This is the third time I've attempted to blog tonight.
I give up.
*insert griping about work here*
*insert fangirly musings here*
*insert social responses here*
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filling the space with time on Monday, October 8, 2001 at 09:50 p.m.
Well, I tried to blog earlier, but my connection decided to have a diva fit and it got lost. So this one might be kinda short, 'cause I really don't feel like rewriting it at all, but I suppose I will. See how I slave away for you, dear readers. :P hehehe
Poor Kimmie. Sorry the wedding thingy was so unsuccessful, and I hope you feel better soon. *snuggles* If Subby-plushie ever needs babysitting, I'm sure he'd feel right at home here... after all, I do have a plushie of a manipulative sexy bastard with supernatural powers (ok, so it's Schu, not Seishirou, but who's counting)... *snicker* And are you saying if Yuuto wanted some of your cookies, you wouldn't give them to him? If Yuuto wanted some of my cookies, I'd let him have as many as he wanted, and am I still talking about cookies? *snerk*
I got the jellybeans at Walmart. Go figure. And is it bad that I actually find the grass flavored ones pretty tasty? o.o;;;;
You're evil. But it sounds quite interesting, and I can't wait to read some of this epic once you write it. ^__^ Go on, restore my faith in Weiss Kreuz fanfiction. I haven't been reading much of it lately. Partly because of the all consuming CLAMP/X obsession, and partly because... anou... most of it isn't all that good at the moment. ^^;;;
Time for some Fun With Referral Logs...
free card captor sakura hentai pics Someone's out there making people pay for Card Captor Sakura hentai pics? How dare they take advantage of those poor innocent lolicon hentais like that...
karen kasumi pictures Finally, someone with taste. ^___^
little teen pics Er... pics of little teens, or little pics of teens? Or did they mean to write "little teeny pics"? It boggles the mind.
girl anus pic Not touching this one with a ten foot pole. (And when did I ever say the word anus on this blog? Ah, prolly in one of the MegaHAL logs...)
pikachu fucking misty Oh good lord. O.O
www.a picture of misty from pokemon naked.com The one stop shop for all your naked Misty needs... *chokes and gags* x.x (I honestly get more perverted Misty-related searchrequests than anything else. ~~;;;)
bitch fight Excuse me. It was not a "bitch fight". We simply engaged in some minor fisticuffs. *snerk*
naked pics of digimon characters Mmmm, nekky Matt-- ah, I mean, this is sick and disgusting, I mean really, who would think such things? XD
filling the space with time on Sunday, October 7, 2001 at 09:23 p.m.
Ooh! Ooh, I forgot!
*glomps Codi* Ficcieeee ^___^ I can't wait! Anou, you don't want to torture a poor innocent girl in the throes of fanfiction withdrawal, doooo youuuu? *tries to look reaaaallly cute*
*clears throat* Erm, back to your regularly scheduled programming. ^^;;;
filling the space with time on Saturday, October 6, 2001 at 08:41 p.m.
Hum de. All my bestest friends seem to be out having lives tonight. I'm lonely and bored, so I shall just sit here and blog and eat my Harry Potter jellybeans and consider writing something.
Yes, I am feeling somewhat better. Mostly thanks to Kim, who, after the pic she drew me, I will now love forever. (Well, I kinda planned on that anyhow, but this is a nice added bonus. *snicker*) Let's just say it involved molestation of one of my favorite X characters by one of my other favorite X characters. And we all know I loves me some molestation. *snerk* I also saw screenshots from the first ep of the X tv series. All I'm going to say is that maybe I'm the only one, but I find the back of Aoki's head excessively pretty. (Or maybe it's just a gratuitous ass shot. XD) However, he also has a dorky octopus tie. I don't know if that was an Angelic Layer reference, or CLAMP smoking crack again, but it's really dorky and of course I think it's just adorable. ^____^
So, all things considered I'm doing just peachy. Although I had a friggin' horrible day at work, which I don't want to discuss, so I won't. All of you reading this whose consciences will allow it, cross your fingers that a certain know it all office bitch will be randomly struck by lightning, onegai? For me? *cute smile*
Oooh. I just ate a honey-graham-cracker-flavored jellybean. Yum. ^_^
Your song parody was really damn funny, don't dis it. *grins* My favorite line was the part about "he'd gather all us girls and tell us our feelings aren't worth poo, that's what Seishirou'd do!" XD 'cause you know, he would. ~~;;; Hope your child care thingy's going ok.
Thanks. It's not really all the time... usually I can deal with things pretty well, and just laugh it off. And I really don't think my friends mean to make me feel bad. I never protest, so I guess they think I don't care. Most of the time I don't, but occasionally it just gets to be too much. I may talk to a few of my friends about it on Tuesday, just so they know I do feel bad when they ridicule me, even if it's "just in fun".
*chews on a grass flavored jellybean* o.o Well, I think I'm gonna head out and try to get some more of "Little Lies" written. Ja!
filling the space with time on Saturday, October 6, 2001 at 07:50 p.m.
I know I shouldn't be doing this, because it will only serve to further the seemingly popular opinion that I am a negative, pessimistic, extremely unhappy person. There's no need for any of you to read this, because I'm not worth anyone's time. That's been validated thousands of times over. I am finally taking the hint.
Today was a horrible day. I didn't realize how much it was bothering me until a few minutes ago, when I suddenly got this crushing feeling of utter uselessness. And I realized how this has been building up for a long time now. See, at my school I play one very important role. I'm everyone's fucking entertainment. No one really tries to get to know me. No one cares what's going on below the surface. I'm just the clown, the one who's an easy target and the most fun to pick on because of the way I react, and I'm just supposed to accept this. I'm just supposed to deal with the fact that I was born with a target for ridicule painted on my forehead, and there's absolutely nothing I can do to change it. I am also, apparently, "negative". And "pessimistic". And I don't smile enough. I'm expected to listen to everyone's half-hour-long dissertations on their latest breakup or how everyone is pissing them off or how they got a low grade on the last math test or etc. etc. etc, but I can't even say "Man, I really don't feel like going to work today" without getting a comment like "Stop bitching!" or "God, you're so negative all the time!"
If it was only a few people, I wouldn't care. But it's everyone. My teachers, my classmates, my coworkers, random people, absolutely fucking EVERYONE. And the really funny thing is, as far as I know, I haven't done anything to deserve this. I complain about as much as everyone else does. I can think of a lot of people who are a hell of a lot more negative than I am. I'm generally a happy person. OK, so maybe I don't sit around smiling like a doofus all the time, so sue me, I guess the natural expression I take on when I'm thinking comes off as unhappy or depressed to people. At least I'm capable of deep thinking. At least I use my brain for something other than pondering who's fucking who at the moment. And you know what? I don't give a fuck. I'm not gonna constantly sit there and consciously change the way I look so whoever-the-fuck won't have to be offended by the fact that I'm not smiling as much as he or she wants me to. But at the same time, there's no need to constantly comment on it.
All my life. That's all it's ever been. Constant ridicule. Constant little "jokes" that I try to ignore, but there comes a point when I can't be everyone's clown anymore. Why is it than when other people mess up on a math problem, others say "Oh, that's too bad, I hope you did okay anyway," but when I do, they laugh for five minutes straight and then have the fucking GALL to THANK me for "brightening up their day" with my STUPIDITY?
And it didn't even bother me, not until I got home from work after having made two really large, embarrassing, stupid mistakes in front of the one person who can always make me feel lower than fucking dirt. And I realized, I am tired of it. I'm tired of everything they've ever made fun of me for since fucking elementary school when my "friends" used to laugh every time I'd walk past the table, for no reason except to make me paranoid. I'm sick of them telling me the wrong homework to do and then saying "I'm sorry, but you're just so easy..."
Mostly I'm just sick of people thinking they know me, when they don't know the first fucking thing about what I'm really like. They look at me and they put this label on my head. I'm not aiming for whiny teenage angst "oh they're labeling me" here, but I honestly don't know where they come off proclaiming me as some kind of dark cloud whiner, when that's so not who I am and not who I try to be. And I can't seem to change it. I can't ever change anything. I just put up with it. Because the truth is, I'm only intelligent in the academic, scholarly way. I have no social skills. I don't know how to handle stressful situations. When I'm placed in said stressful situation (i.e. driving, playing sports, being at work, etc.), all rational thought ceases and I usually end up doing the absolute STUPIDEST thing possible. This rule is intensified if I'm around someone who already thinks I'm stupid. Which makes work hell, because I know one of my coworkers thinks I am the dumbest piece of shit she's ever had the misfortune of sharing airspace with. She's also a fucking pretentious bitch who thinks shes a hell of a lot smarter than she is, but that doesn't matter, because she intimidates me. Therefore, I act even stupider, and she thinks I'm even stupider, and it just goes on and on in a vicious cycle.
I think I'll shut up now. If you read this whole thing, you're obviously really bored, or some kind of masochist. Have a cookie. I apologize if this has colored your opinion of me, so that you now think I am "negative" and "pessimistic". It'll happen eventually, if you plan on ever spending any time with me in person. After all, I just exist to bring everyone else down, unless of course they're laughing at my misfortune. I guess I should just deal with it. This is the only way things can ever be. I just don't deserve any better.
filling the space with time on Friday, October 5, 2001 at 08:54 p.m.
To follow Kimmie's example somewhat, I will now humbly present to you a list of fanfics that rock my world. If you know me, you know how massively biased this is going to be... *cough* hehe. Not all of them are high works of art. Not that any of them are badly written, 'cause if they were they wouldn't be on the list, but you'll see fluffy little "throwaway" fics next to major dramatic works. Basically, if it affected me enough so I still remember and smile about it now, it's on here. Also, since I'm feeling particularly lazy right now and don't feel like searching for the WK fics I've read over the past year, I'm just doing X for now, since those fics were read more recently and I remember them better. I'll make the WK list some other time. OK, shutting up now and making the list. *snicker*
Note: if a fic has "2" next to it, it doesn't mean it's a sequel... *snicker* that's just how I did the linking for multiple parts. Can't really think of a better way to do it, so it's staying, even though it looks stupid. ~~
Two Casts, One Stage... And It's the End of the World by Natalie Baan and Shanti Fader
Hands down, my favorite X humor fic ever. It's insanely good. The casting is hysterical, the plot is inventive, and the imagery created by some of the scenes had me on the floor.
X Gets a Clue by Truth
Another great humor fic by a wonderful author. I'm not sure why, but this story amuses me to no end. I hope she finishes it soon.
After Dark (2 3 4) by Kira Seldon
Crossover with the Anita Blake series that has one of the most interesting characterizations of Subaru I've seen yet. Quite well-written.
Don't Forgive by Ariane Kovacevic
I didn't link the parts individually, since there are 8 of them, but scroll down the page I linked and you should find it. It's a crossover with a series I've never even heard of, and I still adored the fic. Beautifully written, massively angsty.
Guilty (2) by Lika (*waves* XD)
An excellent Kusa/Yuzu. This fic affected me a lot. Full of emotion, and the premise is so original.
The Hierophant (2) by Anna Vincent
Wahhh... why wasn't this fic ever finished? :_: It had potential to actually successfully pull off one of the scarier pairings I've come across. Oh well, I can only hope the author's still out there and will finish it one day... *sniffle* meanwhile, the fact that it's included on this list even as an unfinished fic should tell you, my dear readers, that it is pretty damn good. ^^
Paper Moon by Shanti Fader
It's this fic's fault that whenever I think of dancing, I think of two particular characters. (The case could be made that whenever I think of linoleum, I think of two particular characters, but let's ignore that for now, ne? XD) I love it. Even though nothing really happened between them. And man, did I pout about that when I first read it... ^^;;; no matter, it's really sweet and wonderfully written.
Storm Front (2 3 annex) by Shanti Fader
I don't really think I need to explain why I freaking love this fic. Especially, um, the last part. *cough* Not that I've read it 8 million times or anything. ^___^
And So I Fight by Chen Huiwen
This fic had better have been good, after all the time I spent looking for it after I read it the first time... (yes, I'm a loser and I don't know how bookmarks function XD) really, it's a nice piece on Karen, I love the characterization of her here.
Undercover Operation by Shanti Fader
CUTE. Cute, cute, cute. ^___^ (I guess I should just basically recommend like everything by this author, ne? ~~;;; She rocks. Don't think she's in the fandom much anymore, though... *pout*)
X Therapy by Leareth and Taryn
OK, so maybe this is my favorite X humor fic ever. Can't decide. ~~;;; I think everyone knows how good this one is, though. ^_^
Sakura and Snow by Natalie Baan
Duh. ^^
Those Who Fall Before God by Jehzavere
Kim got me hooked on this one. It's the best Fuuma characterization I've ever seen (translation: he has a personality, not just as a Sei ripoff *runs from the Fuuma fans* hehe). And evil Subaru, weeeee! *bouncebounce*
And, even though it's not available online anywhere at the moment, I have to add Kim's ongoing X fic, because it has Seishirou/Aoki molestation, and references to Subaru's sexual frustration, and really, what more could you want in a fic. XD XD write moreeeee *looks cute*
*deep breath* I... think that's it, for X. o.o;;;; I'll do the WK one soon, maybe later tonight if I'm bored enough, I already can think of a few fics that are definitely going on there. hehe
filling the space with time on Wednesday, October 3, 2001 at 03:43 p.m.
Dear God, the pain. Would anyone really be in objection if I just removed my lower jaw for a little while? ><;;;;
The Rolling Stones song? I think they had more than one, sweetie. XD I was on at about 1:45, I sent an email, but YOU didn't answer. :P And hell, I'll kidnap Midorikawa. He needs love. (He's not an alley rapist. Yes, I'm talking to you. *snicker*)
*blinks at Winamp pulling Cori's A/K skin on "With Or Without You" by U2* .... oh the ANGST! :_: (and this would be quite amusing if I still thought that one line was "she got me whipped" XD but unfortunately it's "with" *pouts* no fun... no fun at all... lol)
Speaking of you, get better soon! *huggles even though there's danger of germs* hehehe... and I'm glad I could be of service in giving you weird dreams o.o;;; I had a weird one last night... I dreamed I was going to Snowball (the next major formal) with this guy who graduated last year, Evan... I was going in a limo and all that, and then everyone came to my house and suddenly we all remembered that the dance wasn't for another two months. o.o;;;;
I have been getting many search requests as well... here are some interesting ones...
tokyo naked girl download movie (o.O riiiight)
weiss kreuz hentai (does hentai only refer to m/f? 'cause if so, I'm disturbed as to what pairings this person is looking for... Ran/Sakura? *has a nice big squick moment* o.o)
tentacle hentai (and the funny thing is, I got this hit from a paragraph talking about how I didn't get enough perverted search requests hehe)
Naked Vash the Stampede (no, but if anyone wants to give me some as a present, I don't think I'd say no... ^_~)
CLAMP name+sora kinomoto (O.O stop stalking me! XD)
kim sora (*blink* huh? Hey Kim, looks like you're a Mary Sue now... XD let's just hope it's the X Sora(ta) and not the Digimon Sora *shudder*)
The rest have all been about fanfiction and CLAMP (what a shocker -_-). And yes, "Keiichi girly yaoi pic" is really fucking amusing. *falls over* XD XD
filling the space with time on Tuesday, October 2, 2001 at 02:56 p.m.
Tiiired. @_@ I am so ready to fall over. x.x And I have the fucking Pokemon Ondo stuck in my head. Please shoot me. This is all your fault. Yours too. :P hehe
*waves* ^_^ Yes, I do know Howl. And I'm about 1/5 of the way through the sequel and he hasn't shown up yet and I am highly irate. He better be in there soon. And of course I'm a Karen fan... what's not to love? She's gorgeous, funny, smart, strong and has great taste in men... And gorgeous, I did mention that, right? ^^;;; hehehe
That's all I have time for tonight, ladies and gentlemen. This little blogger is going to bed. *yawns* Ja!
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 30, 2001 at 10:52 p.m.
I'm glad you all liked the fic. ^^;;;; And I can't take credit for the creativity, that was all Cori. It's her "theory". I don't think I'm gonna go with the cross-dressing part though. XD XD *falls over* I shall write more. Soon. Maybe even now. o.o;;;
No, the tattoo would actually be pretty cool. Not that obsessive. ^_^ And yes, that's exactly what I've been telling you two about presents... so quit being dorks! :P hehe
Wai, incredibly cute girl you mentioned linked me... *wavewave* hi Kim #2! XD
So? Where's the slutty Aya goodness? hehehehe
Time to go... um... write some more. Yeah. And eventually take a shower before I go to work. O.O;;;;
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 30, 2001 at 09:00 a.m.
Hum de. I got the X DVD today. ~~;;;; Oddly enough, it seems that I prefer the dub. *runs* Yes, with all its cheesy British accents and mispronunciations of Subaru's last name (it's spelled Kimeragi in the subtitles too... was that a romanization problem or what? o.o)... at least Aoki sounds nice and cultured and not like a truck driver. @.@ His voice would've been better suited to... uh... Kusanagi or something. Karen's voice is quite pretty though. I think I definitely prefer the OAV/TV series seiyuus. Which is good, 'cause I'm gonna end up hearing a lot more of them than of the movie seiyuus. ^^
*squeals* Oh, you tempt me so! XD That sounds like it would be so good! I feel guilty, I've sorta been neglecting that one as my pet whacked straight pairing... *snicker* but I still love it, and that just sounds way too tempting of a fic idea to pass up. I'm going to pester you now. hehehe and I know what you mean with having too many fic ideas at once... I have a ton right now, but I got (or was given ^^;;;) an idea today that is way too amusing to pass up. Thanks to a phone conversation with Cori in which we discussed her "theory" XD... it's gonna be a sort of romantic comedy type thing... prolly only you two will care and/or read it, though... ~~;;;; oh well, I love you guys *snuggles* hehe (but your dad scares me! o.o lmao)
Wow, someone else cares! XD nice to see I'm not the only one squealing over these particular characters. ^^;;;; And what she said she'd like to do to Hinoto if Hinoto tries anything with them... *nods* ditto for me. ><
Man, I spent a lot of money today. --;;; In addition to the X DVD, I got two books-- "Castle in the Air" by Diana Wynne Jones (the sequel to "HMC"... *bounces and squeals*) and "Good Omens" by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman ('cause I've heard a lot of people say it was really funny)-- a phonecard and a present for Cori (and Codi too, I guess, even though they didn't have her character :_: gomennnnnn). Which all came to like... 60 bucks or so. Yeah, that's not that much, but still enough for me to have massive shopper's guilt, especially since I spent a considerable amount last weekend as well. I'm glad I have a job (sometimes, anyway ~~).
filling the space with time on Saturday, September 29, 2001 at 09:36 p.m.
First of all... to everyone who reads this... *giant group huggle* It seems like quite a few of you need one. I hope things work out for you guys who are having problems. Talk to me if you wanna... you know where to reach me...
You may cling all you wish, my dear. And don't feel like a burden! I'm sure I would never hate you. I don't hate anyone unless they're a really huge bitch to me *coughdianacough* (or if I'm jealous of them... *cough* yeah I'm stupid hehe). Even if you killed my brother and put his soul in a tree, I'd still love you. Hell, I'd love you more... XD okay okay. Seriously. I feel the same way sometimes, but I depend on a small group of people as well, and feel the need to attach myself to them and basically get all scary possessive and it's not cool. But really, you have no reason to worry that any of us would hate you. ^^ As for the situation, I hope it will work itself out... :/
*much huggles* That's bullshit. You deserve much better treatment than that. I hope you had a better day today. And I liked the rant as well.
Oh, and I forgot to say this before, but I'm sorry about your computer. ~_~ That reaaaallly sucks. I'd be kicking some ass right now.
filling the space with time on Friday, September 28, 2001 at 07:53 p.m.
Well, since most everyone else is doing it... Color Test results. Wheee, watch me conform.
Your Existing Situation
Having difficulty in standing up to the demands imposed on her. Finds a great effort is involved and wishes to have the situation eased.
Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.
Your Actual Problem
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.
Your Actual Problem #2
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.
.... meep! Scarily accurate. The only little problem is the thing about being too reserved to form deep emotional attachments... as some of you know firsthand, I could write the book on forming deep (almost clingy) emotional attachments. ^^;;;;; But other than that, it's all perfect... all the stuff about wanting to live and develop freely, to live life to the fullest, is exactly the kind of thing I've been thinking about a lot lately. And yeah, the thing about being afraid that I can't get what I want so much that I overcompensate in my "part" is on the freaking dot. Cookie to anyone who can figure out what that "part" is... *whistles* -_-
*huggles* That sucks that you have to go to a doctor XP but I hope your eye gets better! And yes, it seems as if supporting any coupling with Subaru in it is quite the rollercoaster ride. ~_~ But noooo, you can't give up on X! If all the S/S shippers give up on X, the fandom will be a very boring place, even for someone like me who is only a recreational fan of anything K/F/S/S, and in the end could sorta kinda take or leave all of 'em. ^^;;;; Yeah, I know, it's somewhat akin to blasphemy to say that... but you know me. ^^ Doesn't mean Sei and Subby aren't sexy bitches though. *glomps them* hehe
... Oh in that case... *gropes* XD alright alright I'm kidding. :P But I've told you 800 times, woman... Nobody thinks you're dumb for feeling that way. I feel the same. And I know what you mean by the whole people-not-talking thing, although my mind goes along this track "____ is being quiet, therefore ____ must be talking to ____ who she likes better than me and thinks I'm really boring and doesn't want to talk to me anymore and hates my guts and etc etc etc...." Yep, told you I was insecure. --;;;(No resemblance to any people dead or alive intended by those blanks up there. ^^;;;;)
Bah. *sigh* Ever feel so indecisive that you just want to curl up somewhere and not think anymore? I honestly cannot make up my mind about anything from one day or hour or minute to the next. One minute I think "god I can't wait until I'm living on my own, I'm moving out as soon as I get out of high school", the next I'm like "wahhhh moving out scary not going anywhere wahhhh!" -_- It's like that with everything. I can't decide how I feel about certain situations, I can't decide whether I want to quit my job or not (not that it matters what I want on that front, 'cause I'm stuck with it anyway ><)... I can't even decide what I believe in, spiritually or religiously or whatever. It's so frustrating. I don't even know myself anymore (well, not that I ever really knew myself too well, but at least I wasn't changing every second).
I guess this is another one of those things that fits into the "teen angst" category, ne? Whoopty do. --;;; Although, somehow I doubt the conventional teen angst is anything like the problems I've been pondering.... ^^;;; ohhh well. I wonder when I'll stop dropping hints and actually come out and say what the hell's wrong with me. Probably never. *sigh*
filling the space with time on Thursday, September 27, 2001 at 09:40 p.m.
There comes a turning point in every author's life...
Yep. I've been plagiarised. Hooray for unoriginality.
I wouldn't post the link unless I was absolutely sure there could be no coincidence... however, I am absolutely sure, so here you go. Knock yourself out. Honestly, half of the author comments are even exactly the same! Oi, people are stupid. XD It's kind of unfortunate, because this is the only fic I've seen in like months that has any A/K content whatsoever, and it's ripped off from one of mine. ~_~ Must I do everything myself? *snicker*
Hehe, I stole Kimmie's innocence... *cackles* And you're sharing quite a bit as it is, woman. *_*
C, that is creepy. o.o Cool, though. I wish I could do that. hehehe
XD last year in senior english, me and my friend Erin would just snicker like crazy whenever "oral tradition" was mentioned... yeah, we're immature hentais. hehe and ooo, you should work on "Much Music"! ^___^
My hands are cold. And Winamp just pulled a Sorata skin on "Girlfriend in a Coma" by the Smiths... should I be worried for Arashi? :/
Hehe, look at this. XD somebody's a lolicon in denialllll.... Although, you know, it does make sense. Since Yuzu did say she'd fall in love with the first man she met who could see Inuki. And if she knew Aoki ahead of time... *snickers* Hell, I'd want him if I were her! ('Course, I'd want him if I were any of the X characters, 'cause that's just me. Annnd it's time to shut up now. *whistles*)
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 26, 2001 at 08:30 p.m.
My fucking computer ate my entry somehow (the browser refreshed on its own), so I have to rewrite it. That, paired with the fact that Geocities froze me out of DoS before I could save the new Asuka pics, makes for a very not happy Keri. ><
Anyway. As I was SAYING *evil glare at IE*, I'm now going to do a more detailed reaction to the new Asuka updates (spoilers ahoy, of course), since the last one was written right before work and I didn't even have time to read the whole thing properly. I also had a horrible revelation a few minutes after I got off the computer, and I can now only cross my fingers, hope that CLAMP won't be so cruel, and wait for October 24th.
Let's just say I really am not feeling the whole "sinister smile" thing. >< Dammit, I don't want them to die! And if they really must die, it ought to be something honorable and dramatic and worthy of making everyone cry, not just my obsessive ass. Not being murdered by a short little deaf, blind and paralyzed chick who sits around in a basement. (Yeah, so I'm not feeling the Hinoto love right now, can you really blame me? :_:) And the really sad thing is, when and if they do die, unless it's something really heartbreaking and attention-grabbing, everyone will just be like "Oh, that's kinda too bad" and then go right the hell back to obsessing over where Subaru is and what Kamui's gonna do and blah blah blah. Sometimes I really hate being champion of the unloved. *snicker* (No offense intended to Subaru or Kamui fans. This is just Ms. Obscurity being bitter, don't mind me. ^^)
Oooohhh, but I was very glad that Sorata finally got the lovins! (If the links don't work, it's Geocities' fault, not mine. Check back in 10 or 15 minutes and it usually works again.) It's about time that Arashi quit with the whole denial thing. Sorata is a sexy bitch, and if he was following me around blathering about choosing me as his love and all that, I would have no problem with that at alllll. The girl must have no hormones. ~_~
Unfortunately, I think they are probably leading up to the revelation that Kamui's true wish has something to do with Subaru. 'Cause Kamui's a pretty singleminded boy, and if it's not about Fuuma or Kotori, it's gonna prolly be about Subaru. Blar. Me no likey that couple. Let's hope it won't be too shameless. ~_~
And of course, gotta comment on the lil A/K scene, apart from the whining about the thing that isn't going to happen (*nods* denial is fun)... I like the "being able to see another side of him" thing. Uh huh, we all know which side she wants to see. *grin* (Er, not that I would know about that, or anything.... ^^;;;) And the little chibis in the left bottom corner are so damn cute. Ooh, and he looks nice in casual clothes. ^_^ I always kept saying how I wished he'd wear something other than a)robes or b)a suit... well CLAMP was listening, I guess. ^^ *sends really strong telepathic messages about NOT KILLING THEM* ><
Oh well, I guess I'll just have to wait until next month to find out what happens. *pout* I guess it isn't that long of a wait... (All pics scanned by Alison at Dreams of Sakura... not me... I'm not claiming credit... please don't eat me... ^^;;;)
Hmm... other stuff... oh, I have to say that I deeply regret not being considered enough of a "fucked up loser individual" to be featured on this "blog", as many of my friends were. Perhaps in the future I'll be able to realize that goal by slipping deeper into the delusional world I've created to ignore my problems. People like that make me laugh. Go on, keep living in your dream world and pretending you're cool. ^_^V
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 26, 2001 at 07:47 p.m.
Go here. Look at the Updates section.
I'll just be over here in my little corner of 'shipperness. Don't mind the squealing.
And as for this...
I have only one thing to say.
I want his pants.
Take that as you will.
filling the space with time on Wednesday, September 26, 2001 at 02:38 p.m.
Bah. Brain's on overdrive. @_@ I shouldn't have spent my studyhall period at the library looking at the new CLAMP fic archive. Somehow, seeing that some of my fics had been posted just makes me want to write more. ~_~ I actually wrote something last night, which you and you have already read, and the rest of you will probably stone me for. ^^;;; It's self-indulgent sap, and if you know me you know what that means... if knowing this you still wish to continue, it can be found here. @_@
Aaaanyway. It's been kind of a dry period for writing for me, so having a burst of inspiration is really a good thing... I only wish I could have inspiration for fics I've already started, instead of for new projects that will probably end up rotting away unfinished when the inspired streak is over. -_-;;;; I need to learn to finish things before I start new ones, lol. I should just come up with a list of fics I haven't finished and let people decide which ones they want more of. o.o (not that anyone really cares... -_-)
Look! It's a damn good fic that it's quite worth your while to read! ^_^ Man, I love AUs. And yeah, the weird-ass pairing at the end did make me squeak. Only a little. It's not like I want him to be a lolicon hentai or anything. Nope. Not one bit. *whistles*
OK, so I guess I left out the part about the OAV being pretty orgasmic... *snicker* well, I could have said a few things, but refrained for the sake of my poor impressionable readers. *cough* ^^;;;; Anyway... *huggles* You handle the situation with your mom very well, I think.
*patpat* It's okay to be attracted to your layout. Not that I'm attracted to mine or anything. ^^;;; And, umm, if it's telling you "shi-ne" when you try to download something, you should probably stop trying to download it. o.o;;;; *snicker*
*XD at the 22 million dollars for Christmas thing* that's so kawaii! ^_^ How old were you? And hmph, proof. It's an evergreen. So there. :P Damned unbelievers. XD
Hey, Hazard is a good song! ^_^
Kimmie is making me a CD of fun anime stuffins. I love her. *snugglies* ^___^ Speaking of making CDs, I should go start making copies of the OAV. Which involves actually getting off the computer for long periods of time while it burns onto a CD, 'cause my CD burner is a picky bitch and fucks up if you try to do anything else while you're making a CD. >< Oh well. I love you guys so I'll do it anyway. ^_^ hehe
filling the space with time on Tuesday, September 25, 2001 at 02:49 p.m.
OK... I've been doing random searches to try to find those fics that Kim keeps talking about that I've never seen (no luck yet... -_-)... and I found something rather interesting. "Yuzuriha" is part of the name of a Japanese tree. She's paired with Kusanagi, tree-hugger extraordinaire. Coincidence? I think not. o.O I always wondered where the name Yuzuriha came from...
filling the space with time on Monday, September 24, 2001 at 03:36 p.m.
You are reading the blog of a very, very happy little fangirl right now.
Yes, I watched the X OAV. Yes, it shut down all rational brainpower and reduced me to a pile of squealing fluff. Yes, a certain scene did almost make me fall off my chair (and I bet y'all can guess which one. Sigh. I wish he'd stab himself in the leg for me. XD) And yet, I will try to write a halfway rational review here, for the sake of my readers who have already been subjected to way too many airheaded ramblings. *snicker* So without further adieu:
Kerianne's Official X OAV Review
(spoilers for oav and manga ahoy)
Opening: very cool. I'm not sure if I have the whole thing, since what I downloaded was only 22 minutes long, and most places seem to say between 28-37 minutes... *shrug* but the beginning of what I have has two Kamuis and ribbons and wings and it's very apocalyptic and symbolic and I like it. lol (I said rational, not coherent. o.o;;;)
Plot summary: (I give away the whole story here, so if you don't wanna know, don't read) As other people have said, it's basically a big ad for the TV series. But oh, what a pretty ad. *_* It starts with Kakyou being all comatose, with his narration explaining who he is and stuff... next scene is him trying to save Hokuto, he's injured, helicopters are chasing him, of course he's too late and Sei pulls his cool little hand-through-the-chest trick and there is much angsting. Then it's flashback time, to the time when he met Hokuto... after that is the Kamui/Fuuma scene, they talk, they fight, blah blah blah... then Sorata/Arashi, they're fighting Satsuki and BEAST, and Sora tells Arashi that he's chosen her to be the one he'll die for... Satsuki and Kanoe talk about Kamui... Seishirou and Subaru look sexy among the sakura petals and smoke and Sei tells Subby he's cute... Yuzuriha meets (and glomps o.o) Kusanagi... Satsuki kills Inuki, then talks to Yuuto about why it's wrong to kill humans... Fuuma pets Nataku on the head and they basically act extremely yaoish (yeah, yeah, Nataku's genderless, shush up :P)... Karen fights Nataku, Aoki shows up (runs after her with voice-over flashback of when she said she had to go fight... oh there's nothing going on here *nods*) and tells her he'd cry for her if she died (kawaaaaiiiiiii *shuts up*)... Kanoe and Hinoto, blah blah blah, Fuuma licks Kamui's neck, blah blah blah, I'm sick of doing this. *snicker* Suffice it to say that in the end there's feathers and angsty posing and all is right with the X world.
Voices: All the voice work is pretty well done... with the glaring exception of Sorata, who got stuck with a whiny, nasal, gross voice. *pouts* What a disappointment. None of the other voices are glaringly horrible, though. I like Seishirou's... Yuuto's is pretty nice... Aoki's and Karen's are good (well, of course ^___^)... and Yuzu does a damn good angsty scream ("INUKIIIII!"). hehehe
Artwork: Prettyyyy. *_* I already posted the screenshots, which are a good example of what everyone looks like... maybe I'll make some other ones, if possible... anyway, the character designs are really nice, except Seishirou's chin (or nose, as Kimmie seems to think the problem is...), which I can only hope will get better as the TV series progresses. I actually thought Kakyou and Kamui looked pretty good, which says something, because I'm about as attracted to them in the manga as I am to a rock. ~_~ (Fuuma still looked like a dork. :P hehehe)
Soooo, that's that. To all who I promised a copy (and anyone else who wants one, considering you're a friend or at least an acquaintance), you're probably going to have to e-mail or IM me to remind me, 'cause I forgot who I said I'd make copies for. ^^;;; I'll start making them soon, though. ^___^
I basically agree with all of your character opinions... well, I'm not really feeling the "yum" for Kusanagi XD but he is cool. And I'm glad you said Aoki was cute. I figured you'd say boring. Most people do. ^^;;; Karen is indeed quite nice. *grin* In my opinion, the later mangas are better (but then again, I have an extreme bias toward volumes 13 and 14 ^^;;;)... the art is just better, I think... *shrug* Hmm, perhaps I could get you the OAV somehow, if you want... *thinks* ooo, and I'm looking forward to seeing the Seishirou/Subaru pic! ^___^
*glomps* Feel better soon! And yeah, I wanna see pictures. XD I wanna see this guy (Mr. Maddox) who led Sarah to refer to him as a "fuckin bish"... lol
Hmm... nah, he's really not a psychopath, he's more like one of those misunderstood types. He just manages to make selfishness and constant whining somehow attractive. ^^;;; I have to find the sequel now, even though I heard it's not quite as good....
I have a Debbie Gibson song stuck in my head. ~_~ Shoot me please. XD
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 23, 2001 at 07:01 p.m.
Anyone who happens to be reading this who likes fantasy-type books... go read "Howl's Moving Castle" by Diana Wynne Jones. It made me squeal like a fangirl. (It also made me forgo watching Trigun last night so I could get more reading done. That should tell you something...) Howl is utterly unlikable, self-centered, whiny, and basically a bastard. I adore him. Read it. Now.
In other happy news, my OAV download is at 90%. I may even be done with it before I leave for work. That, my friends, is a Good Thing. Now I'm gonna go watch the Trigun that I didn't watch last night. *snicker* Ja ne!
filling the space with time on Sunday, September 23, 2001 at 10:17 a.m.
Lookit me, I archived. Aren't I special. If you missed anything, go poke around in the archive. *points down the page*
Now, with all y'all getting new blog layouts, I would like to state for the record that my dear loves aren't going anywhere for at least a little while yet. *glomps her current layout* Waiii it's so cuteeee ^___^ But your layouts are quite nice. I especially love the cool lil smoke trick on yours. That rocks. ^_^
*snickers at the pictures* You were really bored, weren't you? XD love the drooly Subby plushie...
Ahhh, a speakeasy... XD I so have to see that movie now. But I still like my ending wayyyy better. :P
I want this. I also want this. That is the cutest expression. *squeals like the worthless fangirl she is* lol, but they're sooo expensive... well, the first one isn't that bad, but it's still more than I'd be able to pay without feeling guilty. *snicker* Oh well. I'll just ogle the scans. ^_^
I bought more Trigun today. *does little dance* You know what this means, don't you? Yes, it means more fun with VA obsession. Johnny... *melts* ok, I think I'm done now. Boy, this has been quite the dorky fangirl entry... ^^;;;
filling the space with time on Saturday, September 22, 2001 at 11:08 p.m.
