Thursday, March 27, 2003
Music:
...I love it when writing things fall into place. :D

[rae used the force @ 05:31 p.m.] [jedi]

Thursday, March 27, 2003
Music: Tori Amos, "Past the Mission"
Okay....*deep breath* I would kill for some good FF7 fic, preferably...*the shame* Reno/Elena, or Zack/Cloud, Sephiroth/Zack/Cloud. I've developed a taste for the latter after reading the various writings of these two. ^^
Anyone know of any? (and I don't just mean smut, either)

[rae used the force @ 10:53 a.m.] [jedi]

Wednesday, March 26, 2003
Music: Tori Amos, "A Sorta Fairytale"
Dear Rae,
It is my pleasure to administer a good, solid kick-in-the-behind to your incredible...bitchiness.
You've no right to get pissed off over petty shit, especially stuff that's as bloody unimportant as this, and I suspect it's a bit of hormones, and bit of having to deal with it too often, and suggest that you stop being a cold bitch because of it.
What particularly disgusts me is the fact you KNOW you're doing it, and you don't care. Blah. You keep messing up, and it's very annoying, and you'll probably mess up again. Selfish idiot.
--Me.

Dear Rae,
I hate you.
--your uterus.

Dear Rae,
If you eat any more yoghurt, there will be PAIN.
--your thighs, stomach, and other fat-gaining areas.

[rae used the force @ 06:20 p.m.] [jedi]

Wednesday, March 26, 2003
Music:
Quote of the Day:
Tab: because i'm all caaalm and settled with my whormones, and then yesterday i was SUPER moody and stupidly depression-y, and because i calmed down mateas-ness, the rest of my whormones are going "EE! EE! WHAT DO YOU MEAN, BE QUIET?! MUST. OBSESS. DROOL. LOOK. IT HAS A PENIS. LOOKLOOKLOOK!" to me. o.O;;

[rae used the force @ 04:48 p.m.] [jedi]

Wednesday, March 26, 2003
Music: Tool, "AEnima"
I posted a Hellsing fanfic, read blogs-- woke up, which is a good thing, even if Ma was hogging the bathroom. n.n

I friggin' ADORE your new layout. XD~ *loves at it* Oooh-- does anyone know where you can download Hellsing scanlations? I don't have IRC, or streamload, but....^^;

[rae used the force @ 08:17 a.m.] [jedi]

Tuesday, March 25, 2003
Music: Savage Garden, "Truly, Madly, Deeply"
I was supposed to be going on a walk to Bath (TEN MILES) today, with the Bestfriend, but the damn h0 had pottery. XD *lubs her really* So I'm hooking up with Izzeh in Bath and giving her Wolf's Rain 01-09 on disk, and then probably going to dinner at her house. ^,^ Wai, wai!

I was so tired last night, because I've been getting 4-6 hours of sleep a night for the past week or so, with nothing to make up the sleeping debt of the weekend-- where I got maybe 4-5 hours a night-- that I finally closed my shutters on the top of the window, and stuck my curtain up. I didn't like sleeping in total pitch black for a LONG time, and so sleeping in the dark but with natural light from outside had been a good compromise, but yesterday I just caved. The thought of waking up at five to six again, when I was so tired, was just unbearable., So I slept till eight. :D

Thanks, Beth! They decided on Elizabeth, with Rose as a middlename. Huge relief. No Pearls for me, or Judiths. ^^ Hopefully I'll get to fly up and see her sometime this summer, after my GCSEs. *crosses her fingers*

I'm even more determined to finish downloading Naruto 01, now.

*dies* Armand is gorgeous, I fully agree. XD And his whole thing with the phone! XDXDXD Oooh! And I didn't know that about the dvd player thing...^,^ must...fix...it. Or...something.

*DEAD* I love your little sister! XD My brother is known for the following:
Little Brother: *showing Rae the sign he made for his school project thingimagummy* And Max made one saying, "Don't drop the soap." *giggles*
Rae:.....¬,¬ you know what that means, right?
Little Brother: :D If you drop the soap in prison, the other men bum you!
That's just....oh god...so precious. XD

Yo, Jen, I'll call you this evening, if I can! >:D

And now...I go and do something marginally productive. Like posting another Hellsing fanfic on my FF.Net account.

[rae used the force @ 11:12 a.m.] [jedi]

Monday, March 24, 2003
Music: Tori Amos, "A Sorta Fairytale"
I. Am. So. Tired. I don't have any curtains in my room yet, and the window faces east, so I get woken up the moment the sun starts rising-- there's a moment when it shines RIGHT through my window, at about 6:25. But this time, I didn't wake up then. No. I woke up at 5:55. -_- Not fun. I'm going to have to talk to mom about getting curtains, asap. I look like shit. Greh.

Today begins my abstinence from sugar-y foods and deep-fried foods. My period arrived today, a tad early, which is v. annoying because it means I'll wind up missing eight days of swimming, if you put period-time together with the time I had to miss cause of my eye. (tampons? what tampons?)

[rae used the force @ 07:47 a.m.] [jedi]

Sunday, March 23, 2003
Music: TaTu, "All The Things She Said"
Hah. I could be a russian lesbian if I wanted. ^^

This is now up at the pit of voles. There's something I don't like about it, and I can't decide what, and as editing means 'deleting everything' for me, I daren't go over it to find what I dislike. >.< Food, now.

[rae used the force @ 11:45 a.m.] [jedi]

Sunday, March 23, 2003
Music: GooGoo Dolls, "Angels Fall"
Note to self: turn heating on BEFORE showering and getting all wet.

Oh yes! I got to speak to the darling Tab last night, if only for half an hour-- calls to America cooooost, and I dinna want the father descending upon me in a fit of WRATH-- and there was BABBLING and only ONE awkward silence. ^^<333 I hearts her, I does, and her luff-worthy voice. Also, she confirmed what other English-types keep telling me: I have a slight American accent on some words, gleaned from her. ^,^

I...cannot take screenshots. I tried, with Hellsing, and the image was fine as long as I kept the disc paused, but when I set it back to play, the IMAGE changed as well. Anyone know what's going on?

Hm. Dry skin. Must. Locate. Moisturiser.

I need to tidy up my links. And edit this layout. And...ugh.

[rae used the force @ 09:46 a.m.] [jedi]

Sunday, March 23, 2003
Music: Lisa Loeb, "Stay"

"Pure Morning"

What's Your Inner Placebo Song?
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Jen and I had a muchly amusing conversation last night, regarding the first time she ever came down to my house, in Autumn/Winter 2001. We were reminiscing, being old:
Me: was that before or after I stopped liking DeadCatHead?
Her:....you were bitter.
Me: Oh yes. Extremely so! After, then. Oh yeah-- I was bitter over DCH, and you were being all--
Her: Moony?
Me:--melancholy over /A/ (name omitted for privacy), and Maya was telling us both to get a fucking grip and move on. *both burst out laughing*

Had a male friend being maudlin on AIM last night, which wasn't friend. Ticking timebomb to walk around, and all.

Now, showers.

[rae used the force @ 09:16 a.m.] [jedi]

Saturday, March 22, 2003
Music: Tori Amos, "A Sorta Fairytale"
***BtVS Season Six Spoiler Warning***

I re-watched Seeing Red today, and it pisses me off this time even more than it did the time before-- possibly because I've been stumbling into entirely too many 'Buffy fucks Spike, Angel finds out, whups her ass and rapes her, during which Buffy becomes unbelievably turned on' that were set before Angel left, I guess. But sometime after he'd lost his soul after the Orgasm with Buffy(tm). Buffy is the Slayer, and contrary to what some of these fans seem to think, this isn't just a convenient plot device to get her boinking one or both of the darling little vampies. Seeing Red makes me feel ill because it's unfair to Spike and his character-- it's about as in character as the Angel-rapes-Buffy fanfiction (now Angelus is an entirely different matter...)-- but also to Buffy. She lies on the ground and whimpers 'no' for a long time until she kicks him off, and I find it a little hard to believe.

Anyway, it's the fanfiction that's pissing me off right now. In particular, this little piece where Angel chains Buffy and Spike together after he catches them doing the dirty, and then unchains Buffy and forces her over to the table where he screws her from behind. No chains. No cuffs. Firstly, Angel would never rape Buffy. Secondly, if he tried, I hold to the firm belief that she would simply drive him headfirst through a wall. Because, yanno, that Slayer strength has to be good for something. She's punched through doors. She's lifted the hammer of that troll. She's beaten up a demi-goddess fer christssakes. If a puny little vampire tried to rape her, she'd just rip his heart right out of his chest a la Sakurazuka Seishirou.

Done, now.

[rae used the force @ 05:28 p.m.] [jedi]

Saturday, March 22, 2003
Music: Ani DiFranco, "Untouchable Face"
*quietly dies* Someone should send that to Bush.

Had a v. amusing conversation with the little brother:
Little Brother: *storms in looking all pissy, rants at Dad for awhile, then turns Rae's music off*
Rae: Can you please not be a pissy little bitch because you're not getting your own way. (referring to the demonstration eleven year old little brother wants to go to without parents)
Little Brother: So you only care when it's your stuff?!
Rae:....I wasn't about to say anything because you were being bratty to Dad, but you just turned my music off, so now it's affecting me.
Little Brother: That's why you don't care about the Americans killing Iraq!
Rae:....Iraqis. They're killing Iraqis. You can't kill a land...unless you try really hard, I guess, and even then--
Little Brother: But they'll completely destroy it!
Rae: ^^ Just because I don't want my music turned off doesn't mean I don't care about the war. Stop being stupid.
***later on***
Little Brother: *to Dad* I'll punch you if you don't let me go!
Rae: Oooh. Violence to stop violence. What a good idea.
Little Brother: *absolutely serious* Violence in a good cause is okay!
Rae: *cracks up* Bet you Bush and our Prime Minister said that as well!
***on the phone to Jen***
Rae: Bush has the reasoning of an eleven year old boy. That's embarrassing. (leaving out Blair, because Blair is vaguely intelligent sometimes, and because Rae keeps forgetting him anyway)

[rae used the force @ 08:18 a.m.] [jedi]

Friday, March 21, 2003
Music: Linkin Park, "Crawling"
Incidentally? I love Audrey's thing on SaddamxBush. Yeah. As in, slash. *dead*

[rae used the force @ 08:57 p.m.] [jedi]

Friday, March 21, 2003
Music: Tori Amos, "Girl"
...I've gone so off of Fuuma x Kamui that it isn't even funny, considering that it used to be my favourite pairing-- beyond even Seishirou x Subaru-- but the thought of reading (or writing) anything with Fuuma and Kamui getting groiny with each other makes me feel physically ill. I'm not sure if this quite extends to all of X fic yet-- I've yet to test it out-- but I have the teeniest suspicion that it does extend to all X smut.
This isn't to say that the thought of fanfic with Fuuma and Kamui interacting makes me feel ill-- it'd be interesting to see a dialogue between them that doesn't exist purely so that they end up in bed together. For now, though, I'm steering clear of any and all smut relating to them. Writing or reading.

Grumpy because I have to re-download Wolf's Rain 08, because my Keep + ANBU version was...being incredibly slow and so the subtitles weren't appearing for around thirty seconds after the characters had actually spoken. -_- Very annoying, but...*shrugs*

Need to sort out birthday gifts for far too many people. Grah. ^^<3

I'd say snooker was more of a metaphor for sex (phallic objects ahoy!), but if they made a show called Prince of Snooker I'd never watch it. I'll have to see about getting me some episodes of PoT, then. ^^ (and Platinum, that's really sweet of you, but I'll probably just grab them off of BitTorrent)

[rae used the force @ 08:39 p.m.] [jedi]

Thursday, March 20, 2003
Music:
Oh, and incidentally? Blair is an idiot as well, but in general he's less of an idiot than Bush. He's still an idiot, though.

Jen said it best. I remember when Blair got elected and Bestfriend's family and mine went out to the pub to celebrate-- we were both irate, back then, because Blair had a big mouth and we didn't want a big mouth for Prime Minister. ^^ We were about...nine or ten then, though, so...

[rae used the force @ 08:16 a.m.] [jedi]

Thursday, March 20, 2003
Music:
First of all: I don't like the war, I don't agree with the war, and I don't particularly like America's president, but all three of those points seem to be generally agreed on in blogdom save for a few people (who, it must be noted, I still like regardless of whether we agree or not. So.) Bush used to be a source of entertainment, but unless it's X, it kinda stops being funny when people start dying. Whether they're Iraqi or American.

Second of all: I was rather amused by Kim's post to Kouri (the top one, by the way). XD Now I know I have to watch PoT, although the idea in general (boys playing tennis...geh...and I don't particularly like tennis) doesn't appeal to me, I'm going to have to give it a try-- /if/ I can get hold of the first three episodes, because I'm picky about watching things in order.

Thirdly: I'll be on AIM tonight. n.n Even though I found my FF8 booklet AND memory card, so I've been reacquainting myself with the delights of Quistis' whip...that sounds /so/ wrong.

Fourth: I need to tidy my links list. There are people to be added, and people to be removed. Urk. Although...I have trouble with removing people, as some of them are friends who I just don't read, and some of them aren't friends who I STILL read.

[rae used the force @ 07:52 a.m.] [jedi]

Wednesday, March 19, 2003
Music: Nickelback, "How You Remind Me"
I wuv this song. I truly do. I also like...LINKIN' PARK! Nyaaar! (okay, I prefer Tori Amos and Ani DiFranco, buuuut...)

My eyelid is all swollen and pinky. Mom used some long word when she saw it, and it apparently means I can't go swimming this morning. Yay fucking unyay. I hate it when I can't go swimming because I'm ill, or because my eyelid resembles a grapefruit. My eyeBALL is perfectly normal, but the eyelid...ish. I pondered poking it with a needle, but apparently I'd end up blinding myself. So, I won't.

I have a new cousin! <3333 I had to 'yell' that. XD~~ Kirsten had a baby girl yesterday, and they're toying with the name Elizabeth for her. :D Either that, or Judith. Apparently they want a biblical middle name-- Ruby is Ruby Hannah. I'm just so glad they didn't call this new girl Pearl, which is what Kirsten wanted. I personally DON'T favour Judith, because it's my middle name and I dislike it, and the nicknames that will invariably rise from it.

And now, to study.

[rae used the force @ 08:04 a.m.] [jedi]

Tuesday, March 18, 2003
Music: Amen, "Woke Up Now"
Along with the brother's T-shirts, I've also nabbed a few of his CDs-- Crazytown, and his Kerrang album (which I need to burn for Bestfriend, because I promised). I also need to shop for much belated birthday presents. ^,^<3 Because today is one of my 'free' days, I figure I'll take the train straight after swimming and go to Bath-- I'll keep a lookout for Cerulean Sins while I'm at it, oh yes.

Ergh. Gnawing thumb over the possibility of going to F.'s 'get together'. I'd quite like to go, but I have shitloads of studying, and I'm going to L-chan's at the beginning of the month, and Fi's at the end of the month, and if I have something in the middle of the month AND HesFes during May, I just won't get anything done.
I think I just answered my own question. -_- I'll email him. Geh.

I wrote up an outline for Redemption yesterday, which rather surprised me. It's patchy, because I'M confused over orders of events and where various characters come in, but...^,^ Jen-chan would be so pleased. XD

To the various people I usually talk to (and if I missed anyone, I'm sorry-- I haven't spoken to you, Kym, for aaages) I'm sorry for not being on, pretty much at all; that weekend was kinda...hectic. What with the vapid idiots passing out all over my unit, and stuff. I'll see if I can pop on Wednesday/Thursday-ish. Mmhm.

*beams* Thanks, Nayami! XD Yoda was the saving grace of that entire damn movie-- I just wanted to smack Anakin. ("I like it here...*stroking Ami's back* Everything's so soft...warm...")

[rae used the force @ 07:40 a.m.] [jedi]

Sunday, March 16, 2003
Music: Nickelback, "How You Remind Me"
XD Thanks, Fox! The image is one I had from an old diary layout-- which looked much nicer than this one, because there was less stuff to squish onto it. ¬,¬<3

Going to London today, which is why I didn't appear on AIM last night. I was so tired by the time Bestfriend and I got back from seeing The Ring that I just couldn't stomach the thought of being online and chatty. I'm not pissed off with the older of the girls who chucked up all over our unit, because she apologised and she was crying and offering to clean it up, and she brought chocolates round for mom. However, I'm glad that Juliet threw up in her bath, to be brutally honest. Last night I watched Angel in MY living room, and there was disinfectant all over the rug and the smell of puke in the air. >_<

Going to see Helen today. Yaaay! We get on pretty well considering that we see each other maybe once a year. ^^

[rae used the force @ 09:14 a.m.] [jedi]

Saturday, March 15, 2003
Music:
new layout. now sleep.

[rae used the force @ 11:41 p.m.] [jedi]

layout (c) Rae, Star Wars (c) someone else, don't steal the fucking layout. Yah.