Comics :] These are fun. The first one's just random and hilarious. Lol. I love it.

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Okayyy. This next one reminds me of September 15 <3 How sad, right? Lol, ok, not really. Well...maybe just the fact that I associate carrots as deadly weapons might me :] Lol. It reminds me of Shoot 'em Up that night. Whoever's seen that movie should recognize why instantly. Haha. The movie Jey was never taking me to see :P

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This one, I immediately associated with Kreesteenuh. Lmao. It sounds so much like her, it's almost scary. But I love the whole silent movie thing :]

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This one :D Haha! Jey and I were talking about the game. He said it always made him mad XP So, here's how you can win it, love ;D

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Last one. It's awful and stupid and just...lol. As bad as it sounds, I really did start laughing xDD It's kinda sorta funny and cute in a very disturbing way...

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That's all for today :] Now I'm off to do homework... So more later! Ja ne!

Mood: sick
Listening to: Fresh Prince of Bel-Air on TV

So a lot of these are cute and fun :) I was especially entertained by the presidential candidate one. And honestly, I don't have a problem with my result. If I could vote, I honestly believe that I would support McCain :) I like him.

And I'm a strawberry!!! How awesome is that?? Lol. I didn't even think strawberry was a possible result xD I thought I'd be a pineapple :P I dunno why...I just had a feeling. Apparently I was wrong. Very wrong. Lol.

My dad took the IQ test. He scored 20 points lower than I did. I feel extremely proud xD

As for the personality and name ones...I find them...well, interesting, to say the least. I don't think they could be more inaccurate. GFranted, I have low self-esteem. And quizzes like that are generally make-you-feel-good crap and stuff. Haha xD But, they're fun, nonetheless.

You Are a Strawberry

You are friendly, outgoing, and well liked by many people. You are popular, but there's nothing you ordinary or average about you. You a very interesting person, and you have many facets to your personality. Sometimes you feel very conflicted. Your different sides of your personality pull at you. You are a very sensual and passionate person. You are fiery... you can't help it. In general, you keep your passionate side under wraps. You are only wild in private.

Who You Should Vote For

John McCain: 56% Ron Paul: 50% Barack Obama: 44% John Edwards: 44% Hillary Clinton: 38% Mike Huckabee: 38% Mitt Romney: 38% Rudy Giuliani: 31% Who you agree with on the war in Iraq: Rudy Giuliani, Mike Huckabee, John McCain and Mitt Romney Who you agree with on the economy: Rudy Giuliani, Mike Huckabee, John McCain and Ron Paul Who you agree with on health care: Barack Obama Who you agree with on taxes: Rudy Giuliani, John McCain and Mitt Romney Who you agree with on abortion: Ron Paul Who you agree with on gay rights: Ron Paul and John McCain

What [my name-censored] Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

Mood: sick
Listening to: Footsteps of someone in the hall

So. I'm sick. And I missed school. I'm playing around with my new laptop, but I'm thinking I'll stop right now. I'm dizzy and lightheaded. My stomach hurts. I feel nauseous and ready to throw up. Bleh. It's not fun.

Last night was interesting. I was flipping out. I didn't know what the heck was going on, I was seeing things and hearing scary noises. It sucked :)

My new laptop. It's a Gateway. I love it. This one's fast. I just don't like Vista. Not too much, anyway. Some things are pretty cool.... But I really miss my old one. A lot.

Oh. And new layout. Finally. I love this one. It's pretty. I guess. I'm glad they were able to save all my files. Otherwise I would have had to redo the top image. Which I probably wouldn't have done because it just takes to freaking long.

Now I can work on the top image for The Talon, too. Hopefully everyone will like it. Grr. My tummy hurts.

I'm gonna go to sleep now. A three-minute blog entry (it's 9:00 now). More later. Bye :)

Mood: sick, but content
Listening to: Spongebob Squarepants on TV

One request I have. Don't label me. Don't judge me.

Stupid annorexic emo Asian who-knows-what.

Pretend you know me. Tell yourself you do.

Keep bringing me down. Push me to the edge.

Rip me apart. Tear me to shreds.

Don't hold back. Release your hatred.

Drive me to suicide. Enjoy my pain.

Does this satisfy you? Sadistic freaks.

Find something better to do with your time.

Don't attack an already-disturbed teenage girl.

Or does it please you to watch me suffer?

Are you waiting for me to break?

One day, I will.

I swear, one day, I will.

Mood: indifferent
Listening to: Silence

How many therapists does it take to change a lightbulb?
One, but the lightbulb has to want to change.

Haha, that's great xD Yesh, it's a corny joke, but it's alright :)

So, tonight, I watched I Am Legend with Jey <3 That movie. Oh my goodness. It...was amazing. But it's the kind of movie that makes me think. I dunno. I guess I would have liked a little more comic relief, but the movie wouldn't have had such an impact...there wasn't really much room for that. I spend most of the movie either hiding or crying xDD And then, the whole idea of the movie. It kinda scared me :) Definitely a good movie. And I highsly recommend it. I'm a chicken, so I thought it was scary, but don't take it from me. My cousin said I would cry. I cried. And it was a sad movie.

Think about it...you think you're the last person on earth. Sorta...the rest of the people are infected with a virus that became airborn as a result of an attempt to cure cancer. All you have is your German Shepard. And you have to be home early so that you're not found becasue your only defenses are light (UV light, specifically), a gun, and your immunity to the virus. You're outnumbered, big time. It's deep.... And I swear, I saw that manequin (sp?) move!! That was too freaky. Will Smith is such a great actor :)

Ohkay, enough about the movie. It's gonna have me thinking for a while, so I might as well get my mind off it while I can. Erhm. Actually, I'm hungry. I'm thinking I'm gonna go eat. Today was fun...I loved it. I loved being with Jey <3 I won't see him again for a while, though. It's alright, as long as he's having a great time :) Alrighty, then. Ja ne!

Mood: tired
Listening to: Omar on the phone

Eh. I'm...uhm. Yeah. Haha. Feeling pretty lousy. So...here are some amazing poems that I absolutely love. They're in order...the one I like most is first.

Cutter's Lullaby
Go to sleep and close your eyes
And dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings against a thorn
You know the pain that they have borne.

Silver metal shine so bright,
Scarlet blood that feels so right.
Dream of that blood trickling down,
And wake up just before you drown.

The moonlight shining off your tears
As you bleed out your own worst fears.
So tonight when you start to cry,
Whisper the cutter's lullaby:

Hushabye baby, you're almost dead.
You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red.
Your family hates you,
Your friends let you bleed.
Sleep tight with a knife,
Cause it's all that you need.

Rockabye baby, broken and scarred,
You didn't know life would be this hard.
Time to end the pain you hid so well,
And down you'll come baby,
Straight back to hell.
-Anonymous

My Face is a Mask
The intensity of my pain is becoming excess
I cried so much now I look a mess
Anger bubbling under my skin
Scarred and marked from were the knife had been
The unnerving noise of my buzzing thoughts
Is pulling my brain into sudden distort
My heart is low as though it's been demoted
My notepads full of the poems I've noted
Made up of stories of suicide and blood let
Puddles of blood glowing scarlet
When people are smiling I feel dejected
I'm not smiling to cause it was me they rejected
In thir eyes I will be only a "freak"
Cause I didn't follow trends; I wanted to be unique
I always looked sad, depressed and downcast
My face holds no truth it's only a mask
My eyes are as sharp as a pin or a blade
I'm no longer me but the person you made.
-Anonymous

Who's in the Mirror
Who is the person in the mirror I see?
I will not choose to believe that it's me.
The look of sadness in her eyes,
Her mouth miming "I want to die."
"What have I become?" I shout out loud,
Taking no notice of people around.
I can't adjust to the face of me.
I don't understand how this can be.
I've become the person I feared of most:
The suicidal girl who looks like a ghost.
What shall I do? I need to change.
I can't go on looking this way.
My forehead holds a million creases,
My face is broken into a thousand pieces.
-Anonymous

Yeah. I really do love those poems. But I just got off the phone with Jey (I sort of left the entry only half-finished; it's about 10:00 right now). I'm waiting for him to call...because apparently he was stuck in a wrestling mat :) Haha. Sounds like something I would do. Like when I got stuck between the wall and the bed xD

I would not do well in Vegas! My brother, my dad, and I played blackjack with chocolates. By the time we got bored of playing, Edgar had 22 candies, my dad had 30 something, and me? I had...two. Two whole chocolates. Yey :D

I'm thinking I'll go read now. I'm reading Obasan in my spare time. Sorta. I hung out with family for the break, so I didn't do too much reading...just finished The Catcher in the Rye, which, by the way, is a great book! Well, I guess I'll go now. So, more later, for sure :) I'm beginning to feel all caught up! Yey! Ja matta ne!!

Mood: happy (ironically enough)
Listening to: Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance

I'm smarter than Omar :D

Yep. That's all I wanted to say. Lol. More on that later. Ja ne :)

Mood: happy
Listening to: Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I made a beautiful layout where the text in the welcome box isn't messed up if you have something bigger or smaller than a 1024 x 800 screen resolution. Sadly, my computer crashed before I was able to upload any of the images :( I'm too frustrated with the look of this layout to keep it up. Granted, my new layout looks almost identical except for the pictures and colors...but still, it's not messed up. I was thinking about using a premade layout until I get my laptop fixed, but that's too much work. I can deal with it xD

Last night, my brother and I stayed up until about 2:30. He was on the phone with my cousin (since he's in Vegas) while he watched the South Park movie. And Jey came to visit and say happy new year :) So he was here for about two hours (he left at 2:30), and we were just hanging out. It was fun xD He tried to take my phone away from my and I jumped him :D Yey!!

Then this morning...I watched the sunrise. Sorta. My dad came into my room to take the camera, so he woke me up sooner than I hoped for. But it's alright xD

So, as of yet, nothing interesting. At least, not too interesting. Honestly, the best part of today was the fact that we stayed up kinda late, we talked to Omar on the phone like we do every year, and JJ came to visit. So it was fun xD

It doesn't look like January outside. It's super bright and windy and...I dunno, but it kinda looks like spring more than winter. It's freezing, though! So that's good.

Guess I'll go and do some homework now. So more later, I hope. Like I said...this year, I want to keep a better record. I like remembering. Ja ne :)

Mood: happy
Listening to: Yuuki playing Donkey Kong (Super Nintendo!)