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"It's like the apocolypse! With sponges!"
M-chan! M-chan! She's here, talking to me!
... I am far to estatic about this. Or maybe not, considering the fact that I love her more than anything.
Over the time while she's been gone, reading her emails and knowing if I answer most of it, I"ll sound so stupid, because I'll just gush and babble about the worse things and make an idiot of myself-- because I KNOW ME. When I miss something horribly and love it and want it to know that, it's going to get some twisted, mangled explanation on sunshine and flashlights and chocolate chip muffins. To avoid that, I tried to not babble when talking to her. (At least, more than usual.) But now she's talking to me!
... I love her. I love her *SO MUCH*.
As I've just foolishly told her... she blinds sunshine, she's better than chocolate and orange juice, she's the only one I would venture into a cold day for without a word or thought of complaint. I'd be cold with her than warm without her *ANY DAY*.
After watching one of those aspiring love story movies, I'm even more in love with her. And have an urge to call everyone who matters and those who *don't*, and yell out on the porch, "HEY! I'm in love! She's beautiful, awesome, and perfect-- and everything!"
... I think I'd disturb the neighbors. ^^;;
Anyway! Must go write a novel and get rich. Somehow. Erm. Yeeessss.
... I missed her.
You know that content feeling you get? When everything in life is slowly falling into place, pieces of the jigsaw puzzle you wanted to create actually going where they should? That, even though it's in slowmotion, the rainfall is pouring and soon it will be more beautiful and sunny than you ever imagined? And you have all the time in the world, because as soon as you reach that point, everything's going to be perfection itself? And it makes you so very content and satisfied and everything wonderful because of it, and...
... erm, yes. That's what it's like. I know I might have to wait a while, for what may seem like forever, to be able to have a wonderful lifestyle-- free to do whatever I want with M-chan, out of the confines of this town, absolute freedom, and gods yes, I hope she still loves me then... and then it'll be great. And that's what makes life so good right now.
^_^ I'm content. It's easy to make me *happy*, you see-- I'm rarely *not* happy. Grass and orange juice make me happy. Scrap makes me happy. But to be content... that's tough. The fact that just the thought of her can do it... that's amazing.
... I have the best girlfriend ever. If I ever have to let her go, someone will have to chase me away with a baseball bat. Even then, I won't let go. Until she throws me away herself. (Still possible! I'm not worthy. Must work at this.)
So with the time I have until I'm with her, I'll just work on that. Being better and better at loving her! Until I'm as good at it as she is. (She doesn't believe she's that great. She's obviously blinded to herself.) Because I wouldn't love just anyone-- it's taken me *SIXTEEN YEARS* of no-crushing, no real attraction, no true love- before I found her. And she's *perfect*.
... I'm pathetic. And going to shut up. But first!
^_^ I love her. And the rest of humanity is cursed, because they can't. I won't let them. ... glee! Mwaahahhahaaaaa.
::runs off giddily::
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"There are worse ideas than caffiene drips. No, really. Could be *OJ* drips."
... hmm, still missing my wonderful girlfriend!
Am, however, also content in the new knowledge that a slash fan lives right next door. ^^ I *heart* slash/yaoi fans, I can talk to them about anything I feel like without worrying I'm going to scare them.
... she likes the Weasley brothers going at it. How can you *not* love it?
Anyway! M-chan emailed me (she's the biggest sweetheart ever and I love her love her love heeeer~!) so I'm pretty happy. This promises to be a good day. A thunderstorm woke me up earlier than usual, which was a good thing, cause I like rain and such, and I need to get up earlier than noon anyway. :D Eeee.
Must go now. Doujinshi shop is calling. Mmmmm, hello doujinshi.
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"Two men look out through the same bars; one sees mud, and one the stars."
... I like that quote. ^_^
Mmm... am really tired right now. Worked heavy traffic in the restaurant tonight, followed by work on a parade float, and finally am able to rest in peace. The bed is *calling* to me, damn it. I swear it is.
And that's right, the parade float. I'm riding in Mama's restaurant parade float.
... she tried to make me wear a GIANT CORN HAT.
I said no. ^^
But I am allowed to wear an apron -- and since we all know I have an infatuation with aprons that almost rivals my love of orange juice, I have to use this chance while I can. To wear an apron, I mean. And have an actual reason that makes sense to do so.
:D It makes it ALL worth it. ALL of it.
... well, except for the tissue stuffing in the chicken wire. Stupid float. I hate it.
^^;; Anyway! Going to sleep now. Just thought I'd share an insight-- I love the people I call my friends and family. I love my Mom and Dad, and brother, and sometimes even my little sister. I love my Oneechan so dearly. And all my friends, who are so good to me.
... and I love my M-chan, and am pining for her. It's rather interesting to pine. I keep whining to random people that the love of my life is about five or so states away. ^^;; Gotta wonder when they'll give into the urge to smack me...
I wonder if pining can involve Pine-Sol. I like that stuff.
... must experiment on this idea. :D
Oh, yellow kitchens. I *heart* them.
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"Mmm. Gingerbread."
Well, I swear, this is the last entry for the night. ^^;; No, REALLY.
I just wanted to share one of the random wacky facts of life I heard on the radio a few days ago.
See, there's this guy. This guy lives in a town, with the name of Joe Bob or something, and he's facing a lotta prison for committing a felony -- he cut off the, er... testicles of the mayor.
... who, as it happens, is actually a goat.
... a goat who is the mayor. And he drinks beer.
... ::coughs:: He won the election against a wood Indian and a dog named Clyde, if it makes y'all feel better.
So when Dad turns to me, and he says, "This town over here, it's gotta six toed cat for it's main attraction." I look at him seriously for a moment, cock my head, and tell him matter o' factly:
"Daddy, I reckon it'll take more than a six toed cat to beat out a town with a goat who drinks beer for a mayor. Maybe if they painted the toe blue or something. But still. We have giant cows in Des Moines, and white elephants in South Iowa, an' lots of cornfields, a six toed cat... and some poor guy is goin' to jail for castrating a goat who drinks beer... and all I can think is, damn, we're pretty insane."
Oh, and we're having a corn festivel here. May the Tropicana gods help us all.
^_^ That's all. I just... felt amused greatly by the goat. I just felt sorry for the poor six toed kitty.
... must go back to sappy lovesick song lyrics for my M-chan!
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"Hello my honey! Hello my baby! Hello my ragtime gaaaal~!"
... I forgot to mention, about "Please Save My Earth". The buying clincher!
It has a giant seven foot tall kitty named "Kyaa". ^___^
It's named Kyaa because when people see the huge gray kitten they scream, "KYAA! What the @*&# is that?!" Hence, it's name. Kyaa.
... it can be a handy bed. Or pour tea. It's very clever.
... ::mad giggling ensues::
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"According to 'Velvet Goldmine', crossdressers will rule the world. Hee."
... well, okay, I'm back. That was quick. I get bored *so* damn easily...
Still miss my love. Must do something odd and dorky and lovesick for her. Am writing sappy love song. Go me!
... god, I love the Lord of the Rings Secret Diaries. You must go seek them out! The pervy elf fanciers must unite! (_I_ am a pervy elf fancier, thank you very much. Hobbits do little for me. Unless M-chan dressed as a Hobbit. But I'd love/fancy her no matter what, so that doesn't really count.)
Go see the Secret Diaries NOW. They are the funniest damn things ever. Make sure you read them correctly in order, it says at the bottom.
Another random topic change! *gong sounds in distance*
"Please Save My Earth". How cool is that anime? Not very. But addicting in that it's just... eeeee. ^^
It's a shoujo manga, and the DVD is about six episodes. It's worth buying. Okay, the idea and some of it is dorky-- seven aliens watching over earth are reincarnated, and through dreams remember their past lives. As they find each other one by one, they do this club thing and... yah. Not impressive. Alice, the main girl, is rather girly.
... erm, which would make sense, as she is girl.
...
Go me! ^_^
Anyway, it's actually rather good once you get past all that -- I wasn't very interested until about Episode Two or Three... and then it got pretty darn good. First off, it's not totally cliche in that thier old alien world is pretty interesting. And the characters, too, in their romantic tangles and scrapes.
Line up! Character list! First we have...
Alice. Timid, shy, sweet Alice who really really deserves a knock in the head sometimes, though I don't know why exactly. She's your typical crybaby. ^_^ I wish to give her spine. Then I would like her a lot more.
Rin! Rin who is a seven year old, in love with the teenage Alice -- who was his lover in their past lives. I like Rin. Because, well, he's evil and insane, and yet definatly NOT evil and insane, and vengeful, and he loves and cries because Alice is older than him...
It's cute. And Rin is a terror to society! Therefor, we love him.
And best yet! The best friends, Jinpachi and Issei! These guys are adorable and heartbreaking. See, in their past lives, Issei was a *WOMAN*. (*mad snickering ensues*) Which would make sense-- he moves and talks like a woman, I've noticed. Just in some ways. It's cute.
And they were lovers in the past. Except Jinpachi -- and his past form -- both loved Alice. Poor Issei, he loves Jinpachi in both lives also. And ahhh, shounen ai. I'm so pathetic. I was surprised to see it so well done. I admit to crying when Issei kisses him, and Jinpachi pushes him away... and Issei tells him it's a joke, but he's crying...
... damn. I should not have spoiled that. Ah, well. ^^;;
And Haru-chan is adorable! He cries so much. He just radiates 'GIVE ME HUG'. I like him.
... and I adore Sakura. She's such a great friend. Hee.
... well, I'll shut up now. But buy 'Please Save My Earth' if you have nothing else to spend your money on! Cause it's good, really. Even if it has no actual ending and you want to choke Alice, but don't really know *why*, and the plot is so obvious that you know what's coming ten minutes before it happens...
... but it has Issei. Who is infamously cute. WHEEE.
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I still want my M-chan. Ah, well.
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~Trace the beat of your heart, my lips soar on gentle words...~
... I just want to say that I miss my M-chan. Severely.
In FACT. I think I'm going to go through serious withdrawl without her sweetness. ::sniffs:: But... I will survive! If only to glomp and cling to her when she comes back from her trip away from meeeee. ^_^;; Actually, I hope she has lots of fun-- maybe next time I'll succeed in fitting in her suitcase.
Randomly! To cheer myself up, I finally watched that copy of "Velvet Goldmine" I bought, as it had glam rockers, gayness, and Ewan McGreggor. (A finer mix than that? Hah, never.) And... scared myself silly.
Actually, once you got past the blant (SEX SEX SEX PORN SMUT SEXUALITY PORN) emphasis on sexuality, it was pretty good. Interesting way to look at music as a career. And Ewan McGreggor in a blonde ponytail is adorable and beautiful for some reason. I had no idea he could play such different (PORN PORN SEX SMUT) roles like the one he did.
^_^;; ... but the rest of it scared me. Let's be serious here for a moment? C'mon, you can do it...
I mean, I loved the abundance of leather in some of it, and make up on random people. And the glitter. SHINY GLITTER.
... but Ewan McGreggor was interesting. Interesting in his BLOODY SHOCKING AS HELL way. He played Curt Wild, this electroshock-hillbilly-glam rocker with lots of honey and glitter and leather in his power. And blonde hair dye. Hee.
... Ewan, honey, please do not claim to not be a porn star when you are SHAGGING YOURSELF ON STAGE AND PREFORMING HOMOEROTIC ACTS OF SNOGGING OVER GUITARS.
...
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I *heart* Ewan McGreggor. ^_^
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"Forget about clearing the road-- abandon the sidewalk!"
Wah! I feel much better today! ^_^ Mostly thanks to my wonderful love, M-chan, and happy sunny dayligh. (I'm serious, I'll never get tired of talking about either of them-- ayi!)
My brother just got his permit. He is driving us to lunch. I'm going to *die*.
He's backed out of two driveways. Nearly crashed into things first time out. I'm going to *die*. XD Mwahahahaaa. Now I get to tease hiiim!
Happier point, too! My Banana Fish fanfic was accepted by my favourite English Nana Feesh site, Boyfruit * Banana Fish! (I've linked it in my first archives-- m'to lazy to do it now.) As soon as I HTML it, s'goin' up. I feel... very happy.
And it's come to my attention that I think it's nearing the one month anniversary of M-chan and I's first kiss. ::beams:: S'nice feeling.
... do people celebrate one month anniversaries?
^_^ Hee, food for thought. Either way, I wish I was around to do something... I'll have to figure something out. Randomly! I'm going as Shizuka from Yu-Gi-Oh to the Anime con this August! And M-chan will be Mai. She has a great Mai thing going on... eeee, purple. Leather jacket. Shiny~!
Well, time to proceed to my death. Oh, little brother. Please put thou permit away forever. XD
I'll grab a road cone for y'all.
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"Complaining gets you one place -- more complaining."
... okay, I shouldn't be complaining. Or upset in the slightest.
I'm generally not the type of girl who goes around harping on issues I can't control -- I prefer to be totally happy (shiny things!) and oblivious to the fact that sometimes life... just... SUCKS.
See, I write lots of fanfiction. And a long time ago, what not many people know, is most of my stuff got deleted. For some reason, it was a chain reaction-- since then, I've been fighting off this sudden self-hate for my writing. When I write, it's only certain things, and I always dislike them with a passion no matter what.
... in other words, I DEVOUR THEM WHOLE. ^^;; Erm sorry.
Anyway. My Oneechan knows this, mostly by accident. And because I felt like having a pity party one time she talked to me. This wouldn't bother me much, but... now...
It really bothers me. I won't tell her this, but when she tries giving me "suggestions", and tells me what I need to improve, it only makes me fall deeper in. Really, I appreciate her help-- and I love her, she's like my older sister, hence the "Oneechan" title, but...
It just... really hurts to have her be brutally honest. And even though that's what I am half the time, I never really listened to it when directed at me-- *except* for my writing. It hurts to have someone give me "pointers". She offered once, and I was horrified and hurt. I still haven't gotten over it.
... I think my Ego is getting to big. That or I'm just to sensitive. ::sighs::
Either way! I'm now tempted to never post anything again. And wondering why I made this entry in the first place. It's not like me to be hurt by something so trivial...
And yet. Now I have my M-chan. ^_^ Who loves me. And has never said anything that has hurt me, (although Oneechan didn't mean it, it was unintentional, it still hurts for some stupid reason).
... so now I feel better. I can go to sleep now! It's amazing the healing powerz my girlfriend has. :D I adore her. Let it be known to all modems, I have no intention of letting her go. Because I am SELFISH! MWAHAHAHHAAAAA!
... and if anyone wants Banana Fish fanfiction. Email me. ^_^
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"How many parodies do *you* know of that feature falling potted ferns?"
YAY! I actually made my first archive page! Seeeee?! The link beside the entries?! That's the older entries! So you can go to the other stuff! (And yes, I have one updated from today in the last archive, this isn't the first. You might want to read it. Or not! I don't honestly know.) But it *works*. The link really works!
... yes, I'm enthralled by this. Do not take my joy away, 'kay? ^^;;
It helps that I'm bored and waiting for M-chan. And making up for lost blog time. And about to go attempt to find Banana Fish doujinshi.
... what? *WHAT* did you just say?!
What do you *mean*, "What's Banana Fish"?!?!?! ::SMACKS:: Fiends and cads! I babble about it for ages and you *still* haven't looked it up! Well-- well-- well-- I'll do it for you! Hah!
See?! BANANA FISH. This is a lovely, awesome webpage to it. Nice and neat and cool, and hopefully I'll get some fanfics goin' on it if I can beg my bad writing in. ^^
See?! It's Eiji! The naive and innocent and cute Japanese guy who's in love with the other guy, Ash! It's... adorable. ^_^ It's really wonderful, actually-- the relationship between Ash and Eiji, through danger and trust, slowly moves from an immeadiate connection to friendship... to obviously more. It's sweet. You have to *see* it to see what I mean.
So... BUY IT! MWAHAHAHHAHHAHAAAAAA!!!
And to make sure you do-- seeeee? See the prettiness?!
Eiji: One thing, always remember. Even if the world's against you, I am always on *your* side.
Ash: ::cries in Eiji's lap:: ... don't leave me. I won't ask forever, Eiji, but... just for a while...
Eiji: ::sweet smile:: Forever.
... AHHHHHHH! They're to cute! ::faints::
And it's got violence! And sad parts! And it's utterly brilliant, if you can make it through the odd art in the beginning volume or so. S'good.
... randomly! I love my girlfriend. And I love saying that-- girlfriend. I'm using it every opportunity. My Oneechan from London probably wanted to smack me-- all I'd mention was my M-chan, or what she liked, or what we've seen at such and such, ect ect ect.
:D Poor world. Not everyone can have an M-chan.
I'm lucky! ^_^
... must go search for Banana Fish doujinshi, excuse me.
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