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X i ish
(UP 10.24.2001)
Anime: Fruit's Basket
Show: Gakkou he Ikou
Manga: Dousei Ai -(i own...)
Singer: Momusu -(i own...)
Song: Morning Coffe - Momusu
CD: Best Collection - Ayu
Bishie: Squall (FF8)
Activity: Sleeping
Food: Pudding
happy places:
anime expo
AGSMA Cosplay
AC Paradise
fanfiction.net
quoteland.com
i do? work@mitsu, class of 2002, drawing, cosplay, goobers of fun!
quote? "mirae's MINE!"
wants? cell phone-ness T_T
cosplay? final fantasy VII tifa
piccies? jed shama, yowwie, rpg chara, yue/touya
fangirl? genri plushie
translations?
Lagoon Engine Issue 1
Lagoon Engine Issue 2
old cosplay
Winter Tomoyo
Summer Tomoyo
Nakoruru 3
reports?
fanime 2001
anime expo 2001
akgstudios.net?
AKG Cosplay
Sugisaki-Net
Syaoran Shrine v 3.14
Kix no Corny & Scary A to Z List
Bishie List
Duckie-tachi:
pensieve
doushita no?
sasayaku
tegretol dreams
kyoko
ZOO station
the pillow book
AKG:
Ø g.r.a.v.i.t.y
kiraku na akuma
Gakkou:
Kenji Woman *g*: eien no yume
Jack Jack: makurayami
Lisa-pyan: inner turmoil,outerquiet
Others:
that damn duck
bishounen diaries
bishoujo diaries
spicy marmalade
Ayako: Shine Aqua Illusion
Ragabash: viva HATE
Shi-chan: convent girl
Betsu no:
JUST Say Someth'IN
Eat Cake with MEEH!
ripped off kenji's site *lol*
Kaijuu ga Iru @ Pitas.Com
by: Morning Musume
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To catch my dream I threw something away Without even any guarantee that I could catch it It's slow, but I seem to be getting somewhere Maybe because I believed so strongly That day, my tears fell And I set out on a trip alone Ah, it was a long night When was it That I first began to feel lonely? I think I have as much sadness As I do courage |
When I feel as if I'm going to cry I just cry That way I'm able to sleep better And so, on those days When I just can't stand it anymore Maybe it would be alright to be childish Does everyone Have worries? Ah, I wonder if it's just me It was then That I first began to feel lonely I think I'm sad Because I know your tenderness |
dancing to -- "Happy Summer Wedding" - Morning Musume
12:41 a.m.
- Fuuuuu!! Tired and I have work in 11 hours :P Gross... But so so so happy! 1) my daddy promised to watch drama's with me on Sat night; 2) i saw harry potter movie. As for my comments on it? Can I really gush this late at night so tired? *sigh* Not really.. I give more indepth gushing tommorow night..... when I'm probably just as tired... @_@ Ouch.
Movie! VERY cute actors, wonderful outfits (I LOVE the Quidditch robes), nice scenery. It was really long, but it didn't feel that way. They did cut out a lot from the book *pouts* The potions section at the end.. and.... *pouts more* When Harry was supposed to meet Draco at the store and on the train ;_; *sniffles* I didn't see Draco till the Sorting Ceremony!! Wahhhnnn! I did skip out for about 13 minutes in the middle to check for my dad... so I missed Draco being bad and threatening Harry & Co... FU! But yah ^^;; He does look like a younger Seifer! It might be the gel in his hair.. or his eyebrows.. or his crystal clear blue eyes.. or his taunting smirk.... *hee* *hearts* Either way.. really cool! I wish I coulda seen him in the Quidditch robes.. He woulda looked AWESOME! Perks? Draco looking horrified when the he heard about the troll... Hehehehe, that was just SOOOOO adorable! The Weasley twins are ALSO SOOOOOOO CUTE! They look JUST alike and so related and *melts* so cute!!!! Ron's pretty endearing too! Hermione is hilarious and totally acts all queeny and everything ^_^ Such a brain! And although Harry was cute... umm... er.... he can't really act =_= Maybe it was because he was predictable or something... but it just didn't seem quite right :P Everything else was perty good :D:D:D And Fitch's cat (professor something? forgot ;_;) was BOOTIFuL! Red eyes and long whiskers... I want a cat like that! But yah lol... I LOVED the Quidditch match! It was really awesome :D Like seeing Blitz Ball only with people... and with WAYYY better outfits lol! Umm.. what else? Draco didn't get very close to Harry.. PLEH! But... Ron and......... hehehehe Whatever. Some stuff was different than I imagined (near the end), but everything else was the same :D I just wish they didn't have to cut out so much of the novel? Umm.. something not relating to Draco? Hmm, Weasley twins CUTE! Wait.. I already said that... Not much else on my mind now ^_^;; Oh... the part about James and Lily was reallllly sweet ;_; *sniffle* But umm... what else? I'm not sure.. Draco was really.... mean :) And Hermione was a real pain in the beginning lol I want a chocolate covered frog?
Oh! I can talk about line there?? We lined up at like 8:50 (luckily we had tickets 'cause it was sold out even for the 9:45 show @_@ which ended past 12!!) and... across the parking lot... people were already lining up for the 10:45 show! Creepy isn't it? There were cosplayers (little boys) there and lots of older people. It was really funny when people talked about their experiences and everything (like "dude! the kid behind me kept giving out the spoilers!!") and stuff... but all in all, good movie, worth the perty short wait, and umm.. I hope I feel more tired soon 'cause I have work ^^;;;
dancing to -- The creepy colortest music lol
03:21 a.m.
- Everyone was doing the color test thingy and I wanted to too!! Nyoo... I have to admit though.. I cheated :P I did it three times. 'cause the first two results were like.. HUH? Maybe it was that fact that I was half blind due to lack of sleep? But you can see for yourself O.o
It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it ... Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your "private" or "business" life - whatever ... What you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation .. alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you,...someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.
At this time you "need to be needed" and again you "need to need". You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have that belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.
Nothing seems to be going right for you, and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time...Sit back...let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.
It would seem that an existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory, and you feel that there is little that you can do about it without "some help from your friends". But you have no desire to show the world how vulnerable you really are and so therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this particular relationship as a depressing tie and although you would like to be independent and unhampered, you don't want to run the risk of losing anything. All this leads you to react "touchy" and with impatience, while the urge to "get away from it all" results in considerable restlessness and stress... The ability to concentrate may suffer.
You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time.... You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer .... MOVE!
Umm.. to me this sounds uber depressing @_@ The only words I see that might have to do with me is "some help from your friends" and "procrastinate". There's probably more I'm not seeing.. but..... yah @_@
You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions ... you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm .. but be careful ... you tend to let your heart rule your head ... and this being so.. you could be easily hurt ... as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past ...
In the past there have been .. and maybe there still are many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.
You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all ...
All of your stress arises from lack of mutual understanding. The existing situation is unsatisfactory and you feel that you are unable to improve it without the help and co-operation of others. The need for understanding and for affectionate "give and take" remains unsatisfied. You are experiencing the feeling of being "handcuffed" ... "tied down" ... "hindered" ..."restrained" and this untenable situation is giving rise to impatience, irritability and the desire to escape from it all..
You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.
This is still kinda weird.. like the first paragraph... :/ The second paragraph too... Umm. KINDA the third paragraph? and the last two are okay I guess.. Maybe I don't know myself, but..... whatever @_@ I'll try doing this after a good nights sleep someday. I just can't imagin myself ruled by emotions and all touchy feely like that #_# Or super super depressed not happy stuff... Dang.. this makes me go all O_o "eh? nani??" Puleeeze tell me this isn't how I am totally @_@
You feel worn out, physically and mentally. Recently the going has been tough .. and it looks as if there is still a considerable way for you to go before you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. If only you could put a protecting wall around yourself and cut yourself off from the rest of the world - be it even for only a little while - how wonderful it would be, but you can't ... so you need to bear with it. Just when everything will seem at its lowest ebb you will find that there is a turnabout ... and your problems will seem to find a way of resolving themselves.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold or wish to achieve a position of authority in authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
You know what you want and you are very dogmatic and demanding ... especially in your emotional demands. You have specific ideas and beliefs and if these beliefs are not realised you can become extremely frustrated. You may not be that perfect but you are looking for perfection with the perfect partner..
You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress... You are carried away by other peoples enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding.You have lowered your defences in the past .. and you have been hurt ... so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.
You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.
I feel like such a cheater, but by golly I think the third one makes the most sense @_@ As opposed to angsting and like.... being uber emotional.. Maybe that was my PMS speaking? *laughs* Okay.. whatever.. this makes me worried @_@
dancing to -- "Love Stuff: - Kotani Kinya
11:54 p.m.
- .......me and Phi got into an "argument" *pouts* I suffered brain damage and lack of oxygen for like 10 minutes :P *sigh* We are soooo lame!!
::goes back to working on essay and reading fics::
dancing to -- "Tatoeba" - Seki Tomokazu
09:11 p.m.
- ... There are three towels on my study room floor. Three.
This means that for the last three showers I've had, afterwards I had gone straight to the computer and left them on the floor. Not including the towels I already put away. I do believe that I use the computer entirely too much.
Just a thought ^_^
dancing to -- "Eyes on Me" - Nobuo Uematsu
11:51 p.m.
- Fuuu, I haven't heard this song for a long time. Anyhow, today was perty fun ^^;;; I had a headache, was uber tired the whole time, hurt my toe, but who care's about that?? I got Cinnabon so I was happy ^^;;;; Uhhh I can't remember totally what happened today though (woah, really bad memory loss?) but I remember it raining in the morning? I woke up at like 5 and 6 'cause I had to go to the bathroom *laugh* and at 9 'cause my mom told me about the plane crash... then I just read yaoi manga till about 10? Slept until 10:30 and then got up to get ready to go to Phi's house. So that was cool?
So then it was Phi's house and her playing ToP for a very very long time while I snoozled or something on her fun fun bed ^_^; Hee, computer got boring after awhile dakara. Then after having some trouble with the car and Phi driving meeh *cough cough* called Kenji and Jack and anal-ness, but all was set and Jack came to pick us up around..... 1:30 or something? Only we didn't leave till 2 'cause.. yah.. ToP? lol, so then we go there and YAY! 'cause patterns are 99 cents instead of $11.00 so I got my skirt pattern (to remake tomoeda) and uh.. cloth line too long bad bad! So then it's Valley Fair, which was uhh.. kinda boring? But it was nice to talk to people and I mainly remember Cinnabon and the woman's bathroom line being really long. Hmmm, I should get my memory fixed @_@ Didn't buy anything though :D So proud! After Kenji and Michelle left we couldn't find anything cool to do and uhhh.. so we left too? Went to Hancock's for some fabrics, which me and Phi got.. and the white zipper ^_^; Fun zipperness? Then urm, Mirae = tired/sleeping so she went home to eat :D And um, we went to McDonalds. Soft Serve Cone = *hearts*? I dunno.. thinking about today is making me tired again @_@
But after Jack sent me home in his "is this empty?" tank of gas *lol* I remember sleeping until 10... eating dinner and then watching ER with my dad. I also took a shower, but now it's 12 (I've been typing for .... a long time lol) and I was supposed to have my econ done by now.. but I'll have it done by 12:30. Then I can read fics till 1... and finally start on my ROP project.. *sigh* I'm screwed, but loving every minute of it :D:D:D:D *chu*
dancing to -- "Tenshi no Inori" - AiM
03:46 p.m.
- Wahh! This song makes me all hanyan for Christmas XD "Merry Christmas my song for you~" But yah :D I was reading Kenji's pitas *lol* and *guffah* I will not lend you Nocturne XD I'll give it to you for Christmas you horny little boy! You really want to get your hands on...... *lol* But anyhow ::read more:: Who was it that we said "got horny with lightning and thunder" last year? I'm guessing either Kenji or Jack 'cause I know Phi and Mirae hate it ^^ Horniness = bad? Who knows :P
Lessee. Friday... I've already forgotten ;_; But I remember going to work and having fun and getting cheap food (Thanks to Nathan!) and *happyjump* Takahashi sensei's me and Phi's new daddy XD Now we can buy up to $2000 in Japan without worrying about fees :9 Umm.. Sat? I went to work after a morning of stuffing myself full of food (my stomach hurt all day...) and taking a shower. It was fun fun fun! Although my feet hurt I .... dunno, I had lots of fun! And Matt and Tom were there and Tom got us all dorayaki and it was so cool :D And then when I got home me and my dad kinda fought over the TV or something. He wouldn't go to Ping Pong 'cause it was late and he wanted to watch TV but he didn't know what to watch. So in the end I cooked hella food for myself (even though my stomach still hurt....) and I ate it while watching random shows with my daddy XD Then of course at 11:00pm I watched the end(?) of "Five" XDXD Wahh! It was sho good and *hearts* to Fukada Kyoko :D She wasn't a TOTAL side character after all! Goo Kanae-chan? and DIE SAOTOME evil creepy man! *giggles*
Oh... this weekend I spent like $60 (but I also got the Mr. Moonlight CD Single XD) and umm... today I woke up before 12 because my mom said she's buy my Jamba Juice (the only reason I wake up early on the weekend). She also gave me $5 in coins leftover from buying the smoothies... Then my mom got lost trying to find Leomann's (or something) and we drove around Sunnyvale for 30-40 minutes before we found it @_@ So she bought clothes, I bought a shirt and uhhh... she randomly gave me $10 for going with her. Before she said "would you go with me for $5?" and of course I said "yesh, but i'm still tired and want to go home... *pout*". Then after she got gas, she held up a $5 and a $10 and said "Which one do you want?" And I'm just like O.o???? but I pick the "$10" and she's like "I'm glad you're so smart :D". Hee. I thought it was a trick question but now I'm $15 richer XD *snicker* Funness. The whole afternoon with Kristy was kinda messed, but now I found out we're also going to VF on Monday and also cloth shopping. So I'll try to call her later about it ^_^ Yay-ness! I need to buy cloth for the Tomoeda hat and maybe if I have time to redo the skirt :P Whatever.
Now I'm all tired.. but happy ^_^ So I go take a nap soon-ness XDXDXD (I also just watched the FUNNIEST Gakkou he Ikou eps! I wanna show you Phi!!!! PHIIII!I!I!!!PHI!!! I wanna show you Gakkou he Ikou ;_; The Fashion Police part is SO funny!! XD)
dancing to -- "Mr. Moonlight ~ai no big band~" - Morning Musume
11:54 p.m.
- @_@ So much happened and happy days of course, but right now I'm sooo tired and my stomach feels like it's going to explode (i ate too much...) so uhh.. I write about it later =_= Anyhow, Hitomi looks REALLY cool in the Mr. Moonlight video 'cause she's all dressed like a guy (Natsumi and Maki too) and yah.. cool @_@ But ack.. eyes feeling... tired and I'm too tired to excersize.. so for tonight I'll let myself get fat :P I'll just try losing it all later.... tired.. tired...
dancing to --
03:03 a.m.
- Nyooo, Phi: I....... probably wouldn't make you buy it if you don't have money etc etc *wink wink* But a nice...... kyoot Draco fanart would be nice *g*
Ummm anyhow :O It's like 3am 'cause I overslept XP I'm just sooo happy I didn't have to finish my econ project tonight. I have to go back to sleep later though because I have work today and I don't want to be uber uber tired :P But yah, working on AKG page and restarted my ROP project :D I'll probably be done with it this weekend YAY! Er.. which is good because it's due Tuesday lol
And MIRAEEE!!! you always busy afterschool/ROP now and now I won't see you till Monday 'cause there is no ROP tommorow oh wait there's work on Saturday you work on Saturday RIGHT? O.o Ergh.. I'm tired and hands are cold :P I go hunt for fics or something... Hee
dancing to -- "Memory Seishun no Hikari" - Morning Musume
06:59 p.m.
- Waii~ Tanoshii hi datta :D Me and my daddy had a disagreement on the way home (about buying books, when, where, how, and whether I would pick his ear or not =_=). In the end he got angry at me and I forgave him, got to watch TV, and got Mark Twain's Prince and The Pauper (complete with piccies) and Brian Jacque's Marlfox :D I also got Jamba Juice :D Fruits to complete the whole food pyramid thingy!
But lessee.. This morning I had slept around 4 because I was reading my new yaoi manga *g* (& Kenji wants to borrow Nocturne @_@) I woke up around 6:24 and thought I was late, but that's 'cause it seemed like 6:54 to mee ^^;; So I went to japanese where I participated more than usual? Mythology was interesting with "saving the papers" (so we didn't have to take written quiz) and meditating. Only, I don't meditate at school. I can't stand closing my eyes there @_@ I'm so paranoid~ Then it was a random brunch without Phi (did I mention she didn't come till middle of 5th period?) and in Econ we just had debates and discussion (YESH!) We did get another project to do though =/ Bleh? So then there's Anime Club at lunch and *ahem ahem* was all bugging me about why I didn't study French and blah blah blah :( Made me sooooooo MUKATSUKU wa yo! But I was all cool 'cause Suzie brought me Oreo's XD Which Phi and Kenji helped me finish because I was suffering from lack of liquids lol.
Then lots of fun ensues in ROP~! There was a problem with the printer (6 pages in 30 minutes *cough* slow *cough*) but I finally decided on The Prince and the Pauper.. and my FAVORITE part????
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Tom's breath came quick and short with excitement, and his eyes grew big with wonder and delight. Everything gave way in his mind instantly to one desire: that was to get close to the prince, and have a good, devouring look at him. Before he knew what he was about, he had his face against the gate-bars.
Iiii deshouuu? It screams "DRAW ME!" (YA@I!!) lol But yah :D Fun fun and Kenji makes the PERFECT vampiric face!! *burst out laughing... AGAIN* It's hilarious XDDDDD Niterou yooooo!! But now I go work on happy econ projects :D And watch fun TV shows. They're doing Lady Marmalade "Remaking the Video" tonight on MTV ^_^ I MUST watch this! *chu*
dancing to -- "For Fruits Basket" - Fruits Basket
11:43 p.m.
- Wahh! Ii hi datta! :D:D:D:D I don't remember school very clearly except that I got 2 more projects (T_T), but we also voted to have exec meetings every other week! More free time then XDXD I was sho happy I ran around the school and to the bathroom :X I also saw Suzie's new haircut and it's sooooo cute!! So then I fooled around ALLL ROP, but I think I might do The Prince and the Pauper for my book illustration :D Cute guy-ness!! lol
After school was also very very happy! 'cause my yaoi manga came :D So I can read it all tonight and tommorow XD I also got to go buy my bread and spent about $10 buying curry croquette bread, hot dog bread, green onion bread, a sandwich, and shaved ice :D Tasty-ness! I also weighed myself and I MIGHT be getting lighter! After eating all the bread I'm not so shure anymore XDXD!! But yah :D I just took a nap tonight and after board postness I go sleep again XD!! Nite nite!