Survey theived from Becky:


Fandoms Whose Ho I Have Been

The one who seduced you and fucked you over and broke your heart in a million pieces and laughed about it: Weiss Kreuz. ‘Nuff said. -.-

The old flame you don't see very often any more but whom you still really enjoy getting together with for a few drinks and maybe a pleasant nostalgic romp in the sheets: Hmm... nope, I’m not really like that. When it’s over, it’s over.

The mysterious dark gothy one with whom you used to sit up talking until 3 a.m. at weird coffeehouses and with whom you were quite smitten until you realized she really was fucking crazy: Good Omens, I guess. I went through a short period where I was crazy about Crowley/Aziraphale, until one day I realized that Aziraphale is most likely a middle-aged balding man, rather than the bishonen that most fics portrayed him as. Hehe. I still love the book, though.

The one you spent a whole weekend in bed with and who drank up all your liquor, and whom you'd still really like to fuck again although you're relieved she doesn't actually live in town: Harry Potter. Namely Sirius/Remus. I like it well enough, but it’s a little too much for me to handle all the time. ^^;;;

The steady: X, of course. ^_~

The ex: Gundam Wing. My first anime fandom, though I didn’t get terribly involved in it.

The alluring stranger whom you've flirted with at parties but have never gotten really serious with: FFX. I like Aurikku, but it isn’t an obsession.

The one you hang out with and have vague fantasies about maybe having a thing with but ultimately you're just good buddies 'cause the friendship is there but the chemistry ain't: CCS. It’s fun to watch, the characters are adorable, I like certain pairings, but as the question said, no real chemistry.

The one your friends keep introducing you to and who seems like a hell of a cool gal except it's never really gone anywhere: Buffy. I used to be a big fan, a lot of my friends and people I talk to still watch and love it, and it sounds interesting enough, but I just can’t get into it anymore.

The one who's slept with all your friends, and you keep looking at her and thinking, Her? How the hell did she land all these cool babes?: I’m going to get slapped for this, but... J-rock. ^^;;; I just don’t get the appeal.

The one your friend has fallen for like a ton of bricks and whom she keeps babbling to you about on the phone for hours, and you'd be happy for her except you just know it's going to end badly: X. We all know perfectly well that no matter what character we love, it’s going to make us cry and sob and despair, but we keep coming back.

listening to: A Sound That Only You Can Hear, K's Choice

keri took a leap on Saturday, October 5, 2002 at 04:38 p.m.




OK, after like months of intending to, I finally added a link to Nadia. What can I say, I'm slow. ^^;;; In any case, she has an evil idea for an X group blog that you should all go check out. Now. Immediately. :D

No, no Vampire Keiichi. Sorry, but it just breaks my brain way too much. XD He does get to be the little messenger boy, though, and there is of course the potential for sequels.

I beg to differ that nothing will get done around her house. ... Daisuke will. Heehee. :D

Hmmm... half an hour before I possibly find out how badly I bombed the psychology test on Tuesday. -.-;;; *cry* I hope I at least passed. 'Course, if I did badly, so did everyone else, 'cause none of the people I talked to were any more prepared than I was. *snicker*

listening to: Anchor, Lifehouse

keri took a leap on Thursday, October 3, 2002 at 03:25 p.m.




I've been getting so many hits from you since that "Karen is a dirty crack ho" comment. I think our readers are expecting a catfight. Mrowr. *claws the air* XD

Yeah, so... Thanks to these guys, I have a new project. *sparkles* Let's just say we came up with a way to deal with the Shimako issue, the Final Battle, Sorata's destiny, and the Sorashi virginity clause in one blow. Heh heh. I'm honored that they're letting me play with it, really-- it's such a cool idea. ^___^

Oh, and you don't suck at fanfiction! You're a good writer, and you're good at analyzing characters, so why wouldn't you be good at fics? Besides, the kittyfic is adorable. Anyway, I think you should play with the vamps if you want to, in side-stories, or an AU to mine or something. I don't plan to get too indepth with the Sei/Subby dynamics, since they're not my forte, but I'd be interested to see what you could do with them-- and all the others, too. ^_^

Ohhh. I thought it had something to do with Watership Down, but I wasn't sure where the genki blond kid came from XD I'm not familiar with Fruits Basket, so it went right over my head.

Head hurts. *groans* I've had tension headaches pretty much daily for a week now. Not to mention my constant stomachaches. I wonder why. -.- I'm making myself sick over the stupidest things... well, the stomachaches might also mean I'm hungry, as I have not been eating much lately. Not sure how it happened, but I don't feel like eating a lot lately. Hopefully I'll lose some weight, ne? -.-;;;

Off to plot more fic evil. ^_~

listening to: Authority Song, Jimmy Eat World

keri took a leap on Wednesday, October 2, 2002 at 08:47 p.m.




You're on crack. ^_^

Love your layout. Mmmm, Ewan. Ewan on a bed-- even better. :D

Fuuma sux0rs! Hee hee. Yeah, that wasn't a war. That was just me shooting off my mouth. Everyone back to your regularly scheduled programming, nothing to see here.

Rachel, what on earth is your layout? I don't recognize that at all o.o;;; hehe

Ko, I'm pretty sure those Daisuke pics are from a doujinshi... 'cause I think I have the doujinshi they're from. XD In any case, that'd explain why the art looks so odd. CLAMP never drew a color pic of Dai, as far as I know. :_:

Yes, I noticed that you were having some trouble with Yahoo the other night. :_: Hope it starts working soon. As for PrinceCharming!Karen and SubmissiveServant!Aoki... I have absolutely nothing to say. ^___^

Ugh... my psychology test is not going to be pretty. XP Might help if I studied, but it's overwhelming my poor beleaguared brain right now, so I'm just going to sit here and listen to depressing music and ponder how much my destiny hates me. Yes, it's a Kamui kind of day for me today. Even though I hate him. Hn.

So as you may or may not have heard, yesterday was a big fucking disappointment. Not only did my article get lost and will therefore have to be printed next week, but someone I rather wanted to see was not there. So much for taking a chance and saying something, huh? That's not going to be possible if I never see him, is it? Not that I had a chance anyway. Why do I keep doing this to myself?

*sigh* I wish I could go back to bed for the rest of the day. But no, I have a whole week of school to get through before I can do that, including a paper that I have to write tonight and happened to lose the instruction sheet for. Lovely. Just lovely.

listening to: Falling, Balligomingo

keri took a leap on Tuesday, October 1, 2002 at 11:10 a.m.




Sure, we're slashy. ^_~ And I almost wrote an X fanwriters fic once. Imagine if the S/S vs. S/K vs. I-hate-them-both war was an actual war. *snicker* I was bored. XD But I do agree, I think fucked up people are just drawn to X. At the very least, it makes us feel that our lives are less messed up than they COULD be... "at least my best friend didn't chop off my girlfriend's head and start molesting me!" XD

Hai, hai, we have. ^^;;; I don't even want to know what Daisuke's mouth open makes you think of, however. *shudder* XD And I know, he looked drugged-out a lot, though I still maintain that the trading card pic is adorable and hot and he does NOT look high. :P ... *reads the bit about Arashi poking berries up her nose and flashing her thighs* o_O;;; ... good lord, Ammie-san, you're on crack. XDDD Oh, hey, I had a dream last night that I was talking to you on AIM. HINT HINT. *shoves you toward aol.com* ^_^

*snickers* I was playing MASH last night. At one point I was married to Kusanagi and had 45,000 children. *SOBS* DEAR GOD NO. (Not that I hate him or anything, but I'd really rather not have his children XD) But the next time I played I got to marry someone else and work as a journalist and live in hell. *snort* Beautiful.

Mrrr... I'm going for a walk. Blasted people are sitting around watching some boring football game, and I need to buy conditioner. ><

listening to: Sucker, New Found Glory

keri took a leap on Sunday, September 29, 2002 at 01:18 p.m.




Okay, the math homework's over half done, one more lesson to go, and I suddenly lose the will to work, think, or hell, move. I know how you feel (sorry for causing you added stress btw *hugs*). >_>;;; I also have a psychology test that I didn't quiiite study for. Joy. And I thought college was easy, until the testing began... -.-;;;

Ooh! *checks notebook* Never mind, psych test isn't till next Tuesday! Today's a review day! :D :D Bad news is, I just ripped half of my little toenail off on a stupid fucking crate. Hurts like hell. ><;;;

Thank you for the encouraging words yesterday, though I still gotta believe it's a lost cause, hehe. And hmm, your Fuuma/Kakyou fic was nicely written. I can't comment on the characterization, because I'm no expert on either character, but I really liked the style-- kind of reminded me of some of my older stuff, back from when I was writing for WK and actually could get into a character's head and show their thoughts in a meaningful way. (Boy, that sounds conceited, doesn't it? ^^;;; Don't mean to, that's just what I was thinking when I read it, hehe. I think I suck ass at writing now if that's any consolation XD) And I absolutely can't wait to see the Sei/Yuuto ficcie. :D

Maaa, you're making me nervous about taking journalism classes... I wanted to (hmmm, I WONDER WHY >_>;;;) but your class sounds scary as hell. I doubt my college has requirements like that though... we're just a little backwoods state school *snerk* OK, not that little, but still.

I feel like Ryoma today. I keep wanting to say "Mada mada da ne". It's just a catchy phrase. Not that I have any idea what it really means, because I've seen like three different translations, but it's still catchy. Now, why do I like Ryoma but hate Kamui, when they're both small, pissy, black-haired main characters with extraordinary talents? Discuss amongst yourselves. (Personally I think it's Ryoma's lack of angst that appeals.)

Yodeling competition? DIEEEE XD I have the Aoki wallpaper up right now. Pwetty. *_* Though I haven't had time to be much of a fangirl lately, I'm afraid... I just haven't been feeling like myself... *sigh* In any case, never mind where I'm going with Daisuke tied up. :D :D *is holding him hostage in the basement with her pet tentacle monster-- no, not Hinoto*

Should be doing math homework. Yup. Mmhm. Definitely. ... *sets math book on fire* dieeeeeeee

*blinks at X calendar cover* Isn't that a really old pic? o.O;;; There'd better be new ones in it. Including ones with some of the characters who got left out last time. Especially since they have been focused on so much this year and probably deserve a calendar pic. Hint fucking hint, CLAMP. XD I'd order it, but if it turns out like last years', I won't want it at all, and will therefore have wasted $28. Hmmm... maybe I'll ask my mom to preorder it for me for Christmas? They do come out in December... *is really cheap* XD

Mmm... so I had a revelation the other day. I was so wrong about Sorashi. Sorata couldn't possibly have chosen Arashi for shallow reasons. 'Cause if he was really only looking for the most beautiful woman around... he would've chosen Karen. *ducks tomatoes* Alright, alright, just kidding. XD Sorata/Karen would be scary anyway. And that'd leave Aoki and Arashi. Oookay, that's not creepy or anything XD (though I did have a dream like that once. She had a crush on him or something. Shouldn't everyone, though? :D)

Mneh. Isn't healthy when your stomach does backflips and your heart feels like it's being squished and you feel like your breath is being squeezed out whenever you think of a certain thing... or person... is it? >_>;;; Can I go back to two weeks ago when things were simple and I could just lust after Aoki and not worry about whether or not I could have a chance with him, because he doesn't exist anyway? (Not that I don't still do that, hehe. But there are complications now. ><;;;)

Maaaa, time for me to shut up and finally finish that fucking homework. *waves*

listening to: Everybody Hurts, REM

keri took a leap on Thursday, September 26, 2002 at 11:57 a.m.




*hugs* Hai, hehe. Yeah... I'll talk to you soon and explain myself so that this sort of thing won't happen again. Right now I'm busy being stressed. I have to do all the math homework I've put off since the second week of class, by tomorrow at 2. -.-;;; That'll teach me to slack.

Oh, and my brain is currently being occupied by a little problem in the form of a brown-haired glasses-wearing editor. No, not Aoki-san, heh. I guess guys like him really do exist... not that it does me any good. Maybe if I was a gorgeous soapland girl I'd have a chance, huh? *angsts in the corner*

So yeah. If I'm being a bitch right now, forgive me. I've gone and gotten myself fixated on someone very unavailable yet again, and it's making me really depressed. I sound like such a middle-schooler right now. *sighsigh* But really, how would you go about approaching someone who has a secretary, for fuck's sake? College students shouldn't have secretaries! ... uh, yeah. I'm fine. ^_^;;;

listening to: Empty Space, Lifehouse

keri took a leap on Wednesday, September 25, 2002 at 07:59 p.m.




Entry removed because I'm an asshole. I am. Fuck. However much you hate me right now, I probably hate myself more.

Why. Can't. I. Ever. Fucking. Shut. Up.

I'm sorry. For what it's worth. Nothing. I know. I'd explain myself, but I bet it means nothing. Talk to me. Or something. I don't have the courage. I can't face anyone.

Fuck.

listening to: My Precious, Lifehouse

keri took a leap on Tuesday, September 24, 2002 at 10:55 a.m.




Gahhh, paaainnn. *clutches stomach and groans* Screw being female...

Okay, social blogging before I go watch soaps like a big dumb stereotypical woman. *snicker* (but they're so overdramatic and fun! :D)

Lika, I'm glad you liked the fic! ^.^ I have now gotten my one meaningful, realistic A/K fic out of my system, and can go back to writing fluff and smut for them XD I figured if anyone would have any complaints, it would be about the portrayal of Aoki... perhaps I made him a bit too flawed to be plausible, but people have a tendency to see him as a shallow "nice guy" and nothing more, so I wanted to shake that up a bit and prove that he too is human and makes mistakes. Was that your problem with the characterization, or was it something else? Just curious. ^^;;;

*cries* Okay, I see your point. I'd rather Aoki be ignored than slashed with Fuuma or Kakyou or Kamui. (Though I could probably handle Aoki/Keiichi, if not for the squick factor that Keiichi could easily be his son. o_O) And I read an Aoki/Subaru once and it amused me immensely, though it was never finished. *pout* 'Course, I only liked it 'cause it was mostly Subaru seeing Aoki's resemblance to Seishirou and being attracted to it, while Aoki loved Karen, which is how things SHOULD be. If it had been reciprocated, I would've kicked the author's ass. XD And oh, right, Yuuto/Karen, beautiful, destiny, babies, uh huh-- DIEDIEDIE! *takes Daisuke hostage* hahaha

How do you know it'll be a bad impression? :P I really like the game so far, even though I died four times on the third boss battle. x.x;;; Evil battle system, making me do actual work and dodging and such XD

I had a pretty good day today... I finally saw what a freshman dorm room looks like, hehe. My friend's room is very small and crowded... o.o and sharing a bathroom with 7 other people seems like it might suck a little bit. I assume the upperclassman dorms are better. But it was nice talking to her more, anyway, and she said I could stop by anytime. ^^

Hungry... *goes to get food* ^.^

listening to: nothing

keri took a leap on Monday, September 23, 2002 at 02:03 p.m.




I... own Kingdom Hearts. *sparklesparkle* I love it!! Though it's nothing like a Final Fantasy game... it's so pretty... and yes, I like Disney, I'm not even gonna deny that when I heard about this game I was like "oooh! I get to run around in all the movies I loved when I was little!" :D Although I read the credits and nearly died... Lance Bass as Sephiroth? Hoo boy. Can't wait to see THAT. *snerk* And hey, I think the voice of Cloud is Jason from General Hospital... it's the same name, anyway... and Yuffie is also the voice of Kim Possible. Hehe, I know too much random trivia. XD Anyway, cool game, though I'm only 2-3 hours into it. <3

Oh yeah, and I got Lifehouse's new CD. *hearts* Goooood. I would like to have many of Jason Wade's babies. ^.^

Social blogging later. Lazy. *sleeps*

listening to: Stanley Climbfall, Lifehouse

keri took a leap on Sunday, September 22, 2002 at 02:07 p.m.




Yeah, I understand. But I guess the way I see the recent S&S backlash is as a natural effect of being the dominant group in the fandom. No matter how many times people complain about S&S fans, fact remains that there are way more S&S fans than there are complainers, or indeed, more than any other group. The majority's bound to come under fire eventually, but in the end they're still the majority and they still have the rights of the majority (why do I suddenly sound like I'm arguing politics? I think some of her influence is rubbing off on me XD).

So the way I see it is, S&S fans have 90% of the fanworks, discussions and support within the fandom on their side, and if every now and then a few people come along and say they're irritating or shallow or conformists, small price to pay. ^^;;; Though I do think you have a good point about how the more openminded S&S fans are lumped in with the singleminded and aggressive ones. I certainly don't see the two groups as equivalent, but I still have trouble understanding the viewpoint of anyone who thinks Seishirou/Subaru is superior to all other pairings and characters. That's just a personal thing, though, and it isn't my place to question that... and I'm sure a lot of people look at my personal favorites and think "what is she smoking?", so it's not like I'm above that. ^^;;;

All I'm hoping is that someday the fandom will be at a point where there isn't so much overwhelming bias. I don't expect it'll ever be that every person loves every character and gives them equal time in their thoughts and fics, but as it stands there's certainly tension... and I'll admit it, I'm one of the people who tends to create that tension sometimes.

This marks the second time someone's brought up "feeling guilty for being an S&S fan" in an argument with me. I'm honestly sorry that has to happen, but sometimes I feel that the only way to get the fandom's attention is to shock them a little. If I just say "You know, characters other than the Big Four and Kakyou and Keiichi are cool and deserve fics too," people will just yawn and go right back to figuring out all the possible ways to get four or five characters in bed with each other. But if I say "The Big Four are terribly boring compared to everyone else", aha, now people are interested... negatively interested, perhaps, but at least they're listening. Not that I'm just saying it for attention... I truly do believe it, but I'd keep it to myself if I didn't want people to react to it. Yeah, that sounds bad and petty and immature, but action and reaction are what blogging is all about, aren't they? Anyway, I doubt my blather is necessarily going to change anything, but I don't know, maybe I just figure that if I keep talking for long enough, something will happen.

I guess what I'm trying to do is make generalizations but not apply them to individual fans, which... probably doesn't work. XD Like, I'm trying to say "Damn I wish the fandom wasn't so obsessed with S&S" and have people not take it as "YOU! Yeah, you in the blue shirt! Stop liking S&S, you're pissing me off!" Sometimes it backfires, but I think it's better to keep questioning the norm and handle these situations as they crop up rather than just shut up and let the fandom stagnate.

'Course, all this involves me deluding myself into thinking anyone is listening to my weirdo ramblings and taking them to heart. Yeah, fat chance. XD

Right. Uh... can you tell I'm really fucking bored? XD I have an hour to kill... well, more like 40 minutes now. Then I get to go home and probably get bitched out. My parents... oi, they are being difficult lately. My dad's going to have surgery soon and they're both worried (because they worry about eeeeverything, and since I don't, they assume I don't care), so suddenly, maybe to distract themselves, they've made it their mission to fix all the supposed mistakes they made in raising me. Which means every goddamn time I open my mouth I get criticized endlessly. Today the old "you're mentally ill and you need counseling" card got played. Yeah, 'cause it's totally a sign of insanity to be irritated when someone tells you something very inconvenient at the last possible minute, then insists that they told you earlier and you should've known. If that's being mentally ill, lock me up, and the rest of the world too.

It'd be nice if they'd figure me out, learn my personality, and fucking ACCEPT it instead of criticizing me for it every chance they get. They could've done a lot worse. And their standards are truly ridiculous. Case in point: At the hospital where my dad is having surgery, somebody just died because the doctor screwed up a test. Apparently I was supposed to react to this news by becoming terrified and running around the house screaming about how he was going to die. But no, since I chose to take a more optimistic route and point out that if they're now being watched, they're going to be extra careful, that means I don't care, am "sick and twisted" and therefore need a psychiatrist. Sorry, but I can't bring myself to get panicked about an abstract like that. If it was me? Yeah, I'd be scared, but I'm irrational when it comes to myself. When it's someone else, I can step back and look at the situation more logically. Maybe that does mean I'm cold, but I can't change that. It's part of my personality. *shrug*

Oh well. I'm going to head to the lounge and get some fruit. XD

listening to: in library

keri took a leap on Friday, September 20, 2002 at 12:51 p.m.




I hope this rant wasn't sparked by my last entry, but it seems like it might've been... just in case, I apologize. I didn't mean to make generalizations or make it seem like everyone who likes S/S is stupid. That's certainly not my intention. However, your theory of "everyone should just like what they like and shut up about the rest"... I don't think that in this fandom, that's really a valid option. I'm sure it's tough for someone who likes Subaru to understand how irritatingly Subaru-centric the fandom seems to those who don't. No, no one is forcing me to read S/S fics or visit S/S sites, but if I'm going to be an X fan and read fics and follow blogs and visit sites, then I'm undoubtedly going to find a huge amount of S/S and not much of anything else. In order to completely escape S/S I would have to leave the fandom. Of course, this isn't a bad thing for S/S fans, and I'm not saying I want to deny them of stuff about their favorite pairing, but sometimes it gets on my nerves.

It is improving, and that's mostly thanks to people like you, who are willing to have interesting and thought-provoking discussions about all the characters, even the ones who don't get as much attention. And that's great. I thought that my entry had made it clear enough that I was talking about certain Subaru fans, not all of them, but maybe I was wrong...

However... you used the example of Yami no Matsuei... well, imagine if everyone but a small minority hated Hisoka and was very vocal about it. And imagine if every time you opened up a new YnM fic to read, it was MurakixTsuzuki. Wouldn't you get aggravated after a while? ^^;;;

I honestly don't mean to attack anyone individually, but it just gets old that I can't escape Subaru for a moment in the fandom, and I can't help ranting about it every now and then. And I don't really see anything wrong with that. I don't think anyone should have to stay silent just because they don't like something that a lot of other people like. True, no one should say "you're not allowed to like S/S", but no one did, did they? All I've been saying is that seeing it over and over again annoys me personally. I don't expect the fandom to change just for me. Even so, I think I should be allowed to bitch about it if I want to. ^^;;;

Okay... okay... *tries to think of less controversial pairing to rag on* Oh, hey, let's play "Mercilessly Bash Yuuto/Karen!" XD Seriously though, there's a fic on FF.net right now, and... grrr. I've only seen four, maybe five Yuuto/Karen fics in my life and nearly all of them had the same exact problem... why do people find it so freaking difficult to come to terms with the fact that Karen has someone that she loves already? I'm not saying that should make people not write the pairing, but goodness, it certainly wouldn't hurt the fic or the characterization to acknowledge that fact and show the process it goes through to change. People wouldn't write a Subaru/Kamui fic without at least mentioning Seishirou, and showing in the fic how Subaru manages to let go of him and love Kamui, right? That'd be considered OOC and lazy writing. So why's this so different? ><

Okay. Time to stop ranting and get ready for yet another boring math class... XD

listening to: nothing

keri took a leap on Thursday, September 19, 2002 at 12:45 p.m.




*SQUEAK*

Cutecutecutecute! AokixYuuto, heeeee... not asking where pairing him with Keiichi came from, but... XD And of course I've got to adopt the YuutoxSorata one. :D You're doing Karen soon, right? Right? *cute look*

And speaking of YuutoxSorata, haha! That line from Yuuto is priceless! I KNEW IT! :D :D How anyone could deny the beauty and perfection of their destined love, I simply do not understand... *snerk*

Yeah, the new Nataku pics are kinda pretty, though I'm a little amused by the general "omg omg he's hot!" reaction. Uh... he looks just like he always did, people. Only in color. ^_^;;;

And as for the Subaru discussion... mneh. He's not that great of a character to begin with, at least in X, and it's made worse by his obnoxious fans. Not all of them, mind you. Just the ones who pull the great "oh where's Subaru, I can't go a month without Subaru, how dare CLAMP write about plot points that don't involve Subaru, Subaru, Subaru, blah blah blah" shit. And the loser ones who flame and harass and torment anyone who dares to not kiss Subaru's ass. (Yes, it's happened. Remember my AIM flamer friend? A Subaru fan, supposedly. I find that incredibly amusing, if it's true. Hope he isn't still stalking me. *waves in case he is*)

But yeah. I don't mind Subaru being there... it's not like the sight of him makes me sick or anything... he personally bores me to death, yeah, but other people like him and that's okay. Just wish the fandom was a bit less like the Cult of Subaru sometimes. Though with the recent rants, it seems more people are realizing he's not God incarnate... which is a good thing. *nods*

listening to: Seductive Barry, Pulp

keri took a leap on Wednesday, September 18, 2002 at 09:54 p.m.




Well, Lika, remember that whole discussion we had about fluffy fics vs. angsty ones? All that about how I hated depressing A/K fics and certainly would never write one?

I guess I lied.

Long Way Home (1/1)

I feel dirty now. I need fluffy smut. *sobs*

Hey! Mine! *steals Seiichirou back* I saw you sneaking in a grope... go back to Windmaster Jr. and leave mine alone! XD Seiichi-chan, that's really cute, though... *_* *looks at 154* Mrr, I can't tell what's going on except that Dark Hinoto is molesting regular Hinoto, so I'm going to keep my interpretation of "down there" the same... YOU PERVERT XD

Thanks for the rec ^_^ I'm glad you liked the fic, even though you don't agree with some of the characterizations... though I'm not sure where you got that I was writing Fuuma as a stereotypical villain... he told Subaru to do that because he wanted to make sure Subaru would be loyal and no longer had any connections to his old teammates, not necessarily because he gets off on causing pain to the innocent. Though I do think he's just a bit of a sadist... that's just how I see him. This is the first time I've written for Fuuma (or any of the Big Four) in a serious fic, though, so my characterizations might be a bit off. ^^;;; In any case, I'm glad you liked my Karen *hearts* I'll try to write more soon (but serious fic is so difficult to write >_< hehe).

listening to: hehe, Kuja's theme

keri took a leap on Monday, September 16, 2002 at 12:14 p.m.




Just a thought, in case the next great smut archivist is out there reading this... the solution to the FF.net problem is not, I think, to create yet another yaoi-only archive, as I've seen some people suggesting... I know this makes me the worst kind of pervert, but I like hetsmut. :P And there's lots of it on FF.net and some of it is quite good. And what about all the now-homeless yuri fics, too? Yaoi probably makes up less than half of the NC-17 fics on the site, truthfully.

I've seen people acting as if this is a personal attack on yaoi fans, and I don't believe it is. It's an attack on anyone who enjoys reading adult fiction about two (or more, heh heh) characters, regardless of gender. Therefore, any replacement that crops up ought to keep the old spirit of freedom and anything-goes alive. Yes, anything, even boring old M/F sex fics. :P

And yes, I'm gonna rant over this for a while. Pisses me off. I like having a cause, anyway. *snicker* And at least it's gotten me back to blogging a lot. I'd been getting pretty lazy about it. Now if only I had a pretty new layout *pouts* (Codi, bestest layout maker in the whole world *cute suckup look*, are you still willing to make me one? :_:)

In other news, this keyboard is incredibly loud and the backspace key is tiny. Grrr argh.

Rachel, wai! Adorable chibis! I might just have to adopt the DaixKei one XD And of course I'm looking forward to the rest of them too *hearts* ^___^

Kira, this person is an idiot. >< If it's any consolation, according to their handle they probably write Mary Sue fics. And saying "I liked this story, but I completely object to the entire theme of it and I think you're disgusting for writing it" really makes no sense. @_@ Dumbasses. It's because of people like that that het fans are all assumed to be psycho anti-yaoi cretins ><;;;

listening to: blogging from school again

keri took a leap on Friday, September 13, 2002 at 09:46 a.m.




Please go sign this. And post a link to it on your own blogs, maybe. Get the word out and such.

I'd say send irate letters, but I'm not sure which e-mail address to send them to... o.O;;;

listening to: Just a Girl, Bonnie Pink

keri took a leap on Thursday, September 12, 2002 at 09:21 p.m.




O_O

NC-17 based entries will no longer be accepted. Though they are very small portion of the site the adult stories have generated almost all of the complaints filed on record in the past year. Moreover, the highest concentration of them are growing in areas with subjects targeted to younger readers and with increasingly controversial subject matters. However, not all NC-17 based stories fall into the description but as result of their increasing volume a decision has been made to resolve this problem. Innocent writers will be affected but this has to be done considering the non-filtering scheme of the site.

What. The. Fuck. > Yeah, censorship is always the best way to deal with problems, isn't it? >_> Mou, guess I'd better get to saving things, then.

And they're also outlawing chat room fics, which means one of my favorite things that I've ever written is going to be removed from the site, because apparently it "has no plot" and is "unfair" to people who "spent quality time on" their fics. You know, not like Cori and I spent at least an entire day writing that or anything. Thanks, FF.net. Thanks a lot.

... *reads again* April 12, 2002, huh? Fuckers don't even know what month it is. Idiots, all of them. (Yes, I'm a little irritated. The only reason I use FF.net is to find smut, god dammit! *kicks that guy around a lot to relieve frustration*)

listening to: nothing (in campus library skipping class ^.^)

keri took a leap on Thursday, September 12, 2002 at 03:32 p.m.




Yeah, so, like... 9/11, blah. I'm gonna sound like a terrible person here, but the thing I was most upset about yesterday was that my soaps were pre-empted. ^^;;; Honestly, though, it's not that it wasn't sad, and it's not that I don't feel terrible for the people that lost friends or family members, but I really don't understand for whose benefit the all-day programming was. Those who weren't directly involved in the event have mostly gotten over it and are tired of hearing about it, and those who were probably don't want the television networks rubbing those bad memories in their faces. So why interrupt our everyday lives for something that benefits no one?

And I think it's about time the radio stations stopped playing "Proud to Be an American" every goddamn day. It used to be that they'd only play it on the Fourth of July, now it's every day, I'm not kidding. False patriotism and all that aside, it's a shitty song. Enough already.

Mrrr. Besides all that shit, my parents are still severely pissing me off. Got into a big screaming argument last night, and I ended up not going to a meeting I was looking forward to, just because I was too angry. I really hate it when someone else brings up a topic that is controversial and then yells at me for "complaining about it all the time" like I'm the one who brought it up. ><;;; And apparently they have some kind of unrealistic view of parent/child relationships, because they act like my being rude every once in a while makes me a delinquent and a terrible person.

And I think my father has some serious fucking issues. According to him I've been a selfish, rude, disrespectful bitch since I was 5 years old, and I make him feel like shit all the time... and yet, even though I'm so bad, he hates the idea of me moving out and always insists that I have to be involved in every damn family excursion he can think of. What the fuck? If I'm so bad, why does he go out of his way to be around me and complain when I feel like staying home or talk about wanting to move out? >.> He and I don't get along. After nearly 18 years of living with me, he ought to figure that out, and not go out of his way to irritate me. But noooo, that'd make too much sense.

But oh well, what can I do. Now onto other things. This is fucking hilarious and brings back memories... *snerk*

Shi-chan! Ack! I wanna see pic of A&K's child! *_* Scan pwease? *looks really cute and adorable and innocent*

That's true. I was kind of responding to both your post and the one you linked to by the other girl, so not everything I said necessarily applied to yours. And I agree that it's obnoxious for people to complain that not every single fic written contains their favorite couple when there are more fics about that couple than any other one. It's just greedy.

As for why your "bad-for-each-other" fic prompted so much backlash... perhaps they were afraid that you might be right? ^^;;; Some 'shippers just don't want to think too hard... they want to say "___ is the best couple ever and perfect for each other and that's all there is to it"... so when something comes along that makes them think, and maybe challenges their ideas, they don't want to deal with it. I've seen it happen in X fandom as well. Hell, I think I do it myself; why do you think I hate a certain other romantic possibility for Karen so much? I hate it because it is a possibility, and I'd like to think of A&K as soulmates, and I'm not terribly fond of anything that comes along and says "well, maybe not..." So yeah, when I see a Yuuto/Karen fic I guess I feel... threatened, for lack of a better word XD But I do like discussions and debates that make me seriously think about the pairing and come up with reasons to support it that are more indepth than "they just belong together, nyah nyah". And I wouldn't go so far as to try to make someone feel guilty for writing Y/K (unless they're a friend of mine, in which case they should be expecting my wrath :D). So I guess that's the difference.

Mrrr. I had homework, but... I can't find an article that works... so maybe I just won't go to class... I do get one unexcused absence per unit in that class, but do I want to use it now? *ponders* I kinda wanted to ask my friend what happened at the meeting last night, but maybe it isn't worth it... hnnn... evil homework that requires outside sources that I can't find ><;;;

Oh... *snicker* Am I the only one who thinks FF.net used 9/11 to cover up for the fact that their servers are fucked up again? 'Cause I was getting error messages before they put up the 9/11 thing on the front page yesterday... and it's now the 12th and they're not back up yet... hmmm... XD I dunno, maybe I'm wrong, but the idea is amusing. "Oh shit, we're down again! We can't admit this to the public-- they're going to get sick of the constant outages and stop paying for support services!" "Um... uhhh... hey! It's 9/11! Slap up a tribute page and we'll try to get the problem worked out by tomorrow..." XD Yeah, I have a terrible sense of humor, lol. But really, I think all these site outages are ridiculous. If we shut things down for every day that a lot of people died, we'd never open them up again. By depriving me of my smut, we have let the terrorists win. *nod nod*

*blinks* Yeah, sorry if I offended anyone with the 9/11 stuff in this post. Not trying to make light of anyone's tragedy... just poking a little fun at America's tendency to overdo EVERYTHING. To quote a BNL song, "How am I supposed to remember (you), when you won't let me forget?" >_>

listening to: nothing

keri took a leap on Thursday, September 12, 2002 at 12:09 p.m.




Lika... hmmm. I'm trying to figure out how to respond to your fanfiction rant. (I'm getting deja vu. Have I typed these exact words before? x.x) On the one hand, I totally agree... variety is good, and people who can't handle it are probably being a little childish and unrealistic. On the other hand... I admit I can see where they're coming from, at least in preferring happy fics.

I'm not familiar with the XF fandom (not except those fics you sent me... mmm smut XD XD), but I know that in X, I definitely want fluff for my favorite pairings. I'm not going to deny that. If all anyone ever wrote was A/K fluff (*snort* as if that'd EVER happen), I'd be incredibly happy and I wouldn't complain at all. That might just be because CLAMP provides enough angst that I don't really want to read angsty CLAMP fics, but there it is. Not that I won't read them, and appreciate them if they're well-written; not that I resent the author for writing them; but I'll admit that if presented with two equally good fics, one of them angsty and the other fluffy, I'll probably give a better review to the fluffy fic. Because it'd leave me with a general happier feeling.

Is that wrong? @_@ I know there's the whole issue of realism... like the point you were making, no couple is perfect, and there's an equally good chance that they wouldn't be good together as there is that they would. But... I don't know, maybe I don't want my fics to be that realistic. If I wanted realism, I'd look at my own personal relationships. Sometimes they work out, sometimes they don't, and I can't really predict which ones will and which ones won't. So maybe in fanfiction, I want something that is exempt from that rule of nothing being perfect and unchangeable.

Example, just 'cause I love to talk about them :D -- I know there's a chance that even if Seiichirou and Karen somehow ended up together, something would go wrong and their relationship would not work out. Maybe they really wouldn't be all that good for each other. I recognize that. But do I want to read a fic about that happening? No, not really (I probably would, because I read anything with them in it, but you can bet it'd bring my mood down a few points). Because it's depressing to think that not even this fictional relationship can find perfection. I'm not saying this necessarily applies to the readers and reviewers in the XF fandom that you're complaining about, but it might... escapism is truly a powerful force. Yeah, it's probably not terribly mature and kind of shallow and silly and all that, but hey, it keeps me going.

And though I know you didn't mean this, the idea that writing an unhappy fic is somehow more valid or more "meaningful" than a happy-ending fic bothers me. It may seem like a "copout" to write a fic where everything turns out lovely, but it's often difficult to do well, particularly in fandoms for works that already contain a lot of unhappiness and angst. I think humor and fluff for X especially is tough to do well, because it's so easy to fall into the old cliched "everyone goes around looking pretty and being miserable and no one can have a moment of happiness ever" plotline. And really, why is it so looked down upon to try to give your favorite characters a little peace and satisfaction for once? I can understand disliking fics that are repetitive, OOC and not well-written (I'd be the first to understand that, considering my complaints about most X fanwriters writing the same damned fics over and over), but those problems don't really have anything to do with what genre the fic is.

Of course, I think you were totally justified in posting about wanting more variety. And it's awesome that you're grounded and realistic and mature enough to appreciate even unhappy fics about the couples you like. I'm just playing devil's advocate (even though I'm totally ignorant about the fandom your post was directed at, heh heh) and sticking up for those happyfic junkies a bit, because I can relate. Hell, maybe this doesn't even apply to the XF fandom, but it seems like it could be a universal thing so I thought I'd bring it up. And I'm sure I've now made myself sound like a totally unbalanced psycho who gets waaaaay too emotionally involved in her little manga character pairings, but... uh... I am... and you already knew that I was... so that's not really a problem is it? XD

And now for a more personal rant:

You'd think that most normal people would, upon seeing that someone is upset, try to help, maybe? Feel bad, perhaps? And if they can't do that, at the very least, leave them alone? Well, not my mother. Nooo, her immediate reaction upon seeing someone who looks depressed or is crying or whatever is to get a pissy look and go "What the hell is your problem, stop acting stupid, etc. etc." And people wonder why I want to move out. @_@

Honestly, I don't understand how what I'm doing in my room with the door closed concerns her at all. A little privacy would be nice. And I really appreciate, when I'm upset or unhappy, being told that I'm crazy or babyish for feeling that way and expressing it. That really helps. Especially since she whines and cries and carries on whenever she gets into a fight with my dad (even though it's happened countless times before and you'd think she'd figure out how to deal with it without going psychotic after a while), and expects me to listen and put up with it. ><;;;

Blah. I'm not having a really great week. x.x;;; I sure as hell hope it improves...

listening to: nothing

keri took a leap on Tuesday, September 10, 2002 at 11:58 p.m.




Bored. Boredboredboredbored. So bored, indeed, that I am venturing outside my usual fandoms on FF.net in search of good smut. Currently I'm in the "Labyrinth" section. Mmm, Jareth. Good stuff. :D Damn me for never taping that movie back when they were playing it practically every damned weekend late at night on Disney... I want! *will have to go buy the DVD now* ^_^

Nephew dear, you just squicked the hell out of me. *shivers* Hinoto needs to keep her hands faaaar away from Daisuke's "down there", thank you. XD XD And I totally forgot to mention this, but the other night I had a dream about Hinoto's tentacles! AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! *sniffles* It was scary. It was all dark in the room, in the dream, and I was afraid that she would grab me with her slimy green tentacles :P

That's because I rock. :P Actually it's mostly because I have a decent memory and I make good guesses XD And oh boy, Honma. Winner of the most creative use for corn award. Lovely layout. *snicker* I had no idea you had deep-seated lust for Tom Cruise, though *snerk*

Mmm, I had a good day today. My philosophy class was canceled yet again, so I got to have lunch with my friend Lacey and catch up on a lot of stuff. Then I went home and watched soaps. :D Yes, I am addicted to them. Just "One Life to Live" and "General Hospital" though. They're hopelessly cheesy, but that's just part of the appeal. ^_^

listening to: Are You Happy Now, Stretch Princess

keri took a leap on Monday, September 9, 2002 at 11:07 p.m.




Okay, announcement. Because I'm too lazy to e-mail people individually. Anyone involved in Foreordained, pwease pwease start posting again? *cute smile* Because I'm bored and I feel like RPing. And this goes double for you, my dear Aoki-san *evil snicker* ^___^ And Saiki-san, I finally got around to replying to you :D

Kimmie, the "PoT does X" pics are great. *snerk* Sakuno as Kotori... excellent.

*pouts* If you make RL Aoki and Segawa your slaveboys, you have to share. At least, you have to share Aoki with me. Segawa's all yours. ^_~ And you never did post on Octopus Tie :_: it's still dead! *pokes it*

That's all. My wrist is killing me again. Gaaah.

listening to: Only When I Lose Myself, Depeche Mode

keri took a leap on Sunday, September 8, 2002 at 01:19 p.m.




*brrr* I had the scariest dream last night... (it was likely the result of talking to you, XD j/k) Made even worse by the fact that I didn't know I was dreaming. All I remember was that I was at some cabin, and there was something about people being murdered, and I was just about to go to sleep when I opened my eyes and this living doll was crawling on me. And it was glowing, and it looked exactly like me when I was little, except with braids (I don't think I ever had braids), and it looked really evil. And then I actually had to yell to wake myself up. o_o;;; Creepy... 'course, I do get those night terror things sometimes where I feel paralyzed and suffocated and I can't wake up... maybe it was another of those... ><;;;

But other than that I am strangely genki. Maybe because I cannot stop listening to this song for some weird reason. Make it stooooppp. *cries* God, I'm so easily amused. And immature. XD And I have homework which I'm so not doing. But on the upside, my wrist feels better today (I wrenched it lifting my way-too-heavy bookbag and it's been hurting for a few days ><). Yay.

*snerk* That fic is lovely. Such a serious take on tentacled!Hinoto XD Nice, Lika-chan (now how is the A/K drabble coming? The list has been so quiet lately... :_: hehe). And Daisuke cracks me up. "You talk crazy talk >.>;;;" XD how cute. *snickers over the "CLAMP even slashes their editors?!?!" bit* I wonder how the real Aoki-san felt about that... XD I'll bet he was much happier that his X incarnation gets a beautiful and charming soapland mistress who's madly in love with him... :D :D

I do agree with your thoughts on A/K. I am somewhat rational, despite my extreme bias, and I know it's never going to happen in canon *sniffle sniffle* All I can hope for is some more cute scenes before one or the other of them bites it. However, fanfiction is fair game, I think. Because if I don't get my smut I bite people. XD And yeah, I agree that she probably knows of his powers and clan affiliation, but as I said on DoS, supernatural powers seem to be somewhat accepted as just part of life in the X/TB universe, at least in certain circles... perhaps the entire general public isn't aware of them, but at least the religious/shrine community and the government seems to be. I don't think many people know about the end of the world, though. And his drama track was very vague about it (he said "I'll protect you", but not from what...).

(followed link from Becky's blog) *perk* Aoki fic? Wherewherewhere?!? Keri wants! ... yeah, okay, I'll control myself. XD Well, if you recognize the UST with Karen, you're certainly on the right track to writing him. ^___^ And everything Becky said was right on target, and I'm flattered that she implied I was the go-to person for Aoki characterization ^_~ However, asking me is probably not a good idea unless your fic is an A/K fic (dare I be so optimistic? That'd be wonderful ^^;;;), 'cause I'm insanely biased and tend to take every possible excuse to minimize the importance of the family into nothing. *cough* XD

Yeah. Hungry. Still haven't done homework. Eh. *scurries off*

listening to: Miserable, Lit

keri took a leap on Thursday, September 5, 2002 at 09:53 a.m.




Archived again. I've officially had this layout for far too long, but I just haven't felt like making a new one. I suppose I'll try today, though... nothing better to do... but if nothing works, I might have to start whining for donations. Be prepared. *snicker*

Speaking of layouts, Ko, that's great. *giggles* I've never heard of this comic before... but it does seem likely that the characters are based on Segawa and Aoki. I'm just wondering why the one based on Aoki has that vaguely Fuuma-like hair... o.O But hey, cutely determined and flustered sounds much like X Aoki, so it seems likely that the real-life one has that personality as well... so there are men like that in the world! *hearts* (Unfortunately, I'm sure he's old and not as cute as his manga incarnation *pout*)

listening to:

keri took a leap on Monday, September 2, 2002 at 05:13 p.m.