Still lovesick. But getting used to the feeling.

Haha. Today I got to go driving xD It was pretty fun fun. Things turned out ok; I didn't drive off the road, and I didn't make too many mistakes. I just wanna get some practice in before I leave on Saturday =) Hopefully I'll get to go tomorrow. Jey was gonna take me out and teach me to drive, but I doubt I'll be able to -_-

So...geeze, I'm leaving on Saturday.

Yes. I'm still having trouble concentrating and thinking. Can you tell? Haha.

I don't mind, though.

I do have a new layout to put up...one I made in all my obsession. Haha.

Let's see...seriously, though, I've had a great week, except for issues here at home.

He's made everything so much better. He makes me smile...even when I'm down and it feels like nothing could be more wrong. I like just...talking to him. Because it's fun. We talk like friends, about whatever. It's really random and really fun.... And in case you didn't know, I love it when people are spontaneous xD

Enough of that. Quiz time!!! Lol =D I might not be able to think right (seriously, I have never felt like this), but I'm still the same old boring me xD Who loves to do things to waste her time when she has the chance. Haha. I'm just avoiding packing...I don't wanna finish xD

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy. You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself. Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in. People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal. You are most compatible with: A and AB Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

Only two for now. My computer started being weird xD More later then. Ja ne!

Mood: happy
Listening to: Last Dollar - Tim McGraw

Last night. I have never...ever...felt so...happy.

I'm so in love with him. I'll always be in love with him. Always. Last night was so amazing. It was so...geeze. I dunno.

I can't get him out of my head. I can't. And I don't really think I want to.

He's so...I dunno. Last night...it was so magical. It was perfect.

I love him. So much more than even I can comprehend. It's weird...but I like thinking about him. I like not being able to get him out of my head.

We went to DQ. We watched Pirates of the Caribbean 3. We went cruising.

What happened...geeze. I can't even say. Even our funny moments, even just talking at DQ. Everything. I wanna see him again. I'm addicted.

His...just...he's...I'm speechless.

I can't even think. Last night...every little thing that happened was amazing. Everything. From driving around to find an open store to...coming home and talking outside.

I love him. I can't get him out of my head.

I don't want to.

I love you, Jey.

So much.

Te amo. Te adoro.

You're my everything. My heart belongs solely to you.

Mood: lovesick
Listening to: Silence

The banquet went well, for the most part. Like always, I generally felt excluded from everything. No biggie.

Got in a fight with my dad. It wasn't his night, it was MINE. He didn't have to be a part of it if he didn't want to. Honestly, I didn't want him to...because I knew what would happen.

Jey understood. It was so cool to know that he had my back. A group of us went out after the banquet just to hang out at Wendy's. I guess at first I didn't really wanna go cause I didn't think anyone would want me there; I just went to avoid returning home. In the end, I did enjoy myself. I had lots of fun talking to Sofia =D We made the boys and Luisa wait for a long time, and we just kinda laughed xD

Well, things happened with Michael, and we needed to stop. I didn't care...we got to see the stars. I got to see a shooting star for the very first time in my life. Seriously. Whenever there were meteor showers and stuff...I wouldn't be allowed to stay up so late.

Yesterday was pretty amazing. And I wonder if it was being with Jey that made it that way. I don't know what's going on. I don't know if I like him again, I really can't tell. It's weird. And I guess I'm trying hard not to let myself fall for him, either...I'm afraid. I don't want him to leave. It's gonna hurt enough as it is.... If I loved him anymore...and as anything more than a friend...I don't know how I would bear it. I mean, I know I'll get to see him...but not getting to see him everyday at school...it'll be so weird.

I love him. I really, really do. I know I love him as a brother and as a friend, but I wanna know if there's anything else, too. I dunno, I'm weird. I dunno what's going on in my head. I can't tell if I like him or not, I can't tell if I'm trying to avoid falling for him or not. I think...I'm probably falling for him.

Ever heard the song "What Hurts the Most" by Rascal Flatts? That song is so beautiful. It's just too sad to listen to; it makes me cry because whenever I hear it, I can only think of JJ. Why does he have to leave? It's bittersweet...I'm so excited for him. I'm excited that he's graduating and he's accomplishing the things he wants. He's doing such a great job, and his future looks so bright. But at the same time, it just hurts knowing he won't be there at school anymore. He won't be there to joke and play around with me whenever I'm happy or to laugh at me when I'm stupid or to offer a shoulder to cry on when I'm sad. He won't be there to offer those words of comfort and those hugs he always gives me.

It'll be weird. I don't want him to leave...but I guess at the same time, I do. I want him to keep succeeding the way he has. Who knew I'd get this close to him? This song...geeze, I'm not kidding. It hurts.

Mood: tired
Listening to: What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts