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ABOUT ME
Name : Jenny
Alias : Shini-chan
Age : 14
Eyes : Mahogany
Hair : Black
Birthday : June 27
Star sign : Cancer
Nationality : Japanese, Mexican
Bishounen : *Duo Maxwell, Rei Kon, Max Tate, Kurama, Hiei, and a BUNCH more!
Anime : *Gundam Wing, Yu Yu Hakusho, Rurouni Kenshin, Case Closed, Beylade, Inuyasha, Sailor Moon, Cardcaptors, Yu-Gi-Oh, Megaman, Pokemon, etc.
Loves : Sweets, strawberries, Pharaoh, Maxie, bliss...and
him
Hates : Liars, pessimism, sorrow (or any negative emotion)
Craving : [trick-or-treating]
Current Mood :
Thanks for putting us through so much with all your idiotic actions. I don't love you as much as a daughter should.
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Dad
We can't tell him; he's got a temper. He'll do a lot more than just shout.
He has to have everything HIS way ALL the time. He asks for our opinion, but gets angry with us when we disagree with him. We can't joke around with him or he'll take it seriously. We can't do or say anything that goes against him. People think he's great, people say he's awesome...but I live with him and I know the truth. He sees himself as flawless...as absolutely perfect. When we say something that proves him wrong, he explodes.
Everything we do is wrong. Everything he does is right. Everything we say is wrong. Everything he says is right.
I can't truthfully say that I love him. Or that I trust him. Like...but not love. I often don't trust him. Maybe I trust him to take us to the movies one weekend, or spend a little bit of time with us, or worry about us and ask if we've got any problems, or be nice to my mom for once in his life. He hardly ever does so. It seems other people care more about my mom and me than he does. Mark is probably the best thing that ever happened to my mom. He always invites her out, he always asks if she's okay, he always trusts her with everything going on in his life, and he's pretty much the complete opposite of my dad. But she's honest; she would NEVER have an affair. And Mr. Rodriquez acts more fatherly toward me than my dad does. He has time to listen to me...and if not, he makes it. So many other people out there are so much better than my dad...
He doesn't listen. He doesn't wonder what goes on. And because we're HIS children, he expects us to be THE best. He's constantly asking if we're the best in the class, if we have the highest grade. That's all he cares about. He doesn't ask us if we need help, he doesn't ask if we're struggling with anything. All he can do is tell us that he was always the best in his class, and that we should be the best as well. He isn't proud of our achievements and always asks for better. We can't DO any better than our best; we've got too much to put up with to worry about reaching higher. And it's all his fault. But he'll never know.
He loves my brother more than anything. He doesn't love me and he hates my mom. But he wants too much from us. WHEN HE DOES SOMETHING INCREDIBLE STUPID, HE EXPECTS US TO GET HIM OUT OF IT. Why doesn't he get all his damn girlfriends to help? Why MOM? Why does he have to put her through so much? She never did anything to deserve a jerk like him. NEVER. Well, except maybe marry him, but WHY? WHY did she have to marry him? Why not someone else? Someone trustworthy, caring, loving, someone the total opposite of my dad? Who cares if Edgar and I were never born? It wouldn't matter...just as long as my mom could feel happy.
My mom deserves so much better. She deserves so much better than my dad...than my brother...than me. She's amazing. And we can't give her enough for what she's given us. She's put up with all the crap from dad for years...and she's done it all for US.
I can easily say I don't love him. Sometimes I can go as far as to say that I despise him...even if he IS my dad. Think what you want about me...it doesn't matter. And I know, I'm not alone, there's plenty of others out there in the same situation. Just don't yell at me right now *cough*washi*cough*
Mood: heartbroken
Music: Skin - Alex Johnson
Shini-chan had a vision on Sunday, October 16, 2005 at 09:22 a.m.
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Questionaire ^^
For me, this was fun filling out. It will be for you, too! Fill it out xD Here goes! Oh, by the way, my answers aren't listed in any order...just the way they popped out of my mind ^^
7 things that scare me
1. Losing anyone close to me
2. Swimming
3. Bees, Wasps, anything that flies, buzzes, and/or has a stinger
4. Horror movies or scary stories
5. My dad's laugh (seriously. It's scary)
6. Loud noises
7. Having a serious argument or listening to one
7 things I love the most
1. My mommy
2. My friends (that does include Mrs. Scott, Mr. Rodriquez, Mrs. Bristow, etc.)
3. Hugs and kisses
4. Laughs and smiles (whether they're coming from me or anyone else)
5. My Pharaoh
6. Hanging out with Weston (especially since I hardly see him -_-)
7. Duo Maxwell, Anime, and Disney!
7 important things in my room
1. Pictures of my friends
2. Window and door
3. Lamp
4. Television
5. VCR and DVD/CD player
6. Bookshelves (with books)
7. My Anime shrine!
(Oops...I didn't mention "bed" anywhere in there o_0)
7 random facts about me
1. Weston almosed pushed me off a cliff but Monique grabbed me before I fell (but I still love Weston ^_^)
2. I'm afraid of swimming because my dad almost let me drown
3. I constantly zone out and daydream; I think dreams are much better than reality, unless reality IS my dream
4. The best birthday present anyone can give me is a phone call or a card; I don't need anything else
7 things I plan to do before I die
1. Tell him everything I've always wanted to tell him
2. Go to Disneyland with Monique, Jeff, and Weston countless times
3. Take a trip around the world with Monique
4. Go to outer space, hopefully make it to the moon
5. Learn to speak Japanese
6. Meet celebs at Hollywood!
7. Make sure the last faces I see are those of the people closest to me
7 things I can do
1. Give hugs and kisses
2. Show people I care about them
3. Kick butt if someone's being a jerk (to me OR my friends...but I'll only do it if they're being jerks to my friends)
4. Daydream all day and zone out of reality
5. Speak two languages
6. Laugh at the stupidest jokes
7. Laugh when I get hurt
7 things I can't do
1. Swim WITHOUT fear of drowning
2. Fly
3. Concentrate on a conversation or in class
4. Talk to and trust my dad
5. Speak Japanese
6. See what's going on around me when everyone else can
7. Stay away from anything I love
7 things I say the most
1. Oops...
2. Hi!
3. I love you
4. Okay...
5. Umm...
6. What? (in a clueless way, not a "What?!" way xD)
7. Sorry! (Yeah...people think I say this TOO much)
I took a quiz, too xD It's fun ^^
Your power is: The ability to fly
Explanation: This powers speaks pretty much for itself. Though you don't need wings
for this power,you can fly anyway. Some people may consider it as telekinesis since they can also fly, but you can't make material things move like they can. This ability could be a relaxing activity when you want to get away from everyday troubles. Also it is good when sneaking upon an enemy since it makes no sound. When going over to the "dark side" the power could be used to harrass and break into building through windows etc. You are quite similar to this power since you like to have your head in the clouds. Supernatural things amuse while ordinary life does not. If your daydreaming has gotten a little too far you might be zoned out all the time, even when you are having a conversation. Your desires and/or goals tend to be unrealistic even if you know those would probably never happen. Travelling is something you would be interested in doing since seeing exotic scenery fits with your fantasies of escaping your plain life. You can also have some creative ability (writer, playing an instrumen etc.) that interests you.
Negative aspects: The whole reason you may be escaping life could be fear of being let down by it. So if that would come to happen, and an important dream had been crushed you could get depressed.
What Power is Compatible With You?
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Yeah, that's it. I'm super bored, and I'm just waiting until we can go get my brother...so more later! Ja ne!
Mood: loved
Listening to: I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden
Shini-chan had a vision on Friday, October 7, 2005 at 11:08 a.m.
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Randomness
This morning...I woke up...with a sore throat. And it hurt. And I didn't wanna go to school. But I had to. I hate being sick >_< But today wasn't that bad. Let's see...well, we have some exchange students from Germany, and I met one of them! She's really nice ^^ I wish I could go to Australia. I had the chance, but my mom won't let me go that far -_-
Oh no...I've got to stay after school tomorrow.... Oh well. It's only a couple of hours. Plus Melissa's gonna be there and so's Ben, Fun =P
This morning, we (Mellisa and me) went out to water the plants, but we needed the key to use the hose. So we got it, we turned it on, but nothing happened. Ben came out and he tried to fix it, but he couldn't either. I got bored, so I went to help Edgar (that kid who made fun of me ecause I'm Asian in elementary school) with the mesquite trees.... Ben fixed the hose...and water flew EVERYWHERE. It was awesome xD Good thing the classroom door was mostly closed ^^ It was a had-to-be-there moment. Like most o_0 Maybe tomorrow something fun will happen again.
Omg! I can't wait for the Harry Potter movie to be released! It'll be awesome! But you already know it's not just the movie I wanna see; I wanna see Weston, too. Of course! That's why I want it to be Halloween, too. And I'm still trying to decide...right now, I'm leaning toward the pirate costume...
Ohkay, there's things I should be doing right now...like starting my essay for Mrs. Bristow, which SHE will be grading. And editing my paragraphs for Mr. Rodriquez because they're really bad right now since I did them in a hurry this weekend...yeah. Or maybe I'll just go to sleep. I dunno. I've been super sleepy lately. G'night!
Mood: bleh
Listening to: Switch - Will Smith
Shini-chan had a vision on Monday, October 3, 2005 at 07:39 p.m.
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October
-grin- woo! I'm really happy today! Of course, it's just the beginning of the day, so things could change later on...
Omigosh. I had the WEIRDEST dream last night >_< It was SCARY o_0 It wasn't the possesed book coming after you kind of scary...it was the movie star and your teacher are engaged kind of scary o_0 I TOLD you it was weird. And it was stupid. I can't believe I HAD such a dream...
Monique, Jeff, Weston, and I were all at Hogwarts (but I didn't see many HP characters x_x) during winter. We were outside on our way to Hagrid's hut (don't ask any questions, just go along with it o_0) when we ran into Mr. LaRou (Mr. Larou is...well, he handles discipline). So, the four of us got in trouble and we were sent to Snape's room (we were in SLYTHERIN?!). I was freakin scared and wondered what sort of horrid torture we'd be put through during the detention Snape would be sure to give us. Snape was merciful and let us off with a warning.
We walked through the dungeons, but before we knew it, we were standing in front of the cafeteria at RRHS. It started snowing, and Monique and I jumped around and ran into the snow...but when we did, we were back at the dungeons in Hogwarts. We walked outside, but everything was COVERED in snow. Walking was close to impossible. As we headed back inside, we heard footsteps behind us. Of course, we assumed it was Hagrid, but when we turned around, guess who we saw? We saw Johnny Depp o_0 Surprisingly, Nikki and I didn't rush over to him like crazed fangirls.
He came over to us and we all started talking as if we had known each other forever (in my dream we probably did, especially since he knew our names). We walked back into the dungeons and, although I don't remember how the subject was brought up, I DO remember him saying he was getting married in May. Well, I was jumping to conclusions in my head, and I didn't know whether or not to tell him, so instead I asked who his bride would be. It was so surprising that I still remember his EXACT words. "I'm not sure if know her, love, but her name's Becca Manuz." Monique, Jeff, and I stood absolutely SHOCKED at the news that he was going to marry our match teacher o_0 It didn't phase Weston because he didn't know her.
I decided to head into the dorms, but I opened the door and ended up at the Freshman Academy. I ran into Ms. Manuz's room, but she wasn't in there...in fact, no one was in the pod.
Then I woke up. Yeah. What a brilliant way to start the month of October off, ne? THe stupid layout doesn't look good, either. It lost some quality because it was converted to a gif, and I couldn't upload it as a bmp. Plus, bmp files take too long to load anyway. I guess we'll all have to live with it. Oh well, right? It's not THAT bad. Okay, maybe it is. I gotta find out how to fix it >_< More later! Ja!
Shini-chan had a vision on Sunday, October 2, 2005 at 08:43 a.m.
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