np: Far Away Land (gensou suikogaiden. very fun-happy celtic-y. ^_^)

Heehee, I can't believe I finished my homework. O.o So I started doodling like I haven't had the chance to do in a while. And since picture diaries are fun, and I have pictures that I presently have no use for (since i'm too lazy to actually try to update my site >_<) I decided to inflict my pictures on all of ~you~ because I feel like it. ^_^ lalalaa~aaa.... (incidentally, i think moon cakes are laced with crack too. Happy Mid-Autumn Festival, everyone! Be multicultural and eat a moon cake. ^_~ And enjoy the moon too. Maybe you can see the bunny or the pretty lady. I sure can't. O.o

anyways... piccies!



^_^ teehee. i'm a lazy butt. none of these are actually finished. ^^;; Just to give you a rundown... Going from left to right, top to bottom:

1. Character design for a random original character I call Enju. He's, like, semi-villain and very fun. ^_^ The sketch isn't finished though. Must finish a picture of him. >_< His body's a little out of proportion, but he has ATMOSPHERE. the "you-are-all-~insects~" villain smirk. ^_^ teehee!
2. "Water healer" my @$$. I don't know where I pulled that title from. ^^;; Another random original character; he's pretty, but a wee bit skinny. As I tend to draw people. ^^;; doh... I like my lines on this one though. Clean. ^_^
3. If you know me in RL you've seen this one, probably. ^^;; One of the few females I've drawn lately, and since she seemed kinda...oceanic, I named the picture "oceanic." ^^;; She's not anybody in particular. She's just pretty. ^_^
4. Another one you've seen if you know me RL. My White Mage for the RP! ^O^ finally tried to clean up the sketch... Didn't do a very good job though. >_< Yes, everyone, this is the crackpot White Mage I like ranting about. ^_^ The fluffy ball on top is named Fifi. It's pink. It's a Shoujo Critter. Be very afraid. ^_~
5. A character from the same universe as Enju named Kenichi. He's the sweet clueless main character. ^_^ This sketch is a bit light, and he looks less sweet-and-clueless than he should be, and his body's not proportional, but oh well...
6. Finally! A CLEAN, inked, non-sketch! I think I wanna try to ink this one soon... It looks so CG-able...it's unbearbly tempting. *twitch-twitch* He's just a random kid that I thought looked like somebody's rival. Dunno why. Maybe the eyes or something. And he's too skinny. >_< grrr. Must work on proportions...

Okay. Done inflicting my half-assed doodles on you now. ^_^ I suppose I'll go read my physics n' stuff... Gah, the really do put crack in pearl milk tea. >_< I'm still feeling the effects seven hours after imbibing the thing... Yes, everyone! I'm as cracked as my RP character right now. ^_^ Lalaa~aaaa... pearl milk tea and moon cakes do NOT make for calmness...

np: sonata in G for recorder and flute (jean-pierre rampal)

Hey ppl.

I was getting sick of my econ textbook, so I decided I better put in some sort of input into my diary. Just to prove that I hadn't died of caffeine overdose or something. :P

umph. i'm strangely depressed. dunno why. think it's because i totally blew saturday, and i actually wanted to get something ~done~ saturday. but i didn't. The feeling I hate most in the world is... I dunno. Guess you could call it stagnancy. Being unproductive. Not changing. Yesterday felt like that. Swampy. Full of the rancid effluvia of laziness and unproductivity. It was so icky. I went to sleep last night depressed; more depressed than I have for a long while. I think I've figured myself out. Being tired, or angry, or sad, isn't what really makes me depressed or out of sorts. It's when I don't have anything to do and I ~waste~ the time I have. It's not really interpersonal relationships or how I'm doing in school or art or anything that truly depress me; it's if I'm not ~doing~ anything to fix them or if I waste time. I guess it's because I don't believe in an afterlife. The life I have is the life I have, and I better make the most of it. So when I don't, I'm pissed at myself. Heehee. Little existentialist agnostic right here. :P

Ooh, I'm feeling a lot better now. Strangely enough, my rush of good feeling came just as the first card captor sakura ed, "Groovy", popped up on my playlist. ^_^ Have you heard the song? If you have, I'm sure you'll know what I mean. It's so ~mellow~! ^_^ Yes, I'm feeling much better now. I think I just had to vent to ease my feelings of idleness. >_< Productivity!! Productivity is ~good~!! As much productivity as possible!!! YES!!

inner voices: you're sounding really kinky right now.
me: ......'kay.....now you're scaring ME...
inner voices: Afraid you have it backwards, dear. You're the one who's getting kinky with productivity.
me: and WHO'S the one who came up with comparison? it would take someone ~with~ a dirty mind to come up with it...
inner voices: Ah, there your arguement falters. For we are a part of ~your~ mind.
me: ........;_; I'm ~sorry~!! But it's not my fault! The drama people at my school inFECTED me! Like how one went to the person they were angry at, "you SUCK, " and the other person went "I suck ~what~? That's the ~real~ question. ^_^" O.o You can see where I get it from, right? it's the people I hang out with!! not me!!
inner voices: ...oh my.

Ahem. Anyways. I feel better so I think I'll go back to working on my economics now. ^_^

np: Spicy Marmalade(Kotani Kinya, from Gravitation, which I promise I will see someday)

I am on such a pearl milk tea caffeine buzz it's not even funny. O.o

I think I've been abusing myself very badly today in terms of caffeine. It's all because yesterday was so terrible in terms of homework and sleep for me. >_< My calc teacher assigned me, like, 60 problems, and they were ~lengthy~ problems; I was also studying (procrastinating) for hours for my physics quiz (that was today); that's not mentioning my Brave New World essay, which is now, thankfully, done. (But I wrote the entire first draft last night.) Along with everything else I had to take care of... So no, I did not have a very good time of sleeping last night. >_<

Which, of course, brings me to my caffeine buzz. ^_^ This morning, I had my customary cup of self-brewed milk tea. During the course of the day, I had no less than four caffeinated mints with the intention of keeping me awake through my various morning classes; possibly more than four. I forget. :P In the afternoon I had a lovely lovely cup of pearl milk tea. (in my opinion, they lace that thing with crack and uber amounts of caffeine. it's that addictive.) And now, thanks to my day of abusing my poor drug-laced system, I have no desire to sleep. ^^;; Gahaha. I'm an idiot. ^^;;

Have I told you that I hate trains? Yesterday I was driving to pick my sister and there was a train blocking the way. 'Kay. So I wait it out. It's gone, I go on. Guess what? The road I'm going on has a curved shape; sorta like an "S". Guess what else? The train tracks just HAPPEN to cut through both curves of the "S". >_< And you know what that means? I got to wait through the same train. THREE FRICKIN' TIMES. CONSECUTIVELY.

Who the hell planned the roads in my stupid city? I want BLOOD!! BRING ME HIS HEAD!! GAARHHHHH!!!!!!

I'm okay, really. Just a few neurons loose, that's all. Nothing to worry about.

I'd better sleep. I probably need it, somewhere past the haze of this caffeine buzz...

llookielookie, it's a squireellllll!! It's FUzzYY!!!!

<---l n33d |/|4j3r |-|3|_p, f00. l |-|4|/3 puu0b|_3|/|z. lzzu3z. uu|-|4t3|/4. ^_^

np: sweet silence. I mean, like literally. it's not the name of a song or anything. it's just nice, solitary, the only-sound-I-hear-is-my-fingers-tapping-on-the-keyboard silence. ^_^

Aaahhh... I feel unaccountably peaceful. Unaccountably because I have no particular reason to be; I'm not really done with my homework...well, actually I am, but there were some things that I wanted to work on, like my Brave New World essay... But my calculus homework is done, after some major brain cramps mid-afternoon (I did the same problem three different ways multiple times and came up with a different answer every time ^^;;) but I figured out my mistake, and finished the homework. And then I had happy quiet time reading my Paula Volsky book, The Grand Ellipse (I promise that it's not about conic sections), which actually has a likeable main female character. ^_^

My econ teacher wants to read the Robin Hobb book too. ^_^ I love my econ teacher. She's nearly as obsessed wiuth Robin Hobb as I am. ^O^

np: Voice of Elf (record of lodoss war)

WAA~AAAIIII!!!! Robin Hobb's new book is coming out in England on OCTOBER 15! And I can get it for 19.38 pounds including shipping, which is approximately $28.37. That's the price you get hardcover books for in the ~U.S.~ sometimes. So is the money worth it? Oo~ooh, yes. Sweet. Ohmigosh, this is so cool... and the cover is so absolutely gorgeous for the English version. ^_^ Check it out. Lovely, lovely. Heehee, I'm a nerd. And I don't CARE.

What else? oh, I'm proud of my physics lab group. Of their own volition, they voted to give me more points than the rest of the group for the work I did for the lab. ^_^ Ah, they restore my faith in the integrity of the students at my school. Good children. Besides that, I took a nap for like, three hours when I got home. O.o I guess I'm not getting enough sleep, huh? Have my Brave New World theme essay to write. My thesis? "Helmholtz is used as a foil to Bernard to show that those who rebel against society because they are excluded from it would rather try to find a place in society than actually change its foundations." ..........riveting, isn't it? I can hear the roar of approval now... No wait, those are snores.

np: H.T. (Trigun OP; the closest thing to "angry" music I have, and it's not very angry. ^^;;)

Woo. What a stuffed day.

Kay, this morning I woke up at 5:45 AM. (it was supposed to be 5:30 but I just wasn't getting up. my father had to convince me to get up. ^_^) We hauled ourselves over to the Sandhill Challenge racetrack and watched a tank, a computer, and a hamster in a giant hamster wheel roll down a hill. ^_^ No, I'm not going to explain, and yes, everything I have just said is ~literally~ true. So there. :P That lasted til 11:30 or so; then my dad and I went to eat at In'n'Out (the BEST burgers in the world :P), then we went to Fry's Electronics so my dad could get some S-Video cables and I could look at CD players, and then we went to Fantasia and got pearl milk tea! ^O^ pearlmilkteapearlmilkteapearlmilktea!!! wheee~~eeeeee!!!

Yes, children, this is what an addict looks like.

Anyways, after pearl milk tea, came home and worked on my physics lab, then went to the library to meet my group members to finish said physics lab at four. I hauled my laptop over there, and I watched in horror as the guys in my lab group nearly crashed my computer. >_< Gah. Anyways, spent two hours there, and ~I~, at least, was very productive. Came home, typed up remaining portions of lab, sent it out so everyone had a copy of the Excel workbook, because it was on ~my~ computer because ~I~ graphed all the #&$^ing data, thank you very much. >_< Graphs were not MY job. How did they end up that way? Damn teamwork anyway. I would do much better on my own. ....well, not if my group members were smarter than me. I would be happy to have lab partners smarter than me. Then I don't have to think as much. ^_^

Anyways, finished that, ate dinner very painfully due to my blasted recently-tightened-braces, helped my daddy sodder back together one of the S-Video cables (which he managed to break since he got it this morning ^^;; where ~do~ I get it? incidentally, soddered metal smells funny. and wires really ~do~ conduct heat well. i have my fingers to prove it.) and yeah, S-Video cables... What else? Oh yes. I finally gave in and filled in the Stanford app Basic Info section online, and sent it in, so it's DONE. as in, no need to worry about that section anymore. Hurrah. One down, who knows how many more to go?

I like Rice. O.o Texas, huh? Interesting. At least Lisa wouldn't turn into an icicle. ^^;;

np: Battlefield Without Light (suikogaiden I)

;_; I was so happy, surfing around for happy Nash pictures. (^O^ NA~ASHH!!! as in, blonde main character of suikogaiden who fights with two swords? the really, really cute one? gah, not all that many people are obsessed enough with gensou suikoden to care about the suikogaiden. >_<) Anyways, found happy suikogaiden I and II summaries! With visual aids! ^_^ They're here. Naa~aashh.... <3<3<3 I'm such a fangirl. ^^;; Then I checked my email and found that my physics honors grades had been updated. (it was good. I have a 97.8% in the class right now. ^O^ now how long is it gonna stay like that...?) Anyway, the point isn't that I got my grades for physics. The point is that I realized I have a physics lab to do. Preferably by tonight, so I can give my section to one of my lab group partners so she can do the conclusion. O_o And ~I~ haven't gotten the portion another one of the group members was supposed to give me yet; how the hell am I supposed write a discussion about the graphed results for a lab when I don't have the graphs? ^^;; I guess I'll just graph them myself... And that's the problem. That takes TIME. LOTS. Much data to input into the Excel spreadsheet. And it's already 4:10!! >_< Where has the day gone? Oh wait, I know where it's gone. Nash took it. ^_^

um yeah. So I the physics lab to do; I also have to fill out college apps tonight. My parents are going to sit down with me and make me do them. >_< So there goes tonight. That means I have to do my physics lab NOW. ^^;; doh!

However, I would like to mention my absolute delight in junkfood-drunk Suppi. ^O^ Yes, I was watching Card Captors this morning. Sue me. Pioneers going to take forever to get the subtitled CCS out to its rabid consumers, and Card Captors was on NOW. Besides, I'm getting to like it. (anime purists: *collective GASP*) Yes, I like it. Not Sakura's voice, not Tomoyo's voice, and Lee isn't nearly as grumpy and gruff as I think he should be, but I'm getting to like everyone else. Kinda like what they did with Nakuru. ^^; And Suppi. (but SPINNER? O_O) Um, yeah. Anyways, drunk Suppi was ~funny~. ^_^ The only other time I've seen drunk Suppi was the little short that went with the second movie, and I was like O.o cuz I didn't know what the #&$^ was going on. ^^;; Heehee. I'm informed now. ^_^

Digimon was fun too. ^_^ Almost messed up my recording though. >_< Gah. I suck at this sort of thing...

I have a physics lab to do. Dammit. Oh well, better start on it. Maybe my parents will bring me home some pearl milk tea!! ^O^ <----enough motivation to keep me going for hours and hours... and that's just for the HOPE of getting pearl milk tea. ^_~ Teehee. Addict? No way.

np: A Love Before Time (coco lee in mandarin)

I've downloaded more than 110 mp3s tonight. O.o And I'm showing no signs of slowing down. ^^;; Not like my winamp playlist isn't long enough ~already~. Just for fun, I stuck all the mp3s I had available on this computer and the shared ones on the network (some of my mp3s are unavailable from my computer because they're not yet on one of the shared network folders) onto a playlist in winamp and I ended up with a list of about 680 mp3s. O.o And I estimate I have around 200-300 not on the shared network folder. And then adding in the 120 (now :P) mp3s that I downloaded today... Du~~~ude... O.O

I think I might just run myself out of hard drive space. O.o I didn't think I'd be able to manage it... Oh, knock on wood. Too late. >_> Just ran myself out of hard drive space on this computer. Doh. Gonna have to burn some stuff... And figure out how to share the G folder on the server... Then I can stick mp3s there! ^O^

...the sad thing is, quite a few of the songs are in japanese. ^^;; I don't understand a word of japanese, beyond such random things as "onee-san", "suteki", "tomodachi", and "konnichiwa." ^^;; Sad, sa~ad anime fan. ^^ Heehee.

But to tell you the truth, most of the songs are instrumentals. ^O^ I lu~uv instrumentals. Instrumentals goo~ood...

I finished my calculus homework! On a Friday night! ^O^ So proud of myself... I deserve some ramen! ^_^ Actually, I cooked myself some before Lili came over so we could make the yearbook cover together. (we finished! in one afternoon! so efficient. ^_^) And yeah, anyways, ramen's really one of the few solid things I can eat right now. >_< Orthodontist put in two new wires yesterday. Today, teeth hurt. Teeth hurt, painful to eat solid food. Solution? Don't eat solid food. ^^;; Which meant a cup of tea for breakfast and diced peaces of a pear for lunch. ^^;; But I made up for my sketchy lunch with the ramen. ^_^ so THERE.

Watched the Tribute to Heroes thingy tonight. (errr, last night. it's late. or early. depending on your perspective.) Made me teary eyed; the stories and the music and...yeah. If I hadn't already donated my savings I woulda been on one of those phones...oh well. I heard from somewhere that more than 500 million has already been raised for the relief effort? O.o wow. Who says Americans don't care? We're just complacent, that's all. ^_~

Saturday tomorrow!! Cartoo~~oons!!! ^O^ I'm such a little kid. ^_^ Gotta love your Saturday morning cartoons! And your Cinnamon Toast Crunch, and Lucky Charms, and Smacks, and waffles, and milk, and tea, and toast, and...ohmigosh, I'm making myself hungry. O_o Gah! Breakfast! I crave BREAKFAST!!

inner voices: You really have to get out more.
me: I went to the library after I went to the orthodontist's on Thursday! I got six books. I'm reading the Paula Volsky one right now. ^_^
inner voices: ...that doesn't count.
me: >.< Doh!

Must sleep now. Losing it.

np: Kaze (wada kouji, of course. not any of the other "kaze"s. wada kouji~i!!! daii~iisukii~ii!! <3<3 <--- warning! rabid fangirl on the loose!)

yooo~ooooo!! missed entry yesterday. how sad. see, last night, i totally freaked out. like, MAJOR spazzing here. ^^;; I don't know what about. Nothing in particular, actually. No big issue. I just spazzed. I think it was the aggregate of the week in general. I had NO span of time beyond, say, an hour, to just sit down by myself and relax and recharge my introverted, solitary (preferably) self. I always had some activity for some club or some class to do, involving interaction with other people. I don't know about the rest of you, but it involves a great deal of energy for me to interact with people. I might seem sociable and friendly, and I suppose I am, but it's tiring for me to deal with people. And if I have enough energy stored up to carry me through that, I'm fine. Unfortunately, this week has not been big on energy for me. Last Tuesday and the following days completely drained me, emotionally and maybe even physically, and I haven't really been getting enough sleep lately. (on a happy note, i did take a nice nap this afternoon.) Last night, I was called up with very short notice to appear at a robotics team demonstration for four hours. I went. I came back, I was tired, both from lack of sleep and from talking with people for four hours, and then my parents got on my case for some minor stupid thing, something I could have just gotten over just like that if I wasn't so tired, but I was tired, so I spazzed. Majorly. For two hours. ^^;;

I didn't help that I wasn't finished with my homework yet. Even LESS sleep that night! ^^;;

I think there's more to it than that, though. College applications, for example. I think I'm handling it okay, but... It's just daunting, that's all. >_< At least I have reccomendation letters and stuff BASICALLY taken care of... Just have to make a final decision on where I'm going to apply.

But anyway, I spazzed LAST night. I was fine today, for some reason. Maybe I just needed to get the pent-up anxiety out in a physical manner. Maybe. I usually don't need to, but recent events aren't very "usual." But anyways, today I'm feeling a lot better. Maybe it was the nap. ^^;; Then I had an orthodontist appointment. He says I'm going to be done, in, like, a month!! No more braces! No more stupid rubber bands! No more bits of apple caught between my teeth! ^^;; (i don't think i'm supposed to eat apples with braces, but screw that. i ~like~ apples.) And I finished my calc homework fairly painlessly, and I finally got to eat lunch with Amanda and Melissa and Perinda and Saara and Sachiko and Elaine and Sarah!! ^O^ I haven't been able to eat lunch with all of them all WEEK. >_< too many stupid clubs. So I was happy to finally have a nice gossiping session with them. ^_~ We also planned our senior trip. The food at that club med looks soo~oooo good. O.O And there's no legal drinking age there! ^O^ Not like I'm going to drink, really, but... I have the OPTION. THAT'S what counts. ^_~ And I embarrased Sarah. ^O^ THAT was for all the asides about MATT! HA! GWAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

everyone: O.o 'kay.

Anyways, I'm working on a new layout for the pitas, and I have crap to revive my slowly dying website with too... So all should be good. I think i'll work on that stuff tomorrow... After I help Lili finish the yearbook cover. ^^;; I'm not even ON yearbook. How the #&$^ do I get myself into these things? >_< Anyways, tomorrow should be fun and art filled. ^_^ Maybe I'll work on the pen and ink of my little White Mage for the RP tonight. That would be fun. ^_^ She's so haa~aappyyy~~! in a stoo~ooneeddd sorta wayyy....

^_^ I'm normal. Really. Don't believe my mommy when she tells you I'm crazy. She's lying. ^_^

np: Super Drive (Gravitation OP...i think...)

'Bout time I archived.

Eeheehee. I've had an interesting day. ^_~ Okay, so when I get to school, I'm prancing around because I have an American flag in the back pocket of my backpack (and I have since managed to lose said American flag >_< doh! at least I was wearing red, white and blue... I got around the prohibition on red bandanas by wearing it like a "scrunchie." ^_^ "Scrunchie." Got it?) Uh, yeah, anyways, I was prancing around with my flag. And my friends are like, O.o. 'Lisa, are you all right? You're generally...not...like this... Heck, WE'RE the ones who are like that all the time! Are you on a sugar high or something? Yeah, that's gotta be it... Damn, Lisa on a sugar high... Lisa, stop it. You're scaring us. We mean it. Stop it NOW.'

^_^

Uh, yeah. Chinese, quiz, translating english statements into chinese characters. 15/15. (only because of the extra credit problem. ^_^) English AP, read Brave New World... REVISTED. *dun-dun-DUN!* Yes, Aldous Huxley "revisted" his work. In 1958. And my school had copies of his "revisitation." >.< Not a sequel, not a supplement. A "revisitation."

Grrr.

Okay, then at brunch, my dear friend Melissa's CHARMING little brother was stealing our locker locks. O.o 'kay... I was really fine with it until he stole mine and ran off. And then I kinda went...wacko. ^_^

I believe I called him a bastard several times. I announced to the world that I would bitch-slap him within an inch of his life. I also asked Melissa's permission to strangle him, which she readily gave. Then when he (unwisely) returned to the scene of the crime I preceded to get my lock back by latching onto his arm and yelling obscenities at him... After I asked him politely to give my lock back, of course. (he didn't.) All the while, we had a large amount of people watching. Ooh, terrible man. Keeping the lock away from the poor helpless girl. And he can't even shake her off! (i have a pretty mean grip when i want to.) He finally dropped the lock and ran. ^_^

My friends looked at me a little...STRANGELY afterwards though. ^^;; I don't think they've ever seen me swearing so profusely before. ^_^ In fact... I don't think they've scene me SWEAR before. O.o Or tackle someone and laugh about it afterwards. OR tackle someone. O_o So yeah, they were pretty freaked. (they think i'm the 'good' girl. ha! shows them! ^_^) Of course, now everyone probably thinks I'm psycho too... But seriously, that really shouldn't be a surprise to them. They've known me for years. ^^;;

Anyway, it was an amusing diversion. Then in economics I had SUGAR!! (no, I hadn't had any sugar up until then. I really don't know what the heck was wrong with me all day...) Thank you Kixki~ix!! Sugar! Gave me a tummy ache, but SUGAR!! And at lunch, I discovered too late that there wasn't a robotics officer meeting so I couldn't go eat lunch with Amanda and Melissa and Sachiko and co. (;_; they had already left cuz' they thought I'd be at the robotics meeting) so I went to the anime club meeting. ^_^ Maybe I'll actually be active in that club this year...

Biology, I was given more proof that the teacher is the randomest teacher I've ever had. But that's okay, because randomness is GOOD. ^_^ She read us "The Okay Book" in class. Which is, essentially, a children's story book about things that are okay. ^^;; Next time she's going to read us Dr. Seuss. ^O^ Weirdness. I ~never~ fall asleep in that class...

Thenthen I get home, and I take a nap, and when I wake up, my calculator computer link has arrived! I've been waiting for Amazon to get that think over to me for like, a week, and here I get it just in time for my next physics lab! ^_^ I spent some quality time installing the software. I don't have a TI-83+ to test it with, though... But it DOES work with my TI-89, so that should be a good sign...

Whatelse? Nothing, really. Tomorrow I getta sleep IN! Funfun! I love block schedule... And I finally burned the music cd I've had ready to burn for weeks now. ^_^ listening to it right now...

Oh. And I finished my homework. ^^;; Good for me.

Dude, I think I've actually recovered from last week. O.o Wow. Or maybe I'm just automatically going through the motions of normalcy... Hmm. I don't know. I don't think I should think about it too much. I should just continue going about my normal business, I suppose. ^^

But still... I'm still missing those six pounds. O.o