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Name : Jenny
Alias : Shini-chan
Age : 14
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Birthday : June 27
Star sign : Cancer
Nationality : Japanese, Mexican
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Hates : Liars, pessimism, sorrow (or any negative emotion)

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I was awful. My teams were okay...but I feel like I let Ricky's team down. And I feel like I put too much pressure on Chris.... but let's start from the beginning, shall we?

I woke up at 3:05 A.M. I remember. I was trying to get as much sleep as I could. I couldn't get back to sleep, though, since I kept hearing this NOISE. So, since I knew my dad could fix it, I walked into his room and told him. He came in, but he couldn't hear anything...so I was a little scared o_0 But as it turns out, it was my stupid DVD player...yeah. Well, okay. I had been awake since 3:00 pretty much, right? But I got dressed at 4:00 in FFA official dress. Black pants, white collared shirt, and a tie. Whatever, let's get past all this...

My mom and I got to the school at around 5:30, and the only people there when I arrived were Jorge and Ernie. Michelle and Chris (H) got there a few minutes later, and we had to wait for Ms. Hester for about 10 minutes. We walked to the bus, and Eli, JJ, Ashley, and Anali were already there. Wow. They were smart. So, let's see...once everyone got there, we were off xD

The bus was emptier than what I'm used to. WAY emptier. Each student had a whole seat to themself, and still half the seats on the bus were empty. It was pretty cool. I sat right in front of Ben, so we talked all we could, until we had to start practicing. Yeah. It was fun practicing with Chris, though, since he got so distracted. Yeah. Anyway, lots of fun stuff happened on the bus, and I really don't wanna say it all. Probably because the bus right was like two and a half hours long. Yeah.

Ohkay, we got to Casa Grande and...we walked into a room. Lol. We walked in to a room full of people. FULL of people. And I started freaking out. Seriously. I stood in the back of the room against the wall until Ben pulled me over to where he and JJ were sitting. It was really scary seeing so many people. But JJ told me to just sit down and relax a little. Well, I did start to calm down after a little while...but then we had to walk in to the student resource room, and Ben and JJ weren't with me anymore. Anyway...there were 14 students who would be presenting the creed. I was second...

Once it was my turn, I walked in. I was very scared and pretty stiff, but it didn't matter. I was already up there and there was no way I was gonna run away in front of so many people. I started presenting the creed...and I'm pretty sure I was okay. But then the judges asked me questions. There was a total of FOUR to be answered. I was good for the first two questions...but the third one freaked me out, so by the time the fourth question hit me, I could barely talk. I didn't answer, and I walked out of the room as quickly as I could. Ms. Hester hugged me and led me out. Omg. I had a panic attack up there. We ran into the bathroom and Eli and Michelle followed us. They were so sweet, and I'm glad they were there with me. After we walked out, everyone (except JJ; he was competing) was there to give me a hug and tell me I did a nice job. It was really awesome that people like Chris, Ricky (M), or Enrique, who I never talk to, gave me hugs and told me I was great. Yeah. There was Chris, Ricky, Enrique, Jorge, Ashley, Ernie, Jose (O), and of course all my friends like Ben and Eli. I didn't name everyone because I don't remember right now, but thanks so much guys. They're too cool. And BEN. Oh my goodness. He was so awesome. He didn't wanna leave me alone, he was constantly there hugging me. He wouldn't let go...and he wouldn't let me forget my rule: smile. I'm glad he was there ^_^

Anyway. It took at least an hour for me to calm down, and it took anywhere from one and a half to two hours before I could say a single word. By then it was Michelle's turn to present the creed. When she walked out of the room, she was crying, too. But she did so much better than I did, and I know it. One of us placed top 5 I think, but we don't know who. It's okay, though, I'm really glad that someone from Rio Rico did a good job representing the school. Yeah. After a little while, JJ came over and he started telling me he was sure I did a good job and that there was no way that I messed up. It was really cool to hear something like that from JJ.

Then lunch...nothing exciting happened during lunch. I wouldn't eat and JJ kept offering me food. He felt bad that I wasn't eating, but I told him I'd be sick if I did. Yeah. After what had happened with the creed?! There was no way I was gonna eat right before another competition...so yeah.

We picked numbers, and Ricky's team was first, Chris's team was second. I was on both teams, so it didn't matter. We were in a holding room with two other teams before we went up. Another team walked in, so there was a total of five teams in there, and each team was composed of 7 people (so 34 people because I was subbing for Ricky). Rio Rico was quiet the whole time, or pretty much the whole time, and the other schools were being stupid. Flowing Wells...ugh. They're so stuck up and WE got in trouble because the girls on THEIR team were SHOUTING. Anyway, there was one kid from one school, don't remember which, who started telling racist jokes, and we (Rio Rico) didn't approve. We didn't say anything, though...at least until he said "I've got a joke, but it insults Mexicans". That's when everyone from Rio Rico turned up, since every one of us in there had some Mexican blood, and Ernie and Chris told him he better watch what he says or they'd beat him up. Yeah. They scared him. Lol. Rock on, guys! Woo! So he didn't tell the joke. Freaking racist teens. Well, anyway, it was Ricky's turn...

We went in to the preparation room and had two minutes to discuss as a team, then three minutes of writing notes WITHOUT talking or even looking at each other. We went up there, and we went WAY over the time limit of 10 minutes. I tried helping Ricky, but since I was subbing for the reporter on his team, I was sitting too far from him to say anything. Ricky really blanked out up there, and he totally forgot what to say after each motion was made. Poor Ricky.... Then they asked us questions. What class was each motion we made. We assumed they were asking what the purpose of each motion was, but we were wrong. As it turns out, we were supposed to define them as subsidiary or whatever. And they asked us to give the Mission statement of the FFA, but we hadn't learned it. Even JJ and Ben told us they didnt' know the mission statement. We answered...probably only two or three questions correctly.

Afterwards, I had to go BACK up because Chris's team was my "real" team. His team did so much better. Chris did blank out up there a little, and he started cussing himself out (hey, at least the judges couldn't hear; I could barely hear and I was sitting closest to him and I've got the ears of a dog as my family puts it). We did a little better, though, since we stayed within the time limit of 8-10 minutes. We did just as bad on the questions, though. Poor Chris...oh my gosh, you should have seen him. He was stressing, and he's cool pretty much all the time. He was sweating once he left the podium, and he came over to me telling me he was worried.

Well...we had to leave before everything was over because we had a long way back to Rio Rico and Ashley and Ms. Moehlman had to be home by 6:00. Yeah. So we left, and we didn't find out what anyone placed. We at least know that Baboquivari won the information contest, though. Woo! Congrats Baboquivari!

The whole way home was fun. JJ sat with me for a long time, and we talked about so much stupid stuff. It was really awesome to get to talk to him without being rushed or interrupted like at school. Yeah. After an hour or so, he went to the front of the bus to talk to Ms. Hester. THEN! My song came on! Dreaming of You started playing, and eveyr girl on the bus, including me, started singing along. The guys didn't really know the song, but stupid Ernie and Jorge pretended they did and moved their lips and started dancing...and they made Ben laugh so hard. It was hilarious! His face was SO RED! He couldn't breathe and he had slipped off his bus seat (so he was between his seat and my seat). It was scary to see him laugh so hard, but it was awesome! Yeah. It was fun.

Ohkay, so we got to the school a little past six...and I had to wait for my mommy. Yup. JJ was leaving, and he asked me if I wasn't gonna say bye...and when I shrugged and told him he forgot to hug me, he pulled over just for me. Lol. He's awesome. So that was pretty much my day. It wasn't that bad, and I really loved the bus ride. I got home, took a shower, then went straight to bed becuase I was so sleepy. Yup. Hey, this entry's already long enough... Longest entry in a while, ne? So, more later, then! Ja!

Mood: sleepy -_-
Listening to: Welcome to Wherever You Are - Bon Jovi

Shini-chan had a vision on Saturday, November 19, 2005 at 09:11 a.m.

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FFA

Wow. I've been super busy lately >_< Let's see...I've got a field trip tomorrow! We're going to Casa Grande for FFA competitions, and I'm freaking out because I'm going to participate in...possibly THREE. I was originally on one team, the Conduct of Meetings team (only for freshmen), but then the teacher asked me to recite the creed, too, so I'm doing that. And today, she told me she might need me to be on the Parli-Pro team (available to all grade levels, but our team consists of only upper classmen o_0) in case they were short one person. She was freaking me out when she told me she might want me to be the chairperson in case JJ couldn't go. Hopefully he can, though...

JJ...geeze. He's got me really worried. I won't say why because it isn't my business to say, but yeah. He'll be okay, though, I know he will. With his stubborn attitude there's no way he WON'T be =D He knows how to take care of himself. No, nothing bad has happened to him. And I know you have no idea what I'm talking about ;) I'm gonna talk to him on the bus tomorrow, though, just to make sure. At least until we get to Green Valley (if we can stay awake), and on the way back. But from Green Valley to Casa Grande, we're gonna be practicing and practicing. That's off the subject, though. I dunno, there's something different about JJ...he's become a big brother to me. He always tells me what goes on with him, he tells me when he's upset and when he's hurting...and he always worries about me. So that's pretty cool. We always joke around with each other, and messing with JJ is always fun. ALWAYS. It's so funny to watch him get confused or "mad". It really does make me feel like I have a big brother...a big brother who can DRIVE xD Lol.

Well, I've actually caught up with all my homework! Woo! Maybe I'll end up doing Mr. Rodriquez's assignment tomorrow, though, because I really don't feel like reading...and I think I'll just do Ms. Manuz's assignment during advisory on Friday. Where Jeff can help. Yeah. Wow, I really AM done o_0 Hope I can wake up on time tomorrow. Stupid bus is leaving at 6:00 AM and we've gotta be at the school at 5:30. That means I've gotta wake up at least an hour and a half before my usual time. Oh well. Gonna go pack up now! Ja!

Shini-chan had a vision on Wednesday, November 16, 2005 at 08:04 p.m.

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Shtuff

Well, we went to Cierra's yesterday, and in all honesty, it wasn't as fun as I thought it'd be. Sure, we all hung out and stuff (well, except for Cierra and Edgar; they were in the back on the hammock the whole time) but...I dunno.

I hate how people try and change my mind about things, even when they KNOW I won't give in. Especially about something like this. But the things they say won't phase me because they don't know what I know...they don't know the truth and they don't know how I feel. But it doesn't matter. My mind is set, and there's no way on earth that they're going to change me. Yeah, you have no idea what I'm talking about, so I'll just shut up :)

Well, super bored. Gonna go type up my essays -sigh- Ja ne.

Mood: somewhat upset, but okay ^^
Listening to: Question - System of a Down

Shini-chan had a vision on Saturday, November 12, 2005 at 07:48 a.m.

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Memories...

Wow. I can't believe I'm in high school. Middle school was so much fun, and I miss it so much more than anyone would have thought. Everything was great, but most of it is gone. Everything stayed behind in middle school...but the memories are forever locked away inside my heart. The good AND the bad. It's weird. I hadn't thought about this until earlier today as I looked through some pictures of our field trip to Disneyland. Just a word of caution: everything I'm about to write deals with my memories and my emotions. I'm silly, I know, I'm cliche, I know, but I can't help the way I feel or the way I am.

Disneyland...that was amazing. Most of it, anyway. The good that came out of it conceals the bad, although sometimes the bad gets uncovered. Especially since Weston isn't at RRHS. Disneyland was when I realized I was being stupid. That trip taught me that I can't try and deny what my heart feels. Never again will I deny my heart because it led me to Wes. Never again will I make the mistake of turning away from the person I love.

How is it that I was too blind and too stupid to see that I was with someone who didn't love me for me? I couldn't tell that the one who could accept my personality, my weird sense of humor, my cluelessness, had been with me for a long time? Weston has kept every promise he made to me, and if he's incapable of keeping it he won't make it. Weston has always offered words of comfort, he's always offered a shoulder to cry on, he NEVER turned away from me when I needed help, he NEVER riduculed me when I gave him the silliest reason for being upset, he NEVER yelled at me for being stupid, for being oblivious to everything, and he NEVER hurt me in any way. Why was I so blind? In thinking about it now, it DOES seem stupid that I didn't see.

Thanks so much. For everything. I don't think you'll EVER know how much you mean to me. I know I'm lucky to have a friend as great as you, Wes, and I truly hope with all my heart that we'll stay close forever. Maybe things will change later on, but even if they do, I know we'll still be close. No matter what. Thanks for always being there. Thanks for all your promises. Thanks for always reassuring me.

I can't believe that I'm so in love. I didn't know it was possible to feel so much compassion for just one person. I now know what being in love REALLY feels like, and it's awesome. I'm glad he's the first person I've ever loved, ever fallen in love with. If I know what love is, then it's because of him.


Bajo el cielo la ciudad se empieza a iluminar
Esta noche todo lo que quiero es bailar
Sólo espero que esta vez te quieras acercar, y así comenzar

Tengo el ritmo y tú tienes todo lo demás.
Me enloqueces creo que me empiezo a enamorar.
Sólo espero que mi amor te pueda contagiar y así comenzar

Bailando, cantando, enloquéceme
Ooh baby no puedo esconderlo,
siento en todo el cuerpo,
la locura de tu amor.
Ooh baby se metió en mi pecho,
arde como el fuego,
la locura de tu amor

Mood: mixed feelings, mostly happy
Listening to: La Locura de tu Amor - Onda Vaselina

Shini-chan had a vision on Thursday, November 10, 2005 at 05:39 p.m.

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Mrs. Scott o_0

Ohkay, the meeting with Mrs. Scott yesterday was...actually, it wasn't too bad! But only three people showed up. It didn't matter, though, because we got to do things we wouldn't have done if a big group had shown up, like last time. It was fun. Weston, Jeff and I ran around the classroom and threw foam dice at each other. I loved it ^_^ Oh! And Wes broke Mrs. Scott's pointer! But she wasn't mad...in fact, she laughed. Lol. It was hilarious.

Well, I'm really super happy right now! I dunno why, but I just am. And that's a really good thing! It could have been because of yesterday, but I dunno :) Oh, I've gotta change this layout, huh? Oh!!! I FINALLY fixed The Anime Realm's home page! Yey! AND! I finally UPDATED animeandmanga.org! Yey! I'll put links up to those sites in a little bit. Maybe I'll get to it today.

Uh-oh. I'm doing what I hate...procrastinating. But it's really not THAT much homework. I think. Fine, I'll do it.

Omg! According to Alba, I was super super super hyper a few days ago! But we had so much fun! And I made her laugh so much! And I never got my cookie.... Yeah. We had fun.

I'm gonna change the layout now so that I have time to do my homework. YES, I've already got a layout made. Not a good one. But it's done. Maybe I'll fix it up to look a little nicer a little later :) So, for now, ja ne!

Mood: overjoyed
Listening to: the background music for the game "Snowmuncher"

Shini-chan had a vision on Sunday, November 6, 2005 at 07:41 a.m.

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Halloween and Randomness

I had the most awesome time trick-or-treating! It was cool to hang out with Alba, Tony, Chayne, and Weston all at once. That's something we haven't done for years ^_^ We were all being pretty stupid, and really there isn't much I wanna say about Halloween...except that it was absolutely the best. Ever ^_^

Costume List!
Edgar - Punk...gangbanger...? (whatever xD)
Cierra - Dark Fairy? (she looked so pretty!)
Stevie - Dead Mad Hatter (very cool)
Adan - Himself? (except when he wore Tony's mask)
Chayne - (I'll get back to you =P)
Tony - Monkey who owned a business (get the pun?)
Weston - Billy Joe (and he looked AWESOME)
Alba - Wore her freakiest outfit (as she called it)
Me - Goth Fairie

Yeah. It was fun. And my brother has a new girlfriend - Cierra. Weird, right? But 'tis just fine ^^ They look super cute together. And although they're alike in lots of ways, they they're totally different in others. I guess it's true that opposites attract.

Kinda why Wes and I get along so well. But then again, I've got a lot in common with Alba and she and I are super close, too. It's super fun to hang out with someone who's your opposite!

Well, right now I gotta go finish my homework. I'm glad Mrs. Bristow's back, but her homework's gonna kill me. Poor Jeff...gotta call and make sure HE gets it done, too! More later! Ja!

Mood: overjoyed!
Listening to: Enter Sandman - Metallica (big contrast to my mood ^^)

Shini-chan had a vision on Wednesday, November 2, 2005 at 08:14 a.m.

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