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Are you...Jealous? *innocent* on Saturday, January 4, 2003
Eat at the Sushi Pie: Karma is mysterious, but very REAL. Never underestimate Karma, people.
If it's too loud, You're too old...: Dir en grey - Macabre (Still...^__^)
I LOVE this song, people. It's so...KICK ASS!!! The way the song builds up into one kick ass moment where everyone's instruments just seem to shout all together. Ugh. Amazing. I love music.
Anyway, lately, things of Karma have been happening alot. If you all don't know...now you do: Remember Nick? From Mr. Rags? The one that wouldn't transfer me and my dad had to bitch him out in order for him to FINALLY transfer me? Well guess what?
Bitch got FIRED!!! That's right people!! And Melanie might be the one taking over the Valley Fair store where Nick was in charge? Crazy, isn't it? But Melanie is moving, so she'll only have the store for a little while. ='( But still. THAT'S KICK ASS! Melanie is such a great person. =D
Also, the other day, Barrie got her car broken into. =( THAT sucked. She got her radio stolen for the THIRD time AND her backpack stolen with her special ordered $200 running shoes. Yeah. BIG TIME suck major. But here's the thing, she told me that the backpack was given to her as a STOLEN gift. And someone stole it back. Get it? Karma. She was like, "Yep. It's karma. See how that works, Abby? It ALWAYS comes back to you."
I'm really starting to believe this. I'm watching out for how I'm treating people and I'm trying to treat them with respect and kindness alot more. However, when someone needs to be bitched out, I'll still do it.
The other day, Tony, REALLY got on my VERY LAST NERVE. So I bitched him out BIG time in the back. He DESERVED it! And now, I kid you not everyone, he's SWEETER and he's VERY considerate now. After that bitch-out, he was even nicer to ME! I need to give him a hug. I seriously do. LOL!
OH! and as for the entry title...here's the big shebang. You guys are going to love this...LOL!! I DID! MUAHAHA!
Okay, so remember how I talked about Ricky and how maybe Mark was jealous? And Remember how I told you all about Ricky saying he was gonna give me a lapdance, how he changed in the bathroom with me, and how we always say "I love you" to each other? LMAO!! WOO! Guess what I found out yesterday when I was out with the ladies (Natali and Danielle, LOL!)!!!
It turns out that soon AFTER Mark had seen and heard Ricky and I, He started doing the same thing...to DANIELLE. He told Danielle that he should give her a striptease. *coughs* and she told me that when he called her and left a message, he said, "Yeah, I decided to call you into work early because I said so. No, I'm just kidding. Anyway, call back if you can come in, love you, bye."
...LOL!!!!!! WTF!?
We were eating and when Danielle told me that I was just shaking my head saying, "Oh my God...he's trying to make me jealous! Ricky and I did those same things! Lapdance...Striptease?" And even Natali saw it too. She said something like, "Yeah. Sounds like he's using Danielle to make you jealous."
Geeze. Come on...*smacks Mark's head* Dork.
I mean...seriously, people. On the real. I'm not using Ricky at ALL to make Mark jealous. I may have said that or maybe implied it, but for reals, I'm not. Ricky is just kick ass and that's just how we are, you know? I can be myself with Ricky. With Mark, I can't. I can't be myself because I'm scared to be criticized for it. You know?
Here's a little something I wrote for English. It's supposed to be a voice piece where you write out a thought in a certain voice, but you can't really SAY what you're thinking about. The reader has to figure it out. But as you can all probably figure out, it's my thoughts on Mark. Natali told me that if ever, for some reason, we stop being friends, that I should give it to him. She said that if he ever thinks about what I'm thinking about him, this should say it perfectly. You be the judge:
Oh, here we go. Another day with Mr. I-think-I’m-so-hot-and-cool. It’s so disgusting how big-headed you are. Telling Barrie how much you think all the girls here like you. Please. Just because you have a feeling about me, doesn’t mean everyone does too. I don’t even know why I’m wasting my time with you. You think you’re so much older and wiser than everyone, but you’re really not. There you go again, trying to tell me how to do my job. You swear that I screw things up every time, when I really don’t. You point out every flaw on my behalf when, really, I think you’re so insecure about your own flaws you feel the need to be a jerk-off to someone else. Someone else who actually gives a damn about how you feel, how you’re doing and the like. Someone who actually cares about making you happy. But no. You take all that and throw it all away as if it really means nothing. I can’t believe you. You’ll be so sorry the day you find out what you could have had. Go ahead, flirt with her and the next girl, and the girls after that, but you’ll never meet someone that cared about you more than me.
Calling me names again. You say you’re kidding, but you probably have hidden meanings behind it all. Sometimes I can feel it by the way you’re looking at me. A hidden hate, perhaps? Maybe. Don’t worry though; I have the same feeling about you. Now you hug me. Don’t do that. Don’t try to heal the wounds that you’ve caused. You probably don’t even know you’ve made wounds. It figures; a big-headed person such as yourself could never realize that.
What are you doing now? On the computer as usual. Great. Who are you talking to now? Danyel? Sarah? Maybe even Sharon? Which one will it be tonight? There seems to be so many girls in your life now that I’ve lost track of which one is which. How sad. You complain about not having a girlfriend. I wouldn’t think you would have a girlfriend considering how stuck up and ‘mature’ you are. God forbid that someone makes a joke or actually has fun. No. But you’re the prime example of maturity, aren’t you? Just barely twenty and you think that everyone is now too young to know what you’re talking about or too immature to understand. Maybe if you gave people a chance instead of labeling them for a stupid action or something they said, then maybe you would find out that there’s more to every person you’ve so stupidly shut down.
Me, for example. You’ll never know me. You were right that one time you said, “I thought I knew you. But I guess I don’t.” You were totally right. And do you know why? Because you never gave me the chance. Sucks for you. What? You want me to do what?
Do it yourself. I’m through being the pushover.
Whatacha think? LOL, I had to MAJORLY edit it because it had to be 10 FUCKIN' SENTENCES LONG. -____-; Dammit. Anyway.
LOL!! I better get going. Get this everyone, I have to go to a store meeting today at 9...so I set my alarm for 7:55. GUESS WHAT TIME I FUCKIN' WAKE UP!?
6:55. THE HELL?!?!?!! I TRIED going back to sleep and I finally gave up. LOL! -___-; Great. LOL! Anyway, I'm sure I'll blog later, considering it's only 8:01 now. LOL! So..here I go!
Blog later!! JAAA!!!
~ Had more Pie around 9:55 PM ~
Oh yeah. Still a good day. I need to download "Player's Holiday". I LOVE that song. LOL!!!
Okay. Well, today was yet another awesome day, except for the fact that TOM came to town today. *grr* I hate TOM. Aunt Flo. Aunt Rose. Whatever you wanna call it...but it hate it. Stupid, stupid, stupid!!! LOL! But anyway...
So Danielle picked me up and we went to the meeting. Turns out that Ricky is going back to school so he won't be back at work until next break or something. =( I'm gonna miss him!!! I hella wanted to kick it with him...but things just get so hectic. =( So anyway, Barrie, Danielle, Ricky and I all plan to go to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner. Which is coo, right? Right. And we were all gonna go around 6, so I was like, okay. Cool!
After the meeting, Danielle drops me back off at home and around noon, Cindy picks me up. Instead of going to tattoo parlours and everything, we decide to hit the mall instead. Plus, I needed to return this pencil I bought at Santana Row at the Japanese stationary store. I got the mechanical pencil instead of the pen. -___-; and I didn't pay no five dallah for a PENCIL. SHOOO. LOL! So anyway, Cindy and I meet up with her friend, Miriam. We then walk around and I tag along while they shop and I just watch. LOL! And so Cindy leaves around 6 and I go back to Coldstone to get Danielle. By that time, Barrie canceled because she had previous plans that she forgot about AND she was low on funds so she didn't want to go to Cheesecake. So now that she wasn't going, we figured, Okay...we'll go now!
So, Danielle and I invite Natali to go and then we make our way over to Cheesecake to put our name on the list. So while we're waiting, we go to Santana Row, since Cindy and I didn't have time earlier. So we go...and I was like, "Hey! Let me show you my Gucci glasses!" Just...ya know...out of the blue. So we go into Gucci.........
Shozou. Say the name. SHO-ZO. I dunno if it's with a u at the end or not....but.....I dun give a fuck. SHOZOU!
People...this guy was HOT, Spoke Japanese, Listened to Jrock/Pop AND had a KICK ASS SMILE!
Okay, so here it is. I walked in and the employees were like, "Hi! How are you!?" and Ya know...I replied good, and ish. And then Shozou was like, "You wanna play with my hair, too?" because some girl was playing with it. And so I laughed and said, "Sure!" So here I go, going over and playing with his hair. And I liked it! It was soft!! So I said that and the girl made a face and said it was nasty and dry. Then I told her no, that it was cute! LOL! It was! It was kinda short...but shaggy. Ya know? Anyway...so I go over to the glasses and ask him if I could try them on. So I try them on and Ricky calls.
As I'm talking to Ricky, Shozou is talking and Ricky asks who else is there. I tell him that it's a worker at Gucci...but then I felt that was rude so that's when I asked what his name was. He introduced himself and so did I.
Ricky: Puttin' on the moves?
Me: Oh yeah.
So then Danielle, bless her, takes the phone and starts talking to Ricky while I start talking to Shozou. I ask him if he's Japanese and I ask if he can speak it and he said yeah! WOOT WOOT! So I asked if he listened to Japanese music and when he said, Yeah...I was like FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I then immediately asked him what bands he likes and everything and he likes Utada Hikaru and GLAY! WOOT! He's not too crazy about DEG tho. Boo. LOL!! But I'll live!! And so yeah!! We chatted for a little bit more and I looked around the store and then left!
However...I DID see this Gucci Kimono like outfit that FUCKIN' WANTED!!!! *SOB*!!! LOL! But yeah. Right. LOL!
The rest of the night, I was on AIR! I still am!! That smile! Our connection!! WOOT! LOL!!!! In the newspaper this morning, for my horoscope, it said that I would recieve "emotional pleasure". FUCK YEAH I DID!!!!!! And it said that Cancer would play an important role......
I wonder if he was a Cancer.........
BUT I WANNA SEE HIM AGAIN DAMMIT!!! I wanna know his stats! Is he available? How old? School? WUDDUP!?!?!?! LOL!!
LOL, so anyway, after we get out of Gucci, Danielle tells me that Ricky thought we weren't gonna call, so he was going out to the movies. -___-; Fine. Well since Natali and I weren't that hungry, we canceled our Cheescake plans and went for Sushi Boat instead. Little did we know that they were having a badddd day over there. The waitress pissed up our order and they didn't do much about it...so she got no tip. LOL!! Oi Oi Oi...SERVICE WITH A SMILE, DAMMIT! THE CUSTOMER'S ALWAYS RIGHT, BEYOTCH!!!
LOL, Yeah. So anyway. Now I'm home...and here I am! School is Monday. BLAH. But I kinda wanna see everyone again. *sigh* And I'm switching out of Math and Chem...so it all be good. I just hope I have enough credits. I may be short 10 credits, so it looks like I'm gonna have to do a semester of a college course. LOL no biggie. =D
*Sigh* WELL...it looks like I'll be Archiving soon!!! I have to make a new layout...I had one going..but my computer is stupid and so ALL the screen caps I got are GONE. *Curses* I'll get them back....trust me. LOL!!
Anyway!!! OYASUMI!!! JAAA!!!
She was craving pie @ 07:38 a.m.
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DAMN!!!!!! HELLA FOREVER!!! on Thursday, January 2, 2003
Happy New Pie!: I think I forgot all my HTML...LOL!!! J/kin....I hope....
If it's too loud, you're too old: Dir en grey - Macabre
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! WOW! I'M FINALLY BLOGGING!!!! LOL!! Unbelieveable, no?! LOL holy crap. Okay....this blog might be VERY long so be prepped! And lemme see where I left off...
I believe it was Christmas Day. Okay, Uhm...The day after that, not much happened at work. I don't even remember that day so it must not have been important, ne?! LOL!
HOWEVER!!!! On December 27th, AUWONIE came!!!!!!! and She was prepped with her Macabre Concert burned VCD, LOL! and a CD chock full of Dir en grey, Gackt and others video clips!! Lemme just tell you all...that if you haven't watched the Utaban Interview with Gackt (the followup to the "Hidden Meat" one)...then you are deprived. That interview was so damn HILARIOUS!!!!! I was rollin! I need to take Gackuto-sama with me shopping. Get me some BARGAINS!!!! PORK BELLY! MUAHAHA! OH YEAH! Then, earlier that night, Zeid, Auwon and I went out to go shoot pool with his cousin. THAT WAS FUN!!!!!! It was Auwon and I against Zeid and his Cousin...AND WE KICKED ASS!! The score was 7 (us) - 3 (them). The girls won 7 OUT OF 10!!!! WOOT WOOOT!!!! PROPS TO THA WOMEN!!!!! LOL!!!! BASK IN OUR ALMIGHTYNESS!! LOL!! ^___^;;;;
Anyway, the next day, Auwon and I chilled at home. It was so incredibly boring and I felt soooo bad because I didn't have a car.....
OH SHIT! I FORGOT TO TELL YOU ALL! LOL! Okay...THE FUCKING DAY BEFORE AUWON CAME...The engine to the car blew up. I kid you not. My dad and I were driving to his job so I could drop him off and take the car back and all of a sudden...we hear this LOUD Clanging noise in the car. So we pull over and call Sherry (Dad's g/f) to come get us. She calls AAA and the car is towed to a garage. The same day, they call my dad saying that the oil pump failed and as a result, two rods in the engine broke. The engine over heated and failed. Died. Kaput. *Sobs* WE HAVE NO CAR! How depressing is THAT?! LOL! However, one of Sherry's family members? Or something, said that they could install the engine for FREE! Just get an engine from a junkyard for about 500 bucks!!! WOOT! The catch? He lives in Sacramento...and we have to get the engine AND the car to Sacramento. Humm...We'll figure something out!! We kick ass. LOL!
OKAY, so anyway, we stayed home all day and finally went out to the mall where I showed her around. We decided to go to the Cheesecake Factory and so we made reservations and putzed around the mall for a while. I bought some Purple hair dye and it was all good! LOL! About an hour and a half later, we went to go eat. I had some GOOD ASS tea! The iced tea at the cheesecake factory is BOMB!!!!! I want to work there just so I can find out what kind of tea it is....*muhahahaha!* So yeah, Auwon and I chatted and everything and then after all that, my bud Natali called and asked if Auwon and I wanted to go out to the movies with her and Danielle after she got out. I said sure and then Danielle picked us up around 9:30ish.
However, when we got to the movies, all the movies we wanted to see were sold out. So we decided to head on over to the drive-in. Natali was gonna go in the trunk of the car, LMAO!!! but she didn't want to so we just decided to go into the drive-in since there was no employees working since it was closed. The last movie showing was "8 Mile" and Hell...I didn't have a problem watching it!!! LMAO! So Natali and Danielle started scanning through the radio stations to find which one was playing the movie and we finally found it! WEE!
Lemme just say that the sex scenes are...Woooooooo....I SAW EMINEM'S BOOTY!!!! *_____* LOL!!!! And those flows at the end of the movie were TOIGHT!!!!! However, after the movie, Danielle took us fuckin' halfway around the world to get us home. So Auwon and I were tired by the time we got home, which was around 12:30. So we just crashed.
Next day, we chilled until I had to go to work. I took Auwon with me to the mall and Zeid said he'd pick her up at the mall. So it was chill. =D And...when Zeid and Auwon finally found each other in the mall, LOL! They came back to my job and tipped me. -_____-;;; Meaning I had to sing. LOL!!!! Erf. It wasn't so bad tho. LOL!!
Next day...we made COOKIES!! LOL!!! Go to Auwon's site to get some visuals of our cookies!! I made Dir en grey Cookies and she made Gackt and GacktJob cookies!!! I still haven't eaten them. LOL!! I'll send them out to Gackt and Dir en grey. LOL!!!!!!
That same night, we went out for some food at Chili's. My dad CLAIMS I was getting tipsy because I kept stealing sips at his margarita...but come on! I'm not THAT much of a lightweight!!!!! Sheesh. But eating out with Auwon, My dad and Sherry was all fun! =D My dad was like, "Yeah...you better watch out for those damn drunk drivers tomorrow night..." and he was trying to get a sip of his maragrita while saying this. LOL!!!! and to top it off...HE was driving home!! LOL!!! Good fun. He was kidding tho. ^__^;
THEN, New Year's Eve, Auwon and I got started on our hair and I helped Auwon bleach her bangs so she could dye them Red. *CHEE!!!!* WEE! LOL! And I did a little bit of bleaching myself so that I could put in the purple! WEE! However. I think I need to buy white dye and mix the purple with it...the purple is way too dark to show up against my dark hair and the red streaks. But you can sorta see it in the sun. LOL!!! After work (Auwon chilled at home this time, LOL!) Mark dropped me off at home and Zeid came to pick us up.
We got to the New Years party and I was really happy at how how welcoming and warm his friends all were!!! It was awesome!! Even the GIRLS were cool (Which is kind of rare...)! The girls were soo sweet and welcoming. I felt right at home, LOL! Or...at College. ^____^ The man of the house, Brian, is fluent and Japanese and resembles Eminem. He's really hot. LOL!!!! We talked a little bit and he was really cool. I got to punch him. >__< And this other guy, Tong, was HELLA funny! LOL! He would come up to Auwon and I and be like, "I'm SO drunk. HI!!!" LOL! He was like...ENTHRALLED with Auwon's Red hair. LOL!! Everyone was! WOOT! LOL! He was awesome tho. I hope I get to see him again! His girlfriend was a sweetheart too! And this other girl, Joyce was cool too =D It was a fun party! But that Jello Shot was NASTY. People...if you're gonna make Jello Shots...use Cherry Jello. LOL!!! and LESS Liquor. Please. LOL!! *bleh* After that shot, my tummy kinda felt odd so I had a little bit of this strawberry daquiri wine cooler and it was pretty GOOD! LOL!! After that tho, I was just ready to chill. So Auwon and I chilled on the couch. LOL! It was fun, tho. =D
Then, at Midnight, you can see everyone calling their people on their cellphones. LOL! I called my dad, and my friends and then I called Mark. Mark made me mad, but now, I'm not even trippin'. Here's what happened:
Him: Whaaaat?
Me: HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Him: You called me for that?!
Me: Whaaaaaa?! Sheeesh!!!! Sorry! I just thought I would be nice and considerate and tell you happy new year!
Him: Ohh...well. It's late.
Me: You didn't stay up 'til midnight?
Him: No, I did. But you called for that?
Me: Fine then! I'm not going to call you anymore!!!
Him: *thinks I'm kidding and kinda laughs*
Me: Anyway, I'll talk to you later.
Him: Okay. Happy new year.
Me: Mmmhmm, Byyee!
Him: Ohhhhhh, Myyyy God..(in like "I can't believe you're trippin" tone)
Me: Whaat!?
*hang up*
JERKOFF! LOL! damn unappreciative guys.
Then around 1, we started the drive home. And that's when my dad kept CALLING!!! GRR!!! But when we got home, all was good. I guess he was just worried or something. I kept getting grouchy because when the phone would ring, it would wake me up cuz I was sleeping in the backseat of Zeid's car. LOL!! So we finally got home and CRASHED like never before!!!!!! I woke up at around 11:30 and Auwon woke up around 2. LOL!!!
After she got the sleepies out of her eyes, we called Zeid and he picked us up and we went out for some Chinese food. That food was bomb! LOL!!!! Very filling!! And then came the time where we went to the airport and dropped Auwon off at the airport. *Sob* LOL!! it was sad, but we knew we'd all see each other again, so it wasn't totally dramatic. LOL!!
I was on my way home with Zeid when my dad called and when I told him we dropped her off he was like, "Did you cry?" LOL!!!! -____-;;
Then Auwon called and I kept her company on the phone while she was waiting for her plane to board. I hugged Zeid and thanked him for a ride home before he talked to Auwon again before leaving.
HEY AUWON!!!!!!!! GACKT AND KAORU ARE LIVING TOGETHER NOW!!!!!!!!!! MUHAHAHAHAHHA!! *kicks Hyde aside with an evil grin* They got a HUGE house! LOL!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!!! And they played in the vibrating bed!! and the Heartshaped hot tub. LOL!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! I luv my Yaoi men. ^__^ IT'S ADDICTING, I TELL YA!! And Auwon can totally confirm that for me!!!
Welp, I think that's about it. I need to get dressed because Cindy is gonna pick me up and we're gonna chill before I have to go to work again. *Sigh* Back to the ol' grindstone. =P Damn. It was fun tho!! Next time, ZEID AND I ARE GOING TO L.A.!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! LOL!!
And I'll probably get back in my blogging groove...so dun worry everyone!!
HER ROYAL PIENESS IS BACK!!!!! LOL!!!
JAAAA!!
She was craving pie @ 11:31 a.m.
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MERI KURISUMASU MINNA-SAN!!!!!! on Wednesday, December 25, 2002
Christmas Pie: I feel lost without my internet.
If it's too loud, You're too old: Nada...At Sherry's house.
Daymn. People. I think I'm going to die. I have NO DSL!!! And I can't go online because AOL is charging $2.95 A FUCKIN' MINUTE to go online since I used up the free WHOPPING TWO MOTHERFUCKIN' HOURS!!!!!!!! -____-;;;; And AUWON is coming on Thursday, I believe, and I have got NO INTERNET! Well...Technically I DO...but still.
My dad is also having trouble with our computer. AOL keeps freezing up on the computer and he erased XP, and put Windows ME. But he wasn't satisfied. Now we have Windows 98 and he's still not satisfied. *sigh* I swear, my account on XP worked PERFECTLY. But Noooooooooo. He INSISTED on formatting it. See. That's what he gets.
I TOLD him he should have used MY account, but he's so stubborn. *sigh* Great. He's trying to find someone that has a real copy of XP because he firmly believes that XP won't work since it's bootlegged.
But anyway, daymn, it's been a while since I've blogged! Believe me! I miss it!!! Not a whole lot of stuff has been happening, but it's all good.
Mark and I are on cool terms now. He gave me a Christmas card that was very nice. LOL! He didn't write in the card, but instead wrote a letter. It kinda went something like this:
O, sweet Abby. I hope everything is okay on your side. I'm still working on your glasses. They might be a little late but don't worry. I will get them for you. (Glasses meaning GUCCI SUNGLASSES... o___O;;;)
I'm glad to have met you. You're being a REAL Friend. Member, I don't have many. Call me anytime. (Or...something like that. LOL!)
Awwwww. Sweeet! LOL!! Yeah. I can't really remember it exactly, but close enough. The other day he was talking about the glasses:
Him: Oh yeah. I still have to find out about your glasses. I don't think I can get the discount.
(He used to work at a sunglass store. He still knows people so he was gonna get them half off.)
Me: Ahh, really? It's okay then. You can just get me something else.
Him: No. I'll get them for you, even if I don't get the discount.
Me: Mark. Don't. Those glasses are like...what? 100 bucks?
Him: 200. *smile*
Me: Okay. 200! That's expensive!!!! You don't need to buy them!! They're not important!
Him: Abby... It's only money. I can make more.
Sheeeeit. If that's the case...*whips out list* LMAO! J/kin!!!!!
However, he was getting really impatient with his gift. See, he told me that he wanted this shirt, a sweater and this gift pack with a sweater and a beanie in it. Okay, so since I got 50 percent off with all that, I decided to get the gift pack and the shirt. I would have gotten the sweater also, but they didn't have his size, so I was like, Oh well. All in all, the total of the stuff came out to 40 bucks, which is NOT bad considering the gift pack alone was 50 bucks...WITHOUT discount. BOOYAH! LOL!
So, to kind of trick him...I put the shirt at the bottom of the box and the sweater and beanie on top so that he would think he only got the gift pack.
So yesterday, he was all hounding me about hooking him up with the discount since wanted that shirt. They only had XL's and XXL's due to the fact that it was christmas AND small sizes sell FAST. His sweater, though, is pretty much gone; they sold out on that everywhere.
So yesterday night, after work, I made him open his present and open the box. LO AND BEHOLD! THE SHIRT WAS THERE! LOL!!! I swear...he looked like a little boy...He can look so vulnerable sometimes. Especially when you tickle him...he acts like he's a cute lil' boi. AWW! *CHUUU!* He's being alot more better now. Maybe because he knows I can be mean if I really, really want to.
*sigh* Other than that, not much has been goin' on. I hung out with Bella on Saturday who kept hounding me to go to some party. I, of course, didn't go and she sounded kinda mad on the phone when I told her. I'm not a party person. I don't know why she keeps pushing it.
I think the reason why I don't like going to parties with her is because she pushes it soooo much. I hate that. I'm the type of person where if you push me too much, I won't do it at all. Just give me my space and when I want to do whatever, I'll call you.
Anyway, and I've been hanging out with Danielle and Natali too! LOL good fun! Danielle, Natali, Natali's cousin, Lisa, and I went out for some Japanese food I think on Sunday night. That was FUN! LOL!!! Good shit. We all have to do that again.
Erf...I'm also getting sick again. My throat hurts, I cough alot and my chest is all congested. *curses* I HATE being sick!! ARRRGGGHH!!!
OH YESH! Yesterday night, at midnight, we opened our gifts. I got this reaaaaaallyyyy nice silk scarf with Japanese geishas on it!! SOOO PRETTY! But I'm never gonna wear it! I'll prolly dirty it and I don't wanna risk that. And I also got a sick ass purse! It, too, has Japanese geishas on it and small rinestones! KIREI! LOL!! And Natali gave me this BEAUTIFUL picture. It's simple, but VERY pretty...It's of a cherry blossom branch with Japanese writing on the side. ^___^ *CHEE!!!* And Danielle got me this Japanese San-X character. I dunno the name, but I call him the "Tissue box man". LOL!!!! FUNNY!!! It was an awesome Christmas this year. Let's celebrate with a kick-ass new year, ne!?
Ok. Well, I must flee. I'm gon gruuuubb diddy! LOL!! I'll blog later!!!! And I'm gonna have my dad check out Earthlink so I can get some DSL runnin'!!
AUWON!! I'm gonna try to get back my internet! But if not, dun worry! We've got alternatives! LOL!!!!! We shall NOT be without internet! LOL!!! *GLOMPS*
*GLOMPS ALL* Meri Kurisumasu!!!!! JAAA!!!!!
She was craving pie @ 02:29 p.m.
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MODEM POWER!!! on Saturday, December 21, 2002
56Pie Modem: Isn't it funny that when you're trying to get over someone, you think about them even more?
If it's too loud, you're too old: Kelis - Caught Out There
LOL, this girl is tight. Her main lyric is "I hate you so much right now." And she's like, screaming it. LOL!!! Good song, I tell ya.
Well, well! I'm back online, but not for long periods of time, like I was before. See, the DSL company, SBC Global or PACBELL, thought we didn't pay our phone payment, so they shut off our DSL service. -____-; So now, we don't have DSL. But we have our 56K MODEM! WOOT! LOL!!!! But since AOL thinks we still have DSL, we have 2 free hours and it's like...2.50 A MINUTE after that!!!!!! x___X;;
I HELLA started laughing when my dad told me that!! I was like, "You're not serious...are you?" ME?! Stay on for 2 HOURS....FOR A WHOLE MONTH?!?! BUAHAHAHAWHHWAHWHAHWA!!!! *tears* oh...oh geeze.
LOL! Anyway, so there's news! LOL! News about yesterday and today. Yesterday, as you all know, I had work. Now, seriously, I was starting to have a pretty good day after I had blogged and everything. I had talked to Natali and Bella and they got me in good spirits. So I was having a pretty good day so far.
THEN, I went to work. That's when my day slowly started to disentegate (did I spell that right? ^__^;;) into a pile of shit. Mark was at it...AGAIN. Critisizing me every chance he got and just basically pissing me off. I got so mad that I finally stopped talking all together.
Now, when I get pretty damn pissed off, It looks like I'm sad or depressed. But, of course, I'm not. So here I was, staying silent, refilling spoons and napkins, doing lobby checks and helping customers when I needed to. Mark still gave me shit...until he FINALLY noticed that something was up with me. So he asked me what was wrong. In a small voice, I told him nothing, and of course he didn't believe me. So he kept hounding me and eventually pulled me to the backroom so that I could tell him what was up.
At that moment, I wanted to say so much. I wanted to tell him what a jerk-off he was being, how unfairly he was treating me and how much I hate having a crush on him. I wanted to tell him how it felt so much like he was taking major advantage of my feelings and using them to his every benefit. But instead, I just shrugged, looked at the ground and mumbled, "I don't know."
It kinda felt good making him twist with anticipation for me to spill my guts out to him. But the way I was feeling at that time, I wasn't ready to talk to him for shit.
Thank God that Cliff and Linda came back. I got up and told Mark that I would talk to him later and he said 'okay'. Later on, while I was going back and forth from the back to the front he started the convo again:
Him: ABBY! What's up with you?
Me: *shrug* Nothing.
Him: Bullshit. What's wrong?
Me: *sighs* It's complicated.
Him: It's complicated?
Me: Yeah...
Him: *nods and taps my visor and smiles* Okay. Well. Go out there and have fun, then.
Me: Yeah. Right. Have fun. *walks away*
He seemed sincere enough. *shrugs* Then, later on, as I was washing dishes, Ricky and I were talking about Mark RIGHT in front of his face. Only Ricky was talking in Spanish and I was answering in English. I was suprised at how much Spanish I know!!! LOL! And Ricky, although he's ASIAN (LMAO!), is teaching me Spanish. Twisted, ne?! LOL!!!! Anyway, the convo went something like this:
Ricky: So did you talk to him?
Me: No...
Ricky: Why not?
Me: I don't know. Didn't want to, I guess...
Ricky: You should.
Me: Yeah I know.
Ricky: You okay?
Me: Yeah. I'm alright.
Ricky: Are you sick?
Me: No...
Ricky: Do you still like him?
Me: *groan* Yeah. I guess I do.
Ricky: Alot or a little?
Me: Kinda in the middle
Ricky: Ahhh. You should still talk to him. Let him know what's bothering you.
Me: I know. But I'm bad at that kind of stuff.
Ricky: Want ME to talk to him?
Me: *Laughs* Nooo!
Ricky: I will!
Me: Noooo. Don't. I will eventually.
And that was it because we had to concentrate on closing again. LOL! It felt weird talking about him like that right in front of him. I hope, for my sake, he doesn't understand spanish. LOL! But anyway, since Barrie was giving me a ride home again, we left and Ricky and Mark were there all by their lonesomes. I'm hoping Ricky didn't say anything. Erf.
Ok. Well, that was yesterday. Now fer today. Today was kinda odd. I went to pick up Bella in the morning and all day, it was fairly quiet. She wouldn't talk too much and I would try to initiate conversation, but she was kinda quiet. Kinda like how Mark is sometimes. o____O;;; But yeah, so finally she decided to go home...but not after begging me to go to this party going on tonight. Now, seriously, I'm not a party person. But she still pleaded and everything. I told her I'd think about it and ask my paw, but when I called her back, I told her I couldn't go. She was probably totally expecting that answer, as well she should.
Anyway, though, after I dropped her off I came home and called Barrie. She didn't pick up, so I figured we weren't going to the Cheesecake Factory. So I called up Natali, but she wasn't home. Then I called Silvana and we ended up going out to TGI Friday's for some dinnah. On the way there, and even while we were there, I caught her up on what's been going on with Mark and I. She said the very thing I've been dreading: She told me to come straight out honest with him.
She is totally right though. Once I thought about it, I thought about how much crap would be lifted off of my shoulders. With her help, I've constructed the opening sentence:
"For some time now, I'd say since Homecoming, I'm sure it's been pretty obvious that I like you. Alot. And I really don't appreciate how you've been treating me lately. I know you've been kidding and all when you say those things, but after a while, it really makes me think or wonder if there's a hidden meaning behind it all. It really makes me uncomfortable and I feel that it's unfair to me. I really want to be comfortable around you, but you won't let me. You're always critisizing me for something: My age, my actions, my words, the way I do my job...SOMETHING. And I hate it..."
That's what I have so far. And I KNOW it's not a sentence, but still. Shaddup. LOL!! It seems pretty jumbled up to me though, so I'll have to work on what I'm gonna say. Maybe write it down, LOL! Just so I make sure I say everything I want to. But yeah. So I'm finally going to come clean to him. I figure that I better do it soon because the sooner I do, the sooner he'll stop, right? Right. I'm going to ask him for a ride home one of these nights and tell him then. So wish me luck everyone! Because even as I think of it...I'm getting nervous. LOL!!!!
WELP, that's about it people. I'm gonna go work on fixing up those Jia and Toki pics in Photoshop. AND I made a new LAYOUT PIC! WOOT! It's SOOO PRETTY!!!! *tear* I lub it. LOL! It's of my baby, Kao-Kao-Chan again! LOL! He's just so beautiful! *sigh* *doki-doki* LOL!!!
Anyway, I'm off! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:49 p.m.
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Feelin' the hate....feelin' the anger.... on Friday, December 20, 2002
iPie: When guys have a huge ego, it usually takes alot to pop their bubble.
If it's too loud, you're too old: Some Elvis christmas music...(I'm in class...)
First off...lemme just say that I'm a little bit grouchy right now because my sleep patterns have been extremely shitty right about now. Imagine going to bed at 12:30-1:00 in the morning and getting your ass back up at 6:55 for class at 7:08. LOL yeah. So yeah. And this whole time...you've been working...and CLOSING at 11. *snore*
Anyway, yesterday, work sucked ass. MAJOR ass. And as of right now, I wish Mark has the shittiest day of his life. Mark is now, officially, on one of my bad lists. He didn't do anything THAT drastic enough get on my SHIT list...but he's sooooooooo close. SO close.
Yesterday, all he did was critisize me, make fun of me, scold me for stupid shit and was just a big fuckin' asshole!! But you know what? He was kidding, of course!!! WOW! He has got an awesome sense of humor. I'm suprised I didn't realize that!! *Very sarcastic* And then, he tries to "blame me" that there was a concert downtown and he got stuck in traffic for about an hour and a half after he dropped me off on Wednesday. Okay. Yeah. So I just decided to call the fuckin' Arena and say, "Hey! Throw a concert! Mark is gonna drop me off tonight and he's gonna go that way to go home!"
So then he goes, "Hey Abby? Need a ride home?" and I go, "Yeeahh..." and he says, "WELL TOO BAD!" But he was kidding. He always seems to be kidding, ne? and I shrug and go, "Fine. Barrie?" and she smiles and goes, "Sure!" Cockhead. Did he think I was STRANDED without him?!!?? RIGHT!! LOL!!!
Anyway, and throughout the night, this girl, Shauna WAS ALLLLLL OVER HIM! And he was just basking in it. Disgusting. She would sit in the back for 20 minutes with Mark, go to the front and help a few people before going back to the back with Mark. EVERYONE noticed and EVERYONE, Barrie, Jamie and Richard, was fuckin' disgusted and sick of it.
So yeah. That was my night. And to top it off, Mark is rushing us to close, so of course we rush because we wanna get the fuck out of there! So I go to the back and slip on a water puddle and fall hard on my arse. T___T And I'm like, "Ow." LOL!! And Mark goes, "Don't move!" and I just get up and go, "I'm fine. I just ache." and he says, "Gosh! You guys, slow down! You've got time! No need to rush!"
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna break something. Hopefully today will be a better day. I can only pray. *Sigh* I know that I don't want to talk to him for a while though. I came so close to socking him in the face. When he was talking to me, my fist curled up and I just walked away before I did something I'd regret later.
Also, TRENT/THAILUAN is being an ultra asshole. If he tags on this board, people, just ignore him. He got dropped on his head as a child. I've erased his tags and will continue to do so until he learns how to act 17 instead of 1.
Anyway, on a better note, Today is the mark of CHRISTMAS VACATION!!!!!!! WOOT!!!!! LOL!!!! I'm telling you....tonight...my ass is sleeping IN!!
Also, yesterday, Barrie and I were thinking of possible bachelors for me and she mentioned Ricky. Now...Ricky at work would NOT be a bad idea! Ricky is kick ass, he's sweet, very polite, considerate, can be serious but also goofs off alot, he's 18 or 19 (forgot which one ^___^;;;) AND.....he's a VIRGIN! In COLLEGE!!! That's good shit! He doesn't WANT to have sex anytime soon, so that's even LESS pressure! I told her that I would definately think about that. Let's see how that turns out. I'm thinking of asking him out to the Winter Dance or something. Sadies!!!!!!
I think Alfredo is still going to Prom with me. -___-; I haven't talked to him in a while. It might be kind of weird. I'll have to make a point and get together with him sometime soon.
Ano...I was gonna say something. ^___^;; I'm so sleepy. I hope I don't fall asleep in Math again. LOL! Ahh, it feels good to blog though. I feel a little better now that I've got that Mark shit off of my chest. I'd feel alot more better if he had a bad day or if he slipped and fell in front of some hot ass girls at work. *evil*
LOL! I'm very vengeful. Once you do something really shitty to me, I want to do something a BILLION times more worse to you. Just takes me a while to think of it and to execute it...but when I do...WHOOO! It's good shit.
Ok. Well, I should Jaa. I gotta erase my history from this laptop. LOL! I shall blog later or probably tomorrow. Since my DSL ISN'T WORKING!!!!! T_______T I think one of the lines is down since we have all this rain and shit going on. But PacBell is going to check it out and let us know. I hope they fix it.
ALSO! I'm going to be working on a new layout! It's gonna be a Kaoru layout again because I love my sekshi Boi. LOL!!! I also need to get me some new wallpaper...hmm. LOL!
And before I gol...
*Super glomps Auwon*
*Super glomps Lez*
*Super glomps Zeid*
*Super glomps Jihye*
*Super glomps EVERYONE!!!!!!!*
JAAAA!!!!!!!
She was craving pie @ 06:42 a.m.
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HOLY SHIT! SHE'S ALIVE! on Wednesday, December 18, 2002
Pie-itis: Don't you hate it when people ENJOY pushing your buttons?
If it's too loud, You're too old: Incubus - Pardon Me
WEEE YEAH! Still alive, peeps. Just fuckin' tired now that I'm closing at 11, getting home around 11:30 and waking up the next morning at 6:30 AM. Not too good, ne? Even worse is that I haven't done one damn homework assignment. Especially Math. I was telling Auwon tonight on how I'm doing VERY BAD in Math right now. Same with Chemistry. The only good thing I have going for me is that I've completed all my Math and Science credits; these were just extra elective courses. So yeah. LOL! I'm gonna take a computer class and/or a TA thang. More relaxing for my last year in High School, ne?!
By the way...
Kaoru is MY MAN! WOOT!
Which Dir en Grey member would be your ideal boyfriend?
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Erf. The pic really IS big!!! LOL! WEE! KAORU IS ME HUBBIE! Freakin' A...I wish. *tear*
ANYWAY, lemme kinda update you, in a nutshell, bout what's been goin on. At school, nothing. You know all the good shit is at work. LOL!
Anyway, so basically, I've been trying to get over Mark since I've had my "enlightenment". However, that's been hard...since whenever I distance myself from him...HE GETS CLOSER!!!!!! He flirts like crazy, and he pushes my buttons to the point where I'm really annoyed with him! And he does it on purpose!
And you know what? Damn him. All he does is rub my back or shows a small sign of affection and all my pissed-offness melts away like a fuckin' popsicle in 100 degree weather. AARRRGHHHHHHH!!! IT'S FRUSTRATING!!!! WTF?! I'm probably making a bigger deal of this than I should, ne? *sigh* That's me for ya.
Okay...I'm sooo not blogging anymore. LOL! I'm chatting it up with Auwon and Jihye! LOL! Auwon is showing me some GACKUTO GOODNESS! And I want her Wall-o-Jrocker!!!!!! *Sniffs* Kao-Kao-Chan...
Okay. Well..off I go! I'll blog more tomorrow...I hope. ^___^;;;;;;;; OYASUMI! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:55 p.m.
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Workaholic. on Monday, December 16, 2002
Devil May Pie: Work = Money. Remember that.
If it's too loud, you're too old: Jimmy Eat World - Praise Chorus
These are MY lyrics as of now:
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go
All I need is just to hear a song I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight...
Are those not SICK ASS LYRICS?!?! UGGGNHHH!
Okay. well. I don't have much time to blog because I'm freakin' tired, beat and I wanna go to sleep. So I'll blog about tonight tomorrow. LOL! Not much happened anyway...just a few interesting points here and there. LOL! Oh yesh! So here are the pics of Toki and Jia from 36 Moons!!! Go read this damn fic if you haven't already! I'm tellin' ya! It's ADDICTING!
Oh yes! And lemme explain these drawings first before you look at 'em. I drew these in detention. LOL!!!! I HAVE seen pictures of Toki and Jia before, but I just drew them as I saw them in my head while I was reading. Jia and Toki may look different in these pics than in Lez's drawings, but it's all good. LOL! I hope! I'm also gonna try and scan them again to get a sharper image. I'm in the process of downloading the trial version of Adobe Photoshop, so maybe I can spruce these up!
And everyone, please give Natali a big "THANK YOU!!!!" for scanning these! WOOT! LOL! Okay. So enough talk. Oogle at the pics.
Jia: The Oyabun himself.
Toki: The sex/alcohol/muderous fiend himself. LOL!!!
LEZ! I HOPE YOU LIKKKEE! LOL!
*Snore* I'm tired now. Oyasumi! JAA!
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Oh hey...I think you sat on my 2 x 4...yeah... on Saturday, December 14, 2002
Pieword: Never date a girl/guy whom you cannot be yourself around.
If it's too loud, you're too old: Chris Cornell - Can't Change Me
Whoo. Saturday already. Saturday NIGHT. Geeze. Where the hell does the day go?
Okay. Well, as you all know, I went shopping with Mark. It was alright. I mean, it was cool and all and we looked around and ish, but the conversation part of it all was rather dry. We didn't really speak that much and it was just kinda boring after a while. He just makes me feel so insecure about talking. If I say something "wrong", he just gives me these weird ass looks like I'm a nut! So I'm like, "WTF? Shit. At least I'm TALKING!" Gawd. But yeah...we had our moments. He went a little crazy in Mr. Rags. I know that he's got me something for Christmas already, but he's going to also try and get me my Gucci Glasses (WOOT!) and some crystal figurine or a necklace. (He gets half off at the Sunglass place and the Crystal place.) So yeah. All in all, a boring shopping day.
Then, today, my dad and I went up to the city for my Art Institute thingie. We just went up there, they helped me fill out my application and gave me more information on scholarship programms and the CalGrant. So yeah. I have to get crackin' on those. *Sigh*
After we came home from San Fran, My dad and I went up to the Great Mall. In one of the FEW good stores, Mojo's, they had D3 2001 Osiris' on sale 50% OFF!!!!! I was like, "HELLS FUCKIN' YEAH!" LOL!!! And I REALLY wanted a new pair because mine are TO'E UP!!! WHOO! So I figured, Damn..I will be saving half off. only 50 bucks! So I decided to seize the moment and think about myself for once. LOL! Of course, some people will have to wait for their gifts, but that's okay. As long as I got the main people covered, right? Right. LOL!
So anyway, after I got out of the store, I called Mark to let him know about the sale since he's been wanting some too but they're so expensive everywhere else. So I call him and then he asks why I didn't call him and tell him I was going. -___-; Eh. So he asked If I would want to go with him later on and I said okay, I'd call him when I got home.
My dad and I putzed around a little more before coming home. I waited around 3 to call Mark so I did and he picked me up. We then drove around, I got Bella's present, and then we headded on over to the Great Mall.
People. That was a boring ass time. It was that moment that I knew there would be, and could be, nothing between Mark and I. It was hopeless to think so. Mark wants something and EXPECTS something totally different than what I'm willing to give and what I have to offer. I don't speak intellectually all the time, I do not act mature all the time, whatever I'm interested in, he's most likely NOT. It's ridiculous. But he was so awesome before. I guess you don't really know someone until you're around them for a while. It's time to move on though. I could never, ever, be with someone I can't be myself around.
When I went out to the Cheesecake Factory tonight with Elena, I was ME. I acted like ME. We were laughing, joking around and being total dumbasses. LOL!! It was awesome, and it was damn fuckin' fun! While we were laughing and everything, I kind of thought how I would have acted if Mark would have gone. (He wanted to go, but couldn't because he had to work.) I think I would have tried to be mature and all that bullshit. This was more like an awakening for me. He's cool as a friend and all, but no.
As a boyfriend, I think it's time I say, "pass". =) Now, it's time to search for a new man.
OH FUCKIN' A!!!! SPEAKING OF MAN!
I spoke to Micah yesterday. He signed online and I was waiting for him to IM me first, but then I was like, "No. Fuck these games. I have to do this." So I IMed him first. We talked good for a while and I think he knew what was coming, so he kind of tried to make me feel guilty a little. I was weakening a little, but AUWONIE helped me and just told me to do it. And I knew I had to; this was my moment.
So I brought it up. First, I brought up all the issues I had to the relationship: the communication, the non-progresseve relationship, and just everything else. He then asked what I was suggesting. I told him I was suggesting that we break up and I said that if in the future we get together, then great...but for now, we should be friends. And guess what?
HE FELT THE SAME DAMN WAY! He said that it wasn't fair on my part and that he totally understood!! So Shit, it wasn't that bad!!!! After that, we talked a little more and I told him about homecoming, where he immediately sensed that I liked Mark. So I told him, yeah, I kinda did, but he's confusing. Then, before I knew it, I was telling Micah, in a nutshell, the past events that lead me to believe that he did/didn't like me. He said that it sounded kinda as if Mark may think that I'm an easy lay and to kinda back off. But if he really likes me, he'll come for me. I was cool with that, and I was like, "Okay! Good stuff!"
We chatted a little bit more before we said our goodbyes...and people...the last thing he said was the most beautiful thing anyone has ever told me and it will continue to be the most beautiful words I have heard:
Micah: i know you probably wont cry tonight or...maybe again...since youve probably cried for the last month and a half...but i havent...and i may yet...and just to get even im going to try and make you cry with me...i still love you more than the air i breathe and will continue to pray for you and your family like we have been married for eternity...i know our intimate(what there was) relationship is terminated as of tonight but that does not mean my heart has stopped...love whomever you want..just remember that i will always be your man, your guardian, your brother if you need one, your father if you need one, your friend, lover, or just an aquantence for a cocktail party if noone will go...i will always be willing to help you anyway i can...and THAT...is more than i have ever said to anyone other than God himself...so take it to heart...and now i shall part ways with you...and remove my romantic genius from my soul for a little while...good night...adieu...and all dem other ones...and dont worry about telling me goodnight...youve already said enough....good night Abelina.....i love you
And then he signed off before I could even finish reading. This hella made me cry. I was actually doing pretty good on the waterworks until I read this. It crushed me. It made me want to change my mind about breaking up, but I knew that this is what had to be done in the long run. Then, after I logged off, I slept with the stuffed teddy bear he sent me a while back for the first time in a about a month. Usually, it ends up on the ground, but when I woke up, I was still clutching it in my arms. *Sigh*
I called him today too, and we talked for a bit. I missed his voice. We still have plans to meet though. Let's see what the future brings. =)
Anyway...so yeah. That went well. We're friends now...but we flirt. LOL. How can you not?
Anyway, after Mark dropped me off at home, Elena and I went to the Cheesecake Factory...where we waited TWO AND A HALF MOTHERFUCKIN' HOURS to be SEATED! -____-; But after we sat, we had eaten so much bread, that when our real food came, we couldn't finish it. LOL!!! But I HAD to buy some cheesecake...and so I got a slice of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Cheesecake to take home. *DROOOOL* IT'S FUCKIN' GOOD!I'll have a bite for every single one of you. =D
*Yawn* I'm SO sleepy! Gawsh. And full. I should probably get going. But yeah. The moral of this entry is this:
Don't let anyone change you into something you are not. You will never be comfortable and you will always be insecure about your words and actions. It's not worth it. Go find someone that will accept you and be completely happy with you as you are. =) And that is visa versa! Meaning DON'T CHANGE ANYONE ELSE! LOL!!! That's wrong.
Oi. I better go. *yawn* Oyasumi Nasai! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:08 p.m.
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Don't let it goooo...awayyyyy.... on Thursday, December 12, 2002
Salute Your Pie: Old school shows ROCK!
If it's too loud, you're too old: No Doubt - New
DOOOOOOOOODE! LOL! Okay, I've been SOOOO up on trying to find ANYTHING about my old, favorite TV show "Salute Your Shorts". YA KNOW!? On Nickelodeon? WAYY back in the day! LOL!! That show was the SHIT! Fuck yeah. I'm in the process of downloading one of the episodes! The very first one! My favorite one was when Pinsky and Donkey Lips try to sneak in Hamburgers. LMAO!! I LOVED that episode! That show made me laugh so damn much.
I'm also going to make it a HUGE point to buy the episodes off of eBay! For all those asking what I want for christmas, THIS IS WHAT I FUCKIN' WANT! LMAO! But it's expensive kinda, so don't even try. =P I'll just save. *CHEE!*
Well...TODAY I AM FREE! NO MORE DETENTION!! YESSIREE BOB! No more of that...that HELL!!!!! ...Okay. Maybe ZERO period...but hey! I can survive until the end of the semester! WOOT! (I'm starting to like this word thanks to Lez and Auwon. LOL!!)
Also, today was rather boring. Bella was better today, which was very good. =D She told us some very entertaining stories about how when she smacked her brother with a shovel. LOL!! You guys don't know Bella...she can be vicious. And trust me...you can actually IMAGINE her hitting her brother over the head with the shovel at age...what? 10? and saying, "Fucker." with a huge grin on her face. Trust me. LOL!
So yeah. After detention my fuckin' phone DIED on me! -__-; SO I couldn't call for a ride home, but I had a nice walk home. It was soothing. LOL! Then today, for some reason, I thought was Friday. It just felt like it! I totally forgot about my homework until my dad came in and put my backpack down and said, "You're going to do your homework...when?"
eheh....riiiiiighht.
Which 'Salute Your Shorts' Character Are You?
*bounce* TELLY IS TIGHT!!! She was always my favorite! Z.Z. was always too ditzy and Dina...Yeah, She had her moments. LOL But Telly was kick-ass! Fawk, I miss that show.
Anyway...after I got home, I FINALLY got some chill time! Damn. I went over to Sherry's to try and scan my drawings of Toki and Jia, but the scanner wasn't hooked up...and My dad couldn't find the disk to set it up. -___-; Fawk. So I guess I'll head on over to Kinko's or My Aunt's. =D
Oh yeah! So while I was chillin' at Sherry's, I get a call from, guess who! Mark! LOL! But damn! What a convo. LOL! I'm getting tired of typing shit like "And he said...and I was like...and then he goes...and I respond..." kinda crap. So here's the convo in a more reader-friendly format. >__<
me: hello?
him: Where are you!?
me: Wha!?
him: Where are you!?
me: WHY?
him: WHERE ARE YOU!?
me: WHY!!?
him: *softer voice* I'm curious. You weren't online so I wanted to know where you were. So did Elena.
me: Awww! Ever so concerned!
him: So where are you?
me: I'm at Sherry's. Why?
him: Oh. Okay. No, Elena and I wanted to ask you something.
me: Okay. *laughs* go ahead.
*rustling in the background*
Elena: hello?
me: Hey!
Elena: *some really undistinguishable stuff...was said...*
*more rustling and talking*
him: Hello?
me: o__O; Yeeeahhh?
him: Did you hear her?
me: *laughs* Noott really...
him: Oh. Well, tomorrow, we want to go eat at the Cheesecake Factory.
me: Oh! okay!
him: And Jamie and Elena want to go.
me: Alright!!
him: That okay?
me: *laugh* yeah!
*We then talk about what time and all that crap*
him: Okay, I'm gonna get going then. When are you going to be back online?
me: Uhmm...About an hour?
him: Okay. I'll talk to you later, then.
*goodbyes and hangups*
At that moment...I felt as if I was in a relationship with him. It was funny! I just hung up and I was like, "Damn! I guess!"
Just right now he IMed me from work. He signed off, then signed back on and let me know he was leaving to drop Jamie off. LOL! Then he said to call him after school tomorrow and to call if I wanted to talk.
Eh. I'm coo. LOL!!!! Plus, I've got homework. We can talk tomorrow. Plus, I don't feel comfortable talking on the phone. If there's silences, it's twice as uncomfortable. And I like to SEE the person when I'm talking. I like to see their facial expressions and everything. It makes a lot of difference.
Oi. My head hurts more now. Fuckin' A. And I have to figure out what the hell I'm wearing tomorrow. Erf. Mannnnnn. LOL! AND HOMEWORK! *cry!!* T___T Okay. Well. Oyasumi Nasai! Jaa!
*Toddles off to bed with Kaoru* ^___~(Thought I was gonna add "Plushie" DIDN'TCHA!?!?!?! MUHAHA!)
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I wish I had a scanner. on Wednesday, December 11, 2002
Damn Pie-hole: Washing dishes constantly is not good for your hands.
Basking in the sounds of: Natalie Imbruglia - Identify
I HELLA Love this song. It was on the "Stigmata" soundtrack. It's so beautiful! Very nice. Auwon! You might like this song!! I'll upload fer ya!
Anyway. Today was alright. Work was much more better, as well as the ride home, than yesterday! Damn. HELLA better. But still...the ugly side of Mark rears his ugly head.
First off, let me introduce the crew working tonight. Mark, Barrie, Joanne, Danielle and me. Joanne is this cute, small girl that's really nice and quiet. She's cool. LOL! But anyway, I felt that this whole night, Danielle was like...COMPETING with me for Mark's attention! Uh. Right. I wasn't even competing with that. I didn't even try to go up to Mark at all...he always came to me. Danielle tho, was ALL over him.
Here are Barrie's exact words from IM: "and danelle...omg...she is like in heat..like a dog...she is always touching him...i thought i was going to puke..."
LOL! Oi. But Don't get me totally wrong. I really do like Danielle...she's funny, nice and a really awesome person when you hang out with her and everything. She even asked what was up with Mark and I. But the whole point is I hate all this "Competition" crap. I dunno, but I think I'm starting to feel more neutral towards Mark.
He told me about how he spent the night or whatever at Sara's house and I was just like, "OOOO!!!" I wasn't all fucked up about it. I was actually, dare I say, MATURE about it!
Today at work, he was talking to Joanne about how her friend wanted to work here and he goes, "And when she saw me, she wanted to work here even more, right?" and She laughs and Mark goes, "Yeah. Abby works here because of me." and I go, "Oh yeah!" and he goes, "You know it's true." LOL, so I just go, "You know what? You're right. Everytime I work I just pray that I get to work with THE SEXY Mark." Think he knows? LOL then, when he was talking to Danielle in the back and I was washing dishes, he told her that all the girls thinks he's hot or some crap like that and he goes, "Right, Abby?" and I go, "Right, what?" and he says, "Just say yeah..." and I go, "You know what? I'm gonna say a HELL yeah!" LOL!!! WOOO!
SO yeah. I went out there. I practically said, "Yo. I like you." LOL! But as you can see...HE was being concieted. Barrie was in the back and I guess Danielle said or did something because when she went out to the front she was like, "Damn, SOMEONE likes you." And he goes, "Who? Oh. Yeah...I bet you all the girls here have a crush on me."
*Cough*
Right. AND FUCKIN' OH MY GOSH PEOPLE! You will NOT believe this. Remember the night when he got all mad at me for towel whipping Tony? Well guess what he fuckin' did to Barrie and I tonight?
Oh yeah. He did. He towel whipped us. Or pretended to.
SO LOOK WHO'S CALLING THE MOTHERFUCKIN' KETTEL BLACK!!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!! oOOOOooOoOOOo...that got me HEATED. Oh yeah. Ohhhh yeah.
Dick. I could go on with the profanity. LOL!
But yeah...The ride home was alot better at least. Danielle was hella bitching and whining about walking home, but she called her dad and she chilled with Mark and I in his car to wait for her dad. In the car, it felt like we were freakin' goin' out already. Weirdness. LOL! Hm.
Anyway. All in all, it was an alright day. Bella came back to school, but she seemed weird to me. I don't know. Whatever.
But yeah. I better get to bed. I didn't do my Math HW again, but it's ok. I'll do it during Chem. LOL! I can't wait to go shopping Friday! GAWD! LOL! Also, Tomorrow, I'm gonna try to get to a scanner to scan those drawings of Toki and Jia. *CHEE!*
*Yawn* Ok. I'm off. Oyasumi! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:23 p.m.
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Macs suck @$$. on Tuesday, December 10, 2002
Wizard of Pie: Sometimes, having some "me" time is a very good thing.
Basking in the sounds of: People talking in the school library. (I guess I'm not really BASKING in it...)
I was surfin' the net at skoo rite now, and I found this survey on Lez's Blog and I thought, "Hell. Why not? It's SOMETHING to do." So here I go!
1. What is your name? Abelina. Commonly known as Abby. =D
2. What colour pants are you wearing right now? Denim, baby.
3. What are you listening to right now? People talking. -___-;
4. What are the last four digits of your phone number, mobile or home? Anoo...it starts with 8 and ends with 7! *chee!*
5. What was the last thing you ate? Uhh....Cereal. LOL!
6. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? I would say RED....but I'm not. I'd prolly end up being White or Yellow. LOL!
7. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon? JAPAN!! Or Paris. Always wanted to go to Paris...
8. How is the weater right now? Cold. I hate it.
9. Last person you talked to on the phone? ...um...that would be yesterday. And I think it was Sherry.
10. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair. I do not know why. I love hair. And then I check to see if they're Asian or not. LOL!
11. Do you like the person that sent you this? Um. No one sent it to me...but I stole it offa Lez's blog! Yes! There is love here for Lez!! LOL! *Chuu!*
12. How are you today? Aww. Thanks fer asking! I'm okay... tired. But I'll live. Kinda Hongry too...
13. Your favorite drink? Cherry Kool-aid. MMM...
14. Your favorite alcoholic drink? Maragarita!!! and Hot Sake!!!! WOOO!! Those are basically the ONLY alcoholic drinks I'll drink. >__<
15. How do you eat an Oreo? Well...I like to dunk it so that it's soft on the outside, but when you bite it, its kinda crunchy. Mmmmm....
16. Favorite sport to watch? FOOTBALL! LOL! And Pool, Figure Skating is fun to watch too. =D
17. What's the next CD you're going to get? Um...Hopefully Gackt's "Moon"! But...wakarimasen. *cry*
18. Hair color? Dark brown with blood red streaks! YAIYAY!
19. Eye color? Brown. Just...brown.
20. Do you wear contacts? Nope. But I'm considering it!
21. Favorite Month? April (cuz of me b-day!) and JULY! (SUMMER!)
22. Favorite food? Sushi. Unagi specifically. ^__^
23. Last good movie you watched? The Ring: Japanese Version.
24. Favorite day of the week? Friday...Payday. LOL!
25. Are you shy to ask someone out? If you mean boyfriend/girlfriend OUT, then YES! If you mean go somewhere, NO! LOL!
26. Do you like scary or happy movies? I like funny ones. I guess some scary movies can qualify as funny. LOL!
27. Hugs or Kisses? I have never really been kissed...but I LOVE hugs...so hugs. *CHEE!*
28. (...there is no 28...*cry*)
29. Relationship or one night stands? Relationship, LOL!
30. Chocolate or Vanilla? CHOCOLATE! WOO! DARK chocolate, to be exact. *drool*
31. Do you want your friends to write back? Sure! I would like it, but I can understand if they don't have time, =D
32. Who is most likely to respond? Anoo....Whoever gets free time first, LOL!
33. Living arrangements? My Paw and me. And my harem of Jrockbois in my closet. ^___^
34. What book are you reading now? Nuffin. I'm reading a required book fer English tho! "The Lone Ranger and Tonto fistfight in Heaven". It's alright. ^__^;
35. Favorite board games? Definately Monopoly!! Scrabble too!! And Chess. =D
36. Favorite Magazine? YM, Seventeen, Cosmo, Pati-Pati and BackstagePass (Also, Japanese!)
37. Favorite smells? PEACH! YAH! LOL! And Victoria's Secret "Love Spell" (IT SMELLS LIKE HAWAIIAN PUNCH!), Clinique "HAPPY", and Tommy Hilfiger for guys...wooooooooooo....
38. Least favorite smells? Cow Dung. And anything that smells close to that, as well. =P
40. Best feeling in the world? To be loved =)
41. What is the first thing you think of when you are awake? Fuckin' A. I can't wait to get out of this High School shit.
42. What are the colors you like? Dark Red, Black, White and Silver.
43. How many rings before you answer the phone? Usually 2.
44. Future child's name? If it's a boi, Seifer or Kazuki. It it's a girl, Kyoko, Aya, Adia or, my name, Abelina. Because I love me name. *chee!*
45. What is most important in life? Love, Life, Happiness and Cash. LOL!
46. Favorite flowers? BLOOD RED ROSES! WOOO! But only ONE. Just...one.
47. Favorite dress code? FREE DRESS! LOL!
48. Do you like to drive fast? YAH!! Which is why I get angry faster at these damn drivers.
49. (no 49 either...*sob*)
50. Storms? YAYIEAH! LOL! Kiss meeee.....in the Storrrmmyyyy
51. What type was or will be your first car? Anoo...I dunno...but my FUTURE Car is either a Jet black or Blood Red Lamborghini Diablo. *droooooooolll*
52. If you could meet any person, dead or alive, who would you meet? Damn. It would be a toss up between Gackt, Kaoru, hide, Yoshiki and me Grandma Abelina =)
53. Date of birth? April 19...I BE 18 NEXT YEEEAR!
54. Your zodiac sign? Aries baby...all about the Aries.
55. Do you eat the stems of broccoli? Shore do!
56. You have patience? It depends on how I'm feeling and what the situation is. =)
57. What kind of people do you dislike? Arrogant assholes. And REALLY BRAINDEAD PEOPLE! Oh God. I HATE that...And preps. I hate preps. They think their shit don't stink when it really smells worse than everyone elses!!! I can go onnnn and onnnn...
58. What type of guy or girl are you interested in? A mature, yet GOOFY Guy who has an awesome sense of humor, laid back, but can be serious. Someone who will accept me for me and who isn't lookin' for a quick lay...because I ain't givin in! No sireebob! Oh yes. They have to be RESPECTFUL too. Humph.
59. What would you do to impress the guy or girl you like? Probably dress nice, make him laugh, and just show him that I'm a real cool, nice person. =)
60. So what's your reaction if the guy or girl you like rejects you? LOL! I'm used to it. But I would definately be sad for a while and depressed. But oh well. I'll get over it. =)
*whew* I had to rewrite all the questions because this stupid Mac won't let me copy and paste. *Kicks iMac* Erf. Anyway. My hand is tired now and it's almost time to depart. See how fast time goes when ur having fun fillin' out surveys?! LOL!
Oh yeah! And one more thing about yesterday. It's pretty much set that Mark and I are going shopping on Friday. I have a funny feeling tho that something's gonna happen. Nothing bad...but good. And no...I'm not expecting him to ask me out or anything. I just think that something good will be said or done in my favor. =D I HOPE! LET'S HOPE EVERYONE! LOL!
Welp, gotta go! JAA!
~ Had more Pie around 10:47 PM ~
Today was HELLA FUN at work!!!! Mark, Barrie, Elena, Jaymee and I all closed!!! Fuckin' FUN! LOL!! Elena and I were just joking around and laughing non-stop! It was awesome!!! Her last day is on Friday. *cries* I'll hella miss her. She's just so damn awesome. She's hilarious. Jaymee was funny too!! Barrie, though, I think had a few things on her mind. She wasn't her normal happy-go-lucky self today. I don't blame her. She's probably worried about bills and ish. *glomps Barrie* Poor thing!
But aside from that, it was just an awesome night...until...
Oh yeah. You know it. Mark. Okay. He was goofing off. In fact, he even came out while Elena was with a customer and smeared hot fudge on her face. He was still cool with everyone when they were fuckin' around and having a good time.
Except me. I go to the back laughing and cleaning spades and he goes, "Come on Miss Naive! Let's go!" And I think he was kidding...but still...I mean...shit.
Then, on the way to his car, I'm like, "Man, we should all work together again! It was fun!" And he goes, "Yeah. You did YOUR share of messing around."...WTF? Just...WTF?!
The ride home was uncomfortably quiet as well. We chatted a little, but nothing major. It was more like soft talking rather than the loud, anxious talking we normally do. It fuckin' sucked. I just wanted to go, "Damn. WTF is up with you?"
I'm chatting with him right now and I said he was pretty quiet at work after a while and he just busts out with "I know. You don't gotta remind me."
Girl trouble? Maybe. That's what I'M guessing, at least.
*Sigh* I don't know. Getting over him is hard. But staying hooked is harder. I just need someone new to come. Right now, it's basically one of those "he's all I got" situations. If only someone new would work...like that hot bishie that came to buy ice cream today. FYOOFYOO! LOL! If he worked, I'd be like, "Hiiiiiiiiiii...." LOL!!
*sighs* It's fucked up though how he takes out everything on me, it seems. To everyone else, he's cool. To me...whatever. However, I'm getting the impression that he's somewhat interested in Elena. Whatever. He's confusing shit.
On another note, I made some drawings of Toki and Jia from 36 Moons!!!! They came out pretty damn good, if I do say so myself!!! However, I have a HUGE problem drawing shoes...so I just drew feet. ^___^ It actually gave the overall picture a nice touch! I'm very satisfied!! I shall scan these soon and post 'em up! After sending them to Lez, of course! Hope she likes them! *chee!*
Anyway. That's about it. I have work tomorrow and that's it, until Sunday. Then Friday, is shopping. We'll see how THAT goes. If he's still acting up...we'll see how ANYTHING goes. I just wish he would trust me enough to confide in me. Am I asking too much?
Well, I have homework! I better go do it! Jaa!
She was craving pie @ 02:40 p.m.
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I'm writing this on Tuesday..>__< on Monday, December 9, 2002
Instant Pie-enger: When you work with someone new, you better have a LOT of patience.
Basking in the sounds of: Radiohead - Creep
Oooookay. Before I continue, I am actually writing this on TUESDAY morning. Why? My computer was FUNKED UP yesterday, so I finally gave up and just turned the damn thing off. (I'm too impatient for that whole "Shutdown" thing...sometimes.) I restart and before I turned it off, I saved my blog on word, because it was really good!!! But when I opened up word, it said it needed a converter and I wasn't about to get out the fuckin' disk, and have it download and all that crap. So I just went to bed. LOL!!
Okay...so anyway. About Monday. It was boring. Bella didn't go to school because she was sick, and so I was left at school ALLL alone to face the guys. The guys are BORING at lunch!!!! They're just...in their own world. It's...I dunno. It was boring tho. So I just sat there and felt like a loser as I read my book for English. Oh well tho. *shrugs* no biggie!
Then, I was supposed to have the day off Monday, but Mark called and asked if I could go in. It turns out that the only people that would be working would be him and this new guy, Paul, and since Paul didn't know how to close, they needed someone else. OKAY! So, I figured, "Well, crap. If I'm gonna be sittin' at the computer all nite, I might as well go make me some money, ne? Plus I get to see Mark!" >__<
So I go. Oh. My. God. This guy...is...dumb.
I'm not saying it to be mean either!!!! I'm soo serious! This dude did not know the difference between PECANS and ALMONDS. NOR did he know the difference between CARAMEL, FUDGE, And MARSHMELLOW CREAM! People. I'm serious. He asked Mark, "Which one is the fudge?" and there are three containers. One looks brown, one looks caramelly color and the other is fuckin' white. Mark just looks at me...he was soooo frustrated. And seriously, so was I. Mark even told me when we were alone that it felt like me and him were the ONLY ones working. That's how bad it was.
But Yeah, so as a result, Mark and I didn't have much time for conversation since it was so damn busy. But we did chat a little. It turns out he was on AIM all night!! Pish. I dunno why...he hardly had time to talk. LOL! But then when I asked if he was my ride, he was like, =O "Okayyy.." and I said, "You don't have to!" And he goes, "Noo, It's okay!" and then he goes in the back and comes back and says, "No, it's because I have a date with Sara tonight."
This confused me. Why? Because isn't he interesed in DANYEL?! And Sara was the one being a, and I quote, "butt"?! WTF?!
"Ohhh! Really?" I responded, and acted like it didn't phase me. So he went in the back and I followed because I needed something from the back anyway. Then I asked, "So you like her? You guys goin' out?" And you know what?
HE LOOKS AT ME LIKE I'm CRAZY! He goes, "What?! No!!" then he adds, "I'm a player. I can't stay to one girl!" And I just laughed and said, "Ohhh, please." and walked off.
Uhm. Yeahhhh...
So anyway, at the end of the night, here Mark and I go...BUSTING our asses to close quickly while Paul is in the back washing dishes. We close at 10:30, which really is pretty good considering that we only had two experienced people closing. Usually there's four.
We finally get the hell out of there and we get to Mark's car. As we're driving away, he sees this cute girl and he goes, "Ooh! You're cute too! Where YOU headed?" and he speeds off and I just laugh and he goes, "what?" And I just laugh a little more and go, "Nahh! Nothing!" and I repeat what he just said and he laughs too and goes, "Shit, Just Talking to a cute girl...if she doesn't like it, fuck her. She's the one missing out." and I smile and go, "hmm..." and he looks at me and goes, "'hmmm' what?" and I just shrug and say, "I just wish I had the same mentality...when it came to guys." and he nods and it was silent for a brief moment before he says, "Well...you know. When you're hot like me...it's easier." LOL! So, I start laughing and go, "Oh, right! of course!" and he goes, "No, I'm kidding." and I just shake my head and go, "Whatever. You know you're good." and he grins and goes, "Well...you know..."
LOL dork. Okay...I've gotta get to school. I'll blog more later. JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:03 p.m.
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Hongry... on Sunday, December 8, 2002
Pieservice: Damn. I'm running out of Jpie Wisdom intros...LOL!!
Basking in the sounds of: Eminem - Lose Yourself
I'm not bloggin' now. But I shall blog later! I just wanted to post up these quizzes. And also...I DIDN'T BREAK FIRST! MUAHAHAH! MARK CALLED ME YESTERDAY! YES! I am strong. LOL! More later! But fer now...
What Gackt Item are you?
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Pish.. that's RITE!
What part of Gackt's anatomy are you?
this quiz was made by Ami
Weee! Gackuto's lips! *CHUU!* ^___^
*Pout* I took the Which 36 Moons Character Are You? quiz...but my results page wouldn't load. BUT I'M JIA!!!!!! F*CK YEAH!!!! *Glomps Jia* I love Jia. *Chuu!* ^__^
Erf. Gotta get goin'. Blog later. JAA!
~ Had more Pie around 10:28 PM ~
I'm such a procrastinator...Rite Auwon? LOL!!! I keep putting off my homework. But I'll do it after I blog! Promise! *CHEE!*
Kay. Soooo, lemme tell u bout yesterday a lil' bit and then today.
YESTERDAY, Sherry, Johnny (her son) and I went to that cookie party about an hour away from here. It was all good too! Had fun and everything! But like...maybe 30 minutes after I got there, my phone alerted me that I had a voicemail. Then my DAD called me. So I picked it up and he goes, "Did you call Mark?" and I was like, "Nooooo..." and he goes, "Well, he called here. He wanted to know if you were around and I told him that you'd be busy for a while.". LOL!! SO! I checked my voicemail and SUUUUREE enough...it was Mark!
So, hell. I was having fun. And I still wanted to be strong. So I didn't call him until 6; almost 5 hours later. LOL!!! I left him a message, since he was at work by then, and he called me when he got out.
Turns out, that he called me because he wanted to go out for lunch! But I wasn't there. LOL! So he cleaned his room, did laundry and went to work. LOL!! Aww!! So we ended up talking for about an hour. =) It was really nice, actually.
THEN...he said something that will tie into today. He told me that he needed to get Danielle (Natali and My friend...mostly Natali's tho =D) a present. I asked why and he said that he needed to prove her wrong because she said he wouldn't get her anything. So I was like, LOL okay, whatever. And then he told me that SHE told HIM that I LIKE HIS ROOMMATE!!!!
O.K.A.Y. NO. LOL!!!! I thought his roommate was HOT. I did not LIKE him. So I told him just that, and he was like, "Same thing!" and I just shrugged it off.
Kay. So, whatever. And I told him we got homecoming pics and he was like, "I bet you have one in your wallet already." And I laughed and was like, "Yep!" and He goes, "I knew it! You're gonna turn all freaky-stalker on me." and I was like, "Oh, whatever! shut up!" and he laughed too and was like, "Yeah. I'm kidding." LOL dork.
So yeah. Anyway. So onto today!! I started work at 1 and so My dad, Sherry, Johnny and I all went out to breakfast and then to Santana Row. Now, Santana Row has stores like "Gucci", "Escada" and other REALLY HIGH CLASS stores! but I still love walking around there because it's all cute! So yeah. I went into "Gucci" and lusted after my glasses again. I tried them on again too. *cries* Dammit.
After that, there was a balloon dude and he made me a boquet of flowers!! WEEE!!! LOL!! So after that, I went straight to work and Damn.
It was as if no one did ANYTHING! There were no more spoons in the containers...no more napkins in the holders...running low on ice cream...running LOW on fruit and ish...and damn. LOL! So here I go...running around and getting all this ish done. Back and forth...back and forth. LOL! I felt like the damn shift leader! Some people asked me about a break, some came to me when they had a problem and it was weird! LOL!!! Kinda cool tho! I felt all important like. LOL!!
So yeah. 6 o'clock rolls around and here comes Mark. We really didn't talk a whole lot because it was really busy. But we weren't mad at each other or anything...it's work ya know? LOL! AND THEN...about an hour later...here comes Danielle.
And she will not leave until she has talked to Mark. When she realizes it's busy, she said she'd be back to check her schedule. So she comes back a while later and Mark chats it up with her for a bit before he rushes off. And then...she practically ANNOUNCES to me that she's scared to walk to her car....And she keeps whining about it in front of Mark. And I'm like, "Dude..there's still people around!" and she goes, "Well! Still! You never know!"
-___-; Right. Ok. Whatever. But what really irks me is that...REMEMBER!?!? REMEMBER when I told you that I was worried about her coming?! I F*CKIN TOLD YOU!!!! LOL! Even Natali noticed! She said that all Danielle talked about was Mark. But Natali stood up for me. *Glomps* Good lookin' out, Gir! Good lookin' out!!!! =D
So yeah. She's gettin' on my nerves. Not for that...but for the fact that she KNOWS I like him...and she still goes ahead and flirts like there is NO tomorrow in front of me!!!! Kinda fucked up if you ask me.
But yeah. So then, it was time for me to go HOME! WOO! And earlier I had told Mark that the envelope I had was for him and he knew it was the pics. So then as I was leaving, he took out the pics and showed them to Linda (as you know, one of two bosses. The other being Cliff). And Linda was like, "OOOH! I didn't know he was your homecoming date!" and Mark was just smiling and stuff. LOL and then when he walked away she was like, "Is he your boyfriend?!"
*Siiighh* LOL! So I kinda just shook my head and she goes. "Oohhh...so he's just a GOOD friend..." and I nodded and kinda smiled and she goes, "Do you WANT him to be your boyfriend?" and I smiled even more, LOL! I figured, fawk, why hide it?! She freakin' knows. So she gets this HUGE smile and she goes, "I'll see what I can do for you!" and I was like, "Nooo!" LOL! Then she asked if anyone knew and I told her Barrie did. THEN she asked if MARK knew and I just shrugged because...I really DON'T know! LOL! Though, I think he might. So then she pointed to the pictures and gave me a face that said, "Well, shit. He went with you to HOMECOMING." LOL I just shrugged again before she said that my secret was safe.
However, when I asked Mark tonight about shopping on Friday, he said yeah. But Cliff and Linda want to take him out to dinner, so he doesn't know exactly what's up yet. I hope Linda doesn't decide to play matchmaker. LOL! Or if she does, she does it REALLY vaguely. LOL!! Erf. Kinda embarassing... LOL! But she thought it was cute so...hmmm...=D
ERF. My legs are achey...my arms are achey...I need to wash my hair...and I have to do homework. So that means, I've gotta jaa. LOL! Blog more on the 'morrow!! Oyasumi!
She was craving pie @ 10:35 a.m.
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o__O;; on Saturday, December 7, 2002
Kanojo no "Pie": When you're bored...you'll do anything to keep you busy.
Basking in the sounds of: GLAY - Together
Annooooo.....I didn't know it was 1 AM. Hm. LOL!
So today, there was no AIM. -___-; I knew it. Dammit. So I walked home. It actually wasn't that bad! It wasnt THAT cold, my throat didn't hurt, and it was just a nice peaceful walk home. I enjoyed it. I had alot of time to think and brew up a story plot. LOL! I always think of good story plots when I'm walking alone. =D
Also, I'm almost done with 36 Moons!!! I'm on Part 127! Almost time for Fate!!!! WEEE!! Almost there...almost...OH! And while I was reading, I really needed to multitask...so I painted my nails dark purple. It's really the only color that looks good on my short nails, LOL! Tho. I dunno why I painted them if I have to take off the polish by Saturday Nite. -___-; damn job.
Well...it's day TWO of the "Avoid Mark" marathon. LOL!!! Seems like a big thing, when it really isn't. LOL! I just like making humor. However, ALL DAY, I couldn't stop looking at that f*ckin' homecoming picture! It made me happy to see that huge ass smile of his. We look...CUTE! Egh. Why does he have to be dumb?
Yesterday night, Barrie told me something he said. Okay, well, as you know, Barrie is like...in her 30's. And she says, "I like gummy bears!" (dude...I could SWEAR I blogged about this already....) and he goes "I don't because they're childish."
..................yeah.
Do you see how MENTARDED he's being?!?! He's tryin' to be all grown up. Blah. Whatever. I hope he's coolin' off or whatever. Maybe I'll move this "Avoid Mark" Marathon for a few more days! But I DO see him on Sunday...no denying that. But he won't give me a ride home because I get off before closing...so HA!!!! LOL!! I hope he misses me. LOL! I hope this is even WORKING!!!
Erf...I'm so sleepy now...~__~ LOL! The bed is callin' my name and I'm responding! Blog later! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 01:00 a.m.
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Reminiscence... on Thursday, December 5, 2002
The Pie of my Life: Is a picture really worth a thousand words?
Basking in the sounds of: Jefferson Starship - Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now
I love the movie "Mannequin". Have I ever told you that? LOL Yeah. I have. LOL!!! This song is so awesome. So here, I am...sick still and BARELY gaining my voice back...and SINGING. LOL! Or...trying to. Damn...80's music rocks. LOL!!! Yeah... I have my little phases.
So anyway. today. Guess what?
LOL. HOMECOMING PICTURES!! I'll scan a full shot of us later on when I can get to Sherry's house and use her scanner. But for now, just deal with a beautiful face shot. LOL! Yes everyone, this is Mark. I was still kinda peeved at him today, but once I got the pictures...I cracked like a f*ckin' egg. LOL!!
LOOK at that smile! LOOK! ALL the guys at school were sayin', "DAMN! He looks happy to be there!" LOL! Aww! I even got a few, "Is that your boyfriend?" questions. LOL I replied with, "I wish." ^__^;
Janis and I were talking and she asked, "Would you really, truly want him to be your boyfriend if he seriously asked you?" I have to admit that before I answered, I kind of thought about his bitchy little mood swings and stuff, but all in all, it was a yes. LOL!
I realize now that I haven't really given him much justice. I've made him sound more like a stupid little prick a$$ bastard who over reacts over stupid a$$ sh*t...and maybe he is! (LOL okay...still a little mad...) But aside from that, he's also a very sweet, nice and gentleman like guy. Some people don't really give him credit for being one, since they all saw ME pay for homecoming pictures and his ticket. But people don't know that he actually ASKED me how much his ticket was. And it was ME that refused to tell him. And it was ME that refused to take him to an ATM to get cash. So it was really all ME. But he really does try to be gentleman like. He opens doors for me, tries to beat me to pulling out my chair first when we've gone out to eat.
And he's FUNNY! LOL! He's such a dork...but the only time I've seen it is when we're alone. Around others...he's someone else. David, from my old job, said that since he's a Virgo, he has four different personalities. LOL The mark of an Earth sign he said. I guess that is kinda true.
Today, I decided to hide from Mark: Online, in person and, if I can help it, on the phone. I'm on one of many Screen Names he doesn't know and I plan on hiding for at least 'til Sunday when, I think, I see him again. LOL, I'm going to "make him miss me" LOL!! Hope it works. I know, though, that when 11 o'clock rolls around, I'm going to be SOOOOOO tempted to go onto my other SN. LOL! DAMMIT! But Barrie will be online, so I can talk to her about anything he may have said!!! WOO! I love Barrie. She's like...my long lost Aunt or something! She's so supportive, hilarious and I could SWEAR she came from our family. LOL!! *hugs Barrie* WEE! LOL!! Awwww!
Kay...well, I better get going rite quick and start my homework. I'll blog later if there's anything interesting I found out! LOL! But in the meantime...I've gotta "Visit the WIZard"...JAA!
*Runs to the oterai!! ^__^;;;*
She was craving pie @ 09:08 p.m.
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I HAVE NO VOICE!!! *Cry* on Wednesday, December 4, 2002
Piebucks: Good friends are beautiful people.
Basking in the sounds of: Eminem - Sing for the Moment
This song is beautiful. It's very encouraging for me.
We just explain it, and then we get our checks in the mail
It's fucked up ain't it, how we can come from practically nothin'
To bein' able to have any fuckin' thing that we wanted
It's why we sing for these kids that don't have a thing
Except for a dream and a fuckin' rap magazine
Who post pin-up pictures on their walls all day long
Idolize their favorite rappers and know all they songs
Or for anyone who's ever been through shit in they lives
So they sit and they cry at night, wishing they die
Till they throw on a rap record, and they sit and they vibe
We're nothing to you, but we're the fuckin' shit in their eyes
That's why we sieze the moment, and try to freeze it and own it
Squeeze it and hold it, 'cos we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through out lyrics that you
hear in our songs
And we can...
I love Eminem. He's so awesome. Everyone that puts him down just doesn't really understand him. I can't say that I understand him like he was my homeboi or anything, but I know he isn't all bad as he seems. His daughter is so ADORABLE too! *Chuu!!*
Anyway...It's already 12:05... So I better make this quick.
All in all, this day was pretty good. I love all my friends, both online and off. You guys are all so very supportive and caring!!! I feel so loved! LOL! Everyone is just so supportive with my Mark-Drama and all that! It's awesome =) All the thanks in the world couldn't possibly express my love for you all! =D
Oh yeah, and Jamie and I ended up not meeting up, but that's okay. Maybe I'll tell her my drama some other day, LOL. But. Speaking of Mark-Drama. I had more tonite. But before I explain, lemme tell you what happened LAST nite.
Okay, so yesterday, on the way home, he was saying something about not getting any tips...so in a gesture of kindness, I decided to just give him my measly 3, 4 bucks in tips. So as he turned the corner, he pulled over to drop me off (it's right in front of my apt. =D LOL! but the turn turns onto a main street...) So then I left the tip on the seat and he goes, "Noo!! Get back here!" and I go, "What?" And he says, "Take this out! I'm not taking your money!" and then we stared a mini-argument about who should take the money...until a cop came up behind him. So I took the money and closed the door and watched the cop drive off behind Mark. But I was sure he didn't get pulled over because he could have just been dropping me off barely, which he did.
So today, he came online. And I wanted to know if he got home okay!...I talked to him online and here's what happened:
me: hey!
him: your not cool
him: your so stubborn
me: as are you!!!
me: did you get home okay???
him: luckily.
him: your more stubborn
me: LOL, its in the genes...you should have just taken it!
him: whatever! i dont need your money, especially when i am older. thats a resepct thing
him: i guess u dont respec tme
me: whaaaaa!?
me: I hella hope you're kidding
him: wut do u think?
me: Yeah, you're kidding
him: guesss again
me: you're mad..
him: did u not see the cop behind me?
him: he follewed me a ways
me: No. To be honest, I didn't see him behind you.
him: doesnt matter anymore. its over.
me: Look, on the real here, I had no idea that the cop was even behind you. If I had known, I would have taken back the money the first time you told me to. As for respect, I respect you a whole damn lot, Mark...and i'm sorry, but I didn't think that age mattered when it came to friendship and doing things for friends
him: u dont need to give me money. thats my job for u.
him: it was like 2 dollars too
me: Yeah, well, it may not have seemed like alot, but it helps...But i'm sorry. Just thought it would be nice
him: think again. thats not cool.
him: i appreciate the jesture, but ...
him: i dont take charity.
me: I wish you would have said it like that earlier...
him: y? i had to expresss myself
me: Yeah, guess ya did.
him: thats wut i felt. i cant lie. its against ME
me: Yeah i know... but...you should know that it totally wasn't about respect or anything...I didn't know you felt that way, at all...or else I wouldn't have thought twice about it
me: still mad..?
him: frustrated.
me: I'm sorry. I probably added on to whatever you were distressed about yesterday.
him: y
him: a
me: i'll leave you alone then...you know i'm sorry...so if you wanna talk or vent or anything....you know i'm here. and you've got my number..so yeah. =)
him: +_ ) (Note: This is just his version of the smiley face. He's a happy face that's crying. The + is the eyes, the _ is the tear and the ) is the smile...obviously. LOL! Don't ask.)
him: @->-----
him: nite time fer me
me: alright =) sleep well... i'll talk to you soon
I know. I know. I'm too soft. I know. But I can't help it. That's my nature. I swear...I can't be mad at ANYONE for more than 10 minutes (Unless it's my old boss, Nick...or unless you do something HUGELY BAD to me.). *sigh* Barrie prolly got frustrated with me tonite when I told her this. She doesn't want to see me as a "doormat" as she says. But it's hard to break habits. I'm really going to try, though.
My dad said that maybe that's how he was raised or maybe something happened when he was little. I thought about this and could see his point. But still. That was mean how he said it.
Everyone, even my dad, said that he's a weird one, too. Everyone. LOL Well. Dammit.
Anyway, I better get to bed...I'll blog more later. Jaa!
She was craving pie @ 11:56 p.m.
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I want to break something. on Tuesday, December 3, 2002
SonofaPie: When your soul is hurt, your heart feels it.
Basking in the sounds of: System of a Down - Chop Suey!
LIKING Mark isn't good for me. It's tearing me apart. I feel like he's tearing me apart on purpose.
He told Barrie about his dilemma with Danyel. Yeah. The one he wouldn't tell me. Guess f*ckin' what?
Danyel is 17.
JUST LIKE ME!
It's not fair. I don't even get a chance. All through work, he was saying that he wanted a girlfriend, and I was right there, listening to him. I wanted to chuck that heavy ice cream spade right at him. Or at the store window across from us. I wanted to break something, throw something...DO something VIOLENT! LOL! Seriously! But I just cleaned...cleaned cleaned cleaned and pretended not to hear anything. Pretended that it didn't even phase me, when it really did. However, Barrie was telling me something I failed not to hear.
He said that he "wanted a girlfriend. Or sex."
People...this hurt me. This whole night hurt me. It was like a double slap in the face.
Tomorrow, I talk to Jaymee. Jaymee could tell something was up with me, so she said that if I ever wanted to talk, not to be afraid to hit her up and talk to her. I decided that maybe I should just tell her what's up. I mean, she's closer to Mark than Barrie is; Jaymee and Mark worked together before they came to Coldstone. So I was thinking maybe she'd be better at deciphering Mark's behavior.
Also, through out the night, she was accusing me of kissing Mark to explain why I got sick. o___O;;;. Then, when I told her that I wanted a man...she pimped Mark out to me! She told me to go for him and she even threw in the fact that he was half Asian! And all the while, Mark is standing no more than a few feet away.
So yeah. I'm gonna talk to her tomorrow. Also, I was telling Barrie how I'm going to create an entirely new image for myself in College. I'm, in so many words, going to become a little more bitchier. Just enough so no one else steps on me. I can't allow that anymore. I'm going to be more frank and straight up about relationships and stop being so scared of letting people know what's on my mind. I want to be respected and as the saying goes, "Nice Guys Finish LAST." and right now, I'm in Dead F*ckin' LAST.
However...I'm not changing at ALL for all those I knew BEFORE College. I could never change like that. However, around my new friends and colleagues, I'm going to have a new mask. A stronger, bolder and tougher mask. I pray that it works and that I actually keep up with it and I that I don't break.
Anyway...to end on a positive note, I got many nice messages from people when I stayed home from school today! I was sick as HELL. Everyone told me I looked like Sh*t. LOL! So I just called my dad and he picked me up. So everyone left wonderful messages when my Away message was on and I got MUCH love and support on my Tagboard about Mark!!! *Glomps Zeid!* *Glomps Auwon!* *Glomps Cindy* *Glomps Janis!* *Glomps EVERYONE!!!*
Yes. Everyone deserved their own personal Glomp. So =P LOL! *CHEE!*
But. I think I shall frollick off to bed. I need my beauty rest. Plus...I'm craving some Water. LOL!!!! JAA!!! >__<
She was craving pie @ 11:41 p.m.
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Erf...Chapped lips... on Tuesday, December 3, 2002
Watashi No Pie: One who thinks they are mature, are really more immature than they are mature.
Basking in the sounds of: Modjo - Lady (Hear me Tonight)
Goodness. Tonight, was the moment of truth. The day. Oh yess. The day for what, you ask? Why...THE DAY! The day where everything I've thought, wished, hoped and dreamed was all wrong...AGAIN!!!!
Mark doesn't like me. In THAT way.
Yep. I'm his friend. His buddy! His chum. I have mixed feelings about that, as would anyone else. I'm actually pretty pissed off at myself for doing the one think I tried not to do. ANALYZE. I knew that if I did, I'd bring my hopes up and I did. And it was all for nothing. *sigh* F*ckin A. So how did this come up?
It was that girl, Danyel. He, and I quote, is "having fun with her." but he's now sad and bummed because his other friend, Sarah is, and I quote again, "being a butt". I bet you fiddy bucks Sarah is jealous as f*ck. LOL! SERIOUSLY! They all started out as buddies, I'm sure, and once two of them get in the mix with each other, the third is like all, WTF?! Ya know?! Kinda like the movie, "Keeping the Faith". Fawk, I love that movie. LOL!! IT'S A DAMN GOOD MOVIE!!
AUWON! Have you watched that movie yet?!?
Anyway, so yeah. Now, he's sulking and now he won't even tell me what the hell is up. If I can't be WITH him, I would rather he confide in me...I'd rather be one of his good buddies.
*Powder Snow by Pierrot plays in the Background* Sound familiar anyone?! That damn quiz hit the nail right on the head.
*sigh* But yeah. And I'm talking to Barrie right now and she was tellin' me how they were talking about dating and here's what she found out about Mark:
1. He likes older women
2. He will never date someone from his workplace
3. He HATES immature people
Hummm...In that little quiz I got a 0 OUT OF 3! LOL! Except for the last one...I'm pretty damn mature...but I JUST KNOW HOW TO HAVE FUN!!!
This damn guy. I swear. I mean, shit...it's okay when HE acts goofy and ish...but when I act goofy, it's suddenly IMMATURE. Stupid. Anyway.
That cookie thing with Sherry is this weekend! And I have NO money to buy ANYTHING! LOL! Great, ne?! LOL!!! Hopefully my dad will bum me some cash. I can't borrow too much. *sigh* plus...I still need to save for my stupid phone bill and Christmas gifts...x__X;; Oi.
Anyway...My throat is killing me...and I'm gettin' a little sleepy, so I'm prolly gonna jaa. But before I do...
HEY ALL YOU SINGLE ASIAN BOIS!!! Check out mah profile, and hollah! LOL!!! Preferrably if you live in Cali. ^__^;
Also, if you've got any friends, brothers...friends of brothers, I'm open to suggestions! LOL! SHOO! I'm nice! I'm caring! Read my blog! I CARE! LOL!! Oi. Okay..Oi! I still have to make the Gacktjob banners! I'll get on that! *snore* LOL!
JAAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:59 p.m.
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All my money's spent...But that's NOT okay... on Sunday, December 1, 2002
Pop-Pie Ads!: Winter sucks major a$$ d*ck.
Basking in the sounds of: Linkin Park - One Step Closer
Which of Gackt's personalities are you?
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What, Beyotch?! WHAT?! LOL! *Chee!* *hides* LOL!!!
BLIMEY!!! I freakin' SWEAR! Everytime I open up Kazaa, it takes a FREAKIN' LIFETIME! AND I get pop-up ads every FREAKIN FIVE MINUTES!!! *breathes* I'm good.
Damn tho. What a weekend this has been. I HAVEN'T EVEN READ 36 MOONS LATELY! *cries* Fawk. Okay. I shall start from Friday. I still need to explain the Saturday night entry. *sigh* here I go.
Okay, Friday, was going ALLLL good. Like, HELLA good. Okay, so I had the car, and here I go, tralala, off to work. Turns out it took me FORTY FIVE FREAKIN' MINUTES to find a parking!!!!! -___-; Okay, so when I eventually did, I was like 15 minutes late for work. So I got off and started heading on over to work...until I passed Mark's car. Now, he didn't notice me, but I did, so I stood there until he turned. Then I waved and had plans on walking on, until he opened the door and told me to get in and keep him company. LOL! So, hell...I did! I was already late anyway, LOL! So here we go, spending about 15-20 minutes trying to find HIM a parking and we go to work and everything.
Work was good. LOL Mark, kidding around (I think) was like, "I love you, Abby!" Aww! *chuu!* Then he went to tell Shauna, I guess, and he said, "Abbyy! Shauna doesn't love meee..." and I go, "Awww, Don't worry. I love you, Mark!" LOL! and he was like, "Awww! Abby!" Dammit. LOL!!
So In fact, work was GREAT...until the end. And ladies and gentlemen, this next part is 100% RETARDED. He got mad/disappointed or whatever at me for a RETARDED reason. (No offense to the Mentally Ill people, here...^__^;;)
Okay, so Tony, the guy he hates and thinks he's obnoxious in every way, shape and form (which...I agree...and so does everyone else...) was working that night. So here I am, trying to do that towel whip thing, since I CANNOT do it...no matter what! So Tony goes, "Okay, come on. Hit me." So I'm like, Shooo..okay! LOL! So I try, and fail miserably. However, Tony then comes after ME. And HIS towel whips HURT like BEEEZNATCHES! So I ran to the back, and Mark was there. And he looks up and was like, "What's wrong?" And I was like, "Tony is trying to towel whip me." and he goes, "Want me to go out there with you?" and I just shrug and I'm like, "If you want." So he does, and Tony comes after me AGAIN. So Mark steps in and goes, "Stop it. You're being stupid." And Tony goes, "Well, she did it to ME." And Mark turns to me and goes, "...You did..?" And I just shrug and say, "Yeah. He told me to." and then Mark shakes his head and goes, "You're so immature. I thought I knew you...I guess I don't." And he walks away.
Yeah. WTF IS RIGHT!!! EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING!
So here I am, saying to myself, "God. How Mentarded was that. Freakin' A."
THEN, he passes by and goes, "I don't love you anymore." and when I turn to look at him, he just shakes his head. He doesn't look pissed off or anything...he just looks like...kinda disppointed or something?? LOL! I dunno. And the rest of the night he was saying "I thought I knew you, I guess I don't." And ish like that. So, whatever, I just stayed quiet and I guess it showed that it bothered me and made me kind of mad that he was getting all worked up over nothing, so he comes up behind me when I'm washing dishes and wraps his arms around me and hugs me. LOL, then when he's walking away he turns around and goes, "Abby!" and So, I look up and he goes, "I love you!" And smiles and walks away.
...Yeah. I know. BUT...there is a second part to this! hoho!
After work, I had to go up to Bella's house and pick up Anthony from her party and bring him back, right? So when Mark walked me to my car, he asked if I was going online and I said yeah, so he said he'd be on too. Kay, well, I went up to Bella's and it turns out she was sick...How? I'd rather not say. But she's alright now. =) And while I was up there, Mark calls and goes, "Hey! Get online!" and I told him that I couldn't and that I'd be home in a bit. So he tells me to call him when I get home and I say, "uhm...I probably won't be back home 'till around 12:30." and he says, "It's okay. Call me anyway."
Kay, well, I get home, get online and we end up chatting a little before making plans to go out for lunch the next day before work.
The next day, he picks me up and we go to Chevy's. We talk and it's actually really very awesome. I had a great time just talking to him and laughing. I mean, we hardly had a silent moment!! LOL! So when it came time to pay the bill, he paid it. And I had plans on paying it, so I was like, "Hey! no! I'm paying!" and he goes, "No!" So I give him 10, to cover my half, and he goes, "Fine. But I'm probably gonna end up spending it on you, anyway."
Shoooo...LOL!
On the way to work, we somehow got on the topic of girlfriends and boyfriends or whatever. And I go, "Well, I don't even have a boyfriend." and he goes, "Well, I don't have a girlfriend." and I say, "Well, see? You don't have a girlfriend, I don't have a boyfriend. So we're in the same boat." Then he laughs and says, "Well...I have alot of "friends".." and I ask what he meant by the quotation marks and he goes, "Ya know...more than friends." And I say, "Friends with Benefits." and he goes, "Yeah." -___-; Mannnwhorree. LOL!!! However, this struck me as funny because the day before, he said he wanted to tell me something and it was "so important, [he] wouldn't forget this." But when I asked him, he wouldn't tell me anymore! All that was said was his friend, Sara and him got this girl Danyel, drunk. And Danyel is sort of like me...doesn't smoke or drink that much...only I'M NOT A B*TCH LIKE SHE IS! She's bitchy. Ugh.
This little senario popped into my head when Danyel (whom I didn't know who she was, at the time) came and visited Mark. After she left, he comes up to me and goes, "Do you know who that is?" and I ask if it was his "stalker" and he goes, "Hell no! I wouldn't kiss her! That was Danyel!"
Okay. Right. So. I'm supposed to know who this ho is?
Bitter? Me? Nah.
So yeah...after work, we were on our way out and I guess him, Danyel and Sara were going to his place to get wasted yet again. So they followed him to my place, I hugged him g'nite and that was about it.
Confusing? F*ck yeah. WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH THIS GUY!?!??!?! Why do I get all the f*cked up ones!??! WHY!? LOL! I mean...FAWK! LOL! Shit. This is making me all worked up. Top it off, he tells me to call him all the time now. He wants to go X-mas shopping with me, too! LOL! I don't know, people. I really don't. Barrie says to use reverse psychology on him and see what happens. I think I might have to do that.
Anyway. Today, was boring-er. I had work in the morning and I didn't realized I was opening by myself until I got there and there was no one there. -___-; Greeeat. So I opened and was glad to get off at two.
Then, I wanted to do some shopping...and guess f*ckin' what?
I'm practically BROKE. I had like... 50 sumthin bucks. So fine. Whatever. I bought my hair dye, which was about1 20, fronted Jackie some money to buy HER hair dye and pitched in to buy a pizza. Now, I'm down to probably 10 bucks. Have I told my dad? FAWK no! LOL! First off, 100 went directly to him for rent and then I was left with 70 something bucks. Where that went, I have no damn clue. *sigh* My next check better be FAT. That's I've got to say.
*burp* Kay, well, I'm gonna head on off to bed. Gonna read my magazine again before I drink some more hot cider. MMMM! LOL! Oyasumi! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:21 p.m.
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About Yesterday Night... on Saturday, November 30, 2002
Economy Pie: It's possible for someone to control your feelings.
Basking in the Sounds of: Nothing...
It's scary to know that someone has so much power over you. They can influence every aspect of your mood and of your feelings by a word or a touch. It's sad, exciting, scary, and beautiful all at once.
It's scary to know that everything can change in an instant. Feelings can be altered, lives can be changed, thoughts could be manipulated...all by a word or an action.
I felt a slap on the face as he turned away and out of my sight. It was a moment where my heart stopped, where my palms froze and where every sound, person and smell became void. I could feel it, hear it...my heart breaking. It hurt so much...the day where everything started out in the clouds, ended up face down on the cold, hard, floor.
Immaturity...or so he had called it. The action was harmless. However...it was still immature. The words echoed, "You're better than that. You're so better than that. I thought I knew you...I guess I don't."
The words stung my cheeks, stabbed my heart, twisted my stomach and played with my head. I closed my eyes, for a second, praying that a smile would emerge...
But it didn't. Eyes filled with disappointment, maybe sadness. It hurt me. He hurt me. I passed by him a moment later.
"I don't love you." Whispered out of his lips. I turned back to him and he looked up at me and shook his head. His words kept repeating about how he thought he had known me. Truth is...he does.
Time passed. Slowly...and sadly, for me. I had to keep my mask on though...show him that it bothered me...but I could still stay upbeat. "I love you." He smiled after a while. He could tell it bothered me. I know he could... He was trying to make me happy again. He hugged me, wrapped his arms around me and stayed close...If I had turned my head, our lips would have been mere centimeters apart, if they had not touched.
He, I and another walked. I departed and drove. I drove as hypotizing music played softly in the background of my insane angry thoughts. I wanted to get drunk. I wanted to be wasted. I wanted to forget the night completely and the way I felt so out of control. I wanted to get high. Do something. Anything. Mostly drunk.
I drove. I kept driving. I hated driving at night. I thought about him. I wanted to break something. I wanted to yell at him. I wanted to cry. I wanted to know the answers to all my questions. I wanted to know so much. I was angry...pissed off and yet...I was sad and I felt useless.
He called me. Talked to me for a moment and I told him I would call him as soon as I got back home. After making sure everything was okay, I came home. We talked. Mostly about a co-worker. He then told me I needed to grow up...and added 'jk' after I didn't respond for a while. I told him that it made me sad when he said he thought he knew me...but he really did.
I prayed to God things wouldn't be different. However, I fear they might. I want to go back to that moment and erase it forever. Why me? Why now? Why him? I want to break something. Yell, throw, scream, cry. I want to see him and do all this in front of him; I want to show him what he's done. Then, when I'm done...I want to turn to him and say, "Fix it."
I'm thinking about him now. Thinking about what he's thinking. What he's doing. He's in control of everything inside me. It's scary. I see him tomorrow. We're having lunch. He's in control of me. He's got all the cards. He won.
What do you think? Fact or Fiction?
Fact. This is what happened at work last night. This is how I felt. This is how I still feel. I hope it will pass. I hope it will pass.
Oyasumi Nasai.
Jaa.
She was craving pie @ 01:22 a.m.
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The most busiest shopping day of the year...*cry* on Friday, November 29, 2002
Save the last Pie: Determination is they key to getting everything you want in life.
Basking in the sounds of: DJ Liquid - Final Fantasy Techno
LOL the time is now: 12:34. LOL!! Funny ne?! 1234...Okay. I'll stop.
Today is probably going to be just another boring day. I can already tell. I've got the car and Is start work in an hour and a half. AFTER work, I'm going up to Bella's lil' party thing for like...an hour, two at the most, and then dropping Anthony off at home (Since the only way he could go to the party was if he was back home by 12:30..) and then I'M going to home and gettin some Zzzz's...before I work. Again. Fawk.
I can't even go SHOPPING right now!!! We haven't gotten our checks in yet!!!! -____-;;;;; Grr. Dammit.
Uhm...oh yeah. So now that I've blogged about my BORING ass day...here's a survey thing I got off of someone's blog. I'll link her site up here later...but for now:
10 Years Ago, I...
1. ...was 7 years old. LOL!
2. ...truly believed I had fallen in love
3. ...hated school
4. ...wanted to be a laywer, LOL!
5. ...was kinda bossy...^__^;;;
5 Years Ago, I...
1. ...was 12 years old...o__O;;
2. ...thought I was all that because I would soon be turning 13.
3. ...thought getting more than one EAR peircing was NASTY. (BUHAHAHAH!!!!)
4. ...Still thought I was in love with the same guy.
5. ...had been hurt so many times.
1 Year Ago, I...
1. ...Believed I was in love...again...but with someone I had never met.
2. ...tried desperately to save one of my best friends.
3. ...realized I hated parties and drinking.
4. ...felt lost, alone and confused.
5. ...didn't know what I really wanted.
Yesterday, I...
1. ...ate some gooooooood foood! LOL!
2. ...had ALOT of school spirit.
3. ...was thinking about Mark...
4. ...felt really good about myself for the first time in a lonnnggggg while.
5. ...was truly happy.
Today, I...
1. ...Go to work...with Mark!
2. ...talked to Mark! LOL!
3. ...went with my dad to work to get the car! I love my dad! =D
4. ...will drive 15 minutes to a party, stay for an hour, and drive back.
5. ...might go to sleep, happy. Because of Mark, LOL!
Tomorrow, I will…
1. ...go to work...again, with Mark!
2. ...make an effort to do some shopping before work.
3. ...want to go out somewhere =D
4. ...be tired of working.
5. ...dread Sunday.
Five Items I sort of Have Brand Loyalty To:
1. NARS eyeliner brush
2. LORAC eyeshadow
3. Clinque superlip balm
4. Chapstick Medicated
5. Arrid EXTRA DRY! LOL!!! Cool Shower, to be exact. *CHEE!*
Five Songs That Describe My Life:
1. ****GLAY - Will Be King**** (F*ck...Yes. 'specially the chorus.)
2. ***Everclear - I will buy you a new life*** (F*ck...Yes...again.)
3. L'Arc~en~Ciel - Driver's High
4. Radiohead - Creep
5. Yaida Hitomi - My Sweet Darlin'
Five Songs I Know all the Words to, Even Without the Music:
1. Eminem - Without Me (HELLS YEAH!!!)
2. X-Japan - Kurenai (YEAHH!!!!)
3. GLAY - Yes, Summerdays
4. Violent Femmes - Blister in the Sun
5. Radiohead - Creep
Five Things I Would Do With $1000:
1. Help my dad with the bills
2. Buy my dad a TV
3. Take my dad and my sister out for dinner
4. Buy some Jrock ish!
5. Buy some stuff I REALLY need. LOL!
Top Five Locations I'd Like to Run Away To:
1. Japan.
2. Japan.
3. Japan.
4. Japan.
5. ...Japan.
Five Bad Habits I Have:
1. I bite my nails...erf.
2. I procrastinate...BIG TIME
3. I CANNOT save my money
4. I usually waste my money on ish I don't even need. LOL!
5. MASSIVE road rage!
Five Things I Would Never Wear:
1. clothes from bebe <--F*ck Yeah. GO GIRL!
2. trashy/cheap clothing <--I feel ya, girl! I feel ya!
3. PEASANT STYLE CLOTHES!!!!!
4. T-shirts with stupid a$$ sayings (i.e. "I did your boyfriend." "Don't hate me because your boyfriend wants me."...I HATE THOSE! -___-;;;)
5. REALLY BAGGY clothes. LOL!
Five T.V. Shows I Like:
1. Seinfeld
2. Who's line is it, Anyway?
3. Blind Date, LOL!
4. Real World (I AM GOING TO BE ON THAT SHOW ONE DAY!!!!!)
5. Behind the Music, LOL!!
My Five Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. Music
2. Money
3. My family
4. My friends
5. My life.
GAH! Gotta get to work! LOL Parking is BEYOTCH!! LOL!! JAAA!
She was craving pie @ 12:31 p.m.
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BIG BONE GAME!!!! on Thursday, November 28, 2002
Pie stays home!: You will probably (MAYBE!) have the most school spirit during your Senior year of High School.
Basking in the sounds of: 1Tym - Mother
I love 1Tym. Dammit. LOL! This video is FUNNY too! LOL!!! *Glomps 1Tym*
Today was a pretty good day! Bella is being pretty awesome now. I think she just needed someone...know what I mean? Anthony is making her so incredibly happy it's...it's awesome! LOL! This is the Bella I really miss; she's so laid back, funny and just EASY to get along with! Oi...I hope for my sake and hers that she gets with Anthony. Besides...I think he's good for her. Anthony is pretty much JUST like me...only not at extreme. He's more laid back.
Just like Mark, as scary as this sounds, is JUST like Bella! Only...he, too (as far as I know!), isn't that extreme. LOL!
Oh yeah!!! And I started reading 36 Moons by Lez! I really want to start catching up and stuff with it since it's pretty interesting! I'll put the link up to the Official site once it's up and running. But yeah...I have to start from Part ONE! LOL! Oi! And there's like...what...100-something parts?! LOL! It's all good! I'm sure it will be worth it!
Ahhh, so yeah...after that, I went to detention again. Nothing special..but all the good ish started at work. Of course! I swear, all I blog about is what's up with Mark now!! Sorry if this is getting repetitive and boring. ^___^; Shoo...it's pretty interesting I think!! LOL!!!
Anyway though...Mark hella stood up for me today! See, Tony was standing in front of the ice cream I needed to go to, so I was like, "Hey buddy! Move it!" But totally joking around, and he was like, "Nope!" and he wouldn't budge!!! So I had to push just to get over to the ice cream! and then he bursts out, "You're not better than me!" LOL prolly joking around too, but then Mark busts out from the cuts (LOL!!) and was like, "Yeah, she is." and Tony goes, "Did I ask you to talk?" and Mark retorts, "Did I ask you to listen?"
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Tony didn't talk for the rest of the night. He was pissed...at EVERYONE! Not just Mark...but...EVERYONE! Mark said he deserved it, which he did. It wasn't just that incident, but it's just how he treats people in general. He like, f*cks them over alot. Yeahh, sooo =P
Anyway! So as the night progressed, Mark wanted to tell me so many things and I wanted to tell him ish too! So he ended up making a list...Seriously! "Stuff to tell Abster"
LOL! and I made "Ish to tell Mark!" LOL! Too funny! He gave me a ride home tonight, and Shauna a ride to her car and as soon as she got out of his car, he waited a second before turning to me and saying, "GOSSIP TIME!" with HUGE grin! LOL!!! So there we went, talking about everything on our lists. LOL!!
Lemme just say, that his stalker is a nut. In order to get rid of HER stalker, she told him that her and Mark were going out! LOL! Mark was like o____O;;;; "WTF!!? That's so rude! That's...CREEPY!" Erf! Poor Mark.
So then, on the way home, he was like, "Ugh...here I am...dropping off Abby...going OUT of my wayyy!" But he was joking, but I still felt bad! So I told him I felt bad and he goes, "Nooo! Don't feel bad! I don't mind. I enjoy your company!"...complete with a leg squeeze again. LOL! I got like...three of those on the way home!
Then we were yelling at each other for not seeing each other online. LOL! Kinda went like this: "You're never on anymore!" "Yeah I am! YOU'RE never on!" "Yeah! I AM! I was on at 3:30 today!" "So was I!" "WERE NOT!" "WERE TOO!" "BULLSH*T!" "Eww! Bullsh*t to YOU!"
LOL!!! So he said he'd try to be on tonight, but he didn't think he'd be on...so he said he'd call me. ^___^ Mark is so awesome. I think we've actually gotten alot closer, maybe not boyfriend/girlfriend wise, but just...in general, since homecoming. We talk SOOO Much more now, kick it together alot more and we're just so comfortable around each other! I can talk to him, hit him, joke around with him, be a dork and he's just cool with it! I'm pretty sure he feels the same way around me, since I think I've seen a side of him many of the people at work have never seen before. Except maybe Jamie. LOL! But still...it makes me feel good. ^__^
Erf. Okay...gettin' a lil' sappy here. *yawn*
OH YEAH! so today...uhh...later on...like..in the REAL morning, LOL!, is THE BIG BONE GAME!
What is "Big Bone" you ask? The Big Bone game is a game that has been going on traditionally between Lincoln and San Jose High. We're total rivals and each year we play a football game on Thanksgiving morning to keep the "Big Bone" HOME! I don't remember exactly how long this has been going on, but trust me...it's a BIG thing! Especially since this is our SENIOR year! We MUST win. I hope we win! *crosses fingers*
But yeah! That should be FUN!!! Bella and I are sooooo excited about that!!! LOL! We're going ALL out!!! Making signs, dressing in Blue and Yellow...everythang!!! EveryTHANG! Senior year...we show PRYDE! LOL!!
*Yawn* OMG...I should go to bed. (That rhymed!) LOL! But I'm gonna read a lil' of the 36 Moons before I leave. =D I want to finish Part 1-4. LOL! I like Toki! So Hot. And Gabriel. FyooFyoo!! LOL!!!!
Okay! Off I go!! HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!! Eat lots o Turkey! Gain lots o weight! LOL! You only live once, so live it UP! ^___^ JAAAA!
She was craving pie @ 12:33 a.m.
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Time for a quickie?! LOL! on Tuesday, November 26, 2002
U + Jrock = Pie: Having conversations in your mind can be very entertaining and funny!
Basking in the sounds of: J-Walk - Suddenly
BREAKIN' OUT THE K-POP/ROCK!!! YAYIYAYI! Much love to them Koreans! H.O.T.! 1Tym! EVE! JOO YOUNG HOON! PARK JI YOON! YEAHHH!! LOL! okay...shutting up.
So yeah, today, was pretty boring like it was yesterday, LOL! Bella seems to be getting nicer! Probably because of Anthony! YAY! Thank GOD! I mean, shooo...She asked if I could go to her party and give Anthony a ride home. Which, I have no problem with...but THAT'S A DAMN LONG WAY! Bella is up in the freakin' hills and Anthony lives around where the mall is. So I told her that I would, but if I do, I'm staying home...
And she was COOL with it! She didn't even trip or give me a bitchy look! She was just like, "Okay!"
YAY!!! I didn't even want to stay over night! Good shit. Good shit.
So yeah, after that, went to detention and then afterwards, I got out and I got to the bus stop to take the bus home. WELL, the bus was supposed to be there at 4:40 and the bastard bus didn't come til 4:55!!!! Dickhead! And it was FREEZING outside and I was NOT about to walk my a$$ home! Heck No! So there I was...bundled up on the bench having a very angry conversation with myself. I almost laughed out loud about the stuff I was thinking, too!
It's funny when you do that!! Really! I know it sounds all psycho, but I KNOW you all do it!!! *pish* tryin' to trick me...But yeah! My convo was funny. Full of profanity! It went something like this:
"F*ckin' Bus. The hell time is it? F*ckin' A! It's WAYYY past your time, you B*tch A$$ bus driver. What the hell is taking you so long?! Dammit. It's cold. I could have been home by now! Is that the bus?! Erf. I can't see that far. I need my glasses. Eh. F*ck the glasses...just give me the damn BUS!"
LOL!!! Too much. Too much. Anyway, the bus eventually came and I eventually got home safe and sound where I blasted the heater. ^__^; Then, I was STARVING since all I ate all day was a freakin' bowl of cereal and some melon in the morning and a banana when I got home. There's NOTHING in the fridge and I obviously didn't have the car, so I was stuck. But then my Otooto-San came home and we went out to eat! =D *Happy Tummy*
Then, when we came home, My dad and I fought with the DSL for a while before It finally started working. *Smacks DSL*
OH YEAH! and the Gacktjob Blog is UP!!! YEAH! I'm Masa! *glomps Masa* He's so CUTE! LOL! And hyper! I HAD to be Ma-Chan! LOL! I'm gonna get to work on some fun banners for the group blog maybe tomorrow nite or Thursday.
Oh yeah! So Mark called and asked me to work tomorrow. LOL, He said he would have called me in, but it was pretty damn slow, so he said he couldn't. He even asked Cliff, I think he said! LOL! Aww! *chuu*! LOL but yeah, so...hey! I could use some hours! I NEED money...BADLY! I need to buy CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!!! AHHH!!!
Do you have ANY idea how many people are on my list this year!?!?!?! And being the extravagant spender I am?! ERF. *counts* 16 (give or take) PEOPLE!!!! *faints* I hope my dad wins the lotto...LOL! Okay..maybe I can afford not to be so extravagant this year. ^__^;; I'll have to make calculations later. During Chemistry. LOL!!!
*Sigh* Well, lessee...it's 11:35 now, so I better get my booty to bed! I'll blog tomorroww if anything interesting happens! LOL! Oyasumi! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:07 p.m.
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Boys = Immaturity on Monday, November 25, 2002
Pie-master: Libraries are so uncomfortably quiet.
Basking in the sounds of: Nuthin. =(
Dammit. I'm on AIM express and NO ONE IS ON! WTF is up with that?! LOL! Yeah...I'm here at school still, during 6th period. I have to wait a whole hour before I can go to AIM (Detention...not instant messanger, LOL!) So yeah, here I am, logging onto the interenet and pretending I'm looking up stuff for my project. Blah. Haha! LOL!
Yeah. So anyway, these three boys, one of which I knew back in Freshman/Sophomore year, came in and got online on the computers around me. Erf. They're annoying. Such immature boys. Some boys really don't know when to grow up and it's quite sad to see them think they're all that. They're all like, "Hey! Let's look at Poorrrnnn!" -___-; Right.
Today was a fairly alright day. Mostly just another day. I was thinking about ish today and I realized how damn busy I'm proabably going to be this coming December. I mean, with work and school, I'm gonna be burnt. I'm still gonna try and blog everyday tho! Probably during 6th and maybe after work, if anything interesting happens.
Erf. There's not even much to blog about today. How sad! I really hope to start the GacktJob blog though!! LOL! I'm kinda hyped about that... I think it will be fun! *chee!* I don't know a whole lot about Masa, but I know enough to judge that he's the Fanservice Whore! WEE! LOL! And he wants Gackuto....BAAADDDD! LOL!
WTF, all these people are coming in now... eesh. All these guys know each other too. Erf. Go away. LOL!
Dammit!!!! I was hella gonna say something but I forgot what I was going to say like...2 times already!! How frustrating!!! *sigh* I talked with Jihye and Shinhye yesterday tho! That was fun! Poor Jihye...her site attracts...odd people. It's the tagboard! LOL! *glomps Jihye and Shinhye*
I talked to Auwon yesterday too! WEE! LOL! I didn't get to talk to her all day Sunday! I had Homework AND WORK. Erf. But oh well =) I need to DL that MiyaBi PV from her site! I'll do it when I get home =) *Glomps Auwon*
Well, I guess that's it for now. I hope work is fun today. LOL! Anyway, blog later! Jaa!
~ Had more Pie around 12:06 AM ~
I know! I know! WTF am I still doing up?! LOL! Well, I HAD to blog! I'll be quick, tho! Oh happy day!
So, anyway! As you know, I had detention today, but before I went, Sherry had called me and asked if I was going to go home and pick up the mail, because she was waiting for something. I told her no, but that she could pick me up from school and I could get the mail for her. She agreed and then I asked if she could drop me off at work, and she said okay. By the time we checked the mail and we were ready to go, it was about 4:15. So I was at the table when my cell ringed. I picked it up and guess who!!!
Mark! LOL!! He called and he was like, "Hey! Abster!" and at first, I didn't know it was him, so I was like, "What??" and he said it again, so then I was like, "Oh hey! What's up?" Then he asked what time I was going in, and I told him around 5:15 or something. So then he asked if I could go earlier to go keep him company at the mall since he thought he worked at 4:30 when he actually started at 5:30, same as me. LOL! So! Of course, I agreed and Sherry dropped me off at work. When I got there, he was yapin away on the cell phone and I just said "hey!" and walked past him and into the back room. And he called back and was like, "HEY! Where you going?" LOL! And I yelled back that I was just gonna drop my work clothes off in the back. So, yeah. After that, we just chilled and walked around the mall and had a nice convo. I learned more about him, also! Including stuff about his old job, and his old boot-legging schemes. LOL! He's too much!
But then, as we were chillin' there in the mall...he started saying stuff, totally joking around...I think, but it made me think that he knew I liked him. LOL! for real!!! Okay, so we were in Hot Topic, and I was like, "Ooh! Guess what we're gonna do at work?" And he goes, "What?" and I say, "A secret Santa!" And he goes, "Oooh! I bet you're saying "I hope I get Mark! I hope I get Mark!" And I was like, "Piishh! Noooo!!"...with a big grin on my face. LOL! and then I was like, "I bet you'd love to get me! Since you love to buy me stuff!" LOL! Just joking around of course and he goes, "Shit...I'll probably get you something anyway." ^__^ AwW! *Chuu!* LOL!
THEN, later on, at Anchor Blue, we were talking about this UGLY pleather jacket with an UGLY design on it and I was like, "OOohh! Mark! You should have sported that to Homecoming!" and He was like, "Piish.. NO thanks! I know you liked the black wife-beater, though." With a small grin on his face. And shit! Who was I to deny it?! LOL! So I was like, "Ohh yeah! Lot's of other people liked it too!" LOL then, when he asked who, I told him that Ernesto, on of my buds, asked who the "Pretty boy Model" I was with, was. LOL! He was like, "PRETTY BOY!?!?" LOL! Oi.
But yeah....and then during work, he was like, "Oooh, Abby. You're such a gossiper. I bet you talk about me with Bella! I BET you do!!!" and I was like, "Whaat?! What am I going to tell her about you?!" LOL and he was like, "Shooo...I dunno!" LOL! I knew he was all kidding and everything...but...I swear...it felt like he knew....
And before work, we were at Sam Goody talking about Christmas presents and stuff. And I was saying how if I have the money and I see something my friends would like, I'd totally buy it for them. Which is sooo true; I LOVE buying stuff for people! And so he was like, "Yeahh... that's how you know if you're really my good/best friend; I only do stuff like that for my true friends." and I was like, "So where's my present then?!" LOL! Totally kidding around too! And he was like, "Well! I don't know what to get you!! That's why you're still my Buddy for now." ERF. LOL!!! So Then I said, "Whatever! I'm the most EASIEST person to shop for! Get me ANYTHING Asian or Flowers and I'll be totally happy!"
This...I swear is true. I mean, I didn't say this JUST so he could get me flowers. If you talk to all my buds, they'll tell you that I'm ALWAYS bitchin' about wanting flowers. Actually, just a single red rose, but LOL I wasn't gonna say that. So then He mumbles, "Flowers, huh..." LOL! ^___^ oh yeah. Secret Santa or not.. He's getting a present!
OH YEAH! LOL! and one more thing! Remember how I sold him my old phone for 20 bucks on homecoming nite? Well, tonight, I didn't have enough to buy him some lemonade, since he always buys me tea. So he pretended to get all mad at me, LOL and I was like, "Ill make it up to you!" and he goes, "Nahhh...I owe you 20 bucks anyway!" and I"m like, "From what?" and he says, "For the phone!" LOL, so I'm all thinking and then I bust out saying, "Hmmm, nope...you already paid me!" LOL! and he goes, "O____O;;;; What are you talking about!?" And with all seriousness in my voice and facial expressions, I just look at him like he's weird and I'm like, "Yeah....youuu paid me already." LOL! and I walk back out to help a customer. So then I hear him go up to Barrie and say, "Yeah. It's official...Abby's on crack." LOL!!! And after I helped the customer, he just came up to me and was like, "No, You're on crack...I didn't pay you!" And I just laugh and go, "Yes. You did." LOL! I think after that, he didn't quite know what to do, so he just kinda dropped it. ^___^;;
BLAH! This computer is pissin' me off! Damn Virus!!! FAWK!!! IT'S 12:40!!!!!! ERF!!! Okay! Oyasumi!!! Blog tomorrow!! JAA!!!
She was craving pie @ 01:27 p.m.
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Erf...stoopid plug. on Saturday, November 23, 2002
A Song for Pie: The hardest feelings to decipher are your own.
Basking in the sounds of: MISIA - Everything
Erf. I just unplugged my computer and lost my blog...but good thing I didn't even start bloggin' LOL! Okay..so here I go...*Glares at plug*
Today was okay. It turns out that my dad and I didn't go to Frisko; I guess neither one of us really had the urge or the will to go, so I just called them up and rescheduled for the 14th of December. Shouldn't be too bad. =)
Anyway, so my dad and I went out to eat at Applebee's next to Mitsuwa and we were talking and having a good time. Then I asked if, after we ate, we could go to Mitsuwa so I could get me some Almond Crush Pocky (that ish...is so GOOD!). So he agreed and while I was off in Pocky land...guess what my paw got me????
A GACKUTO 2003 CALENDAR!!!!! WEEE!!!!!!
Gackuto looks so scrumptious! But...I think he has...like...extensions in his hair or something. LOL! Because on the side shots, he has like, this long ponytail with small braids in it! o__O;; Yeah! I know! LOL! I'll see if I can take a pic of it and put it on here. But yeah...he still looks good! *Glomps Gackuto* LOL! I definately needed a new band calendar. For TWO years, I've had GLAY. I love my GLAY bois and all, but I gotta mix it up a little. My 2004 Calendar, you ask?
The Dir en Grey BOIS! WOO! LOL! Okay. Over excited.
Anyway, so after that, my dad and I walk around Santana Row, this REALLY high class shopping area that just opened across the street from the mall. LOL yeah, so we went into Gucci (I told you it was high class!), and I fell IN LOVE with these shoes and these sunglasses that were TOTALLY me! *Cry, whimper* I mean...I can do without the shoes, but the GLASSES! Ugh. I want. And hey! Christmas is just a hop, skip and a jump away! WEE!
LOL So, after that, my dad and I came home at around 5:15ish. Bladdy bladdy, and then Natali called a little later and invited me out with her boi, Freddy, but since I thought my dad and I were gonna go out with Sherry somewhere (or so he told me!), I said I couldn't go. However, my dad told me that Sherry had changed her mind, So I was like. Erf. Then Bella called and asked if I wanted to see a movie with her, Anthony and another girl at her old job. So I said okay, picked up Bella and jammed on over to the theater. I saw "The Ring" again, but I didn't mind! =D It was all gravy. LOL! After that, dropped her and Anthony off and now...here I sit!
But dooode...throughout some parts of the movie, I'd kinda zoned out and start thinking about...yeah. You guessed it! Mark. Just...small little images of him smiling, laughing and talking popped into my head and just made me smile so much. When I realized what I was doing, I stopped. But on the way home from dropping off Bella, I was doing it again! Damn. I really like him, people. LOL! *CHEE!*
I called Micah this morning: he wasn't home. But when I called around the time I got home, he had left for his sister's house for the weekend. -__-; yeeeahhh...But his mom is such a sweetie. I love his mom! LOL! But yeah, sooo...I guess I'll try tomorrow. I swear...he probably has a feeling. LOL!
Anyway, I should prolly Jaa. It's almost midnight and I've got work at 10. ERF. And I REALLY don't want to go to AIM now. But hey..I figure that it's a good time for me to get my homework done! And it's only 10 days! Yeah. Think POSITIVE! LOL!
Welp, blog tomorrow! Oyasumi! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 11:36 p.m.
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Gahhhh....too much...food... on Friday, November 22, 2002
Driver's Pie: When you're so used to doing something, and you don't do it...you tend to feel very incomplete.
Basking in the sounds of: Dir en Grey - Ain't Afraid to Die
Quizzes! WEE!
Which Luna Sea Pairing Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
I had a feeling I was gonna get RyuichiXSugizo...Oh well. I like that pairing! They just look...so GOOD! LOL!
You're TetsuxYukihiro!
Aww, you're TetsuxYukihiro! One of the more overlooked
pairings in Laruku, you're actually very sweet and sensible.
The bashful new drummer and the broken leader, learning how to
survive together... you're a hopeful tale, with an absolutely
adorable cast of characters. And you get along so well, too!
You're based on common interests and goals, instead of lust
or heavy emotion, and in the end, that's the best sort of
love. ^_^ Congrats!
What L'arc~en~Ciel Pairing are You?
AWWW! LOL!! Yukihiro is alright...too quiet tho. But TETSU...*GLOMP* WEEEEEEEEE! He was my fave from the start and he still is!
Today was pretty erffy. LOL! I seem to be having more erffy days as time goes on. Well, you know how I haven't been going to Zero Period for about...oh...two weeks?! LOL! Well, today was finally the day I got busted for it. I knew it had to be coming soon. Oh well. LOL! But it wasn't as bad as I thought!
Towards the end of my first period, they called me in to the Assistant Principal's office. However...seeing as we have more than one freakin Assistant Principal...I didn't know WHO to go to! So when I asked, they sent me to Ms. Catching. However, I didn't know I was supposed to go to Mr. Heller until I sat down and started talking to Ms. Catching. LOL so anyway, she looked my name up on the computer, whatever, lalala, and she asked WHY I was taking that class in the first place. I told her that I wanted to take it just incase I decided to go to a big university since I need TWO years of Lab science. But the thing is...I already completed my requirements for science to graduate, so she really wasn't even trippin'. Mr. Heller was tho! He just wanted me to get busted! But she was really nice, even tho she came off as if she was trying not to be. LOL! But I could tell she liked me...I mean. Shit. I have NEVER gotten in trouble all four years I've been going to school there! So there had to be a reasonable explanation as to why I was skipping so much, right? Right.
So she gave me 10 days of AIM (kinda like...detention. LOL!) and told me that she would change my schedule at the end of the semester, which I was MAJORLY happy for! Fuck Chem. I can just take it at a community college! This is my Senior year though, and I really want to enjoy it! LOL so yeah. That's what happened. Wasn't as bad as I thought but *shrug* hey. That's life!
Other than that, nothing else really happened. However, Bella was being pretty awesome today. We had a talk about Mark and his "habits". She just randomly asked me why I didn't want to invite Mark to her party next Friday. I told her that, even though I'm cool with it if he smokes or what not, I'd prefer not to see it. So we had a talk and she said something that really really stuck to me and that I'm really going to try to work on. She said, "You know, I know you would prefer if he, or even if I, didn't smoke, but you have to realize that it helps us to be more comfortable around people and it means alot to us smokers if people like you were just more cool about it instead of looking down on us. I mean...as long as YOU don't do it, it shouldn't bother you, right?"
This actually really made sense to me. I mean...I could see how much it would bother me if smokers didn't respect the fact that I DIDN'T smoke and they would just put me down all the time instead of being cool with it. So I told her that I would really try to be more cool and understanding and more loose instead of so uptight. Which I admit, I can be. LOL! However, I'm still not going to invite Mark. I'm just not ready yet, you know? At least let me get comfortable first! LOL!!!
Anyway, after that, went to 5th period and then came home and was on the computer for a while. LOL! A LONG while! And then I realized that freakin' NO ONE was on! And not even Mark was on! Usually he pops on, says Hi and we have a small lil' chat. But then I remembered he'd be out of town this whole weekend...so I was like, "Erf." It's funny though. I've gotten pretty used to talking to him or at least saying hi and stuff. *Shrug* O well. Monday tho! I see him Monday! WEE! LOL!
LOL anyway...I'm gonna Jaa. You ever have that feeling in your arm where it feels as if there's no circulation, but your hand is really hot? And your arm kinda hurts? LOL! Yeah, well...that's how my hand feels. o__O;; LOL! Oi. Anyway, until next time! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 09:52 p.m.
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*doki doki* on Thursday, November 21, 2002
Right Here Waiting...for Pie.: Zeid has a very good theory about why women think men are confusing.
Basking in the sounds of: Yaida Hitomi - My Sweet Darlin'
This song makes you wanna bounce. Seriously. *Bounce bounce* LOL! Not like...in..."Homie G" bounce. But more like..."Happy Happy!" bounce! LOL! Okay. Shutting up.
Anyway, today was a rather good day! I FINALLY got my motherfuckin' license and I got two more viewpoints on my "Mark Situation".
First viewpoint...Bella. LOL! It was funny...I was telling her everything that happened and then she just gave me this look and asked, "So...what was confusing about it?" And I said, "I don't know if he likes me or not."...And then she started laughing!! LOL!! And she says, "Are you that braindead? It seems kinda obvious that he's showing interest." LOL, okay, so I somewhat accepted it. But what we both were stuck on was trying to let Mark know I was interested also, but not scare him off. And I'm STILL not really...convinced he likes me. I mean. Shit. No one has ever really had a crush on me before. It's kinda unbelieveable. I feel like I'm lying to myself!! LOL! Sad yes. But *shrug* it's true.
LOL! Then, when I got home, I got Zeid's viewpoint on it. He also said that, from what I said, it sounds like he's interested as well. *Sigh* I freakin' hope so. But I still can't shake off this feeling that I'm just kidding myself. Erf. Dammit. LOL! Zeid was making me laugh though when he explained why we think men are confusing. LOL! He said something that we get them confused...and we think THEY'RE being confusing because we confused them. LOL! Or something like that! LOL! Too much! Too much.
So yeah...I'm gonna see if I can try to be a little more suttle. Everyone is telling me to smile more and touch more...so let's see what happens! Hope for the best everyone!
Oh yeah! And about my license! So okay, I got my license in MAY of this year and up until today I STILL HAD THE PAPER LICENSE! You know that paper you get right after you pass your behind-the-wheel test? Yeah. Still. So my dad told me to write to Action Line in the newspaper to see if they will do anything about it. So I e-mail the editor and he e-mails back telling me to give him my license number. So I did, and I didn't hear back from him for...maybe four or five days. So today, I check my mail and LO AND BEHOLD! My license!!!! WEEE! I was majorly happy! But that picture....
Eesh. Gotta get that fixed.
Oh yeah! And another good thing happened! I went to the doctor's today for a check up on how I'm doing with the diet and all...and the doc weighs me and everything. So we get back into the room and she goes, "How much weight do you think you've lost? Guess." And I'm like..."Err...five pounds?" And then she goes, "You've lost fourteen pounds!" I was like, FUCK YEAH!! SHOO!! I wasn't even trying, either!! I know I eat less, that's for SURE...but I really didn't think anything about it! WEEE! By prom...I'm gonna look FRICKIN' GOOD!!!!! WEE! I REALLY want to take Mark to prom, too!!! Things between Alfredo and I are kinda awkward now...but we're still cool. But I would totally love to take Mark. Eesh. We'll see, ne?!
Lessee...anything else? Oh yeah! LOL! So I was in school today... and I kinda pulled out my phone just to fiddle with it...and I realized how lonely my phone was. LOL! I was really pining for some e-mails or a voicemail of some sort. LOL! On my AIM profile, I even told people to e-mail my phone if they knew my number!!! I don't think I'm ready to release my cell number to the public. LOL! But yeah...I feel so pathetic asking people to actually call my cell. LOL!!!! Oi.
Right...Well..I think that's it. No one is really online except one of my old buddies, Caroline! WEE! LOL! I hella miss her! She's such a crack up...you want random? She's as random as they come! =D Brosis! *Glomp* =D
Anyway...gonna Jaa.. I really need to try and do my math. I'm still confused about what I want my second semester schedule to be like. I still have time, tho, to raise my Chem and Math grade! I'll definately have to bust my ass. Oi.
Anyway, blog later, if anything interesting happens again! LOL!! JAA!
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Blob... on Wednesday, November 20, 2002
Anata no Pie: Don't you hate when you just...are there? With really no emotion...you're just...there?
Basking in the sounds of: X-Japan - Goodbye(Piano)
I feel so erffy today. Like a blob of nothing. LOL!! I'm not depressed or anything...I just feel...like. Blah. LOL! Not much happened today. I had some cramps, so I think...yeah. You know. TOM is gonna come strollin' into town pretty soon. I hate TOM. Erf.
I've been noticing that I'm not even paying attention in classes anymore. I'm not even TRYING to do homework, either! I've gotten so bad this year. It's horrible! I remember Freshman year I was all about dem grades! Now, I have to do make-up work for Math AND Chem. Erf. I think I'm going to drop Math and just take Chem. I can always retake Math Analysis when I have the time to actually CONCENTRATE on it. As for Chem, I just want to get it over with. I'm done with all my science credits, but in order to get into a good college, you need TWO lab sciences. I know I'm planning on going to the Art Academy, but what if I go to a community college and decide to go to CalPoly or something? Yeahh...so. =P
Micah's SN popped on yesterday and I thought that I might be able to finally get the breakup over and done with, but It turned out that it wasn't him; It was his friend Shawn. I don't know why Shawn feels the need to use Micah's screen name all the time. What a dumbass. Why doesn't he just make his own frickin' screen name!? It's really not that hard.
-___-; Oh well. Whatever.
Oh yeah! And as you may have noticed, I added some stuff to the site. I now put in a "Current Desktop" thingie so you can see what I see everytime I turn the computer on! LOL! Right now, it's Kao-Kao-Chan! Just like the layout! WEE! LOL! Also, the winamp skin isn't too bad either! My only complaint is that I hate the font on it: Comic Sans....Erf. I hate that font. I really do. I don't know why. But yeah...they should have put something a little more....elegant. Or evil looking! Not...Comic Sans. =P
And I also joined two more cliques! WEEE! Well...technically, ONE. The little floating blob was adopted. It's my zodiac sign: ARIES! WOO! And the Squall is some sort of Squall lovers clique. *glomps Squall* *CHUU!* LOL!!
Man...I'm hungry. I should be getting ready for work...erf. Okay. Here I go. =P Blog later...if anything interesting happens. LOL! Jaa!
~ Had more Pie around 10:07 PM ~
Okay. I'm fuckin' confused now. Fo real. Just hear me out.
So today...I came in, rite? And Barrie, being the good buddie she is, told me she really wanted to tell me something. So, with all this anticipation, I was DYIN' to know what she meant. So finally, she comes out and she tells me.
Turns out she had worked with Mark yesterday and apparently, almost every 10 minutes, Mark would go up to her and say, "Barrie...I had an AWESOME time on Friday." (Homecoming night). LOL The first time he said this, Barrie said that she told him, "Oh! That's great!" The second time, Barrie just said it was great, again. She said she wanted to tell him to shut up. LOL! Third time, Barrie finally asked him if I looked good that night. And, being Barrie...she asked him like this:
"OOh! So how did she look? I mean, did she look hot? I saw the red shirt and everything and it looked good! Did she wear a push up bra, ya know?"
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This, needless to say, freaked Mark out and he just kinda replied with, "Uuhhh...whhaattt??"...ya know. In that shy, bashful tone. LOL God...leave it to Barrie. *Glomps Barrie* Still love her tho! =D
Oh yes. And In addition to that, Mark wasn't supposed to work. I dun think he was even on the schedule today! It was just gonna be Me, Barrie, Elena and Natalie. Okay. So while I was in the bathroom changing, I hear Cliff (One of Two bosses...the other being Linda) answer the phone and say, "Oh, hi Mark!" LOL so of course, being me, I stopped what I was doing and listened. Apparently Mark had asked if he was needed today. This confused me a little because he had said he was sick and not feeling good. But then I thought about him probably needing money, so I was like whatever...YIPPIE FOR ME! LOL!!!!
So I was all happy, he was comin' to work and all. And so...I was waiting 'til 8 when he would come...so he did! But he sounded sick and just looked tired. He'd finally finished that damn report, so I was happy for him. =D And he was kinda just joking around, not being as mean as he was with the guys. I think he's just one of those types that gets along better with girls. I mean...a BIG majority of his good friends...are girls.
Okay, so yeah. Anyway, so we worked...we closed. Then, while I was refilling the fudge and caramel, everyone was standing around waiting and Mark just busts out, "Yeah, Abby and I are going on a double date! Huh, Abby?" and I said, "Yuuup!" I think this caught a few people off guard. Humm...even me! I think Barrie asked him a few questions about that and he just answered vaugely...I dunno. I couldn't hear that well. So anyway, Lalala after that, I just kinda mumbled that I needed to call my dad to pick me up. So Mark just turned around and offered me a ride. LOL which...of course I didn't even think twice about rejecting. LOL!! So yeah, we all left together out the same exit. While Elena, Mark and I were walking to Mark's car (Mark gave Elena a ride to her car) Elena was commenting on how much Mark must have put into his car. And Mark says, "Well, I might as well put my money into something since I don't have a girlfriend."...
Yeah...hummm...exactly.
BUT! I'm kinda thinking that MAYBE Mark might be interested in Elena. Why? Fawk...I dunno. It might just be my imagination too...just...running away with me. But I dunno. Whatever. So yeah...we dropped off Elena, yadda yadda and then we left off to my house. And guess who called him?
Oh yeah. The Stalker. LOL!! I HELLA wanted to answer it! And then he was like, "Yeah...You could have said, 'Yeah Hi...this is Mark's Ho...'" and...as he said that...he just...rested his hand on my leg. Just for a moment tho. Yeah...prolly just a simple guesture he didn't even mean. But...still. And then he said that most of his friends were girls. Hmmm. After that though, he was telling me how his Stalker was saying, "Eww, I guess he decided to take some Senior to homecoming." And he was just like, "Yeah...I was like, "Fuck...whatever." Thought that was nice though =) I'm really happy to hear that he had so much fun...He said on the double date, we're gonna have fun too! I hope I can make it that much fun again...Anyway...
So. What I want to know, ladies and gentlemen...is
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?!?!?!?!?!?!
Does he LIKE me?! Well...I know he likes me...but as WHAT?! Friend?! Potential GIRLFRIEND?! WHAT?!?!......
FAWK!!!!!
Guys...*pout* what do I do? I'm hella lost. I've never really been in this sort of situation. Mark, is such a nice guy...so sweet. And to hear Barrie tell me everything Mark was saying was so...overwhelming. I felt as if I was floating after that. It makes me smile, even now, just to think about it. I just want to know where I stand with him...that's all. I want to know if I should pursue this, or just stop and accept him as a friend. *sigh* He even calls me Abster. LOL!! I mean...that doesn't sound like a big deal...but the ONLY people who call me that are my dad and my sister. NO ONE ELSE!!!! But he does...even after I told him that, he just smiled and said, "Well, I like it. Absterrr!"....
*Bangs head on desk* I'm going to go think. Or. Do homework. Something. I just...need to go now. I'm not sad or anything, LOL. Just...
confused.
Jaa.
She was craving pie @ 03:55 p.m.
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I want...Pocky... on Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Because I was Pie...: It's weird how your emotions change over time.
Basking in the sounds of: BLACKstreet - Don't Leave Me, Girl
This song was stuck in my head for two weeks STRAIGHT. No Joke. It's an awesome sing to karaoke to, tho! BLACKstreet...damn...memories. Anyone remember "No Diggity"!? Fawk...Old Skoo.
So today, I was reading my past blogs in The Second Slice and I was just laughing about how things have changed in such a short time. I went from seriously liking Micah to the point of love, to just thinking of him as a friend. If I were to tell him "I love you"...I'd feel...awkward. Even Alfredo, I don't feel the same for him. He's another friend! But Mark...LOL. I went from "lusting" to liking...ALOT! Very weird. All of you who have blogs, go back and read your past entries! You'll probably be a little suprised. =)
O yeah!! I was also thinking of starting a downloads page! I have some funny L'Arc vids that I would really love to share with everyone! There was one where Hyde was meeting Megumi (his current wifey...I think...) and Tetsu was trying to get Hyde to ask for her number! LOL! But Hyde thought Tetsu said "Tobacco". LOL! Dumbass. I also have a few very RANDOM moments of Ken-Chan! LOL! Ken is so damn hilarious! He looks so serious in pics...but he's awesome. I also wanna post up the vid of Hyde and Ken re-doing a Japanese movie with Puffy. It's funny too! Humm...We'll see...
Mmmmmm...Kupo Noodles! That's my new word for "Cup O Noodles". Erf... I work tomorrow. I kinda want to, but then I kinda don't. I really like just chillin' here at home, being all laid back. Although...I get bored faster. I really do love a fast-paced life! I've always wanted to be all secret agent like and have the government come after me. LOL! Don't ask why...but don't movies like "Enemy of the State" seem so cool?! LOL! I would love to have been him in that situation. At least he gets away as the hero! And you get to uncover secrets and use all this high tech crap! *bounce bounce* LOL!
O yeah! So while I was waiting for the water to boil for my Kupo Noodles, I found a box of unopened ALMOND CRUSH POCKY! I was saving it to send Micah, but then I had a little chat with myself. I mean...hell...was I REALLY gonna send a box of chocolate covered sticks to another state?! I don't think it would have made it! So...I ATE THEM...and DAMN! I forgot how GOOD Pocky was!! Especially Almond Crush! *drool* I have two little packages left...I'm wolfing them down after my Kupo Noodles. *muahahaha!*
Hmm...well. I think thats about it for now. Gonna go putz around the internet. Blog later if there's anything to blog about! LOL!! JAA!
She was craving pie @ 03:20 p.m.
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*twiddling my thumbs* on Monday, November 18, 2002
Basking in the sounds of: Pachabel - Canon in D
1Tym I had 1Pie: Ever feel like you've seen everything on the internet? I have.
Frickin A. I'm so damn bored. There's nothing to look at online...my TV is in the living room...but my computer is in my room, so I'm not even gonna go to the living room. Tried to download an animated ringtone to my phone but it kept fucking up...-____-; Earlier, tho, I was hella Karaoking!!! I love doing that! Blasting up the Comp. Speakers and just BELTING out!
~ About an hour later... ~
Bella just dropped by with Shelly. LOL, they were both hi-z-gh, but kinda funny. LOL! She came over to clean her dress since she needs to return it in order to throw her "mini-party". It came out pretty good!
So yeah...I'm here bored again. I was talking to Shafqat, Eht's sister, but she signed off. =( *Waves* Hi Shaf! Hi Eht! *chee*
I can't believe it's already gonna be the end of the 12 week grading period! It's nuts! The Big Bone game (THANKSGIVING!) is NEXT WEEK! ERF! I was supposed to get some pumpkin ice cream pies for Thanksgiving, but I think I'm gonna be broke. That sucks. Also, My phone bill is due this week. Everything is due the week I DON'T get paid! -___-;; Homecoming really drained me. I had about 180 bucks and now all I have is 11 bucks. *sigh* Money sucks. Oh well.
I'm kinda craving some Cup O' Noodles right now. I had some salmon with a crab cake thingie earlier, but the salmon was really dry and the crab cake tasted erffy. LOL!
*pouts* I want the pictures from homecoming already!!! Everyone says we'll probably get them the week before Christmas Vacation. *Cry* I'm SOOOOO curious and anxious to see how we turned out!! The photographer put us in kinda a funny pose, but I think it came out better than I think. =)
Today during school, though, I was thinking about the situation with Mark. I really would like to say and maybe believe that he does like me, but I know deep down, he really doesn't; He sees me as a really cool girl that's fun to go out with and just have fun. I know I said I wouldn't analyze anything, but it's frickin' HARD! There's some things he does that...I dunno...
Damn. Am I ever going to get a decent boyfriend? Fawk...I don't think I'm...ya know...HIDEOUS! I think I'm pretty decent! And Hell, I think I'd be a cool girlfriend! I'm funny, laid-back, very understanding, not clingy, smart (to an extent...J/kin! LOL!!!), supportive, nice, loyal...sheesh. Are those...BAD qualities??
I remember a while ago...when I was talking to Mark and Eht about girls. They were all complaining about why are all the good girls with dickhead guys. Then I retorted by asking why all the nice guys were with bitchy girls. Then I said, "No. All you guys look for are looks. That's all you look for." Then they said, "No! That's not true!" and here I go saying, "Yeah it is! Don't even TRY to tell me that when you look at a girl you say 'Oh! She looks like she has a nice personality! I think I'll go say hi!' No. You say, 'Oh, check her out. She's hot. I wanna bang her.'" WHICH YOU KNOW IS TRUE ALL YOU GUYS WHO READ THIS BLOG! And then they said, "No. Looks aren't everything. Even if she was decent looking, but had a really great personality, I would totally go for her."
I think that's what I'm grasping onto; The hope that he'll see my personality... or whatever. LOL! *sigh* This sucks. Guys suck, too. LOL! I wish I could read minds...
Anyway...I'm really craving the cup o noodle now and I think I'm gonna work on a new layout. This blue is so...blah. *Glomps Hisa-Chan* LOL! Welp...blog later! JAA!
~ Had more Pie around 11:04 PM ~
Erf. Right now...I'm being the hugest slacker. I'm not doing my homework...not concentrating on anything! Just being...a slacker!!! This sort of has me worried about my future in a college. I really want to go to college, but I don't have the grades, nor the incentive to really go out there and start applying and ish. I know I want to get into the Art Academy for sure, but if not...then what? I guess I'll be shakin' my ass over to community college, ne? LOL! I guess it won't be so bad... I can handle community college. Maybe I'll get into SJ State...erf. Grades. Stupid. Stupid.
Ah, yesh! Auwon has a new layout! It's so bootyful! *Jealous* LOL! And Crystal has a tagboard now! Wee!! LOL! Exciting-ness!
LOL Mark just IMed me...and signed off. He was on for, I swear, a minute, told me g'night, and then left. I didn't even get a chance to respond! LOL! Poor guy. He gets sooo many headaches and he has a 20 page essay due. I think it's this week when it's due. What's it about? Fawk...some kind of engineering thing. You should hear him say the subject title! I feel so humble and...dumb. LOL!
Erf. I was gonna blog about something else...Bah. I dunno. All I know is that I've gotta get my Chemistry make-up work before the grading period is due. I haven't been to that class for like...a week and a half! Yeah. I'm bad. =( But hey! At least I don't sleep in class anymore! =D
Anyway, I'm off to bed. I have to study my lines for the play we have to perform tomorrow. I swear...my english class is like a drama class: it sucks. =P
Anywhoo...Oyasumi! Jaa!
She was craving pie @ 03:34 p.m.
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