OK, being without my e-mail is really starting to get annoying. >< I'm going to have to call tech support again. Them and their damn server upgrade fucked me all up and I am seriously missing having my ML mail. I can't even post on any of my MLs because Yahoo won't let you post or do anything when your account is bouncing e-mails. ><;;; And I was finally going to post my Y/S fic on CFFML, too (I saw that you recommended it to the person looking for Yuuto fics... arigato ^_^). *poutpout*
*snicker* Grease and X, oh no. I don't need to start thinking about that again. We all had a very interesting conversation along those lines once, and I can remember watching my tape of Grease that night and just cracking up every five minutes because I was picturing the X characters in the roles we had given them... XD XD (Seishirou and Subaru were Danny and Sandy. ~~;;;; hehehe) I can understand the Harry Potter obsession, too... ^^;;; I just finished rereading "Prisoner of Azkaban", which happens to be my favorite of the series. Siiirrriiiuuuusss... *cough* and Lupin kicks ass. I didn't realize it as much before, but he does. I'm starting on book 4 again now, it's been almost exactly a year since I've read it (since it was around Thanksgiving) ~~;;; Man, is it just me, or is Cho Chang a stupid ho? I'm trying to figure out why I think she is one, 'cause I'm not really a big 'shipper of Harry with anyone else (*coughbutmaybedracocoughcoughchoke* o.o;;;;), but grrr she just gets on my nerves.
*sniffles* Kimmie thinks I suck! (Yes, I am one of those people who hates DBZ because it's slow and not pretty. :P hehe) But that's okay, 'cause I'm part of her harem, so she still loves me. XD That's cute about your mom calling us the Four Musketeers, but sheesh, maturity is highly overrated *nodnod* yes we should definitely write more of the round robin fic... I'll be around and bored tonight... *looks cute and hopeful* And I don't even want to know about the Daisuke dream. I really don't. XP (gomen nasai Ammie-chan... you'll still marry me, right? XD)
Speaking of you... he pretended it was a wrong number because his workplace was calling, presumably to yell at him for being late... XD poor baby! I can see how that conversation would go... "Yeah, sorry boss, I just had to help a girl with a sword in her hand fight with a bunch of curse zombies with my wind-powers... I'll be right there, I swear!" *snicker* Huh... beatnik Sorata... I could probably get behind that. *nod* It'd be better than the whole baseball-cap and t-shirt thing... I have mentioned that I hate that outfit, right? ^^;;;; I'm glad he never wore it again after the first few books. He looks much better in nicer casual clothes or in a suit... it makes him look more mature, I guess, and less like a street punk (or maybe it's just my suit fetish talking XD). Hopefully the TV series look will adapt as well, 'cause right now I really don't like it. XP
*nodnod* I definitely plan to enjoy the movie. ^_____^ I've honestly never looked forward to a movie this much. This is a level of excitement typically relegated to Asuka updates, new parts of my favorite fics, and Christmas morning XD I wasn't all that hyped about it at first, but everyone's been talking about it and I've been rereading the books and oooh I just can't wait! *bounces like a fangirl* yep, I'm a dork. hehehe
filling the space with time on Wednesday, November 14, 2001 at 02:52 p.m.
*deep breath*
.... *SQUEAL!*
Yeah. I got advance tickets. ^_____^ At 1:10 pm on Saturday, November 17th, I will be sitting in the theater watching the first book of my favorite series ever come to life. Unfortunately, the whole damned family is tagging along, which kind of sucks, because I would've preferred to see it on my own. That way I could squeal without getting weird looks. ^^;;; Oh well. I can't waaaaiiiittt! I watched the special last night... stupid Katie Couric, she ruined it. Not to be insensitive or nothin', but does everything have to have at least one heartwarming-inspirational-kid-with-cancer story on it? That sort of thing has its place, but not in the middle of a behind-the-scenes special on a movie. Stupid Katie Couric. She was a bitch during the interviews, too... I'm sure "You are aware that if this bombs no one will ever hire you again, right?" is exactly the kind of question a director wants to answer right before his big movie comes out. >< But on the upside, boy, are those kids ever cute! I love their accents. ^___^
Keir, eh? Interesting *snicker* And I'm not so thrilled with Draco's hair myself. The kid has potential, but I'm not digging the slicked-back look. Oh well. Everyone sure seems to be drooling over Alan Rickman. o.o;;; I haven't made my call yet. Haven't gotten a good look at him (all his shots as Snape that have been released are kinda shadowy), and I can't remember what other movies he's been in o.o But he sounds nice, at least. "Fame isn't everything..." *brrr* hehehe
Awww, I wanna see your Sora/Yuuto shrine! And yes, I know this is an older entry than the last one I responded to, I forgot, so sue me... lol yes, the sequel is pretty much 100% witty banter and sex. XD XD And yes, Aoki only married Shimako because ummm... he was drunk. ^_^ (He's a fun drunk. *pokes at really weird fic she needs to finish and giggles*) Loved the bunnyslash! *snerk* 'specially the Sora/Yuuto bits (I wrote beets... o_o;;;). ^____^ I can so see Kanoe and Satsuki getting pissy and jealous. Eh, they can go grope each other. Tisn't much yuri in X ('cept for that pointless little moment of Kotori-gropage by Kanoe in the movie o_O), might as well start some. XD
Speaking of Kanoe being a ho, I finally finished downloading X 4 (and it only took a week! *growls* gotta love my shitty 56K connection)!!! And oh man... I want to have his children. (Especially the fifth pic. Holy shit. Take me now. *_*) And Yuuto be lookin' damn fine as well. (Yes, I got bored and took lots of screenshots, and yes, I am mad biased. XD) Unfortunately, I'm finding it pretty difficult to like anime Sorata. I'm trying, I really am, but... god, his voice is so annoying. >< And his looks aren't impressing me much either. In the manga he's not pretty in a sexy, manly kind of way, but in the TV show he's just not pretty in a dorky weird kind of way. *sniffles* Maybe he'll get better once they put him in a suit (they are letting him wear a suit at least once, aren't they? Pleeeeeaaase? :_:). But all in all I'm loving it so far. Aoki pretending the caller had the wrong number was so damn cute. waaiiii *huggles him* XD
Oh, and Monsters Inc was cute. The bad guy creeped me out, what with all the slithering and going invisible... o.o;;;; The little girl was adorable and the big fight scene was pretty creative and well done. It wasn't as funny as I expected it to be, though, although there were some amusing parts... ah well. I got to see the HP trailer, too. Or, I would have, had my father not been pissing me off the whole time by causing unnecessary complications as to who was sitting where and who got the popcorn and etc. etc. etc. Bastard made me miss practically the whole thing. >< Oh well. Next Saturdaaaaaayyyy..... ^____^v
filling the space with time on Monday, November 12, 2001 at 2:48 p.m.
I'm having the worst day. >< Work was hell... I kept screwing up, I ended up being $12 off on my drawer which means I'm going to get written up, and people seem to be getting worse and worse at reading signs. I am tired of being whined at about sale prices that do not exist. If you're so worried about saving 50 cents on your god damn cat food, my dear customers, READ THE DAMN SIGNS CORRECTLY. And while you're at it, don't point to your groceries if I don't start ringing them up immediately. I do have eyes. Also, don't stare blankly at me when I ask you for your stupid discount card. You'd think after the fourteenth time you were asked for it, you might remember it existed.
OK. Needed to vent that. XD And now I get home and find out that my e-mail server is bouncing mails for no particular reason. And Yahoogroups won't even let me post on the site, because of that. Ironically, the only mail that managed to get through the server today was... Junk mail. Advertising legal advice. MY PARENTS ARE LAWYERS, PEOPLE. *pulls hair out* lol
Going out to see Monsters Inc. (and pick up my presale tickets for Harry Potter next weekend, WAIIII!!! *squeals and bounces a lot*), hopefully that will cheer me up. >< Will do social blogging later.
filling the space with time on Sunday, November 11, 2001 at 03:32 p.m.
Wahh. Everybody left me. Bored bored. Everyone should get an AIM screenname so I can hold a massive chat with all my friends one of these days. If you don't, I'll poke you. Yep. And you don't want that. *tries to look scary*
I need to read IWTV one of these days. My mom has the whole series, she loves 'em but can't stand the rest of Anne Rice's work. *shrug* And poor Seishirou, we're always turning him into some kind of dendrophiliac XD XD
'Course I mean it! hehe, there's even room for Daisuke and Keiichi... they can live in the bathtub or something *snicker* And umm, I don't think I want Fuuma climbing down my chimney. Imagine Fuuma with a big fluffy beard... Imagine any of the X males with facial hair! *cackles and falls over* They're all so pretty... and it wouldn't even look good on the non-pretty ones... imagine Sorata or Daisuke with a goatee O.O;;;; *scared herself* ok, how did I even get on this tangent? *snerk*
Woohoo! Party! hehehe
*pouts* I'm in the mood to read some good new fanfiction, and there isn't any. I need fics like some people need chocolate. Or alcohol. Or heroin. Or... OK, you get the point. There are a couple of fics I'm anxiously waiting on... more of Lika's marital bliss fic (waiii I want more semi-nudity ^^;;;;), Maria's oneshot (strangely enough, I toyed with the idea of writing an X fic called "The Other Woman" myself... *snicker* I hope it's about who I think it'll be about ^_^), and of course more Dirty Pop from Kimmie and C. (And you! Don't think you're off the hook! Write more of the damned Hawaii fic! XD) Ahhh, I know so many talented writers ^__^ This isn't a "hurry up" message or anything, I know you guys are busy... just letting y'all know that I'm a fan. *beam*
filling the space with time on Saturday, November 10, 2001 at 09:08 p.m.
I went shopping. I didn't buy anything. *pout* But I did see a few Harry Potter action figures, and promptly squealed. I want the little Draco! Waiiii! (I have a weird thing for Draco... he's evil but fun fun ^_^)
*squeal* Lika-chan! January 15th is my birthday... give it back! XD I usually don't meet people with the same birthdate as me, but I've heard of two of them in the past month (you and Mr. Maddox *snerk* hot boiii, come to NY! ^^;;;). That's pretty cool! ^__^ And yes, I am being nice to my mom. I have to kinda act as translator, because my dad is a dumbass and doesn't understand at all what she's trying to communicate. Which puts him in a bad mood, and my dad is not fun to be around when he's in a bad mood. >< Ah well. hehe
Nice pics! You're so lucky to have gotten to act so much. There's nothing like being on stage. I've only had bit parts, but I had so much fun with them... I would've tried out for the play this year, but the guy running it is a bastard and I don't really wanna deal with him for months on end. Besides, he wanted us to memorize two parts to try out for, just for the audition. I would so shoot myself if I went through all that work memorizing things and then didn't get a part. >< oh yes and *snuggleglompcuddles back* XD
Das Kraekhaus! XD oh, and was there UST? lmao :P
That's a long list. o.o And if you're going to marry Kim, you're going to have to move to Utah with me and her and Codi (and Cori, I think, I can't remember XD), 'cause we called her first. *snicker*
Hmm, some stuff I was gonna mention... oh yes, I got the lovely news today that my AP English teacher is switching jobs and will be gone by the end of the month. Which is not good, because as much as I thought he was a pretentious wanker, at least he was a pretentious wanker who was able to prepare us for the AP exam. And if we get someone who can't, then we are screwed, because AP exams are hard as fuck. And if we get stuck with Rice, I will cry. (Rice being the aforementioned bastard who is running the play. He's also an English teacher. I have never had him, but by all accounts and from what I have seen of him from auditions last year, he is one world-class bastard. And boy, is it fun to talk shit about people I know will never read this blog. XD) Blargh. But anyway. We read a really kickass poem (by Bob Dylan of all people) in class today. Entitled Last Thoughts on Woody Guthrie. Even if you don't know who Woody Guthrie is (which I don't really but I guess he was some folk singer *shrug*), it's a really cool poem. Click. Read. Be inspired, or something. *snicker*
And I would also just like to state for the record that Sexy Losers is probably the funniest online comic I have ever come across. And hentai. My God, is it hentai. So, like, don't click that link if you have a problem with really dark humor about weird shit like incest and necrophilia and such. o.o;;; (Wait till Google archives this, I'll be getting some lovely search requests I bet.) And while perusing the guest comic section, I found one that made me laugh so hard I just about ruptured something, and I'm not even sure why. XD click click. I also liked this one. *snerk*
filling the space with time on Friday, November 9, 2001 at 10:06 p.m.
My life is surreal. XD
So, some of you might know that my mom's been sick for a month or so with respiratory problems and such. Well, she just went to the doctor, and it turns out she has swollen vocal cords. Which means she's not allowed to talk. For a week. She is currently communicating with us by either making elaborate charades-like hand signals until we figure out what she's talking about, or by writing on a miniature Magna Doodle board.
... This sounds like the plot to a bad sitcom episode. But the upside to all this is, that'll be one less person to yell at me for the next week or so. XD
filling the space with time on Friday, November 9, 2001 at 05:22 p.m.
Well, it looks like Pitas has gotten the little diva fit out of its system at last. Unfortunately, now my e-mail server just up and decided to eat all mail recieved from about 11pm last night to 3pm today. So if anyone sent me an email (to my address specifically, 'cause I can get my ML
mail off Yahoogroups), please send it again if it was important ^^;;;
Oh well. I got home early from school (ortho appt ><), then proceeded to take a three-hour nap. I swear, I can never just lay down and sleep for half an hour or something. -_- Dunno what's wrong with me, I'm constantly tired. Used to be that I could subsist on 3 or 4 hours of sleep, now I get about seven hours a night plus two or three hours of napping per day and I'm still always tired. :/ I'm getting old XD
Subby/Satsuki scares me. Although they do seem to be in a lot of official pics together, so who knows. hehe
XD XD loved the Fuuma
song! (And is "Wings of Desire" archived anywhere other than on CFFML? 'Cause I'd like to nominate it for the awards... if not I can just use the message number I think, but I thought I'd ask ^__^)
Hm, I don't know if I mentioned this before, but I watched Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within a few days ago, and damn, what a fucking depressing ending. I liked the movie though. Even though just about everyone I know said that it
sucked except for the graphics. It was very impressive-looking, in any case... a bit slow in parts, but that's forgivable... and there was at least one time where the soundtrack and the movement of the character's lips were so off that it reminded me of a bad Godzilla movie, but you can't have everything, I guess. XD
filling the space with time on Thursday, November 8, 2001 at 04:57 p.m.
I am so god-damn happy.
Honestly. I'm happier than I've been in weeks, months. I'm so genki I could slap myself. I'm not even altogether sure why, although I have a pretty good idea. It's just... I have this feeling like maybe the world really is all right. Things are brighter. I guess I had a revelation or something... that my life is good... that maybe there is good in me... Ah well, if I analyze it it might go away, so I won't. ^___^ *big huggles for everyone*
That poem is so cool! ^_^ Poetry is one thing I'm not terribly good at... I only write it when I'm feeling extremely angsty or angry, so the results usually aren't too coherent. >< And as for nymphomaniac librarians, funny you should use that term, because that's what my mom always calls her old college roommate. XD I'm glad you liked the fics! *glomps* I'll try to get that Y/S sequel written soon (after all, Kim did promise me a certain drawing XD XD). I have so many fics to finish ~~;;;;
Thanks! hehehe, yes, I am sick of stereotypical fics, which is part of the reason I'm not active in WK fandom anymore. I should watch Smallville one of these days. My mom keeps ranting about how hot all the guys on the show are XD she scares me sometimes...
Dude, where did you find the doujinshi pics? I've never seen any X doujinshi pics before. *pout* Did they have any other characters?
They didn't! *covers ears and goes la-la-la* XD alright, I'll stop being immature. *ears perk up* Oneshot? More info onegai? What's it about, ne? ^__^
*ahem* Karen... Subaru... erk. *dies* XD that is so incredibly scary. Mostly 'cause it involves Subaru being, ah, straight. O.O;;; But I guess a blending of their genes would turn out pretty well. She's beautiful, he's beautiful... yeah. ^_^ hehehe... hmmm... If They Mated with X characters... *snerk* can you see Daisuke and Keiichi's kids?!? Or... Yuuto and Sorata's *snickerchokecough* I think Sei and Subby would have really adorable kids, who would grow up to be incredibly hot. *nods*
Teehee, someone just posted a challenge on CFFML to write a fic that involves a blackout. Which is weird, because I've had an X fic like that floating about in my head for a long time now (come on, can't you just see Sei and Subby all alone in the dark together... *snerk*). However, I DO NOT NEED a new project. I do not need a new project. I do not need a new project... *wanders off muttering that to herself* ~~;;;
filling the space with time on Tuesday, November 6, 2001 at 03:49 p.m.
A few quick social thingies before I go call the poor children whose monitor blew out :_:
Nice rant. I have issues with the whole concept of OOC, as I've already stated. And that little X-Files poem was sooo twisted. XD
I definitely agree on the Internet issue. There are some nice people here, people I consider friends, but they really don't have all that much in common with me. I go to a very small high school, and the vast majority of people are only interested in sports and partying. Even those I consider my friends have other interests and groups of friends that I don't share. And no one here likes or even knows about anime at all beyond Pokemon and Sailor Moon. So I'm not too close to anyone here... but that's okay. I've found my place, so to speak. Now to get to the point where we're all physically in the same place... ^_^
(and your Yuuto/Karen was better than mine XD XD "shut up or I'll burn you again" *snicker*)
Okay, you have me beat on the Yuuto/Sorata love. I can't really remember when it occurred to me that they'd be fun together. I think it was when that "Ode to Alternate Pairings" hourfic was posted to CFFML. Which also had Seishirou/Aoki in it. I should go find that author and glomp her. XD
Yes, I'll admit it. I have a robot prejudice. XD nah, I don't hate Daisuke... er... let's just say I was a little skeptical on how Daisuke and Aoki could have come from the same family lineage. 'Cause, well, we all know how I feel about Mr. Windypants. And I just didn't think Daisuke was hot or worthy enough to be his nephew XD I'm so shallow... That, and he kinda annoyed me with his uptight attitude. BUT... I have been known to change my mind about characters (those of you who knew me back in the WK days, recall my early Brad Crawford hatred, and my later Brad Crawford worship ^^;;;). I doubt he'll ever become my favorite character, but thanks to you I have gained more respect for him, and I have to admit he and Keiichi would be interesting together. ^_^ And let me know what you thought of the Y/S fic, ne? ^^
filling the space with time on Monday, November 5, 2001 at 05:00 p.m.
Tired. Bored. Having a writer's block crisis. Am convinced I will never write anything of substance ever again. Feel like sharing stuff from back when I used to be able to write. Go. Read. Enjoy. Give me comments and love. Not that I'm desperate or nothin'.
A Nice Moonlight Stroll - This is the Yuuto/Sorata I wrote before everyone else got all into Yuuto/Sorata. Not to brag or anything. XD just kidding. ^_^ Utterly-without-redeeming-value-smut sequel coming soon.
Ummm no title yet - This is the beginning of the thing that is all Ammie's fault.
Five Minute Fanfics - X Edition - Yep. I am a dork. I particularly like Seishirou/Subaru's though *smirk*
Five Minute Fanfics - WK Edition - ... Yeah. Still a dork.
If anyone cares, most of the rest of my fics are up on this site. In case, y'know, any y'all wanted to vote for me in the TB/X Fic Awards. Wink wink, nudge nudge.
I should go pass out now. But hey, I'm finally getting X ep 4 on a pretty steady connection. Which means I could be viewing the umbrella scene as early as tomorrow. Hooray for IRC. ^__^
filling the space with time on Sunday, November 4, 2001 at 10:03 p.m.
La la. Home from work, and my daddy got me pizza. *dances* Mmmm, pizza. ^___^ Although it would also be nice if certain people would get their collective ass online so that I can call them. 'Cause if I don't get to, I'll cry. Bwah. :P
Oh, and IRC really hates me. I swear, it sees me coming and starts up a queue from here to Pennsylvania for every single file I'd ever even consider downloading. >< And whenever I do find a place to download, it kicks me off for no reason. Have been trying all day to get X ep 4 and am only up to 3%. Wah. :_: GIVE ME MY UMBRELLA SCENE! *beat beat beat*
*wails* You! That Ritalin had better not eliminate your random bishonen conversations and fangirl rants, or I will take action. Action that involves throwing dancing Yuutos and maybe even a few slaveboys (and you know how much of a hot commodity those are for me) at you until you return to abnormal. *snicker* And my referrals are scaring me as well. Attention, Spanish-speaking person who's way too interested in the relations between Subaru, Kamui and one or the other of their anuses: STOP COMING TO MY BLOG. I am not your one-stop-shop for anus information. Thank you. XD and good god, do half my hits come from people looking for CCS porn, or what? *groan* It used to be Misty, now it's Sakura. LEAVE THE UNDERAGED GIRLS ALONE!
Looking for nooky, eh? XD well, there's only one A/K citrusy fic out there ("Firestorm" by Shanti Fader), and you've probably already read it. God knows I have. Many times. Many, many times... *ahem*. ^_^ And yes, I have read "Wings of Desire" and I loved it! Can't wait for the next part of the trilogy to come out. The A/K scenes were extremely well done. So well done, in fact, that I'll ignore what I think Yuuto and Karen probably did at one point in the fic. *smiles* XD yeah, yeah, I'm trying to get over my semi-violent aversion to the pairing. *cough* I'm just jealous, you know. 'Cause it's so easy to pair her with Yuuto. You Y/K people don't have any stupid obstacles standing in the way *kicks Shimako* XD
Daisuke's looking awfully... brunette... don't you think? *blink* Oh yeah, weren't you ranting about that a while back? hehe, it's strange... I don't think it's just the general darkness, it looks as if his hair really is brown or black... Heh, that kinda sucks. Daisuke's never been my favorite character *ducks* but I'm used to him being blond... 'Course, they made Aoki's hair a few shades darker as well. Kind of a shame-- I like the light brown. ^___^
You have good points on adultery. Actually, I wouldn't particularly want them to just have an affair. That would suck. Karen's too good to just be someone's mistress. Now, if he wanted to divorce his wife and run off with Karen, I'd have no problem whatsoever with that. Yeah, I know, I'm evil. I don't care. Until I get cold hard proof that whatsherface is a better deal than Karen is, that's my story and I'm sticking to it. XD 'course, I don't know if I'd feel the same way in real life. But hell, they're just manga characters, I might as well play with 'em. hehe ^_^
filling the space with time on Saturday, November 3, 2001 at 08:14 p.m.
Hehe. You there. I know I already said it, but waaaaiiii, you rock! *smirk* Although both Yuuto and Shimako are damn crazy for even considering cheating on their respective spouses, therefore they belong together. XP hehehe... I want more soon... *gives Karen plushie and tries to look really cute and hopeful* ^_^
Well. In an update on the futile struggle for my AP English teacher to give me some goddamn culture (my words not his XD), we had to start reading Anna Karenina this weekend. I read the first twenty pages in studyhall. ... Please tell me it gets better. *groan* I could not possibly care less about this whiny Russian guy and how he cheated on his equally whiny wife. Although all this adultery is really, really amusing for me. See, it's a standard of high literature, therefore it's okay for me to write about it... yeah, that's it ^^;;;
Funny. teehee
OK. I want X 4 like now. Why won't WinMX give up any damn episodes?!? >< *growls at it*
filling the space with time on Friday, November 2, 2001 at 03:02 p.m.
*yawns* Sleepy, as usual. I had a chorus concert tonight... it didn't suck as badly as I thought it was going to, but it still wasn't quite stellar. But then again, I had some really annoying, shrill, nasal, loud person singing in my ear. >< The really fun part was when we were all waiting around in the band room before we went on... me and my friends Ashley and Kaydie had a long, quite interesting conversation which covered, among other things, my supposed uvula fetish, various boyband members' skill at humping the floor, JC Chasez's talent in the sack, and which teachers in the school we'd screw if we absolutely had to. *snickers* Then I was talking about this kid who always goes in the library during studyhall and talks really loud when I'm trying to concentrate on homework... in expressing my irritation toward him, I accidentally combined "I'm gonna kick his ass" and "I'm gonna slap him", and yes, ended up saying I was going to slap his ass. *groans* Hooray for Freudian slips XD XD
*sigh* I'm kinda wanting to write something right now, but I'm not sure what. See, I finished reading The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton today (I had to read it for AP English)... really good book, but extremely frustrating, and I hated the ending. The reason it inspired me is that it's basically the A&K situation set in Victorian times. Honestly, this isn't just the obsession talking XD it reminded me very much of them. 'Course, the whole society thing didn't fit, but I ended up hating May just as much as I hate Shimako. *snicker* It brought up some really interesting issues on the pros and cons of having an affair or getting a divorce because of another woman... which led to the inspiration. Hmm, hmm...
You're right, it doesn't work in Netscape. Hmph. I don't think Netscape likes tables very much.... or maybe it's something else in the code... *shrugs* I really dislike Netscape, personally. Mainly 'cause I'm very much used to using IE... it just seems less temperamental to me. That and I have to use Netscape at school, with the damn censorship-promoting filter. >< By the way, I really like the Subaru layout! ^____^
WAIIII! *bounces* I'm so glad you're liking A/K and Yuuto/Sora! Y/S is kind of my pet weird yaoi pairing, well that and Seishirou/Aoki but we won't get into that ^^;;; I actually wrote a Yuuto/Sora fic, for which I am probably eventually going to write a rather smutty sequel. I'll post the link if anyone wishes to read. ^_^
I feel your pain. November 24th seems so very far away, and there's so much I want to know... Although, I really should be savoring the time before the next update. And we all know why. :_:
*huggles* That's... odd. o.o I hope everything works out okay. For some reason I'm worried... I guess it's just my fear of drugs... *huggles some more*
Oh, yeah, and nice new layouts. :P hehehe
filling the space with time on Thursday, November 1, 2001 at 09:46 p.m.
*happy sigh* I have candy, I'm all sugared up and in a lovely mood. *giggles* Although I have English homework to do, which is kind of killing my plans to write today. I was gonna get a lot done, but I ended up taking a two hour nap when I got back from lunch... hooray for sleep though XD
Nice rant. I, too, like the way CLAMP handle love stories. Their relationships are so complicated and interesting. And as I was saying the other day, X alone contains just about every sexual perversion in the book XD XD but seriously, there's everything from cute puppy love to twisted sadistic love to bittersweet forbidden love *sniffle* anyway... oooh, who is this mix between Aoki and Seishirou? *grin* My two favorite X guys combined can never be a bad thing. Will have to check out 20 Mensou... sometime soon.
Don't worry, you don't sound offensive or anything. I woulda slapped that old lady. XD Speaking as a cashier, it annoys everyone when people go in the express line with too many groceries. Sometimes we can catch them and send them off, but when they've already unpacked half their stuff, there's not much we can do. >< And I believe it's pronounced "Kah-ren", at least that's how Aoki says it in the drama track. *sparkles* Gotta figure out how to convert those to MP3 so I can share 'em...
*sniffles and says goodbye to the Hyde layout* It was a good little layout. I should probably change mine as well. I adore this one, of course, but I also love the one Anne made for me ^___^ and I believe it's time for a change. *sniffles and huggles lovely layout* I'm gonna have to screencap it... it's too wonderful not to immortalize it... :_: hehehe
Saw the ad for the Harry Potter movie earlier tonight... boy, did I squeak. It looks so COOL! ^____^ Very atmospheric, very nice special-effects (what was shown of them, anyway), and very British. Which is nice. ^_^ All of a sudden there's a ton of movies out that I want to see... I need to find someone with a license and a car who's willing to let me bum rides to the movieplex XD
OK, time to go poke the HTML and make it cooperate. ^_^
filling the space with time on Wednesday, October 31, 2001 at 08:01 p.m.
Happy Halloween, y'all. *beam* It's really too bad it fell on a weekday, but you can't have everything. At least today was a half-day, and I got to go out to lunch afterward. It was fun, although half the senior class was supposed to go, and only 4 people ended up actually showing up. >< We ate at Ponderosa, though. A good thing. ^__^ There were some interesting costumes... these two assholes, Justin and Josh, did something with motorized wheelchairs that really made no sense to me or anyone else, but they found it hysterically amusing... And this is why drugs are bad, children. ~~;;; Other than that, there was a really cute Flintstones group, they made their own costumes and it turned out really well. Kristin (one of the people I went to lunch with) was Dolly Parton, she had a dress with huge pointy fake boobs sewn into the front XD Erin was Miss Cleo... "call me now!" hehehe and my friend Jim was Elton John, and went around talking in a British accent all day and scaring the entire baritone section in chorus by pretending he was gay. So... yeah, it was an interesting day. *snicker* I took a lot of pictures, they'll be up as soon as I finish off the roll and get it developed.
Social blogging will likely commence when I get back from taking my brother trick or treating. Gotta go get my costume organized now. ^_^
filling the space with time on Wednesday, October 31, 2001 at 05:12 p.m.
Bahhh I forgot something last entry ~~;;; *waves to Derilaan* nice to meet you, thanks for linking me! ^_^
Yes, I am. Can't promise you it'll be any good, but I have the prologue written... will write more tomorrow, probably... half day of school, oh yeah ^___^ And your writing class sounds like fun. I hope I'm able to take classes like that someday. I love to write and act but I hardly ever get to (well, other than writing fanfiction).
*huggles* I don't blame you for being freaked about meds, as I've said, the idea scares me quite a bit. If I were you I'd tell them to go straight to hell and take their medication with them, but that's just me. If you think it'd help you, by all means go for it. Freaks me out though... don't let 'em make you all zombified or nothin', ok? *sniffles* hehe. And what is wrong with giving me ammo? *looks cute and innocent* ^_^ Your plot bunny amused me. I'm always whining about how there are no original Sei/Sub fics... well, that would be quite original ^^;;;;
OK, this made me squeak. Kawaiiiii ^____^ He would be cute sleeping... awww *wanders off into squeaky fangirl land* o.o;;;;
Well. Tomorrow's Halloween. Weeee. We all (seniors anyhow) get to dress up and prance through the elementary school. I'm being an angel. Yeah, I know, boring, but I wanted an excuse to get some wings. Unfortunately they're not big pretty ones, so I could wander around posing angstily and rambling about twin stars and my fated destiny, but you take what you can get for 12 bucks at the Paper Factory, and they're pretty cute anyhow. ^_^ Besides, I get to wear my pretty shimmery white skirt from Snowball two years ago (it barely fits my fat ass, but I'll survive XD). And then I'm going trick or treating-- well, no, I'm "taking my brother" trick or treating, and if I happen to bring along a bag and pick up some candy along the way, that's a total accident. *snicker*
Ultra Relax! *bounces* KnO is so awesome. XD Reeeeeiiii *molest molest molest* ..... yeah, I think I'm done now. *nod nod* ^_^
filling the space with time on Tuesday, October 30, 2001 at 08:56 p.m.
*blinks at last entry* OK, so maybe I overreacted a little. ~~;;; I'm in a much better mindset than I was before... I've just been kind of insecure about things, said some stupid shit, and sorta panicked about something that probably had more to do with everyone having quite a bit of schoolwork (or, in some cases, a desperate burning need to play Final Fantasy all day *glare* lmao) than everyone hating my guts. *shrugs* Which really ought to teach me not to be an asshole and talk without thinking. Ah, miscommunication. Such fun. But anyhow, I love y'all and for the moment I seem to be done freaking out. *huggles* Thanks, everyone who responded.
Now, back to your regularly scheduled idiocy. ^_^
I don't think you sound immature. Or shallow. After all, how many 12-year-olds do you know who use the phrase "Fuck him thoroughly and make him cry?" XD XD (and if you actually do know some, I don't want to know... o.o) seriously though, just 'cause you don't talk about important social issues or whatever doesn't mean you're not a deep person. I personally cannot stand shallow people, so if you were one, I wouldn't want to talk to you... and I do... so... yeah *huggles* hehehe (I'm so incoherent o.o) And... hooray for Sora/Yuuto *waves flag and runs away from certain person* XD
Speaking of said certain person... no, you haven't been an ass, and I hope you work out the problems with your family. Mine's being pissy too... I think it's Irritate Your Daughters month or something ~~;;; And I'm not doing anything for Halloween either... *pout* all my friends seem to be going out with people I don't know or aren't friends with... so I can't exactly invite myself along... >< but tomorrow I get out of school early, and I get to wear a costume to school and be in the senior costume parade, where we go down to the elementary school and scare the small children. *snerk* I can remember seeing the seniors in their costumes when I was in elem. school, it's a little strange to be doing it myself now... o.o;;; Oh, and I'm bringing a camera, so expect pics sometime soon. Can't promise they'll be good, though, especially the ones with me in them. *runs*
You bring up an interesting point on the "leadership" issue. I am getting so fucking tired of every single scholarship application asking me how many "leadership positions" I have held. I don't understand why that is important. I don't think I should be considered less of a person because I didn't win a popularity contest. The same people win in every elections-- either they're very popular, or they're well-known for being insane overachievers and therefore people assume they know what they're doing. I am neither, therefore I don't win. And honestly, I don't think "leaders" should be the only ones who get recognition (and money ^^). If it wasn't for the followers, people like me who aren't really take-charge, but who can get the work done, then where would the leaders be? Who would they be leading? >< Anyway. I got off track. *huggles* Thank you muchly, you are so sweet! ^__^ And ooh ooh, I would very much like to read that fic of yours with the A/K bit that we were talking about earlier... send me a beta version, onegai! ^____^
You have too been a good friend, shush up. :P And I suppose I should be flattered that you respond violently when I say such things... *snicker* at least you're not agreeing ~~;;;;
There will be no consumption of my brain. I need it... well, at times anyhow. ~~;;; *snerks at the Sora/Yuuto scene* uh huh, very cute. XD Oh, and... that thing that was all your fault? I actually started it last night. ^^;;; I will post it if I get enough written that doesn't suck. ^_^
Off to work, yo. Don't have to deal with bitchzilla today, so it should be alright. ^_^ Ja! *waves*
filling the space with time on Tuesday, October 30, 2001 at 03:06 p.m.
Well, looks like this is gonna be ye olde angsty blog entry that I've been working up to for several days now. I've been putting it off because I really don't have much to say other than "nobody loves me, I'm so alone, whine whine whine," but for some reason I feel it ought to be said... *shrug* You may disregard this if you're expecting the usual weirdo fangirl ravings, but if you don't mind a little venting, read on.
Not sure how much any of you know about this, but I've been in a horrible funk this past week. I know, I've gotten in funks before, but this one is... worse, somehow. It's not a desperate feeling... it's not an urgent feeling... it's just the fairly calm and serene realization in the back of my mind that I am not and never will be an important person. I don't mean in terms of fame, or riches, or anything like that. Simply put, I do not feel appreciated. And this isn't anything against any of you. It may be mostly in my head... it may be the traps I set up for myself. Maybe I'm expecting not to be loved, not to be important to anyone, so that's what I'm seeing in the way people treat me and act towards me.
I can't explain what I'm going through right now, but it's like... I don't know how it happened, but something shook my faith and I'm finding it really hard to find that solid ground again. I don't mean religious faith, I mean my faith in the people around me. And I don't feel that it's any fault of theirs. It's me. I just have the feeling that I've gone too far, that I've said too much, that I've changed things in some irreperable way. I'm not even sure exactly what I might have done. Perhaps just been myself. That's apparently been enough to destroy friendships in the past, after all. And I realize that this sounds... selfish, rude, untrusting, all of that... I know I should have faith in the friendships I have cultivated, that they are strong enough to withstand whatever shit I'm dealing with right now, and that it'll pass and someday soon I'll be okay again.
I can't tell you how much I want to believe that. And it's absolutely not that I think my friends are somehow... fickle or dishonest or anything like that. It's the exact opposite. To put it in the simplest terms possible, I am not good enough for you. I think I was supposed to be that girl who sits in the corner all her life, shy and ugly and unnoticed, friendless, unimportant. I'm not attractive, I'm not socially talented, I don't know the right thing to say in every situation, and there is absolutely nothing special about me. I'm intelligent, but so are a million other people. I'm witty at times, but there are so many people who make better conversation than I do, who are funnier, who are better at cheering people up, who have that something that I don't. I know this sounds so whiny and self-centered, as if I feel I should be the best at everything... that's not what I'm trying to impart. I just wish I could feel, for once in my life, when I'm talking to or spending time with someone, that there's no one else they'd rather be with or talk to at that moment in time. Paradoxically, this is selfish and unselfish at the same time. I have a selfish desire to make other people happy. And I don't feel that I'm able to do that.
And the real problem with all that is, I depend on each and every one of you. Some I've known longer than others, I depend on each person in a different way, but... I really need all of you. I've let myself become codependant, and I loved it until I suddenly had this nagging feeling that it was all crumbling. That you'd seen the real me and wanted to... get away. I am paranoid, I am overanalyzing, I am dead serious. I am scared. And I wonder, does it matter to anyone? More than just a passing thought, "oh that's too bad"... would it truly affect anyone if I wasn't the person I am today? I think at one point it may have. Now, I'm not sure about anything anymore.
I doubt that this will make much of a difference to anyone. Especially since it's no fault of your own. I guess I'm just asking at this point that you tell me, honestly, what you think of me. Even if it will hurt me, even if it will change our relationship. I'm afraid of the unknown, of things that lurk beneath the surface that might destroy the things I depend on. I don't mean to make this sound like some pathetic cry for attention. But, after all, maybe it is.
filling the space with time on Monday, October 29, 2001 at 04:57 p.m.
I'm in another of my lyric-hunting, MP3-downloading moods. Well, that and I need to find some way to make myself stop listening to "Movies" by Alien Ant Farm. It's addictive. Tis a good song, but I'd like to know how and why the lead singer managed to pronounce "pain" so that it had a K in it. ~~;;;; Anyway. Point of this entry being, I have some lyrics I'm going to share. *snicker snicker*
"Things Don’t Always Turn Out That Way", The Calling
Well he can’t sleep at night
And he can’t do what’s right
Oh it’s all because she came into his life
It’s a deep obsession, taking up his time
Yeah, she’s all he wants, she’s all he needs
She’s everything he just won’t believe
Take away his doubt, turn him inside out
So she can see what he’s been dying to say
Yeah but things don’t always turn out that way
And he must confess
All the impure thoughts of his beautiful temptress
But he keeps it all bottled up inside
Although he keeps it all safe within his mind, yeah
She’s all he wants, she’s all that he needs
She’s everything he just won’t believe
Take away his doubt, turn him inside out
So she can see what he’s been dying to say
Yeah but things don’t always turn out that way
So wipe the smile off your face
Before it gets too late
There’s only so much time, yeah
For you to make up your mind
Yeah, she’s all that he wants, she’s all that he needs
Well, she’s everything he just won’t believe
Take away his doubt, turn him inside out
So she can see what he’s been dying to say
She’s all that he needs
She’s everything he just won’t believe
Take away his doubt, turn him inside out
So she can see what he’s been dying to say
But things don’t always turn out that way
Love, things don’t always turn out that way
Things don’t always turn out that way
... Guess what pairing just got a new theme song. *smirk* That just amused me way too much. Mostly the part about "impure thoughts". Hehe.
filling the space with time on Sunday, October 28, 2001 at 06:42 p.m.
Ahem. I'm COLD. I mean, freezing. My fingers are about to get frostbitten. I'm
almost to the point of wearing gloves to type >< Oh well. I am listening to
"Purachina", and it's so catchy that I can't help but be in a slightly better mood.
^___^
Today I had the pleasure of spending half an hour in a big wooden box, jumping
out and screaming every time someone lifted the lid. *snicker* We (Key Club)
had a Halloween party at the elementary school, and I was stationed in the
haunted house most of the time. I probably still have cotton spiderweb in my
hair. ~~;;;; It was fun, though, especially when I finally scared this snotty little kid
on like the 14th time he went through, by hiding somewhere else and jumping
out while he was concentrating on looking in the box. Dumbass. hehe
And now for the social blogging that's like three days old 'cause I've been lazy...
^^;;;
*wails* You
can't make me choose! I love them both so much! *sniffle* And damn, did I
mention Karen was looking really good in that new pic? ^_^ So, yeah, it'd be a
difficult decision, but I think Aoki gets the edge just for being the perfect man
(which undoubtedly means no one like him exists in the world *sigh* hehe). And
also 'cause, you know, I'd do him in like half a second XD And you have a fic
like that already written? Where where where? I wanna read, even if it's cruel
and will make me cry :_: hehe
I saw that Yu-Gi-Oh dude
today. He's so not bish. XP And good lord, the dub is baaaaadddd. What's this
about groping Fuuma? *smirk* I see you've finally given completely over to the
dark side... ^_^
Cori is a typo for Kaoru,
as far as I know. Either that, or that's what you've been doing these
past few days *snerk*
*clears throat* I would like to state that Brandon so looks like Justin Timberlake XD XD and Mr.
Maddox needs to be jumped on, like now. *nods* I'm going to bring in a
camera on Wednesday when everyone's dressed up in their costumes...
*snicker* I should get a picture of my economics teacher, 'cause my friend
Rhonda has such a thing for him and she'd probably beg me for the pic... hehe.
He's kinda cute, in a skinny little dude with a goatee kind of way. XD
Anou... my brain is not sweet
and delicious XD XD but I will probably end up reading your
recommendations. ^_^ And I liked "Castle in the Air", if only for the copious
amount of twists at the end. I didn't suspect any of them, so it was a big surprise
for me. ^^;;; Even so, I wish she'd do another sequel that focused on Howl,
Sophie and Calcifer more. Because they rock. ^_^
*looks at tracker and meeps* "Aoki hentai"?? When did I get that one?
Anou... if anyone finds any, toss it my way XD XD ... *thinks about it for a
minute* Or maybe they were looking for me. 'Cause I am one *snicker
snicker*
Hm. I believe I'll give myself a little gift of the fanfiction type. *grin* If it turns out
any good, I'll share...
filling the space with time on Saturday, October 27, 2001 at 09:14 p.m.
