*blink* *blink*
I have no words for this.
Oh... wait. Yes I do. If you're going to steal someone's layout, you could at least have the decency to not fuck up their HTML so badly that everything's overlapping... that just makes me look bad. Oh, and also, not leaving a line from one of my blog entries at the top of your page would help, too.
I'd be offended, but... it's just too funny. XD XD And that wasn't even a very good layout of mine, either. Horrid color scheme. Ewan was its only saving grace. Ah, Ewan... *drooldrool*
*rolls eyes* Don't lump me in with the fangirls who'd only buy the game to stare at the characters... I was really only kidding about that. I want to play the game because it seems cool... I like fighting games, and playing one with the X characters would be pretty awesome, I think. Sure, I'd probably favor using a few characters over others, but it's not like I'd just put it on pause when the camera was focused on Aoki or someone and just stare at it and not pay any attention to the game....
.... much. ^___^
Awww! You guys aren't weird *huggles* Like I said, my mom thought you were quite normal compared to the other congoers XD Screw anyone who doesn't get the way you live... as long as you're having fun, it's all fine *nodnod*
X-rated Pong on a yaoi site? ... I want the link, if only to clear the straaaange mental images I am getting from that idea. Mostly about what might be used in place of the paddles. O_O;;; XD
Hmmm... Picked up the first Excel Saga DVD at Media Play this weekend. I've watched 3 episodes so far... funny as hell. The first episode isn't all that great, but it gets better. I love the ending theme... the poor dog singing forlornly about how if she's going to eat him, "do it in one blow so the meat doesn't get hard"... XD Ilpalazzo is kinda hot, too. But voiced by Koyasu... mouuu, isn't everyone? -.-;;;
Also played a lot of FF9 today. Vivi is SO ADORABLE. I swear, I just want to huggle his little black mage brains out. And Zidane is extremely girly. I mean, girlier than Tidus. Hell, he's a prettier girl than Garnet. *snicker* It was kind of funny when he grabbed her ass, though. Garnet so far has not annoyed me /quite/ as much as Yuna did, but we shall see. And Steiner, mneh, he's just annoying and I'd like to kick his ass. Haven't gotten anyone else yet... I'm about 3/4 through the first disc, though. ^^;;; Oh, and giving your characters stupid names is amusing. I named my Garnet "Bob". ^^
listening to: FF9 playing in the other room -.-
keri said goodbye on Monday, July 29, 2002 at 07:57 p.m.
/The greatest thing.../
In an apartment somewhere on the outskirts of Tokyo, one heartbroken man sat alone at his typewriter.
/... you’ll ever learn.../
His hair was tousled, his normally clean-shaven face was rough with a week’s worth of stubble, and he was dressed in nothing but an undershirt and a wrinkled pair of pants. He had been crying for a long time.
/... is just to love.../
He was writing. He had to write it all down; not to remember it, because he knew he would see it all in his mind every day for the rest of his life. No, not to remember; to immortalize it. So that maybe, one day, the world would know. Maybe someday she would live outside his mind, outside the swiftly fading memories of the others who had known her, eternally.
Someday they would know that he had loved her, and she had loved him, and that had been all the beauty and all the tragedy in the world.
/... and be loved in return./
“The woman I loved is...”
He stopped, swallowed hard, swiped a hand across his tearstained cheek.
“... dead.”
He closed his eyes, and all at once it rushed back to him, the colors and the sounds, the women flashing their panties, the loud laughter of rich men getting systematically drunk at the bars. The club... they had called it Flower, because it was colorful, and when night fell it unfolded its petals and revealed its beauty to the world. It was not a beauty that everyone could approve of, but he had loved it in his own way, and there was no doubt that it had captivated him until the end.
Just as she had.
*grins* We have way too much time on our hands. ^_^ Check out more here and here. (And yes, this is an X fic. Uh... sort of.)
listening to: nothing
keri said goodbye on Saturday, July 27, 2002 at 11:18 p.m.
Yeah, yeah, I've been lazy. I have scans, but first some random quotes I wrote down on the way home (they may not be totally accurate, but oh well):
"Oh, then I guess he wants to take him hard..."
"Boston-- corn rapist capital of the world?"
"Esca! ... Lator!"
"We are CLAMP, and WE OWN YOU!!!"
"Subaru! Come to me, baby!"
"Did you just say 'Stan, go rape the info booth'???"
"No, no, they've got it all wrong. This isn't the cartoon porn convention. It's the /gay/ cartoon porn convention."
"Yeah, cars and gay porn have tons in common. Like... Initial D has cars, and it has a potential for gay porn! There you go."
"I'm going to assume that was your dad and not just some strange man randomly handing you money."
"No, didn't I tell you about my new job?"
"I really think you're taking your Karen admiration too far..."
There was also a list of "Things I Learned from CLAMP" at one point, but all I remember is that it started with "One: It's all right to have sex with your mother..." XD
And here are my pics! Yay for pics! ^_^
listening to: Voices Carry, Til Tuesday
keri said goodbye on Friday, July 26, 2002 at 02:55 p.m.
Back from Shoujocon! *sniffles* So much fun. I'm not even sure where to start in writing a con report, considering I can never remember exactly when things happened, so I'll just ramble on about the highlights and such. *nods*
Might as well start with all the money I blew in the dealer's room... *snicker* Although I came not even close to Kim's record number of doujinshi (in fact I didn't get any... couldn't go in the adult room and look, and I doubt I would've found any I wanted anyway), I did spend most of what I brought with me... which wasn't all that much, but still. Ended up with:
-volumes 1 and 2 of the Petshop of Horrors manga
-volume 1 of Duklyon manga
-a Chobits pencilboard with Dark Chii and the bad guys whose names I can't remember (it just looked cool so I bought it ^^;;;)
-a CCS pencilboard with Sakura and Tomoyo being cute
-a couple of Rayearth tapes (they were 5 dollars each at one table ^_^)
-the November and December 2001 Asukas! Finally! *huggles pullouts* ^______^
-Pins of Chibi Auron and Rikku (kawaii! *squeal*)
-And last and most importantly, a complete set of X badge pins. *bouncebounce*
That final item has been somewhat decimated from its original form, since I ended up giving away Kakyou, Subaru, Seishirou, Kamui, Yuzuriha, and Satsuki, and will soon be parting with Sorata and Arashi as well. I don't mind too much, though, 'cause as long as I have A&K it's all good. I affixed those two pins to my pass/nametag as soon as I got them and wore them all weekend. ^_^
As for cosplayers, there were a lot of good ones, but surprisingly few from X. All I saw was a Hinoto and an Arashi, yet practically the entire cast of Rayearth was represented in some way, and there were also a ton of Gravitation cosplayers for some reason. More Shuuichis than you can shake a stick at. My favorite cosplayers were the adorable Yami no Matsuei group (their Muraki was hilarious, the Tsuzuki-puppy was so cute and the Tatsumi had cool hair XD), one of the Weiss Kreuz groups (the one with the really hot Ken *whistles*), and the Chii and Dark Chii who were carrying around a sign that said "Behold the power of Chiis". *snicker* Kawaii.
As for us... Cori's Kenshin costume got a lot of attention on Friday, while Codi's Soujirou was not so easily recognized, but that's okay because they were both cute. ^_^ I didn't cosplay on Friday... It sucks being one of the only people not to cosplay in a group, because you have to keep moving out of the way when people want to take pics of your friends. -.- On Saturday... well... I know we didn't reveal our costumes to anyone, and I don't know if I should be the one to spill the beans, especially without pics... *smiles* but rest assured we rocked the house. We even got worshipped a few times and told that we had the most creative idea of anyone there. ^_^
I actually didn't watch too much anime, at least not in the video rooms... I did see some Clamp Campus Detectives, and smiled at the cuteness while my shotakon-hentai friends gushed over the little boys in shorts. The kidnapping episode was seriously weird, though. I think the kidnapper woman had a shota complex too. o.o
Also saw the OAV and first three episodes of X. I was very excited to finally see episode 2, the one with the extremely slashy Yuuto/Sorata fight. It was even better than I had imagined it, especially because of the incredibly suggestive translation. Come on, Yuuto saying "Now we can thrash around as much as we want" after Sorata put up his kekkai? Who out there doesn't have yaoi thoughts after hearing that? (Hey, I didn't think of this before, but that would be an interesting idea for a fic, for any DoH/DoE pairing... sex within the kekkai... they could do it right out on the street and not get arrested! *mind wanders to hentai land*) And the part where Good!Fuuma drove his bike through the fight and stared cluelessly at them was really funny. Also liked Sorata's line about "He's not the kind of guy you should take lightly" (after which I made my whole row hurt themselves laughing by saying quite innocently "Guess he'd like to take him hard, then..." XD). Unfortunately, we seemed to be the only X fans in the room, because everyone else was just kind of staring at the screen and not reacting at all, while we were in the back laughing at everything and making comments. Oh well, it was still fun to watch it with some other fans. ^_^
Speaking of other fans, before I forget, I'm adding Rachel to my links. We met up with her on Friday and ended up hanging out quite a bit at the con, and she's very cool. (Ne, ne, remember to scan the Sakurazukamori Aoki pic for me? ^^;;;) And I'm glad I wasn't the only one who had weird X thoughts while watching "Minority Report". ^_~ Eyeballs, heeee...
Besides CCD and X, I also watched some stuff on Kim's computer... I saw part of Zetsuai (cheesy yaoi anime, whee), a random ep of Saiyuki, some random eps of Prince of Tennis, and some random sex scenes from Boku no Sexual Harassment (cheesy, creatively dirty yaoi anime, whee o.o). Out of all of those, I think I liked PoT best. I really hate sports, and most sports anime is completely uninteresting to me, but this one is cute and funny and the characters are interesting. And cute. Unfortunately they're supposed to be only in junior high, which makes the oldest character, Tezuka, only 14 or 15. And he's really hot. He looks about 17 or 18. *pout* I don't have a shota complex dammit! XD It's really yaoi-ish, too. ^_^ So hopefully I'll be seeing more of that... I'm having trouble finding it on WinMX and Kazaa, though. *kicks them*
Hm... oh yes, the cosplay contest. ^^;;; First off, if you read any other reports and they say something about people writing things on balloons, know that it was Kim who started it by writing "Kotori's Head", "Fuuma's Head" and "Seishirou's Eyeball" on them. *snickers* The contest started 45 minutes late, and everyone in the room was so bored that we actually allowed ourselves to be entertained by a balloon floating around the room. XD So... yeah, it finally started, and most of the skits were really cute. The most interesting part came later, when the announcers were getting people out of the audience to entertain the crowd while the judges were deciding... I'm sure Kim can tell this one better than I can, but I'll just say we were involved in a very unique way, and there was neck-licking. Not mine, though. My neck remains unviolated to this day. What a shame. *pouts* XD I really hope someone mentions us in their con reports... I was a bit shocked when Codi started shoving me up onto the stage, but hey, I do so like attention. ^___^
Edit: Idiot me forgot one of my favorite highlights of the con ^_~ I got a commissioned pic! Yay! It's so cute! It was pretty expensive, but hell, I wanted something A/K and I got it. I love it. *melts* I want to put it up on my wall, but I don't want the sticky-tack to leave marks on the paper... hmmm... I may just have to frame it or something XD XD
Well, that's about all I can think of for now. Looking forward to reading Kim's full con report, and I hope the rest of you who I was with do reports too. I should have my pictures back later today, so I'll make a page for those as soon as I get my damn scanner hooked back up. Screw waiting for the USB adaptor, I'm doing it today >_>;;; Oh, yeah, and I'll social blog later. @_@
listening to: nothing
keri said goodbye on Monday, July 22, 2002 at 11:52 a.m.
Fucking AIM. What made them think it would be such a good idea to suddenly have links open in pre-existing windows instead of making new ones? I think it's fucking annoying, personally, and it just made me lose my entry. *steams*
Anyway. Yeah, I've been lazy about blogging again, oh well. And I'm in a really bad mood right now for some reason, PMS or whatever, but blergh. Good thing, though: tomorrow at this time I'll be halfway to NJ, and less than 6 hours away from meeting you and you and you and you. ^^;;; yay. I'm looking forward to checking out the dealer's room, too. Hopefully there'll be some good stuff.
Hey, welcome back. ^^;;; I was wondering if you'd ever blog again... there are so few A/K fans that it would suck to lose one into the ether, hehe. This whole Dark!Kotori thing is so interesting... you and Becky have both made really good points, and I especially like your idea about how it would affect the Seiichirou/Karen/Nataku situation. Now, someone is going to fic DarkKamui!Kotori, ne? Ne? *pokepokepoke* hehehe
I have to disagree with you, about this statement:
Moving on to the Nataku-Karen-Seiichirou-Kotori thing... while I like Karen/Seiichirou, I'm not necessarily convinced that she's his most important person even by that time. (I'm not completely against the idea, either.) I think Seiichirou, no matter what his feelings for Karen, has spent so long doing everything to protect his wife and daughter that they have become his Most Important Person/People, even if, say, he likes someone better.
What I'm wondering is, exactly what has he done to protect them? Yes, he says that's the reason he fights, but nothing he's done has really directly affected his wife or daughter in any way. However, he's put his life on the line for Karen (meaning she was actually present and in immediate danger and he protected her from it) several times. I'm not saying he wouldn't risk his life to protect them if they were the ones who were in danger, but they seem a rather distant reason to fight when compared to Karen, who is right there and can be physically and tangibly protected. Add that to the decidedly romantic overtones to most of their scenes and my theory about his powers being used to protect only one person (the wife and daughter being two and therefore being secondary), and I think it makes a pretty fair case for Karen slowly becoming more important to him, at least on the level of who he wishes to fight for and protect.
Lika, that thing with your niece sounds like it was scary... but I really, really do not believe you are a "horrible human being". It just seems that your personal ideals clash quite a bit with the religion you grew up with... Since I'm not religious myself, I can't give you much insight on this, but I'd say follow your heart... And out of curiosity, why do you feel that homosexuality is a package deal with all that other stuff? I don't believe you have to condemn everything or agree with everything... I don't personally have a problem with any of those (well, I don't support adultery except when it's based on truuueee loooveee *coughcough* ^^;;;), but... once again, I think you should just follow your heart, even if it goes against what you've been taught... *shrugs* I just hate to see you stressed out about this. *hugs* Hope you work it out soon. ^_^ Oh, and on the Survivor game, you were right. I am waiting for her to cast her vote ^_~ *grumbles* You had to invite the one person in the entire world who has a fondness for Shimako to play, didn't you? XD
Dude, Ammie, your brother's kinda hot. XD Now where are piccies of you, miss? Huh? I wanna seeee! (Or else I'll send Hinoto after you... wait, you'd enjoy that wouldn't you? XD)
listening to: The Cedar Room, The Doves
keri said goodbye on Wednesday, July 17, 2002 at 03:26 p.m.
I like this song. It gets in your head and never ever goes away. *hums*
Ooo, survey ^_^ Got it from Kim.
X/TB Fandom character(s) you'd most like to...
* spend the rest of your life with in perfect bliss: Aoki-san, of course... the consummate perfect man. *sparkles*
* have an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand with: Weeeelll... I'm not really fond of the idea of emotionally void sex. ^^;;; So I can't really answer this.
* watch having an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand: See above answer.
* set up with your best friend: *ponders* Maybe Yuuto, because she's a bit of a player herself and they might go well together. *snicker*
* have as your best friend: Sorata or Karen. They both seem like they'd be a lot of fun to be around.
* get wasted with: I'd like to get Seiichirou drunk. Just to see if all the fics I've written were accurate at all. *snicker* But I'm a good girl so I'd stay sober ('sides, more fun that way :D :D)
* employ as a live-in masseur: *mind wanders* mmm... :D So sue me! I think he'd give good massages. ^^;;;
* use as a human pillow: Hmmm... well, if Karen's boobs were nice enough to flomp onto, they're good enough for me to use for a pillow XD XD
* bring home to meet the 'rents: I think Seiichirou's the only one my dad would let me get within 15 feet of. >_> Possibly Sorata, if he got his slight perverted tendencies under control... maybe Kusanagi...
* have as your sibling: Hmm. Can't be anyone I'm attracted to, because that'd just be creepy... so that rules out Aoki, Karen, Sorata, Yuuto... if Kamui was my little brother, would I get to beat his ass? :D :D
* tie up in your basement and kick when you're feeling frustrated: Subaru, Kamui and Fuuma. It would be... therapeutic, yes it would. *_*
* tie up in your bed and lick when you're feeling frustrated: .... *smirks* Think about it, kiddies. :D
Duuude, I watched "Vanilla Sky" last night. Wheeee, mindfuck! *_* The ending is one of those totally out-of-fucking-nowhere deals... no obvious plot twists here. Of course, my mom kept ruining the mood by making comments on how Penelope Cruz looks like a duck. And dammit, Cameron Diaz is ugly. Am I the only one who sees it? XP And then today I tried to go to Blockbuster and everything I would vaguely have considered renting was out. >< I really wanted to see "Independence Day", dammit. Fuckers.
Oh. And I can't for the life of me remember who I got the link to Homestar Runner from (it was someone's blog, but I can't remember whose and it's getting on my nerves ><), but nevertheless, it's really funny and cute. *hums to self* "Somebody told me... that you were so stupid..." XD
listening to: The Rising, Bruce Springsteen
keri said goodbye on Thursday, July 11, 2002 at 03:14 p.m.
That may be true, but it kind of misses the point of my post in a way. I wasn't referring to her job at all when I said she wasn't the type to get involved in meaningless relationships, and I'm not sure why people are making that connection. I never said she wouldn't have meaningless sex for the purpose of her job, but I don't believe she'd choose to do anything like that outside of work. All I'm trying to say is that if she's going to have an actual romantic relationship with someone, she probably wouldn't do it for superficial reasons, i.e. they make a good-looking couple or they're both good in bed. I think she would want to make a deeper connection with a man before she chose to spend her time with him and get romantically involved.
Which is my fundamental problem with Yuuto/Karen, because as it stands, Yuuto is probably the most superficial and shallow character in the story. Perhaps his personality really isn't that shallow, maybe it's just that CLAMP hasn't revealed his true motives yet, but as it stands, in my humble opinion, it could never work out.
Besides, wasn't there something about Karen becoming a soapgirl so that the religious groups that were tracking her down couldn't find her? I believe she views her job as just a duty, something she has to do. Your theory is interesting, but since I love the character so much, I'd prefer to think that her life is not utterly motivated by self-hatred. I believe that is a very weak outlook, and I don't see Karen as a weak person. I think her problem is not that she is self-destructive, but that she lacks self-preservation; or rather, is more concerned with the preservation of others than with her own. I see her offering of her life not as a punishment for herself, but a sacrifice for the salvation of others. It does stem from a certain lack of self-esteem, but I don't think she hates herself so much as she is indifferent towards herself in relation to the rest of the world. Maybe that's splitting hairs, but I do think there is a difference.
listening to: nothing
keri said goodbye on Monday, July 8, 2002 at 01:58 p.m.
Because work and relationships are two very different things. Just because Karen is a soapgirl does not mean she'll boink just anyone. I really doubt that she does that job because she enjoys doing sexual favors for men she doesn't care about; therefore, she would want something more than that in her personal life. It's obvious that she wants love and respect, and I just don't see her having lots of flings and no-strings-attached sex. *shrug*
listening to: Barrel of a Gun, Guster
keri said goodbye on Sunday, July 7, 2002 at 02:09 p.m.
Yeah, I've been lazy. It was a rather busy week. Graduation party, college orientation, lots of random shopping trips and moviegoing. But I'm back. ^_~
Some movie recs: "MIB2" is very funny, and "Minority Report" completely kicked my ass. You know you've reached the height of surreality when you're watching Tom Cruise chase his own eyeballs down a hallway. *snicker* But it was very good, very exciting, and the plot twists surprised me. I was pretty grossed out by the "sick sticks" though, and I'm glad they only used them once. What exactly is the purpose of making the person you're chasing puke all over the place, besides making the chase a lot messier and more disgusting? o_O;;; Ooh! And Colin Farrell! *licks* He was hot XD
Ack, this is late, but sorry about the bitchiness. ^^;;; I was in a rather argumentative mood, and annoyed with some other people's thoughts about Fuuma, so I sort of projected their opinions onto yours which was unfair. Truce *shakes hands* ^^;;; And yes, we need more Yuuto. *nod*
Hehehe, yes, James Franco is very sexy. Only problem is, I think he's going to go evil at some point in the sequels. :_: So if he can do evil, he can probably do pissy and blustering, ne? ^_~ And as for those cosplay pics, I still maintain that the Yuzuriha looks more like Aoki than the Aoki does. *snerk* (she's the one being tied up with wires on the far right of the front page.) Oh! And Ammie, I found pics of that guy you were mentioning to me last night for Aoki... he's actually pretty goodlooking ^_~ And I found some pics of him in glasses... I'll show you next time you're online ^_~
Of course it bothers me, which is why I always break him and his wife up when I write fics about them. And then people tell me it's OOC. But really, so many of you say you don't like the relationship because he doesn't do anything about it... none of the other X pairings have done much in the way of getting together either. So why not hold that against them? Only ones who have officially done anything are Sorata and Arashi, and you don't like them either. :P hehe
You think Yuuto is polite? o.O I can think of many words to describe him, and polite is not one of them. XD My problem with Yuuto/Karen is they're far too similar, only I don't think Yuuto has the depth that Karen does (unless CLAMP decides to develop him more and prove me wrong). They both have the flirty and outgoing personalities, but Karen has a lot of issues and inner sadness that I don't know if Yuuto could really understand well enough to have a relationship with her. I can see them having a fling, maybe, although I've never thought of Karen as the type to get involved in meaningless relationships. I think they could be good friends, too, but for anything long-term, no way. Oh, and as for Sorata/Arashi, I (and anyone else who might've pulled out the love at first sight argument) only said it was LAFS from Sorata's point of view. It just bothers me a bit that he didn't get to know her before deciding she was the one... if it were me, I'd have done a little more than fixate on the first goodlooking person I came across ^^;;; I do believe he loves her now, for more than just her appearance, but I feel that their relationship might've been more effective if it hadn't started off on such a shallow note. *waits for all her S/A-fanatic friends to jump on her and eat her alive* XD
This is hilarious. Yeah, so Aya actually looks pretty damn hot, but the rest of them... *falls over and dies laughing* Ken looks like an alien, they somehow managed to make Omi even girlier than he already was, and Yohji... poor Yohji. I'm just afraid to think of what they might do to Schwarz... o_O;;;
Oh. I had a really weird dream last night... it involved this big group of people coming over to my house to play FFX (I'm not sure why, because FFX is a one-player game, but whatever... o.O), and some of them were the actual characters from the game. And also my house was a lot nicer, and I had a bigger room and a big-screen TV. At one point in the game there was a big whirlpool, which I really don't remember happening in the actual game, but it looked pretty in the dream *snicker* And I think I wanted to get into Auron's pants. Big surprise there. *snicker*
listening to: Casey Kasem's countdown from the other room ><;;;
keri said goodbye on Sunday, July 7, 2002 at 11:21 a.m.
x.x I am so dead. Two parties today, and at both of them I was one of the only friends (as opposed to family members) who showed up. Damn slackers. At the first one, we ended up walking from one end of Sunset Bay to the other, and all the way out on the breakwall, which was pretty scary for poor afraid-of-heights me. (Yes, I know it's the width of a regular sidewalk, but I still felt like I was going to topple over at any second. ^^;;;) The second was at a fire hall, and was quite amusing because my friend's dad and two other guys dressed up and did a Blues Brothers routine. That, and Mallory and my friend's cousin kept whipping pretzel balls at each other all night, and eventually ended up overturning entire dishes of the things on each others' heads. ~~;;; hehehe
And I have to get up early tomorrow to go to church, of all things. ><;;; But since they gave me a scholarship, my mom's making me go. I'm breaking my record of not having set foot in a church in over a year, since I got confirmed. Mneh. And I find it hilarious that the main scholarships I got were from the Republican Club and a Catholic organization, when I'm a Democrat with vaguely agnostic tendencies. *snerk* I do love irony.
Oh. My brain scares me sometimes. I'm sitting there in the middle of the fire hall, eating chocolate covered strawberries and listening to the music that the DJ's playing. "The Lion Sleeps Tonight" comes on. I'm listening, and out of nowhere my brain goes "Auron!" ..... And I'm still trying to figure out where that connection came from. o.O;;;
Now back to the can of worms that I opened. ^^;;;
Alison, bravo. Your interpretation of Fuuma isn't narrow or stereotypical at all, simply unbiased. ^^;;; I agreed with just about everything you said, particularly the first paragraph of your post. ^_^
Beth, you have a good point about how jumping around between over 14 different characters is easier in manga than in fic. I've had trouble with it myself. Still, if people wanted to make the effort... but they don't, and that's the problem I'm addressing. Unfortunate. :/ Thanks for the congrats ^^
Becky, point taken about Yuuto. I suppose I shouldn't bitch that no one fics for him, because if I do, people might start writing more Yuuto/Karen and I sure as hell don't want that. *snicker* Seiichirou/Yuuto, damn, I would enjoy that ^_^ Almost wrote it once, in fact, but we decided that the only way it could conceivably happen while remaining even vaguely IC was if 1) Aoki was bombed and 2) it was a threesome with Karen. ^^;;;; As for Subaru/Arashi, I think I read a fic like that once... if I recall correctly, it involved Sorata and Subaru having a late-night conversation about how Arashi wanted Subaru... or am I just imagining this? o.o;;;
Sarah, "Storm Front" is on the CLAMP fic archives, under X Fics of course. There's also an excellent "annex" to it called "Firestorm", in the 18 and Up section. (Eheh, not that I, being 17, would ever look in there... *snerk*)
Sorry if this was incoherent or anything... I'm so fucking tired right now. @_@ How will I ever be able to get up tomorrow morning? ><;;;
listening to: nothing
keri said goodbye on Saturday, June 29, 2002 at 11:04 p.m.
Well. I'm a high school graduate now. @_@ Boy, is that surreal. The ceremony was okay... at least the commencement speaker kept her speech extremely short. It was so hot though, and I kept stepping on my gown every time I stood up. *snicker* And then I almost walked the wrong way. Good thing I'll never see most of those people for another ten years at least, ne? ^^ Party's tomorrow. Money. $_$ (Yep, I'm a greedy little bitch XD)
Ummm... out of curiosity, where on earth did you find an association between "Come What May" and Fuuma/Kakyou? ^^;;; Seems a bit too mushy and sappy for any relationship involving Fuuma (and no, I'm not saying he's a heartless monster, before 18 more people jump on me -.-;;; just that he isn't exactly the hearts and flowers type).
Speaking of that... random person, where exactly in my entry did I say that Fuuma was a monster? In fact, I've said many times that I wouldn't call Fuuma completely evil, because no CLAMP character is completely evil or completely good. However, I don't believe that murder doesn't count when the person wished for it, especially since he's twisting the hell out of the wish. Neither Nataku nor Daisuke wished to die. They certainly weren't suicidal. Both of their wishes involved protecting the person they loved or cared about, but they definitely were not wishing for that person to be in danger. Fuuma creates the situation where the wish becomes necessary, and then grants it. He may not obviously enjoy it, but he doesn't care, and that's arguably more dangerous.
And no, I don't think it's important to notice the people he hasn't killed. So he doesn't brutally murder all the people he comes in contact with... only most of them. Oh, great, let's give him the Citizen of the Year award.
I honestly apologize for the sarcasm, but I don't understand how my view of the character and the view of him that his fans hold are so completely opposite. I'm not saying everyone should hate him-- I can understand rooting for the bad guy, I've done it myself a million times (Schwarz were so much cooler than Weiss *coughcough*). But at least recognize that he is the bad guy, or one of them, anyway. He's not the story's misunderstood true hero. Recall that he likes to make buildings fall down, and I'm fairly sure that every single person in those buildings was not wishing to die. >_>;;;
Aaaanyway. Alison, I like your theory on the happenings at Ginza. It seems quite believable. Particularly the "didn't have a choice". Fuuma didn't give Daisuke a choice, either. But of course, he's a wonderful person who only has everyone else's best interests in mind. Right. ><;;;
Oh! I forgot to mention in my last post that I love your layout! Cutecute. ^__^
Isn't he adorable? ^_~ And yeah, I do agree that there's a resemblance sometimes. Of course, Daisuke isn't as adorable or handsome, but not everyone can be as perfect as Aoki-san. ^_^ And of course he won't get a divorce >_> That would be too easy and relatively calm of a solution. Noooo, somebody has to die. ><;;;
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keri said goodbye on Saturday, June 29, 2002 at 10:15 a.m.
You have excellent points. I guess the X fandom isn't so much anti-het as yaoi-dominated, and it's tough for the other pairings to be noticed. I just don't understand why some yaoi fans go so far out of their way to make sure that no heterosexuality at all shows up in their fics. ^^;;; I have no problem with writers wanting to center their fics around S/S/K/F, but the idea of only mentioning the other characters when it comes time for them to die, or pretending they don't exist, begins to seem kind of shameless. I'm not very good at epics (and I write them incredibly slowly -.-), but I do have one in progress, and I haven't completely obliterated the existance of Kamui, Fuuma and Subaru just because they're not my favorite characters. And yet, read any popular long "continuing from the plot of the manga" fic, and you'd think there were only 5 or 6 characters in CLAMP's work itself.
Not that I'm telling other authors that they have to write about characters and relationships that maybe don't interest them, but I just find it kinda sad that entire sections of the plot have been ignored, overlooked, and certainly not expanded upon by the fandom. Especially since so much has already been done with S/S and F/K and even S/K. If it wasn't enough that those relationships don't intrigue me as much as other ones (which, coincidentally, happen to be het) do, if I were to write a fic about them, I'd have so much out there to compete with. Not to mention it would be much more difficult for me to come up with original ideas about the pairing. So much has already been done. With A/K, there's really not as much of a precedent (although if I ever write anything as good as "Storm Front", I'll probably retire XD), so I can do whatever I want with them and it probably will be completely original. Of course, the price for that is not getting as much feedback and notice from other fans, but I think it's worth it (especially when my fics convince people who didn't like the pairing so much before to give it a try. I really love that ^_^).
Besides, even though I might not get as much attention for my fics, I'm somewhat known in the fandom for being the A/K fanatic. And I really like being notorious. *snicker* I'd be just another face in the crowd if I started obsessing over S/S or S/K, because I'm not on the same level as the bigshot S/S or S/K fans. Of course, I'm fairly sure at this point that everyone wants me to shut the hell up, but hey, there's no such thing as bad press. *snicker*
'Course, I did the same thing in the WK fandom right before I bailed out... I started writing Schu/Aya-chan. Why? I have no idea. Before that, I was a Brad/Schu fanatic. I still loved B/S afterward, in fact. For some reason I felt drawn to the other pairing, though, probably because it was so goddamn weird, but at the same somehow workable. I have a tendency to like odd het pairings, too.
So I guess that's how I work. Find a fandom and carve out my niche. Most people won't agree with me, but they'll know who I am. I like attention. ^^;;; I guess that's why your theory about how fan-fans are created doesn't apply to me... Besides, I actually entered the fandom as a yaoi fan. I loved S/S, I read a bunch of fics about them-- but after a week or so, I realized I was looking for pairings in the S/S fics that weren't there, and was getting disappointed because some characters weren't mentioned at all. So I gave up, and started searching for stuff on those other characters, and the rest is history. ^^;;;
Oh. Another thing that occurred to me a few days ago. Why the hell isn't Yuuto more popular? He's attractive, mysterious, vaguely amoral, very sexual... he seems to have a lot in common with the popular, fan-favorite characters. So why does no one write fic about him? @_@ The only conclusion I can come to is because the manga portrays him as straight. Which, I know, seems like another attempt for me to paint the rest of the fandom as a bunch of shallow singleminded yaoi-obsessed fangirls, but it's honestly the only thing I can think of. People claim he's too mysterious to write about, but I'd think that would be more incentive to write-- you can make up your own motives and inner personality for him. But no one has tried, and this disappoints me. Do we know that much more about Fuuma or Seishirou's motivations that they are easy to write for while Yuuto is impossible? I don't buy that. I'd really like to not blame it on the fact that he's straight (supposedly, but he's awfully easy to slash if you really want to, which also confuses me as to why no one fics for him), but I'm drawing a blank. Anyone have any other ideas?
As for Seiichirou and Seishirou's childhood with Setsuka... I think it would've been both adorable and terrifying. ^_~ Seishirou had to be the favorite, though (probably unnaturally so, considering Setsuka o.O;;;). I wonder if Seiichirou would've developed a complex about that? *snicker*
I can understand Karen's issues. I actually think she's incredibly well-adjusted after growing up in a life utterly lacking in love and support. I'm not sure why it would be easier to understand Subaru's apathy, complete and constant misery, and inability to help himself than it is to understand Karen's slight self-esteem problems. ^^;;; Maybe if she was a fragile pretty boy uke? ... yeah, that was uncalled for, gomen. XD
Interesting, the parallel to Brad and the slap, but I don't think I would call Brad kind and sensitive either. ^^;;; My brain just refuses to reconcile "sweet gentleman" with "blowing up buildings and conspiring to destroy humanity". And as for his acceptance of his role, weren't you the one who said you didn't believe in the existance of fate/destiny in X? So wouldn't that make him weak, because he is accepting the role rather than going against his so-called destiny?
In conclusion... FuUmA SuX! *snicker*
Nephew! *dies laughing* "Windmasters do it aerodynamically"! That's priceless! I love it *snickersnicker* I need to work that into a humor fic somehow XD And no, of course there isn't an A/K ML, if there was I'd be plugging it every day on here. Perhaps we should start one, although it would probably end up with like four members total. ~~;;; And Dai/Hinoto doesn't count as straight, because of Hinoto's tentacles. Poor Dai-kun has to be uke XD XD
....... If Karen and Yuuto are on the same DVD cover, someone's going to die. -.-;;;;
Hey. I just realized something. Three days from now marks the one-year anniversary of this blog. Weird. ^^;;;
And if FF.net doesn't fucking come back up soon, I'm going to severely harm them. I was right in the middle of another wonderful Aurikku fic and it goes down again. Fuckers. *kickkickpunchpunchbitebite*
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keri said goodbye on Friday, June 28, 2002 at 12:17 p.m.
