I'll feel better in the weeks to come, allowing that nothing else happens. *hugs everyone* You also know I'm not much of a religious person, but I'm thinking of going to church this Sunday if I don't have to work. I don't know if it would make me feel better, but it works for some people, so I might just give it a try. I'm also going to wear some combination of red, white and blue tomorrow. I wonder if anyone else in my school will. Somehow I doubt it. No one seems to care that much. I told one of my friends I was feeling down, and she had no idea why, and when I told her she just said "oh" and changed the subject. I don't know if this is some way of coping by going into denial, or if they honestly don't care. Either way, it's a little unnerving that my life feels so drastically impacted, and they're moving on with theirs as if nothing happened. Maybe it's because I have so many long-distance friends that I'm not stuck in the small-town mentality that many people around here have. A lot of people here seem to think nothing that happens outside this town and this school and their little clique of friends and enemies matters at all. This is why I can't relate to anyone in my town.
*sighs* And that English assignment is still sitting in front of me, untouched. And I haven't even thought about writing anything since Tuesday, and I don't even know how I'm going to manage to concentrate on work for 8 hours on Saturday. I'm frozen. I want nothing more than to go back to when everyone's blog entries were about nice mundane funny things like finding cool websites and gushing about bishonen.
Once again, I'm sorry.
filling the space with time on Thursday, September 13, 2001 at 07:16 p.m.
..... So.
School went fairly normally today. Had to write a response paper in economics, and for some reason I found myself pretty much unable to put any real emotion into it. I don't know why. Maybe it was the short timeframe, maybe it was the awareness that I was doing this for a school project, not for my own benefit, but I was hoping it'd be a cathartic thing and it just wasn't.
I'm okay, but I'm still not quite myself. At the moment, I'm a little worried that this will end up tearing people apart, on the country-wide level as well as on a personal friend-to-friend level. I spent most of last night roaming the web, reading blogs of people I don't even know, just to get reactions. And in addition to the really heartbreaking stuff, those who lost friends and family, I've seen two specific camps popping up. There are the angry patriotic people who are basically running around yelling "you fuck with us, we'll fuck with you", and there are those who want to take a more subtle stance. I can understand where both sides are coming from, but they just don't mesh. I don't want to get into my opinion any more than I already have, because I don't want to get in arguments or give people more reason to fight, but I'm just hoping we can all come together and stand united and all that good stuff. *sigh*
Kim, you've said most things a lot better than I have. And I already told you, please don't think that we're just putting up with you. I'm glad that you consider us a safe harbor (it was a good metaphor, by the way ^^), because I feel the same way. I'm lucky to have you as a friend. (Besides, if not for you, who would corrupt me into new obsessions that take up all my time, money and brainpower, huh? ^_~)
Well, that's that. At the moment I feel like curling up and sleeping for about six years. I can't quite describe it, but there's a sort of weight on my heart that isn't going to disappear overnight. Then again, I can take some small comfort in the fact that most of the rest of the country is going through the same thing. *hugs everyone again* I wish I could be there in person to give and get hugs, but hey, you take what you can get at the moment. ^^
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 12, 2001 at 04:20 p.m.
Yes. I am okay. I won't be complaining about living in a small town for quite a while after this. NYC is really rather far away from me, but I've gotten several people telling me they were concerned... *huggles everyone* Other than general outrage and sadness and shock, I'm hanging in there pretty well. Everyone keep those still in NYC and the Pentagon in your thoughts, that those missing will be found unharmed and those who lost their lives will be remembered (and somehow avenged, not that I'm a really violent person, but I believe there should be some consequence for this... not that these people particularly care, since they're obviously willing to die for their fanatical little cause...).
*deep breath* ... Wow. What do you say to something like this? :/ It's unbelievable the chain of events that was set off by this attack. Whoever was behind it affected every single person in this nation in some way, large or small, from those who lost their lives, to those who lost family members or friends, to those who simply had their everyday life interrupted in some way... but whatever it was, I think it's astounding that this one event touched EVERYONE at least a little. I think that's exactly what they wanted.
And what now? *shrugs* All I can say is, I will be hoping just as hard that we don't end up going to war over this. What with nuclear weapons and germ warfare and all of that, war is a terrifying thought. I've heard a lot of talk about simply blasting the country that the terrorists are hiding, and as much as I want them to come to justice, something within me won't let me condone that kind of mass slaughter. *sighs* Here's hoping this will be the end of it.
That's about all I have to say on this topic... it will certainly be picked apart in the days to come, but rationalizing it couldn't possibly help at this point. To all my friends, I'm so glad you're all okay, I'm glad none of you were in the affected area, I love you all and if anything were to happen to you I wouldn't even know what to do. *huggles tight*
filling the space with time on Tuesday, September 11, 2001 at 08:24 p.m.
Erm, yes, Bell-san, it was you I got it from. ^^;;; I feel like a stalker or something. *snicker* Hey, you have good stuff on your blog. ^___^ And waiiii that would be so cool if you put the drama up on your site! *bounces* I'd love to hear it. But waaahhh, don't call me Mokona! XD (pupuu? o.o;;;)
Anna! Yes! You need to read the manga and watch the OAV and TV series (when it comes out that is) and... and... get obsessed like I am XD and yes, Satsuki is cool. I want her and Yuuto to get together, they would make quite an interesting couple. ^_^
Brief rant time. This makes me really, really angry. Sure, go ahead and rationalize the fact that I and many other people like me enjoy reading yaoi/slash by making it sound like some kind of fucking psychological problem. That article effectively lumped all slash writers/readers into the category of antisocial losers who are too afraid to experience relationships in the real world. You know, lots of men like the idea of lesbians. When they do it, it's just being a guy, but when women do something similar, it's some kind of mental illness. Is that fair? hehe, in all seriousness, it pissed me off. They don't have the right to sue-- or at least they shouldn't have the right to sue... It's freedom of speech, and if some little kid is too goddamn dumb to stick around and read after being warned 89 times that this isn't something they should be reading, that's their own fault. Or their parents' for not teaching them how to take directions better. Take that. :P
OK, no more ranting. ^^;;; Eeee. Look what I found. *melts* The only trouble is, they have both English and Japanese sounds, and don't specify which is which. I did listen to a few of the Japanese ones, and (big surprise) I like the dub *much* better. ^___^ But that's a small price to pay for the pleasure of finding out that he even sounds good while singing about slaughter and genocide... *snicker* (alright, so I got that from here, so I cheated, so sue me :P) oooh, I want to adopt him and keep him in my closet and make him speak for me. XD
Blar. I don't feel well. Stomach hurts. XP
filling the space with time on Monday, September 10, 2001 at 08:07 p.m.
Youuuu abandoned meeee.... love don't live heeeeere anymoooore....
OK, somebody make me stop listening to Madonna. ^^;;;;
I'm pretty much done being in a funk, but now I'm just feeling indecisive. Finally found a place to purchase the VHS version of the X OAV. It's $37. I could get 6 fansub tapes for $37, do I really want to spend that much on a half-hour-long OAV that I won't even be able to understand? Especially since I'm really only buying it for two or three short scenes? (since most of it is Kakyou, and I really don't like Kakyou all that much) Besides, it'll probably be out in fansub relatively soon... but then again, it could take months, and I don't even know if it's on anyone's project list at all, let alone if they're working on it right now.
Besides, the depth of my obsession knows no bounds. *groans and prepares self to suck up for use of the credit card* Sometimes I love my job. I really do. As long as I don't spend more than $100 a week (um... well, not too often anyway *remembers the fact that she's already spent about $133 this weekend and meeps*), I'm good. ^___^ 'Sides, once I get the OAV and the stuff I just bought on Ebay and my plushie, I'll be set for a lil while... hopefully... I still want YnM and the second CCS movie and IP, but I guess that can wait a while... oi *pulls hair out* so much anime, so little money! *wail*
Waaaaiiit. Christmas is coming up. *evil grin* mwahahaha
You all, quit being all "it was my fault", 'cause it wasn't. Tis just one of those things. You can't tell me the thought has never crossed your mind to smack me upside the head when I start in on one of my usual rants about how certain people are underappreciated/are meant to be together/need to stay away from other certain people/etc.... *snicker* I can deal with being utterly jrock/jpop ignorant. Just don't mind me if I get completely lost and start whining. hehe
And in an odd twist, I got more proof today to back up my theory that Fujitaka and Aoki are the same person. I was reading through CCS stuff and found out that in one of the dramas, it's revealed that Nadeshiko proposed to Fujitaka... in Aoki's drama it also mentions that his wife was the one to propose to him... odd, ne? I think CLAMP did this on purpose *snicker* maybe it's just 'cause they're both the kind of guys who you can imagine being all shy and taking forever to propose, until the woman finally gets sick of waiting and does it herself... XD how cute... but yeah, I thought that was funny. I need to go watch eps 10 and 11 (? I think... the Flower Card ep and the one where Sakura visits Tomoyo's house) again, 'cause they are just illegally adorable. ^__^
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 9, 2001 at 04:29 p.m.
Blar. I'm feeling extremely argumentative today. I just get in these moods sometimes when everything everyone says gets me irritated or pissed off or just makes me want to contradict. Sorry if I've been a bitch to anyone today, it's not your fault, it's just me and my moods. :/
I'm just feeling really stupid and out of the loop lately. Half the stuff everyone talks about, I don't like or understand. Usually it doesn't matter to me, but tonight I'm feeling bitchy and it's bothering me. It's not that I'm so selfish that I think people should only talk about things I like, but that I'm thinking that everyone thinks I'm boring or no fun to talk to because I'm not into a lot of the stuff they are. *sigh* I don't know, I just feel stupid, like I've already said everything I have to say, and now I'm just babbling and rambling and boring people to death. I think people just humor me, tolerate me and my obsessiveness about the most obscure things and my irritating mood swings and everything else that comes of being me.
*sigh* I guess I'm just in a bad mood. I don't really know why, since I had a good day... got a new CD player, bought a new copy of my favorite CD and got a different one too, didn't have to go to work.... *shrug* hopefully I'll snap out of it soon. :/
Nothing much to say socially. To all my friends, I love you even if you think I'm an irritating little pest, which, if I were you, I'd probably think so, so I wouldn't hold it against you. *drags self off to see if looking at little Sei's ass long enough will cheer her up*
filling the space with time on Saturday, September 8, 2001 at 11:22 p.m.
Guess who's got the whole weekend off! I think it's me.... ^______^
Then again, guess who gets to work 8 and a half hours next Saturday! I think it's me.... XP oh well. It's worth it. Of course, I won't be feeling that way next Saturday, but at the moment I am. ^_^
Before I start being all social and shit, I must bitch. Whhhhhyyyy do people put live versions of songs up for download without SAYING that they're the live version? Then I end up wasting time and disk space downloading it before I figure out it's not the damn version I wanted. *whine*
Also, my connection refuses to work for longer than 20 minutes at a time, I have to figure out some way to buy myself a CD player tomorrow without anyone noticing, not to mention the fact that it's going to cost me nearly an entire paycheck, and... uh... I just feel like bitching, god dammit. Also, Codi has angered me with her taunting ways. Tempting me with talk of a fic and then not typing it up... I'm sorely disappointed. Screw the lightning storm, get your ass on here and start typing, bitch. *cracks whip* hehehe
By the way, I think I like your attitude. "You, shut the fuck up..." lmao but you totally lost me with that whole number conversation. o.o;;;;; And, um, I have to say that someone yelling "It's not erotic" in the middle of a class would definitely get my attention XD *falls over* Big ball of stupid, hey that's a nice insult *snicker*
Awww *huggles* thank you, I could definitely use the cheering up (although having the weekend off made me happy ^^ hehehe), and it would rock if you wrote more ^____^
And yay, glad you liked the song ^^ I love it when other people check out my obsessions, hehehe. And yeah, it is kind of a Sorata song *nod* Interesting song associations XD the Smooth Criminal one actually works pretty well...
As for nsync on the VMAs... all I will say is oooh, they can hump my floor anytime *snickercough* JC is... eeeee. Only, now whenever I think of/hear/see them, I get a big blinking "SLASH" sign going off in my head. Oh yes, they're so gay. I don't care how straight they might be in real life (and how straight can they really be in those outfits o.o;;;;), they are so very gay. *snerk*
Lala. By the way, my plushie still has not arrived. See Keri. See Keri pout. See Keri whap the Neotoys people upside the head because obviously they're working on the pony express system here. ><
filling the space with time on Friday, September 7, 2001 at 10:42 p.m.
Gotta go to work in about ten minutes, so I don't have time to make a legitimate entry, but before I leave I thought I'd... share something with y'all. As it says in the title... I completely blame Kimmie. Also, I apologize for the fact that it sounds like the leadup to the worst porno you've ever seen. It's not going to be-- um, well, actually it might... ^^;;; Anyway. Read, comment, don't get too scared. It got me a "woo", therefore perhaps it's not as bad as I think it is. lol
*runs off*
filling the space with time on Friday, September 7, 2001 at 03:28 p.m.
It is a dark day, one that will go down in history...
I have been deprived of the DMB CD that I am currently completely addicted to and have only had for ONE DAMN WEEK. They will pay. Oh yes. They will pay. As soon as I figure out who they are, anyway. *stews and simmers with smoke coming out the top of her head*
Seriously. I'm pissed and ready to break out the bitchslap attack. Some fucker stole my CD player out of my perfectly locked and tightly shut locker. Yep, the one that was one of my major Christmas presents last year and cost like a hundred bucks AND HAD MY FAVORITE CD IN IT.
*growls*
Such a lovely start to my senior year, ne? Second fucking day and I get something stolen for the first time since... ever. *siiiigh* I know I won't get it back, either, because if they went to all the trouble to actually break into my locker, they're not gonna give it back. Which means I'm shit outta luck until such time as I get sick of living without my own CD player and tell the parents, at which time I'll get the old "you should be more careful with your things and I knew something like this would happen and I told you not to bring it and are you sure you didn't just lose it because you're such an absentminded idiot etc. etc." lecture. -_-
I'm too pissed off and morose (*wail* my cddddddddd) to do much social blogging right now but I will just say that I love Kim, she rocks, and she needs to write more often. *huggle* But he doesn't look like a chicken! wahhh! hehehe
That's it. Time to go waste bandwidth and disk space downloading songs I would already have on CD right now if my school wasn't so fucking ghetto and full of kleptos. ><
filling the space with time on Thursday, September 6, 2001 at 06:25 p.m.
Just kick the posers' asses, Codi. I still don't get why they'd even sign up if they don't know and don't care about anime.... *shrug*
Sim you seems pretty cool, really. I've never played your house, though. You just come over and visit sometimes. Except, I think once you wouldn't come over because you had to wash your hair or some sad excuse like that. Fine. Be that way. *sob* lol and yeah, your dreams are scary o.o;;;; I have fairly normal dreams, except every now and then I have one about someone close to me committing suicide... then I end up being freaked out for the whole next day... :/
Ne ne Kimmie, did you download any DMB songs yet? ^___^ If not, I'd suggest getting... hmm... "The Dreaming Tree". Or "The Stone", just 'cause I like it. Eeee, it's so pretty and it gives me chills. *_*
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 5, 2001 at 07:42 p.m.
Well, today was the first day of my senior year of high school. La la. It didn't suck much. I have a decent gym class, which is good, because gym drives me to the point of self-hatred and despair even WITH friends in the class, let alone without. They're making my friend take double gym because she had medical problems last year, which I think is ridiculous, but New York State has more fucking gym requirements than anyone else in the United States, I swear. Anyway, the rest of my classes aren't bad either. The new economics/govt teacher, Mr. B (I can't spell his last name lmao), is pretty cool, he's young and sarcastic, which is always fun. *snicker* My psych teacher's new too, she's a bit of a ditz, and her name is Miss Droney, which is a truly unfortunate last name especially when you're a teacher... lol, English is going to be tough, considering I'm taking two different classes that both have tons of writing and reading assignments... *groan* it's good not to have to worry about science labs, though. Plus, I have a studyhall for the first time since sophomore year. Wheee.
Cigarettes are not edible. :P
Yes, me too. I was reading through all the shorts yesterday, some of them were just incredible, their writing style is incredibly realistic somehow and I really like it. ^^ And yay for The Sims. I like that game, but I can only play it in small, controlled periods of time, until I start wanting to slap them for being such high-maintenence bitches. *snicker* And I made my last family way back in... March or something... it's, uh, interesting. Let's just say we don't all get along, 'cause I made some of them massive bitches. *cough* And the Sim version of my friend Tony was in love with the Sim version of Kim, last I checked. XD
Awww, lucky Kimmie got her Subby plushie... I was hoping my plushie would come today, but it didn't. Grrr to that. Hopefully tomorrow. But, as I told C&C yesterday on the phone, it has flippy hair power, so I must have faith in it. *snicker* And yes I think I do have a teensy bit of a VA crush *giggle* his voice is just so nice!! I think Vash and Kaneda are the only voice work he's done so far, though... he needs to do more. I'm glad you liked my fic. I was just wandering around thinking "damn, I feel like writing some yaoi... can't do Sei and Sub 'cause I suck too much... heyyy might as well try Y/S 'cause I've always wanted to see that" and, well, yeah. hehe and "Save Yourself" could be a good song for them even if you hate the pairing, since isn't the whole point of the song saying go away and don't try to have a relationship with me 'cause we're both fucked up? hehe, I could see that happening with them, since we already know that Kamui wants some Sumeragi ass. :/
Am I the only one who thinks this screams Sei/Sub? I dunno, it really reminds me of them:
Oh, have you no pity
This thing I do, I do not deny it
All through this smile, as crooked as danger
Do not deny, I know in my mind
I would leave you now, if I had the strength to
I would leave you up to your own devices
Will you not talk, can you take pity
I don't ask much, but won't you speak please
*shrug* I dunno. This song gives me the creeps. In a good way. ^___^
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 5, 2001 at 03:02 p.m.
Akira... was so fucking awesome. Even though I spent most of the movie yelling about how if they even thought about killing Kaneda off, I was going to hunt them down... OK, so I got a little attached to him. ^^;;;; Then I realized Johnny Yong Bosch (who is also Vash, in case you haven't been paying attention *snicker*) did his voice. Welllll. I think I need to molest that man. I like his laugh. It's cute. The movie was gorgeous though... so detailed... and it wasn't really as angsty and dark as I expected it to be, there were moments of humor, which was good. I was definitely getting some yaoish vibes from Kaneda and Tetsuo, too.... hehehe I'm gonna watch the subtitled version prolly tomorrow, and will report then.
Man, I can't believe summer is over. *sigh* I'm kind of excited about school, in a way (yeah, I know that sounds dorky, but I am going to be a senior, and that's kind of cool...), but not in a way that makes me all that anxious to actually go back, if that makes any sense. Oddly enough, this summer didn't fly by. I mean, it didn't drag on or anything, and I wouldn't mind having more time, but last school year feels like it was ages ago. My sense of time has been screwed up all year, really. Somehow I can tell it's going to be even harder than usual to get back into that whole school/homework thing. -_-
But really, this summer was great, different, but fun. I feel like I was able to get closer to some friends, which was good... but at the same time I'm growing apart from others, and oddly it's not bothering me that much. The only thing that bothers me is not being able to be with half of my friends because they're halfway across the country. -_-;;; Oh well. I'll just look forward to next summer, and stop getting all philosophical and sappy now. *snicker*
Music: The Last Stop by Dave Matthews Band... it reminds me of Fuuma... go ahead and dream, go ahead believe that you are the chosen one...
filling the space with time on Tuesday, September 4, 2001 at 06:31 p.m.
I am not going to spend the last day of my summer vacation reading N Sync slash all day.
OK, so maybe I will. But first I'm gonna go watch Akira. I also have a paper to write. That... can wait. *snicker*
filling the space with time on Tuesday, September 4, 2001 at 11:05 a.m.
I see how it is, Codi. If Kim doesn't want to, she doesn't have to, but if I don't, you're going to attack me with a razor and force me to. You just love Kimmie more.... *wail* hehehe
Man, I wish my chest had a magnet for X bish. *pout* And yes, I do believe that is the reason I keep reading if. *sniffles* Just one more word! One more damn word.... and did it have to be the head? He has a pretty head. It needs to stay where it is. *nod*
And she can't make Cori go splat!!! *protective huggles* 'Cause if you're marrying Codi... *snicker*
Music: Stay (Wasting Time) by Dave Matthews Band. This song has gratuitous use of the word "groping". Therefore, it's good XD
filling the space with time on Monday, September 3, 2001 at 09:43 p.m.
Lala. Gotta go to work at 2, and then I get three days off. Whee. Unfortunately, I start school on Wednesday, and I have a paper due, and I haven't even read the book yet. blar.
Codi, I think it'll probably be the second option. Bloodshed. *nod* Although the chibis would be quite adorable. Man, I really want that Asuka cover... *pout* all I have is a very small printout of it...
By the way, re: whoever keeps going to Codi's blog looking for Misty porn... All I have to say is, ick. (Yes, I get bored and look at other peoples' trackers. Mine's not interesting enough. Come on, I talk about tentacle hentai and naked boys... *bounces and waves* come on perverts, over here! XD)
Kim, now I wanna see subtitled X. *wail* Where did you find it? And I'm awfully comforted to know that Kamui has a harder Jew sword than Fuuma does. *snicker*
Umm, damn, X characters really have been getting more and more fascinated with your chest, haven't they? lol
I need to stop reading this fic. Because it always makes me cry. And yet, I keep reading this part... why? I have no idea. *sniffles* It is rather well written. But sad.
filling the space with time on Monday, September 3, 2001 at 11:12 a.m.
Because it sucks when you have to share your naked boys with those damn greedy sticks. *snickers* Buckwheat sure does love him some unclothed men, ne? hehe, and I'm glad you found our crackheaded song parody amusing. It was all because I had a Schwarz pic on my wall and it kept falling off... *shakes head*
Kim, I think you're going to give Codi a heart attack or something by saying you haven't shaved in a week and a half... considering she's obsessive *sticks tongue out at her* And oooh, how was the subtitled X movie? They have Angel Sanctuary at Blockbuster, which shocked me, but it was out. *pout* I got Akira instead. Finally I won't be the only one left who hasn't seen it. hehe
And now that you mention it, Subaru does seem to be ogling some chest. *snicker* Maybe he's getting lonely and considering switching teams? Nah...
On cosplay photos: Indeed, Brad is rather nice-looking. I wouldn't say no to any of the others either, though. hehe, well except Takatori of course, and no I don't know what would possess a person to cosplay as him, but it's rather disturbing. And is it just me, or does the guy in the white suit behind Brad in that pic appear to have no head? o.o;;;;;
Well, I went CD buying today. Got "Something to Remember" by Madonna and "Before These Crowded Streets" by Dave Matthews Band. The DMB one is scary. Even scarier is, once again, half the songs remind me of X. Well, "The Dreaming Tree" actually reminds me of Tokyo Babylon... this part just made me snicker:
When the girl who first he kissed
Promised him she'd be his
Remembered mother's words
There beneath the tree
*cough* OK, so I don't think Dave exactly intended the mother and the girl to be the same person, but... hehehe it also has Subaru angst, and the last few verses fit Hokuto pretty well... I may just have to write a songfic.
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 2, 2001 at 02:19 p.m.
Eri, Buckwheat really has been taught well. *snicker* Here's a few more highlights from my highly messed-up MegaHAL With No Name:
MegaHAL: Howdy to your ass, buddy.
User: That's got to be the most disturbing greeting I've ever been
User: given.
MegaHAL: Well, yes, that makes me sweat.
User: .... Are you trying to talk dirty?
MegaHAL: I want to talk dirty?
User: You do?
MegaHAL: An algorithm is a technoslut who wants karen!
User: You're changing the subject. Why were you talking dirty?
MegaHAL: Because i'm on the subject of anus?
User: You're starting to scare me.
MegaHAL: Yuuto is not a tentacle monster. I don't want to know what's in
MegaHAL: the world ends, we'll be sweet makin love.
User: You want to make sweet love to Yuuto?
MegaHAL: Yuuto may be strong, but i want to make sweet love to yuuto?
User: You do?
MegaHAL: No, i am not a uke, and it's not funny.
User: So you want to be Yuuto's seme, hmm?
MegaHAL: Why do i need to get to scrumping like yesterday.
MegaHAL: Unfortunately, aoki's married however, his wife is a seme.
User: I didn't need to know that.
MegaHAL: You can check out any time you like, but you can fuck, either.
User: The Eagles would be proud.
MegaHAL: Welcome to my chest. That would be uncomfortable.
*snicker* That last one could almost be a Kanoe quote...
So, what's it like having a Mexican living in your fridge? hehehe
filling the space with time on Saturday, September 1, 2001 at 10:19 p.m.
Blog's got a pretty new layout, I have lots to reply to, just read a really good fic ^^... happy Keri. At least until 4, when I turn into Bitchy Doesn't Want To Go To Work Keri.
Yes, Kim, I think they would.. wait no that'd be a bad thing! *sniffle* I think they'd just figure out they were twins separated at birth, and then compare notes on their families, and finally get into a bitch fight because Fujitaka looked at Karen the wrong way... although with those two, a bitch fight would be something like:
"Sir, you have offended me."
*genki smile* "No, you have offended me."
*gets flustered* "Yeah well... uh... you're an... uncouth heathen!"
And so on. *snicker*
Eri, the new blog looks nice! Tis cool how we lined up. ^^
Codi, your top 10 list was great! XD loved the little Touya/Yukito scene, I'd pay good money to see that, oh yes I would. *nod* "Not that Sei died or anything"... *snicker* yay, denial is fun. Ah, screw it, we should just have one volume of every CLAMP manga where all the UST, longing looks, complicated relationships, etc. are thrown out the window and everyone. gets. laid. *snicker* Just make the damn fangirls happy, that's all I'm saying.
filling the space with time on Saturday, September 1, 2001 at 12:27 p.m.
Wheee! SB finally gets a legit layout! XD I love you Codi! It's so.... cute! *squeal*
And as for the hentai squirrels... It wasn't me. *snicker*
filling the space with time on Friday, August 31, 2001 at 11:21 p.m.
Kimmie, you are definitely evil. *snicker* But I agree, spoiler spaces are a pain. It's been almost a year since it happened, what the hell are people waiting for? Either order the damn manga, or get over it and be spoiled. Yeesh.
And that's the point of throwing CCS in there, I'd love to see the look on Kamui or Subaru's face when they meet up with ubergenki Sakura or get a hyperactive Kero-chan flying in their faces. XD ok, so it would amuse me.
I'm all for entries 3 and 4... and 10, for that matter. *snicker* And I already told you, ghost sex is definitely something I could get into. XD
*whap* Make a list! I wanna see what you'd say. :_: You are too funny, by the way, bitch. :P hehehe and I love the things that remind you of me. All very good things. *beams* For some reason, whenever I hear "It's My Life" by Bon Jovi, I think of Al. I think she said she liked it a few times or something, but I just associate it with her. *shrug* let's see, what else... for you two, "Hello It's Me", because you always used to listen to it all the time, and then you got me hooked on it... lol, that or that Beatles song you always sing with my name in it... "Dear Prudence"? Yeah, if I had ever heard that song before, it'd remind me of you. *snicker*
Ewww, Jordan Knight? I'm listening to "This Night Has Opened My Eyes" by the Smiths. *sings* Ohhhhhh please save your life, 'cause you've only got oneeeeee.....
filling the space with time on Friday, August 31, 2001 at 09:37 p.m.
