Pitas deleted my angst filled entry about Phi-chan leaving a day early *sigh* Well, lol this is for SU-chan since her little message board thingy isn't working for meeh *_* SUchan! Have fun in LA! If you need company I know Phi's there from 20-26 and I'll be there the 27-28 ^_^ Tell me if you'll be there 27th! Go to Condensed Milk? I ish all scared of unknown ppls *_* Not to mention I'll be deprived of sleep, but that'll be the best part XDDD LOL

JUKEbox says? ...???
07:51 p.m.

NOOOOOO *___* Phi-chan's leaving a day earlllyyyyy!!! I'll be so lonely in class tommorow ;_; Fuuu... I know it's like other times but augh! Such short notice!! Call me in the morning ne! Call me everyday! If I dun get a call I'll be very sad ;_; (or think my phone's broken lol) Come back! come back!

JUKEbox says? "Suteki da ne" - FFX
12:44 a.m.

Augh!! I just woke up at like 12:30am and I have that 6-10pg essay due at 9:30 *dies* BUT! I took a 4 hour nap so I should be able to stay up till at least 4:00 working on it ^^;;; (lost my notes though...) and and... after calculating it out, I can get a 50% on this essay (100pts right?) and still get a 91.7% in the class so I'm all good? :O:O:O The Unit2 evaluation probably screwed over my grade though... (hmm never thought about that before) ::continues writing::

JUKEbox says? "One Fine Day" - Madama Butterfly
03:54 p.m.

Augh this song is stuck in my head @_@ But *prays* Guess what? My daddy was talking to my mommy today while I was in school.... and he says I'll probably be able to go to CM2 *____* He says they were talking about 3 options:

1) I go to LA with them driving. But... I have to be back the next morning for work and they dun wanna stay in LA for only 15 hours and spend so much time driving...

2) I drive to LA with them, but go on plane back while they stay in LA.

3) I just fly to and back from LA by myself ^_^ Or with a friend (mayyyybe =P)

Isn't that great??? We're going to talk about it when my mommy gets home :O And I got an A on my econ test and my NEA speech so that should help? Of course.... I'm also going to have to tell them I'm going to SF on Friday *_* So I can come home early etc. Fuuu~ I'm feeling like... kinda happy now ^_^ And I'm getting further on my Nakoruru montage... it kinda got killed today, but I'll fix it!! :O Just need to write my 6-10 page essay on "exporting opportunities for small businesses" LOL

JUKEbox says? "Suteki da ne" - FFX OST
09:04 p.m.

Hmmm, the Suteki da ne on the Best songs collection was the really nice 6 min symphonic version one. Nice :) But anyhow, I had lots and lots of fun on Sunday. SJ Jtown where I bought a Genso Suikoden and Miyuki Ken artbook :O I also bought lots of gifts... and even my mom a $29 set of truffles *dies* But thanks so much Lee for lending me money XD I'll pay back soon.. paycheck is on Friday sooo....

But anyhow, I'm quite mopey =/ I was having the most awesome day and like I was getting my art project done and understanding everything in class (yah.. that's good) and even when I got home it took only an hour to have my dad understand why I want to go to LA for Condensed Milk 2.0. So that was great and he still disagreed a bit, but could semi-support me. Now... the bad part =/ After taking a nice nap and totally kissing up to my mom.. when I asked her she kinda blew her top. She's the kind of person who doesn't really give reasons why not either... Because she doesn't know them? (she doesn't want to meet them) Because it's far away? (she seems to hate LA ppl and doesn't want me to go to college there anymore??) Because I already went in November? (i should only go once a year max...) So I was a little confused and I guess after she threatened to kill me and just happened to be holding her nailclipper I left =_= I never yelled at her once and as I sulked on the way to my room "sniffle sniffle"-like since my mom would rather me mold for two weeks and watch Jerry Springer than go, my dad was all "ganbare"-like and telling me that she would calm down and it just takes a lot of time and picking but surely I could get her to agree.... So now I'm just like... I want to go T_T And I'll try really hard to go, but at the same time I'm not sure if I can and I should probably just wait till last minute (like she always seems to do) and see... then I could buy my own ticket? And so long as someone could pick me up it'd be fine? Hmmm =/

And I guess I just have to wait for my mom.. but now I'm just mopey and it's bugging me because it's ruining the concentration I'm having on writing my speech... I almost wish I yelled at my mom just so I could lose my voice for tommorow ^^;; But of course that wouldn't have gotten me anywhere =P

JUKEbox says? "Pittari shitai Xmas" - PuchiMoni
08:19 p.m.

AUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I've just had the MOST FUN DAY IN THE WORLD XDXD With "happy happy school friends but yay 'cause not in school friends" :D lol Lessee, Phi-chan, Kenji, JackJack, and Pekkle XDXD *hearts* to all :D:D:D:D Lesseeeee!! I should REALLLLY start from the beginning *blabs*

Okay.. Woke up at 9:00 and took shower 'cause Phi hadn't called. Phi came over 9:30 so we could finish outfits (so rushing to Safeway to buy headbands for moogle ears). Kenji came over early, but we weren't done so finished and left at 10:00? Picked up the others (with unfinished mcdonalds lunch?) and went 280 to SAN FRANCICCSOOOOO!!! We got there around 12:30 and after finding parking and Kix (me) pouting 'cause the pigeons wouldn't stay still after I took camera out (city pigeons are the BEST! they so fat they can't really fly away lol but they can run =_=)!! Took a piccie and went inside. Called SU-chan and where are they?? OH! Right outside!! So we go there and line up and it's fun to look at other ppls in the line... but it wasn't TOOO long since it was 1:00 around, but some ppls came at 5:30am *_* OUCH? So after a bit me and Phi got into out Moogle outfits and wandered around outside. YAY to running across the street to throw stuff away *_* We yelled "final fantasy" a bit before we were let in =/ And YAY I was #30 stamped :D We kinda just stood around anyway in the doorway... Then went in and... *scream* we want FF9 design book (for art references) not movie book~ So pocketed that and went inside :)

Person: Just stand right here and wait...
Kix: What if you dun wanna play?
Person: What?
Kix: If you don't want to play FFX.....
Person: O_o???? Umm... okay, just wander around... Kix: XDDDD

So me and Phi wandered around inside while waiting for the others to come through. HIHI to everyone I met that day :D:D I ferget names but *shakes hands* very cool XD So ummm... wandered around to look at FFX figurines 'cause Phi wanted to look for her Rikku cosplay :D Ppls took piccies of us *_* and we got a FF8 t-shirt (augh! MY LIONHEART darling!! lol) and a Diablos figurine for cosplaying XDXDXD But since it was both of us, I kept the shirt and Phi got the figurine :D So hang out in the little "preview room" and blah blah raffle for Phi, Kenji, Pekkle, Jack pass by =/ Nope.. Random peoples won and went back to mooshing around (*sniffle* some dude took over my FF7 game XP) Ohh~ We also got free CDs for cosplaying :D The FF NGeneration one ^_^;;

But yah yah sitting around and "KIX!!" Reneee XDXDXD Yay!! Funnesssss :D:D:D So it's kinda like babble babble babble yah yah yah until second raffle XD Twas fun fun fun! Mata ne :D:D:DDDDD!! And I go up and yayy! two raffles every group and Kasou got a Steiner wallscroll (after the dude saying it in spanish *_*) :D:D Then then "-----085"... YAH! MEEEE!!!! Ohhh! I got a Behometh figurine~~ To match my Phi-chan's Diablos darling? :D:D:D I thought that was it (i guess I don't pay attention) but I also got a Garnet wallscroll and the SQUARESOFT laptop bag *_____* Waiiii!!! It's soo pertyy~ Very useful too XDXD Laptopness for meee :):):):) Hehehehe. I totally thought it was like just stuffed with newspaper but it was kinda heavy.... and so they were all "open it! open it!" and I did... and WOW!

- FF9 t-shirt
- FF8 t-shirt (i gave it to Phi-darling)
- Shiva figurine
- a monster from FFVIII figurine
- squaresoft cloth keyholder?
- FFX uematsu's best selection CD
- the FF N Generation CD (again)

O_____O!!!! But it made me happy happy and so I felt really bad the guys were just sitting around :( So we ditched the arcade idea 'cause Kenji wanted to go to Jtown and Phi, although wanting arcade, already got stuff.. so yah ^_^ Gomen ne Lionel-san! We went to go cheer up everyone ^____^ We'll probably come back to use our free arcade credit thingies thoughhh~

So with me navigating to Jtown (yay! being navigator is sooo much fun! specially in SF!) Found parking, paid and YAY! *skip skip* Time to go dinner *_* We HUNGRYY! I had to find a shop with Okonomiyaki though and after passing the........ "@_@ CREPE SHOPPPP!!!" we went to... the resteraunt next to it ^^;;; I fergot the name =/ But I had okonomiyaki and croquette and kappa maki :D:D It made me all happy ^_^ My stomach was going to blow.. but all was well :) So go to Kino's so we can relax and spend forever in there ^_^ PPls bought lots of stuff, but I bought only a little? around $39 for the AFROKEN PICTURE/STORY BOOK (OMG! IT"S CUTEEEE!! i want the other one), Pati Pati and Fools Mate... both have Gackt interviews ^^;;; Nyeh hehehehehe.. So happy and then bought crepes :D:D:D For Kenji, me and Phi XD I got Banana chocolate whipped cream with ice cream (my fave!) and the others got Mixed fruits and Strawberries :) They were huge and when we actually finished my stomach hurt all over again LOL FUN! Then we wandered around malls and CD stores and I wanted to buy the Fukada Kyoko CD album, but I decided to save money and buy Xmas gifts ^_^ Also 'cause Pekkle was too stubborn to buy what he wanted XP But s'okay :D:D It was 7:00 by then so run back to car (after ditching the whole Hawaiian giveaways; we had 11 raffle tickets) and drive back listening to Phi's AWESOME (burn for me!!!!!!!) "ex dream" "strength" and "yakusoku"... find a trend? X! *dies* Those are the most awesome songs right now XDDD

Got sent home first and waved everyone away *bai bai*!!! So fun so fun!! And got my door open XD And since parents aren't home (Yatta!!) I get to play on compie :D:D:D Good life isn't it? Hee.. And me and Phi pretending we were mugged lol (the guys didn't fall for it ;_;) and seeing the two pigeons *cough* on top of eachother *______* Eek!! But FUN! HAPPY XD Minna genki deeeeee!!!!!

JUKEbox says? "The Peace" - Morning Musume
10:49 p.m.

Can I get this right?

XOOOO~ ::concentrates really hard::

Have I succeeded in writing a short post? I'll try harder... really *_* My long posts are shooo ugly *sniffle* I blab way much ^^;;;;;;;;;

JUKEbox says? "Last Kiss" - Morning Musume
10:34 p.m.

I just woke up from happy happy 6 hour nap :) Wanna go back to sleep~~~ 'cept I ate dinner and can't sleep till 30 minutes after because I feel bad if I do LOL Plus, I can catch up on happy happy ficcies! Urm, but I go sleep early today. I even avoided the tea my mommy bought! (Kix ish proud ^^) Anyhow, Xmas makes me all happy happy and I keep spending my money on grams and gifts and it's like "BLAH?? I have no money??" ^_^ But it's okay 'cause I get a christmas tree for Xmas and so long as I don't have to pay for that... ::thinks about Mitsu's $60 reciept on a tree:: *shudders*

But yah yah ^_^ I *hearts* holidays~ I dun even have any homework *_* It's all about the projects due next week but I've compiled my research and mainly need to talk to teachers tommorow about what they want :) Whee!! And I've decided what I want to do for my multiple piccie drawing in art ^_^ Not like I'll really be working on that now but hey :D I started~ Also, I'm doing SNK for my montage (Samurai Spirits), but I dun really like the one I was doing today. Just because the lines aren't so definite etc. I'll finish it of course like I finish all random piccies (just to color *_*), but it won't be the one I'm turning in ^^; I'll be working on that and then another SNK one? Then CCS, Fukada Kyoko, maybe morning musume, and hopefully a Dir En Grey one *niko* I'm so proud I'm getting everything done ^_^ Even started playing Xenogears again (like.. 30 min last week? lol) but I'm glad I have time to do all my work and play play play at home ^_^

My mom was talking about not letting me go to SF 'cause I've already gone out December... which makes me wonder.. 'cause I don't remember going out really =/ Just work and school and family lub lub. She said I went out with Mirae, but I haven't really seen my darling Akuma for like... weeks T_T And I remember even on the 1st for SATs we already had kinda not been able to talk much. Then my mom said maybe it was the CG club thingy 'cause "Jen was back"... only Jen was back a long time ago and I didn't go to the CG club meeting during Turkey Break ^^;;; So now I'm utterly confused on whether I went out or not. Sure, if I find out I did I'll find a way to go to SF anyhow :) I'm just wondering *_* Must read old pitas layouts~~~ Nyooo

But but, I'm all hanyaaaaaan about Fanime ^_^ So soon! Winter Break is soon too! And XMAS!! *dies* My mom said this year she wasn't buying gifts for anyone, but I'm kinda wondering about me and daddy ^^;;; 'cause I haven't even asked her for anything, but I should probably buy something for her... SF here I come~ ^^;; But yah, FANIME!! Everyone should go ^_^ It'll be sooo fun (i hope, we always tend to mess things up lol) and and yah *_* I'm all proud 'cause mommy's taking me to blood test on the 24th (xmas eve!!) *dies* but I'm trying hard to get rid of all the cholestrol from Turkey Day etc ^_^ I need to start excersizing again though. Since I've been sick I got so lazy ;_; Maybe I start.... tommorow :D Too tired~ Always staying up till 3 or 4 reading ficcies and novels :P Anyhow, I've blabbed too long.. Ficcies! Ficcies!

JUKEbox says? "With Every Light" - Smashing Pumpkins
11:14 p.m.

Nyoo *___* This is going to sound weird... but I'm posting a semi-wish list for Xmas up. Not to say I HAVE to have these things, but more so that ppls don't overlook the small things and me ending up eating multiple packs of M&Ms over winter break to come back 200% extra on the 7th =)

The Cheap way to Shop for Kix!! LOL (cheap.. heh heh)
aka: things kix is too cheap to get...?
aka: simple mind simple pleasures +_+

small clips that hold paper: Yes, I know they're called paperclips ^^;; But I mean those black squeezy clips~ The triangle shaped ones? Mainly because they can hold a larger amount than regular paperclips (the S shaped ones) and don't bend all funny =O
cds (burnt or official): DEG remixes, globe trance, morning musume best collection, utada hikaru final distance, anything hekiru shiina 'cept yamadori, l'arc dune
videos (recorded or official or off tv): morning musume *_*, fighting girl #6-9, other japanese dramas with fukada kyoko or any smap guy lol
anything yaoi: saitoh figurine, any other bishie figurine, manga, drawings, implicated things (very simple ne?)
san-x: afroken things! mummy bunny things! that cute mushroom things! atsugari! samugari! nyanko cha ya planner @ kinos *_*
magazines: any cute fashion/trendy actor magazines (japanese) XD
lead pencils: Yep yep! Non-mechanical pencils is all I ask for :) Of course 4HB is nice.... :O
cosplay stuffs?: A pink headband, a red headband, white (99 cent) muslin, any bundles of yarn (pink preferred?)
office max type things: cheap 89 cent papermate ballpoint pens, different color whiteout, accounting notebooks, label stickers, clear tape, non-lickable envelopes, a ruler
cute bishie things: a white tiger plushie to name byakko, a black wildcat plushie to name terazuma, cinnabon memorabilia, a sign saying "boxers or briefs? ::arrow::", anything pink
manga: pitaten manga (animaxis.com), anything yaoi (dousei ai #6-11?), anything i might read and like?
happy things: christmas cards, drawings, candy canes, christmas ornaments (yah!! the cheap round ball things that break easily...), christmas lights, an empty cardboard box (for free at any store!! i think?), rubber glue, cd holder (for cases or just cds), lip gloss, stolen fast food napkins (3 or more franchises), a can of fruits calpis *_*, pancake mix w/ instructions, sweet potatos (89 cents a pound!!), birthday candles, the free matches you get in grocery stores (3 or more grocery stores)

Ish long huh? But... I like all those things *_* Lots more probably... but... yah loll!!

secret base ~kimi ga kureta mono~ (~the thing you gave~)
by: ZONE

Kimi to natsu no owari Shourai no yume ookina kibou wasurenai 10nenato no 8gatsu mata deaerunowo shinjite Saikou no omoide wo... Deai wa Futtoshita shukan kaeri michi no kousaten de koe wo kaketekuretane "issho ni kaerou" boku wa terekusasouni KABAN de kao wo kakushinagara hontou wa totemo totemo ureshikatta yo aa hanabi ga yozora kirei ni saite chotto SETSUNAKU aa kaze ga jikan totomoni nagareru Ureshikutte Tanoshikutte himitsu mo iroiroshitane futari no himitsu no kichi no naka Kimi to natsu no owari Shourai no yume ookina kibou wasurenai 10nenato no 8gatsu mata deaerunowo shinjite kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "arigatou" sakendeitakoto shitteita yo namida wo koraete egao de sayounara setsunai yo ne saikou no omoide wo.... aa natsuyasumi ato sukoshi de owacchau kara aa taiyou to tsuki nakayokushite Kanashikutte Samishikutte Kenkamo iroiroshitane futari no himitsu no kichi no naka

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