Shadow-Light

Diaries of the Dark-Eyed Wanderer

About Me

Name: What you call me depends on who you are.
Age:
Sign: Scorpio (the little belly-crawling back-stabber) or Iron Monkey (either way, not someone to pester). ;)
Hobbies: RPGs, writing, and studying martial arts, philosophy, theology, and magic.
Personality: Generally quiet and polite, if something of a know-it-all. Get very loud when I'm excited. Just don't cross me. Recently I've discovered an aggressive side more vicious than I thought myself capable of.
Likes: CHERRIES!! NUMMY! =^_^= And good music, especially sound-tracks. And good books, particularly fantasy. And RPGs (pen-and-paper...none of that lame nintendo stuff). And, of course, Keichan. +^_~+
Dislike: People who put effort into being stupid.

Extras

Random quote of the moment

Verses of Comfort, Encouragement, and Inspiration

Latest Entries:

We came upon another cross-road at 11:53 a.m., Tuesday, July 1, 2003 :

What the world needs now
Is a whole lot of patience
In a big hurry.
- A Haiku of Modern Logic

~Borrowed from Ozfoxes website.

Our path chosen, we resume our journey...

We came upon another cross-road at 11:18 a.m., Friday, June 27, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
Bring On the Rain

19 years old. Can you imagine watching your youngest son having a seizure and dying right in front of your eyes at 19 years old? Because of a mesquitto bite? I can just barely imagine what it would be like for Mom and Dad to call me one day and tell me my little brother had died that morning. *shakes head...*

I'll see you when I get up there, Robert. We're sure gonna miss you down here.

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We came upon another cross-road at 06:18 p.m., Thursday, May 29, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
In the End

Mom, you know I love you. And I know you care about me, and just want what's best. But when I'm in trouble, I really wish you'd just let me deal with the trouble. I can deal with trouble okay if I'm just allowed to. You've always been the one to step in and handle all my troubles for me, which is nice, and was very necessary up to a point...but you still do it, and have no idea how stressed and guilty it makes me feel to be essentially be sat in the corner while everything is taken care of for me. -_- I'd like to deal with my own troubles. Please. Even if I can't deal with them as efficiently, at least I feel I'm doing something, and trying to make my own amends. Trying to take care of myself. Trying to haul some of my own weight in this world.

Dignity. That's what I'm asking for. One shred of dignity.

Thank you.

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We came upon another cross-road at 01:13 p.m., Tuesday, May 6, 2003 :

Uuuugh. I hate coming home from long trips. x_x The drive out to the Carolinas is usually pretty good. I have yet to have a bad trip out, even in rough weather or when I get lost. The trip HOME, on the other hand, never seems to go smoothly.

This time around, I once again ran into rain in the mountains. x_x And more trucks. I hate trucks. But not this time, believe it or not. Thank HEAVEN for truckers. o_o; You see, there was this one place where the inside lane had water across it, and when I hit it I got so much spray rebounded from the wall beside me that I couldn't see ANYTHING through my windshield except water. And I swear I hydroplaned for a couple of feet, at least. Around a curve. >.<

After that I promptly got into the outside lane, where the trucks are restricted to. I stayed close to the truck in front of me, and the truck behind me was very nice and kept a large gap between us. The truck ahead of me broke the water so nicely that the road was almost dry as I came through in his wake. We went through a number of rough spots like that, and we passed at least three cars that had hydroplaned off the side of the road or into the wall. x_x Gah...I hate rain in the mountains.

That was the worst part of the drive. I also got lost on the way down to Conway, not half an hour after I hit the road, and had to drive on the TERRIBLE road along 27-South before making it home. (Note to self: use the I-75 to Chattannooga rout from now on.)

But hey, I made it home okay! =^_^= And after an absolutely wonderful weekend, too. *hugs the Kei and Huskers* Hehe...we'll definitely have to find a chance to come visit your place, Husky. Bleh...just gotta find a time when school and finances permit. x_x

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We came upon another cross-road at 03:22 p.m., Wednesday, April 30, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
Dragonfly

Free at last!! I'm free at last!! XD *frolics* *remembers tomorrow he gets his teeth cut out* *tripfallsonface* >_< Well...I'm free for today. ^_^ And hopefully the weekend won't be so bad. Need a little time off before summer school starts on Teusday. :P

Man, I am SOOO ready to be out of college. x_x Ready to get a job and earn my own way in the world. Darn this guilt-complex of mine...I feel so bad still mooching off Mom and Dad at my age. :P Ah well...soon enough. Please, dear Lord, let it be soon enough. ^_^;;

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We came upon another cross-road at 08:06 a.m., Friday, April 25, 2003 :

*groans* *digs six foot deep hole and buries himself* ^_^;; Oiy...I'm never gonna live that one down, am I? And for those of you who have no clue what I'm referring to...don't ask. +^_^+;;

In other news...I feel very silly this morning. Got up and came to school for an 8:00 exam...only to remember when I got here that the paper I have due Monday IS my exam. *falloverdiessomemore* x_x Coulda slept in, dang it! Ah well... *hangs out until his 11:00 exam*

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We came upon another cross-road at 09:41 p.m., Sunday, April 20, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
In the End

W: *sigh* I don't know what to do. I love my visits. I ADORE my visits. But in the end they always seem to go sour...precisely BECAUSE they end.

K: All things must at some point, dearie. Well...most things, anyway. But that doesn't mean the time for them won't come again.

W: I know that. I just wish I could make it as easy for her to accept. :( I always seem to spoil her good mood when I leave. But...I live in a completely different state, I'm going to college, and I'm still almost entirely dependent on my parents. Whether I want to admit it or not, very few choices are mine to make at the moment. I have to come back. At least until the schooling is done.

K: *nods* Aye, this is true. And you are very prudent to come back when you must.

W: Merf...prudence I could do without. -_- I want to stay. To never leave her.

K: *nod* But you know as well as I that to do so would practically ruin your chances of ever really being able to be with her. Patience is a virtue you must excersize to the fullest right now.

W: Bleh. It hurts. And patience isn't something she's had much practice at.

K: *giggle* Then now is the time for her to get her practice. =^_^= Sweety, you delight in her pleasure. You revel in the time you get to spend with her. It positively enraptures you to be so close to her. What more do you want?

W: For her to enjoy it as much as I do. I feel selfish, always leaving her with tears and uncertainty and broken heartedness, every time I leave. :(

K: Ah. Then I suggest you stop worrying and remember that you have a tendency to exaggerate some things terribly in your imagination. ^_^

W: Hehe...aye, this is true...but still...

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We came upon another cross-road at 10:05 p.m., Monday, April 14, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
The Good Stuff

Mmm...end of semester coming up. Thank Heaven. : P I am SOOO ready to be out of school. Still got two summer sessions and a fall and a spring to go, though. *sigh* Sometimes I wonder if I'm gonna survive it all. *chuckle* Ah well. Not nearly as much a problem as some I've had in the last couple of years, huh? ^_^ At least it's finally drawing to a close. One more year! Keep your fingers crossed, everybody! *crosses own fingers* Teehee!

In much happier news, just a couple more days until my next trip! XD Yee! Gonna go see the K-chan again! =^_^= It's about time, no? Hehe...also gonna spend some time with the brother. Gonna miss him when he goes to Japan this fall. :P Ah well...we'll get him to bring back some cheap mangas for all of us. ;D

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We came upon another cross-road at 02:55 p.m., Tuesday, March 25, 2003 :
Bring Me to Life

Song of the Moment
Bring Me to Life

Every time I think I'm dying, the wind picks up. I don't know how you keep doing this...and I'm amazed that you even bother to anymore...but thank you. I guess I just have to come to grips with living by grace. Hehe...not that that's a bad thing. But every once in a while, I'd just like to feel like I'm earning at least a little of my keep, you know? Mmm...I understand that's the whole point of grace, but it's a tough bullet to bite sometimes. Ah well. On with life. =^_^=

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We came upon another cross-road at 10:59 p.m., Sunday, March 9, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
Moonlight Shadow

*paces 'round and 'round his room impatiently* ^_^;; Can you tell I'm excited about Spring Break? Whoohoo!! Grrrr...just gotta find some way to pass the last day before my trip. x_x I'm divided between drawing, writing, reading, listening to music, and making more RPG characters than I'll know what to do with. *lol* ;) I'll probably spend most of it packing and thinking up a good Werewolf adventure, though. XD

And part of me is apparently feeling a little morose and poetic. Probably comes from listening to "Worthy of Your Soul" and "Moonlight Shadow" on endless repeat for the past few hours. ^_^;; Ah well.

In other news, the inevitable is finally starting to catch up with me. Gotta go to the doctor tomorrow to see about some cholesterol medicine. My cholesterol is apparently getting a little high...joy to the world. *rolls eyes* More funness. Mmm...no worries, though. Gonna be too good a week for anything to get me down. =^_^=

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We came upon another cross-road at 07:48 p.m., Monday, March 3, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
Dust in the Wind and Place in this World

Someday they'll know me,
They'll hear what I've done.
I will show this world
I'm my Father's son.
I'll face any foe,
Undertake any quest,
Every challenge, every task;
I'll prove I'm the best.

Our path chosen, we resume our journey...

We came upon another cross-road at 11:02 a.m., Saturday, March 1, 2003 :

Song of the Moment
Crawling - Linkin Park

There are times I hate this sensitive heart of mine. -_-

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We came upon another cross-road at 10:08 a.m., Friday, February 28, 2003 :
This Week's Fox Paws

Hehehe...for those of you who haven't followed the little "Ozfoxes" link over on the right yet, I would highly recommend doing so. ^_^ *is always cheered up by the clean, cutesy humor*

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We came upon another cross-road at 08:45 p.m., Thursday, February 27, 2003 :

Serious, sort of moody post ahead. Rough waters in the heart today.

I am a very strange being. Who in their right mind would think twice about breaking off an abusive relationship for a supportive one? Who would have the least regrets about devoting themselves to someone who let them have fun, encouraged them to live their life, and kept them on the right path when they started to drift off? No one. No one with any brains in his head.

So why does it hurt so much? -_- I'm no fool. And I'm not ungrateful. I know I was in a bad relationship, and it's good that I got out. And I thank God for my Kristin, who pulled me through the whole mess, and is my guardian-angel-on-earth. But no amount of reasoning stems this sense of loss I feel, however much I try. Merf...I feel like a storm-battered ship when the sky finally clears.

*sigh* And you know...it's absolutely incredible that Kristin even stuck with me through all of it. She stuck to her guns, and pushed me back onto the right road, no matter how much it hurt. Mmph...that took more strength than I'll ever have. Certainly a lot more than I had at the time. And when all is said and done, she's forgiven me, where I can't forgive myself. I am humbled tremendously by her compassion, and her patience. And this bloated ego really needs that. -_-

I should stop now, before I drift off into depression or madness. Merf...just so much I want to say, but the words never come when I try to say it. Anywho...one humbled kitten signing off for tonight.

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We came upon another cross-road at 09:39 p.m., Thursday, February 20, 2003 :
White Flames

And I think I'm on a lyrics kick, too.

Song of the Day
White Flames

Aiya...I feel like writing about the WindWarrior again, and also about my new centaur character. =^_^= *feels a race coming on* XD

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We came upon another cross-road at 09:12 p.m., Thursday, February 20, 2003 :
Lively Motion

Teehee...well, someone's a little impatient to get some writing out of me again. ^_^ Not that I mind. She doesn't demand much. ;)

*is very much looking forward to spring-break* Yay! Get a little time in with bro, and a little time with my sweety, and even get to meet her best friend! :D It's gonna be a good week. =^_^= Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait!

And in other news, I'm really excited about this new MMORPG we're getting ready to try. =^_^= *wants to be a centaur* Teehee! I like cats a lot more than horses, but horses are cool too. And they made this race just IDEAL for me. :D Jovial, competative, friendly, simple, and devout. Love 'em! =^_^= Good-bye, DA! Shadowbane, here I come!

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We came upon another cross-road at 02:35 p.m., Sunday, February 2, 2003 :

Song of the Day
Headstrong

I feel like rising to a challenge today. Someone challenge me. Please? >:)

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We came upon another cross-road at 11:22 a.m., Tuesday, January 28, 2003 :

Song of the Day
Cosmic Castaway

*rubs forhead* Oiy...you know...we philosophers are crazy. Some of us will believe anything that works in theory, whether or not it works in reality. Others won't believe a thing for fear of being wrong, or because (Heaven forbid) it might set a standard. And it's just the end of the world as we know it if anyone actually ANSWERS A QUESTION. *gasp* :P Makes me ashamed to be among their numbers.

In brighter news, Matthew's B-day is coming up, and I know just the present to get him. XD Yay! =^_^= Mmm...maybe the rest of the day won't be so stressful on the intellect. Sometimes it's harder to understand idiots than rocket-scientists...and sometimes they're the same person...

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We came upon another cross-road at 02:51 p.m., Tuesday, January 21, 2003 :

Archive! :D 'Bout time I cleaned house a little.

Well, the school-year is off to a very promising start so far. Even if philosophy classes are giving me a head-ache. ^_^;; I really have to wonder, sometimes, if some of these people have ever experienced life outside a text-book. At other times, I just have to out-right laugh at some of what's said. It's always amusing to hear an hour-long discussion about possible answers to a supposedly impossible question...all the while already knowing the answer, and it's not one that ever gets so much as a passing comment in class. Ah well...

Mmm...this past weekend was fantastic. +^_^+ Got to visit someone very special, and had the time of my life. I think she enjoyed it, too. ;D At least if she didn't, she didn't complain any. *clinghuggles*

Cross your fingers, everyone. If the rest of the year keeps this up, it just might be the best year of my life. =^_^=

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	Diaries of the Dark-Eyed Wanderer About Me Name: What you call me depends on who you are. Age: Sign: Scorpio (the little belly-crawling back-stabber) or Iron Monkey (either way, not someone to pester). ;) Hobbies: RPGs, writing, and studying martial arts, philosophy, theology, and magic. Personality: Generally quiet and polite, if something of a know-it-all. Get very loud when I'm excited. Just don't cross me. Recently I've discovered an aggressive side more vicious than I thought myself capable of. Likes: CHERRIES!! NUMMY! =^_^= And good music, especially sound-tracks. And good books, particularly fantasy. And RPGs (pen-and-paper...none of that lame nintendo stuff). And, of course, Keichan. +^_~+ Dislike: People who put effort into being stupid. Extras Random quote of the moment Verses of Comfort, Encouragement, and Inspiration Latest Entries: We came upon another cross-road at 11:53 a.m., Tuesday, July 1, 2003 : What the world needs now Is a whole lot of patience In a big hurry. - A Haiku of Modern Logic ~Borrowed from Ozfoxes website. Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 11:18 a.m., Friday, June 27, 2003 : Song of the Moment Bring On the Rain 19 years old. Can you imagine watching your youngest son having a seizure and dying right in front of your eyes at 19 years old? Because of a mesquitto bite? I can just barely imagine what it would be like for Mom and Dad to call me one day and tell me my little brother had died that morning. shakes head... I'll see you when I get up there, Robert. We're sure gonna miss you down here. Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 06:18 p.m., Thursday, May 29, 2003 : Song of the Moment In the End Mom, you know I love you. And I know you care about me, and just want what's best. But when I'm in trouble, I really wish you'd just let me deal with the trouble. I can deal with trouble okay if I'm just allowed to. You've always been the one to step in and handle all my troubles for me, which is nice, and was very necessary up to a point...but you still do it, and have no idea how stressed and guilty it makes me feel to be essentially be sat in the corner while everything is taken care of for me. -_- I'd like to deal with my own troubles. Please. Even if I can't deal with them as efficiently, at least I feel I'm doing something, and trying to make my own amends. Trying to take care of myself. Trying to haul some of my own weight in this world. Dignity. That's what I'm asking for. One shred of dignity. Thank you. Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 01:13 p.m., Tuesday, May 6, 2003 : Uuuugh. I hate coming home from long trips. x_x The drive out to the Carolinas is usually pretty good. I have yet to have a bad trip out, even in rough weather or when I get lost. The trip HOME, on the other hand, never seems to go smoothly. This time around, I once again ran into rain in the mountains. x_x And more trucks. I hate trucks. But not this time, believe it or not. Thank HEAVEN for truckers. o_o; You see, there was this one place where the inside lane had water across it, and when I hit it I got so much spray rebounded from the wall beside me that I couldn't see ANYTHING through my windshield except water. And I swear I hydroplaned for a couple of feet, at least. Around a curve. >.< After that I promptly got into the outside lane, where the trucks are restricted to. I stayed close to the truck in front of me, and the truck behind me was very nice and kept a large gap between us. The truck ahead of me broke the water so nicely that the road was almost dry as I came through in his wake. We went through a number of rough spots like that, and we passed at least three cars that had hydroplaned off the side of the road or into the wall. x_x Gah...I hate rain in the mountains. That was the worst part of the drive. I also got lost on the way down to Conway, not half an hour after I hit the road, and had to drive on the TERRIBLE road along 27-South before making it home. (Note to self: use the I-75 to Chattannooga rout from now on.) But hey, I made it home okay! =^_^= And after an absolutely wonderful weekend, too. hugs the Kei and Huskers Hehe...we'll definitely have to find a chance to come visit your place, Husky. Bleh...just gotta find a time when school and finances permit. x_x Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 03:22 p.m., Wednesday, April 30, 2003 : Song of the Moment Dragonfly Free at last!! I'm free at last!! XD frolics remembers tomorrow he gets his teeth cut out tripfallsonface >_< Well...I'm free for today. ^_^ And hopefully the weekend won't be so bad. Need a little time off before summer school starts on Teusday. :P Man, I am SOOO ready to be out of college. x_x Ready to get a job and earn my own way in the world. Darn this guilt-complex of mine...I feel so bad still mooching off Mom and Dad at my age. :P Ah well...soon enough. Please, dear Lord, let it be soon enough. ^_^;; Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 08:06 a.m., Friday, April 25, 2003 : groans digs six foot deep hole and buries himself ^_^;; Oiy...I'm never gonna live that one down, am I? And for those of you who have no clue what I'm referring to...don't ask. +^_^+;; In other news...I feel very silly this morning. Got up and came to school for an 8:00 exam...only to remember when I got here that the paper I have due Monday IS my exam. falloverdiessomemore x_x Coulda slept in, dang it! Ah well... hangs out until his 11:00 exam Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 09:41 p.m., Sunday, April 20, 2003 : Song of the Moment In the End W: sigh I don't know what to do. I love my visits. I ADORE my visits. But in the end they always seem to go sour...precisely BECAUSE they end. K: All things must at some point, dearie. Well...most things, anyway. But that doesn't mean the time for them won't come again. W: I know that. I just wish I could make it as easy for her to accept. :( I always seem to spoil her good mood when I leave. But...I live in a completely different state, I'm going to college, and I'm still almost entirely dependent on my parents. Whether I want to admit it or not, very few choices are mine to make at the moment. I have to come back. At least until the schooling is done. K: nods Aye, this is true. And you are very prudent to come back when you must. W: Merf...prudence I could do without. -_- I want to stay. To never leave her. K: nod But you know as well as I that to do so would practically ruin your chances of ever really being able to be with her. Patience is a virtue you must excersize to the fullest right now. W: Bleh. It hurts. And patience isn't something she's had much practice at. K: giggle Then now is the time for her to get her practice. =^_^= Sweety, you delight in her pleasure. You revel in the time you get to spend with her. It positively enraptures you to be so close to her. What more do you want? W: For her to enjoy it as much as I do. I feel selfish, always leaving her with tears and uncertainty and broken heartedness, every time I leave. :( K: Ah. Then I suggest you stop worrying and remember that you have a tendency to exaggerate some things terribly in your imagination. ^_^ W: Hehe...aye, this is true...but still... Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 10:05 p.m., Monday, April 14, 2003 : Song of the Moment The Good Stuff Mmm...end of semester coming up. Thank Heaven. : P I am SOOO ready to be out of school. Still got two summer sessions and a fall and a spring to go, though. sigh Sometimes I wonder if I'm gonna survive it all. chuckle Ah well. Not nearly as much a problem as some I've had in the last couple of years, huh? ^_^ At least it's finally drawing to a close. One more year! Keep your fingers crossed, everybody! crosses own fingers Teehee! In much happier news, just a couple more days until my next trip! XD Yee! Gonna go see the K-chan again! =^_^= It's about time, no? Hehe...also gonna spend some time with the brother. Gonna miss him when he goes to Japan this fall. :P Ah well...we'll get him to bring back some cheap mangas for all of us. ;D Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 02:55 p.m., Tuesday, March 25, 2003 : Bring Me to Life Song of the Moment Bring Me to Life Every time I think I'm dying, the wind picks up. I don't know how you keep doing this...and I'm amazed that you even bother to anymore...but thank you. I guess I just have to come to grips with living by grace. Hehe...not that that's a bad thing. But every once in a while, I'd just like to feel like I'm earning at least a little of my keep, you know? Mmm...I understand that's the whole point of grace, but it's a tough bullet to bite sometimes. Ah well. On with life. =^_^= Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 10:59 p.m., Sunday, March 9, 2003 : Song of the Moment Moonlight Shadow paces 'round and 'round his room impatiently ^_^;; Can you tell I'm excited about Spring Break? Whoohoo!! Grrrr...just gotta find some way to pass the last day before my trip. x_x I'm divided between drawing, writing, reading, listening to music, and making more RPG characters than I'll know what to do with. lol ;) I'll probably spend most of it packing and thinking up a good Werewolf adventure, though. XD And part of me is apparently feeling a little morose and poetic. Probably comes from listening to "Worthy of Your Soul" and "Moonlight Shadow" on endless repeat for the past few hours. ^_^;; Ah well. In other news, the inevitable is finally starting to catch up with me. Gotta go to the doctor tomorrow to see about some cholesterol medicine. My cholesterol is apparently getting a little high...joy to the world. rolls eyes More funness. Mmm...no worries, though. Gonna be too good a week for anything to get me down. =^_^= Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 07:48 p.m., Monday, March 3, 2003 : Song of the Moment Dust in the Wind and Place in this World Someday they'll know me, They'll hear what I've done. I will show this world I'm my Father's son. I'll face any foe, Undertake any quest, Every challenge, every task; I'll prove I'm the best. Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 11:02 a.m., Saturday, March 1, 2003 : Song of the Moment Crawling - Linkin Park There are times I hate this sensitive heart of mine. -_- Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 10:08 a.m., Friday, February 28, 2003 : This Week's Fox Paws Hehehe...for those of you who haven't followed the little "Ozfoxes" link over on the right yet, I would highly recommend doing so. ^_^ is always cheered up by the clean, cutesy humor Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 08:45 p.m., Thursday, February 27, 2003 : Serious, sort of moody post ahead. Rough waters in the heart today. I am a very strange being. Who in their right mind would think twice about breaking off an abusive relationship for a supportive one? Who would have the least regrets about devoting themselves to someone who let them have fun, encouraged them to live their life, and kept them on the right path when they started to drift off? No one. No one with any brains in his head. So why does it hurt so much? -_- I'm no fool. And I'm not ungrateful. I know I was in a bad relationship, and it's good that I got out. And I thank God for my Kristin, who pulled me through the whole mess, and is my guardian-angel-on-earth. But no amount of reasoning stems this sense of loss I feel, however much I try. Merf...I feel like a storm-battered ship when the sky finally clears. sigh And you know...it's absolutely incredible that Kristin even stuck with me through all of it. She stuck to her guns, and pushed me back onto the right road, no matter how much it hurt. Mmph...that took more strength than I'll ever have. Certainly a lot more than I had at the time. And when all is said and done, she's forgiven me, where I can't forgive myself. I am humbled tremendously by her compassion, and her patience. And this bloated ego really needs that. -_- I should stop now, before I drift off into depression or madness. Merf...just so much I want to say, but the words never come when I try to say it. Anywho...one humbled kitten signing off for tonight. Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 09:39 p.m., Thursday, February 20, 2003 : White Flames And I think I'm on a lyrics kick, too. Song of the Day White Flames Aiya...I feel like writing about the WindWarrior again, and also about my new centaur character. =^_^= feels a race coming on XD Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 09:12 p.m., Thursday, February 20, 2003 : Lively Motion Teehee...well, someone's a little impatient to get some writing out of me again. ^_^ Not that I mind. She doesn't demand much. ;) is very much looking forward to spring-break Yay! Get a little time in with bro, and a little time with my sweety, and even get to meet her best friend! :D It's gonna be a good week. =^_^= Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait! And in other news, I'm really excited about this new MMORPG we're getting ready to try. =^_^= wants to be a centaur Teehee! I like cats a lot more than horses, but horses are cool too. And they made this race just IDEAL for me. :D Jovial, competative, friendly, simple, and devout. Love 'em! =^_^= Good-bye, DA! Shadowbane, here I come! Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 02:35 p.m., Sunday, February 2, 2003 : Song of the Day Headstrong I feel like rising to a challenge today. Someone challenge me. Please? >:) Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 11:22 a.m., Tuesday, January 28, 2003 : Song of the Day Cosmic Castaway rubs forhead Oiy...you know...we philosophers are crazy. Some of us will believe anything that works in theory, whether or not it works in reality. Others won't believe a thing for fear of being wrong, or because (Heaven forbid) it might set a standard. And it's just the end of the world as we know it if anyone actually ANSWERS A QUESTION. gasp :P Makes me ashamed to be among their numbers. In brighter news, Matthew's B-day is coming up, and I know just the present to get him. XD Yay! =^_^= Mmm...maybe the rest of the day won't be so stressful on the intellect. Sometimes it's harder to understand idiots than rocket-scientists...and sometimes they're the same person... Our path chosen, we resume our journey... We came upon another cross-road at 02:51 p.m., Tuesday, January 21, 2003 : Archive! :D 'Bout time I cleaned house a little. Well, the school-year is off to a very promising start so far. Even if philosophy classes are giving me a head-ache. ^_^;; I really have to wonder, sometimes, if some of these people have ever experienced life outside a text-book. At other times, I just have to out-right laugh at some of what's said. It's always amusing to hear an hour-long discussion about possible answers to a supposedly impossible question...all the while already knowing the answer, and it's not one that ever gets so much as a passing comment in class. Ah well... Mmm...this past weekend was fantastic. +^_^+ Got to visit someone very special, and had the time of my life. I think she enjoyed it, too. ;D At least if she didn't, she didn't complain any. clinghuggles Cross your fingers, everyone. If the rest of the year keeps this up, it just might be the best year of my life. =^_^= Our path chosen, we resume our journey...