np: nothing

And do you know WHY nothing's playing? It's because Winamp crashed my other computer, that's why. O_o My other computer's rebooting right now. It's so weird. How talented a person does it take to crash Windows 98 with Winamp, huh? >_<

A~anyways. I'm done with my stoopit economics AP stock project! Woohoo! Took me most of the afternoon, too. >_> And it's, like, 11 pages. Du~ude. The only thing that's keeping me from pounding and screaming at my computer screen is the fact I made $18 this morning tutoring another person. ^_^ Hu~uzzah! Lalalaa~aaaa... Money makes Lisa very happy. Lisa is such a capitalist. ^_^ And happy to be one, thank you! I'm $18 closer to paying for my senior trip. $18 of $1000. :/ Oh well, can't have everything...

I'm going to bake scones this Friday!! ^O^ You don't know how happy that makes Lisa. It makes her feel all homey and warm and fuzzy. Besides, I've owed my family a meal since 8th grade, when they helped me BS my cooking class final. >_> Yes, I cheated on my cooking final. Sue me for being pathetic. In any case, having happy warm scones and afternoon tea will help us get in the mood for the Harry Potter movie!! XD~~~XD Teehee!

Final note: Lisa's in luu~uuvv... XDXD No, Lisa's not going into specifics. Lisa's just been all warm and fuzzy for the last two days. She's had WFF's in general. Whatever. I can be a featherbrained little ditz if I want to. ^O^ waa~aaaiiii!!!! (you'll only know what I'm talking about if you're Amanda & co. And they'd probably tell me "I told you so!" if they read this. >_< At least they don't frequent this Pita... Or at least, I hope not. O.o) NEways... |_473r, f005! Got college applications and chinese homework to do. Doh!

np: nothing

tee hee! :3 Phi, Phi! I took that CLAMP male matchmaker thingy too, and my top two were Li Shaoran and Ferio. ^_^ Interesting... Actually, Kamui was up there too. o.O I was hoping for Eriol, but he was way down there in the middle somewhere. >_> Anyways... Li! And Ferio! I was kinda hoping for Ten-oh, though, from RG Veda... Was Ten-oh even on there? (goes to check)

A~anyways... I have not done any college apps yet this weekend. >_> What a waste of not going to see the Harry Potter movie with Phi and Kix! Grrr. At least I got some other homework done; calculus, english, and other stuff is done. But still. Grr. Gotta go meet my physics group to do our lab, which consists of four guys and me. >_> Yeah... Oh well. At least I sorta have a start on my portion of the lab...

I wanna Ken plushie. Did I tell all of you that already? Cuz' I need something to hug. >_< Darn college apps and homework and arghalboggledingdong. ......dang, what ~did~ I have for lunch?

np: Chiisana Inori (by Tulip, from Fruits Basket... at least I think the artist is Tulip...)

I'm neutral good! ^O^ Why am I not surprised?

Anyways... Lisa got a 94/100 on her Brave New World essay. That's hecka good, since this was the first essay Lisa wrote all senior year. :3 (yes, my teacher takes a long time to get essays back. don't bug her! she has to have other people read the essays to her, her eyesight is so bad. >_< Poor Mrs. H...) Anyways. I was happy. I had "goods" and "excellents" scrawled all over the place, for various insights. ^O^ w00t!!! (darn you, Phi! Look what you're making me do! I don't even know what w00t means! >_<) Yeah, anyways... I got points off because in my second and third paragraphs, I didn't tie the concluding sentence into the theme well enough. Oh wells. Oh, and I so~oo wanted to go see the Harry Potter movie with Phi and Kix; but this whole being grounded thing is getting really annoying. I have really got to finish college apps. >_< grrr. I wanna see the movie! But my daddy already bought tickets for the family to go see Harry Potter next Friday, so... w00t!! ^O^ I might have to work on apps through Thanksgiving Day to get them done by Friday though. >_< Hmph. Well, it's an excuse to avoid my relatives, who are nice, but very loud people. :/ I like my quiet anti-socialness, thank you.

Ooh, and I made 51 bucks today!! that is some major w00t! The deal? I get $17/hour to tutor. I tutored an hour and a half today, I do it again on Wednesday. Three hours of tutoring x $17 = $51. ^_^ I'm well on my way to paying for my senior trip to that Club Med with Amanda & co. ~and~ for AX with Phi and Kix and Kenji and co.! ^O^ Well, it is ~$1300 I need to raise :/ Eww. Okay, if I make $200 a month, $260 with the dough my parents give me, and I have from mid-November to mid-May, say, that's 6 months, times 200, $1200. O_o Not too shabby at all. Not at all... And I have stuff stashed in the bank... woohoo~ooo!! I think I'll actually be able to manage this! ^O^

Now if only I could say the same about college apps... All right! I will FINISH them THIS WEEK dammit!! >_<

and on a side note: my cat finally showed up!! ^O^ so I finally got a picture of her! so now I can finally draw her! and I won't get pathetically screw over my art grade because I didn't do the assigned project! woohoo~ooo!!!!! XDXD gwahahahaaa~aaaaaa....!! okay, i'm done.

np: still nothing

Okay. I'm probably going to regret this later, but I just have to rant about this. >_< I apologize ahead of time. Phi~ii!! Why did you have to give me so much food for thought today? ;_; Oh well. Not like I'm gonna be able to sleep tonight anyways...

Anyways. The Harry Potter debate with Pekkle. >_> Foof. Do you really want to get me started on the literary/speculative values of all tne books you two brought up? Fine. You poked the lazy sleeping tiger with the big whopping stick. Okay! Firstly, the comparison between Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter. I've read both. I like both. In terms of allegorical meaning, neither have any; Tolkien said so himself, and as for Harry Potter... Anyone who was trying to find allegories in there would have to be an English major with a lot of time on his/her hands. So basically, my first point is that the two sets of books start on the same level of literary meaning; they're very enjoyable, their characters are wonderful and three dimensional, and their settings are otherworldly, (yes, Harry Potter's world is too; if you've read the book, you'll see the way the setting is portrayed; despite its setting in the real world the book is very fantasy-world like) both are essentially meant to be enjoyed, not to be analyzed. They are for recreation. Social and scientific theories, no. Insight into characters of varying backgrounds and talents, yes. If you want my candid opinion, Harry Potter and the Lord of the Rings are not suitable subjects for comparison. Lord of the Rings is a fantasy epics; it could and should be compared to the books by Robin Hobb, David Eddings, George R. R. Martin, and, though I am loathe to say it, Robert Jordan. Harry Potter is not epic fantasy. I'm not quite sure what it is. I don't have anything to really compare it to; the closest thing I have are some of the books by Roald Dahl, and YES, his books are children's books, but the reason they're successful is that they speak to people of different age groups on different levels; same with Harry Potter. To my little sister, Harry Potter is about the flying broomsticks and the invisible cloak. To me, Harry Potter is about the passing of youth, paths to redemption, and the knowledge that life is not often how you want it to be. A child wouldn't pay attention to those parts of the books, because their experience hasn't yet brought them to that level. But because Harry Potter speaks to me on so many levels, I find it just as fulfilling as Lord of the Rings or any of the other fantasy books that I read for fun, as well as for glimpses into human nature. That's what these books are about; not social or scientific theory. They're about human nature, and the existence of evil and good, and of the conflict between them.

And don't get me started on Evangelion. I did understand Evangelion; unlike most people, I found the last two episodes very, very haunting. They gave me flashbacks to some books I've read... The feeling of emptiness and unfulfilment, the lack of meaning and accomplishment- heck, that's existentialism in a nutshell, and I should know, becuase the "religion" I identify with (it's not even a religion, go fig, but it's the closest thing I have- maybe I should just call it my life philosophy...) is agnostic existentialism- the only meaning in life is the meaning you give it. Thing is, in terms of scientific theory, I didn't get much out of Evangelion; it was convincing, but it didn't give me much hard science for me to connect to. Got more of that in, say, Snow Crash, but that was more of a cyberpunk book, you know, the world of ultra-advanced internet, so it doesn't really count. But anyways... Evangelion didn't have much to say about social structure either. You want a scifi story about social structure, you read Dispossessed by Ursula McGuin. That's hella good use of the sci-fi genre; there's no other way you'd be able to contrast two such disparate "utopias", a successful capitalistic society and a successful socialistic society, side by side. It's wonderful... But yes, theories are all well and good. But I don't see what people consider so terribly deep about Evangelion. Maybe I'm just missing the theological aspect of it; in any case, most of the time, I consider Eva what I consider most well-plotted anime to be- a colorful, entertaining, bittersweet story about people who could be real. Which isn't so different from Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings; except Harry Potter is "targeted" for children. Guess what? Lack of SAT words in a text does not make it juvenile; it just makes it accessible. Accessibility does not obscure the intent of a work; I personally think it emphasizes it. Literature is about communication. What use is communicating if people can't understand what is being said? Children especially; how are their minds going to develop if they aren't given something of a higher level than they're used to reading? And Harry Potter IS. I've actually read through some of the other children's books of today, thanks to the book orders my little sister gets every so often. Took me less then an hour to read ~125 pages. You know what? In terms of sentence structure, content, characterization, vocabulary, and even length, Harry Potter is in a class above the others. (just on a random note, I've spotted quite a few SAT words in the text of each of the Harry Potter books.) What that means? It means 1.) HP is raising the standard of children's books becuase to kids, this is an "acceptable" book for them to be reading, socially, without seeming unnaturally nerdy and 2.) adults are more able to identify with the content because it ~is~ more complicated than a normal children's book. Don't want to take my word for it? Fine. Read the books and form your own opinion. But Harry Potter is not a waste of time; I think that despite it's target audience, the books goes much beyond the norm for a child's book; enough so that I consider it on par with all the "adult" books I read. The subject matter is meant to attract children, true; but the fact is is that there is more to effectively written book than the subject matter.

Egad. I'm never doing that again. I'm sorry! I already apologized, but I'm sorry!! @_@ Damn literatary analysis anyway. I'll go finish my calculus homework now. >_<

np: nothing

Phi? Where in the world did you find that Colorgenics test? O.o It made me go "EEP!", some parts of it were so accurate. >_<

My results:

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover.

You like the better things in life. You are sensuous and emotional. Okay, I might have issues with the sensuous and emotional part, but otherwise it's been pretty accurate so far... You are a follower of the Arts ... and you seek an environment that will give you the fulfilment to the senses that you need. Dude. O.o Wow.

You are not an argumentative sort of person and "rather than fight - you'd switch" (an old cigarette ad cliche). No one has pinpointed me so accurately before; in so many ways. >_< But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. ;_; Hear hear. So in order to have peace and quiet ... you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself ...but deep down-you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot. :dies:

Matters have not gone well for you. You are experiencing severe stress trying to guard yourself from further disappointments.It would seem that all of your hopes and dreams have not been realised .. and you are now beginning to doubt yourself. Okay, this part is inaccurate. Quite the contrary: I think things are going VERY well. Thing is, there's just too much going on at one time. You no longer wish to be further advised by anyone and you insist on going it alone... to control your own destiny. True; I never like outside advice. And I don't believe in destiny, so even that's a moot point. Even though deep down you doubt whether things will get better in the future... you have one consolation - and that is that they couldn't possibly get worse. Okay, where did that one come from? I'm not a pessimist; not an optimist either. I like to think I'm a realist. My consolation: when I get this crap done I won't have to worry about it anymore. Unwilling to give up anything that you possess, you are looking for some sort of security as a protection against any further setback or loss of position and prestige. You are so negative that you tend to exaggerate your problems and refuse to accept any advice from so called well-meaning friends. Okay, so the only part about this paragraph that's really true is the part about exaggerating my problems and me not liking getting advice. The rest of this test was pretty on the mark...

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. Good to know. But I figured that... All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray .. and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have result in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. None of this works. But oh well... But that is not the answer .... You have the power to succeed. Believe in yourself... All is possible to him who believes ....Wishy washy end to a test that got it half-way right... But the parts that it DID get right made me go wooo~oooow. O.o No one's understood me that well before...

.....eep.

np: Get Over by Dream (Hikaru no Go OP!!)

I just D/Led the first episode of Hikaru no Go. :3 Wait, correction; I just WATCHED the first episode of Hikaru no Go. With subtitles and everything. :3 Which very well explains why I'm listening to Get Over right now. The song will probably grow into one of my favorites pretty soon... because I love the anime so muuu~~uccchh!!! The pacing is perfect! I was wondering how they were going to do the beginning of the first episode, because I feel the first scene of the manga would be rather awkward as an introduction to the anime... But I think the anime producers did quite well, thank you. ^_^ They did rearrange events a little so that the game with Akira came before Hikaru's little escapades in that Go school, but that makes sense; obviously they want to focus the anime on the rivalry between Akira and Hikaru, and that's just fine with me. :P What is it with rival dynamics that are so fascinating? Especially this rival pair. I guess it's more of an intellectual thing than anything else, and as I'm really more interested in intellectual competition than all the physical fighting that most guy shows focus on... And I like guy shows better than girl shows (with a few exceptions) because mushiness bores the heck out of me. ^^;; I couldn't finish watching more than four episodes of Marmalade Boy... But yeah. Hikaru no Go... <3 waa~aaaiiii...! Even the background music is well-composed and strategically placed. Like, at the beginning of Fruit Basket they had this really beautiful BGM, but it was playing in the most incongruous scene possible. >_< I'm sure the producers will handle it better later, but the point is that BGM's must be well composed, AND they have to match the contents of the scene they're the background for. I think Hikaru no Go managed that pretty well. ^_^ Anyways... I have a lot of crap to do. ^^;; I resolved to finish all my short answer questions for my college applications today. So it looks like that's what my Saturday night's gonna be. ^^;; Oh well...

Lisa would like to leave you with a final comment. Sai's voice is so bishie... <3 He's Youzen from Houshin Engi too. meow. Heck, everyone's voices were nice....andandand... Okay, shutting up before I go off into HikaGo worship again...

np: professed intention -and real intention (freaky weird Serial Experiment Lain song O.o I like it. ^_~ It reminds me of someone trying to raise a mob fever pitch...then breaking out into dance music. o.O Yeah, I'm weird. But so's Lain.)

I have some interesting things to amuse Harry Potter fans out there. I was looking through the picture diary I keep with my little sister (you know, one of those group diary sorta things... You draw/write in it, pass it on to the next person, and they give it back do you and you respond. Me and my sister use it to comment on each others' art) and yeah, I found a page where I had a bunch of little Harry Potter sketches. I sorta tilted my head and went, hmm... Those are kinda worth scanning, actually... So I scanned them, and fiddled with the lines a little to make them darker, and I went, hmmm... Those would look kinda nice if they were CG'ed a little. So I made some half-@$$ed attempts to CG them (I think I spent 10 minutes on Hermione >_< lazy butt...) and tadaa!! Harry Potter fanart. :P Only Harry and Ron and Hermione... But hey, it's something, right? I wanna try Draco and Lupin and Sirius next. ^_~ And I wanna polish up Harry and gang, cuz' they don't deserve half-@$$ed CG's. ^^;; I'll turn myself into a Harry Potter fanartist yet... Anyways, the pics. If you can't determine who's who... I'd be sad. Very sad. See how sad I'd be. ;_;

  

So yeah, anyways. What was it I wanted to talk about? Oh yeah. I've been getting chronic headaches again. And I fall asleep in the afternoon every day now when I try to do my homework. >_< Can we say, "lack of sleep"? Three day weekend... Dude, it's coming at a good time... I've also discovered I'm borderline for three of my classes- Calculus BC, Biology AP, and Physics Honors. I have 89% in all three of them. O_o Wow. At least I still have around, oh, two months to get that one percent in each of the classes... Still, that's yet another factor to contribute to my chronics headaches. Another factor's college apps. >_< I did write two of my essays. I gave them to Ms. K to proofread (she rulez!) so at least I can semi-not worry about those two... But I still have two more essays and a whole bunch of short answer questions to do. >_< And I have to set up interviews, and finish up the UC application, and look into financial aid stuff... Actually, that's a lot less than I was thinking I had to do. O.o Maybe it's cuz' secondary school reports and teacher recommendations and score reports are done... No, wait, score reports are NOT done. >_< AP scores. Must send AP scores. GAH!! And do the UC schools want SAT score reports? gahh...busybusybusy... But good news! Mr. S. helped me take slide photos of all the pictures I want to put into my portfolio and I dropped of the roll of film and Wolf Camera, so I should have slides of my portfolio within the week! :3 Then I can send those of to my colleges, and I'll have one less thing to worry about! ^O^ woohoo!! Okay... I can do this... The sooner I finish my college apps the sooner I'll be ungrounded. >_> Yes, you read me right. Until I finish my college applications, I'm grounded. 'Zah. I see the need for it... Gives me lots of incentive... Still. It sucks. >_<

But BESIDES college... I'm working on an illustration of a scene from Fool's Errand (Robin Hobb! Robin Hobb!!) for fun, because I lubs the book and I have the itch to draw Fitz and the Fool. ^_^ Err, Lord Golden. Err, whatever. ^^;; That's not a spoiler, really. So don't bug me! I already have concept sketches. I'm absolutely delighted by the project. ^_^ I'll post the concept sketches tomorrow, maybe...

ohohohoooohhh!!! And I found the Hikaru no Go opening theme! It's by Dream. I kinda like it... Kinda nice... Not particularly memorable to me, but considering my taste in music that doesn't mean very much. ^^;; I also D/Led the opening animation. Akira!! :3 laalaaalaaa~aaaaa.... Lisa happy. Lisa sees one of her darlings animated!! Lisa also saw the second Suikogaiden opening. The video was rather dark, unforunately, but nevertheless, it has Nash in it. And Nash is, of course, one of Lisa's darlings. ^_^ Don't even let me get into Ken... WAA~AIII!! Ken-sama~aaa!! (I won't make any whipping references, cuz' I'm not WARPED like some people! Random nickles? Master debater? RUBBER DUCKY? >_< People people...) :p Still, I wuvs my Ken. I wanna Ken plushie! I'll make one mySELF if I have to! Never mind that I've never picked up a needle with the intent to stick it into fabric in my life. >_< But yeah...

I wanna Fitz plushie too. And a Fool plushie. And a Fennel plushie. And dammit, I needa go take a picture of Peachy-cat! >_< Darn that cat! Just like a cat, she's never around when you need her. >_< (Peachy's my family's sorta cat. We feed her. That's about it. I need to take a picture of her for my art project, but it's not working, because the only way I'm going to manage to get a picture of her is if I surprise her at the food bowl. >_< Darn cat... But we love her anyways. ^_^) Oh well. I'm gonna go work on homework type stuff now. What! you exlaim. Homework? On a FRIDAY NIGHT? Well. I'm 4 g33k. Need I explain myself anymore? ^_^

Until the next time I pita!! (may it be soon... for once...)

np: Rakuen (Trigun :3)

Yet again, it takes me forever to write an entry. And there's so much I wanted to write about, too. >_< It's simple: the more I have to write about, the less time there is to pita. Which makes sense, of course, but it's damn annoying. I wanted to rant about my boo~oook!!

Well, heck, why don't I do it now? MY BOOK CAME!! The book? Fool's Errand by Robin Hobb. And Robin Hobb is ONLY my favorite author ever. :3 To demonstrate to you my absolute obsessive fanaticism concerning Robin Hobb and her drool-icious novels, Fool's Errand doesn't come out in the United States until next year. Lisa is not waiting that long. Lisa wants NOW. So Lisa goes and orders the book from England because Lisa does not want to wait however frickin' many months it'll take for the frickin' US publishers to release this book and besides, the English cover is soo~ooooo much prettier. *_* oo~ooohhhh... pwe~eettyyy... John Howe is da man! One of his paintings of Gandalf is now the wallpaper for my laptop. ^_~ So yeah, I get the book, and I'm like bubblybubblybubblywho-the-heck-cares-that-i-have-homework-and-college-apps-to-do!! And I read the entire book on Friday night and Saturday. The book is 575 pages. It was the happiest 575 pages I've read for a long, long time. *_* I'll really try not to spoil anything for anyone... But Ms. Hobb ended this one soo~ooo much more satisfyingly than in her first trilogy. And I'm rooting for the relationship between Fitz and the Fool/Lord Golden/Amber. :3 And I'm still confuzzled as the Fool's gender, so I try not to think about it anymore. >_< Gah. Adrogynous characters... But I absolutely wuvs the Fool, so it's okay. ^_^ And despite the tone of the book, reminescent of the sorta bittersweet/life-like feeling of the first trilogy, I still came out of the book much happier than when I went in. Probably because of the end, which had a highly satisfying denouement... Robin Hobb is a GENIUS I tell you! GENIUS! As in sparkly-wonderful-I-worship-the-ground-she-walks-on BRILLIANT! I am in awe of her m4d 5ki|_|_5. ^_^ And crap, speaking of literature, I have to go read Dubliners for Lit AP. O_o Do you realize the depth of my hatred for James Joyce? Sure, he's a brilliant writer, he revolutionized modern literature, blah blah blah, but I HAD TO READ ULYSSES FRESHMAN YEAR. I didn't know anyone could write a forty-page long run-on sentence without the slightest desire to put in a period or a comma or a semicolon or SOMETHING. Stream of consciousness my @$$. Give me DIALOGUE. Dialogue is good. And now, I most go study for my calculus test (definite and indefinite integrals!) and read James Joyce. >_< Ughhh....

np: ame agari (moeko matsuhita - angelic layer ^_^)

Heyheyhe~ey happy people!

I have so much fun stuff to tell you. It's practically going to bubble out of me, if I don't get it out soon. But, first, I need to honor a request someone made of me more than a week ago. I need to change the butterfly layout. ^^;; It is kinda interesting to look at... in a blinding sort of way... :p I think people have problems with that, though. Not everyone is colorblind in regards to green and blue like I am. ^_~ Well, my next layout is being coded right now. And it's nice normal non-blinding blue!! So, yes. I'll code it now. You don't need to suffer the green-ness and blue-ness for too much longer! So be happy. ...please? i'm really trying....