|03|28|2001 7:05am
I hate self-pity. I hate sympathy that drips from sarcasm. I despise reminders of the past. I despise people who compare themselves to me... and secretly feel satisfied that they've accomplished more than me.
Even more...
My hatred extends to those who see me and think they've suffered more. She laughs, they say. She smiles, they claim. She has no right to say she's suffered, she's been sheltered all her life.
Sure. I'm happy now.
I just disregard the past. Don't dwell on it, buddy.
|03|28|2001 6:43am
Depression is an ailment of the soul. Life doesn't seem to be worth living anymore. The irony. I was so happy a day ago. I laughed.
Isn't laughter an emphemeral sound? Pealing softly, like bells in crisp winter air. Echoing to deaf ears. Now... everything is misted with darkness. Bending light towards that dark path where a flame withers. If only my feet had made no sound in the shadow of death... the valley of sorrow would not be encased with such clarity.
But even living breath snaps.
|03|28|2001 1:20am
=_= My eyes... They burn~ Anyhow... I found it funny that Kaen-chan thought a picture of Kohaku was Kotori. XD I mean... come on~ Kohaku isn't even a girl! Kohaku is an... 'it'. O_o; Whoa. So if Kohaku is regarded as a male... that means... with Shuuichirou...
XD WAH! I GET IT! CLAMP! YOU RULE! *snicker*
|03|27|2001 7:16pm
*cracks up* yo~ Kaen-chan, I got this most interesting notion about "Junsei-kun". ::Tsu:: ^_^;
De-chan: Now... I know you're feeling emotionally insecure...
Junsei-kun: *sob sob*
De-chan: And that's why you're befriending others of a... er... different social status... is that right?
J-kun: *nod* *sniffle*
De-chan: I see.
*pause*
De-chan: ...or you could just be gay.
J-kun: .... O_O
De-chan: XD
::tsu:: *snicker*
|03|27|2001 6:55pm
*screams* Look! I made a crummy, faded, poor-quality, inane-seeming, picture that has no relevancy to this page! Aren't you all so proud of me? Whoops~ ::tsu:: I forgot to put in 'Candies'... ¬_¬; Uh. That's okay. I guess. ^_^;
I finished reading The Client by John Grisham, and he is offically placed on my 'Offically Interesting and Talented Authors List'. *clap clap* .... Not that he cares....
Note: Puppy peed on me again and I stepped in a pile of poop. God help me. >_< Must.. get... diaper.
|03|26|2001 8:12pm
I want to go running again. ^_^; Tsu~ I like this song. J-pop is cool~ Ooo trademark singing style for Ayumi... That distant voice thing that seems to appear out of no place in particular. [telephone style] She sings _really_ fast too. ^_^; Watch me sing/yell a string of complicated Japanese in 2 seconds. O_o; This is like country music meshed with hard rock... Nice~ ^_^
|03|26|2001 6:58pm
*bounces around room in bathrobe* 'chikazukitai yo~ kimi no risou ni... otonashiku narenai, can you keep a secret?' ^_^
::tsu:: I have to finish my science project. *meanders aimlessly around the house* 'kanashikunaru to kimi wo yobu kara, can you keep a secret? Konomama secret?' ::perilously obssessed:: O_o; That's right! tsu~ ^_^; she does sound like Christina Aguilera.
|03|25|2001 10:31pm
^_^ Heero x Duo! XD What a perfect couple, na? No? Well I certainly think so. ^_^; The relationship is so sweet. *watches as everyone bolts for the door* I got the cutest yaoi pic. Nothing graphic or explicit, mind you. [ecchi people] Still.. I swear that I've been exposed to the cutest concepts and pictures, as well as disturbing ones, to convice me that Heero and Duo are so adorable together. *sigh* The epitome of couples. XD Kaen-chan is going to kill me. Tsu~ It would be hypocritical though, because we both hung up the same yaoi manga picture in our locker. There was an encounter the other day, like:
Person: O_O
Dekiru-chan: *looks up from backpack* Yes?
Person: *points at yaoi pic* O_O
Dekiru-chan: Yes.
::Dekiru-chan points at Heero::
Dekiru-chan: That's a boy.
::Dekiru-chan points at Duo::
Dekiru-chan: Surprise surprise. That's also a boy. *immense and benign smile*
Person: O_o;; * walks away with wary glances over the shoulder*
Dekiru-chan: *cracks up* XD
::tsu:: I love it. ^_^ It's so amusing.
|03|25|2001 8:40pm
::tsu:: I went rollerblading and running today in 20[F] degree weather. Sukuizu! ^_^ I feel so happy for some eccentric and abtrusive reason. *looks thoughtful* Maybe I'm getting high on something. *raises eyebrows* But that's exactly the most appropiate hypothesis, because I'm drinking Diet Coke. ^_^;
Okay. -_- Now I'm depressed. I don't feel worthy to be an otaku. Should I really be obssessed with an anime just for the eye candy? It feels like the only anime I know really well is Gundam Wing. The plot is perfectly clear to me. I love the anime not only for the bishounen, but their history, behavior, and their roles in the actual story. Nonetheless. After Phi's educational 'lecture' on the aspects of her experience in the genre of anime, I truly feel like a charlatan. ¬_¬ wow... flucuating mood swings. That really shouldn't happen. I'm too young. *hint hint* Okay. That was innapropiate. ^_^;
|03|25|2001 6:21pm
Utada Hikaru ROCKS! Can you Keep a Secret is so nice. Her English doesn't have an accent! Tsu~ ^_^ Yo~ Phi If you're reading [freak chance that will be] have fun at the anime convention 'kay? ;_; Sorry for logging off so quickly. Mommy got extremely mad at me when I stayed up so late. ^_^;
