hao lei ah!

so tired. super bad luck, got e big-sized girl as my partner in one of the bouts again. she throws ppl super hard, kinda jumps on them. and then she squashes e last breath out of ya until u turn blue or manage to gasp "get off me!!!!!" my gosh... if she ever becomes my regular partner youre gonna be visiting me in the hospital for broken ribs. not kidding.

anyway. band concert tmr. how fun. i like concerts. and lessons are gonna be over after jus 5 blocks!! alrrrright..

sorry da ge for not being able to be treated by ya.. it's jus that these few days and the following wk are gonna be pure madness. i wont even cya around to begin with... sucks huh. but come june i'll surely be free for you :)

i left a message for you on Thursday, May 22, 2003 at 09:04 p.m.

the volcano erupted

ive done it yet again- got really angry w my classmates. all the males ones, especially the one i call my twin brother. dont know why it happened, felt like i was being picked upon way too much. and i didnt want them to drag up my past cos it might embarrass ppl other than me. anyway it was nice to have e guys calling and msging to apologise. i promise i'll try not to let it happen again.

went to slack ard sixth ave with peishan, she's a real chili (or is it chilli??) padi! and i mean that in the nicest way possible. good to have her in my ccas. hungry now... so cheerio.

i left a message for you on Wednesday, May 21, 2003 at 07:20 p.m.

emily

my dear, so what if our friendship is only based on our shared past rather than the present moment? admittedly we cant be there for each other at that very moment when our hearts break or e ground crumbles beneath our feet. but who can be there all the time? we're learning the hard way that there's no such person. it is never an obligation to say that you are my best friend... you just are.

i left a message for you on Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 08:43 p.m.

honestly speaking

i like being honest. i like being able to tell my friends to piss off and shut up when i really mean it. and i like knowing that they wont take offence cos thats how we communicate.

i wish ppl would be honest with me and let me into their hearts. yet i always find myself sitting alone at one end of my universe wondering what the hell is happening.

do i sound bad tempered and confused? its cos i am.

i asked serene's magic 8 ball if i was f***ed up right now and it said "yes, decidedly so". someone up there's playing a joke on me.

i left a message for you on Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 01:01 p.m.

trying not to think of you

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere

You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cos every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cos you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognise the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me

Away from me

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
There never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

strawberry pocky make my day


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go here for some test on ur ideal partner.. pretty accurate for most of it: www.attraction.match.com. wont share my results here cos its quite private isnt it?? :)

you must be wondering why jo suddenly went mad and took so many online tests. she will tell you she doesnt know, and go back to work on her interact project as she should.

i left a message for you on Thursday, May 15, 2003 at 06:25 p.m.

im no longer a part of your world

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Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

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started the day off feeling great, fine and dandy. and gradually as the day wore down it went downhill. things happened, things which are not in my discretion to speak of, but things which concern those i do love. i cannot profess to know these ppl well, it has only been 4.5 short months, but it aches me to see them in a cat-and-mouse game with me knowing full well how they feel.

and when i think of myself, i dont think im any better off. i suppress issues and feelings deep down which manifest in sudden tears and angry outbursts. it seems these days i go to the extremes easily, i feel so unbalanced sometimes. im sick of second-guessing myself all the time, but i guess it comes from not knowing yourself well enough. i pride myself for living an open life, one in which i trust everyone with everything that concerns me. ask and i will tell. but how do i do that when i tell myself little lies? and no-one knows, save one. the one who ought to, doesnt and can never know.

the ppl i love are away from me, and yes it is always at the back of my mind. just like i cannot tolerate personal failure, i cannot withstand separation. so many are living in a world cut off from mine, that once i step into theirs for a single day, i am suddenly, immensely sad.

it breaks my heart to think of what could have been. having given so much to be where i am now, i cannot let go. but just for today, let me wonder if it was worth it.

i left a message for you on Wednesday, May 14, 2003 at 08:11 p.m.

trg

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
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haha i think the bit on high dependency explains why im forver clinging on to that bear in class. its like a bad habit i cant shake off.

aha! im so proud of myself. survived judo PT today. those guys are psychotic i tell u... any hc person who has ever walked in on a PT session can tell u that :) anyway, the other girls were damn nice to me, encouraging me and stuff, telling me i was fitter than they ever were when they first joined. am not such a sucker to think that im zai, but it really does help. im waiting for the aches to set in :p

my new friend and i were discussing why e arts ppl in hc dont really speak in chinese while almost everyone else does over here. i think it's sad that when i suddenly lapse into chinese phrases my normal circle of friends will go blank on me and tell me to stop it. we are all chinese right? i know i know... ppl who know me well will be surprised at what ive just said. but my mindset is changing lah.

wah havent chatted online for a damn long time. it really frees up time to do other stuff though... so i dont mind much. there's HSSRP to be done tonight. better come up w some gd shit or my mentor will yell at me in dome tmr. tata.

i left a message for you on Tuesday, May 13, 2003 at 08:12 p.m.

math... and soccer.. and ld.. and weight

todays math test was quite a joke. i left 1/3 of the paper blank, so i really wonder if i can pass. anyway mr chai was damn funny, said it didnt matter if we failed one or two tests. and also that if we hadnt studied over the weekend there's not point mugging an hour before the test. "just go in and enjoy yourself". haha... what a hilarious tutor.

i think hc lost the soccer match to nj. thats what i gathered from my bus ride home today anyway. so sad, wish they could get into the 2nd round but i guess no chance now.

going rj tmr to sell tickets for LD production. missing 3 hours of precious curriculum time. ALRIGHT! anyway u rj ppl better come entertain me and buy tix.

i dont know why im so hungry nowadays. i eat at every break and i snack in b/n. why oh why... i swear i only eat when my stomach calls me. why is it calling me so often??

my take on the weight issue: it doesnt matter as long as i dont look fat.

i left a message for you on Monday, May 12, 2003 at 09:14 p.m.

sian diao

today was thoroughly sian... i only did a math tutorial, spent the rest of the day finishing "Lucky", which is pretty riveting, but nowhere as good as The Lovely Bones. anyway, i just found out that i'm NOT skipping the math lecture test tmr. which means i have a few hours left to mug like hell, or fail real badly. considering that i got 15/100 for not studying for my John Donne test, i think i should at least make a last ditch attempt for math. sian. anyway, just read my friend's blog and realised how she seems 2b fine but actually isn't. what sort of friend am i to not have noticed? fuck. (sorry)

i left a message for you on Sunday, May 11, 2003 at 08:58 p.m.

anything but ordinary

hmm..zzz. interact interview : fun. they asked me lots of funny qns so we ended up talking pretty long... judo was great too... got a nice bloody toenail and cool bruises. am aching all over from being thrown repeatedly, but its fun lah. to ppl who laughed at the idea of me joining judo.. eat that!! i think im staying for good =)

anagram for my full name: juicy jo hung ah lin.

i wonder who ah lin is. hahaha... anyway its at www.anagramsite.com for u bored freaks out there.

Anything But Ordinary

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is this beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
I'm feeling permanent
No way I won't taste it
Dont wanna waste it away

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

i left a message for you on Saturday, May 10, 2003 at 11:39 p.m.

in school

no econs lesson cos mr barnard wants to read the newspapers or smth liddat :) im in the library now, how shiok. khoonliat is sleeping behind me, andre is reading the papers and shuping jus got real bored and walked off.

anyway,had my first trg yesterday. judo is really interesting, totally diff from anything ive ever done b4. ive nvr fully appreciated the amt of confidence it takes to throw your friend and to throw yourself down repeatedly... cool. yongfeng challenged me to a bout, but he's only like a few damn belts above me lah:) still cant cartwheel :p

"im the best im a champion"-khoonliat. i think he had nothing better to say. ok im going back to sleep.

i left a message for you on Friday, May 9, 2003 at 11:11 a.m.

scholarship woes

ok, i was thinking: no, i shouldnt mention on my blog what happened to me today, cos i will just whine and prolong my misery, with the nett result being annoying the poor ppl who already had to put up w me today. but then i just decided: heck, this is my personal space. if i cant vent it out here, where the hell do i take my grievances to? so here goes.

i didnt get my humans scholarship. i didnt check my mailbox yesterday, so i went to sch blissfully not knowing shit. then during CT this afternoon the humans classes got called out by barnard. as i happily stride into LT5, barnard stops me and tells me that he wants to talk to me cos i was one of the surprise cases who didnt get it. and i'm like totally shocked and trying so hard not to show it.

well anyway, after that he told me he's not sure what went wrong since the tutors recommended and ranked me in the top something (probably the top 46). so he would check with mr ang cos he was on the panel. and he told me to apply for the hwachong scholarship cos my grades were gd enough. right.

the thing is, the hwachong one is much harder to get since i gotta compete with like all the top science students. plus there'll still be another round of interviews. so the chances are low in my mind. and i havent even gotten the application form yet.

i guess what gets me most is the feeling that ppl who didnt give a damn abt the scholarship got it.

i left a message for you on Wednesday, May 7, 2003 at 08:46 p.m.

of math and sewing escapades

went to the s7 lecture for math today. its quite nice. mr chai beats boo hands down... plus the lt is so big u can sleep and no one would care :) i thot it was funny when the guy nxt to me kept looking at my work and asking me how to do xxx qn. i mean like hello? youre a damn tripsci student i should be asking u that!! :P

did an hour plus of sewing today for the LD banner. now i really appreciate that invention called the sewing machine cos u cant imagine how many times i broke the thread or stabbed my finger... sad case man. anyway it was stress-reducing cos i jus stoned out while doing it.

gah.. got econs and lit tests this wk. i really wonder how we're spposed to study for lit. read the 20++ poems back to front, over and over again? or what? jeez, i hope it's just for fun/ so hard tt no one can do it even if they mugged. bwahah im evil.

i left a message for you on Monday, May 5, 2003 at 08:01 p.m.

a room with a view

"But you do. You love the boy body and soul, plainly, directly, as he loves you, and no other word expresses it. You won't marry the other man for his sake."

"He is already part of you. Though you fly to Greece, and never see him again, or forget his very name, George will work in your thoughts till you die. It isn't possible to love and to part. You will wish that it was. You can transmute love, ignore it, muddle it, but you can never pull it out of you. I know by experience that the poets are right: love is eternal."

i left a message for you on Sunday, May 4, 2003 at 03:33 p.m.

super sunday

forgot to blog yest :) xmen was pretty cool, barring the fact that i got a freaking 3rd row seat and was sandwiched b/n two rows of little (k so theyre physically quite big) SJI boys who were annoying... but anyway, i didnt pay for it so why am i complaining right? i think iceman is extra... but cute in a little boy way. cyclops remains as gd eye candy, but he's irritatingly lovesick! like no backbone...and cant put up a gd fight.

brooding is bad for your health! i'm trying to cheer up cos the "cheer up" msges i get are way too many... i blame it on the hormones, but then again i'm always doing that :)

bedtime reading: the history of the EU. no, im not trying to get smart... it's for the research paper lah. quite fun, though the system is super mind-boggling. and dun think i'll be able to avoid reading up on the CAP, which is *gasp* actually relevant to my econs syllabus! finally hssrp is getting useful.

had the SATs diagnostic test yest. it's not diff but it's very tiring. you only get like 1 min breaks b/n sections.. oh well... hope i score decently so i wont be forced to mug the vocab lists.

dear friend: when we both start weeping on the phone it borders on the absurd, but its super cathartic anyway. oh and thanks for your little speech, it came off sounding quite corny haha, but i was really touched nevertheless. will treat you to green tea next time ;)

i left a message for you on Sunday, May 4, 2003 at 01:00 p.m.

gah

i feel so gahh today. got pissed off not once but twice. first time was after a stupid argument sparked off by the stupidest of things- the PW file. dont even ask how and why that got me pissed.. it just did. felt like everyone was out to contradict me. i totally lost my temper though weixiang and khoonliat didnt really deserve it. if youre reading this, sorry guys. though i get suanned and bullied alot, my tolerance level remains pretty darn low.

have decided i really like the 14 ppl. bridging and playing murderer w those ppl really makes sch tt much more fun.



i left a message for you on Friday, May 2, 2003 at 06:57 p.m.

flotsam and jetsam on yet another holiday


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another rainy day! rainy days suck when youre at home trying NOT to fall asleep so that u can study for that tough econs test tmr. supposedly it's gonna differentiate who can make it and who can't in econs. so yes, why do i even bother? i know full well the fellas next door are gonna push me right down to no. 46...

my elf name: Alatáriël Tinúviel
looks like a nice name except i wouldnt know how to pronounce it :) and my hobbit name: Myrtle Proudneck of Tuckborough. haha... the hobbit name sounds cuckoo... no way as cool as the elf one. here's the site to go find ur own: http://www.chriswetherell.com/elf/

oh i chanced upon this song again. it's pretty old and damn sad but i love it.

Still- macy gray

In my last years with him there were bruises
On my face
In my dawn and new day
I finally got away
But my head's all messed up and he knows
Just what to say
No more dawn and new days
I'm goin back to stay
Why say bye bye
When it only makes me cry
I still
Light up like a candle burnin when he call me up
I still
Melt down like a candle burnin everytime we touch
Oh say what you will
He does me wrong and I should be gone
I still
Be lovin you baby and it's much too much

We are goin down
Cuz you're always getting high
And your crumb and lovin
No longer get me by
Wow! It get better everytime that we get high
Then your crumbs of lovin
They somehow get me by
Why say bye bye
When it only makes me cry
I still
Light up like a candle burnin when he call me up
I still
Melt down like a candle burnin everytime we touch
Oh say what you will
He does me wrong and I should be gone
I still
Be lovin you baby and it's much too much

Can't I go my severed way?
Some rain for my sunny day
Not even one reason to stay
Why?
I should've left you
Why?
I can't forgetcha baby
Why?
Ever since I metcha it's
Why?

i left a message for you on Thursday, May 1, 2003 at 02:00 p.m.

all about the interview

it was quite fun! mr "huMANAties" ang, our dear hc principal, was on the panel. i had to suppress a giggle when he asked "why did u take the huMANAties instead of the sciences" oops. and when he asked qns, none of us really knew what the heck he was asking us cos u know, his engrish is quite un-understandable. but he's a nice guy and it was reassuring to have had him there.

think i came across as a bit of an airhead (my greatest fear and dont tell me i am) cos they asked me if i could act (were talking abt LD) and i said "hmm, i don't think so" very seriously. somehow they all found that really amusing and they laughed :) other than that, i got pretty regular questions and nothing too intellectual on current affairs. thank gdness.

hope the results will be out soon... cos i wanna know if i get more $$$ to buy bks! i need to go novel-shopping this week :) oh, and also cos i wanna know who the 2nd intakers are. those poor fellas are gonna have a heckofalot to catch up on...

still feeling rather down... deep down the feeling hasnt really gone away and it sucks :(

i left a message for you on Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 06:15 p.m.

questions

why do some of us struggle so hard to validate our existence? we set such high expectations for ourselves that coming in second rarely pleases us (though we wouldnt admit it to the world). my friend says its an ego thing. well, that's probably true but to leave it at that does no justice to anyone. beyond that, many of us are searching for our unique identity, our true self. we want to find a niche where we can excel spectacularly, not just because we want to win, but also because it helps us feel like we're someone. who wants to be just another face in the crowd?

unfortunately for us, we live in a world where silly things act as benchmarks for our value as humans. it's like attaching monetary value to certain things ppl deem to be worthwhile or glam. $50 for one A1, $100 for an EXCO position. oh and throw in a bonus $1000 for getting into the top JC. add it up and you get the sum of your existence. but life is more than an aggregation of such accomplishments. being 17 and 2 months old, i cant presume to know what life is really about. i only know that i've learnt the hard way that many of my assumptions, the way in which ive lived life, is flawed.

i left a message for you on Monday, April 28, 2003 at 08:31 p.m.

whee


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i left a message for you on Sunday, April 27, 2003 at 04:26 p.m.

oh yay

pitas is back! or at least i can see my own entries now :) too bad my own comp has smth wrong w some network shit and i cant go online.. so i have to resort to using my brothers comp to log on. and no one is fixing it for me!! where have the men in my house gone? bah.

hssrp yesterday, i left feeling quite on about it. mentor is dr muffett, i'd prefer to call him dr muppet though. anyway, he seems knowledgeable and he doesnt take crap (said so himself). but he's funny. i like his style :) he's forcing us to do at least 2 hrs of solid research a week. yeah i know that sounds like nothing much but trust me it is.

Lit buffs: if you can't place the following from a recent movie u are a sad case lit buff. shame on you!

The water is cold, but not unbearably so. She pauses, standing in cold water up to her knees. She thinks of Leonard. She thinks of his hands and his face, the deep lines around his mouth. She thinks of Vanessa, of the children, of Vita and Ethel: So many. They have all failed, haven't they? She is suddenly, immensely sorry for them. She imagines turning around, taking the stone out of her pocket, going back to the house. She could probably return in time to destroy the notes. She could live on; she could perform that final kindness. Standing knee-deep in the moving water, she decides against it. The voices are here, the headache is coming, and if she restored herself to the care of Leonard and Vanessa they won't let her go again, will they? She decides to insist that they let her go.

i left a message for you on Sunday, April 27, 2003 at 11:19 a.m.

what the f...

i dont get it. can ppl read what i post or cant they? how come some ppl seem to be able to? if this continues indefinitely i will hafta switch to blogger... :( can someone leave smth on my tagboard if they can read this entry??

anyway, ive been sleeping a lot lately. there's nothing better to do really. maybe im onto a growth spurt (i wish). oh yeah we got 2nd for acjc lit! im happy! but we lost to vjc which im pretty damn sore over :p now let's just hope there's some prize money involved...



i left a message for you on Wednesday, April 23, 2003 at 06:49 p.m.

didnt make it

hmm yeah i didnt get elected. was really worked up about it in school.. but luckily for me friends and seniors were around. talked to them for a couple of hours... and they were really a great help. thanks u guys. helped me think it through a lot.

oh another note, e LD production is starting work nxt wk :) how fun. i signed up for set pdtion..

i left a message for you on Wednesday, April 16, 2003 at 09:00 p.m.

man is born free but is everywhere in chains

im sure i quoted that wrongly :) anyway. my chains are off me for now cos ive got no more studying to do for a long time! alright.. i love going back to slacking.

elections are tmr. im not scared of the Q and A session, im jus scared i wun get voted in. so in other words, im quite scared. (sheesh) anyway, if i dun get in ive still got my other CCAs.. jus that i cant slack in them anymore :)

hey da ge i havent talked to ya in some time. how strange that we share the same classrm but seldom meet these days. anyway, i'll write soon i promise. soon as this council fiasco is over.

hey moon friend. i agree with what u said as usual. lets talk this weekend or smth... hope ure happy with life.

k enough of my personal msges. back to slacking. :)

i left a message for you on Tuesday, April 15, 2003 at 10:04 p.m.

a special request for fuzz & jo to lead the Science cheer

heyo. abt the title of todays entry: khoon liat's brilliant idea for our impromptu item, seconded by 3 or 4 other classmates. talk abt getting saboed! today's thingy went quite ok, i mean we didnt screw up and malu ourselves, but we weren't fantastically entertaining either. dunno whether that counts when ppl cast their vote? who knows.

anyways, the first part of history test was pretty jialat. i went on a long rambly narrative of events which was probably 1.) not chronological and 2.) inaccurate. unless Miles by some miracle decides he likes my approach i don't forsee myself doing well. but that's ok. right now i've got the 2nd essay to worry about. ppl are telling me to chill :)

first thing im gonna do tmr aft sch is get some sleep. am running on spare batteries now.. within 24 hours i will spontaneously combust. off to napoleon..

i left a message for you on Monday, April 14, 2003 at 09:05 p.m.

jus a quickie

cos i gotta go read stuff. i still have achievements of jacobin and fall of robespierre to go before i magically make an essay outline appear. (before the Essay Syndicate jumps on me. yeah there really is one.. i'm not making it up. the members are lean and mean i tell ya.)

so anyway, i think phone calls from gd friends are one of the best things on earth. talking for just 5 minutes to someone u havent seen from in a while, making that familiar connection with him/her again... it just dissipates stress like nothing else can. u know who u are; u made my morning better.

nominees' intro tmr, first 4 blocks are cancelled for it. listen to my speech and pretend that i'm good! (heck i should go convince myself first) tata..

i left a message for you on Sunday, April 13, 2003 at 07:15 p.m.

zzz

have had a busy busy day, have used both brawn and brain, however little i have of both (must be why im so exhausted yes).

i can already see my history grades for the nxt two essays: two lovely 'E's...

*Falls asleep at keyboard*

i left a message for you on Saturday, April 12, 2003 at 10:27 p.m.

stressin

hello. u know its not true when they say humans ppl are slack. we are lah... but once there's a history test the stress level shoots up and breaks the ceiling :( the sheer bulk of the accumulated (not to mention undone) work is overwhelming.

todays afternoon pe was damn shag. thank gdness she was a relief pe teacher! if not every friday die before i go home.

kays... i shud go type out mua history notes and try to stuff it in my brain. tata.

thamina if ure reading this i wonder if we're still playing badminton tmr? i think i need to play to release tension. :)

my dear lonely friends, this goes out to you: we all wanna be loved. but you don't go looking for love... so wait a little longer, the right person will be worth your patience. the worst thing to do is shortchange yourself and dismiss yourself as cannot make it before u even find her.

i left a message for you on Friday, April 11, 2003 at 10:30 p.m.

hello madam, what do you think of the red light industry in Denmark?

the title is my quote of the day from barnard :) he told us to go around asking ppl that to survey for this econs project entitled "effects of taxation on the red light industry in Europe" or smth like that haha...

yes, it's a joke.

we ended school at 11.25am today. i kid u not. tt's like super shiok cos even primary sch kids dun get dismissed that early! the bad thing is, friday is now a longer day.. oh well.

got history test on tues... i'd better start seriously mugging today or i will die stressing up over the weekend. hmm and i saw my friend's les friend on the bus today. she said hi and bye so i guess she isnt as dao as she looks. maybe one day i'll even find out her name! :)

i like the sch blouse. mine stays in place while serene's just won't. since we tuck it in the exact same way and we wear the same size, i can only conclude that i have wider hips. or maybe (probably) im just more zai. :)

sometimes i wonder if i cry so much because im plain miserable and my heart is telling me to quit or if im just frustrated with the way things are. strangely enough, once i sleep on it all the troubles disappear.

a nice quote which reminded me of smth i was talking to a dear friend abt:

The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt.
Thomas Merton (1915 - 1968)

i left a message for you on Thursday, April 10, 2003 at 04:35 p.m.

school's in

today has given me much food for thought. i have resolved to:

1.) wash my hands more often- cos got SARS right?
2.) be less petty and more tolerant.. as much as i can without sacrificing my personality.
3.) start doing my maths regularly.
4.) put up a gd show when campaigning.
5.) not waste time.
6.) keep my mood swings to myself- others get affected by my sour face whether i realise it or not.

on another note, we thought part of the chinese opera performance today was about sex. u know.. consumation of the marriage? oh nvm. prob jus a stupid humans thing.

i left a message for you on Wednesday, April 9, 2003 at 08:25 p.m.

teddy grahams

i like the choc chip teddies.. oh and the honey ones too :)

we've jus made 100 little feet advertising jo and fuzz. damn stoned now... but by next wed i'll know if all this campaigning was worth it:)

i shud thank e following ppl for helping us out along e way: emilyn, estelle, serene, jean, shuping, esther, anchyi, emily, weisiang, engsiang, samuel.. thank so much for the time and effort put in, we really appreciate it!

oh joy sch is opening tmr! cant hardly wait. we are wearing our hwachong factory union uniforms for the first time :) hope it aint too hot tho it looks it.

btw, whaddya think of the new format. nice right? of course i didnt do it. *wink*

i left a message for you on Tuesday, April 8, 2003 at 09:43 p.m.