Version 5 of space between features Utena and Anthy from "Revolutionary Girl Utena". (Yes, I've gone two updates without a CLAMP/X layout, try not to die.) Yay, girlsmooching! *snicker* I've only seen the movie, and yes, it broke my brain, but it also intrigued me quite a bit and I can't wait to see the series. And I think these two make a good couple. ^_^ Layout, as usual, belongs to Codi (*snuggles* dunno what my blog would look like without you XD), and the art belongs to whoever owns/draws RGU-- the name has slipped my mind... In any case, it isn't mine. who: kerianne what: blog, ramblings, thoughts, weirdness why: because my old livejournal was way too depressing when: since july 1st, 2001 where: western new york how: very carefully contact: e-mail AIM: AokisWindMachine Yahoo: toasterschudel age: 16 websites: random inspirations - fanfiction site cliquelove - clique collective (co-run with cori and codi) contradiction - schwarz and wk shrine (co-run w/c+c) foreordained ice cream - co-run x site (really, really under construction... we are so lazy ^^;;;) foreordained - X RPG blog x scans - just what it says... a very simple dumping ground for stuff i haven't seen anywhere else adoring: aoki seiichirou kasumi karen admiring: arisugawa sorata, sakurazuka seishirou, kigai yuuto, nekoi yuzuriha, remus lupin, sirius black, vash, meryl strife, kinomoto fujitaka, kinomoto touya, daidouji tomoyo, sakano-san, sagami rei, kurata sana, mama, ryuuzaki umi, fujimiya aya-chan worshipping: CLAMP listening to: “morning view”, incubus “camino palmero”, the calling reading: the anime encyclopedia by jonathan clements and helen mccarthy playing: the sims (pc) harry potter and the sorceror’s stone (ps2) writing: untitled karen fic for lika-chan “broken wings” - aka insane subby wreaks havoc on tokyo untitled yuuto/sorata lemon ^^;;; avoiding: schoolwork college applications wanting: the sims hot date expansion november and december issues of asuka all eps of x tv utena (anime) the rest of kodomo no omocha (anime) the rest of magic knight rayearth (anime) a happy ending for aoki and karen more marital bliss fic ^_~ results x: Seiichirou Aoki ^____^ weiss kreuz: Hidaka Ken (XP ick) escaflowne: Folken digimon: Sora *gags* pokemon: Pikachu (o.O ???) tokyo babylon: Subaru Sumeragi yami no matsuei: Hisoka Kurosaki trigun: Rem Saverem gravitation: Sakano (... *snerk*) haunted junction: Nino-kun clamp series: RG Veda (X was second *_*) clamp male: Ferio (blar XP) clamp name: Sora Kinomoto blogs worth visiting shinken - alison castle of briars - ammie black silver - anna when gods... - anne somedays good somedays bad - bell graphomania... - beth kiss of steel - c something witty - codi prodigious - cori sex starved firecracker - danae sunless lands - epeeblade ghost story - eri ruby cookies - hokuto sweatdrop - isa gothic tragedy - kamui-cat (aka oli) jupiter crash - karyn crippled with desire - kee star scream - kim drunkie - kim kudaranai - kristin under thlyali's thrall - lika dancing mad - linh subterfuge - maria n-type silicon - mike furenchikisu - murasaki engulfed - sarah pointless - satsuki honey eyes - shi neko axis destined to die foreordained x island RPG love is suicide technomancy friends' websites freesia freak - codi orange pop - cori mediocrity - kim heart of madness - anna aleithia's fan works - al violation.nu - erica sighted dreams of sakura board clamp ml anime chaos ml clamp fanfiction ml crowley's angels dylt sbrl x - others other links pitas fanfiction.net audiogalaxy anipike CLAMP Fan Fiction 6.0 amused.com penny arcade amiright ebay zany video game quotes disturbing search requests granian webrings 'n' junk « ? CLAMP Logs # » Yuuto ©squick© Sorata archives july 2nd - august 9th august 9th - august 31st august 31st - september 21st september 22nd - october 8th october 9th - october 25th october 27th - november 14th november 15th - november 28th november 28th - december 13th december 14th - december 26th All sprites by Cori at Orange Pop! ^_^v	... My little brother has a friend over and I'm not allowed to torture them. What is the world coming to? *poutpout* Hmm, hmm, what else. I've just been in one hell of a grouchy mood all day. I'm not really unhappy about anything, just... very prone to ranting at the moment, for some reason. ^^;;; And I didn't want to do any work at all, so it wasn't exactly a productive day. Oh well. My head's full of project ideas, now I just have to start it. ~~;;; Exposition is not my friend... oh well! I'm going to be writing something original! Love me and give me gold stars! (I think I need to just let other people come up with the characters and I'll be fine... I'm not good at making up characters, but I can do stuff with them once they're established... *shrug*) I want to see Kare Kano. It looks cute. ... The main character looks cute, actually. But I'm not shallow, really, I'm not. *cough* XD (And his name is Souichiro. I wonder how that's pronounced... maybe I shouldn't see it after all, I may be spending half the show going "ooo where? ... ah dammit." lol) o.O You may call yourself hot-tempered, but you're obviously more forgiving than I am, because I can't see myself making friends with someone who harshly criticizes my work without knowing me. I'm egotistical, what can I say. If it's a friend, it's a different matter, because I know they don't hate me or hate my writing, they're just trying to help. Honestly, though, if someone I didn't even know e-mailed me and said "You know, (insert character here) sucked in your fic," I'd cry. XD I don't know that harsh criticism has ever really helped me, because I pretty much have a reason for everything I write. Not that I think everything I write is perfect, and won't listen to opinions, but I've found that much of the criticism I've been given has stemmed from a misunderstanding of what I was trying to get across. I'm not big on revision-- I have a tendency to either keep it as is or scrap the whole thing and start over, and I won't do that unless I know it's really bad. But I'd have to say, if my writing has improved (and I'm not altogether sure it has o.O;;;), then it would be more because of practice than because of outside criticism. But I completely agree on your second point, because I am one of those readers who cares almost nothing for canon and favors fangirl-indulgent slash pairings. (Or het pairings, for that matter. Only those don't have as many fangirls. o.o;;;) If all fics were written so that they matched up perfectly with canon, then the fandom would be a really boring place, and my favorite pairings wouldn't even exist, so... yeah. Cute Kimeragi song, by the way... XD stupid X dub people. Yeesh. Re: X humor... you are absolutely correct. And using X as an example of a "grim" series is a bit ridiculous anyway. Anything with Sorata in it cannot possibly be labeled "grim". No, X isn't a humor series; no, humor isn't a major component of its plot; but it isn't 17 tankoubans of pure angst and misery, either. And even if it was, I wouldn't have a problem with humor for it. I loved Weiss Kreuz humor (which is another example the author of the rant used) when I was a big WK fan, and I love X humor now. I mean, honestly (and the blog where this rant makes its home said this itself, in fact), its last major plot twist involved an eyeball-- is it not just begging to have a little friendly fun poked at it in the name of fandom? I think so. ^_^ Okay, no more fanfiction rants. ... In this entry, anyway. *snicker* I'm sorry the certain couple aren't being nice to you. They do have rather evil hair-- one more than the other, though. One of them I have down, sort of, the other one just makes me cry and tear my own hair out. XD Hmm, sad songs? There are some songs that always make me cry, but they're kind of weird and random... "Just Remember I Love You" by... somebody, I dunno, it's from the 70s or 80s, and it isn't even sad, and I don't have any traumatizing memories involving it, but every time I hear it I wail. o_O And whatever that stupid song was that they kept playing this Christmas, about somebody's mom dying and the damn pair of shoes. Let's see... there's this song by Jewel called "Absence of Fear" that I'm sure would make me bawl if I ever listened to it again, which I haven't, for precisely that reason. Traumatizing memories for that one. o.o;;; (Anou, Kim, I can't quite remember, but I think "The Unforgiven" was the Metallica song that came up when I was discussing what should be "our song" with my boyfriend at the time. ... but if it's depressing, that would make a lot of sense, actually. And you guys wonder why I hate Metallica so much. XP lol) Wahhh! I wouldn't have sent it to you if I knew it'd become depressing for you! *sniffles* hehe and hey, rambly is good. You just don't whore your blog around like I do. *snicker* Yay, Ammie's officially back to the blogging world! *dances* I forgive you for calling me an infidel, I suppose. ^_~ *bows down to your ultimate babeness* XD This is long enough. I'm going away now. Yeesh, I've been long-winded as of late. o_O Utena and Anthy last kissed on Wednesday, January 9, 2002 at 05:08 p.m. ... My little brother has a friend over and I'm not allowed to torture them. What is the world coming to? *poutpout* Hmm, hmm, what else. I've just been in one hell of a grouchy mood all day. I'm not really unhappy about anything, just... very prone to ranting at the moment, for some reason. ^^;;; And I didn't want to do any work at all, so it wasn't exactly a productive day. Oh well. My head's full of project ideas, now I just have to start it. ~~;;; Exposition is not my friend... oh well! I'm going to be writing something original! Love me and give me gold stars! (I think I need to just let other people come up with the characters and I'll be fine... I'm not good at making up characters, but I can do stuff with them once they're established... *shrug*) I want to see Kare Kano. It looks cute. ... The main character looks cute, actually. But I'm not shallow, really, I'm not. *cough* XD (And his name is Souichiro. I wonder how that's pronounced... maybe I shouldn't see it after all, I may be spending half the show going "ooo where? ... ah dammit." lol) o.O You may call yourself hot-tempered, but you're obviously more forgiving than I am, because I can't see myself making friends with someone who harshly criticizes my work without knowing me. I'm egotistical, what can I say. If it's a friend, it's a different matter, because I know they don't hate me or hate my writing, they're just trying to help. Honestly, though, if someone I didn't even know e-mailed me and said "You know, (insert character here) sucked in your fic," I'd cry. XD I don't know that harsh criticism has ever really helped me, because I pretty much have a reason for everything I write. Not that I think everything I write is perfect, and won't listen to opinions, but I've found that much of the criticism I've been given has stemmed from a misunderstanding of what I was trying to get across. I'm not big on revision-- I have a tendency to either keep it as is or scrap the whole thing and start over, and I won't do that unless I know it's really bad. But I'd have to say, if my writing has improved (and I'm not altogether sure it has o.O;;;), then it would be more because of practice than because of outside criticism. But I completely agree on your second point, because I am one of those readers who cares almost nothing for canon and favors fangirl-indulgent slash pairings. (Or het pairings, for that matter. Only those don't have as many fangirls. o.o;;;) If all fics were written so that they matched up perfectly with canon, then the fandom would be a really boring place, and my favorite pairings wouldn't even exist, so... yeah. Cute Kimeragi song, by the way... XD stupid X dub people. Yeesh. Re: X humor... you are absolutely correct. And using X as an example of a "grim" series is a bit ridiculous anyway. Anything with Sorata in it cannot possibly be labeled "grim". No, X isn't a humor series; no, humor isn't a major component of its plot; but it isn't 17 tankoubans of pure angst and misery, either. And even if it was, I wouldn't have a problem with humor for it. I loved Weiss Kreuz humor (which is another example the author of the rant used) when I was a big WK fan, and I love X humor now. I mean, honestly (and the blog where this rant makes its home said this itself, in fact), its last major plot twist involved an eyeball-- is it not just begging to have a little friendly fun poked at it in the name of fandom? I think so. ^_^ Okay, no more fanfiction rants. ... In this entry, anyway. *snicker* I'm sorry the certain couple aren't being nice to you. They do have rather evil hair-- one more than the other, though. One of them I have down, sort of, the other one just makes me cry and tear my own hair out. XD Hmm, sad songs? There are some songs that always make me cry, but they're kind of weird and random... "Just Remember I Love You" by... somebody, I dunno, it's from the 70s or 80s, and it isn't even sad, and I don't have any traumatizing memories involving it, but every time I hear it I wail. o_O And whatever that stupid song was that they kept playing this Christmas, about somebody's mom dying and the damn pair of shoes. Let's see... there's this song by Jewel called "Absence of Fear" that I'm sure would make me bawl if I ever listened to it again, which I haven't, for precisely that reason. Traumatizing memories for that one. o.o;;; (Anou, Kim, I can't quite remember, but I think "The Unforgiven" was the Metallica song that came up when I was discussing what should be "our song" with my boyfriend at the time. ... but if it's depressing, that would make a lot of sense, actually. And you guys wonder why I hate Metallica so much. XP lol) Wahhh! I wouldn't have sent it to you if I knew it'd become depressing for you! *sniffles* hehe and hey, rambly is good. You just don't whore your blog around like I do. *snicker* Yay, Ammie's officially back to the blogging world! *dances* I forgive you for calling me an infidel, I suppose. ^_~ *bows down to your ultimate babeness* XD This is long enough. I'm going away now. Yeesh, I've been long-winded as of late. o_O Utena and Anthy last kissed on Wednesday, January 9, 2002 at 04:22 p.m. La la. Just sitting here being in pain in various random areas of my body (*clutches eye* no, Fuuma, you can't have it, so stop making it feel like it's going to fall out), and wishing I was a member of CLAMP. I want Nanase Ohkawa's job. *poutpout* (Speaking of that, do you two remember our idea? You know, the one I wasn't supposed to forget about? XD still up for it? Only, umm, my plotline sucked, and I'm not in the mood to tackle something so serious, so... let me know and I'll brainstorm ^^) OK, one more thing before I get social. I wasn't going to do this, but I'm getting desperate. I don't know how many of my readers have Asuka subscriptions or are able to procure the issues in some way, but if you do... I will pay you for the pullouts from the November and December issues. Hell, I'll give you my little brother. (Not that you'd want him, but it's the principal of the thing. XD) If anyone has them and is willing to let me buy them off you, please e-mail me. *pops chibi and looks adorable* *squees 'cause LiS linked her* How cool! ... I'm such a dork. *snicker* But... yeah, I need to link y'all, been intending to, but it takes me ages to get around to updating the list... ^^;;; *waves to everyone over there nonetheless* ^___^ Nice layout, btw! Pretty art *_* Oooh, The Smiths, yay! I love them. I found the lyrics to "Shoplifters Of The World Unite" in my friend's notebook, downloaded it, and got hopelessly hooked. Hurrah for angsty Brits. Get that song. Or "Girlfriend in a Coma". Or "Unloveable"... hell, just about anything XD Sarah, if you want to see X, I could hook you up. I should be able to get all of them when my cable modem is hooked up, so I'll make CDs if you want-- let me know. (Goes for anyone else, too, as long as I kinda sorta know you... o.o) It's the least I can do, considering you have exquisite taste. ^_~ And... feel better, ne? *hugs* Hmmmm, you think everyone in X except Kusanagi is wavy? *ponders* ... I would say Sorata's too straight, but I'm guilty of gayifying him myself, so that doesn't count (which reminds me, I need to go join the Squicky Clique with those two... even though it's not that weird, I know of quite a few people who are squicked by it *cackle*). Same with Aoki, only, um, that's mostly because I'm an odd hormonal yaoi fangirl with a fixation on the man. *snerk* Um... The main 4, definitely... Karen's gorgeous enough to do whoever she wants... Arashi, ehhh, although I did say I wanted someone to stick her with Karen for sheer aesthetic value (and no, Sorashi supporters, I'm not being mean to you on purpose. ... usually. XD)... Yuzuriha, well, I read this really good Yuzu/Satsuki UST fic once, but other than that, no. Nataku isn't anything, and you be quiet, or my brain is officially going to break and you'll never get your fic :P hehehe. Who's left? Yuuto is a ho, so yes. Ummm... Satsuki/Kanoe, yeahhh! I won't even get into the supporting charas 'cause I'll be here all day... but thanks to Kim's theory... Shimako, yes. *cackles evilly* Oh, yes, it was great chatting with the three of you yesterday. Glad you are back, and Maria, that's cool that you're getting an Asuka subscription. I would, but... too expensive, and my interest in X may not last long enough to merit paying all that (well, not my interest in the fandom, but in reading the new installments. Because it just isn't going to be the same. *clings to plushie and sniffles*). One final thing (my entries have been long as hell lately... *has no life* ^^;;;)... I perused this list last night. My brain has still not recovered from the discovery of NC-17-rated Jason/Marcus slash from FoxTrot. *wailtwitchsquick* Utena and Anthy last kissed on Tuesday, January 8, 2002 at 03:37 p.m. *blinkblink* Anou... gomen nasai? ^^;;; First of all, for the fact that Pitas decided that my self-indulgent moment of insanity warranted being posted six times. I am attempting to amend that now, if the server would stop being a nastier ho than Kanoe. As for the post itself, it wasn't about what you think it was. Really. That just started it, because I am a sensitive little bugger and even when I completely disagree with something someone is saying, I still have that bit of doubt in my mind that maybe they're right and I'm wrong (I blame it on being the child of two lawyers, I have apparently inherited the "gift" of being able to see both sides of every opinion and situation). But what shoved me over the edge was really something else entirely, which I won't get into except to say that it makes me excessively nervous when I don't think that everyone is getting along. I feel stuck in the middle, I run away from conflict like it's the plague, and I manage to convince myself that it is all my fault that I couldn't keep everyone happy, and that everyone hates me. I overreacted, and I apologize for worrying anyone (or just ruining their mood ~~;;;). Now. Happy things, before I start sniffling again. You may threaten to beat me with a blunt object all you like. Hell, you can actually do it if you want to. Positive reinforcement. ~~;;; Bible slash... oi. If I ever wanted to write something like that (and that's a big fat hairy "IF" o.o;;;), I'd be too worried about thunderbolts from the heavens to get very far... XD Hmmm, I should write a songfic to that song. *grin* You'd really think it wouldn't be too difficult for me to write a lemon for them, wouldn't you. Considering, um, let's just say I am not wanting for inspiration, nor ideas. Hell, I average three lemons a day in my head XD XD now why don't they ever sound right when I try to put them down on paper (or word processor o_o)? *pout* Ummm, Daisuke and Karen, you know, I'm not even going to dignify that with a response XD Well, okay, yes I am. Karen and TV Daisuke, okay... "Hey, you're cute and blushy with light brown hair and-- NOT MARRIED! *superglueglomp* I wonder how you'd look in glasses?" *snerk* But not manga Daisuke, 'cause... (sorry Ammie ^^;;;) he's annoying. But hey, I think I still hold the title for the only fic to feature Karen/Kamui molestation. I so kick ass. XD Yay, another person who thinks Stephen King's short stories rock ^___^ I've read all the collections-- I'd have to say "Skeleton Crew" is my favorite. I still maintain that anyone who considers him or herself a writer should read "The Ballad of the Flexible Bullet", because it's wonderful and in a weird way I can relate to it, even though it's about a guy who believes there are elves in his typewriter. Trust me. It's good. XD Yes, the smutfic was Firestorm (aka Storm Front Annex)... I've practically got the damn thing memorized. *sweatdrops* But really, it's such a lovely fic. If there really had to be only one in existance, I'm glad it was such a good one. (Yeah, yeah, I know, I should do something about that... hehe) I'm glad you like my Karen. I assume you would know, considering your intimate knowledge of the topic at hand! ^_~ *huggles* Awww, don't be paranoid. Don't make me have to confiscate that game. Although, umm, if you ever do have a psychotic epsiode and try to levitate a random passerby, tell Codi to be ready with the video camera, 'cause ummm that'd be priceless XD Seriously, it's okay. At least you've never been given a major mental breakdown by a horror novel. (Not that I have. Not that I can't read King anymore without getting twitchy and seeing the dark side of everything. *coughs*) Apparently I am 41% evil. *cackles* I'm surprised it wasn't higher, really XD Although I have to disagree with some of the choices in questions, because perverted and evil are not the same thing at all. *snicker* Not sure if I blogged about this, but I recently purchased all of "Haunted Junction" on DVD, and I've watched four episodes so far. If you haven't seen it, you need to. It's hysterical. I adore Haruto for some reason, even though he's uptight and overexcitable (maybe that's exactly why I like him, come to think of it... kinda like Sakano in Gravi... hehehe). There's a pic of him that they use for... whatever that little thing before the commercial break is called... that I would love to use as a layout, if I can find it anywhere. The show is pretty ecchi at times, and always funny, which means it's right up my alley. ^_~ Highly recommended. Utena and Anthy last kissed on Monday, January 7, 2002 at 03:33 p.m. Fuck it. I am tired of everything and everyone and if this fucking life wasn't such a part of me I would just leave and not come back. I will regret this later. I don't know what's wrong with me. I am overreacting. I don't even know what's going on. All I know is I was a failure again at keeping everyone happy. Again. I will not apologize for who I choose to spend my time with, but I will apologize that I ever tried to make things work. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm such a worthless fuckup. I'm sorry. I'm going to go now. This was brought on by many things, not the least of which is once again having to read a lengthy discourse on why I and everything I have ever written is not worth the scum on someone's shoes, and I'm sorry, if it makes me pathetic that hearing something like that makes me depressed, even from someone I do not know, then I am pathetic. I feel like disappearing, I really do. I'm sure this won't improve anyone's opinion of me. I feel like last spring is happening all over again. I'm sorry. Utena and Anthy last kissed on Sunday, January 6, 2002 at 10:58 p.m. I feel your pain-- healthy living is a bitch. I too am incredibly lazy, and have no willpower to do things like exercise (which I find deadly boring) or stop eating junk food. Actually, I have very little willpower to make myself do unpleasant things in general, which is probably going to catch up with me someday. ^^;;; Hey, I like your vision of the world, though. XD Then all we'd need is some machine to make multiple living copies of the X cast (and hell, any other bishonen/bishoujos), so everyone gets who they want, and life would be perfect... ^_~ So you got Alice too? That's pretty ironic for me, considering my abhorrance for most main characters... hehe, yes, Jan. 15th is gonna be great this year ^____^ And I'm glad you liked the drunkfic, but I'm still going to write you another one because I have several Karen fic ideas. Besides, I want to challenge myself into writing a fic where the two of them stay platonic, with a minimum of sappy romantic thoughts from either side. ... It's going to be difficult. XD Kim, watching movies about necrophilia is not much better than watching documentaries about shrunken heads. I'm disappointed in you again. *takes TV away* XD I read fics with S/K content all the time, but if I do it's usually because 1) I know and like the author or 2) I like another pairing in, or aspect of, the fic. 'Course, that normally applies with S/S fics as well, except I enjoy the S/S a bit more than the S/K. ^^;;;; What can I say, my priorities are all screwed up. XD Speaking of said priorities, it's been a while since I've read (and worshipped) my favorite smutfic. *scurries off to do just that and then have a fangirl moment that will probably last approximately half an hour* ^___^ Utena and Anthy last kissed on Sunday, January 6, 2002 at 11:41 a.m. You're just a girl; you tend to get frustrated easily, you daydream quite a bit, and you try to avoid making trouble, though curiosity always gets the better of you. Even under tight circumstances, however, you put aside (some of) your fear and figure out what's the best thing to do. You want a better understanding of your world. Hehe, yeah, Cori, quit smoking that hookah! XD Very well said, Maria-chan. I would have said something similar, had I not said it 800 times before and decided to spare my readers the monotony. ^^;;;; In any case, I think Sake was a cute fic, and I happen to love non-canon fanfiction. Fanfic would be so boring if everyone obsessed over whether their fic fit perfectly into canon or not. I think according to that rule I have to throw out everything I've ever written, and maybe go bathe in holy water for a few hours so I can be cleansed of the evils of OOC and strange pairings. ... And I'm not gonna. So :P. Hey, and that 3 Musketeers story actually sounds kinda interesting, lol. My first anime fanfiction was an attempt at writing Gundam Wing when I had never actually seen the show, and it was Mary Sue, and hell, I even stuck my favorite actor at the time in there to pair myself up with. I think it would probably make the elitists dig their eyeballs out with spoons. ... Which makes me terribly proud, of course. *evil grin* Yes, the cock rants were quite amusing. That's definitely going on the logs, when I have enough to create them, and will post them to embarrass all of you, mwahahaha... o.O;;; You never heard that XD I would just like to state for the record that I would visit Seishirou and Kamui's Love Boudoir. XDDDD *falls over* That was a great convo. And incidentally that's exactly why I love non-canon pairings. They're so fucked up that no one can argue with you. *snuggles her Yuuto/Sorata fics and giggles like a fangirl* Nice layout! Yay for Spike&Dru :D *cries* Why is the DoS board down? Has been since yesterday evening... :_: *ahem* Just so you all know, I'm only holding down the third place spot by one vote. If you haven't voted yet, do so or I'll ummm poke you. *cries* If I don't win, my mommy will make me scrub the toilets again! *conveniently ignores the fact that if her mother knew she wrote stories about a 15-year-old boy being molested by 13 other people of various ages and genders, she'd probably be locked in her room until she was 30 XD* Utena and Anthy last kissed on Saturday, January 5, 2002 at 10:39 a.m. *sets up target and writes "Pretentiousness" in the middle* ... *shoots.* *dusts off hands* Well then. That speaks for itself, I suppose. I won't rant-- it's always the same anyway. Maybe I'm just in a pissy mood. Ear hurts. Amusingly enough, the medicated ear drops I was prescribed are Cipro. We figure if any strange envelopes with white powder show up in the mail, we can just drink it. Unfortunately, they're cold, and they make my ear itch, and now it hurts again. On the upside, I got called out of school after three periods to go to the doctor's, and I called in sick to work. Whee. ^^ Besides, I don't even think I have the brainpower or inspiration to rant at the moment, because I've pretty much used up all my serious analysis and arguments here. (Thank you for battling it out with me, by the way-- it's nice that we sort of agree, but our viewpoints are different enough to make debate interesting. Makes me think. I like things that make me think-- granted that I get to think about something I actually like, that is. XD) *goes back to working on Broken Wings, after this utterly pointless post* ^^;;; Utena and Anthy last kissed on Friday, January 4, 2002 at 01:27 p.m. Well, the bad news is that I am not feeling any better than yesterday. Got hit with another dizzy spell that stuck around pretty much all evening. If it keeps up, I'm going to have to go to the doctor. I wish my mom had listened to me all that time when I was telling her I want to go to a real doctor instead of a freakin' pediatrician. I'm nearly seventeen, it's a bit demeaning to have to sit in a waiting room with sneezing five year olds and have my examinations done in rooms covered in clown and Mickey Mouse wallpaper. -.- Not to mention that I really dislike my current doctor, but that's another story. Point is, I don't want to go, especially since I just know I'm going to get lectured. *pout* Good news, though! In just a little over a week, I will be the proud owner of a brand new, high speed cable Internet connection! *SQUEALS* ... Yeah, I'm a geek, but think of all the anime I've been missing out on because everything used to take literally days to download! I'll be able to get X eps as soon as they come out instead of always having to wait for the smaller file to be put up, and I'll finally get to see eps 1 and 2! Not to mention I hopefully won't have to worry as much about being kicked or my connection dying... *beam* So, yeah, I'm excited. XD Oi, parents... XD At least once you move out they can only lecture you, but they can't actually control what you do. Mine still can. >< And hey, good housekeeping is overrated. Takes too much time, and it's just going to get messy again anyway. XD *is a slob and proud of it* You did not just bring up that "debriefing" thing again. XD XD You gave me odd mental images for weeks. ... Notice I said "odd", not "bad". ^^;;;; Annnnnd speaking of good mental images... I have to immortalize this bit of chat XD I hope nobody minds me posting it... ^^;;; [Kamui] dude, I want a Fuuma porn site. [GenkiDogGirl] me too! [CorvetteHyers] I can see the descriptions in my head right now.. * WindMachine wants a general X cast porn site [CorvetteHyers] Hot Kamui Necrophilia Action! [WindMachine] *fangirls cry 'cause Kamui's gay AND dead that way, as opposed to just gay* [Shimeragi] *LOL!! [Kamui] *big letters* S AND M!!!!!! [GenkiDogGirl] or its cheesy and says HOTT KAMUI ACTION 4 U 2 CLICK [Kamui] LOL! [Kamui] see Kamui on /Kamui/ action! [CorvetteHyers] XD [WindMachine] XD *** Katzi-Away is now known as Katz-Writing [Shimeragi] LOL!! either is plenty to see, i dun care what it says! *snerk* [WindMachine] I bet Satsuki has lots of Fuuma porn on BEAST [WindMachine] and porn of everyone else too probably lol [CorvetteHyers] hmm, what might an Aoki porn site say? * WindMachine dies [Shimeragi] LOL!! [CorvetteHyers] no no I mean if Aoki maintaied one [Shimeragi] AOKI porn? oh my ^^;;; * Katz-Writing giggles [CorvetteHyers] maintained* [Shimeragi] OH! * WindMachine dies again [Kamui] O.o;; ....Aoki...porn...*shudder* [WindMachine] ....... [WindMachine] hey. *sniffles* [GenkiDogGirl] *looks flustery* I..I..have Karen-san porn, minna-san! *dies uploading* [WindMachine] eh, I'm used to it hehe * WindMachine has unique taste XD [Shimeragi] *patpat* we all want Aoki tied to a bed and covered in champange [WindMachine] ..... [CorvetteHyers] ewww champange * WindMachine honestly dies this time [Katz-Writing] Keri, it's sent [WindMachine] thaaanks... *twitches* [GenkiDogGirl] I was thinking a nice 1800's French wine tee [Shimeragi] well, I like champange...it such a pretty colour! and so damn useful! [Kamui] ...oh my. [Shimeragi] LOL! * WindMachine now knows what she wants for her birthday! XD ... ahem. XD XD *dies some more* Utena and Anthy last kissed on Thursday, January 3, 2002 at 09:19 p.m. Take the "What kind of Squirrel am I Test!" ..... *snicker!* Going back to school today sucked. I hate the first day back after vacation-- it's like a Monday, only it's twice as hard to get out of bed and you want to be there even less than usual. Although, this will be the last time I'll have to go back to high school after Christmas break. And next year at this time I'll still be on my winter break. ^____^ In any case, today hasn't really been a fun day, because I got into a lovely little screaming fight with my mom... of course, twenty minutes later everything was peachy again, 'cause that's how we operate (the old Italian temper ^^;;;), but it still sucked. I was overdue for the "you're a disorganized slob who spends too much time on the computer" lecture, though. It'll be a few months before I have to hear it again, which is a plus. ... family life, woo. Also, I'm not feeling so great. I got dizzy for no apparent reason today during school, and I can't really hear too well out of my left ear. You'd think I'd go to a doctor, but doctors are the devil, so until I keel over I'll be winging it. ^_^ Ummm, what A/K fic? o.o;;; hehehe, and of course I missed your Dai and Kei rants! *snuggles* I was wondering what you'd think of TV Dai-kun. I like him a lot! He got a bit more of his uncle's looks and cute mannerisms than he did in the manga, I think. *is a sucker for the blushy ones* XD *giggles* Hai, you did a GREAT job! ^____^ I hate those damn words, they always end up getting in the way... XD *glomps* I'm glad you figured out mIRC ^_~ Hey, how did you get to see a pic of Ammie? I wanna see one! For that matter, I wouldn't mind seeing one of you, either. I bet you're both kawaii. ^__^ Your new year's resolutions... anou... *doesn't see the purpose of 2, 'cause she's a proud Internet junkie* XD but good luck keeping them! *adores layout* XD I might have to give DGC a chance, 'cause I passed it off as pure strange crack, but that quote is actually pretty funny. *snicker* I'm sorry you had a bad year... but I was in it, therefore it couldn't be that bad. XD (it was worse, wasn't it... yeah, that's what I thought *pouts* lol) Utena and Anthy last kissed on Wednesday, January 2, 2002 at 10:38 p.m. OK, so I forgot a few things. Hmm... yes, I think it is. ^_~ hehehe In other news... *murders the HP casting people* I am not amused. >< I'm cold. I'm bored. I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. *whine whine whine* Where are you two, anyhow? Hung over? :P *snicker* Utena and Anthy last kissed on Tuesday, January 1, 2002 at 02:52 p.m. Well. It's 2002. The year I graduate. ... eep. 2001 was... well... interesting. I'd have to say the worst part was February through June. 'Nuff said. Best part would have to be this summer, because I think I ended up getting closer to many of my friends. And drivers' ed was amusing, except for the part where I had to get up at 6 in the morning and then attempt to operate a vehicle... and except for the part where I failed, well, okay, maybe it wasn't quite so amusing after all. Got my first job in 2001... hated it, am still in the process of hating it... however, on the flipside, I discovered X in 2001. *clings to CLAMP* I've lost a few friends, but I've pretty much made new ones and strengthened my relationships with old ones to make up for it. I'm thinking this year is going to be better, considering I've pretty much gotten over most of my angst, and if things go as planned for Shoujocon this summer, it's definitely going to be a great year. ^____^ I haven't enjoyed my senior year to the fullest yet, because I've been worried about college applications and my future, but once I get accepted and decide where I'm going, I'll be able to relax and have fun with that as well. Can't wait for the Class Night bash (basically we all get on a bus after Class Night and go around doing fun stuff all night, and no one's allowed to fall asleep or there will be dire consequences apparently o.o;;; hehehe), the senior trip, and graduation of course. Eep. o.o;;; Now, back to the present. -_- *huggles* I'm glad you are dealing with a lot of your problems... you have a good attitude about it. And YES, your New Year's resolution should be to write more!! *glompcling* I don't usually make them, 'cause I always break them *snicker* but I guess this year I just want to start appreciating people more for what they can give me rather than being jealous and wanting more. (Or stop being such an angsty dumbass, if you wanna put it in blunter terms. XD) New Year's is definitely a holiday for marathons on TV. Well, that and getting really drunk and making out with random people at midnight, but I unfortunately did not get to take part in that type of festivity last night. -.- Seishirou Howell does have a certain ring to it... *snicker* And my mom just came up and asked me if I had heard of FFX and if it looked interesting. I'm thinking birthday present. ^_____^ (BTW, y'all can start shopping now.... or writing or drawing *nudgenudgenudge* my birthday is January 15th. So, Lika, how are we gonna celebrate? hehehe) Thanks, hehe. Although I find it ironic that everyone has been saying they should've gone ahead with the nookie, when the only reason I stopped it there is 'cause I figured people would bitch (you know, the whole adultery thing o.o;;;). Oi. You really want to tempt me into writing some horrible lemon don't you. hehehe (I probably would have done it anyway, so... ^^;;;) *SCREAM* Karen!!! Eeee! You know, I'm going to have to start going to your blog for the express purpose of looking at your layout ^^;;; *goes into blithering fangirl mode* wheeee! XD Alright, alright, gotta go to work. Will write more later. Utena and Anthy last kissed on Tuesday, January 1, 2002 at 09:22 a.m. *clings to closest thing that is nailed down and wails* they're gonna eat meeeeeee ... Well, now that I got that out of the way... Ammie! *glomps* Good to see you post again-- I've been seriously lacking in Keiichi and Daisuke rants, you know. ^_~ Hope you had fun on your trip ^___^ I'm afraid I missed the sexiness of Boromir's ears the first time around. *snicker* I gotta go see LOTR again, do some more Legolas-drooling (I must have looked like such a dork, 'cause every time he came on screen I just kind of zoned out with this dumb fangirl smile on my face XD), and maybe pay attention to the plot rather than going "ooo, pretty... ooo that one's pretty too... ooo I wanna slash them..." LOL. Oh, duh, you did mention that you got TB in NYC, I'm just a dip. hehe, I think I'll get it-- I wanna see the penguin bit ^___^ Yeah, I forgot to mention that, but it amused me highly when Sei and concrete boy were just kinda sitting there chatting happily about human remains. ~~;;; Chaaarming. *snicker* A bit belatedly, I assumed that was the reason, Lika. Nothing wrong with being confused though. I spend most of my life in a state of advanced confusion. XD Really, if it feels right to you, go for it. I was raised in a semi-religious atmosphere-- I had to attend religious education and go through communion, confirmation, all of that, but it was mostly because of my grandmother. My parents don't really follow an organized religion. In the past few years, it's gotten so that I become extremely uncomfortable in religious situations (i.e. church, prayer services). I still have my doubts, but I figure if something makes me feel that creeped out and wrong, I can't be destined to follow it... *is happy to settle for her utter confusion leaning towards agnosticism* hehe ^^;;;; So, I guess that New Years' Resolution test is telling you to stop being around me, eh? :P Make a wallpaper! Wallpapers are fun ^____^ *admires Karen* And I sure do hope there's an Aoki out there for me. He sure is taking his time, if there is. ~~;;; *wails* Well, I'm glad to hear you are still working on the Karen lemon, although I still wanna know who it's withhhh *looks cute* hehehe. I liked "Reflection", although... *sniffle* cold, Karen-san, very cold... ^^;;; But I liked a lot of Fuuma's internal speech, especially the line "Only Kigai could manage to get himself in a love triangle with a computer." XD And I hope your husband feels better soon! ^_^ Um... so, did I ever mention that I got the Sims Hot Date expansion pack? Hehe, well, I did. It's great fun. I made A&K go downtown and sit on a bench and make out. XD I really have no life... *cough* (You and I didn't fare so well, 'cause I kept being a priss *snicker*) And I made Fuuma fall in love with Codi. You're a Mary Sue now. Feel proud. XD Oh, and I got a rather amusing search request today... Keiichi pills. I don't know if the person wanted pills that would make him or her as genki as Keiichi, or if they wanted Keiichi to take some pills so he would stop being so genki, but... there it is. XD This is an amusing article. *snicker* Especially like Utena's. Utena and Anthy last kissed on Monday, December 31, 2001 at 10:11 a.m. I have come to a very important realization. If I can't have an Aoki, I want a Leopold. Yeah, my mom dragged me out to see "Kate and Leopold". It was cute. I didn't love it, mostly because of the ending (grrr, the ending... >< I won't spoil it, but I definitely was not satisfied with it... I didn't understand why they chose to do it that way, although I guess it could've been worse), but damn, Hugh Jackman is adorable in it. I'm such a sucker for the sweet gentlemanly type these days. Too bad they don't exist in real life... But anyway. Pure mush, but I'd recommend it if you're the hopeless romantic type. (Not that I am, or anything. *coughcough*) In other news, I have fixed Pitas' great fuckup, and deleted the entry I tried to post yesterday and which did not show up until today, when it was no longer relevant. Whore. I have one thing to say about X 11. Blargh. Yes, I knew we were eventually going to need the requisite "KamuiKamuiFuumaKotoriKamuiwhoelsematters?" episode, but that doesn't mean I have to be happy about it. *poutpout* I haven't even watched it, and I probably won't. And no, I'm not just being bitter because A&K aren't in it... where's Sorashi? Where's Yuuto, Satsuki, Yuzu, Subaru and Seishirou? Hell, I'd rather watch Kanoe than Kamui and MushyBigBrother!Fuuma. *gags* (But, I would be much obliged if the producers would get around to the ep where a certain two DoHs meet for the, um, second time. Because it's cute. And I wanna see Sorata freak out over the "customer" thing. *snerk*) Utena and Anthy last kissed on Sunday, December 30, 2001 at 04:20 p.m. Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz *snerk* I think I can deal with that. XD So, I watched Tokyo Babylon 2 for the first time a few days ago. *commence squealing* (spoilers ahead in case you haven't seen it) So much better than the first one, for a lot of reasons... for one thing they left in some of the gay, which made me wonder why they took it out of the first one at all... but the scene where Hokuto tells Subaru he's about to get lucky and "I don't know if I should be condoning this sort of behavior but if that's what you like..." XD that was hilarious, especially the look on poor Subby-kun's face. Awwww. He was so cute before he went angsty. And Seishirou looked mad sexy when he was sakuraifying the crazy psycho dude. Although I really figured they were going to draw some parallel between the crazy guy's whole "Death's a game" attitude and Seishirou's coldhearted-killer-ness. Wasted opportunity. Ah well. The flashback where the crazy guy killed his sister was creepy. o.o And, okay, if you've seen it, you probably expected this reaction from me, but I was rather fond of concrete boy. Yeah, he might've been weird, but part his hair on the other side and you have Aoki's twin brother, and that, my friends, is enough for me. ^____^ Although I must say that whoever translated the line into "I really enjoy showing off my concrete bits" must have been snickering inside. That line just killed me. XDDD But at the end I was kind of sad, because Seishirou was still being all nice, and knowing that he's a coldhearted bastard and his genkiness is just a front was kinda depressing. Yeah, I like genki nice guys, leave me alone. hehehe, suddenly I have the urge to go buy the manga... o.o;;; (Kimmie, did you ever get it? I thought you were gonna ask for it for Christmas, but then I never heard about it again...) You and you sure are having fun with the "morning after" scene (looks as if the morning after is about to get lemonier than the night before, however... XD). ^_~ I'm glad we got that place started up again, anyhow. ^____^ *eeps* You definitely don't want to see my so called "artwork". Yes, I draw, but I'm horrid at it. Honestly. I believe I am an above average writer, despite all my self-criticism in that area, but when it comes to drawing (or art of any kind) I'm basically clueless. I carried low 70s in middle school art class and was told that I wasn't "creative enough". *growls* I'm slightly better at cartoon-style drawings than attempting to draw real things (which is all we ever got to do in art ><;;;), but not by much. I only draw because I get ideas stuck in my head and they won't go away. (either that, or I pawn them off on Cori, as I did with my last layout... ^^;;;) Whaaaat? *pouts* I wasn't gonna say anything! XD I like that pic of Fuuma too, actually. :P Being dragged out again. *sigh* Not that I don't like going out, but I never get a minute to myself... I've been trying to finish this entry for two days now... oh well. Will post more later. Utena and Anthy last kissed on Sunday, December 30, 2001 at 11:57 a.m. *cling* No more of that! First of all, you draw like 4,000 times better than I do, and I've not given up yet (not completely anyway ~~;;; I still don't know why you put my name on that fanart site layout, I'm gonna look so bad next to these two, but aaaanyway...), so don't! And I do see your point on Fuuma vs. Kusanagi, since as I said, I could go off on a twenty minute rant on all the reasons Yuuto is all wrong for Karen... and I really don't mind Kusanagi, honestly. I don't mind anyone, except maybe Kamui, and even then I can tolerate him when he's being cool and bratty rather than a wet angsty dishrag. In any case. Cheer up. *glomps* Thanks, hehe. And yes, Subaru dancing on the board was quite amusing. If I recall I think Kimmie did it to make me quit angsting. Awww. *snicker* *snuggles* we're being set up by a computer game! XD XD Damn, you've been through a lot. I've never even broken a bone before. I've lived a relatively sedentary existance, really. Didn't play sports ('cept when I had to in gym), didn't climb trees, didn't do weird physical stunts... I think I missed out on a big chunk of childhood *sniffle* I'm so lazy, lol. I think I want to be a Roman Catholic Buddhist with agnostic tendencies too-- lets go start a cult! *snerk* Oh, and I definitely feel your pain on the sudden onrush of LOTR smut-related referrals. I think I've gotten just about every pairing imaginable (although Gandalf has not shown up yet, thank god ~~;;;). Plenty of Aragorn/Legolas, Legolas/Arwen (okaaaay...), Aragorn/Frodo (... yes, I know the seme is supposed to be taller than the uke, but that's just ridiculous), and of course the old standby Frodo/Sam. Awwww, kawaii. *pinches little hobbit cheeks* XD Speaking of referrals, the "Daniel Radcliffe shirtless" people are back. Which is odd, because Cori just put up her Dan layout (kawaaaaiii by the way ^___^). My referrals have an interesting way of echoing what I'm doing, even when I haven't blogged about it. o.O;;; Don't tell me my tracker is sentient like my Winamp is... However, "hot boys drugged and fucked by gay men pics" does not echo what I am doing. At least, not until the weekends. And just because I mentioned Magna Doodles once, I suddenly get all these hits from people who can't spell "manga". Oi... ~~;;;; Oh, and... *sniffles* I miss reading your blog, come back soon! *cling* hehehe Utena and Anthy last kissed on Friday, December 28, 2001 at 09:53 a.m. New layout, weeeee. Thanks. ^____^ *huggles* OK... so... time for some shameless plugging... My fic Everybody Loves Kamui is competing for Best Humor Fic in the CFFML TB/X Fanfiction Awards... you can vote by clicking on the link... last I checked, I was in third place. Staying there would be nice. Moving up to second would be even nicer. (I'm not expecting to win, not up against X Therapy. Which, I will admit, is probably the best X humor fic I've ever read, and I'm glad it's winning. ^__^) So... if you love me (more than you love the others on the list... *snicker* just kidding), go vote! Oh, and whoever actually chose "ELK" above all the other fics in the contest and voted for me in the General Category... would you like me to bear your children? Because I will. You made me feel all warm and squishy. ^_______^ Your rant raises some interesting points, but I have to admit that I always get a bit confused when you start talking about religion. Can't figure out if you're for or against it, or undecided... I guess I'd have to agree that many so called Christians go against the Bible, but... I'd be inclined to cheer them on, hehe. That it should be all or nothing is a valid observation, but I think I'll definitely choose nothing. ^^;;; And out of curiosity, do you mean that if you chose to become Christian, you would be against homosexuality? I know I'm missing a lot here, but you have interesting views on religion and they do intrigue me. ^_^ On sexual orientation, however, I agree completely. Who needs labels? I still hold fast to my theory that nobody is completely straight, and I assume it goes the other way as well, that nobody is completely gay (except maybe Subaru! *snicker*). Hurrah for being wavy XD What does a mouse scream sound like, I wonder? hehehe, and I'm glad Seishirou's Speedo amused you. They haven't been half so interesting today. Get 'em in the house and all they want to do is eat, take showers, and sleep. >< Yuzuriha did go over to Seishirou and Subaru's house and drink all their espresso, though, and Subaru was doing some pretty flamboyant dancing when I turned the stereo on. *snerk* *cries* You're so mean to the poor boy... *waits till you're not looking and throws him and Yuzu in a room together* *cackle cackle* Alright, alright, I'll be nice to you. You are writing the Drunken New Years' Eve fic, after all. ^__^ *glomps* Grahhhh. Little brother irritating me. If I ever needed a blood-dripping, soul-devouring sakura tree... Utena and Anthy last kissed on Thursday, December 27, 2001 at 06:21 p.m.