Well. I guess the last few days have been filled with drama, and quite honestly, I really don't know what is keeping me sane ^^ Heheh. I guess it's...knowing that I can call Wes...and he won't think I'm stupid. He'll care.

Ohkay. So I'm in FFA. And we needed to vote for a new student committee chair. Yeah, that pretty much took forever. It was a long process that occurred just between the officers. We just discussed each person's application letters, but ended up having to do it based on personal qualifications. In the letter, no one was gonna mention that they were hard to get along with or that they had made mistakes in the past. So we had to do that. I guess that at first, no one really made a big deal out of it. Or at least they didn't show it.

This was all yesterday, in case I haven't mentioned it. So yesterday after school...I went and hung out with Mr. Rod and Mr. Lopez for a while. At least until Mr. Rod had to leave, and I was stuck grading papers for Mr. Lopez xDD I offered to help. Lol. Then JJ called me and told me to head to the art and photo room. So I did xD We just waited for Luisa to finish painting a pot so that JJ could give us a ride to her place. Just to talk, hang out, and work on our parts for the meeting.

Oscar was being stupid. JJ tried to get him under control, and so did I, but nothing worked. So, Gaby ended up yelling at us. Oscar had been stupid, and we all knew it, but she yelled at ME, too. For yelling at HIM and trying to get him under control. She told me to stay out of it. First of all, JJ said that he and I had to make sure that we could keep everyone under control at all times. INCLUDING officers. I understand that Gaby's upset, but she had NO reason to yell at me or slap JJ. She yelled at me for yelling at Oscar. She slapped JJ for NOT yelling at Oscar. What's up with that?! I understand that she's been having problems, but that's no reason for her to take it out on us. I mean I've had to deal with a lot since last year. I don't exactly have friends I can hang out with at school. Yeah, I have friends, but we never see each other around campus. Some of them are even at completely different schools. And she knows how I hate being in first period with her and all the seniors. Yeah, sure, she and JJ are in there, but I'm out of place, ya know? I've got my share of problems. I helped her a little, and she was able to get things off her chest. I would appreciate it if she could at least stop adding to my stress, to my problems.

Anyway. Other than that, nothing new =) So more later. Ja.

Mood: sore
Listening to: Silence

I'm still stunned. I guess it's a little hard for me to comprehend everything that's going on. I mean, it's not a bad thing at all. But it's just such a good thing that sometimes, I wonder if I could have maybe just dreamt it all? But I couldn't have. Could I? This is what I hate about me. I have deja-vu all the time, so I don't know if it has anything to do with it, ya know? Especially when living things...leave us...I have dreams about that. And when Weston was in a car accident. But anyway, I have trouble telling dreams from reality. Seriously. I mean, unless they're completely ridiculous, then I can kinda tell xD But other things, it's tough. Like...I'll have a dream that Nikki told me something about someone who made her upset, and the next day at school, I'll ask her, "So are you okay?" and ask her about the person. As it turns out, nothing like that ever happened. But...there's times when things happen. Real things. I'll think it was just a dream. So, again, the next day at school, I'll tell Nikki, "Hey, I had a super weird dream last night that I slipped on the concrete and everyone stared and laughed at me!" Then she'll tell me it wasn't a dream.... So, I just kinda try to keep quiet. When it comes to sharing stories, I'll stay quiet.

I guess that...those words just sounded so sweet. They have never sounded sweeter coming from anyone else, and I wish I knew why. So...it wasn't a dream. It happened. And I have the proof to..well, prove it xD

I don't understand. How is it that this layout always fits my situation? "All the things he said." What a perfect title. It's gonna hurt to take it down. But I need Duo ^^

Again. Thank you, Weston. I don't think you'll ever know what your words meant to me. You're right, I do love you. And it's nice to know that you love me back. I wish I knew how you did it. I wish I knew how you can.... I just wish I knew. I guess that I don't wanna share. I don't want other people to know, and that's why I'm not saying. So that it'll stay locked up in my mind, and in my mind alone. Anyway. I'm glad you're my friend. I can't imagine what it would be like not to have met you.

Mood: sleepy and entranced
Listening to: Friends in my Heart - Kingdom Hearts Original Soundtrack

Those words have never sounded sweeter. Thank you.

Mood: stunned
Listening to: the sound of his voice inside my mind

School started on Thursday. And things aren't too bad! I loved being a freshman...I wish I was still in the ninth grade...but that's alright!

Being a sophmore's just different. Yeah, we don't have to hang out at just the academy, we get to roam the entire school. But I have to admit, I liked the academy. And I had lunch with all the freshmen, with everyone of the same grade level. I'm not saying I don't like having lunch with the juniors or the seniors; some of them are my friends. But I do wish that I hadn't gotten separated from Nikki. She's got first lunch...I've got second. But no biggie! We still see each other in the mornings and during second period! Fwee!

Erm. Other than that, nothing interesting, I guess. I'm glad I've still got Mrs. Hester for first period...it's nice to keep at least one thing the same from last year. Second period...I've got Algebra II! And I don't remember a thing! Lol. Wes already told me I can call and ask for help anytime xD And third period...AP World History. Bleh. It's okay. It's a pretty interesting class so far, but I've really only had class for one day. You know how the first day of school is always rules and class procedures, reading the syllabus? Yeah. It's alright. And surprisingly, a lot of the stuff from the lecture on Friday actually stuck! Maybe it's because I actually took notes and I'd never taken notes during a lecture before. It's not as hard as I thought it'd be! Erm. Fourth period. Study hall, advisory, whatever you wanna call it. It's CHAOS. But at least Jenica and Ivonne are with me. Not that it matters during class, since we don't even sit at the same table. But it IS nice to have someone you know there with you so you can walk out to lunch together and talk about how stupid the people in there were being xD During class, there isn't much we can do. We talk later, though! Fwee! Lunch. Self-explanitory. A little different. But it's still basically the same crowd I hang out with. Sixth period is English. Errm...so far, I like it. It's not just sitting there and reading out of a sourcebook or anything, but we actually get to discuss books (right now it's Farenheit 451, our summer assignment) in groups, and it's just super fun. Seventh period I've got Spanish 3. Eh. It's okay. Not much to say about that class. And eigth period! I've got biology! Not that I'm too into science, it's not my favorite subject or anything, but it can be pretty fun...at least when you do hands-on activities, yeah, it's fun. The teacher's strict, but he's super cool.

So, that's my schedule. I had a little homework this weekend, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I've still got all of today to do whatever I want. Yesterday and Friday were my homework days. I would have liked to get it all done on Friday, but forget that xD It was a little TOO much to do in one day right after you get home from school.

Other than school starting, there's nothing really interesting. It'll take a while to get used to, but I'll get there eventually. I miss the academy teachers. And I miss seeing a lot of my friends, people I talked to. Like on Friday, I saw Ricardo! But only because he was talking to my mom. I hadn't seen him around campus at all, and he's someone I really love talking to, just because he's so much fun. And I miss seeing Mr. Rod, Ms. Bristow, and Ms. Manuz on a daily basis. They're cool xD

Eh. I guess there really isn't much to say about school. At least not yet. Later on in the year, there's gonna be more drama, that's for sure. But anyway, more later! Ja matta ne, minna-san!

Mood: none
Listening to: Beautiful Silence

Omg. Summer vacation is over. School tomorrow. Ugh. I'm looking forward to it a little...not too much, though. I guess because I know I've got AP World History and that's gonna take up all of my time. That's why. If I didn't have AP World History, I don't think that I'd be so reluctant about starting school. But I need to take it. If I dropped out, I'd be disappointing my parents, some of my friends, Mr. Rodriquez, and myself. It'll be tough, no doubt. The homework this summer was insane. But, I did have some spare time, so it won't be that bad. I know it! It'll be fun! Woo!

Erm. Let's see...it's a little lonely here! It's alright, though. I lived with my cousin, my aunt, and my grandmother for most of the summer, really. All the time we were at Cali and all the time that they were here...yeah. It was fun! So when we took them to the airport...it was a little sad to watch them leave. We really didn't wanna leave the airport until the plane departed...goes to show you how much we love being with them. Omar and my mom cried. My mom cried because Omar cried. Omar cried because...well, at Cali, his friends live all the way in Norwalk while he lives in Bellflower. So, he can't exactly take a trip to their houses whenever he wants. He's an only child, and the only people he has to play with...are our SUPER annoying, SUPER obnoxious, SUPER spoiled cousins. (Well, second cousins, I think. They're our cousin's kids. Whatever.) They're jerks. Those two kids lack the innocence that little kids are known to have. Saul, the seven-year-old, is a copycat and he's super greedy. Like, if there's one twinkie left in the box, he won't ask "Who wants the last twinkie?" like we do. He'll just walk in the room and taunt us because he got the last one. And Carol. She's...ahem...witchy with a "b". Everything we do or say makes her angry. Like... I remember when Omar and Yuuki were playing catch with the football and Saul wanted to join in. Well, Omar, thinking Saul could catch, tossed it to him so things would be fair. The ball hit him. And Carol got mad when she SAW it was an accident. It's not our fault that brat is so addicted to fast food and so deprived of excercise. Geeze. The worst thing about both of them? They're liars. And since they're little, everyone believes them, so WE end up getting in trouble. Geeze. I'm TIRED of putting up with that! I mean, I have to put up with it from Yuuki, but getting in trouble for those jerks?! And when Carol did something super mean to Omar, Saul was actually nice and told his mom (our cousin, Betty). She didn't do anything. I'm super mad at Betty right now. I hate the things she does.

But still, we had so much fun! I wish we could see them again! Anyway, my dad's going to Japan tomorrow. For the o-bon festival...for my grandfather. He'll be back in two weeks, and he already asked us what we want him to bring us xDD I'm excited about going next year! Woot!

For now...there are things I should do before I go to school tomorrow! Or...well, things I wanna do xD And since I'm going to bed at 9:30 so I can fall asleed at around 10 or 10:30, I don't have a lot of time left xD So, more later! Ja ne!

Mood: cheery
Listening to: Bless the Broken Road - Rascal Flatts