Around one week of inaction and i'm back!With me i have brought good news!For all my overseas friend,I got an A1 for chinese O'levels.Yoohoo!All the months of anxiety have been put at rest now the results are back.Really praise God for that.I now have only 6 more subjects to face in the O'levels.Besides,my accounts are improving.So if i can get my science and maths right....I AM INVINCIBLE!!!!!Alright,help from God is needed.

Life has not been very good in school.My friends are determined to let the whole level know i like Vanessa .Haiz.I'm in deep shit,very deep shit.Awkward feeling.How i wished i had kept it to myelf in the first place.I have resolved to wipe Vanessa off my mind as of today.It's a hopeless case anyway.Plus with all that disturbance from my friends,Vanessa is VERY PISSSED OFF with me.Great,what should have been a friendship became like a taboo between us now in fear of gossips.

Suresh is gonna serve the nation real soon.Funny how i would feel if a new cgl comes to take his place.Well,just have to help that fellow.Outreach team is going fine.Finally we are doing something that's not really boring.hahaha.

Gotta go off now.Bye!

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Nerve-wrecking week ahead!
Monday, August 5, 2002

The truth is,my chinese o'levels examination is coming out anytime between today and thursday.So i'm pretty nervous.I think i deserve an A1 because i really think i did well except the screw up at my Orals as i was feeling dizzy.Guess i have to turn to God to turn in my anxiety and worries anyway.For tomorrow will worry about itself.

I went to the polyclinic last Saturday to receive my blood test result.I only have a slight high blood pressure and my cholestrol level is fine.Praise God.But nothing more was revealed though.I had to wait for three hours at the polyclinic and by the time i was home,it was about 1:30pm and so i could not go for the Take it to the streets program.Didn't join them either as i was having a little gout pain again.Went to meet for dinner with them and play Warcraft in the evenings instead.

Yesterday we went to Weiyang's house to watch movie.Quite enjoyed ourselves there although the time is always never enough.Get what i mean?As usual,not much is said between me and sharon.This is getting unhealthy.I shall get the matter solve this week!Guess if i am going to sit there and wait for her to settle this problem,it'll last an eternity.Besides,i've got an example to show to the young ones.So i shall sign off now and go and think how i should approach this matter.

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Hard Work!
Thursday, August 1, 2002

Guess i've been pretty hardworking these few days.Been staying in school to do my work until at least 6pm for the past few days.I think it's a great idea though.That way,i can be free in the evenings.Besides,my prelims are coming,so i guess why not?

I guess my journals are getting shorter since they are not base on what i do but more on my thoughts now.I love to think.Especially when i have nothing better to do.It makes me feel abit superior.hahahah.My favourite place to think have to be the toilet and my bed.But the former means i won't doze off.?Most of my good ideas come from the toilet,but it's lost mostly.Things are ever changing at Yf i guess,people can't always stick at the same place.i guess that's the only way a church can grow.We have to move forward.And how can an individual stay rooted to Yf?My answer is that he must be ever-changing also.(Do i sound like i am speaking in National Day Rally?)Those who cannot keep up must then always prepare safety levels .It means thay must have friends to account for and also rest assure in God's Promises for them.If the friends will stand by them,then surely but slowly,that individual can change too.

Now i go on to the issue of backsliders.I've always wonder why people want to backslide when they have and knew God exist.Thinking now,i realise it's only because they themselves are not assured in God.So when this happen,they are swayed by any challenge that comes.One of the big killers of Christians and especially young ones are relationships.People in Yf who have relationships are not being stop.However,we do not encourage that at an young age also be it with outsiders or the Yfers themselves.When these happens thier priorities change and the commitment is not only to God now but also to thier partners.So over time,they get stressed and it's either they leave church or they break up causing that individual's life to be change .Period.Speaking of realationships,i've not had an experience and although i would like to have one,i guess i still have to wait.Because i am young and still studying and the person i like also is young and still studying.And i realise i must not be the stumbling block to people.Sounds noble?Maybe but i hate to supress it.That's why a journal is here for and you people then can have a chance to view this page now.

Be thankful i didn't charge entry fees!

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Just my Luck:)
Monday, July 29, 2002

Was going to Marine Parade to have lunch with my classmates.Met Vanessa(not the Yf one)there and as usual my friends started teasing me.This time,it's serious,my female classmates who don't know about it is there!SEH!And that idiot Kah Kee still shout my name so loud and clear and so many times.Managed to pacify him by punching his ribs.heehee.

Jan dislocated his arm yesterday.Think he was trying to reenact Water Boys or something.He just came out of the water and told me his ar was dislocated.Honestly,i do not know whether to laugh or cry at that.In the end,Kenneth and Yilong along with Angela rushed him to NUH and after about three hours according to Yilong,he's back online!So my conclusion is it's not serious.We were at Zhaoqiang's house by the way

My relation with Sharon is getting bad ever since after that quarrel.Maybe it's better this way.Maybe i have let go but you never know.Was so awkward yesterday with her around.We never spoke to each other at all.Never Mind,God will settle it.

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OOPS i did it again!
Saturday, July 27, 2002

I've just made sharon chia pissed.Great job Reynard.Well,she's online again guess i better say ......SONY! to her.heehee.Well life has not been very easy on me.Tonnes of assignments.But i shall finish them ,just my luck to be Reynard.hahahaha.Okie,now i am trying my best to say sorry to her but she like making it very tensed.Girls......

Broke my spectacles again at Macdonald's today,wasn't even using force,i was just wiping it!Nvm,i got a spare one for 25 bucks and another Adidas one for about 200++.Since sharon lidat and if she continue like that,i will whack someone.no lah just kidding.....SHIT,i don't even know what i typing now.Goodnite!

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Happy Racial Harmony day!
Monday, July 22, 2002

My title says it all,didn't it?Well,i wore my Malay traditional clothes in school today and guess what?I found the words Pierre Cardin imprinted all over it.Damn!So "Traditional".Became the laughing stock of my class man.Hahaha.

I spotted Vanessa in a shirt in school that resembles those Siam gangsters.You have to see her to believe how manly she looks !I look to myself and ask myself why do i like a girl that's so handsome?Am i gay inclined or what?She's very pretty nevertheless.Am i nuts or something?Because the girls i like in church are like so....feminine.Must be screw loose in my head.

I called Tammy to see if something was wrong just now.'Cause she didn't reply to my SMS so i thought if anything happened.I freaked out totally when her mom answers the call and i just hung up the phone.hahah.Thank God nothing was wrong.Anyway,guess i should go offline soon.Work waiting for me at home.By the way,seems like Jianming is enjoying himself in Thailand.

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Crush......................Again!!!???!!??
Sunday, July 21, 2002

YEah that's right.My heart jumped again for this sister of mine.Not telling who but all i can say is that i must quickly brush off this thought.To me she will and will remain a sister to me.............for now.hahahaha.But i really mean it.I will not consider a relationship until i am done with my O's.Plus that sister is still studying too,so no distractions for us.

By the way,it's really nice to show concern to someone and know that they appreciate me.A sister Smsed me that she too knows that i care.Awwwwwwww,that's what makes my job worthwhile.Anyway we went to jiamin's house.16 of us.Too bad cutegal isn't there.Missed service today.Hate that feeling.Never mind,i'll get myself an alarm clock soon.Later going to stay awake to do homework also.

Just now went with Zichuan to get my Malay traditional clothes for racial harmony day tomorrow.Almost couldn't make it cause i was so late ,about 9 something.Thank God and zichuan that a way was shown and i finally got my outfit at the malay village.Great to know i have nice pals too.Wai Kiat also went around trying to borrow for me.I appreciate that too.Most of all,Thank God!Anyway,Gotta go and do my homework and sleep soon for tomorrow is a long day.Good night!

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A week of Grace from God.
Thursday, July 18, 2002

Sometimes i cannot help but wonder is that God,the one who provides my daily needs and all such,spoiling me?I have got a lot of deadlines to meet which i often cancel the meeting.And yet God,through his grace have extended the deadlines again and again.So i guess i must quickly finish those homeworks of mine so that i don't disappoint God and incur His wrath.Heehee.

It's going to be one week since Jianming left for Thailand soon.How time flies.So i guess half a year ain't so long afterall.Besides ,Jianming isn't the only reason i keep coming YF(Thank God!)Anyway,a brother's grandpa just passed away.I may be going to the wake tomorrow to see how is he doing.No Sports club yesterday which made my week quite bored.

I was observing Vanessa Tang this week and i just ask myself how did i ever like this Tomboy?Anyway,i'm still mesmerized by her lah.Just asking myself why.I look at her actions and yes there's sense of softness around her eyes but i can assure you people out there,yes you,that who-hoo,she can be my good brother anytime.hahahah.Just a question for myself to intimidate you all out there.Am i truly drawn by her as a person or am i homo-inclined?Heehee.I guess i'm pretty normal lah.

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Hint?
Monday, July 15, 2002

Someone,Cutegal to be exact,just told me something that goes like this,"I've always treated you like the rest of the YFers,like my younger Brother."Well,what can i say but smile and cry at the same time about the open hint in the sentence...?haiz!I don't really mind that cos well,there's always the future.Besides i guess God wouldn't let me be a lonely man.....would he?Anyway,i guess this is the moment of truth.Oh well,better than being led on by the nose.However don't expect me to back off cutegal.......I'll be right here waiting for you....until a better catch comes along...hahahahah.Man,i can't believe i am lying to myself......

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The old has gone and the new has come!
Sunday, July 14, 2002

Even as i typed this,jianming by now should be in Thailand now.Pray that God will just watch over him.I'm just surprised at how little i got to say to him before he left.Well,i guess true friendship don't need words.We both know that each other will be there will be there for each other.

Back to business,Aaron is now my new dgl.Man i don't have any discomfort but i sure hope u can fit in.Hahahahaha.Oh and another thing.Cutegal i feel has been avoiding me again.I think she does this on a periodical basis.hahahah.never mind lah,if things continues to get worse,i just have to confess my feelings to her ,get it done and start all over again.(dunch think it's that easy.)Truly,God is an awesome God.He has kept me from the wrath of my teachers from late assignments.

It's funny but i suddenly feel that i am the big brother of two lil sis of mine in Yf.Just glad that they enjoy my presence hahahaha.Glad i could be of what little help i have for them(just being modest here).

Suresh say there may be another Cgl coming to take his place should he go to serve the nation.A bit surprised it's not me.But i'm just pleased that i will be a CGL trainer(unofficially lah).Well,i can't see why there is no possibility of a CGL change in my cg considering that Jiamin is going to be the Acgl of Angela.Guess Dongli backed out again.Well,it's an exciting career in the area of CG considering all the talks u have to give to lost sheeps and all that.I'm beginning to enjoy that.hahahah.

Oh yah,Jan has changed for the better,Praise the Lord!

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Burdens
Monday, July 8, 2002

The weekends have passed and today is Youth day.It's amazing how time flies.Anyway,i brought my friends Longwen,Melvin and Chinyee down to Yf on Saturday.BEfore that they had promised to buy a Warcraft III that was at a discounted price but they didn't managed.HAiz.Anyway they were quite surprised and impressed about me in church so i guess tomorrow when school reopen ,i'll have a lot of questions to answer.HAHAHAH!But my friends sneak out while we were praying.After Yf,some of us form into groups to fellowship,actually it's much better than playing CS or whatever.

Then yesterday we went louis's house for a time of fellowhip and fun.I ended up playing battleship with joe.Cutegal was there.Anyway it was all fun .

On my thoughts

I just feel that i really need to continue on my struggles with sins and all that.Or else i will return to my former self.But there is something at hand that is worrying me alot.A brother and a sister are in danger of falling away from God and both of them i do love and care for.So it's really quite stressing to think of something to tell them how much i really care and bring them back.Because if they go,i'll be really hurt and even the whole YF will be hurt.I always believe anything also can sit down and talk but now it has come to the point where human efforts can no longer be trusted.The only one i can put my trust on is God Himself.In deed without God,all things are impossible.God pulled me back to Yf even as i was contemplating leaving church.So i believe God is the only one that can help them now and so what i can do now is to pray and keep on loving and caring for them.

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Pain!
Friday, July 5, 2002

Even as i typed this now,my right ankle is hurting like i've broken a leg.Guess a nerve or muscle is whatever lah.Pain is all i feel now.I can't even stand properly?So many questions flood my mind.Is this a test from God or an affliction from the demon?Whichever the case i want to lay my faith and trust on Him my Dad but what i really need now is a prayer and an X-ray.Feeling so frustrated and angry now.It doean't help that i can't open the casing of the Cpu to put in my new Graphics card,yes it's a Geforce2.So pals,i may need you to see me home tomorrow.Whatever the case,i must go down to Yf tomorrow,for my firend Melvin is coming.It's hard to get him here so i don't want to waste the chance.Think i will go rest my leg in the Lord later.Wondering if God is going to bring me down to a Wheelchair so i can see men clearly and peacefully,Well it's your call Dad but i sure want to keep the leg,if you can.

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Reflections
Wednesday, July 3, 2002

Looking back on my previous entries beginning from the beginning of this year right up to last month.I HAVE BEEN VERY CHILDISH!Yes childish.Not really something you would expect from someone like me?Well,starting to regret on things i have written and things i have said which might have hurt someone.However,that doesn't mean i concede and submit in issues which i strongly fight for.So among discovering i was being childish,i found out i was resentful and an idiot who doesn't know about love.

Resentful because i had hated those who worked or said something against me in the past.Be it YF or school.My reaction would be"i'll kill you before you can do anything"Alas,that must stop now since i'm a new me.

About the point about me being an idiot who doesn't know about love,i must admit to it.I have been selfish.In my thoughts,i wanted cutegal or vanessa to be my girlfriend.But how often have i neglected thier feelings when i tell a friend about them?Have i even consider whether i am good enough for them?I had.But only to indulge in my ways again thinking it's thier loss without me.Have i even considered thier position?I have made them uncomfortable whenever some idiot spill the beans.I may feel nothing but i'm sure they are pressurised.I'm a fool.So now i will keep quiet.No doubt they will still hold a place in my hearts but i shall wait for them and give myself time to grow and mature.


"Let the sleeping giant sleep,for when it awakens,the whole world shall tremble in fear."Napolean Bonaparte.
I'm refering to myself of course.Heehee.

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I'm Back!!!!!
Wednesday, June 19, 2002

Yours truly is back!Actually was back since yesterday at about 5 something in the afternoon.So i thought i shall update u on what happened actually during the camp.

Day One of Camp

Nothing pretty much happened on the way to camp at Desaru,Malaysia.Before that i managed to get myself some disposable briefs at SPC.Reached Golden Beach Resort at about 12noon .HAd a 3 course lunch(disapointting).Some worship and workshop then check in until dinner time at 7pm.Some games followed and workshop .No Cg time and we all played Uno in Jessie's room.My roommates are Likai and Joe.

Day Two

Woke up at about 8am(This is going to be my waking time everyday.)Skipped morning exercise and prayer.So the schedule for the rest of the camp is going to be Devotion,Worship,Sermon,lunch,Siesta,,Workshop,freetime,dinner,more messages or games and then sleeping time.I think i could feel God's presence in the place and looking back,i think he was preparing me for the breakthrough.During the Siesta and freetime,i ended up slacking and resting in my room.Food was not really great .Everytime i walked back to my room,i could see thier kitchen and right outside is the land of houseflies.Night fell and before sleeping most of us would gather at Room 224(Jessie's bunk )for fellowship and play Uno.Sharon would always be sabohed by ,jessie,me and liangjie.Hahahaha.Had a great time.Cutegal was in the room too,was always charmed by her presence.Haiz

Day 3

Woke up,and after sermon,attended some kind of sexuality workshop in the afternoon.We being guys,cracked a lot of dirty jokes and so on and so forth.And we discussed sexual problems we might have and the solutions to tackle the problems.A very and most interesting workshop i would say.
What Jianming told me during the chat i had with him after the workshop set me thinking.He said i am perhaps the worst acgl in YF.Well,that's true.He mentioned other things about my state of life as well.Those words of his awoke the sleeping good side of me.I decided to make a commitment to God that i would serve well for the Yf and for HIM.I announced that during the Yf sharing time.Well,this could be one of my major turning points in life.Who knows?

Day 4

MAde some kinda promise i would wake at 7 plus in the morning to pray with the youths for the Yf.Overslept.Missed morning devotion altogether.I decided to compensate God by fasting breakfast(i love my food leh) and doing my own qt when i woke up and was clear going to morning devotion now would be a lost cause.

Anyway after my qt,went down to join the others.Went for the sermon.And if i had expected yesterday to be my turning point....Boy was i mad?For today,i went up to be prayed for by the leaders of the church.Tears dropped and as i returned to my seat,i was flowing with tears.Friends would know i would rather bleed than cry so this must have been the holy spirit working in me.Chinhao came over to hug me and i'm just glad in my times of troubles and sadness,i have these brothers.Sharon Ong prayed for me and affirmed me that God loves me no matter what and the only person to please would be Him.Yeah and AMEN!Jessie told me when i was back in singapore that i was actually surrounded by about ten people,Cutegal included.Then Sharon Ong said that she sensed that anyone that may have hurt me may want to come and seek for forgiveness.Joe came and we recounciled after we both seek each other's forgiveness.What a fruitful day.I had been changed by GOD!oh and i got second for beach soccer competition,i was the keeper!Whoohoo!!!
Day 5

Well,packed up,went for morning sermon.Bid farewell to Reverend Misso and then was prize presentation.My 5 men strong soccer team got posters.However there was only 3 of them.Later on,we decided that Abel,Elisha and me would keep them.

It was a dramatic trip back to Singapore.Firstly,at the singapore custom,Sharon,Likai,Abel,Angela and another person got stuck at the singapore custom as the coaches drove off without them.Poor them,they ahd to take taxi to SPC.Then on the road,the cabin door opened and louis's bag was flung out onto the road.I believed it is still somewhere there now or somebody took it.So our plans to catch a movie was foiled.I went home and slept.Finally,the camp is over and i had come out of it a better man.YEAH!

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Tour.
Friday, June 14, 2002

Wednsday

Skipped Sports club yesterday and went out on a family outing to Escape theme park.Nothing much.It wasn't what i expected.Then went to meet kah kee for a meal and catch midnight show which is ET.Lame right?

Went to school at 8am only to find out lesson is at 10am.Then went Capitol with friends.Home.Pack Bag.And then now it's to bed.No updates for five days or so...feeling fed up now.

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Normal?
Tuesday, June 11, 2002

I guess i'm normal afterall.

Visionary, revolutionary, vigilante - these descriptions all fit you well. You are thoroughly disgusted with society and humanity as a whole, and you have several rather diabolical plans to reshape it to fit your designs. You're probably a loner, and most people think you're crazy. That's just because they don't understand, though, and you'll show them someday anyway. Heh heh heh. You are known to become very passionate about many causes, have torrid love affairs, and be seen as a either a demagogue or a hero to the proletariat masses.

Be cool! Take the What Do You Want Out Of Life? Quiz

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I'm nice!Haha.
Sunday, June 9, 2002

Who are YOU most like?

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Something wrong.
Saturday, June 8, 2002

Went to school for chemistry practical lecture conducted by the Principal.Just as i was entering the room,i stood there with my friends with the hand still on the door handle.Guess what?Vanessa came along,place her hands on top of mine leh!Now of course i believe that it was not done on purpose anyway.But oh well,looking at one you like and touched by one u like is certainly a refresher.Hahahaha.Went for Accounts lesson and then a bit of soccer where i scored once and home after lunch at Eunos with friends.

Went grandma's home,watched a bit of soccer before heading for my own house.Installed Jedi Knight too but due to my lousy system now,i can play nuts.Kennneth came over to mess up my house a lil bit.Went to his house to try Jedi knight II on his superior system.IT worked.

I just ended a somewhat short conversation with Jianming.Seems like old mutton is losing his cool easily nowadays.Is my jokes lousy or is it him being not able to laugh as much as he used to?He can't take a joke nowadays.Wonder if it has something to do with his girlfriend leaving Singapore?Most probably no,for his change had been gradual,i doubt he himself knows it?Anyway,in short,i just find it difficult to relay to him.He's becoming ever more sensitive and serious and what not.In short,he is stepping into the complicated world of Adults.SAD.Anyway ,i tomorrow still have school and i am still a lil sick.Suddenly,i feel like i have offended the entire YF lidat,Suresh,Jianming,Daniel,Zhaoqiang and even Jeremy.Something wrong with me?Can't be,they must be matured and with thier own so-called matured thinkings and armed with knowledge that they learned from the bibble and following blindly what people tells them.Of course i am not refering to all of them lah.Sian.Now people will say i am a very negativ website but hey,i am just noting down what i have seen and felt.So Any Biased thinking or views i have are just.....personal.

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Sick
Thursday, June 6, 2002

Wednesday

Went for Social Studies lecture.Supposed to sit in the gallery(fishtank) to study chemistry and report to principal.I did not do it as i went to SPC to have breakfast with peter and Junhao.Went home and applaud the Tunisians for thier enthusiasm in the World Cup on the Field even as it was clear they would lose.Went to Sports club for a game of volleyball .Saw cutegal and even though i am determined to get her out of my mind,the mind is willing but the will is weak!I would stop thinking about her on weekdays but whenever i see her......haiz!I reached home to find out i am sick.Sad News!

Today

Did a silly test


:: how jedi are you? ::
Well,did not go to school for i am sick,but i have no MC either.Luckily no attendance was taken.Watched the match between Senegal and Denmark.Was hoping Senegal could win but they squandered away a lot of chances and only managed a draw.I must say the Danish are uncivilised.For one instance a danish player prefered to throw the ball away rather than pass it to the Senegalnese player for the throw-in.Oh yah,had a quarrel with Suresh.Well,he asked too much questions which get on my nerves.Anyway,hopefully i can get my Jedi Knight II from my friend longwen who is burining it for me.Till then goodnight!

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You win some,You lose some.
Tuesday, June 4, 2002

Went to school for maths.Stayed back for more maths as commanded by my principal.I wanted to just go off but felt that i owed him an excuse ,i cooked up one and he refused.HEEHEE.Kena suaned by the maths teacher that was teaching me .Luckily it was only for a short while and i got to go home and change into something comfortable to meet kah kee and gang out for Jedi Knight II.It was fun of course.That was my real reason for coming home early.Hahahah.Spent four hours there.Went for dinner with Peter,Nice pal i have here.He wanted to treat me dinner but due to my pride,i prefer to lend money.

Something disturbing

Do you all know something???I JUST FOUND OUT FROM YILONG WE HAD PRAYER AND PRAISE TODAY!!!!HOLY SHIT!HOW COULD I FORGET?

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Not my lucky day.
Monday, June 3, 2002

Went to school for history lecture at 1pm.At about 3 plus ,my friend and i went to see the principal for our report books.Principal not happy with my results.Found out i am weak in chemistry and since he is chemistry teacher,he is making me stay in school for this week every afternoon for revision.Sad story.Thanks God that it's only this week.

Another thing that has been bothering me is the church camp.My cg members,the elders mostly,thinks i am not trying hard to get a day off so i can go for camp.Well,at least to me they are showing it anyway.Next time they ask me,i shall not answer them anymore.Sick and tired of this.

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Tests
Monday, June 3, 2002

Well,i did some silly tests.

How Gay Are YOU? [?]

You are 20% evil! [?] You're pretty non-evil. You're a little bit off of being all good, but you tend to still be orderly and peaceful. You aren't the bad person at all...for the most part.

You're PRIDE! You like yourself, and you aren't afraid to show it. You don't like to admit when you're wrong, and you think you're better than most. You're represented by the color violet.

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A new begining
Monday, June 3, 2002

Well,welcome to my brand new webby!It's the same actually but just that the layout has changed.I must thank Daryn here for helping me,Thanks pal!For everybody's information,this new layout and whatever they called it was created in less than three hours by daryn and completed on Saturday morning at about 2:30am.Cool huh?
Saturday

Had cg outing at East coast park,again.Went to jessy sen's house for lunch and abit of fellowship.We were playing this game that enables us to ask questions about one another.The questions were decided beforehand and put into a bag.Just like a lottery.Miraculously,my questions all had something to do with church and Yf,i wonder if that's God probing me.I will follow up on that.Met three other cgs for captain's ball,murderer and fellowship.That goes to show how unoriginal East Coast is now.Haiz!Then,off we went to Parkway for lunch.I bought a book called Horrible Histories:The Storming Normans.It's a history book with lotsa humour basically.I was real tired by the time i got home.Spent some time talking with friends and then it's dreamland i go.

Today

Well,i had five missed calls in the morning .I had smsed these people to wake me up for service.Instead,i only answered Sharon's which was the last ever call made today.Haha.Still was a few minutes late but as usual ,i was earlier than Jianming,again.After service,we "teh" likai for it was his 16th anniversary with his little brother.Heehee.
Finally we had something new as well for today,instead of cyberamazon,we went to the movies after we messed Louis' house.Sad for him.Watched Dark Waters.Very scary but the last few parts about the woman sacrificing herself so that her own daughter would leave made me a bit emotional and touched.Since it was a scary movie,i was thinking of sitting beside cutegal but that was thwarted.Shit!Went to play Jedi Knight II with kah kee and his friends after dinner with them.You all should have seen us play,Damned fast with the lightsabers flashing all over and fast action moves that is just chio!Well,i have school tomorrow so i guess i shall stop here.Bubye!

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The look in her eyes
Saturday, June 1, 2002

Nothing much,just went to school for remedials. Today Well,i must say today was quite a rewarding day.Haha.Went for Remedials. Highlights of the day was Vanessa.You can say i really wasn't expecting her to appear.But oh well,She was just seated in front of me in the canteen when we were released from maths remedial for a break before continuing History lecture at 10:30AM.There was at least two occasions that my eye caught hers and she didn't look away!Shamefully,i ws the one to look away.There was one time she even look back when i was calling chin yee,wonder if it's her curiosity or heh heh heh.But as kah kee puts it,i must not carry too much hope.But still,the look in her eyes just revealed to me a gentle and beautiful creature behind her sporty and boyish character. One word,I AM SO MESMERIZED!

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