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Thursday, June 19, 2003


I want to have a new computer.
I want to have a normal life
bleh. I won't be online much, I don't have any energy to put up new layouts, maintain/arrange my sites and all that, sorry! I just feel like I don't have it anymore to do those, maybe someday I'll do them..I hope. o.O;;

Ehh, my computer still won't detect the ff vi cd, but I already finished the game a day ago, it's really fun playing it. =] (even though only 1 char. survived at the 2nd tier cause most of the char. who died are low on levels, ahahah xP)

Ughhh...artist's block...argh, argh, argh!! >.< can't draw but I wanna write some story I just thought of weeks ago, but I don't have any more space on my notebooks, cause they're full of stupid drawings I'll ask my mom to buy me a new one.

*RANTS and whinings ahead.*

WHY DO PEOPLE EXPECT ME TO STUDY?????!!!!!! I hate studying!! grarghhhh!!! and don't even tell me that studying is for my future, since I won't have any future anyways! >_< I'd kill myself if someone asks me to study! I'm so sick of it! Everybody always expected me to get awards and get to the honor's list! then when I dropped outta the 2 stupid schools I've been in, they(my relatives) were all ANGRY!!!! They said I'm the only one who got many awards on our family and all that crap and I should continue my studies, and blah, blah, blah, etc..etc..!! I want to do what I wanna! darn it! but this stupid "dad" would get angry and won't give us any money(even though he doesn't even give us a cent) if he knew I'm still in 1st year of highschool..grrrrr....!!! Sometimes I wanna cut my wrist or sleep forever, it just scares me when I think of everyone being angry at me bec. I'm not studying. ;_; But...grrr...I'm out of thoughts now. -.-
Sorry if the above offended anyone, it's just me, don't flame me, why'd you even bothered to read it anyways? now, scram. ¬_¬

Goodnight and Goodbye everybody. =P

ehhhh....
Tuesday, June 17, 2003


Stupid pc and ps emulator..it won't detect the game cd..*kicks* Ahh..well I have to say 'hello boring days' again. -.- Also, my older cousin(which I'll call klek here *sweatdrop* ) installed the drawing tablet..............it didn't work, he didn't know ho to fix it, mweh guess I'll ask marvs.

Still have this cough I got cause of abnormal sleeping time, so it's a bother when I'm eating..ahehehe.

Umm..that's that for now. ba-bay. (heh, how I love to die right now or how about I won't wake up after a month or so? that'll be nice. lol)

.............. ;__;
Saturday, June 14, 2003


bleh, no one greeted me on my b-day..(except for my mom, my other grandma, my mom's friend and some *very few* friends)that's okay. O yea, I guess I won't be blogging for a while but I'll still be online, don't expect to see me at messageboards since I'm just checking. ^^;; And yes, I'm *still* playing FF VI, can't stop playing..heheheh! xD;;

........Sad. Maan's grandma(her mom's mom..you get the point) passed away last June 12.(my b-day! xO).

Argh.I had this cough because of my sleeping time and yesterday..I only slept for 4 hours...didn't sleep for almost a day nyaha. Ehh..that's all for now! ba-baayyy! ^^;

hapbedey to me, yey!
Wednesday, June 11, 2003


Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday, happy birthdaaaaaaayyyyy...hapi bertdey to meh! weeehh! xP

Just 15 more minutes and I *really* turn 15! xO Too bad teh stupid president gma moved the independence day to june13, bleh!(damn you, gma! I hope you get bitten by a roach! nyaa! XP) so my mom won't be absent tomorrow =[(or later as it's 11:45 p.m right now as I write this)
WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I'm so happy right now! xD Mom gave me a drawing tablet/or whatever you call it as her b-day gift for me!!! xDDDDDD so if my cousin(nivram/marvs/or whatever he call his name online) has his day-off, I'm gonna ask him to install it! xDD O yeah, since I never got to give back the ffvi cd to the store in the mall, I tried to play it...eghh..I'm stuck in that mountain, you know, the one starting with a 'k'..sorry, I forgot..hehe I'm not making any sense. ^^;; Umm...aaanyways, that's all for now! ba-bayy! xD

.....no water!! >.<
Sunday, June 8, 2003


just as the title says!! darn it!!!!!!! >=O I just hope it's back tonight or tommorow! *inis* *asar* why do those people fix stuff when the students are gonna go back to school????!!!! ahh, well.

Plug. ha-ha! new art! xD I wanna draw more! lol!

Maan's classes starts tomorrow! =O I dunno if she's gonna go tom. she said someone gave her some tickets to some movie. (lucky her) She also went to Tagaytay today or yesterday, I forgot..hehe..I envy her.. ;__; while I'm stuck on my beloved house sitting in this old pc chair.lol!

Booo! My b-day is getting nearer! I'm getting older..-.- I hate reponsibilities, cause I'm irresponsible, nyaha. I hope no blabber mouthed friends of my mom comes on my b-day...nyak, but it's okay..I'll get more gifts..heeee! xDD;
x.O I still haven't put up the new layout..I dunno if my boomspeed account is showing of this blog's graphics in other pcs..nyaa. Need to find a *reliable* image hosting stuff. (Since no one would even host this blog..hoh T.T)
Soo..that's it again..buh-bye!!

WHOO-HOOO!!! xDDD;
Sunday, June 8, 2003


Waii!!waiiii!!waiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!! xD (annoying isn't it?) yep, I'm feeling a bit better now, I cried that crapness all out last night. ^_^ (crying makes me feel better) Well, anyhow...I think I'll work on my abandoned site and upcoming sites. ¬__¬;;;

I feel inspired this morning(it's 3:00 a.m, right now). I dunno, I just feel like it, hehe. ^-^;; So, I'm gonna draw and draw even if it's crap, nyo.(I think I'll draw one for a group contest or sumthin') But I'm gonna be out of paper..ha-ha. That's that for now. buh-byez!

depression???
Saturday, June 7, 2003


ahahahah, I've gone control of my mind. Can't stop thinking. I wanna die, but I can't do it, heh-heh..I guess the one who is reading this right now is getting scared of me.

I dunno why but I feel like giving up on my worthless life, it was a mistake that I was born, typing on this stupid blog that no one reads, right now sitting on this old squeaky computer chair. No one believes that I've lost control, they think I'm making stories and stuff. No one likes me, or understands me they think I live a comfortable and normal life which is the opposite, bleh. I need to take a break, if I still can't get over this thing, then I'm gonna tell my mom about this.

....... ;___;
Wednesday, June 4, 2003


Waahh! I need to sleep early now! why?.....hair loss!! x_X;; this afternoon when I woke up (I took a nap, heh) and went to the bathrom I fixed my hair in a ponytail (I aways tie my hair in ponytail) and, lots of hair strands was left on my hands..;___; my mom said that it's because of my sleeping habit, since I sleep VERY late in the morning like 1:00 a.m to 5:00 a.m. meeh, I thought I'm gonna die. ha-ha. I still feel sleepy right now..*hikab* I also feel tired even though I don't do any work, heheh!

x.X I watched the news, and they say that the man's body who fell from the water air-vent thingy was found..ew,and they also said that some of his hair was ripped of from his head. yuck! xP

yea, the usual, plug. Otorii Tsubame. yey. New layout on this blog will be put up soon when my lazy arse gets the energy to upload it heheh. goodbye. =]

aaaaaarggghhhhh!!!
Tuesday, June 3, 2003


*rants and whining ahead* (oh and bad words too)

Cat said she watched some news and a congressman will ban MG!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I'LL KILL THAT B*****D IF HE DID THAT!!!! >=O He's just jealous because he just wanna be the center of attention...stupid politicians, that's why I hate discussing about those retards(the politicians).. >XP

There's RO beta test here in the Phils.!!! O__O!!! *sigh* I wish I can play that. ¬__¬;; Yey, I found my pencil! lol! but I can't draw right now, my drawings turn more crappy.

This...blog...needs...new..lay-ouuuut....I'll try to upload the other layout I made weeks ago. eheheh!

P.S: 'No Unread Messages'???? waaahhh!! no one likes me anymore! >.<;;

new art. ¬__¬;;
Saturday, May 31, 2003


Random, stupid art.plug.
Too tired, need sleep. Ibuki shrine to be opened later, ADG Place to be uploaded again, sorry.

Meh. I wish I have my own domain...nobody wanna host this blog. -___-;;

.....Goodbye. *sleeps*

>.<;;;
Friday, May 30, 2003


Alright, I've been trying to re-upload my sites..*sigh* I'm bored....I feel like scanning the new scribble I drew yesterday. ha-ha yes, it's gonna be stupid again. =P

Ehhh. I wanna go to the mall tomorrow! ^.^ I'm gonna search for some wallscroll and stuff to put on the walls, cause the raining left our re-painted house some yellow, yucky moist. x_x;; err...that's all....

*hikab*
Friday, May 30, 2003


ho-hummmm...I feel really sleepy right now...there was this storm the past days, heard it killed 16 or so people. =/ Good thing it's gone now..I guess.

errrrrr.....I said I'd open ADG Place, but I was out of internet for days...I'll try to go online later, I'm really sleepy right now, need sleep, really tired. -.- bye-bye...

eeeeeewwwww......
Friday, May 23, 2003


The new servant that I mention weeks ago..I always forget to blog about this I know I shouldn't be mean but....I just can't stand it anymore!..she's so...smelly!!! yaakkssss!! Even if you're a distance away from her you can still smell her bad odor in the air..x_X;;; doesn't she even smell that? like this morning, I was up soo early then when I went out of the room..ngaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!! *faints* Cat even said she got alert and her sleepyness got out of her when she smelled it...gaaaahhhh!!! muuuuusttt....sur...viiiiive...!!! x__x;;

Erghhhh....enough of that dreadful smelly lady, posted a new fanart. DA is going...bonkers?? cause the last I took a look at my page the old favorites was on the top instead of the new..but it's fixed now..maybe they're releasing a new version? =D

Uhh..something hit me in the brain to get my arse to open adg place and my Ibuki shrine as fast as possible! O_O;;; Okay, okay..I go work on it now..ADGP is almost finished..my Ibuki shrine's 50-50..dunno, I'll work on it! xD I just hope it gets visitors, since Ibuki-chan has a little fanbase..and most of the gamers don't like sf3..*sad* anyhooo, I'm still deciding if I make an Ibuki fanlisting or not. >_>;; Ehh..I still am hunting for somene to host my blog..lol! I wish I had my own domain..keh..money problems..*rolls eyes* Oh well..gotta go now. *runs*

graaaaaaaahh!!!!
Thursday, May 22, 2003


Here comes my sanity and stupidity again!! >.<;; *STUPIDITY AHEAD!!!!*

Why do people take advantage of me?? They talk nicely and praise me and stuff, but once they get what they want, they won't even appreciate what help I did..;_; but I still can't refuse to what people ask of me..grrrr..I hate my 'nice' side!! Sometimes when I want people even notice me a little, they don't..as if I'm invisible!! ngaaahhh!!! Why wasn't I born like those people who are very popular, good at everything and is always appreciated and considered as an 'idol'?..*sigh* sometimes I wish I wasn't even born! I'm an outsider to everything. =[ Bleh..I just wanna fly away veeeeeeeeeeerrryyyyyyy far away from people..-.- people can be so unsensitive at times..pfff.
*END STUPIDITY*

Darn you Maan!!!!!!! You're sooooo MEAN!!! MEAN!!!! MEAAAANNNN!!!!!!!! Why? this afternoon, while I was watching t.v (meteor garden..bleh) she called and asked for the disc3 walktrough of shenmue2, I told her I just shut down the pc and that I'm watching t.v, she just kinda like got angry, I haven't finished what I was saying yet, then she just 'banged' their phone and hanged it..what a loser...can't even figure out a simple game for herself! ¬_¬; why don't she just..hmph..and then she brags about 'how hard the game is'...pathetic, when I read the walkthrough myself, it seemed easy...Oh well, I wish she go through what she did to me someday. She'll see...heh-heh! muwahahahahah!! >=]

-.-;;;
Wednesday, May 21, 2003


Been a while since I took some quizzes...^___^;;;;

made by Eve


avoidant

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla

Heheh..the 'personality disorder' is soo true! ^_^;;;; Umm anyways, can't think of what I'll write...hmm...I'm still feeling a bit sleepy since I slept at 5:30 a.m today...again. -___-;; I think my mom was angry..*eep!* oh well, I'm gonna go play now..heehee! ba-baaayyyy!!! ^_^

EDIT: Oooohh..sorysorrysorry if I put the image on the other quiz out, it just covered up the whole layout! gomenasai!! ^.^

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Wednesday, May 21, 2003


Maan went here today, she wants to print the whole shenmue 2 walktrough......doesn't she know the printer might get out of ink? sheeesh...

Uh-oh!! Attack of the AC members at P.A!!!! O_O!!!! I was offline for 2 days and..lots of ac members registered and placed cartloads of threads!! *faints*

*brags* Heheh, I tried to fight Ultima and Omega weapons in FF8...they were very easy...ahahahah! *end of brag*

Whaaahhh!!! boomspeed is going...bonkers! >_<;; can anyone host my blog? pretty please? with ice cream, corn flakes, chocolates, candies and a bowl of cherries on top???!!! ehhh..no one? that's okay. Ohh...looky the time! it's 3:00 a.m! aheehee! ^^;; ba-bayyyy! =D

>__<;;;;
Sunday, May 18, 2003


O yeah, I forgot...plug. (new wallpaper)

I was trying to make my own comics last night until 4:00 a.m -___-;;; but it's all crap...haha. I think I'll scan a new drawing later..I feel like coloring. I wish a have a drawing tablet or something like that, my pc mouse makes the lines look pixelated or awkward when I try to draw the sketch's lines. bleh, I'm not feeling like myself today. I'm outta here. good-bye.

bleh
Friday, May 16, 2003


I'm gonna be a little busy for a while, (but I'll still be online! hehe!) cause my mom wants me to study..stupid mathematics. ¬__¬;;

Darn Cat...she got me into Meteor Garden..but I'm not as a crazy fanatic like her. -_-; Now Cat's trying to read the old Tagalog-English-Chinese dictionary in the house!!! o_O;;;;; Oh well.

Uhhh...about the sites..I'm gonna re-open ADG Place tommorow if I have time..heheh! O yeah, I'm gonna rename and put up a new layout on this blog soon! xD Not feeling very nice right now..ba-bay!

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Wednesday, May 14, 2003


HAHAHAHAHAH! Those birds thought they're gonna wake me up angry again!! the door was closed and the cage is outside of the room! ahahah! finally got some nice sleep. (even though I slept at 3:00 a.m)

O well, my other older cousin (I'll call him 'klek' here now, he's maan's bro) went here yesterday, Maan called me, she said she's furious since Klek doesn't want her to go. ^^;;;
Ahhhhh!! Cat made me watch Meteor Garden!! >.<;; Now I feel like I wanna watch it now! x_X;;;

Hmmmmm...I'm gonna go draw now...ba-bay!! =D

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Tuesday, May 13, 2003


I finished FF8..I didn't understand the ending one bit.. -_- Oh well..but yesterday, I bought a FFVI cd..it's all scratched!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! I'm gonna make that store PAY!!!! umm..I mean I'm gonna make that store give me a newer cd..heheh. Yeah..I went to the mall yesterday..I don't really wanna go, but my mom, cat and maan insisted. -.-;;;

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I'm being an insomniac again!!!!! x_X;; but, the veeeery bad thing is....those pet birds in the house wakes me up so early!!! GRAAAAGHHHH!!!! they shout 'tweeeeeeeeeeeeet!! ek!ek!ek!' >.<;;;;;;;;;;; they're so loud!!! I've been waking up ANGRY for 3 days now!!! I was gonna greet my mom happy mother's day last sunday, but those birds made my morning worst!!! ngaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!! I'm still feeling very sleepy...*falls down* I wanna shout too when those birds are sleeping..muwahah! But that's mean.
nakakainis!!!! sumasakit tuloy ulo ko sa antok!

UPLOAD!!! xD
Friday, May 9, 2003


LOOOKIIEEEEE!!!! I uploaded another crap and ugly drawing at d.a! nyaah!~ It wasn't supposed to look like that..I like the original sketch better..but as I said, coloring is fun!!! xD xD xD I wish I had a drawing tablet/whatever you call it...;_; bleh..I'm gonna go to my 'own world' now..ba-bay! =P

P.S: Just click the picture on the 'recent submission' or something like that..heehee! ^^;;

(wala akong maisip na title. ahahah)
Thursday, May 8, 2003


Ahahahahahahah!! I found my old english project today! Well, the teacher it's a 'haiku' stuff...I wrote 'the air is blah, blah, blah, etc..etc..etc..' (I don't wanna write what I actually did, cause it's shamefully embarassing to put up)my project was senseless, but I got a 95 score. Weird teacher. o_o;;;

I'm trying to make Cat and Maan's art site...Cat's layout is very simple to do, but...Maan want FRAMES for her layout..grr..I'm no good at frames and then she asks me if her site's up yet! Arggghhhh!!! Can't they see that I'm horrible at webdesign? *sigh*

Ah, I'm gonna scan the 'artwork' thing that I should have done days ago..(of course it's total crap again)bye-bye!

sucks...
Thursday, May 8, 2003


Bah!! I'm having a week of insomnia again, I can't help but draw and draw stupid stuff everytime that I wanna sleep..grrr..and, I can't seem to take control of my hands, cause everytime I draw the other eye is placed higher or lower than the other that makes it *more* ugly.

I'm sick of having headaches too..*falls down* Oh yeah, I forgot about my sites, heehee! But I'm too lazy to upload 'em! wheee!! well...I've already uploaded some of the pages for my adg site, but I haven't finished scanning all of the pictures and writing some stuffs in it..oh well!

*RANDOM STUPIDITY AHEAD!!!*

Why am I always been an outcast/outsider for everything? Heh, I feel like an outsider cause people don't seem to see me, or even remember me. =( Honestly, I'd do anything for someone if they really need something, but they just seem to dissappear and forget about me when I give what they wanted. I don't think I even fit in any group of people, 'cause I'm weird and all and people say that I should be like the 'cool' people. And some even think that I'm always living an easy life..Don't they even think of what or how I feel? I'm suffering from problems that I shouldn't be even thinking. Sometimes, I wonder if I even have a purpose in this world or If I am a human or I'm something else.

*END OF STUPIDITY*

Heh, look at the time..it's 1:00 a.m! Have'ta go to sleep. Bye-bye!

.......bleh
Tuesday, May 6, 2003


Ngaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!! I was out of internet acct. in the middle of blogging!!(and posting on forums) >_____<;;;;; ah, anyways...I also had this.............nosebleed last Sunday..NO!! I did NOT saw anything like some of those anime guys/girls!! I just woke up and my mom told me that I have chocolate stains on my shirt and on my face..Of course I was confused cause I didn't eat any chocolates that night..but then in the afternoon I thought I was having some colds or somethin' but I wiped my nose and......there was blood stains. Mom said it's because of the heat and I was always sleeping very late..maybe she's right. -_-
But now I have blood stains on my white t-shirt. I'm still wondering how it stained my shirt....weird.

O look at the time..it's 11:00 p.m..gotta go to sleep (my mom insists on me sleeping early(forgot to spell that..hee-hee! *smiles*) now..bye-bye!

x_X;;;;;
Saturday, May 3, 2003


Yatta!! I'm gonna upload my Ibuki shrine later! I'll post the url when I feel like it! muwahah! xD I'm also thinking about creating an Ibuki fanlisting..but I guess no people would join. *rolls eyes*

My mom's gonna go to a pawnshop(sp?) just to get some munny ;_; darn dad..won't even think what is happening to us..*kicks* buwiset! >.<;;

 *Random pondering and stupidity below!!*

Hmmm....why can't I stop feeling.......something I can't explain???? I don't know why, but I've been feeling it since yesterday, I just began to self-pity and critiscise my self which I do very RARELY except the 'self critiscism' part.... -____-;;; geh...I need a break. I wish we were rich..stupid corrupt politicians and people, if I ever know who they are, I'm gonna tickle them to death! ¬__¬;
Greedy b******!!! I wish all of you will slip on your ladder/stairs/or wherever you are as I write this!! yeah, call me evil, but they're really greedy! *kicks*
*End of random pondering and stupidity*

That's all!! bye-bye!! xP

P.S: Ehhh...I wish I have a domain..heehee!! j/k! (no, really! I want one!) ^^;;;

.....(no title again, again again)
Friday, May 2, 2003


Today was as depressing as heck..my mom thought she'd get some money(that she reaaaaaaaallly deserves) bec. of some refund stuff, but it turned out that it's non-refundable or something..;_; I feel like crying cause my mom really needs some money, she even thought of buying herself some new clothes.(sadly, she just uses her old ones or the ones that her older sis gives her. They're old too of course)
I wish we were rich....but I guess that won't happen. Heh, that's all I wanted to post..can't think of anything right now. bye-bye!

EDIT: I finally finished my Ibuki shrine!! horaaayyy!!!!xD (The design isn't the best, but it's better than nothing! ^^;) but the problem is that...the server where I'm gonna put the shrine is down.. -_______-;;; asar...¬_¬

aaaaaaaahhhh!!!!! >__<;;;;
Thursday, May 1, 2003


Man, I can't stop singing!! I dunno why but I keep on singing the songs I hear in my playlist!! I even memorized some of the songs' lyrics! *faints* (of course my voice is as horrible as heck) sometimes I think I have brain problems, that people tend to stay away from me. -____-;; *puts scotch tape on mouth*

I was suppose to go to maan's today..but mom said no one's gonna look after granny. Oh well, that's okay I don't like going out of my house anyways.

*kicks the new servant* Frickin' heck!! Don't you even have any manners???!!! Grrrr....She doesn't care knocking at the door! Or even saying polite words! It's as if she's talking to a relative of some sort!! I haaaate those kind of people!! >__<;; SO annoying!! I even saw my mom's horoscope days ago, it says 'Don't fully trust anybody that you don't know much yet'...pretty weird huh?? Ehhh, I hafta go now..I'm gonna try to get Selphie's 'The End' limit break! ahahah!! xD *plays*

P.S: I need a new layout..well actually I made a new one last night..it was....stupid-looking..oh well, I'll try to put it up tomorrow or something. And yeah, I archived the super-long entries here.

EDIT: AAAAAHHHHH!! I can't make a transparent scrollbar!! *kicks* I thought of using it for the layout on my Ibuki shrine, but it won't go transparent!! I even searched on forever in google but the sites I see are not of much help!! *dies* x_X;;; I'll keep searching again! *inis* *asar*

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Clarisse a.k.a Claire-chan, behj and bejah is 14 and lives at her little house in the Philippines.

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