The Dark Cow Of Mystery

Things better left unsaid...
"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." --George Bernard Shaw

It's been a long time, yet it feels like only yesterday that i felt your warm embrace. Our eyes met, a meeting of minds, and for a few brief seconds we were one.
Ah, but it was not ment to be, for we are like ships passing in the night. A chance meeting is all we will ever be, for if we were more, and two became one, we would rip ourselves apart, and our tears would sink us.

"Get a fucking driving manual"That one guy, on Lost Highway

It's as lonely as the space between the stars...
I'm depressed. I think i've got a crush on the German, although it culd just be chemicals(chemicals are good too, right?). I'm going hiking tommorrow(today(saturday)), unless caroline calls and wants to do something. I miss Lisa. My arse is asleep, and in a few minutes so will I. My mind is racing, and my thoughts are jumbled. Took a test in wetli today, and passed. Took a test in Math, bombed it. Taughted to Longer, shadowboxed me, going to the Tetons again, now just need to find some money to pay for the expidition.

Now i wish you all a meaningful life, great, um, yeah, and a marvelous day.

Let us run skyclad through the locker room!
Hey yall!
Watch a incredible movie in computers today."antitrust" is a conspiracy movie(with geeks and sex!) which makes it a good film anyway, but whoa. Gotta see that again, so should you.
Further into issues, i hinted to christina that i just plain don't fucking care anymore about her stupid little problems. She also trys to buy my friendship, which pisses me off. I think she got the message.
I don't care what kind of relationship i end up having with caroline, as long as we are on good terms. I hope i have a chance to get to know her better in the near future.
Joe and i had a deep conversation today. It involved sex, women, Bluecats, life, philosphy and some of joe's disturbing rehab stories.(no, we didn't talk about running through the lockerroom, though i would probably say no, not out of modesty, but with my luck, we'd get expelled, or worse, i'd trip, and get assraped before you could help me)

Summer School is for chumps. Are you a chump or a champ?(i'm a chump)

better late than never
"Maybe it's not the destination, but the journey..."
Harry Kim to shipmates on Voyager

Voyager is over. They amde it home. Who'd of thunk?(besides every nerdy trekky out there). Good episode. Wasn't as good as i thought it would be, though. Why is it that every series has a big final episode were the cast are made to look old? It just doesn't make sense.
Speaking of sense, i don't understand caroline. Does she want to be friends, more, less? The whole thing confuses me(which surpisingly doesn't happen much). She calls me nightly, which i hear is a sign of, uhmm, yeah, but when i talk to her, she more or less ignores me(except in math). Then again, the only class that she sits near me for is math. Probably just splitting hairs.
Hope she passed her drivers test.

Song running through my head. won't stop.The Cure "wrong number", actually just the part about the deep dark secrets of the snakes i hold. It just starts over, seemingly endless, playing on the broken record of my mind.
Deep thanks to andrew for the weezer cd, very good, except the love songs are dragging me down. Still have to reply to several peoples emails. Will get to it when i can. Oh well...

God is mean(yes he is)
Doorbells are brass,
doors are wood,
doorstops are rubber.
who'd of thunk?

The school year is almost over.
Talked to Caroline last night, she's tired.
I miss Lisa. When I see her next, i'll give her a major super big hug.
life is only a place holder

If your friends won't...
Hey yall!
Went to prom. Ate ate spageti factory, took a menu, rode in a limo, danced with Caroline, had fun, went home. That was my evening, more or less.
Actually, the dance was pretty fun, but most people left way early, nearly every body left half an hour early, and by the end, there was only five. Harry potter, lorine(fabbies boyfriend), Jen, Caroline, and i. I was pretty fun, especially when They played 99 red balloons(good remix of original), and all five people started dancing.
My parents drove us home, and i walked her to the door. we hugged, but didn't kiss for my mother was watching me, which disturbed the crap out of me. Wish i had, oh well, no regrets.
Must say jake was right 'bout his suit, Caroline was radiant, Evitas dress was pretty nice, though i would have included a red shawl, blue cat was amazing, and sanity looked pretty good in 'is black suit.
Off to checkup, catch up on mail. toodles

She's all mine.(for the evening)
Tommorrow is prom!!

Although i'm not as excited as i thought i would be, i'm pretty damn excited. I sat behind her in mathematics and it hit me, she's all mine. For the evening of course. And i have to bring her back in good condition to get my deposit back.
Yes, i just compared dates in general to a rental tux. From nearly any perspective, dates are like rentals(except to nudists, who don't neccesarily like clothes). You try out suits till you find one you like, and then you don't give it back till the sales person calls in cousin Eddy to put the heat on, or you purchase/steal/borrow it for a life time. You have some choice between color, shade, texture, fabric and cuff links.

Now remember, all selection subject to change, so check back often.