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The calm before the storm...
One final day of peace before I need to get working on countless other things like school, writing Christmas presents, and all that other good stuff. Fun day akchally. My Creative Writing class went to a pumpkin patch and I got a little pumpkin for my room. ^_^ Halloween fu~n. My CW teacher also said that one of the poems I turned in last week was my best yet, which is nice to hear. :) We're moving on to prose now. Creative nonfiction should be interesting.

I'm still seriously considering going into internet hibernation. No working on my webpage of a school portfolio unless I couldn't possibly be doing anything else, no IM time, no blog updates. Just school, friends, checking e-mail n blogs, and writing. My poor wrists are gonna kill me for the writing bit. I think I really need a break from the 'net now, since work is piling up and I've got finals in a month. No verdicts yet though.

Tuesday, October 30, 2001,09:51 p.m.

Random thoughts...
Ah, Ally McBeal Mondays, how I have missed thee.^_^ Ally McBeal started up again tonight on Fox, so the crew here got together and watched. ^_____^ I might not be great at group dynamics, but I do enjoy laughing at that crazy show with all my friends up here. It hasn't been on for the whole time we've been up here, so tonight was a major thing.

At Megan's recommendation, I read a book called Enchantments by Orson Scott Card ovet the weekend and all I have to say is: Wow. If I can ever write like that, I'll be happy. Heck, if I can ever write a good adult book, I'll be ecstatic. Only problem: Most adult books, whether romance novels or not, require some mention of a sexual relationship or sex scene it seems. I have difficulty writing sex scenes. It's called Kei-chan would start blushing so much she'd never write the durn thing so she doesn't bother trying. Or she'd wonder how in the heck she wrote that and not want to show it to anybody due to embarassment. Wimpy of me, I know, but...Hey adult books!! Why do you require all this smoochy-smoochy stuff??^^;;;; Jessie wants to write kids' books, but I dunno. There are some kids books I love and respect, others just seem too simplistic. You always have to state everything so overtly and it sounds cheesy. I'd rather avoid that if I can.

In other events, college laundry rooms take a scary turn. I left a load in the dryer yesterday and when I went back in the evening to claim it, 'twas gone. Now I've heard about stuff getting stolen from the laundry rooms before, but a bunch of undies and socks? O_o;;; Cra~zy. Well, whatever Happosai stole the stuff can keep everything but my Mickey Mouse sweatshirt. That was a Christmas present long ago and I still like it. If they need the underwear that badly, they can keep it. I don't want to know.

One more thought. I've been seriously contemplating the idea of shutting down the blog and going into hibernation for a while. That means no blog, no getting on IM-like things, just checking e-mail. I know I don't update this thing much, but it's fun and I like having it. I just need a break for a while.

Monday, October 29, 2001,10:28 p.m.

Weekend. 'Nuff said.
One blog entry before I go hibernate for the weekend. I'm finally through with all midterms and I think I did pretty good.^^ And I'm finally, FINALLY over this funk that has had me in it's grip for the better part of a week. ^_______^ And I'm not just up to normal happy-genki levels, I'm up to feisty levels. Meaning any crap I get given will get given right back. This only happens around here, and is a very recent development actually, since certain friends' teasing can get into malicious levels, or at least what I percieve to be malicious levels. It's very odd to recognize that you like someone and still want to be their friend, but they just annoy the heck out of you sometimes. *sighs* Oh, well. They only have the power to annoy me because I care about them. If I didn't like them I'd stay away from them and wouldn't be annoyed. Funny logic, no?^^;;;;; Though it's not like I'm in a bad mood, just ready to face any banter or teasing argument that comes up. XD And I'm so happy my midterms are o~ver. But enough of that.

Talyachan and White Cat have both written quite eloquently on this subject, but I thought I'd give my two cents for those that are curious.
I haven't known Talya that long, only since May, but I initially wrote to her because, from what I'd read in her blog, I thought she was a good, friendly, fun person. Therefore I cheerfully offered to beta-read for her should she ever need it. Nothing since then has changed my opinion of her. I've enjoyed reading what she writes and think she's a great person. She has never given me any reason to think of her as selfish. IMHO, a person's life is theirs to live, not their friends' or family's or anyone else's to dictate. Talya has a right to her own life as much as an anyone else, and it's a shame that these days just living how you want to can get you labeled as a selfish bitch/bastard. We're all guilty of some sort of selfish act or the other, so we can't judge others. It's not too much to ask to be able to live your own life.
Now, on the subject of friends. My take is, everybody has their group of friends, and the word friend can have different levels. There are many people out there I'd love to be good friends with. Some I am, some I just talk to occasionally, some I haven't spoken a word to because I'm shy. (I honestly am) I can't be best friends with everyone, nor can they all be best friends with me. It's just not possible. Also, friendship isn't something that can be forced. You either like someone and care about them or you don't. Sometimes you find a friend when you're not looking, sometimes you're lucky enough to have someone you thought was cool want to be friends with you. Either way, it's a two-way street. It'll happen if and when it's going to happen.
While friends do have the right to tell you to your face when you're out of line or being rude, I think "a friend"'s comment was uncalled for. I guess it was someone that got on Talyachan's bad side and wanted to say something hurtful. Unfortuanately he or she did it when it was uncalled for and in such a way that made them seem childish.

That's all out of me. Call me dramatic or whatever you wish, but it's my opinion.

Friday, October 26, 2001,06:55 p.m.

I LIVE!! Somewhat at least.
Urgh. The funk I was in for the first two days of this week is gone, at least, and I'm working up to my usual genkiness level. Nothing to put you in a funk like getting your writing ripped into in Creative Writing class. I guess it was a little worse than usual this week since midterms have me high-strung. Only two more days then I can relax. And I swear by all that is holy I WILL hibernate this weekend. No blogging, no late-night movie watchings with friends. Just me hanging with myself and getting sleep that is actually restful. I can't wait. I think it's a bad sign that I'm already at the point where I could have a night of 11~12 hours sleep and not feel like I've overslept. Just maybe a bad sign. Usually I can at least make it to the end of the quarter before that feeling starts. >_< *sighs*

Urgh. I hate it when I rant like this. But it's kind of hard not to when I've got a bajillion things going on and am getting highly frustrated by certain things up here. Let me just say that it's not fun feeling on the edge of your group of friends, especially when they can be highly uncommunicative in certain ways. >_< It just sucks dangit. Next worst thing is people you were once really close to that just break off contact.

And on that cheery note I'm going to take care of one or two more things then get some sleep.

Wednesday, October 24, 2001,10:36 p.m.

I am Kei-chan, hear me roar.
Not really.^^ I think that title is the resulot of too much dramatic '80's stuff over the weekend. Lessee...Friday night was the first Care Bears movie, Rainbow Brite, and She-Ra. Saturday night, due to a late start (for us, at least) was just Duck Tales: Treasure of the Lost Lamp and one ep of The Tomorrow People. I didn't stay for The Tomorrow People, 'cause while I have no problems with letting others decide what to watch, especially since I'd insisted on Care Bears the night before, and showing someone their favorite stuff is nice, but...I do have problems with people overpraising others. Even if it's among friends and the intentions are good. It's not like I expect to be bowed down to, but it's nice not to have to hear certain praising things said of others in my presence. I'm going to have to have a talk with certain people should this continue and I can manage to get up the guts to do it. It's the only thing that's really bothering me at this point.

Not that I'm in a bad mood or anything.^^;;; I'm actually in a very good mood and had a great weekend. Bridget was up again, and we all had a great time being nostalgic. Fu~n. Now when are the next Gravitation fansubs coming out and how can I earn the money to get them? XD

One more thing to run to class: I was mail-bombed, after a fashion, this weekend and some mails might have been deleted from my hotmail account due to overload. If you sent me an e-mail over the weekend could you please re-send it? Thanx!

Monday, October 22, 2001,09:37 a.m.

"In voodoo people are possessed by spirits. You could be possessed by Tigger."
Yahhou~! Yes I know there was another entry, but I decided to delete it for various reasons. And since I haven't been writing in here a huge deal lately, be prepared for a long entry.

The quote in today's title is brought to you by a conversation between me and the Mike what's in my Creative Writing class (different from my buddy, the Mike what's known as Trunks). Long story, but we were talking about the way I get when hyper. He said that he could easily see me bouncing off the walls in a Tigger-ish fashion. That led to other interesting comments, like the quote above. I'm not sure if I've got it exactly right, but that's the gist of it.^^;;;;

In other news, things have been busy on campus the past few weeks. Last week GLBTSO was doing a lot of stuff for Coming Out Day. Sadly I missed sidewalk chalking, but I did get to watch The Celluloid Closet. Good documentary, that. I also got to have dinner with all the other GLBT peeps on Fri., then go to an anime club meeting, the first I've been to this year. Tenchi Muyo is odd, Lodoss War is goo~d. I just can't wait 'till they start showing Fushigi Yuugi. XD I'm going to try to make every meeting they show it at, just so I can see it all.

This week (and somewhat last week) there's been a lot of stuff on gender relations issues and dating violence. Devoting a whole week to this kind of stuff is a recent thing, they've only been doing it for a couple of years as far as I know, but it's gotten a positive reaction from most, I think. Quite a serious subject, but one that needs to be discussed IMHO.

Oh, and all the sophomores that want to go on study abroad got to hear about applying and stuff the other day. Those interested got together to hear people from the Center for International Programs (CIP) talk about "the application process" and all the requirements and stuff. I'm going to apply for a program in Japan, wish me luck!! XD Oddly enough, I'm the only one, or one of two, among my friends who isn't worried about going away or having issues due to the program I want being cancelled. *sigh*

The only other news is basic school stuff. Midterms next week, getting major/minor stuff worked out, that kind of thing. I need the weekend, but will I have time? Bridget's visiting again, and while I love her to death, I'll be so busy I don't know if I'll have a lot of time to spend with her and my friends. Also, I love having people visit on weekends and I like being able to hermit myself away when people are home for the weekend, but can't I have one weekend where it's just me and my buddies hanging out, everyone on campus and no visitors? Oh, well, I can't complain. It's nice having more than only one or two real friends at school. And keeping busy is good.

Oh, yah, I also forgot to mention that this week is Homecoming week. Lots of stuff for that going on. I wonder where the concept of a homecoming game and all that comes from...

And to top off the good I'm in at the moment, it's actually sunny out today. ^______^ Sunny fall days are the prettiest, at leat in my opinion. *waits for the leaves on the quad to get raked so she can jump in the piles*

Thursday, October 18, 2001,10:49 a.m.

"It's just another manic Monday~"
*grimaces* If anything says I'm an '80's child, the fact that I can reference song lines like that should. Oh, well, my memory will do what it wishes, as will my imagination. Hell, my mind does what it will, too. I'm just along for the ride...Not that I don't take responsibility for my actions.^^;;

Tonikaku, weekend was fun.^^ Most of my friends went home for the weekend so I did my version of hermitting myself away: didn't come out of my room except for meals, going to a play with one of the girls on my floor, and just walking around for a bit on Sunday. Bought an absolutely adorable purple bear.^______^ You see, even though I'm allergic to the dust they haul around with them, I LOVE stuffed animals, 'specially the cute ones. *laughs* Okay, I'll admit it, I'm 20 going on 8 when I'm stressed/hyper/happy. I even considered taking that bear out of the bag and carrying him around with me for the rest of the day, and I'm not ashamed to admit it.

The play was fun, even though it had a lot of ghost stories in it and I'm still kind of spooked under certain circumstances. But it was a good play, well worth the spookage. It's called The Wier, dunno why since the "wier" doesn't really play a part in it, just gets mentioned. It's set in a little country Irish town bar, and some guys tell a newcomer some of the folklore of the place and some of the old stories, but she comes up with a real ghost story that beats the crap out of theirs. Good acting for the most part, too, which is always good. *g*

Goddangit, the weather's gotten cloudy again. And it just turned sunny after days and days of rain and clouds, too. :( Wah. Guess I shouldn't be too surprised, tho, since this is the area of Michigan that's near the lake. A little more sun would have been nice...

Monday, October 15, 2001,03:44 p.m.

*imitates ChuChu* CHU!!
Still writing from the 'puter labs, so this'll be short (the keyboards on these things make my wrists hurt, and I'm hungry). Added one of my several e-mail addys to the column on the left so if anyone wishes to contact me please do so.^_^

Oh, and here's something I learned at Creative Writing: Surrealist games are fu~n. So are making up funny haiku to perform for the class. ^______^

Nene, UT, was it me you were indicating when you said "Michigan?" If so, what's up is school, school, and, for a change, a little bit more school.^_~ Whattup with you? :)

And that is all the randomness from me for the day. Mmmmmm...Foooo~d...*wanders in the direction of the cafeteria

Thursday, October 11, 2001,05:34 p.m.

Wow.
I managed to change a few things around on the layout without the aid of an HTML-knowledgeable person. Go me.^_^ Still on the computer lab computers since, to my knowledge, I still cannot access the 'net from my room. Evil Information Services. They do not tell us things then move as slowly as they can to correct problems. >_< I'm well aware of the fact that they might have a bajillion other much more serious things to take care of, demo sa...*sigh*

This entry is mostly for archiving purposes, will talk more later. I go eat lunch then meet with people from Creative Writing class now. *scampers off*

Thursday, October 11, 2001,11:36 a.m.